6 Sept 2018 A tribute in music (Dream)

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you well.  No drawings today – we were blessed with rain.  I’d rather have that then my drawings any day!

I had an interesting dream in the midst of a not very restful night.

It was a dream about random people gathered in a theater paying tribute to a musician by playing one of the musicians songs together.  Each person was playing their own instrument.  It was a short song.  The music was projected on a large screen so everyone could see it to play.

I kind of remembered the song this morning – sounded like something that would be fun for a brass band to play!  It’s gone now, but I enjoyed it for a while this morning.  I think that would a lovely way for ordinary folks to pay tribute to a musician!  Just show up with whatever instrument you play, put the music up and read, set go!  Some of us don’t read music proficiently so we get to just appreciate what we see and hear….may be hum along.  I like to do that.

I couldn’t resist riddling this out in the numbers to see what would come up.

When I see a number go back to 1, it means self to me.  For example music goes back to 1 and that’s pretty  much how music is.  You choose a genre/sound of music you like and you enjoy it.  It doesn’t matter if anyone else does because when you are enjoying it, it’s for you.

The reason I divide a number that doesn’t come out straight away by 2 is thinking of light and shadow, the two sides of ourselves that are employed when we analyze a person, place or thing.  Perspective has two sides and we are biologically incapable of perceiving anything the exact same way.

When  I see a 3 cycle come up, it’s like life, death, rebirth or just the cycles of life.  A lot of times when I like a song, it’s pretty much for life but it can go in cycles.  One day I’ll like the song, the next I don’t but give it a couple days, weeks or even years and I might enjoy it again sort of thing.

When I see a 9 cycle come up, it makes me think of the phrase, “it’s not easy” or doesn’t come naturally as a cycle.  For example high fructose corn syrup = 288/18/9 cycle (the body doesn’t know what to do with this stuff.)

When I see numbers associated with my name or birth date, a personal flag goes up – 02/13/1968.  If I riddle the date Zero Two One Three One Nine Six Eight = 389/20.  If I riddle the date out like Zero Two Thirteen Nineteen Sixty- Eight = 453/12.  If I riddle the date out like Thirteen February Nineteen Sixty- Eight = 427/13.  For fun = 389 + 453 + 427 = 1269/99/18/9 cycle!  20 + 12 +13 = 45/9 cycle.  No matter how you compute it, 9 factors in and is a pretty accurate look at my life.

So here is what came up with the  theme of my dream – what do you see?

https://www.gematrix.org

A Tribute in Music = 184/13/4/2/1

Tribute = 95/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Music = 65/11/2/1

Hear = 32/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Listen = 79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Play = 54/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle 

Sing = 49/13/4/2/1 

Song = 55/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  (kind of how it goes when we are deciding if we like a song)

Write = 75/12/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

Write Music = 140/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (looks the process of writing a song)

Play Music = 119/11/2/1 

Sing a song = 105/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

Play a song = 110/2/1

Hear a song = 88/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Listen to a song = 170/8/4/2/1

Love Music = 119/11/2/1

Music (65) + Sing (49) + Play Music (119) + Play a song (110) + Listen to a song (170) + Love Music (119) = 632/11/2/1 (632 is basically love music)

Hear (32) + Listen (79) + Play (54) + Song (55) + Write (75) = 295/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Write music (140) + Sing a song (105) + Hear a song (88) = 333/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle 

632 + 295 = 927/18/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

632 – 295 = 337/13/4/2/1

632 + 295 + 333 = 1260/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Hard (31) work (67) = 98/17/8/4/2/1

Music (65) Business (108) = 173/11/2/1

Business = 108/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle 

98 + 173 = 271/10/1

Dream (41) Theme (51) = 92/11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or just 2/1

Indian Blanket Flower. ‘Gaillardia pulchella’. The Indian Blanket Flower also known as the Firewheel or the Sundance flower, is the official state wild flower of the State of Oklahoma.

Gaillardia pulchella = 164/11/2/1
Indian Blanket Flower = 195/16/7
Firewheel = 91/10/1
Sundance flower = 160/7
Flower = 79/16/7
Plant = 63/9 cycle
Living Being = 110/2/1
Open Field = 86
Planet = 68
Gift from God = 120/3 cycle (what it is for me)

 

 

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5 Sept 2018 Sentient or Food

Hello.   I hope this finds you well.  I saw this morning that Japan is making a proposal to resume commercial whaling and at first I got really upset.  Then I decided to look at things a little more closely and of course found myself in the hypocrite box.  I eat meat and meat comes from cows which are sentient beings.  I don’t know to what degree they rank up with whales but nevertheless, before I can point a finger at others, I have to remove “the plank in my own eye” on this.    It’s so hard to resist passing judgement on others who don’t believe what we believe and live the way we choose to live.  It’s almost like a reflex, an instinct to do so.  At least it can be that way for me.  It’s when I take a minute to reflect and step back from something and or someone I’m upset about that I realize my part in it.  I realize that I’ve either done something or been someone just like that at some point in my life.  I eventually set aside my anger to find understanding, compassion and even forgiveness.

Matthew 7 New International Version (NIV)

Judging Others

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

“Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

 

As I’ve mentioned before, sometimes when you look at the words we’ve come up with through time to describe certain things, you find some interesting things numerically.  It’s become important to  me to start looking at this because words are what I use to communicate the most, not numbers and yet, if you think about it, numbers are behind a great deal of what we say and do in this world.  The numeric value of a word, I’ve been finding, doesn’t always match what it means by definition.  Since I’ve discovered Gematria, it’s really opened my eyes about the foundations of language and communication.  Take a look at what I’ve put together, what do you see?  Do you see patterns?

https://www.gematrix.org

“What’s your bottom line?” = 275/14/5  “Bottom Line” = 125/8  Money = 72/9 cycle  Survival = 124/Existence = 104/5

Alive = 49/13/4  Sentient = 106/7  self-aware = 90/9 cycle consciousness = 175/13/4  conscience = 90/9 cycle God = 26/8 Soul = 67/13/4

Food = 46/10/5  Body = 46/10/5  Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle  Animal = 50/5  Animals = 69/15/6/3 cycle  People = 69/15/6/3 cycle

Domestic animal = 138

Wild animal = 98

Pet animal = 91/10/5

Food animal = 96/15/6/3 cycle

Some of the beings we farm and or hunt for food:   

whale = 41/5  dolphin = 78/15/6/3 cycle  fish = 42/6/3 cycle  chicken = 53/8  duck = 39/12/3 cycle goose = 61 pig = 32/5  cow = 41/5  goat = 43/7 sheep = 53/8  deer = 32/5  bear = 26/8  wolf = 56/11 dog = 26/8  cat = 24/6/3 cycle = 647/17/8  647-26 = 621/9 cycle

Life = 32 Death = 38  Birth = 57  Rebirth = 80 = 207/ 9 cycle (interesting that same numbers values here are above, 621).   

Hunting = 93/12/3 cycle  Fishing = 72/9 cycle  Whaling = 74/11/2/1  Trapping = 83/11/2/1  Ranching = 74/11/2/1  Breeding = 64/10/1

Farming = 68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  = 528/15/6/3 cycle

Links:

http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/msn/japan%e2%80%99s-bid-to-resume-commercial-whaling-sets-stage-for-fierce-debate/ar-BBMS2pa – Japan’s bid to resume commercial whaling sets stage for fierce debate – Simon Denyer

“Moronuki said the United States is guilty of a double standard by allowing native communities in Alaska to continue whaling while not wanting Japan to do so, even though whaling is a tradition in some communities in Japan.

“All animals are equal,” he added. “Some say whales are intelligent, but I hear that some scientists found that other animals like cows and horses, they are as intelligent as whales. So you must be aware that we cannot draw the line between animals: ‘They should not be killed because they are intelligent, but others, they are not so intelligent, they should be killed.’ ”

Perry rejected that argument.

“Whether whales are sentient or not, they are very difficult to count. They are long-lived, slow-breeding animals. It’s very hard to know if you are depleting the population, and if you do deplete the population, it takes a long time to recover.”

https://www.livescience.com/39481-time-to-declare-animal-sentience.html – After 2,500 Studies, It’s Time to Declare Animal Sentience Proven (Op-Ed)

https://us.whales.org/issues/sentient-and-sapient-whales-and-dolphins – Sentient and sapient whales and dolphins

WDC believes that whales and dolphins are both sentient and sapient individuals, and that they deserve to have both their individual welfare protected and also for their moral and legal rights recognised.

https://science.howstuffworks.com/environmental/conservation/issues/whaling.htm – How Whaling Works

https://www.meatinstitute.org/index.php?ht=d/sp/i/47465/pid/47465 – The United States Meat Industry at a Glance (as of 2013)

https://www.plantbasednews.org/post/are-farm-animals-sentient – Are Farm Animals Sentient?

https://news.vice.com/article/mexican-laborers-want-americans-to-know-who-picks-their-fruits-and-vegetables – Mexican Laborers Want Americans to Know Who Picks Their Fruits and Vegetables

“Day laborers in at least 19 other states in Mexico endure similarly poor working conditions. Some of these workers are among the quarter million people who live under modern-slavery conditions, according to the Walk Free Foundation’s 2014 Global Slavery Index.”

https://www.dirt-to-dinner.com/where-do-our-fruits-and-vegetables-come-from/ – Where Do Our Fruits and Vegetables Come From?

The Bottom Line:

Our fruits and vegetables come from all over the United States, but California leads production by a huge margin. When the season ends in the United States, production shifts to Mexico, Central and South American countries allowing Americans to enjoy many fresh produce items year-round.

 

3 Sept 2018 “The Tree” (Dream)

3 Sept 2018 – Drawing I did last night. It was hard to concentrate. I guess they have started hunting again or something. It’s unnerving to hear gunfire so close to a residential area these days.

Hello to you.  As I write there is very gentle rain and I’m so grateful for that.  It was getting dry here again.

It’s Labor Day again and a day to remember all those laborers of the past who literally died so people of today could have this day off of work:  https://www.history.com/topics/holidays/labor-day – there is video and more information at this link

“Many of these events turned violent during this period, including the infamous Haymarket Riot of 1886, in which several Chicago policemen and workers were killed. Others gave rise to longstanding traditions: On September 5, 1882, 10,000 workers took unpaid time off to march from City Hall to Union Square in New York City, holding the first Labor Day parade in U.S. history.

I stayed in bed a bit longer than Kyle did this morning and had an interesting dream while doing so.  It was about a woman remembering a story about her Grandma asking to speak to “The tree.”  It appeared in her room but she was afraid and then she couldn’t see it.   So she asked again.  Then the woman found her Grandma nearly dying face down on the floor when The Black Tree appeared again, but she was able to wake her, she wasn’t dead yet.

CAT PEOPLE — Irena’s Dream  (One of my cult classic films from childhood)

Source is internet:  3 Sept 2018 – “The tree “in the dream makes me think of Cat People. It looked like a shadow of a tree; a black tree.

My Grandma’s taught me a lot about nature as I was growing up and to respect it – especially the flowers and the trees.  I miss my Grandma Schmidt’s beautiful flowers – especially her giant roses!  I miss my Grandma Becker and our walks in her neighborhood where she would point out her favorite trees and tell me about them.  How each one was an individual and had its own personality just like people.

In my own experience with trees, I would say the same.  I have mourned for trees that were taken in storms or by sickness.  I have sensed when a tree wasn’t feeling well by putting my hands on it.  I have listened to the wind blowing through the trees living around me and hearing a sound like cheering… “Hurray!” but in a whisper.  Through them I have learned about the cycles of life and how there is hope when you look at their life cycles.   Just one tree is a whole eco-system!  I suspect that when you take off your shoes and socks and stand on the ground, you are plugging yourself into the tree network!  Who knows for sure but the God who made all this wonder.

I found this interesting article to share on the subject.  May be there is something in it for you too:

https://qz.com/1116991/a-biologist-believes-that-trees-speak-a-language-we-can-learn/

WHISPERING PINES

A biologist believes that trees speak a language we can learn

By Ephrat Livni November 3, 2017

I’m in a redwood forest in Santa Cruz, California, taking dictation for the trees outside my cabin. They speak constantly, even if quietly, communicating above- and underground using sound, scents, signals, and vibes. They’re naturally networking, connected with everything that exists, including you.

Biologists, ecologists, foresters, and naturalists increasingly argue that trees speak, and that humans can learn to hear this language.

Many people struggle with this concept because they can’t perceive that trees are interconnected, argues biologist George David Haskell in his 2017 book The Songs of Trees. Connection in a network, Haskell says, necessitates communication and breeds languages; understanding that nature is a network is the first step in hearing trees talk.

For the average global citizen, living far from the forest, that probably seems abstract to the point of absurdity. Haskell points readers to the Amazon rainforest in Ecuador for practical guidance. To the Waorani people living there, nature’s networked character and the idea of communication among all living things seems obvious. In fact, the relationships between trees and other lifeforms are reflected in Waorani language.

In Waorani, things are described not only by their general type, but also by the other beings surrounding them. So, for example, any one ceibo tree isn’t a “ceibo tree” but is “the ivy-wrapped ceibo,” and another is “the mossy ceibo with black mushrooms.” In fact, anthropologists trying to classify and translate Waorani words into English struggle because, Haskell writes, “when pressed by interviewers, Waorani ‘could not bring themselves’ to give individual names for what Westerners call ‘tree species’ without describing ecological context such as the composition of the surrounding vegetation.”

Because they relate to the trees as live beings with intimate ties to surrounding people and other creatures, the Waorani aren’t alarmed by the notion that a tree might scream when cut, or surprised that harming a tree should cause trouble for humans. The lesson city-dwellers should take from the Waorani, Haskell says, is that “dogmas of separation fragment the community of life; they wall humans in a lonely room. We must ask the question: ‘can we find an ethic of full earthly belonging?’”

There’s room at the Redwood Inn.

Haskell points out that throughout literary and musical history there are references to the songs of trees, and the way they speak: whispering pines, falling branches, crackling leaves, the steady hum buzzing through the forest. Human artists have always known on a fundamental level that trees talk, even if they don’t quite say they have a “language.”

Redefining communication

Tree language is a totally obvious concept to ecologist Suzanne Simard, who has spent 30 years studying forests. In June 2016, she gave a Ted Talk (which now has nearly 2.5 million views), called “How Trees Talk to Each Other.”

Simard grew up in the forests of British Columbia in Canada, studied forestry, and worked in the logging industry. She felt conflicted about cutting down trees, and decided to return to school to study the science of tree communication. Now, Simard teaches ecology at the University of British Columbia-Vancouver and researches “below-ground fungal networks that connect trees and facilitate underground inter-tree communication and interaction,” she says. As she explained to her Ted Talk audience:

“I want to change the way you think about forests. You see, underground there is this other world, a world of infinite biological pathways that connect trees and allow them to communicate and allow the forest to behave as though it’s a single organism. It might remind you of a sort of intelligence.”

Trees exchange chemicals with fungus, and send seeds—essentially information packets—with wind, birds, bats, and other visitors for delivery around the world. Simard specializes in the underground relationships of trees. Her research shows that below the earth are vast networks of roots working with fungi to move water, carbon, and nutrients among trees of all species. These complex, symbiotic networks mimic human neural and social networks. They even have mother trees at various centers, managing information flow, and the interconnectedness helps a slew of live things fight disease and survive together.

Simard argues that this exchange is communication, albeit in a language alien to us. And there’s a lesson to be learned from how forests relate, she says. There’s a lot of cooperation, rather than just competition among and between species as was previously believed.

Peter Wohlleben came to a similar realization while working his job managing an ancient birch forest in Germany. He told the Guardian he started noticing trees had complex social lives after stumbling upon an old stump still living after about 500 years, with no leaves. “Every living being needs nutrition,” Wohlleben said. “The only explanation was that it was supported by the neighbor trees via the roots with a sugar solution. As a forester, I learned that trees are competitors that struggle against each other, for light, for space, and there I saw that it’s just [the opposite]. Trees are very interested in keeping every member of this community alive.” He believes that they, like humans, have family lives in addition to relationships with other species. The discovery led him to write a book, The Hidden Life of Trees.

By being aware of all living things’ inter-reliance, Simard argues, humans can be wiser about maintaining mother trees who pass on wisdom from one tree generation to the next. She believes it could lead to a more sustainable commercial-wood industry: in a forest, a mother tree is connected to hundreds of other trees, sending excess carbon through delicate networks to seeds below ground, ensuring much greater seedling survival rates.

Foreign language studies

Biology’s philosophers in dialogue.

Seedling survival is important to human beings because we need trees. “The contributions of forests to the well-being of humankind are extraordinarily vast and far-reaching,” according to the United Nations Food and Agriculture Organization 2016 report on world forests (pdf).

Forests are key to combating rural poverty, ensuring food security, providing livelihoods, supplying clean air and water, maintaining biodiversity, and mitigating climate change, the FAO says. The agency reports that progress is being made toward better worldwide forest conservation but more must be done, given the importance of forests to human survival.

Most scientists—and trees—would no doubt agree that conservation is key. Haskell believes that ecologically friendly policies would naturally become a priority for people if we’d recognize that trees are masters of connection and communication, managing complex networks that include us. He calls trees “biology’s philosophers,” dialoguing over the ages, and offering up a quiet wisdom. We should listen, the biologist says, because they know what they’re talking about. Haskell writes, “Because they are not mobile, to thrive they must know their particular locus on the Earth far better than any wandering animal.”

 

30 Aug 2018 A Long Time Ago (1990’s) and Hold On (Wilson Phillips)

Hello to you.  Doesn’t it seem like 1990 was such a long time ago?!  A whopping 28 years!  So much has happened for those of us that have been here all that time.  Today I had a pity party for myself.  Sometimes it’s good to cry it out, bitch, whine and moan a bit.   To point at the piles of dog poop in the backyard and make self comparisons…”yeah that one is definitely me today.”   My poor backyard that has to listen to this!  I had a bird walk by me while I was sitting out back tonight blubbering.  It stopped and just stared at me with that”what is your problem” look.  Kept on walking.  Anyways, I hope this finds you well.  If you are feeling a bit low too, just do the best you can.  Remember, it’s inside work!

Nineteen ninety = 173

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Billboard_Year-End_Hot_100_singles_of_1990

Hold on = 68  by Wilson Phillips = 193 Number One = 107 = 368  (I was born in 1968 – go figure!  Perfect song and message for me today!)

Wilson Phillips – Hold On

Hold On

I know there’s pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don’t ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things’ll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You’ve got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin’ your worries pass you by
Don’t you think it’s worth your time
To change your mind?

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things’ll go your way
Hold on for one more day

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on

Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Won’t you tell me now
Hold on for one more day ‘Cause
It’s gonna go your way

Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can’t you change it this time

Make up your mind
Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on

Songwriters: Carnie Wilson,Chynna Phillips,Glen Ballard
© Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind

 

 

 

28 Aug 2018 Zero

https://www.gematrix.org/?word=

Beginning = 81/9 cycle

Sun = 54/9 cycle

Word = 60/6/3 cycle

Speak = 52/7

Speech = 56/11/2/1

Poor Teacher = 124/7

Son = 48/12/6/3 cycle

The Poor = 97/16/7

Learn to do without = 220/4/2/1

The Have’s and the Have Not’s = 244 (64)/10/1

Tithe = 62/8/4/2/1

Share=51/6/3 cycle

Charity = 84/12/3 cycle

Give and Take = 99/18/9 cycle

Sustainability =181/10/1

Consumption = 159/15/6/3 cycle

Population Control = 236/11/2/1

Birth Control = 154/10/1

Resources = 123/6/3 cycle (ABC, 123)

Poverty = 121/4/2/1

Cat = 24/6/3 cycle

Dog = 26/8/4/2/1

Tree = 48/12/6/3 cycle

Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle

Life = 32/5

Human Life = 89/17/8/4/2/1

Nobody = 75/12/6/3 cycle

Nothing = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Alone = 47/11/2/1

Who’s Dream Am I In? (I ask myself this sometimes) = 152/8  (If I were to take this result literally, it would be God’s)

David Bowie – Zeroes, 2018 (Official Audio)

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah

You’ve arrived in the land of a thousand different names
And the fabulous sons have crashed their planes in flames
Now tomorrow is back claiming redemption is on your heels
And a toothless past is asking you how it feels

And me, my little red corvette has driven by
Fair weather heart has fallen in
My rainyday girl is feeling down
And she tells me that the world is spinning round

I say the dream was all for you
You’re nobody else
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
Yeah

Hi! Can I walk you home again today?
Gotta get forgive and forget hey hey
Something good is happening and I don’t know what it is
Don’t you know we’re back on trial again today

And it’s breaking wine for you
Hell!, it’s only ’cause you’re true
Someone outtimed my heart
Stopping and preaching and letting love in

You are my moon, you are my sun
Heaven knows what you are
Tonight the zeroes are singing for you
Yes, they were

Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You

It doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter where you try to go
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter who we really are
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter

Songwriters: DAVID BOWIE
© TINTORETTO MUSIC
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

 

25 Aug 2018 Ichthys in the Desert

24 Aug 2018 – I asked Kyle for a subject to draw. At first he said aquatic and I said I had already drawn mermaids. He said something in the desert. So that made me think of Streams in the Desert and I came up with this. It is the title of a little red book spiritual devotion book my Grandparents gave me. I’ve shared about here before. I have an Ichthys (92) tattoo (91) = 183. I also have a chameleon which until yesterday I didn’t know has a 13 in it! It’s 76, the same number for my maiden name Schmidt. Go figure! As I sat in front of this drawing and thought about all that I’ve found out the past few days, how complicated it all is, I gained an even deeper love and respect for God as I understand them. “In the Beginning” = 137 which is the same value for my birth Mom’s full name. My Grandfather was a pastor who must have know about this system. If he didn’t….wow! She was my Grandparents first child.  She was my beginning and technically my end as I have given birth to no children. Alpha and the Omega = 131 (same value as Jack Kevorkian as I came to find out looking for Dr. Who’s Trenzalore which is 134)

It’s interesting the story the numbers are telling me about myself and my life choices and the people I’ve chosen to include on my journey.  I found out yesterday that in the numbers, it took four grandparents and two people who chose each other to make me.  When I added the first and last names of my 4 Grandparents it came to 248 (68 in there).  Just their first names came to 204 which is 6.  I was born in 1968. To me, this is proof a power much greater than myself is operating here.  To me, this is evidence of God.  Think of all the fragments, pieces..single moments that had to happen to make just one person!

24 Aug 2018 – Thinking about people and the relationship between them and insects, spiders and trees.

Human Being = 94  Sing = 49 = 143/8 – that’s me these days lol.

As I explore my life in numbers, I am beginning to understand why I feel like there is really no such thing as a coincidence (84/12/3 cycle).  I think there really is a divine (63) calendar (58) = 121/4/2/1.

Ichthys

Ichthys
The ichthys or ichthus, from the Greek ikhthýs, is a symbol consisting of two intersecting arcs, the ends of the right side extending beyond the meeting point so as to resemble the profile of a fish. It was used by early Christians as a secret Christian symbol and now known colloquially as the “sign of the fish” or the “Jesus fish”.

IchthysWikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ichthys

Origin[edit]

An early circular ichthys symbol, created by combining the Greek letters ΙΧΘΥΣ, Ephesus.

16 July 2018 – Completed painting with what I’m calling “Swircles” (what happens when you mix a swirl and a circle!)

https://www.ancient-symbols.com/buddhist-symbols.htmlWheel = 53/8  God = 26/8

The Dharma wheel

The Dharma wheel This wheel is also called the dharma chakra or the Dhamma Chakka and is often used to represent Buddha himself. It has also universally become the symbol for Buddhism. The dharma wheel has eight spokes, which represent Buddha’s Eightfold Path.wheel of law

 

19 Aug 2018 Pluribus

Hello.  How are you in this moment?  I am grateful to have a wonderful husband who has placed a hot cup of coffee next to me as I write to you.  I am grateful for all those who make coffee a reality in my home.  I am grateful for the cows and farmers who care for them who make sure milk gets to the store so I can put it in my coffee.  I am grateful for all those who make sugar a reality so my coffee can be sweetened.  So many involved for my one cup of coffee!

This leads me to the word that came to me late yesterday afternoon after we got home from helping Kyle’s dad celebrate his birthday – “Pluribus.”  By itself it mean “More” in Latin on our currency it means, “Of the many, One.”

The Pluribus multiprocessor was an early multi-processor computer designed by BBN for use as a packet switch in the ARPANET. Its design later influenced the BBN Butterfly computer. The Pluribus had its beginnings in 1972 when the need for a second-generation interface message processor (IMP) became apparent.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pluribus
Pluribus = 118/10/1
E Pluribus Unum = 192/12/3 cycle (Interesting!!)
Of the many one = 141/6/3 cycle (Interesting how in Latin and English the result is the same)
We had a really nice visit with Kyle’s Mom, Dad and brother yesterday and got caught up on things.  Beth sent me home with the sequel to The Sweetness at the Bottom of the Pie by Alan Bradley called The Weed That Strings The Hangman’s Bag and I’m excited about that.  My happy dance was reserved for other news though.  We found out that through Beth’s side of the family Benedict Cumberbatch is her 9th cousin!  Not once or twice removed but just cousin.  There is a positive DNA match with a common ancestor named Hanna Harden who lived from 1657 to 1690.  My husband is related to Dr. Strange!  I knew there was some kind of connection!  Now I’m just waiting for Jonathan Rhys Meyers to show up lol.
I told Beth yesterday that from what I’ve noticed is it’s not just a coincidence when we are interested and or attracted to certain people.  I think there is a sort of “recognition” with how we gravitate towards certain people.  The men I am attracted to are put up to a couple of templates – mainly Kyle but also my Dad and other men I care about in my life present or past.   It seems to be a combination of physical characteristics, mannerisms/behavior and aspects I’m not even always conscious of.   Sometimes I will gravitate to a person because we share a common thread in life or they will remind me of someone I used to know, loved or lost through life.
Sometimes I wonder if the organisms that keep us alive have a system of their own and through us are attracted to “their kind” if that makes sense.  They don’t see the same way we do if at all.  There is probably a whole different criteria for attraction.  For example if you meet someone and hit it off right away or love at first sight – is that “you” or is that what’s going on with the organisms INSIDE of you?!  Are your emotions and the subsequent actions you take completely “you” or is what lives inside of you running the show?  I think of the North Korean man who defected to South Korea last year and was shot while doing so.  They found he was full of parasitic worms: https://www.theguardian.com/world/2017/nov/17/north-korean-defector-parasitic-worm-parasites-south-korea.  I also think of cravings for certain foods or wanting to see, do/interact with particular people, places and things.  Who or what is driving those urges?  Things that make you hmmmm.

Interesting article I found about my ponderings about attraction and what’s going on inside of us:

https://www.iflscience.com/health-and-medicine/organisms-make-us-who-we-are/

The Organisms That Make Us Who We Are

Wikimedia Commons. E. coli

From bacteria to viruses, mites to fungi, our bodies are literally riddled with life. Perhaps to a greater extent than you ever thought imaginable. But are these guests up to mischief; should we throw them out for trashing the house? Or do we welcome them with open arms and beg them not to leave. From assisting your immune system to having sex on your face (wait, what?!), this article is going to explore the organisms that have set up camp on and inside our bodies.

The Human Microbiome

Let’s start with microbes. Microbes are microscopic organisms such as bacteria, archaea, protozoa and fungi, and these microorganisms that reside on or within your body are referred to as the human microbiome. This microbial colonization begins during and shortly after birth. Your body is composed of about 10 trillion human cells, but bacteria outnumber them by at least ten to one. Microbes actually make up around 1 to 3% of your total body mass. These microbes colonize lots of different areas of the body including your skin, gut, mouth, eyes, and genitals.

What’s lurking in your gut

You can find anywhere between 500 to 1,000 different species of bacteria in your gut alone, and they actually make up 60% of the dry mass of your feces- yummy. Common bacterial species found includes E. coli, B. bifidum and E. faecalis. These bacteria are far from just being gate crashers; we have developed a symbiotic relationship with them. We provide these bacterial species with a nice home to live and replicate in, whilst they provide us with a myriad of benefits. For example, they assist in the breakdown of food, and they help to prevent harmful species from colonizing which could adversely affect our health. They also assist in the production of hormones and vitamins, namely vitamins B and K. It is also becoming increasingly apparent that the bacteria present in your gut play a role in modulating and training your immune system to be able to recognize friend from foe.

Scanning electron micrograph of E. faecalis​, found in the human colon. Wikimedia commons.

But do these bacteria only do good things? Apparently not. There is an increasing amount of evidence to suggest that certain bacterial species colonizing the gut are actually associated with obesity. These microbes are more commonly found in those living in colder northern areas of the world, compared to warmer southern areas. It seems that certain types of bacteria found in leaner individuals are better at breaking down certain types of food.

Spotty Skin and Smelly Pits

Your skin also has plenty of microbes, especially your hands- it’s amazing what you can grow in a petri dish if you stick your finger on one. Bacteria present on your skin can sometimes associate with oil glands, playing a role in the development of acne. Your sweat is also naturally odorless; it’s the bacteria found on the skin that make it smell. Interestingly, your unique body odor correlates with the presence of specific microbes, as they break down non-volatile compounds into volatile compounds with characteristic scents. It was discovered that the higher the density of a group of bacteria called coryneforms, the more the underarms smelt.

The skin microbiome. Wikimedia commons.

Recently the bacterial species living in our navels (belly buttons) was investigated; it was found to be colonized to an extent greater than scientists could have ever predicted. They swabbed 60 bellybuttons and found a whopping 2,368 phylotypes of bacteria, which probably corresponded to an even bigger number of bacterial species. It was thought that 1,458 of these bacterial species could be new to science. Amazingly, one volunteer harbored a species of bacteria that has only ever been isolated in Japanese soil– and he had never been to Japan! Another (who admitted to not washing very much…) had a species of extremophilic (thrives in extreme environments) bacteria that is often found in deep sea hydrothermal vents and ice caps. Intriguing or disgusting, but our bellybuttons are turning out to be a microscopic jungle, and it’s exciting microbiologists a great deal. Just imagine what could be in yours! Or maybe don’t…

Most of the bacterial species found in our bodies don’t do us any harm, and so are referred to as commensals. But they can become opportunistic pathogens, for example if immunity is lowered or natural barriers become compromised, such as the blood brain barrier. This is where they can go rogue and cause problems.

Organisms That Can Alter Your Behavior?

So, we know that organisms can affect your health, in positive and negative ways. But what about your personality? There has been some very interesting research emerging on a protozoan organism called Toxoplasma gondii which is found in 22-84% of the human population (depending on the country). The most intriguing effect of toxoplasmosis is the apparent “fatal attraction syndrome” which occurs in infected rodents. T. gondii can only productively replicate in cats, but it can infect humans and rodents. Amazingly, it has found a way to alter the brain signaling of the rodents to make them more likely to be consumed by the cat. Infected rodents in studies had slower reaction times and displayed no aversion to the scent of cat urine, which rodents usually have an innate fear of.

But what’s perhaps more interesting is what they have found in humans. It was discovered that people with toxoplasmosis had slower reaction times and actually enjoyed the smell of cat urine! No other types of urine (they tested a few), just cat urine, whereas uninfected individuals did not like the smell. Is the organism trying to alter the behavior of the human to make it more likely to be eaten by cats?! It goes on; they studied people involved in road traffic accidents in Prague. They found that those involved in accidents, whether they were a pedestrian or driver, were more likely to be infected when compared with residents not involved in accidents. This suggested that those individuals were perhaps sometimes more reckless. This research has certainly been met with raised eyebrows, and confounding factors are always a possibility. For example, it may not be that toxoplasmosis affects your personality, but perhaps people with a particular personality are more susceptible to toxoplasmosis.

Wikimedia commons.

Your Face As A Breeding Ground

So what other weird things live on your body? There are some very interesting creepy crawlies alongside these microbes. Mites, or more specifically Demodex, live in places such as your eyelash and eyebrow follicles. They’re the most common ectoparasite (parasite that lives on the surface of the host) on the human skin. Usually these critters will do you no harm, although in some instances they have been found to cause skin disease. They can leave the follicles and walk around the skin at night, meeting others to then mate at the follicle opening. Once they’ve done the dirty deed, they go back to the inside of the hair follicle to lay eggs. You give these mites a comfy bed and what do they do? Have sex on your face. They’re worse than teenagers. Perhaps even more disgustingly, Demodex don’t actually have an anus. This means they have no way of getting rid of their feces, so when they die they explode all of this feces into your pores. Some scientists may believe that this is sufficient to stimulate an immune reaction, and may be the cause of the acne-like skin condition rosacea.

Nobody Loves Me… Think I’ll Go And Eat Worms.

Although worms are not found in everyone, they’re surprisingly common in the human population. There are 3 main types found in humans; flatworms such as tapeworms, flukes such as blood flukes, and roundworms such as threadworms, pinworms or hookworms.

The largest of the intestinal worms found in humans is the roundworm Ascaris lumbricoides, which can reach a whopping 35 centimeters. After ingesting the eggs they hatch and bury into the intestinal wall, entering the blood stream. From here, they travel to the lungs where they’re coughed up and swallowed again, returning to the gut once more.

​Wikimedia commons, Ascaris lumbricoides.

Tapeworms are transmitted via infected food, and once inside the body it attaches to the intestine via hooks found on its head. Here, it can survive for up to 25 years! If you’re unlucky enough to become infected with hookworms (Necator americanus), these intestinal parasites actually drink your blood and can cause a type of anemia.

And finally my favorite, the pinworm. These little guys are only a few millimeters in length, and once again live in the intestines. They mate by traumatic insemination- the male stabs the female with his penis, and then dies. At least they die happy…

Let’s Not Forget Viruses!

It might surprise you to learn just how many viruses there are in our bodies. It recently emerged that like the human microbiome, humans also have a virome. Our human viromes have been suggested to be even more diverse than our microbiomes, and they also vary considerably between people. In one study investigating twins and their mother, they found between 52-2773 different viruses. We also have a surprising amount of viruses in our bodies that infect bacteria- these are called bacteriophages. For every bacterium in your body, it is estimated that there is a whopping 100 bacteriophages. Going back to poo- there is approximately 10 billion in each gram. Wow.

Wikimedia commons.

Just like how it has been suggested that the bacteria in your gut can contribute to obesity, there has been some interesting, if very controversial, research to suggest that perhaps viruses can also play a role. A small number of researchers have been investigating a particular type of adenovirus, and they found that infection correlated nicely with obesity. This was triggered by observations in animal models where this virus was found to dramatically increase the amount of fat found in the body. Not everyone is convinced by this virus, but some people are beginning to take it more seriously. The idea that obesity could be an infectious disease, possibly spread by a simple cough or sneeze, has met some raised eyebrows.

Just like bacteria, viruses can live harmlessly in the body, but can then go on to cause problems when the person becomes immune suppressed.

I could go on, but simply there’s just too many things living inside you to talk about them all. You are literally riddled with life, but these organisms play a big part in your life, and most of them are quiet do-gooders that we wouldn’t even know were there. You can thank some of these organisms for helping to shape who you are.

 

18 Aug 2018 “With a Thought” (Drawings)

Hello – hope this finds you well in your present moment.  This post is exploring some things that may or may not interest you.  I have had some interesting thoughts pass through with my drawings.  May be something here will resonate.  Thank you for taking the time to stop by!  The abyss that is now the internet is vast.  One can easily get lost within it!

Interesting how often this “grid” is coming into my thoughts.  This is an excerpt from a dream I had 14 May 2017 that involved the grid image for one of the first times.

https://saymber.com/2017/05/14/14-may-2017-mothers-day-birthday-wishes-pergola-demolition-dream-about-traveling-in-space-and-drawings/

“So the dream that woke me up this morning was pretty cool.  I guess my mind’s way of processing all these thoughts I’ve been having about particles and life.  Well in the dream I was traveling in space and it was like a black and white grid.  We actually “went off grid” and beyond what was charted or known.  Something about a ship “picking me up” (the round cell shaped ship) that was free-floating and if you passed through it, you were on a new ship.  I encountered life forms that were just light and colors.  To the person in the dream they were kind of annoying as they “poured in” through rainbow light and had voices but it was hard to understand them.  There was a blonde woman who was very mature but wasn’t very old that was a “life-form.”  I can remember seeing her talking, she was shy but don’t know what she said.”

Numbers in the Words:

“With a thought two become one” = 295/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (This is a phrase that came to me before bed when I was thinking about the drawings of the day.  Without really thinking about it I had drawn 16 lines for my grid.  It’s enormously pleasing and fulfilling to have these sorts of experiences.

Point of Singularity = 250/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Singularity = 155/11/2/1 (still ended up divided in parts)

Image result for point of singularity

In the center of a black hole is a gravitational singularity, a one-dimensional point which contains a huge mass in an infinitely small space, where density and gravity become infinite and space-time curves infinitely, and where the laws of physics as we know them cease to operate.

Singularities – Black Holes and Wormholes – The Physics of the Universe

The Sum of Two = 165/12/3 cycle (This made me chuckle, it take two to make a third.  In my mind, even when you are making something on your own it’s still “two.”  You are a co-creator working with creation (the creator) to manifest something into reality.)

Symmetry = 138/12/3 cycle

Dark Matter = 111/3 cycle

Matter = 77/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Material =79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 – 8/4/2/1

Mass = 52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

atom = 49/13/4/2/1

particle = 84/12/3 cycle

dust = 64/10/1

ash = 28/10/1

soil = 55/10/1

void =50/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (interesting how matter and void values match up)

gravity = 102/3 cycle

infinity = 106/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (interesting how it comes back to one, not a cycle)

perpetuity = 155/11/2/1 (interesting how this word, contrary to the definition we’ve given it, doesn’t mean forever either)

Perpetuity | Definition of Perpetuity by Merriam-Webster

The word derives ultimately from the Latin adjective perpetuus (“continual” or “uninterrupted”), which is also the source of our perpetual and perpetuate. It frequently occurs in the phrase “in perpetuity,” which essentially means “forever” or “for an indefinitely long period of time.”

perspective = 138/12/3 cycle

perception = 121/4/2/1

eight = 49/13/4/2/1 (when written is the infinity symbol on it’s side, it isn’t an indefinite cycle either)

one = 34/7 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

alone = 47/11/2/1

The Grid = 71/8/4/2/1

forever = 89/17/8/4/2/1 (Again, doesn’t the word and the meaning we’ve given it doesn’t coincide with what the numbers say about it! Forever and most the words like it must measure up to an individuals person’s own interpretation and perspective (a word which ironically DOES have a 3 cycle).  A second can feel both like forever or no time at all depending on who is experiencing it.   

 

15 Aug 2018 “I’m Always Here” – We are not alone

Hello.  How are you in your present moment?  Me?  There are so many things I could say, but really I’m grateful.  Within the past couple of months people I care about have been going through some really rough stuff like divorce, the sickness of family and friends and the deaths of family and friends.  It feels like we are all just going through some serious shit right now and it’s hard but like I told my sweet friend last night, “I know it’s hard but it won’t always be this way.”  This is something life has taught me.  This is something losing our sweet dog Sammy taught me.  When hard times come, they only last as long as you allow them to and time is really the best healer.  The more of it that passes between you and what your going through, the less it hurts.  The pain won’t completely go away.  You won’t forget the pain, but it will hurt less.

I am not a materially rich person but in terms of meaningful wealth, there is no earthly equivalent.  Sometimes I forget, sometimes I whine, complain, I wallow, bitch and moan about trivial and frivolous things….most of which I cannot change.   Time passes, things get better.

These moments are so small in the scheme of all the moments.  As I often hear in my mind when I manage to get it quiet, “Let everything pass through.  Everything passes through.  Let the images and emotion that come into your mind just through.”

This morning I was laying in bed worrying about my friends and what they are going to do today and their fur kids.  I’ve been very sad and anxious for them.  In my head I asked  “Are you there?”  and the answer I heard was, “I’m always here.”  Who is this loving, comforting voice I am having a telepathic conversation with?  Is it God?  Is that just my mind manufacturing an answer of comfort for me?  Whatever the answer, that voice helped me get out of bed this morning to come and write this!

We are not abandoned, no matter how it may seem.  No matter how many negative headlines splash in front of our eyes, how many tragedies real or manufactured are put before or placed on us – we are not alone.  All you have to do is ask to be reassured.

 

Enya – Only Time (Official Music Video)

 

14 Aug 2018 Just one look (dream) and drawings for the sick

Hello there.  How are you doing in your here and now as you visit me here?  I hope you are well.  Kyle and I didn’t sleep very well last night.  One of those toss and turn kind of nights.  One of us did dream and it was him for a change.  He rarely remembers his dreams too lol.  When we were in Half Price Books yesterday he said he had caught a brief glimpse of a book with a title like Treasures of the Olympics.  In just one look it was in his dreams.  I told him the dream machine is like the enigma to me.  Our conscious waking moments are all keys to unlock the dream enigma machine.  It takes just the right combination of these keys, sometimes quickly and sometimes over the course of a very long time, to unlock a dream.  For me, sometimes it feels like I’m unlocking doors to other people’s minds and or heavens!

Here is the dream he had and I’m thrilled he allowed me to jot it down and share it:

From what he remembers and there are a lot of missing particulars, he went to a tiny island of sand and the American flag was flying there.  After he arrived he had to climb some rocks.  The ropes to the flag were made of fishing line and all tangled up.  Someone was directing them on how to untangle the line.  The flag started to rise and then he woke up.  He said his view of the dream was like watching the Olympics on television.  He said it was because he could see boxes of ads and information on the sides of the screen during what he was watching.

This dream was very symbolic to me.  It feels like every time we get a tangle untangled in this country or even world, somebody has to come along and tangle it back up!  Kyle is a welder and has said if Texas ever got the Olympics he’d love to be able to help create things for the events.  Wouldn’t that be an incredible thing to be part of?!

This mornings drawings with Aretha Franklin and all those in this world who are sick in mind, body and spirit and need a prayer to either get well or have the courage to let go and move on.   Drawing helps me manage my feelings about these things.  I may not know her directly but I care.  Honestly I have not closely kept up with her music and other endeavors but think she is an amazing human being.  What a voice!  Like the woman in my dream from the other day – too big to contain!  I saw articles and pictures about Aretha’s condition yesterday and just couldn’t believe she’s down to just 85 lbs!  I hope for her very best.  My sentiments are the same for all in this world who are going through what she is right now.  I think it’s beautiful she is surrounded by those who love and care about her:

Aretha Franklin – Freeway Of Love (Video)