4 Sept 2019 Horse Apple Tree – Alvarado TX

2 Sept 2019 Jackie Wygant cell phone picture horse apple tree next to abandoned house near The Family Dollar Alvarado TX

The other day I was walking to the Family Dollar down the street and happened to notice this beautiful tree living near an abandoned house across the street from our local Elementary School.  I got to thinking about how nice it would be if that property could be annexed to the school for learning about plants and nature; like a nature learning center or something.  There is a large field next to it I imagined being turned into a community garden and it could also be part of the learning center.  I imagined children learning how to grow their own food and appreciating nature like I do.

https://lancaster.unl.edu/enviro/pest/nebline/hedgeapple.htm

Facts and Myths of Hedge Apples
by Dr. Barbara Ogg, Extension Educator

This article appeared in the October 2001 NEBLINE Newsletter

This time of year, hedge apples – the fruit from the Osage-orange tree – are being sold at farmer’s markets, garden centers, and other locations. Many people have heard that these fruits can be used as an insect repellent, but the truth is that many people don’t know much else about this unusual tree and its fruit.

The Tree and Its Fruit:

Osage-Orange Tree - Click on Image for Larger ViewThe Osage-orange is a small to medium-sized tree, having a short trunk and a rounded or irregular crown. The twigs are buff to orange-brown and are armed with one-half inch long spines. The stems exude a milky sap when cut. The Osage-orange is dioecious, meaning that male and female flowers are produced on separate trees. The small, green flowers appear in May or June. Female trees produce 3-to 5-inch diameter fruit which ripen in September or October and fall to the ground.

Native Habitat and Current Distribution:

The Osage-orange is native to a small area in eastern Texas, southeastern Oklahoma, and southwestern Arkansas. This region is the home of the Osage Indians which gives the tree its common name. Settlers found that the Osage-orange transplanted easily, tolerated poor soils, extreme heat, and strong winds and had no serious insect or disease problems. It was widely planted in the Midwest as a living fence because, when pruned into a hedge, it provided an impenetrable barrier to livestock. The development of barbed wire curtailed its widespread planting, but many Osage-orange trees can still be found in fence rows.

Osage-orange fence post - Click on Image for Larger viewUses of the Osage-Orange:

The wood is extremely hard, heavy, durable and shrinks or swells little compared to the wood of other trees. The wood is used for fence posts, treenails, furniture, and archery bows. In fact, many archers consider the wood of the Osage-orange to be the world’s finest wood for bows. Another common name for this tree, bodark, is from the French bios d’arc meaning “bow wood.” This tree also produces a bright yellow dye which can be extracted from the wood.

The fruit of the Osage-orange is a nuisance in the home landscape and has little value. Hedge apples are not an important source of food for wildlife as most birds and animals find the fruit unpalatable. The thorny trees do provide nesting and cover for wildlife.

The belief about the use of hedge apples for insect control is widespread and persistent. it is claimed that placing hedge apples around the foundation or inside the basement will repel or control insects. A few years ago, Iowa State University toxicologists extracted compounds from hedge apples. When concentrated, these compounds were found to repel insects.

Scientists also found that natural concentrations of these compounds in the fruit were too low to be an effective repellent. So, don’t be fooled into spending much to use hedge apples as an insect repellent.

If you decide to pick hedge apples to check out the repellency yourself or to use the fruit as a fall decoration, it would be wise to wear gloves. The milky juice present in the stems and fruit of the Osage-orange can irritate the skin.

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https://www.ridingthebeast.com/ – site I use to look at words and phrases.  It helps me learn in a different way.

horse apple tree” in the English Ordinal system equals 163

(empath – 63)

hedge apples” in the English Ordinal system equals 98

(together – 98)

Osage-Orange tree” in the English Ordinal system equals 155

(shared – 55)

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7 August 2019 “Being there”

Hello to you.  I’ve been away for quite awhile again.  Lately there have been many things going on in my life that have required my attention on a personal, physical, emotional and spirit level while I am trying to heal from a recent fall.  I won’t burden you with the details.  This morning my husband and I can’t sleep again even with it being quiet and dark.  A lot on our minds, bodies and spirits these days.  I believe it is in our house and outside of our houses that affect us on every level – directly and indirectly by the very nature of how our systems are connected as living organisms.

One of the things on my mind right now is how to be there for my family and my friends and still have something left for me.  In my current condition I am not able to be there for those I love in the same capacity I have been able to in the past and I kind of beat myself up for it!  Am I being a bad friend?  A bad daughter?  A bad wife?  Then comes the “shouldn’ing” all over myself which doesn’t help!   So I ran a couple things to share with those of you who this might resonate with – those who might be feeling/going through this right now and have need of a different way to see it:

“Being there” = 93/98/91/76/117/133/146

9 = 42 = self  (a “no” self as 5 also equals 42 but I think of this as the feeling/five senses/physical self) 3 = 56 = 42/52  (“self earth”)

98 = together  91= spirit  76 = humans  33= the  46 = body

Being there for a friend = 189

1=34 =one  8=49=alive  9=42=self (add 34 + 49 + 42 = 125 and 25 = all, “a all” = 26 which = God)

Sometimes we can’t be there like we want to for a friend or how a friend might expect us to be so we can pray for them to the God/Gods of our understanding.  If you don’t like that – just even having a loving/positive thought for them.  It is different for each of us.  Sometimes we just can’t be there for someone like they think they want or need from us.  An energy greater than ourselves must step in our place for them.  For many, that is God.

Being there for family = 198

1=34=one  9=42=self 8=49=alive (add 34 + 42 + 49 = 125)

Being there for yourself = 253

2=58=feeling  5=42=self  3=56=light  (add 58 + 42 + 56 = 156) (56’s I have found, why, light out and there are more but these are a couple)

156/128/141/128/141…. = a why a man a garbage?  a why a man energy exchange.

For me personally, for the past several months, years…may be most of my life I have questioned my worth, my value….am I garbage?  Did God make a mistake by making me?  What I have had to do is find a way to make peace within myself so I don’t hate myself all the time.  People like my husband, family, my friends all seem to love and care about me but if I don’t love myself, their energies are wasted on me.  One of the hardest things I’ve ever done, still do, is tell the person in the mirror I love them.

As I age, that girl looking back at me has changed but when I look in her eyes, that little girl is still looking back at me and I can’t stop loving her.  The God I know has changed through the years – stripped down now to energetic form.  Why would God expend all that energy to make something and not love it?  The human world is full now of creations cast aside, seeming mistakes.  Are they really mistakes if God is in all of us?  Made all of us?  Who decides but God?!  These are the questions of our time.

We have all been given a set of clothes to wear in this life and underneath them is energy, children of God.  Sometimes our inner child gets lost and just wants to be comforted.  We cast about in this world to get some relief from the pain that child may be enduring and we can’t find it!  I have gone through that process so many times in my life and it was due in great part to a black, white and tan cocker spaniel named Sam that I found out nothing can fill the void that is created by loss but God.  Isn’t it ironic that God turned around is dog.  Yes, people living and dead in my life have taught me a great deal of life but with Sam there were no conditions.

I will close for now.  I am typing one-handed so can’t do this so often.  I hope something here is what you were looking for and or needed today.

 

The Wasp

 

*Seeing this today was like they were showing me, “Hey, look what my job is! I have value, I have worth!”  We used to be mean to the wasps until I took the time to learn their job in nature actually is.  From what I have personally witnessed, their purpose for existence includes trying to keep our trees healthy.  Since trees are basically the lungs of the planet, I think that’s a pretty important job!   I have read conflicting information about wasps online.  My personal experience is they are helpers and teachers.  What came through in the numbers is a pecan tree and a teacher have a pattern in common.  What I believe is we all, whatever form, are teachers, students, messages and receivers of those messages.  I believe everyone has value in one way or another.  It’s not always easy to understand what we are trying to convey to each other.  I don’t think we should give up trying!

133 – “don’t give up”

Wasp – 59/84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140…….

*remember, these are only just a few of the meanings of these numbers that I have found for myself and am sharing with you.

59’s – dragon, social, size, gather, larvae, learned

84’s – lesson, daughter, motive, “create life”

109 – struggle

40’s – food, weak

58’s – lunch, want, “eat life”, feeling

25’s – all

34’s – chance, free, heat

134 – information

50’s – easy, fight, numb

150’s – understanding, communication, positive image, energy draining, possession, pure oxygen

“The Wasp” – 92/100/162/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140……..

92’s – thinking, seasons, training, opinion, purging, relative, picture, appetite, day shift

100’s – sources, services, attitude, collecting, culture, acknowledge, accumulate, intellect, boundary

62’s – taking, riches, behaves, noise, hearing, germs, humane, queen, disease, favor, plasma, choices

162’s – “break in routine,” “eyes of the sun,” “to have conscience”

44’s – brain, talk

144 – disruption

54’s – love, sun, voice, chemical, health, acting, breath, bodies

154’s – comprehension, “a feeling process,” “point of view,” autonomous

36’s – child, bite, heard, asp, agree

136’s – evaporation, “life experience,” “human nature,” “mixed signals,” “speaking voice”

42’s – self, new, gift, balanced, rain, war, female, rebel

142’s – profiteering, “we are all related,” temperature, “food is energy ,” “energy language,” brain trust, life purpose,

52’s – earth, seeds, caring, speak, heart, raise, create, birds, crop,

152’s – amber tree resin, positive drama, positive being,

pecan tree – 87/114/128/141/128/141……….

87- person, truth, roots, justice

pecan – 39/98/91/76/117/133/146

98 – killer bees (I found this value trying to figure out why people may have a fear of bees/wasps.  Remember those old Killer bee television shows and movies?  When I was a very small girl I can remember drinking a can of soda without realizing a bee was in the can and I got stung.  I was pretty freaked out!  It wasn’t the bee’s fault but a “seed of fear” was planted that I had to actively overcome through time.  I did this through trying to understand them instead of thinking they were all bad. The same principle I have used towards other insects and life forms to include people.  It’s not easy to do but for me personally, it has been worth trying to do.)

76 – humans

117’s – nurture, “I’m sorry,” dissection, projecting, “broken earth,” humility, upbringing, occupation, statement, cultivated, heartbroken, water falls (If you look at a pecan it looks like a human brain in the shell and they are considered a healthy food for the brain). http://www.alzheimersweekly.com/2016/11/pecans-provide-brain-boost.html

tree – 48/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150……….

https://www.lung.org/ – The American Lung Association website

https://www.arborday.org/ – The Arbor Day Foundation website

helpers – 83/105/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150……..

83’s – wisdom, nerves, non-biased

teacher – 60/116/120/156/128/141/28/141…….

“make peace” = 60

19 June 2019 “People Message”

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well today.  I have started exploring some things using sumerian gematra values in addition to the ordinal on this website: https://www.ridingthebeast.com/gematria-calculator/ and this morning, with just a few key words, saw some pretty interesting patterns I wanted to share with those who have been interested in what I’m doing….following along so to speak.  I have my own personal reference for key words that showed up to me here.  I am providing a couple at the end of this, but I encourage you to look at this for yourself and see what it says to you personally.  The main reason I do this is for that reason, it’s a conversation.

Words (sumerian) = 474  1110/996/816/810/882/936/900/1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996….repeating pattern

Words (ordinal) = 79  107/163/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Numbers (sumerian) = 552 852/894/906/948/906…..repeating pattern

Numbers (ordinal) = 92 100/162/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Phrases (sumerian) = 516 768/996/816/810/882/936/900/1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996…..repeating pattern

Phrases (ordinal) = 86 101/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Meaning (sumerian) = 378 1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996…..repeating pattern

Meaning (ordinal) = 63  108/147/159/118/117/133/146

Reason (sumerian) = 432 1044/1308/1218/1050/1224/1260/1248/1206/1248….repeating pattern

Reason (ordinal) = 72 123/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Message (sumerian) = 414 924/960/948/906/948/906….repeating pattern

Message (ordinal) = 69 94/102/156/128/141

Communication (sumerian) = 900 1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996…..repeating pattern

Communication (ordinal) = 150 140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Memory (sumerian) = 534 948/906/948/906….repeating pattern

Memory (ordinal) = 89  91/76/117/133/146

Remember (sumerian) = 474 1110/996/816/810/882/936/900/1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996….repeating pattern

Remember (ordinal) =  79  107/163/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Conversation (sumerian) = 930 972/990/888/882/936/900/1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996…..repeating pattern

Conversation (ordinal) = 155 118/117/133/146

“Do not forget me”  (ordinal) = 157/141/128/141

“Do not forget me” (sumerian) = 942 960/948/906/948

people (sumerian) = 414 924/960/948/906//948/906…..repeating pattern

message (sumerian) = 414

people (ordinal) = 69 94/102/156/128/141/128….repeating pattern

message (ordinal) = 69


Some key words/phrases that may or may not help you comprehend the above information*

*it’s important to remember I have only found just a few of these so far and I would be taking away from the adventure if I just gave them all to you!  If you decide and or have decided to do this for yourself, you will find more word/number values as you go through the experience.  I encourage you to make up your own personal key code list for reference.  Part of the wonder of this for me is finding the values during the process.  One word/number value will often lead me to another and as that happens, as I’ve shown above with the repeating patterns, it’s interesting to see the connections/associations.

I think you will find, as I have, sometimes as you go through a train of thought using this, a message will be there specifically for you and no one else.  This process is helping me work through the chronic trust issues I have and I am sharing to help others who might be going through the same thing and haven’t found anything else to help them.

This is not something I have chosen to “monetize/commoditize” for profit and that’s why I haven’t and don’t intend to do so if at all possible.

As I’ve stated before, this system has been around a very long time!  I’m very much a novice yet about this system of communication.  I think I’m making good progress considering I have never had any formal training/teaching given to me about it.    I’m kind of glad I haven’t had formal training.  I have to wonder if that’s why it’s going the way it has? I feel like sometimes when we have formal training about things of this nature we can get kind of narrow minded about it.  In places I used to be narrow minded about religion/spirituality, this system has opened me up to new thoughts and patterns.

I think a basic foundation that is important with this whole process is learning the alphabet, learning to read, learning how to count/do basic math and for me personally, I have explored the Bible and other spiritual writings by various authors of various walks of faith and spirituality.     

all/fame = 25

God/dog/card/game/lie/eat/ate/bear/tea = 26

feel/read/man = 28

due/baby/peace/Bible/day/make/date = 30

agenda, life, again = 32

halo/child/hair/bite/heard = 36

garbage/sail/alien/cow/fuck/help/blind/awake/key = 41  (yes, I included THAT word)

anger/milk/bath/bridge/denial/leader/cheese/cool = 45

blonde/earth/seeds/caring/speak/what/thaw/hobby = 52

sun/love/play/voice/eyes = 54

horn/warm/cloud/satan/move/higher/wire = 55

drive/star/feeling/fragile/glass/Father/lunch/night/asleep/bedtime/illegal/reading = 58

color/carpet/traffic/skill/divine = 63

music/white/broken/backyard/poker/cleaning/random/alphabet = 65

woman/beasts/family/happy/walks/twin/freedom/relics = 66

ways/house/waste/right/married/sweat/war dog/key code/planet = 68

animals/people/husband/slow/wealth/fatigue/message = 69

machines/quiet/money/singer/discord/charisma/marriage/school/stuff/boredom/crochet/world = 72

clouds/energy/nuclear/Jesus/Lucifer/trauma = 74

feelings/power/Christ/things/glory/teapot/store/forbidden/wearing/temper = 77

nature/listen/remember/zones/watches/mother/should/relocate/super/disobey/ground/loving/murder/your/bribery/addiction = 79

filthy/behavior/rebirth/plastic/empathy/gullible/handyman/letter/short/fighting/laptop/learning = 80

wanting/allergies/ghosts/policeman/exercise = 88

courier/insects/memory/religion/location/disappear/anatomy = 89

thirteen/egocentric/judgement/fortune/tradesmen/sickness/answers/open minded = 99

estrogen/suspect/expecting/counting = 103

conscious/unfaithful/negative image/witnessed = 118

counseling/sympathy/mentality/expensive= 119

courageous/surprise/examination/super girl/mystery/previous/”I don’t know”/resistant/solution/spiritual = 125

copper wire = 128

commandments/information/combinations = 134

energy exchange = 141

understanding/communication/fifty states/uncertainty/divine planning/positive image = 150

comprehension/copper tools = 154

critical thinking = 167

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gematria

Gematria /ɡəˈmtriə/ (Hebrew: .mw-parser-output .script-hebrew,.mw-parser-output .script-Hebr{font-size:1.15em;font-family:”Ezra SIL”,”Ezra SIL SR”,”Keter Aram Tsova”,”Taamey Ashkenaz”,”Taamey David CLM”,”Taamey Frank CLM”,”Frank Ruehl CLM”,”Keter YG”,”Shofar”,”David CLM”,”Hadasim CLM”,”Simple CLM”,”Nachlieli”,”SBL BibLit”,”SBL Hebrew”,Cardo,Alef,”Noto Serif Hebrew”,”Noto Sans Hebrew”,”David Libre”,David,”Times New Roman”,Gisha,Arial,FreeSerif,FreeSans} גמטריא or גימטריה, plural גמטראות or גמטריאות, gematriot)[1] is an alphanumeric code of assigning a numerical value to a name, word or phrase based on its letters. People who practice gematria believe that words with identical numerical values may bear some relation to each other or to the number itself. A single word can yield multiple values depending on the cipher used.

Gematria originated as an Assyro-Babylonian-Greek system of alphanumeric code or cipher that was later adopted into Jewish culture. Similar systems have been used in other languages and cultures: earlier, the Greek isopsephy, and later, derived from or inspired by Hebrew gematria, Arabic abjad numerals, and English gematria.

A well-known example of Hebrew gematria is the word chai (“alive”), which is composed of two letters that (using the assignments in the Mispar gadol table shown below) add up to 18. This has made 18 a “lucky number” among the Jewish people. Gifts of money in multiples of 18 are very popular.[2]

13 June 2019 Looking at Time in the numbers

Hello to you.  I haven’t been in for a bit – doing lots of queries with the letters to numbers bit these days.  Today my husbands friend had a good question that I decided to explore and thought anyone who is interested in this might want to see what came up!  So what happens when I do queries of this nature is I am basically brainstorming and doing associations between things that are related to the subject.  It’s often surprising and delightful to see the “answers” or may be better yet to say “clues” that come through.

So here goes; the question was:  “What is time and how does it work?”

What is time and how does it work ? = 331/146

— what I saw in this result was this:  The 3, to me, is “yes, no may be” aspect of existence.  How we question ourselves when faced with a person, place, thing or situation we are uncertain about.  In this query it would be time.  The 146 doesn’t convert to anything else.   “One engaged with part of their brain, all the vices (7 deadly sins) but one.”  If you add 1 plus 46 it equals 47, which is the number value for time.

— “the yes, no, may be” for the light and shadow of one” = 396/150/140/158/125/134/150

— people=69  communication and uncertainty = 150  light= 56  shadow= 70

This didn’t really help us answer the question did it?  So what I did is started taking a look at a bunch of variables, mind you hardly all inclusive, that came to my mind and it was interesting to see what  came up.  I noticed that there are of course reoccurring patterns and 134, which I recently discovered was information and 150 which is fifty states, communication and uncertainty come up in almost all of them.  As is common for me when I do these, specific number values came up that spoke directly to me.  When you do this for yourself, should you choose, you may see the same.

To begin I have provided a “ledger” I use to help me make sense of what comes up without having a specific word meaning.  Keep in mind, with all the words in the English language there are many variations that can produce similar numeric values.  More than one word or sequence of words can equal the same thing and may or may not have the same meaning or association if that make sense?!  I would have to be a powerful computer or at this for a much longer time to find all the combinations!  Part of my enjoyment of this process is when a new value will come to me for a number that I had a previous association.  For example 150 was just fifty states for a time and now it’s communication and uncertainty just showed up this week!

1 – person, animal, object etc.

2 – process

3 – yes, no, may be

4 – brain

5 – sensation/senses/physical aspects

6 – cycle, all the “7” in check but 1

7 – vices, too much, preferences, purpose, motive

8 – system of eternity which can seem slow and the racetrack which can seem fast

9 – no? yes? unsure, uncertainty, resistance, insecurity  *interesting to note nine is nein, or “no” in German

10 – Zero = 64 Body = 46 observatory process  spirit = 91/10

7 Vices = Pride=52, Envy=66, Wrath=70, Sloth=74, Greed=39, Gluttony=134 and Lust=72

Moderation = 114  Balance=38  controlling yourself = 260  motive = 84  purpose = 110  intention = 120  expectation = 132  resentment = 133

 

(As always, feel free to add variables of your own.  I didn’t add these all up like I normally do this time but you can.  It’s interesting to see what final summary comes of many different variables.  Sometimes there will be direct correlation to one or more of the variables in the query.)

Brainstorm (129/134/150):

 

sunrise = 105/140/158/125/134/150

sunset = 98/91/76/117/133/146

time and the position of the sun = 324/174/159/118/117/133/146

time is a process for one in eternity which is either slow or fast like a racetrack = 793/163/142/152/134/150

earth = 52  information= 134 communication/uncertainty = 150

a racetrack is sometimes in a figure eight design = 424/178/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

provocation = 148 – this one came up today!

(the number 78 = childhood, the number 8 on its side looks like the eternity symbol and ate/eat = 26/8)

twenty four hour clock = 273/179/141/128/141

(man=28, 141=energy exchange and 41=garbage!)

sundial = 80/113/124

(racetrack and behavior = 80)

chronological time = 179/141/128/141

linear time = 106/150/140/158/125/134/150

rotation of the earth and time = 184/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

the flow of time and space around a person = 381/139/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

(what was funny about this is Jackie=39 and Life=32!)

pace = 25/100/162/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

(earth = 52/100  brain=44  54=sun/love

speed = 49/102/156/128/141

(light=56)

world time = 119/110/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/1/50

clock = 44/120/156/128/141

brain = 44/120/156/128/141

thinking time is passing by quickly = 377/186/135/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

believing time is passing by quickly = 370/185/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

timeline= 87/114/128/141

time standing still = 207/187/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

to stop time = 152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

counter clockwise = 196/128/141

counter clockwise rotation = 308/169/128/141

counter clockwise rotation of the earth = 447/185/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

brain = 44 time = 47  “brain time” = 91/76/117/113/146

to go forward in time = 212/150/140/158/125/134/150

to go backward in time = 190/140/158/125/134/150

backward = 63  child = 36

to stand still in time = 235/156/128/141/128

time stasis = 134/150

time travel = 125 134/150

all = 25 travel = 78  childhood=78

to relive a childhood through your child = 397/163/142/152/134/150

mistakes = 97

giving you child the childhood you were not given = 512/134/150

sparing your child the childhood you lived = 423/174/159/118/117/133/146

Alvarado, Jesus, Lucifer, Larry are some 74’s

learning from your own childhood and not repeating the same mistakes with your own children = 936/150

child = 36 learning = 80 behavior= 80

experiencing the passing of time through watching children grow up = 670/181/117/133/146

experiencing the passage of time through watching children grow up = 653/150

passage = 68  planet = 68

to give birth = 135/132

life = 32

to witness life = 176/151/110/132

hysterectomy = 176 (I had this happen to me in August 2005)

to witness death = 182/141/128

to experience life = 171/133/146

to experience death = 177/164/146

power = 77 Christ = 77

*in high school I wrote a poem titled Lady time and this progression made me this of it

Lady Time = 89/91/76/117/133/146

Schmidt, my maiden name = 76

“Lady Time sits with her hour glass and watches as time passes her by” = 669/146

woman = 66 people= 69

“she is surprised at all the time she’s managed to waste as the world spins by her with such extreme haste” = 1028/205/164/146

waste = 68  world = 72 haste = 53

(old phrase this made me remember from my Grandparents, “haste makes waste” = 170/163/142/152/134/150)

 

I hope this resonates with someone besides this numbers to letter nerd I’ve become these days.  This system came to me during a time when I didn’t even know what Gematria was.  Just the nudge to take a look at words by putting a number with the alphabet and see what they said.  Having trust issues to the degree I was having and yet have at times, this gave me some direction, relief and insight.  Thank you for stopping by.

 

 

 

 

 

 

1 June 2019 Repost: Two halves of the one whole – Nikola Tesla and Wilhelm Reich

Hello to you visitor.  I am reposting this from my personal archives because it feels like a good time to do it – for myself.  Some of what is here has evolved and changed in my mind, body and spirit these past few years but much is the same.  During the past couple of years I have allowed the events of the world, both near and far, to taint my heart….to taint my spirit and faith in my fellow human beings.  I have become a very bitter, distrustful person – extremely suspicious person that questions the motives and activities of the very fabric of our existence.  I don’t think I am alone.  What I am having to keep coming back to is my love for the God of my understanding who lets me yet live no matter how flawed a person I have been or am yet today.  I don’t know if there is anything here for you but chances are if you are here to see it, to read it, to try and understand it, perhaps you are in the right place.  This is my intention.  When this came to me I wrote it all down and have those notes still.  I will spare you the trouble of pictures and my scribble to read.  If you are like me, sometimes is difficult to read online documents for extended periods of time.  Feel free to come back, to take a break.  I will try to refrain from deleting this again.  I have a nasty habit of doing that….I lose faith in myself.

we are all on a quest called life” in the English Ordinal system equals 258/15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by two equals 1.5 = 6….. or 3 cycle

two five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 149 – one engages with their brain on a “no” path or “nein” in German

one four nine” in the English Ordinal system equals 136 – one engaged in a “yes, no may be” process, all the “vices” in check but one

one three six” in the English Ordinal system equals 142 – one engaged with their brain in the process

one four two” in the English Ordinal system equals 152 – one engaged with the sensation of the five senses in the process

(“earth” in the English Ordinal system equals 52) – our home

*note – these two influential men are just a portion of those who have influenced and taught me much I have needed to know about this life.  I believe everyone, no matter their form,  is both teacher and student in this life.

24 March 2015

Two halves of one whole – Nikola Tesla and Wilhelm Reich

This morning I had another “Aha” but this time it was the biggest yet.  I mentioned in a recent blog that I had begun exploring the making of orgonite.  Well in my research of the founder of Orgone, Wilhem Reich, I realized this was familiar.  Many years ago I remember reading or hearing about a “rain maker.”  A man who went to drought stricken towns and with a device “made it rain.”  He had been denounced and pretty much labeled a quack so he slipped out of my consciousness but I always wondered after learning about him if we could control the weather.  I never knew his name…until now.

So I’ve made a couple pieces of my own orgonite and before reading more about Wilhelm’s origin story had wondered if orgonite could be used to help with mental health therapy…low and behold he thought so too and did a lot of research and experiments to prove it!  I wanted to learn more and this morning watched a video on You tube from the Wilhelm Reich Infant Trust.  It’s a short, 3 part documentary called “Man’s Right to Know” detailing Reich’s life and research.  It hit me pretty hard that what happened to him is almost verbatim to what happened to Tesla!

“Man’s right to know, to learn, to inquire, to investigate human emotions must, by all means be safe if the word Freedom should ever be more than an empty political slogan.” Reich’s response to Complaint for Injunction

So I’m going to share with you here how two halves of my crude learning and discovery have come together.  Contrary to past posts, I’m not editing this from my scrap paper scrawl.  I am not a scientist or particularly learned individual…my school has primarily been life.  My Dad has told me that is what life is….”Life is school; we are never out of school.”

Some of what I write here may seem extreme and hard to digest…comprehend.  If you find this conflict within yourself as you try to read this, I say I may not be your messenger.  You must seek your messenger elsewhere but this message to you must be received.

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Reich’s work is tangible evidence to show why what we put in our bodies is largely responsible for our “energetic manifestation of reality…our bodies.”  Ingesting too much “dead” organic matter or an imbalance of it with “living” organic matter actually kills the living organisms within us.  Must have balance of dead and living ingestion to have healthy body.  Must have regular exercise and “sexercise” to discharge excess atmospheric energy our bodies are exposed to by people, animals, plants, insects, physical structures man-made and natural like rocks and minerals.  This is why after sex, especially after exercise (specifically outdoors) and chores I feel better!  If I don’t discharge energy, I feel angry, restless, and moody, depressed, overeat, seek “comfort” in shopping, entertainment etc.

Because I, and other “highly sensitive” people; Empaths, ingest much more atmospheric energy, we must use powerful, frequent discharge/detox techniques to balance or “ground” ourselves.  We are tiny “mini-me’s” of Mother Earth.  What happens with her weather systems and climate is her technique for discharge/release of excess energy i.e. storms with a lot of lightening, hurricanes, typhoons, tornados earthquakes.  (to add here I would say it is also in these things and floods, heat waves, drought and other extremes she is doing things we do to try and heal ourselves and express emotion just on a much larger scale!).

Nikola Tesla studied energy, discovered “everything is energy” but on another level than Reich.  Tesla was metallic, Reich organic as an analogy.  I now have the two halves of the equation which leads me to comprehension of my abilities, interest, path of discovery and experimentation on a very crude, personal scale….my observation and experience not in a lab, in my life and the lives I encounter and catalyze.  As Reich said of those who sought to destroy, discredit, erase, and “blot out” his research, his existence and the validity and value of his work and of its existence….”I do not like it, I don’t want it, I fear it (I will destroy it – my add here.)” He said, “It’s in their structure, it’s in their blood” (kind of like Jesus supposedly said of those who crucified him, “Forgive them Father, they know not what they do.”)

I have it in my structure, my blood to be the polar opposite!  Reich, Tesla were my brothers of blood.  Our ancestry and origins of our structure and blood from the same regions of the world.  Further in my blood, 1%…Jesus…Jew….rebellion, free thinking, discovery, true understanding and the quest for proof, further understanding and learning.  These two men, all of the other men and women whose life’s work were for the betterment of the common people..one source…one purpose…unification of the “All.”  Peace amongst the “All “and the center source is understanding the Life Force, Universal consciousness, God, the one energy that connects us all.

We all come from, return to, come back to from the one source – an “energy eco-system.”

So to a degree the religions do have it kind of correct.  The way they have gone wrong is trying to control how this one force is received and processed by each living creature.  This is why one person may hear a message at church, work, home, in society and it will either “resonate” and promote action or it won’t.

Very early on a thing Ken (my ex-husband) pointed out in frustration was how he’d tell me something important like “No one can make you feel anything” and it wasn’t until I heard someone else say it would it “resonate”, make sense to me, help me comprehend it and act on this knowledge in my life.  This is why I say often, “Every message has an intended receiver.  What my message is may not be the tone, flavor etc. for my intended recipient.  They will have to hear my message through someone else but it will be delivered!”  So this is why we must have tolerance in all structures of civilization.  There is one Life Force but there are infinite delivery systems (messengers) and conductors of this one force.

To restrict these delivery systems (messengers) and conductors to one acceptable receiving system only..one channel…obstructs the Life force for each individual.  This is why there is no “right” or “wrong” way of thinking or doing (I will add it is this way of constructing society that is responsible for our current dysfunction) only different; perfectly valid.  This is called perception.  We are biologically incapable of all perceiving reality the same way and for any religious, political, organizational entity to demand only one, acceptable (permissible) perception is an abomination against the Life Force… God.

Our thoughts and deeds are energetic manifestations and forces to shape our shared reality.  Right now religious, political, organizational powers who choose to manifest and use money energy oppress and control those “beneath” them in class and station are going against the Life Force, against God.  They have been doing so throughout human history, it’s “in their structures, in their blood” as Reich said. Their entire existence, conscious and unconscious, is about controlling what they fear, “They don’t like us, don’t want us, fear us” but unfortunately (ironically) for them, they need us to continue to exist how they do.  Without our labor, our children, our thoughts, our ideas, our bodies/blood to shed on battlefields for their causes, our weaknesses that they exploit with money energy to support their lifestyles they will cease to exist.

When we give our “will” (what we buy, where we work, what we think, how we vote, how we learn, what we eat, how we carry out our daily lives) to them and their chosen money energy agendas..we give away the piece of Life Force/God that exists in all living things, which Reich in his research tangible showed and proved existed to us, to those who use the Life Force for their selfish and self-serving intent.

Their activities are an offense to the ultimate source.  As history has repeatedly shown, “These shall not stand.”

No human being can stop the will of the one source.  They obviously do not believe, understand or are in arrogant defiance of this truth.  Do they think by controlling reproduction and any facet of the will of people, plants, and animals there are no consequences?  Do not these times show us the consequence of their structural design? (Flawed design).  Specifically what comes to mind is abortion.  I do not like it but think it’s between the woman and God.  The church fears aborting a child will kill the second coming of Christ but I say to this – do you really think aborting a child would prevent God’s coming? Do they now see the parade through time of the second coming?  God’s chosen?  Some newly born and some very late in life to serve God’s will.  No one can stop the will, the message, and the purpose of the Life Force…of God.  The message will be delivered and received by those intended…if they are unsuccessful…there will be another.  There is no “one” second coming or savior.  We all, every living creature born each day is Gods arrival. (To add – in each vessel is the potential for the message to be delivered and received…acted upon.)

Those in power to use the Life Force to kill, maim, oppress, manipulate, deceive, torture, abuse, neglect, libel and steal will suffer the consequences of their activities.

Our individual piece of the Life Force amplifies, distorts or diminishes the consequences felt by them AND by us.

Our thoughts are energy.  What we focus on, put our emotional and thought energy on and subsequently act on expands…it grows…it manifests reality.  When we focus on what’s wrong, what we don’t like, don’t want, fear…we are creating more of it…giving it our personal power…Life Force…feeding it.  “Mind your thoughts” and “Be careful what you wish for, surely you will get it” are phrases we know and say without understanding the truth in them.

As a more than 1% of the population we must reclaim our personal pieces of the Life Force and channel our for we want in the world…how we want to change the world.  We must simplify, unify, choose tangible contact with people, places, nature and things vs the distractions used to control us (technology)…placate us.  We already know what is wrong, the point has been made long ago, we must now focus on what we need to do to make it right….restore balance to us and in turn the Earth.

https://nikolateslamuseum.org/en/ – link to the museum dedicated to sharing the works of “Nikki” as I fondly call him lol.

Here is a link to a three part video that could give you some personal insight into why I admire the work of Dr. Reich:

http://wilhelmreichtrust.org/ – website to learn more about him if you are interested

18 Feb 2019 Flowers

flowers in Simple Gematria equals: 98

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 =

2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5= 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 comes back to 1

For some there is no question that they like flowers.  For some there is a question which flowers they like.  For some they like flowers but are allergic to them so they cannot enjoy flowers except from a great distance.  For some they know for certain they do not like flowers and avoid them at all cost.  For some it is not enough to dislike flowers.  They will go out of their way to destroy flowers for others so that no one may enjoy them.

What happens with the like or dislike of flowers could also cross over to people and anything else with a spirit, anything or anyone that comes from the God of my understanding.

A further look at how the sum for the flower breaks down:

nine eight in Simple Gematria equals: 91

nine one in Simple Gematria equals: 76

seven six in Simple Gematria equals: 117

one one seven in Simple Gematria equals: 133

one three three in Simple Gematria equals: 146

one four six in Simple Gematria equals: 146

(rose = 57/12/3 cycle)

DSC_0569 27 April 2018 rose in the morning sun Alvarado TX

Fluttershy’s Coronation Dress by Bethiebo on deviantART – I don’t have permission to use this image so I won’t.  For those unfamiliar, My Little Pony has a character named Fluttershy and she is one of my favorites.  When I was in a very dark depression it was at first the original MLP and then the current show that helped lift me out.  The show was like a life preserver from God to me and I’m very grateful for it.  The show is positive and tries to teach life lessons in a way many levels, many ages of people, can comprehend in a loving way.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lauren_Faust – never knew what she looked like until today.  She looks a lot like my husbands avatar for Monster Hunter Lol!  Thank you for your work Lauren and all those who work with you to try and make the entertainment world a better place for people like me.