11 Sept 2018 Are you sorry you did something wrong or just sorry you got caught?

Kyle and I were talking today about whether or not most people are genuinely sorry when they have done something wrong.  Are they sorry about what they did or are they just sorry because they got caught.  It seems like there are so many laws that don’t get enforced or if they do they are not consistently enforced.  I honestly believe the lack of consistency goes to a lot more people are misbehaving than we have law enforcement to actually catch them at it.  I also suspect there are many laws on the books that really are either too complicated for the average person to understand or are out of step with our times.  Many people probably don’t even know they are even breaking a law there are so many of them and they are so complicated to understand.  The term “legalese” comes to mind.  I’ve tried to read some laws and it’s made my head hurt.  The language they use for a lot of laws are not the normal words that most of us use day to day.  Did they do that on purpose?  May be.

I’m going to take a break from here for a couple of days.  We are going to be having some extra four legged visitors for a few days and that will keep me pretty occupied!  Another reason I need to step away is I know I’m repeating myself.  I tried to draw today and I was empty – nothing came to me.  This isn’t necessarily a bad thing but it does make for a disappointment for those of you who started following my blog for my art works!

Anyhew… here is my brainstorm.  It’s not all inclusive but it’s interesting to see some of the common terms in numbers.  I am doing something a little different and making sure the dividing by 2 happens all the way through.  It’s interesting to see how some of these items really are not straight-forward and require analysis, which is pretty accurate to what is actually going on.

Brainstorm about being sorry for doing something wrong

  1. I’m sorry in Simple Gematria equals: 117

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

  1. I got caught in Simple Gematria equals: 111

3 cycle

  1. I am innocent in Simple Gematria equals: 117

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

  1. I’m not guilty in Simple Gematria equals: 165

12/6/3 cycle

  1. Somebody else did it in Simple Gematria equals: 185

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. I dont know what you are talking about in Simple Gematria equals: 395

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. I’m not sorry in Simple Gematria equals: 166

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. guilty conscience in Simple Gematria equals: 184

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. *forgiveness in Simple Gematria equals: 139

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. ask for forgiveness in Simple Gematria equals: 209

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. cheat in Simple Gematria equals: 37

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. lie in Simple Gematria equals: 26

8/4/2/1

  1. steal in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/6/3 cycle

  1. obstruct the truth in Simple Gematria equals: 238

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. corruption in Simple Gematria equals: 149

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. be unfaithful in Simple Gematria equals: 125

8/4/2/1

  1. adultery in Simple Gematria equals: 106

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. commit a crime in Simple Gematria equals: 122

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. commit murder in Simple Gematria equals: 152

8/4/2/1

  1. break the law in Simple Gematria equals: 106

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. bribery in Simple Gematria equals: 79

16/8/4/2/1

  1. libel in Simple Gematria equals: 40

4/2/1

  1. plagerism in Simple Gematria equals: 100

1 or 100 divided by 2 = 50 divided by 2 = 25 divided by 2 = 12.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. assault in Simple Gematria equals: 93

12/6/3 cycle

  1. hide evidence in Simple Gematria equals: 93

12/6/3 cycle

  1. destroy evidence in Simple Gematria equals: 173

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. perjury in Simple Gematria equals: 113

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. bribe a witness in Simple Gematria equals: 146

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 3743/17/8/4/2/1 3743 divided by 28 = 133.67857 = 40/4/2/1 which is same value for item 22. libel in Simple Gematria equals: 40)

defamation in Simple Gematria equals: 88 is another word for libel

https://dictionary.law.com/Default.aspx?selected=1153

libel

1) n. to publish in print (including pictures), writing or broadcast through radio, television or film, an untruth about another which will do harm to that person or his/her reputation, by tending to bring the target into ridicule, hatred, scorn or contempt of others. Libel is the written or broadcast form of defamation, distinguished from slander, which is oral defamation. It is a tort (civil wrong) making the person or entity (like a newspaper, magazine or political organization) open to a lawsuit for damages by the person who can prove the statement about him/her was a lie. Publication need only be to one person, but it must be a statement which claims to be fact and is not clearly identified as an opinion. While it is sometimes said that the person making the libelous statement must have been intentional and malicious, actually it need only be obvious that the statement would do harm and is untrue. Proof of malice, however, does allow a party defamed to sue for general damages for damage to reputation, while an inadvertent libel limits the damages to actual harm (such as loss of business) called special damages. Libel per se involves statements so vicious that malice is assumed and does not require a proof of intent to get an award of general damages. Libel against the reputation of a person who has died will allow surviving members of the family to bring an action for damages. Most states provide for a party defamed by a periodical to demand a published retraction. If the correction is made, then there is no right to file a lawsuit. Governmental bodies are supposedly immune to actions for libel on the basis that there could be no intent by a non-personal entity, and further, public records are exempt from claims of libel. However, there is at least one known case in which there was a financial settlement as well as a published correction when a state government newsletter incorrectly stated that a dentist had been disciplined for illegal conduct. The rules covering libel against a “public figure” (particularly a political or governmental person) are special, based on U.S. Supreme Court decisions. The key is that to uphold the right to express opinions or fair comment on public figures, the libel must be malicious to constitute grounds for a lawsuit for damages. Minor errors in reporting are not libel, such as saying Mrs. Jones was 55 when she was only 48, or getting an address or title incorrect. 2) v. to broadcast or publish a written defamatory statement.

See also: defamation libel per se public figure slander

it is a matter of opinion in Simple Gematria equals: 248/14/5

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

court of law in Simple Gematria equals: 134/8 (133.67857)

 

 

 

 

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11 Sept 2018 Seventeenth Anniversary (9/11)

Hello to you.  How are you?  I’m doing ok.  Today is the 17th anniversary of 9/11/2001.  Today I’m thinking about all the survivors who are yet struggling with cancer and the other adverse health conditions that came from the day.  I am thinking about the family of those who died that day….all of us.  Directly or indirectly, we are all family.   Sometimes families fight and do really horrible things to each other.  To me, as I look at 9/11 all these years later, that day is a testimony to what extremes can come from a dysfunctional family.

https://www.gematrix.org/

nine eleven two thousand one in Simple Gematria equals: 299/20/2/1

dysfunctional family in Simple Gematria equals: 229/13/4/2/1

seventeenth anniversary in Simple Gematria equals: 283/13/4/2/1

survivor in Simple Gematria equals: 144/9 cycle

family in Simple Gematria equals: 66/12/6/3 cycle

cancer in Simple Gematria equals: 44/8/4/2/1

broken heart in Simple Gematria equals: 117/9 cycle (I see 9/11 in here)

= 1182/12/6/3 cycle 

Links to some of the remaining posts I have here about 9/11:

https://saymber.com/2018/08/21/21-aug-2018-exploring-the-meaning-of-9-11-in-another-way-with-numbers/

https://saymber.com/2017/12/06/6-dec-2017-pete-davidson-snl-survivor-of-9-11/

https://saymber.com/2016/09/10/10-sept-2016-trying-to-regain-trust-in-my-country-bakken-pipeline-and-911-tech-n9ne-ft-redcloud-ptsd-songvideo-about-standing-rock-pipeline-protests-mc-redcloud-lyrics-green-party-jill-st/

https://saymber.com/2017/10/05/5-oct-2017-what-constant-exposure-to-negative-news-is-doing-to-our-mental-health-huffington-post-carolyn-gregoire/

A quick numbers run about some aspects of money:

old money in Simple Gematria equals: 103/4/2/1

new money in Simple Gematria equals: 114/6/3 cycle

wealth in Simple Gematria equals: 69/15/6/3 cycle  (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

rich in Simple Gematria equals: 38/11/2/1  or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

poor in Simple Gematria equals: 64/10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

middle income in Simple Gematria equals: 106/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

checking account in Simple Gematria equals: 137/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

savings account in Simple Gematria equals: 168/15/6/3 cycle

bank account in Simple Gematria equals: 105/6/3 cycle

credit union in Simple Gematria equals: 132/6/3 cycle

wall street in Simple Gematria equals: 135/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

individual retirement account in Simple Gematria equals: 309/12/6/3 cycle

roth ira plan in Simple Gematria equals: 132/6/3 cycle

taxes in Simple Gematria equals: 69/15/6/3 cycle

taxpayer in Simple Gematria equals: 110/2/1  (president in Simple Gematria equals: 110)

= 1791/18/9 cycle

money in Simple Gematria equals: 72/9 cycle

 

13 Aug 2018 32 Years, school’s back in session, dreams and owls for Zarbakht

Hello!  It’s the first day of school for us here in Alvarado TX and I can already hear the train of traffic starting behind the house.  Must be some new folks driving to school now – lots of stereo thumping and bass going by.   It’s hard to get motivated to go back to school!  Even as long ago as that’s been for me, I still remember the feeling.  Kind of the same feeling you get on Sunday  night before having to go back to work on Monday!  “Do I have to go?!”

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I was hoping the city would fix the road problem before all this started but they weren’t able to I guess.  Between the extreme heat and now the rain and wet I guess it wasn’t possible.  Every once in a while we hear a loud thump that sounds like thunder as someone who doesn’t know the divet is there hits it.  The dogs are reasonable to freak out about it!

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Personal Milestone:

It was 32 years ago today that I joined the Air Force.  I was medically retired from being a Personnelist (basically I flew a desk aka I was a secretary) in September 2002.  Man I’m getting old but just in numbers lool!  I don’t miss that part of my life but I will always miss many of the people I had the honor to work with.  It was a great experience to work with people from all walks of life and not care about our differences.  We were a team and in many cases close like family.  I think of these people often and hope wherever and whenever life has taken them that they are well.

Dreams:

Last night –

Had a couple of interesting dreams.  I’ve been having a lot of them lately.  The first one was about being a bird and flying.  I flew into a wood where there was a group of people gathered.  A woman was telling me to follow the currents.  I veered off course but then I saw a flock of birds and started to follow them.  I ended up near a woman who changed into a leopard cat.  Something about her car getting stuck.  I remember seeing the tail lights of a car.  Just before I woke from this dream I flew into a brush of nettles – a thorny bushes – and couldn’t find my way out.

The dream before I woke up was interesting.  I was trying out for a sports team.  I was a tomboy and they could tell.  Then I remember being back stage wearing a jacket and had a cigar or something in my mouth.  I was confident even with not knowing what song I was going to sing.  I went out to a room full of people and started singing about unity and freedom like a black woman might, a very big and powerful voice.  The crowd wasn’t sure about me!

Nap yesterday –

12 Aug 2018 – What came to me in my brief time out chalking yesterday. This would be a lovely fountain!

I dreamt I was doing some exercise routine like aerobics outside in the sunshine in front of a tall white house.  I could see someone in the top floor window moving/watching me.  It wasn’t “me” in the dream.  The way I could tell it wasn’t me was I could see my thighs/knees/legs were very thick and muscular.  My skin was reddish brown.  I was moving very fast, effortless almost like a child might.  My hands were smaller.  I woke up from this dream hearing Native American singing set to very fast paced electronic dance music.

Changing gears:  OWLS! (owls are symbolic of wisdom and learning – which is perfect for folks going back to school today!)

Yesterday I commented on a post by a new WordPress friend Zarbakht.  She had shared about her kitty Margo not feeling well and in one of the pictures Margo was sleeping with a Ty Beanie Boo Owl like I have in my collection.  Well when I mentioned this, she was very enthusiastic for me to share more about these owls of mine.  She apparently is very much in love with owls!  I’m not sure if she thought I had real owls, as some people do so I clarified for her the only owls in my possession were of the stuff variety.  However, my friend Cindy Knoke (https://cindyknoke.com/?s=owls) is an amazing nature photographer and has captured the image of REAL owls in the wild and near her property!

Anyhew – I love owls too.  This is for you Zarbakht!

Numbers in the Words:

United States Air Force = 232/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Military = 107/8/4/2/1

Computer = 111/3 cycle

Owl = 50/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Photography = 149/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Public School = 135/9 cycle

Roads = 57/12/3 cycle

School Bus = 114/6/3 cycle

College = 59/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Freedom = 66/12/3 cycle

Dreams = 60/6/3 cycle

https://www.nasa.gov/ – bookmarked so I can check in on Parker mission!

13 Aug 2018 – Link and his “Ma I just pooped in your bathroom again” face.

 

 

 

 

27 July 2018 The Mystery

Hello to you.  I’m doing  post this evening and probably going to take this weekend off.  These drawings are my way of working through what I’m feeling about the headlines I’ve been seeing lately with regards to death be it natural causes like Chiyo’s or as in the case of Ellie Soutter not so natural….downright suspicious even.  I can’t get my brain around why Ellie took her own life just before her 18th birthday party.  My condolences go out to all those who knew and loved her.  The same sentiment goes for those who knew and loved Chiyo….anyone on this planet who died today.

There is no understanding suicide.  I’m several years from my Mother and her father’s ‘s suicide and know there never will be an answer to satisfy me or anyone else who knew and loved them.  There is no definitive understanding of death….specifically the life that comes after.  There may be all the scientific answers and clinical explanations for why, how and what death is but none of those ever give those left behind closure or peace.  As far as I can tell thus far, no matter the way death comes,  it is and will always remain the ultimate mystery.

I hope you all have a lovely weekend.

Links with excerpts – please use link to read entire article if you interested to learn more.

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/worlds-oldest-person-chiyo-miyako-dies-at-117-in-japan/

TOKYO — The world’s oldest person, a 117-year-old Japanese woman, has died. Chiyo Miyako died on Sunday, the prefectural government of Kanagawa, her home state south of Tokyo, confirmed on Friday.

Miyako, born on May 2, 1901, became the world’s oldest person in April after Nabi Tajima from the Kikai island in southern Japan died at age 117.

https://www.mirror.co.uk/sport/other-sports/ellie-soutter-killed-herself-remote-12992146

Ellie Soutter killed herself in remote woodland just before her 18th birthday party, her family reveal

Police tracker dogs found her body at 11.15pm on Wednesday, her 18th birthday, hours before she was due to attend a birthday party with family and friends.

https://www.reuters.com/article/us-lunar-eclipse/blood-moon-to-dominate-night-sky-in-longest-lunar-eclipse-of-21st-century-idUSKBN1KH13G

NAIROBI (Reuters) – A blood-red moon dazzled star gazers across much of the world on Friday when it moved into Earth’s shadow for the longest lunar eclipse of the 21st Century.

Confused? Frustrated? Mercury in retrograde this week

This is a big week for anyone into the zodiac or who leans toward the more astrological mindset because tiny Mercury goes into retrograde today.

Astronomers debunk any Earthly wonkiness that may occur during Mercury’s apparent backward travel through the night sky. It is actually an illusion that the solar system’s smallest planet appears to put its gears in reverse moving east to west through the stars.

Nonetheless, all manner of hijinks are attributed to this galactic magic trick, including confusion, delays, miscommunication and frustration.

Even a bad date, or a poor work presentation is blamed on Mercury’s apparent backwards slide.

“The planet Mercury rules communication, travel, contracts, automobiles, and such,” says The Old Farmer’s Almanac. “So, when Mercury is in retrograde, remain flexible, allow time for extra travel, and avoid signing contracts. Review projects and plans at these times, but wait until Mercury is direct again to make any final decisions.”

14 July 2018 Inception

Hello to you.  Just a quick note before I get breakfast started.  Not sure the painting on canvas is going to happen today.  We have lots of chores to do today and my butt is dragging a bit.  May be tomorrow?!  Part of the reason I’m so tired is just before falling asleep last night there was a loud explosion like someone set off a firework right in the middle of the street.  I was so pissed!  Not good to try to go to sleep mad.  It was hard to go back to sleep after that.  We found out this morning the sound we heard was someone hitting our neighbors truck!  UGH!

Then there were all the dreams I had that made me think of the movie Inception – dreams within dreams.  I’m with the Kyle I know but I’m like a person within a person as I lay next to him.  Then there is a man with dark hair and dark eyes telling me, “I have work to do.” Then all the sudden I’m in something like a fight scene in a movie on a train with stuff flying everywhere.  Another was of going to a beach that was all vibrant with a lot of teal green going on.  There were seals and I could see a life guard.  Then that same scene was devoid of color, of seals and the life guard – it was all washed out, cloudy and drab.   When my brain is running like that, I don’t wake up feeling very rested.   I guess my dreams are a reflection of the influx of random stuff I’ve been putting in my head via television, movies and internet.

  1. in·cep·tion = 105/6/3 cycle
    [inˈsepSH(ə)n]

    NOUN
    inceptions (plural noun)
    1. the establishment or starting point of an institution or activity.
      “she has been on the board since its inception two years ago”
      synonyms: establishment · institution · foundation · founding · formation · initiation · setting up · origination · constitution · inauguration · opening · beginning · start · starting point · outset ·

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Sending you hugs, love, prayers and positive vibes through the wires today!

Be kind,
for everyone
you meet
is carrying
a great
burden.

ian maclaren – circa 1898

Adapted from original version: “Be pitiful, for every man is fighting a hard battle.” Ian MacLaren was the pen name of Reverend John Watson.

13 July 2018 My Present (birthday), chalk drawings and Once Upon a Star (poem)

Hello there!  Hope you are doing well today.  Today is my husband’s 34th birthday and he said this morning, “It seems like your more excited for my birthday than I am!”  I replied, “I am!  Today is the day my present got here!”  Long before I met Kyle I can remember standing under a starry sky and asking, “Where are you?!”  Little did I know such a person was on their way to my heart and to my life.  Having a husband like Kyle is proof I must have done at least one good thing so far in this life!

I have been sharing a lot of pictures lately knowing I’m probably going to run out of room lool.  It’s worth the trouble.

Once Upon a Star – (Blog poem I wrote 3 May 2006)

Weary eyes and weary soul my light embers dim

I look into the heavens for Pleiades and sing a faraway song

A forgotten hymn

The sisters dance forever make haste to Venus

A veil of silk and dreamwork

Cast a spell between us

Sitting in my plane of invisible air I fly

Through space and time

To your gleaming spires my voice will cry

Once upon a star

Neither light nor shadow

The distance far

 

29 June 2018 Appreciation

Hello!  Hope this finds you well in your now as you visit.  We are doing pretty good here.  Sleep hasn’t been coming to either us very easily lately.  We almost missed the narrow window this morning before it gets too hot to take the dogs for a walk!  Kyle had woke up around 3 am and decided to watch The Last Jedi and he wasn’t real impressed with it.  He said it was very slow and it felt like they had a lot of good ideas that they didn’t get put together very well.  Glad I stayed in bed then!

How do you show your appreciation when someone compliments you, gives you something or just does something nice for you?  This morning I did a simple drawing and got the most humorous form of appreciation I could ask for my effort from our dear Link.  He decided it looked like a lovely rug and went and sprawled out on it.  I was too slow to get a picture of that part but did get these pictures of him in his new outfit!  He was so proud of himself.

As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them. John F. Kennedy
Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/topics/appreciation

Some of the finest teachers on my journey have had wings, feathers, fur, whiskers and barks, purrs, whistles and buzzes for voices. Dogs taught me from a very young age you can say a whole lot with just a look.

1 16 16 18 5 3 9 1 20 9 15 14

A P P R E C I A T I O N = 127/10/1

7 18 1 20 5 6 21 12

G  R A T E F U L = 90/9 cycle

In case no one has said this to you today – THANK YOU!

20 June 2018 Morning Chalk Drawings and World Refugee Day

Hello to you.  How are you?  My mind feels like there are just marshmallows up there lately!  Just a very surreal feeling all around for me lately.  I guess the movie we watched last night was perfect for that!  We finally watched Through the Looking Glass last night and we enjoyed it.  I loved the imagery throughout and Kyle could see many video game inspired sets.  Seeing the Alan Rickman farewell tribute was sad.  I thought his being the voice of a blue butterfly, which symbolizes freedom, was perfect for this being his last film. 

Alice Through the Looking Glass Official Trailer #2 (2016) – Mia Wasikowska, Johnny Depp Movie HD

This morning on the dog walk I saw another neighbors yard that looked like someone had messed with it.  So far there have been three that I’ve seen in our immediate neighborhood.  We aren’t quite sure if the culprit is a human or a large canine that’s getting loose.  It looked like human activity to me.  We are living in a small town that is starting to experience big city problems.  People move to small towns from larger ones and bring their problems along with them.  Taking a young person of whatever age from a place where there friends are, support systems are and where there is more to do and transplanting them into a town like ours can be quite a culture shock for them.  When you are bored, and I know this from being their age once, you sometimes do stupid shit you will regret.  All the things that are going on are things I warned the city council before the growth and development started and it’s so frustrating to see it actually happening.   

http://www.cleburnetimesreview.com/news/vandalism-occurring-at-alvarado-parks-on-a-daily-basis/article_01727e86-7000-11e8-aa1f-9b6b57c211a0.html

“Over at Parkway Park on Monday there was some graffiti of racial slurs,” he said. “It was tagged on some of the benches, the little library and the skate park. It took about four hours to try to remove the paint, which they weren’t able to do all the way so they had to just sand it down and go back later to repaint.”

Alvarado Park board member Terri Fulton said the little free libraries — built and donated by members of the Alvarado Rocks group — have been the most disheartening.

“We’re a little irritated about this,” she said. “You will see that people are constantly refilling them with books, so that means kids are using them. But there’s been spray painting on them and the other day someone busted out the Plexiglass in one of them.”

And then they are talking about growing our town….ironically for the past few days we’ve been unable to properly flush the toilet for lack of water pressure!  This has been an ongoing problem since we moved here in 2009 too!  It’s taken millions of dollars to fix just the plumbing and sewer  infrastructure.  Don’t get me started on the conditions of our roads!   

http://www.cleburnetimesreview.com/news/durington-welcomes-growth-to-alvarado/article_32870120-6b61-11e8-b234-030937a8f7a1.html

“Holden said some of the challenges the mayor discussed during the meeting scare him.

“I’ve got to be able to provide water and I’ve got to be able for you to flush the toilet, and if I can’t, there is a big problem,” he said. “We want people to come [to Alvarado], but if they do we are going to have to do some major improvements to the system. We are working on ways right now, looking at all of the development as a whole. We want to be able to look at the big picture.”

Yep….growing pains on the small town scale and then there is World Refugee Day today and our extremely sad and embarrassing goings on with immigration in my country.  I don’t even know what to do with this in my heart.  It’s a very complex and sensitive issue that can’t be handled with rough hands.  I feel like we have yet to really tackle as a globe the core issues as to “why” it’s happening in the first place.  If people have food, clean water, clothing, shelter, meaningiful work and education opportunities, and they feel safe living where they are (not in the center of crime, violence, slavery and or a war zone) will tend to stay where they are and flourish.  We apparently have oodles of  people without checkmarks in those boxes and are understandably on the move!  

18 5 6 21 7 5 5

R E F U G E E = 67/13/4/2/1

9 13 13 9 7 18 1 14 20

I M M I G R A N T = 104/5 divide by 2 = 2.5 = 7 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Number of refugees worldwide

The total includes 16 million refugees and asylum seekers and 26 million internally displaced people uprooted within their own countries, according to UNHCR’s annual “Global Trends” report released today.

 

Why do immigrants and refugees  keep coming to America?  Part of it has to be money.  Someone is paying them enough money to live here.  I think if our government is going to insist on punishing these people and their children like this, they need to “follow the money.”  In all the articles I’ve looked at about this chronic issue, this element just doesn’t come up.  The blame always seems to fall on the immigrants and refugees for their existing.   Who is hiring these people to be nannies, yard workers, produce pickers, home builders, masons, welders, road construction workers, janitors etc?! 

https://blogs.voanews.com/all-about-america/2015/08/24/most-common-jobs-held-by-immigrants-in-each-us-state/If there is no economic – this article is rather dated but does show interesting information that probably hasn’t changed too much:

Most Common Jobs Held by Immigrants in each US State

There are 41 million foreign-born people living in the United States and a new map illustrates the most common jobs held by those immigrants.

Business Insider  used information from the US Census Bureau’s American Community Survey, an ongoing statistical survey that samples a small percentage of the population every year. The data was assembled and processed by the Minnesota Population Center’s Integrated Public Use Microdata Series program.

The map below shows the jobs most commonly held by people who said they were born in a country other than the United States.

Immigrants make up 12.9 percent of the overall population, according to the Center for American Progress. That sounds like a lot of people, but the high point for immigration in the U.S. actually came in 1890, when 14.8 percent of the population was foreign born.

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While the map shows that many immigrants are housekeepers, janitors and agricultural workers, the majority of jobs thought to be overwhelmingly worked by non-natives are in fact filled by native-born Americans, according to the Center for Immigration Studies:

  • Maids and housekeepers: 51% native-born
  • Taxi drivers and chauffeurs: 58% native-born
  • Butchers and meat processors: 63% native-born
  • Grounds maintenance workers: 64% native-born
  • Construction laborers: 66% native-born
  • Porters, bellhops, and concierges: 72% native-born
  • Janitors: 73% native-born

Jobs worked by immigrants tend to pay low wages and usually require little formal education. In high-immigrant occupations, 59 percent of the workers have a high school education or lower, compared to 31 percent of the rest of the labor force.

 https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/pope-francis-criticizes-separation-of-immigrant-children-from-their-parents-on-us-border/ar-AAyUlD7

https://www.npr.org/2018/06/19/621065383/what-we-know-family-separation-and-zero-tolerance-at-the-border

https://www.madinamerica.com/2016/11/combining-art-therapy-mindfulness-refugees/ I found this article and it really resonated for me as a way to help promote internal healing for both refugees and the immigrant children we are seeing locked up in detention centers right now: 

Combining Art Therapy and Mindfulness for Refugees

Program in Hong Kong demonstrates the healing power of art therapy and mindfulness for refugees and asylum seekers

A new article, published in The Arts in Psychotherapy, describes the ways art therapy and mindfulness have benefitted refugees and asylum seekers in Hong Kong. The article describes how the program, Inhabited Studio, which provides workshops on art making and mindfulness meditation, has supported individuals in moving forward after traumatic experiences.

“The combination of art therapy and mindfulness helped participants cope day to day and allowed participants to begin to get a sense of not only who they were and what they had lived through, but potentially who they could become,” write the authors, led by Debra Kalmanowitz from the Department of Social Work and Social Administration at the University of Hong Kong.

The increasing number of Syrian refugees has raised the issue of how to support the mental health of individuals who have fled their countries and experienced political violence. An estimated 11 million refugees have left Syria since 2011 and there are over 21 million refugees worldwide. Although the majority of refugees do not develop Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, mental health professionals working with refugees often use a trauma framework.

The authors state:  “It is true that we do not want to medicalize distress and that we cannot take it out of context, and yet we cannot ignore the disadvantaged situation in which asylum seekers live or the suffering they endure.”

Both art therapy and mindfulness have been used with survivors of trauma. This theoretical article “considers how the combination of art therapy and mindfulness in work with refugees acknowledges human suffering and traumatic events while at the same time recognises the resilience that exists and the search for healing, health and growth.”

The authors describe the ways art therapy and mindfulness have been combined to provide support for refugees and asylum seekers at Inhabited Studio in Hong Kong. Inhabited Studio is a short-term group program that uses a holistic approach and provides workshops over an 8 day period. “The presence of the group allowed for the individuals to be seen, witnessed and heard (even without words) and in so doing served to share and normalize behavior and expression,” write the authors. The authors outline nine features found in the work at Inhabited Studio that may be used as broader guides for providing support to refugees.

Safety: Establishing a sense of safety is one of the most basic needs after experiencing a trauma and the authors note that it “is an on-going process and not something that is established once and maintained.” The authors found that art therapy and meditation assisted individuals in regulating their emotions, which aided in regaining a sense of emotional safety.

Doing versus thinking: The authors explain that art therapy and mindfulness emphasize doing, and describe the importance of an experiential approach. “Art making and mindfulness meditation demand a focus of the mind through activity or inactivity, action or inaction, through direct experience,” write the authors.

Changing our relationship to our thoughts and feelings: “Making art externalizes our thoughts and feelings and creates a distance between them” while “mindfulness effects relationship too; rather than trying to control the thoughts and feelings, there is an emphasis on acknowledgment and acceptance of them,” explain the authors.

Time: According to the authors, “trauma can trap a person in the past.” Since both the creative process and mindfulness are grounded in the present moment, they can be helpful activities for those who are overwhelmed by memories.

Making meaning: Meaning making involves both making sense of the trauma and of one’s current experiences. The authors explain how art therapy and mindfulness can assist in meaning making because “both lead to an awareness of the self and the context of the self in relation to the event, the group, the culture, the violence and or society.” To illustrate this, one of the participants of Inhabited Studio reported, “I am very proud of this drawing… it tells me something very clear that I did not know.”

Flexibility: Individuals who have experienced trauma may get stuck in their thinking patterns. The creative process can facilitate mental flexibility, and mindfulness can make it easier to tolerate intense negative emotions and still return to an emotional equilibrium.

Catharsis: “Art therapy can facilitate the expression of feelings that are associated with the trauma, suffering, and coping, such as anger, rage, vulnerability, depression, frustration or joy and pleasure. This can lead to a sense of relief as well as reveal that which was previously unconscious,” explain the authors.

Increased self-awareness and self-knowledge: Both self-awareness and self-knowledge can be promoted by art making and mindfulness practices. One participant described how the process of making multiple pieces of art helped her to clarify her emotions, “I have many mixed feelings although I am looking towards a better future. So the next painting I tried to sort out the colours to help me next time to be more focused… to know exactly what I want.”

Coping with loss: The authors report, “Art therapy and mindfulness together allowed for the expression of loss and also to begin a process of the formation of a new identity… It took strength and imagination to create a new identity and the open structure, along with the non-judgemental attitude of the Studio provided the potential.”

“Political violence has far-reaching effects. It can challenge the community and society, lead to fragmentation and destruction and impact on culture at large. Political violence impacts on the individual and can lead to the breakdown of relationships between individuals, community and society itself,” write the authors. Refugees and asylum seekers who have experienced trauma and political violence deserve support services that do not pathologize their experiences, but instead honor both their suffering and strength.

The focus on art therapy for refugees is part of a larger trend to explore how art can be used in therapeutic ways (for example, art therapy for veterans with PTSD or for individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia, and music therapy for children and adolescents). The authors in the present article state that the “overlap between art therapy and mindfulness in this context represent the realities of the suffering of the participants as well as the possibility of working towards enhancing coping and resilience.”

Kalmanowitz, D., & Ho, R. T. (2016). Out of our mind. Art therapy and mindfulness with refugees, political violence and trauma. The Arts in Psychotherapy, 49, 57-65. (Abstract)

 

Here are some links to some music I was exploring this morning.  I am on the hunt for new sounds and this Electro Swing and Modern Jazz struck a chord:

Club Des Belugas – The Beat Is Rhythm

Orkestra Obsolete play Blue Monday using 1930s instruments – BBC Arts – I love the version done by Orgy for this song so finding this tickled me.

Electro Swing Collection – ads in between

Published on Dec 2, 2014

PLAYLIST OF INDIVIDUAL SONGS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C6-TW…

SONGS
0:00:00 Parov Stelar – All Night
0:02:42 Jamie Berry (ft Rosie Harte) – Peeping Tom
0:06:12 Scott Bradlee & Post Modern Jukebox – Thrift Shop (Baker&Bart Electro Swing Remix)
0:09:59 Parov Stelar – The Mojo Radio Gang
0:12:38 Lionel Hampton – It Don’t Mean A Thing
0:16:14 Caravan Palace – Dragons
0:20:27 Tape Five – Geraldines Routine
0:23:32 Caravan Palace – Suzy
0:27:40 Jamie Berry (ft Octavia Rose) – Delight
0:33:24 Dunkelbunt (Ft Boban) – Cinnamon Girl
0:37:20 Jamie Berry – Sweet Rascal
0:41:28 Parov Stelar – Booty Swing
0:44:40 Parov Stelar – Libella Swing
0:49:00 Parov Stelar – Catgroove
0:53:29 Parov Stelar – Chambermaid Swing
0:59:15 Jamie Berry – Dirty Stop Out
1:05:25 Parov Stelar – Beatbuddy Swing
1:09:44 Parov Stelar – Josephine

 

15 June 2018 Rough Night (dreams) and Blessed are the Peacemakers (drawing)

14 June 2018 – took this yesterday afternoon. One of my favorite sights is the sun coming through clouds.

Hello to you.  How are you?  I’m not sure how I’m doing lol.  Last night was really rough.  At about 1020 am I woke up screaming.  I thought I saw something coming down from the ceiling over my head.  Link was like, “PINEAPPLES!”  He doesn’t like it when I get upset.  We all went back to sleep and then around 1053 am I had a waking dream where it was like Kyle was at the end of the bed, I could see his shadow on the living room wall.  He was telling something off and then I heard a voice in my head “turn on the light”, so I did.  Well Kyle and dogs said screw  you Mommy and left the room after being woke up yet again.  Everything was fine until about 6:05 am when I heard a man’s voice that sounded like Kyle on my side of the bed, in my head, not with my ears say, “Because I have something to tell yah.”  This startled me awake especially since Kyle was snoring on the other side of the bed!

Not quite sure what’s going on.  The last time I woke up screaming because I thought something was on the ceiling was a couple of months ago when I was having a cycle.  I’m sure there is some logical explanation for it all.  Have you ever heard someone in your head but not with your ears before?

This morning I saw in the headlines that a man of peace, an journalist from India was shot after leaving his work.  My prayers to all who loved him:

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/06/14/world/asia/kashmir-journalist-killed.html

Kashmiri Journalist Shujaat Bukhari, a Voice for Peace, Is Killed

My evening drawing could be for him and all those in the world like him that have tried and are still trying to bring people together in this world:

http://biblehub.com/niv/matthew/5.htm – This message came to mind when I was doing my drawings yesterday.

9Blessed are the peacemakers,

for they will be called children of God.

15 5 1 3 5 13 1 11 5 18

P E A C E M A K E R = 77/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

3 8 9 12 4 18 5 14

C H I L D R E N = 73/10/1

9 June 2018 Songs of our time – What Else Is There (Royksopp) and More Than This (The Cure)

I don’t know who wrote this.  I found it on the internet this morning without an author attached to it.  It was interesting to me:

Time
If the Particle in question
is to also move in time
it should change its energy
Or it stands still in time

Hello to you.  It’s morning in my here and now.  Already battling dust bunnies and ants but mercifully there is coffee and I am not the lone witness to these petty struggles lol!  How are you?  I hope this finds you well.

This morning I wanted a couple of songs for my post and What Else Is There by Royksopp and More Than This by the Cure stood out.  Songs with messages that speak to our current times.  The struggle I think so many, to include myself, are facing these days.  What else is there to this life?  Is there more than “this?”  What exactly is “this?”

For some the “this” seems to be a struggle from the moment they are born until the moment of their departure.  For some it seems only given a moment to be born and a few short days, months of years to struggle to be here and fade away.  For some the “this” is never knowing any pain, conflict or difficulty – a pampered and sheltered existence their entire lives.

Everyone seems to arrive and depart with assigned positions on the stage of life with very few roles being cast off to another player.  Painters painting, tradespeople trading, the usury using, talking heads talking, politicians politicking, soldiers soldiering, lawyers lawyering, police, fire and emergency responders flying with unseen wings from one crisis to another.  All the possible colors and textures of our skin be it human or otherwise the costumes we adorn for this blurring dance.   In between all “this,” the first of us be they of wings or fins, frantically sew all the holes we are tearing open across this planet closed with the beauty their existence.

Ever since last January I have experienced and sensed a big change in what “this” is for me personally.  I have drifted out to the darkness and looked over the edges quite a bit.  The tether that keeps me from drifting completely away made of family, friends, love, faith and hope.   I know I am extremely blessed to have this tether as far too many in this world don’t even know any of that exists!   I have seen many others also drifting out there in the confusion that is now America.  I think there is a great sense of futility in the air.  We must stay tethered to what matters most and the wisdom of the deepest part of our heart….our souls.

I’ve experienced, spoken and written many times that there is nothing of this world that can fill the void of spirit.  If you rely completely on other people, food, drink, places, things, conquests for power, do things that garner negative attention etc. to fill you up inside, you will always be left wanting more.  Just like any addiction, it takes bigger and bigger “doses” to achieve the same results until you finally realize there will never be enough to fill you up.   Then will come the questions I think people we are seeing that have lost hope are asking, “Is this it?!  Is there nothing more than this?!  What else is there?!  What do I have to do to feel alive?!”

Röyksopp – What Else Is There? (HD)

Lyrics

It was me on that road
But you couldn`t see me
Too many lights out, but nowhere near here

It was me on that road
Still you couldn`t see me
And then flashlights and explosions

Roads ends getting nearer
We cover distance but not together
I am the storm and I am the wonder
And the flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

I don’t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

It’s about you and the sun
A morning run
The story of my maker
What have I and what I ache for

I`ve got a golden ear
I cut and I spear
And what else is there
Roads and getting nearer
We cover distance still not together

If I am the storm if I am the wonder
Will I have flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

There is no room where I can go and
You`ve got secrets too

I don`t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

Songwriters: DANNY SHOSHAN,ROBERT HUXLEY,ROGER GREENAWAY,SVEIN BERGE,TOBJOR BRUNDTLAND,KARIN DREIGER,OLAF DREIGER,TONY MACAULEY
© Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.,Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC,Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

 

Sometimes I will grasp around for something to energize me, to make me happy and often find there is nothing.  So I go outside with my music and just flop down on my cot and look up or take off my shoes and just stand still with my arms raised to the sky.  The “this” I am seeking most often finds me then.   In the eyes of my husband and my dogs, in the songs of the birds, the buzzing of the bees, the dirt between my toes, the petals of the flowers, the whispers of the trees, the blazing sun, the gentle breeze that caresses my arm and the billowing clouds overhead all is “this”…God.  

 

8 June 2018 – Drawing yesterday. The word “corners” came to mind after I was done with it.

 

the cure – more than this

 

Lyrics

For this second of your life,

Tell me that its true,

Waiting for a sign,

That’s all I want of you.

Your heart hides a secret

A promise of what is,

Something more than this.

 

Just a second of your time,

Any one will do,

Taste of any other,

Is all I want from you,

You offer me the world,

And how can I resist

Something more than this?

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible,

Nothing as it seems

To see touch taste smell hear

But never know if its real

 

For this second of your life

Tell me if its true

Anyway we are

Is all I want of you

Your lips lies a secret

A promise of a kiss

Something more than this

 

Just a second of your time

Any one will do

To know any other is all I want for you

Giving me the world

Now I can’t resist

Something more than this

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible

Nothing as it seems

Never really understand what anything means

 

Another second of my life

Not knowing if its true

Make believe in nothing

Is all I want of you

Whisper me your secret

Whisper me your ears

Always something other

Something more than this…

 

Songwriters: JAMES SMITH,NATHAN BARDEEN,RORY DOLAN,TODD EISENKERCH

© Universal Music Publishing Group

For non-commercial use only.

Data From: LyricFind

 

 

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