16 April 2021 Home

Hello to you, how are you? It’s a beautiful sunny Friday afternoon here as I write to you. The topic that has come up for me today is home, “where is my home?” They say home is where your heart is so I am left asking where is my heart? Well yesterday when I really started thinking about this question, I looked down and I saw Link! Link is 6 years old and has been with me through some of the hardest parts of the storm I’ve been in. When I say I have to go home nowadays I am thinking of Link…”I have to get home to Link.” I’m kind of afraid to get too close to him. What if he leaves me too? What will I have left? I guess I shouldn’t be thinking like that and stay in the moment but it’s hard.

Some day I hope to have a two legged someone in addition to Link to share my life with and home will be redefined once again.

Psalm 84:3-4New International Version

Even the sparrow has found a home,
    and the swallow a nest for herself,
    where she may have her young—
a place near your altar,
    Lord Almighty, my King and my God.
Blessed are those who dwell in your house;
    they are ever praising you.[a]

22 May 2020 Link

woman” in the English Ordinal system equals 66

happy” in the English Ordinal system equals 66

where is my home?” in the English Ordinal system equals 166

cat” in the English Ordinal system equals 24

home is where the heart is” in the English Ordinal system equals 241

29 April 2020 Divine timing

Hello to you out there and I hope this finds you in a good place in your life.  If not, if for some reason this finds you in the shadow place of living, I hope that you will find a light space or a light space will find you.  That’s how it worked out for me with my recent journey.  It’s amazing how a bunch of shut doors can open a bunch of new ones and even reconnect you with people you had lost touch with.

There is a phrase divine timing that comes to mind with what happened with my Uncle Bill and I this morning.  My Aunt Ruth has sent him my blog to read and no sooner had he finished reading it, I fumbled with my new phone and “accidentally” called him!  The karma/divine timing was not lost on either of us with that one!  My Aunt and Uncle have watched my journey with mental health and how I have managed to climb back up after some deep dives.  They were both pleased to read my post and I appreciate their encouragement.

It’s amazing how many people you find out love and care for you once you get plugged back in to things.  I always find myself humbled and nearly unworthy of so much love and support!  Today I got to hear from and see some folks I had been missing and find out how strong our connections are.

Facebook has turned out to actually be useful to with this latest leg of my journey and it’s been a tool to reconnect with positive people in my life.  I had kind of shunned using it but am finding it not to be such a bad thing.

The big deal today was Link coming home to see me!  I missed him, Spot and my husband so much when I was away!  I drew pictures of them in my journals almost everyday!  We are testing the waters to see how things go for the next couple of weeks.  The hardest part of being gone was the back yard really went and grew tall with no one to maintain it.  I’m looking into getting a lawn service to tame it so it’s more Link “going out to do business friendly!”

29 April 2020 – pics of Link getting adjusted to be back home.  I love that he was enjoying a pillow we kept from when we had Sammy.

Here is what divine timing looks like in Gematria:

divine timing” in the English Ordinal system equals 135 – a creed or to bear fruit

one three five” in the English Ordinal system equals 132 – a life

one three two” in the English Ordinal system equals 148 – a tree

one four eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 143 – a choice

one four three” in the English Ordinal system equals 150 – a Joy

 

one five zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 140 – a food

one four zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 158 – a feeling

one five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 125 – a one

one two five” in the English Ordinal system equals 134 – a chance

Remember, this is just my interpretation. Gematria reading is very personal and may be different from person to person.  I find it interesting that it is in a 9 cycle.  When you add up 1 +3 +5 you get 9 and if you divide 9 by 2 (the night and day of existence and light and shadow of self), you get a repeating 9 pattern.  There is a certain element of “nein” (in German “no”) or denial about divine timing and things that happen with it!  People like to call it just a coincidence but is it always?  I don’t think so.

coincidence” in the English Ordinal system equals 84 – lesson, worth