18 Aug 2018 “With a Thought” (Drawings)

Hello – hope this finds you well in your present moment.  This post is exploring some things that may or may not interest you.  I have had some interesting thoughts pass through with my drawings.  May be something here will resonate.  Thank you for taking the time to stop by!  The abyss that is now the internet is vast.  One can easily get lost within it!

Interesting how often this “grid” is coming into my thoughts.  This is an excerpt from a dream I had 14 May 2017 that involved the grid image for one of the first times.

https://saymber.com/2017/05/14/14-may-2017-mothers-day-birthday-wishes-pergola-demolition-dream-about-traveling-in-space-and-drawings/

“So the dream that woke me up this morning was pretty cool.  I guess my mind’s way of processing all these thoughts I’ve been having about particles and life.  Well in the dream I was traveling in space and it was like a black and white grid.  We actually “went off grid” and beyond what was charted or known.  Something about a ship “picking me up” (the round cell shaped ship) that was free-floating and if you passed through it, you were on a new ship.  I encountered life forms that were just light and colors.  To the person in the dream they were kind of annoying as they “poured in” through rainbow light and had voices but it was hard to understand them.  There was a blonde woman who was very mature but wasn’t very old that was a “life-form.”  I can remember seeing her talking, she was shy but don’t know what she said.”

Numbers in the Words:

“With a thought two become one” = 295/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (This is a phrase that came to me before bed when I was thinking about the drawings of the day.  Without really thinking about it I had drawn 16 lines for my grid.  It’s enormously pleasing and fulfilling to have these sorts of experiences.

Point of Singularity = 250/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Singularity = 155/11/2/1 (still ended up divided in parts)

Image result for point of singularity

In the center of a black hole is a gravitational singularity, a one-dimensional point which contains a huge mass in an infinitely small space, where density and gravity become infinite and space-time curves infinitely, and where the laws of physics as we know them cease to operate.

Singularities – Black Holes and Wormholes – The Physics of the Universe

The Sum of Two = 165/12/3 cycle (This made me chuckle, it take two to make a third.  In my mind, even when you are making something on your own it’s still “two.”  You are a co-creator working with creation (the creator) to manifest something into reality.)

Symmetry = 138/12/3 cycle

Dark Matter = 111/3 cycle

Matter = 77/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Material =79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 – 8/4/2/1

Mass = 52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

atom = 49/13/4/2/1

particle = 84/12/3 cycle

dust = 64/10/1

ash = 28/10/1

soil = 55/10/1

void =50/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (interesting how matter and void values match up)

gravity = 102/3 cycle

infinity = 106/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (interesting how it comes back to one, not a cycle)

perpetuity = 155/11/2/1 (interesting how this word, contrary to the definition we’ve given it, doesn’t mean forever either)

Perpetuity | Definition of Perpetuity by Merriam-Webster

The word derives ultimately from the Latin adjective perpetuus (“continual” or “uninterrupted”), which is also the source of our perpetual and perpetuate. It frequently occurs in the phrase “in perpetuity,” which essentially means “forever” or “for an indefinitely long period of time.”

perspective = 138/12/3 cycle

perception = 121/4/2/1

eight = 49/13/4/2/1 (when written is the infinity symbol on it’s side, it isn’t an indefinite cycle either)

one = 34/7 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

alone = 47/11/2/1

The Grid = 71/8/4/2/1

forever = 89/17/8/4/2/1 (Again, doesn’t the word and the meaning we’ve given it doesn’t coincide with what the numbers say about it! Forever and most the words like it must measure up to an individuals person’s own interpretation and perspective (a word which ironically DOES have a 3 cycle).  A second can feel both like forever or no time at all depending on who is experiencing it.   

 

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17 Aug 2018 Growing pains (Alvarado TX), drawings and dream about black smoke (Severe Storms Show off their “Plume-age” – NASA)

(Yesterdays drawings)

Hello to you.  How are you?!  It’s Friday here as I write to you, about 7:52 am.  We made the mistake of attempting to walk Link and Spot before 7:30 am.  With school having started there are folks walking to and waiting for the school buses, people driving there kids and themselves to school….a bit chaotic.  If it’s hard for me, I can’t imagine how difficult it is for Link and Spot with their heightened senses of hearing and smell.  So we put a note on our door so we don’t make the same mistake everyday lol.  If it was just Kyle and I it wouldn’t be so bad but the dogs don’t handle humans in smaller packaging very well!  Nobody looked very happy that we saw.  I said a prayer for them as I watched the filing on to the bus – “I hope you have a good day oh and be nice to each other!”

Alvarado is growing and there are a lot of things we need to get worked out as this is happening.  I think once the construction in the housing addition is completed we will finally be in a place to do that.  When Kyle and I were still going to City Council meetings we told them something is going to have to be done about North Cummings as they were considering more development.  North Cummings is the road behind our house and one of the main arteries for the neighborhoods around us.  We told them they needed to make another exit for the new addition but they didn’t choose to do that.  Now all the roads are really tore up and congested!  You can’t just keep putting more traffic on a single lane road and not expect there aren’t going to be problems!  Alvarado is right in the middle of Dallas and Ft Worth TX.  We thought it would take longer before those cities started to spread out to us, but such is not the case and it’s only been about 9 years!  The noise is so bad at times I’ve resorted to wearing ear plugs!  Growth is good but you have to be strategic about it and have vision to avoid the mistakes so many other places have made.  You have to think about the quality of life of the people you already have living in a place before profit margins.

changing gears…….

I had an interesting dream before waking that I know was triggered by seeing a NASA article I am sharing with you.  The dream was about staying in a village.  I was in an old house looking out an upstairs window.  I could see an old man standing in a plowed field and it looked like a black clouded storm was going to blow over the man while he was working.  He stayed in the field and when the cloud reached him it seemed to become like black smoke and flowed over him.  He bent down into the cloud of smoke and disappeared.

America’s Biggest Problem (14 min 40 sec long – urban sprawl problem – this is what it’s like to live in Alvarado and other small towns near big cities)

https://www.nasa.gov/feature/langley/severe-storms-show-off-their-plume-age

Severe Storms Show off their “Plume-age”

Aug. 15, 2018

It’s not quite a smoking gun, but one could be forgiven for thinking of it that way: a distinctive cloud formation that often signals damaging storms below.

Easily identifiable in satellite imagery, the Above Anvil Cirrus Plume, or AACP, looks like a plume of smoke emanating out from the top of what, in all likelihood, is a serious storm.

“The plume pattern in the imagery instantly tells you without the need for radar or lightning observations or other information that these are the storms you really, really need to look out for,” said Kris Bedka, an atmospheric scientist at NASA’s Langley Research Center in Hampton, Virginia.

The plumes have been a frequent sight over the U.S. this summer as outbreaks of severe weather have raked across the Midwest, bringing high winds, tornadoes and hail with them.

Still image of plumes from North Dakota storms.

In this still image of the North Dakota storms, jet stream air collides with towering updrafts and forms U-shaped areas of cold temperatures shown in blue. The warmer plumes, which are represented by yellow tints, are visible traveling downstream.

Credits: NASA

​Bedka is studying the AACP phenomenon with colleagues at the University of Oklahoma. Their research is showing that compared to non-plumed storms, plumed storms are significantly more likely to produce high winds, major tornadoes and large hail. In addition, their findings could help weather forecasters provide earlier warnings of severe and tornadic storms not just in the U.S. but around the world.

There are also implications for climate.

“Plume signatures are not only useful for identifying potentially severe storms, but they also represent transport of ice and water vapor into the stratosphere,” said Elisa Murillo, a graduate student at the University of Oklahoma who has collaborated extensively with Bedka on AACP research. “Water vapor is a powerful greenhouse gas, and its presence in the stratosphere has strong impacts on climate.”

The Makings of a Plume

To understand why the plumes are such good indicators of severe weather, it helps to understand the conditions that generate them.

Typical thunderstorms top out at the tropopause, the boundary between the troposphere — the lowest part of Earth’s atmosphere — and the stratosphere. As storm-producing cumulonimbus clouds hit the tropopause their tops flatten out, giving them an anvil-like appearance.

Plumes form when intense updrafts puncture the tropopause and drag cloud tops up into the stratosphere with them. There, racing stratospheric jet-stream winds and powerful updrafts collide.

“You have wind flows exceeding 100 miles an hour at the jet-stream level running into this towering updraft,” said Bedka. “So jet-stream winds are forced to go around.”

As the jet-stream air collides with the updraft, it rises slightly and becomes colder, forming a U- or V-shaped area of cold temperatures.

Plumed storms over northeast Kansas and southern Nebraska

In May, these plumed storms over northeast Kansas and southern Nebraska produced numerous tornadoes, baseball-sized hail and 80 mph straight-line winds.

Credits: NASA

The collision between updraft and jet stream also causes a ripple effect and transports cirrus cloud ice downstream to form the plume. Plumes are typically warmer than the underlying anvil cloud because they mix with the air in the stratosphere where temperature warms with height.

Where there’s Smoke…

Over the course of their research, Bedka and his colleagues identified hundreds of plumed storms over the U.S. using highly detailed imagery collected at one-minute intervals by the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration’s Geostationary Operational Environmental Satellite System, specifically GOES-14 and GOES-16. They then determined when the plumes first formed, how long they lasted and when they decayed.

Next, they linked that satellite data to radar and lightning data from the same storms. They also compared the timing of plume formation to when severe weather actually occurred and when severe weather warnings were issued by the National Weather Service. What they found was significant.

“We found about 400 plume-producing storms across 13 severe weather outbreaks,” said Bedka, “and in about 100 of them you had a plume appearing 10 minutes before the first warning, potentially providing additional lead time for saving lives and property.”

In a few storms that lead time stretched out even further to about 30 minutes.

The plume-producing storms also generated 14 times more severe weather events per storm than storms without plumes. In addition, 88 percent of EF-2 or greater tornadoes and 86 percent of 2-inch-plus hail reports came from plume-producing storms.

“Identifying this plume feature can be paired with radar observations, routinely available here in the U.S., to improve our warning capabilities,” said Murillo. “In many places across the world where radar data are not as accessible, early identification of AACPs can help improve warnings and severe weather preparedness.”

Kris Bedka

Kris Bedka, atmospheric scientist at NASA’s Langley Research Center, is studying Above Anvil Cirrus Plumes with colleagues at the University of Oklahoma. Their research could improve storm warning capabilities in the U.S. and around the world.

Credits: NASA/David C. Bowman

Hail, Hail the Cirrus Plume

In terms of cost, storms that drop hail — often storms of the plumed variety — are the most significant.

According to the National Weather Service, hail did $1.7 billion in damage in the U.S. in 2017 — more than all the damage from lightning, tornadoes and thunderstorm winds combined.

If they’re big enough, hailstones can shatter glass, dent metal, break shingles and mangle crops. A plumed storm over the Cordoba region of Argentina in February 2018 produced hailstones more than 7 inches in diameter. Hail more than 8 inches in diameter has been recorded over Nebraska and South Dakota in recent years.

Though these extreme hail events are rare, Bedka and colleagues hope their research might add a new dimension to the prediction of the severe storms that generate the most dangerous, expensive weather. They’re already collaborating with other scientists to develop an algorithm to automatically detect plumes in satellite imagery.

“The combination of new satellite information such as that from GOES-16 with radar and lightning observations collected from the ground provides an unprecedented package to unravel and provide advance warning of these complex storms,” said Bedka.

Bedka and his colleagues published their findings in a study available in early online release through the American Meteorological Society’s Weather and Forecasting journal.

Joe Atkinson
NASA’s Langley Research Center

Last Updated: Aug. 16, 2018

Editor: Joe Atkinson

Tags: Climate, Earth

 

Numbers in the Words:

Urban Sprawl = 145/10/1

Growth = 91/10/1

Traffic = 63/9 cycle

Weather = 80/8/4/2/1

Climate = 63/9 cycle

Storm = 85/13/4/2/1

Plume = 67/13/4/2/1

Satellite Imagery = 181/10/1

America = 50/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

14 Aug 2018 Just one look (dream) and drawings for the sick

Hello there.  How are you doing in your here and now as you visit me here?  I hope you are well.  Kyle and I didn’t sleep very well last night.  One of those toss and turn kind of nights.  One of us did dream and it was him for a change.  He rarely remembers his dreams too lol.  When we were in Half Price Books yesterday he said he had caught a brief glimpse of a book with a title like Treasures of the Olympics.  In just one look it was in his dreams.  I told him the dream machine is like the enigma to me.  Our conscious waking moments are all keys to unlock the dream enigma machine.  It takes just the right combination of these keys, sometimes quickly and sometimes over the course of a very long time, to unlock a dream.  For me, sometimes it feels like I’m unlocking doors to other people’s minds and or heavens!

Here is the dream he had and I’m thrilled he allowed me to jot it down and share it:

From what he remembers and there are a lot of missing particulars, he went to a tiny island of sand and the American flag was flying there.  After he arrived he had to climb some rocks.  The ropes to the flag were made of fishing line and all tangled up.  Someone was directing them on how to untangle the line.  The flag started to rise and then he woke up.  He said his view of the dream was like watching the Olympics on television.  He said it was because he could see boxes of ads and information on the sides of the screen during what he was watching.

This dream was very symbolic to me.  It feels like every time we get a tangle untangled in this country or even world, somebody has to come along and tangle it back up!  Kyle is a welder and has said if Texas ever got the Olympics he’d love to be able to help create things for the events.  Wouldn’t that be an incredible thing to be part of?!

This mornings drawings with Aretha Franklin and all those in this world who are sick in mind, body and spirit and need a prayer to either get well or have the courage to let go and move on.   Drawing helps me manage my feelings about these things.  I may not know her directly but I care.  Honestly I have not closely kept up with her music and other endeavors but think she is an amazing human being.  What a voice!  Like the woman in my dream from the other day – too big to contain!  I saw articles and pictures about Aretha’s condition yesterday and just couldn’t believe she’s down to just 85 lbs!  I hope for her very best.  My sentiments are the same for all in this world who are going through what she is right now.  I think it’s beautiful she is surrounded by those who love and care about her:

Aretha Franklin – Freeway Of Love (Video)

13 Aug 2018 32 Years, school’s back in session, dreams and owls for Zarbakht

Hello!  It’s the first day of school for us here in Alvarado TX and I can already hear the train of traffic starting behind the house.  Must be some new folks driving to school now – lots of stereo thumping and bass going by.   It’s hard to get motivated to go back to school!  Even as long ago as that’s been for me, I still remember the feeling.  Kind of the same feeling you get on Sunday  night before having to go back to work on Monday!  “Do I have to go?!”

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I was hoping the city would fix the road problem before all this started but they weren’t able to I guess.  Between the extreme heat and now the rain and wet I guess it wasn’t possible.  Every once in a while we hear a loud thump that sounds like thunder as someone who doesn’t know the divet is there hits it.  The dogs are reasonable to freak out about it!

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Personal Milestone:

It was 32 years ago today that I joined the Air Force.  I was medically retired from being a Personnelist (basically I flew a desk aka I was a secretary) in September 2002.  Man I’m getting old but just in numbers lool!  I don’t miss that part of my life but I will always miss many of the people I had the honor to work with.  It was a great experience to work with people from all walks of life and not care about our differences.  We were a team and in many cases close like family.  I think of these people often and hope wherever and whenever life has taken them that they are well.

Dreams:

Last night –

Had a couple of interesting dreams.  I’ve been having a lot of them lately.  The first one was about being a bird and flying.  I flew into a wood where there was a group of people gathered.  A woman was telling me to follow the currents.  I veered off course but then I saw a flock of birds and started to follow them.  I ended up near a woman who changed into a leopard cat.  Something about her car getting stuck.  I remember seeing the tail lights of a car.  Just before I woke from this dream I flew into a brush of nettles – a thorny bushes – and couldn’t find my way out.

The dream before I woke up was interesting.  I was trying out for a sports team.  I was a tomboy and they could tell.  Then I remember being back stage wearing a jacket and had a cigar or something in my mouth.  I was confident even with not knowing what song I was going to sing.  I went out to a room full of people and started singing about unity and freedom like a black woman might, a very big and powerful voice.  The crowd wasn’t sure about me!

Nap yesterday –

12 Aug 2018 – What came to me in my brief time out chalking yesterday. This would be a lovely fountain!

I dreamt I was doing some exercise routine like aerobics outside in the sunshine in front of a tall white house.  I could see someone in the top floor window moving/watching me.  It wasn’t “me” in the dream.  The way I could tell it wasn’t me was I could see my thighs/knees/legs were very thick and muscular.  My skin was reddish brown.  I was moving very fast, effortless almost like a child might.  My hands were smaller.  I woke up from this dream hearing Native American singing set to very fast paced electronic dance music.

Changing gears:  OWLS! (owls are symbolic of wisdom and learning – which is perfect for folks going back to school today!)

Yesterday I commented on a post by a new WordPress friend Zarbakht.  She had shared about her kitty Margo not feeling well and in one of the pictures Margo was sleeping with a Ty Beanie Boo Owl like I have in my collection.  Well when I mentioned this, she was very enthusiastic for me to share more about these owls of mine.  She apparently is very much in love with owls!  I’m not sure if she thought I had real owls, as some people do so I clarified for her the only owls in my possession were of the stuff variety.  However, my friend Cindy Knoke (https://cindyknoke.com/?s=owls) is an amazing nature photographer and has captured the image of REAL owls in the wild and near her property!

Anyhew – I love owls too.  This is for you Zarbakht!

Numbers in the Words:

United States Air Force = 232/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Military = 107/8/4/2/1

Computer = 111/3 cycle

Owl = 50/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Photography = 149/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Public School = 135/9 cycle

Roads = 57/12/3 cycle

School Bus = 114/6/3 cycle

College = 59/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Freedom = 66/12/3 cycle

Dreams = 60/6/3 cycle

https://www.nasa.gov/ – bookmarked so I can check in on Parker mission!

13 Aug 2018 – Link and his “Ma I just pooped in your bathroom again” face.

 

 

 

 

10 Aug 2018 Simple Reminder, Dreams and Hot Glue and Aluminum Pyramid

Hello to you in your here and now as you visit me here.  Thank you for taking the time.  Hopefully visits here are part of the fulfillment aspect of your time in this life.

Time is an illusion with a face and moving hands.

So this morning I got teary, in a good way.  We were walking Link and Spot and our neighbor George came out to head to work.  We did a cheery exchange of how are you doings like we always do and then I said, “It’s a rough time for a lot of folks” and stopped and looked at me and said, “Is it?” and that made me pause and think, “I like that!” I said.  Positive thinking and faith in one phrase.  It’s hard times if you believe it and if you focus your thoughts on the difficulties and not the blessings.  He said, “We got rain” and I said, “I was out playing in it too, grateful to God for that!”

As we walked away, I felt myself tearing up at this simple exchange.  It was a reminder.  My sharing this isn’t to say or negate the fact that life isn’t difficult for too many people.  It’s about mindfulness and empowerment – mastering the struggles you are facing on your terms.

Profound quote I found this morning that I had never seen/read before:

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I didn’t have a very restful sleep again last night, part of the reason I’m more easily triggered emotionally.  I had a couple of weird/troubling dreams.  The first dream was of an Asian woman and something about being put in a brothel against her will.  The second was of a woman with blonde hair put up on her head.  She was wearing a red gown with straps.  She almost looked like Sissy Spacek in the movie Carrie (Carrie’s dress started out white).  The woman had a long tan arms and there was a red welt on one of them.  I don’t know if the welt was a sore or from an injection.  She was struggling against someone or something.  Then all the sudden she was wrapped in this white latex and looked like one of the featureless wisp people in my drawings.  She had a crown of the same white material attached to her head.  Then she was put into what looked like a sarcophagus or casing of some kind.  As I watched this happening in my dream, it was like she was going to live in it.

More weird from Jackie’s dream theater!  I have no idea where this stuff comes from.  Sometimes I wonder if I’m walking in someone else’s dream world or they have put their stuff in mine!  Most likely it’s just my brain putting together snippets of all the data I’ve been exposed to in my waking world and making a movie.  Sometimes I wish my mind would just move things directly to the cutting room floor!

 

9 Aug 2018 – Tis the gift to be simple

Hello to you.  Not much to say today.  The dogs and I have been kind of “off” today.  Spot’s tummy has been upset so much she hasn’t wanted her normal indulgences, I’ve been teary and Link has been worried about the two of us!   Kyle is fine….he has video games lol.  My dreams had a music theme last night.  I dreamt about Prince and I had a dream about singing a song I’d never heard before but of course I can’t remember the words.  Before I woke up I was hearing Rod Stewart singing a song with the phrase “Becky’s coming home tonight”  in it.  I looked and that isn’t in the songs I know by him so my mind was off on it’s own with that one!   I need a dream recorder thingy!

Anyhew – I hope this finds you well wherever and whenever you are.  My prayers go out to all the folks being traumatized right now in big or small ways by forces they can’t control.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/grieving-orca-still-swimming-with-her-dead-calf-in-northwest/ar-BBLGcdF?OCID=ansmsnnews11 – Grieving orca still swimming with her dead calf in Northwest  – we aren’t the only ones who grieve the loss of those we love.

FILE - In this file photo taken Tuesday, July 24, 2018, provided by the Center for Whale Research, a baby orca whale is being pushed by her mother after being born off the Canada coast near Victoria, British Columbia. Whale researchers are keeping close watch on an endangered orca that has spent the past week carrying and keeping her dead calf afloat in Pacific Northwest waters. The display has struck an emotional chord around the world and highlighted the plight of the declining population of southern resident killer whales that has not seen a successful birth since 2015.(Michael Weiss/Center for Whale Research via AP)

© The Associated Press FILE – In this file photo taken Tuesday, July 24, 2018, provided by the Center for Whale Research, a baby orca whale is being pushed by her mother after being born off the Canada coast near Victoria, British Columbia. Whale researchers are keeping close watch on an endangered orca that has spent the past week carrying and keeping her dead calf afloat in Pacific Northwest waters. The display has struck an emotional chord around the world and highlighted the plight of the declining population of southern resident killer whales that has not seen a successful birth since 2015.(Michael Weiss/Center for Whale Research via AP)

https://www.worldprayers.org/prayerwheel/index.html – spin of the prayer wheel today brought me to the shaker’s

‘Tis the gift to be simple, ’tis the gift to be free,
‘Tis the gift to come down where we ought to be,
And when we find ourselves in the place just right,
‘Twill be in the valley of love and delight.
When true simplicity is gain’d,
To bow and to bend we shan’t be asham’d,
To turn, turn will be our delight,
Till by turning, turning we come ’round right.

shaker song – simple gifts – elder joseph brackett – 1848

4 Aug 2018 Dreaming of the dead

Hello to you.  How are you?  I hope wherever and whenever this finds you that you are having a good day.  My day has started out with some anxiety about different things…..the theme of the dreams I had last night, finding three new areas in the house that are splitting apart to include a cracked tile.  This summer and living next to an increasingly busy road has been really rough on the house and on me.   We’ve been talking about future plans and whether or not we would be able to sell this house with everything that is happening to it right now.  Everyone seems to think we won’t have a problem.

I told my therapist yesterday I just want to be where God wants me to be.  It seems, for now, right where I am.   So until a plan unfolds, I will keep dragging out the mud and caulk to patch the cracks in the walls!

The dreams last night started out with the actor who played Dr. Who, David Tennant and just went from there.  The whole stream of images and what passed through were what seemed to be dead people.  Everyone from soldiers, news anchors like Morley Safer (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Morley_Safer – died 19 March 2016) and random people I’ve never seen before.   I woke up very sad and anxious.  There was something that happened that was a little different.  There was this young blonde woman who was in the dream but wispy I want to say.  The emphasis of what I saw of her was her face.  While I was in this sequence she walked by and turned and looked at me with these sad eyes like she had been crying.  It was like she was really looking at me beyond just what happens in dreams if that makes sense.

When I was writing down my notes about all this, trying to make sense of it, and this came to me.  “Being dead can be physical or being alive and a feeling.”  Then I realized where I had seen the blonde woman, she looked like Ellie Soutter the British snowboarder who recently took her own life on her 18th birthday.  I was very upset when I found out about the manner of her death.  I guess my mind was trying to process my sadness.

I’m never sure when I dream about dead people if I’ve gone to where they are or if it’s just my mind putting together all the pieces of information my waking world gives it.  Then going on to cast characters and make a feature length movie!  It’s really hard to say.  We don’t really know “where we go” when we dream.  They can hook up machines and do studies all they want but I don’t think, like death, they will ever have a definitive answer – another great mystery!

Sometimes the dream experience is so vivid it feels like I’m actually there and interacting with the people and environment.  There have been times that I became aware I wasn’t awake and consciously interacted with the dream environment.  Like seeing myself in a mirror and waving at myself sort or being able to just jump up and start flying sort of thing.  Those types of dreams are very rare.

I told Kyle about this dream and he was of course concerned.  I’ve always been a sort of “door” with regards to the dead.  We agreed we need to make sure we have a screen or storm door installed so that we don’t get unwelcomed guests visiting us again.  He says this because the last time I had an episode I woke up in the middle of the night screaming and things went downhill from there.  During my last episode, it felt like I was constantly being walked through by some different disembodied person.  Once it starts, it’s hard to kick them out!

Anyhew.  Was thinking about painting today but just not sure if I’m in the right frame of mind for it.  It might be a chalk day instead!  Just have to wash off my canvas and dry it!  Sending positive vibes out to you – send some back my way ok?!

3 Aug 2018

23 June 2018 – drawing I did yesterday. “Ghost food” is what I’m calling it lol.

I was thinking about the grid and “beings” I saw when I woke up the other morning and then I remembered this drawing – it has a sort of grid to it!

2 Aug 2018 We are all human and strange dreams

Hello!  How are you this moment?  Hope you are well.  I’m a little grumpy and tired this morning but I’ll get over it.  I checked on the Next Door thread regarding the incident I shared yesterday and things have digressed and are going in a direction I won’t go.  It’s gone from being just about the detention center to blaming Obama and race issues here in the town.  They started a separate group just for the detention center and I’m not sure I want to join it.  I’m concerned about the direction all this is going.  I don’t want this incident to become a wedge between myself and my neighbors who are all different walks of life….diverse!

Why is it so hard for different walks of life to live together in peace?!  I think we focus too much on our differences.  I have found for myself if I don’t like someone or get mad at someone it’s because they remind me of how I used to be or how I still am and I don’t like it!  Mirror selves!  The other reason is the almost instinctual habit of attaching negative stereotypes to people without taking the time to get to know them first.

I think it’s important to celebrate our differences.  It’s important to preserve culture, language and the special things that make a people who they are in the world.  It’s just important to not turn those differences into weapons to be used against each other….and ourselves.

I saw a shirt at the mall yesterday that I almost bought:  “We are all Human.”   Yes we are!  Underneath all the labels and packaging that we are in this life we are all the same!

We Are All Human Black T-Shirt Front

Shirt I almost bought yesterday!

Now to the epic dream sequence I had last night/this morning!  It seemed like such a long dream too but in reality it was probably only minutes long! I’m transcribing my notes and apologize if things are hard to follow.  For those who are vivid dreamers, you know things can get disjointed and choppy in this realm!

Dream sequence:

I’m with my Mom and Dad, then there is this swirling cloud place like I’m on top of a mountain.  I seem to have control of the weather/clouds.  I bend down to them and blow and they move/change.

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Then I’m in a place with reddish rocks and there is a man there.  I try to fly like I can in dreams and sense him grab me from behind as I try to get away.

Then I’m in a house like I’m someone else (looking through someone else’s eyes).  I’m not in a house I’ve been in before.  There is a poodle/puppy dog with light brown curly hair.  We are looking at something or someone who isn’t there and reacting to it.  I’m scared and tell it to go away over and over again – pointing at it.

Then I run up some stairs.  White walls, books on the wooden stairs.  I’m yelling for my Mom and Dad.  I feel like I was being controlled and couldn’t see clearly.  It was hard to move.

When I woke up from this sequence, something happened to me that hasn’t happened before (least that I remember!).  When I opened my eyes it was like I was looking at a moving grid pattern like something out of a computer program or the Matrix movie.  In this pattern it was like these alien beings were sitting next to the bed looking at me.  They looked like the Engineer from the movie Prometheus.   I know it was probably just my eyes adjusting to waking from a deep sleep/dream.  When I did a search on this, apparently it’s a thing.  Could be medical or just like a continuation of a dream, like lucid dreaming after waking.

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The Engineer from the movie Prometheus – part of what I saw next to the bed looked like this.

https://www.nosleeplessnights.com/hypnagogic-hallucinations/ – excerpt from interesting article on this.  If this resonates with you, please use the link and read the entire article.

Definition

hypnagogic hallucinations occur when falling asleep, hypnopompic when waking upHypnagogic hallucinations are usually short-lasting experiences in which you might see, hear or feel something which isn’t real whilst transitioning from being awake to asleep.

It can be an auditory, sensory, tactile or any other sensory experience. Whatever form it takes though, it’s not real and is caused by your amazingly creative brain.

Hypnopompic hallucinations are exactly the same thing, except that they occur while you’re waking from sleep. For the sake of simplicity I’ll refer to the phenomenon as hypagogic hallucination throughout this article.

Both hypnagogic and hypnopompic hallucinations can be very vivid, so can be disturbing in some cases. Especially if you see creatures appearing in your room, voices saying unpleasant things or feeling something touch you.

Symptoms of hypnagogic hallucinations

It’s possible to experience hallucinations that correspond to any of your senses, though visual hallucinations are the most common. They can be experienced from between just a few seconds to a few minutes:

  • Visual for example the geometric shapes in the picture above. But possibly also images of people, animals or other complex shapes.
  • Auditory – this can be simple sounds like hissing, humming or whistling. But it can also be more complex sounds like human voices. It may also be extremely loud, similar to the sleep disorder known as exploding head syndrome.
  • Olfactory – perceiving smells which aren’t actually there, either pleasant or unpleasant.
  • Tactile – this can be very disturbing, such as feeling insects or spiders crawling on the skin. It can also be a strange rubbing, stroking, tapping or tickling sensation.

Furthermore, there can be more complex hallucinations as part of sleep disorders such as sleep paralysis. You may feel unable to move your body, and perhaps see or sense a person or presence in the room.

 

The dream I had just before waking seemed connected to what I’ve just shared and was so choppy I don’t remember much of it.  It was something about some resurrection ritual being done on the body of a young woman.  Probably something in my subconscious to watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer when they brought Buffy back.  Who knows!  I’m not completely in charge of what is featured in my theater of dreams lol!

31 July 2018 Todays chalk drawings

Hi there.  How is your present moment going?  I hope everything is well for you and if it’s not that you have great support systems to help you navigate your way through whatever you are facing today.  Sometimes, and I am terrible about this, you have to set aside your pride and ask for help.  Sometimes the first step is just admitting you even need help at all….that’s a big first step.  I’ve had to do that one a few times for different things.

The drawings today aren’t anything spectacular.  I decided to draw out that darn dream I had last night that was so vivid for me.  My dark green pickup rendering sucks balls but I’ve never been that good at drawing cars! Lol.  Anyhew – sending you positive vibes and an invisible hug across the miles.

 

31 July 2018 New DNA info and Dreams

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you doing well today.  No drawings to share today as yesterday we had a nice visit with family and hopefully made a new friend!  My mother-in-law gave me some chalk she had bought for me at Easter so that will help with drawings today!

The weather yesterday was really pleasant because of the rain we received – helped cool things down!  My mother-in-law Beth made some bbq pulled pork in the crockpot and a blueberry crumble pie that was really good!  She also mixed up some more Chai Tea powder for my brother-in-laws girlfriend to try and take home with her.  It is really tasty and makes quite a bit for the amount of ingredients going in to it:

My mother-in-law Beth is our family genealogist, could probably make a sweet living doing it and she really enjoys doing it.  Well she let us know yesterday that Ancestry.com had done some updates to their system and how they analyze the DNA samples.  When we submitted our samples in 2016, they had may be 3,000 reference samples and now they have like 16,000 ref samples to compare and refine their data and the world map.  They now have 380 possible regions to work with – 17 new ones.  As they get more samples I’m sure they will be able to refine things even more.

Some interesting things happened for both Kyle and I.  Kyle is now more in line with the results his parents got and I am much more in alignment with what my Dad has found out in his genealogy research and the research my Grandma Becker had done prior to her death.  Grandma did her research on her father’s mother’s side of the family, the Maxfields and Huffs.  The furthest back she got was to a Samuel  Wylie of Scotch blood, who came to America from the north of Ireland in 1759 and died Oct 15, 1777.  His wife Mary died in 1798.  They had 5 children.  She didn’t have Ancestry.com and those type of search engines to use when she did her research either!  Very impressive I think!

Anyhew!  If you have an Ancestry.com account and have submitted a DNA sample and haven’t checked your account in awhile like we hadn’t, you might want to!  It’s really interesting finding out these sort of things as sometimes it gives you an insight about may be why you have tendencies or interests towards certain things.  For example why you like certain foods beyond just growing up eating them.

Jackie:

43% Germanic Europe, 36% England and Wales (increase of 31% from previous analysis!), 15% Eastern Europe and Russia, 4% Baltic States and 2% Ireland and Scotland (decrease by 5% from previous analysis).  Migrations:  Germans from Russia.  Pennsylvania, Ohio and Indiana Settlers.  No longer in estimates for me:  Scandanavia, Iberian Peninsula, Finland/Northwest Russia, Caucasus and European Jewish.

Kyle:

40% England and Wales, 34% Ireland and Scotland (was 41%), 21% Germanic Europe, 3% Baltic States and 2% Norway.  Migrations: New York settlers. No longer in estimates: Caucasus, Europe South, Iberian Peninsula, Africa North, Finland/Northwest Russia.

Interesting stuff.  Kyle and I found out with the research his mom has done that he’s related to, in the very distant cousins sense Mark Twain, Barak and Michelle Obama, Hillary and Bill Clinton, Richard Nixon and Donald Trump lol.  A lot of her family came over on the Mayflower so it makes sense.  On Kyle’s profile he’s got like 56 circles which amounts to like 26,000 or so people he’s some kind of relation to lol!  His mom has found so many interesting stories and has actually gone on to meet some living relatives in the area – extended, extended, very extended family but family!  I think it’s fantastic she’s doing this.  She’s almost got all her stuff together to become a member of the Mayflower society – pretty big deal:

https://www.themayflowersociety.org/ – link to the site

General Society of Mayflower Descendants

Founded in 1897

In 1620, a brave group of 102 men, women and children sailed across the Atlantic on the Mayflower, searching for a life of religious and civic freedom. To honor Pilgrim ancestors and keep their story alive, the General Society of Mayflower Descendants was created in 1897. Membership requires proof of lineage from one of the passengers who traveled to America on this historic voyage in 1620.
Through the years, the Mayflower Society has established a network of more than 150,000 descendants all over the world who form lifelong bonds, cherish the sacred memory of our ancestors and continue on their legacy through purpose, preservation, and education.

Celebrating the Pilgrim Spirit

More than one hundred years ago, a group of descendants of the Pilgrims who sailed on the Mayflower in 1620, saw the need for a national society to honor their memory. The intention was to remember these Pilgrims who established Plymouth Colony.

Today there are tens-of-millions of individuals descended from these brave souls. It is the goal of The Mayflower Society to join together people who share this heritage and to carry on the memory of our Pilgrim ancestors.

The Pilgrims

The group of 102 passengers who crowded aboard Mayflower for the crossing was not homogenous. Many of the passengers were members of the Leiden congregation, but they were joined by a number of English families or individuals who were hoping to better their life situations, or were seeking financial gain. These two general groups have sometimes been referred to as the “saints” and “strangers”.

Although the Leiden congregation had sent its strongest members with various skills for establishing the new colony, nearly half of the passengers died the first winter of the “great sickness.”


I had a lot of dreams last night.  None of them were about unicorns and rainbows – pretty intense.   I apologize if these are hard to follow but I like to write them down and share them to get them out of my head.

One was about a fight and the throwing of ketchup and mustard.  Then there was like being in an action movie.  I was warning some man about the maid and there was hiding in the place where there was a stack of white hotel towels.  (My brother-in-laws, father-in-law, Kyle and I got into a pretty intense “discussion” about the 2nd amendment and guns yesterday.  In the end, as always, we came away loving each other and agreeing to disagree.)

Then I dreamt about brushing our dog Sam who passed several years ago now.  There was blood and he had a weird bite or weird shaped imprint on his side that was bleeding.  I carried him past what seemed to be intelligent ants.  We crossed in front of a lions den/cave and I remembered being afraid the lion would come out and get Sam.   (My mother-in-law got bit in real  life yesterday by an ant and it upset me – trigger I guess!)

The dream before I woke up was something out of the movie Constantine.  In the dream I guess I was a demon hunter.  I had a dark green pick up I drove.  I found myself in a room with other people.  I fell asleep.  There was something about finding my purse and then this woman turning on all these super white round bulbs that filled the room.  I realized I wasn’t suppose to be there as I hadn’t paid for the class on aliens that seemed to be going on.  I tried to apologize to the woman.  She wouldn’t make eye contact with me.  She had very unusual non-human golden eyes.  She just came up to me and said in my ear, “Mind the original sin.”  As I walked out I said, “thank you angel” with emphasis on the angel part.  What was in my mind in the dream when she said what she did was “Thou shall not covet.”  I left this woman (angel) and room and was going to go over to a CVS across the street to get a Bible “to keep track of these things” but I didn’t make it.  I was back in the green truck.  The roads were filled with demons and billions of skulls just started rising up.  I was in a shitty apartment trying to explain my absences just before I woke up from this dream, I said, “I’m working.”

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Original_sin – this is just one of MANY explanations for the concept of original sin.  I have always had trouble with these concepts because it’s awful to think of living a life of never being good enough even after you die.  What’s the point of trying to be a good person then if you are already damned no matter what?!  They say the death of Christ was supposed to fix these problems but has it? I’ll leave it there.

Original sin

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Depiction of the sin of Adam and Eve by Jan Brueghel the Elder and Pieter Paul Rubens.

Original sin, also called “ancestral sin“,[1] is a Christian belief of the state of sin in which humanity exists since the fall of man, stemming from Adam and Eve‘s rebellion in Eden, namely the sin of disobedience in consuming the forbidden fruit from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.[2] This condition has been characterized in many ways, ranging from something as insignificant as a slight deficiency, or a tendency toward sin yet without collective guilt, referred to as a “sin nature”, to something as drastic as total depravity or automatic guilt of all humans through collective guilt.[3]

The concept of original sin was first alluded to in the 2nd century by Irenaeus, Bishop of Lyon in his controversy with certain dualist Gnostics.[4] Other church fathers such as Augustine also developed the doctrine,[2] seeing it as based on the New Testament teaching of Paul the Apostle (Romans 5:12–21 and 1 Corinthians 15:21-22) and the Old Testament verse of Psalms 51:5.[5][6][7][8][9] Tertullian, Cyprian, Ambrose and Ambrosiaster considered that humanity shares in Adam’s sin, transmitted by human generation. Augustine’s formulation of original sin was popular among Protestant reformers, such as Martin Luther and John Calvin, who equated original sin with concupiscence (or “hurtful desire”), affirming that it persisted even after baptism and completely destroyed freedom, although Augustine said that free will was weakened but not destroyed by original sin.[2] The Jansenist movement, which the Catholic Church declared to be heretical, also maintained that original sin destroyed freedom of will.[10] Instead the Catholic Church declares “Baptism, by imparting the life of Christ’s grace, erases original sin and turns a man back towards God, but the consequences for nature, weakened and inclined to evil, persist in man and summon him to spiritual battle.”[11] “Weakened and diminished by Adam’s fall, free will is yet not destroyed in the race”[12]