6 Dec 2018 Attraction and Eternal Life

Hello to you.  I ran some numbers this morning on the subject of attraction and what I’ve seen for myself as evidence there must be eternal life.  Some would say these are just words, just phrases and numbers they don’t mean anything.  Well this is how we communicate to each other.  We use words and we use numbers….does that make them meaningless?  I believe that the God of my understanding works through each of us to include language and numbers we use to communicate.  They say only 10% of a human is actually human.  What is the other 90%?  What are they doing in and outside of us and how does that affect civilization?  Affect communication?  Affect how we relate to each other….why we have all these ongoing “fights” we can’t seem to get resolved.  I’m going to give an example I’ve noticed lately in myself.  I will be looking at something, reading something, hearing something and then all the sudden I scratch my nose and I find myself thinking, “that stinks.”  Like my body is giving me a verbal indication of disagreement or dislike of what I’m interacting with.   Is that just a coincidence?  I would encourage to take a look at these variables…words…numbers.  Check my work.  Add other things that come to your mind and see what comes forth for you personally.

I would encourage you to pay attention to how you and your own body interact.  Do you get the chills when you are around someone?  Do you get flushed when you are around someone?  Do you find yourself drawn to a particular scent someone is wearing?  Why is that happening?  Is it memory?  Is it attraction?  Is it the beings within us?  As much as we’d like to think we are in control of who and what we are and the world around us, I suspect we are not.

Attraction – 1st set

content of character in Simple Gematria equals: 189

color in Simple Gematria equals: 63

sexual preference in Simple Gematria equals: 177

skin in Simple Gematria equals: 53

gay in Simple Gematria equals: 33

straight in Simple Gematria equals: 102

homosexual in Simple Gematria equals: 133

lesbian in Simple Gematria equals: 62

bisexual in Simple Gematria equals: 93

transgender in Simple Gematria equals: 125

religion in Simple Gematria equals: 89

finances in Simple Gematria equals: 71

how much money you have in Simple Gematria equals: 260

appearance in Simple Gematria equals: 80

how famous you are in Simple Gematria equals: 206

how powerful you are in Simple Gematria equals: 247

behavior in Simple Gematria equals: 80

responsibility in Simple Gematria equals: 192

actions in Simple Gematria equals: 81

= 2336/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  “two three three six” = 222/6/3 cycle

“two three three six” = 222/6/3 cycle

 

Attraction 2nd set –

breeding in Simple Gematria equals: 64

natural selection in Simple Gematria equals: 189

how you were raised in Simple Gematria equals: 214

personal preference in Simple Gematria equals: 195

sexual attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 203

fetish in Simple Gematria equals: 67

social media in Simple Gematria equals: 91

peer pressure in Simple Gematria equals: 165

television in Simple Gematria equals: 130

movies in Simple Gematria equals: 83

music videos in Simple Gematria equals: 139

magazines in Simple Gematria equals: 95

newspapers in Simple Gematria equals: 136

parents in Simple Gematria equals: 93

family in Simple Gematria equals: 66

kids at school in Simple Gematria equals: 136

friends in Simple Gematria equals: 75

society in Simple Gematria equals: 96

public opinion in Simple Gematria equals: 155

senses in Simple Gematria equals: 81

lowered standards in Simple Gematria equals: 182

low self esteem in Simple Gematria equals: 159

high self esteem in Simple Gematria equals: 141

unrealistic expectations in Simple Gematria equals: 282

superficial attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 240

just want sex in Simple Gematria equals: 176

being a fan in Simple Gematria equals: 59

fangirl in Simple Gematria equals: 67

fanboy in Simple Gematria equals: 63

admiration in Simple Gematria equals: 104

online game relationship in Simple Gematria equals: 241

platonic relationship in Simple Gematria equals: 236

mutual respect in Simple Gematria equals: 174

intellectual attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 255

wanting to be with someone who is married or in a relationship with someone else in Simple Gematria equals: 808

coveting in Simple Gematria equals: 95

lust in Simple Gematria equals: 72

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

physical features in Simple Gematria equals: 188

subconscious reasons for attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 411

soulmate in Simple Gematria equals: 106

past life in Simple Gematria equals: 88   (past life know and unknown)

age difference in Simple Gematria equals: 88

recognition in Simple Gematria equals: 129

someone reminding you of someone else in Simple Gematria equals: 388

familiar in Simple Gematria equals: 69

scent in Simple Gematria equals: 61

gestures in Simple Gematria equals: 114

speech patterns in Simple Gematria equals: 169

voice in Simple Gematria equals: 54

experiences in Simple Gematria equals: 123

proof of eternal life in Simple Gematria equals: 198

= 8067/21/3 cycle

21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

“eight zero six seven” = 230/5  “two three zero” = 178/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 16/8/4/2/1

blood memory in Simple Gematria equals: 137 (Jeanne Faith Becker, my Mom’s name, = 137)

deoxyribonucleic acid in Simple Gematria equals: 201 (DNA)

genetics in Simple Gematria equals: 82

= 420

6/3 cycle

“four two zero” = 242/8/4/2/1

6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

2336 + 8067 + 420 = 10823/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

“one zero eight two three” = 261/9 (9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle, difficult = 90/9 cycle)

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

people in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (animals in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

 

you cant run away from yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 375

15/6/3 cycle

no matter where you go there you are moving to a new town a new city a new country or a new house doesnt change who you are inside in Simple Gematria equals: 1328/68/14/5 or 14/7

(this is something I had to learn over time and the last two numbers of the year I was born is 68, very personal message).

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27 Nov 2018 Good guys and Bad guys – For Stan Lee

(Dark Knight movie quote, Harvey Dent aka “Two Face”)

you either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain in Simple Gematria equals: 791

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

hero in Simple Gematria equals: 46

10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

villain in Simple Gematria equals: 79

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1  (whether a villain lives or goes out in a blaze of glory is a choice)

good guy in Simple Gematria equals: 94

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

bad guy in Simple Gematria equals: 60

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

character defects in Simple Gematria equals: 139

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

mistakes in Simple Gematria equals: 97

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1  (whether a villain lives or goes out in a blaze of glory is a choice)

good guy in Simple Gematria equals: 94 *twice on purpose

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

victories in Simple Gematria equals: 120

3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

failure in Simple Gematria equals: 72

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

triumph in Simple Gematria equals: 105

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

work as a team in Simple Gematria equals: 127

10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

work alone in Simple Gematria equals: 114

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

war in Simple Gematria equals: 42

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30

3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

together we stand divided we fall in Simple Gematria equals: 300 (the 300 Spartans)

3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

perception in Simple Gematria equals: 121

4/2/1

perspective in Simple Gematria equals: 138

12/3 cycle or 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

vision in Simple Gematria equals: 88

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

= 2657/812/83/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

“26 = God” “57 = 12 Apostles” = what came to me looking at this number.  The number 26 has also come up as dog, lie, card, game among others.  People who don’t have a Christian background may see something else here.  What I see overall is a fight within and without ourselves that ripples out into the world and creating multiple dimensions within the dimension we live in.  Every thought that becomes an action has an effect not just for ourselves but for anyone else affected by our actions….our choices.  One of my favorite authors, Philip K. Dick, had a phrase that really stuck with me and I see it in this world, “The Empire Never Ended.”

the empire never ended in Simple Gematria equals: 195

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle 

inner conflict in Simple Gematria equals: 142 (war in Simple Gematria equals: 42) “A War”
earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52

outer conflict in Simple Gematria equals: 161 (god in Simple Gematria equals: 26)

= 550/10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 + 2567 = 3207/39/12

 

30 Oct 2018 Who am I

Hello to you.  How are you?  I had a lot of dreams last night.  Probably triggered by the movie we watched, As Above So Below (2014) film and other happenings from yesterday.  The first batch of dreams had to do with people in their personal hell dimensions trying to leave them and it being worse for them in their new realities.  They ended up going back.

In between sleeping and waking, around 7:47 am I heard a woman’s voice in and outside of my head ask, “Who am I?”  There was only Link with me in the room at the time.  I was back in Florida in between sleeping and waking from a nap, only Amber cat with me at the time and I heard a voice inside and outside my head say, “It’s Time.”  All sorts of shit hit the fan after that!  The veil is thin again and as a porous person, must make sure I am vigilant!

The past couple of days have been so beautiful so I decided to take the CD player Kyle’s brother gave us a long time ago outside.  I wanted to hear David’s voice.  Well a tiny little jumping spider decided to get on the player and on me lool.  Adorable little being!  I perceived, and this is just me, intelligence to them.  It’s happened before.  I’m the kind of person who talks to anyone who will listen to include insects, trees, flowers….they are all energy beings too.  In light of David’s Ziggy Stardust character and the Spider’s from Mar’s phase he had, thought it was pretty wonderful.  Like a visit.

The following just a tiny train of thought with interesting results to include the last picture, DSC_226, matching the number values.  I am not doing it on purpose.  I don’t do “tricks”.  When a word or thought comes to my mind, I follow where it goes and wonderful things like this happen.  I try to remain open to the possibility of the impossible being possible even if I can’t tangibly see it.  Isn’t that what Faith is supposed to be?!  

who am i in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

link in Simple Gematria equals: 46

the spiders from mars in Simple Gematria equals: 226

david bowie the rise and fall of ziggy stardust and the spiders from mars in Simple Gematria equals: 690

wonderful things in Simple Gematria equals: 195 (variation of 69)

= 1226 (A 46)/56 = Three

faith in Simple Gematria equals: 44

brain in Simple Gematria equals: 44

as above so below in Simple Gematria equals: 156 (A Three)

= 244 (64)

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt2870612/ – information and trailer about the film we watched last night.  Definitely a nod to Dante’s Inferno.

https://www.biblehub.com/niv/matthew/8.htm – this passage of the Bible came to mind

Jesus Calms the Storm

23Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. 24Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. 25The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!”

26He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.

27The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”

you of little faith why are you so afraid in Simple Gematria equals: 418 (58/13) Matthew 8:23 (13)

22 Oct 2018 In the darkness (A Wrinkle in Time)

22 Oct 2018 – This is kind of what the dream started as. A Gray room with abnormally dark black shadows that then took form.

I had a lot of dreams last night but the one that was the most vivid I think was triggered by watching the latest rendering of  A Wrinkle In Time….the “It” or Camazotz.  Kyle decided that was our movie for last night.  It wasn’t the best movie we’ve ever seen but there were many themes and messages within it that resonated with me very deeply.  Apparently strongly enough  to be a key to unlock a dream door.  This is pretty ironic given the subject matter of the film/story is traveling through dimensions with a thought!

The dream started out in an empty gray room like this picture with abnormally dark black shadows in the corners of it.  I heard  myself ask, “Mom?” and then this dark shadow was choking me like has happened before in my waking life when we lived in an apartment in Delaware!  I couldn’t yell at it because it was at my throat so I thought to it, “Fuck off” over and over and “Go away!”  Finally it let go and I woke up.

Like I said I think the movie was a key, I’m still healing from hitting my head a few weeks ago, been skirting around a sinus infection and have been dealing with anger and depression a lot lately.  We think the increased depression and anger was partially brought on by hitting my head like I did!  Kicking my own ass!  I am not thinking of this dream negatively.  If anything it was an important reminder to stay in balance and not allow myself to slip too deeply into anger and depression.   There are teachers in the light and the shadows.

The other dream that was interesting and I am not sure what brought this one on was about a man inviting some other men into a vault filled with paper money.  Then these men were at the entrance to the vault completely naked yelling with their mouths, along with other orifices, stuffed with the money, “Damn you Gotti!” I have no idea why the mobster Gotti would have slipped in to my dreams!  The closest thing to this I’ve seen was from American Horror Story Hotel.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Gotti – he died of throat cancer and I dreamt about being choked in an empty gray room like a prison!  Creepy!

 

a wrinkle in time in Simple Gematria equals: 163

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

shadow person in Simple Gematria equals: 157

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

camazotz in Simple Gematria equals: 105

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

it in Simple Gematria equals: 29

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 454

94/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

*As I’ve mentioned, 13 comes up a lot for me

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Wrinkle_in_Time – I am going to get a copy of this to read

A Wrinkle in Time

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A Wrinkle in Time
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First-edition dust jacket
Author Madeleine L’Engle
Illustrator Ellen Raskin (1960s editions)
Country United States
Language English
Series Time Quintet
Genre Young Adult, Science fantasy
Publisher Farrar, Straus & Giroux
Publication date
January 1, 1962
OCLC 22421788
LC Class PZ7.L5385 Wr 1962[1]
Followed by A Wind in the Door

A Wrinkle in Time is a science fantasy novel written by American writer Madeleine L’Engle, first published in 1962.[2] The book won the Newbery Medal, Sequoyah Book Award, and Lewis Carroll Shelf Award, and was runner-up for the Hans Christian Andersen Award.[3][a] It is the first book in L’Engle’s Time Quintet, which follows the Murrys and Calvin O’Keefe.

The book inspired two film adaptations, both by Disney: a 2003 television film directed by John Kent Harrison, and a 2018 theatrical film directed by Ava DuVernay.

 

6 Sept 2018 A tribute in music (Dream)

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you well.  No drawings today – we were blessed with rain.  I’d rather have that then my drawings any day!

I had an interesting dream in the midst of a not very restful night.

It was a dream about random people gathered in a theater paying tribute to a musician by playing one of the musicians songs together.  Each person was playing their own instrument.  It was a short song.  The music was projected on a large screen so everyone could see it to play.

I kind of remembered the song this morning – sounded like something that would be fun for a brass band to play!  It’s gone now, but I enjoyed it for a while this morning.  I think that would a lovely way for ordinary folks to pay tribute to a musician!  Just show up with whatever instrument you play, put the music up and read, set go!  Some of us don’t read music proficiently so we get to just appreciate what we see and hear….may be hum along.  I like to do that.

I couldn’t resist riddling this out in the numbers to see what would come up.

When I see a number go back to 1, it means self to me.  For example music goes back to 1 and that’s pretty  much how music is.  You choose a genre/sound of music you like and you enjoy it.  It doesn’t matter if anyone else does because when you are enjoying it, it’s for you.

The reason I divide a number that doesn’t come out straight away by 2 is thinking of light and shadow, the two sides of ourselves that are employed when we analyze a person, place or thing.  Perspective has two sides and we are biologically incapable of perceiving anything the exact same way.

When  I see a 3 cycle come up, it’s like life, death, rebirth or just the cycles of life.  A lot of times when I like a song, it’s pretty much for life but it can go in cycles.  One day I’ll like the song, the next I don’t but give it a couple days, weeks or even years and I might enjoy it again sort of thing.

When I see a 9 cycle come up, it makes me think of the phrase, “it’s not easy” or doesn’t come naturally as a cycle.  For example high fructose corn syrup = 288/18/9 cycle (the body doesn’t know what to do with this stuff.)

When I see numbers associated with my name or birth date, a personal flag goes up – 02/13/1968.  If I riddle the date Zero Two One Three One Nine Six Eight = 389/20.  If I riddle the date out like Zero Two Thirteen Nineteen Sixty- Eight = 453/12.  If I riddle the date out like Thirteen February Nineteen Sixty- Eight = 427/13.  For fun = 389 + 453 + 427 = 1269/99/18/9 cycle!  20 + 12 +13 = 45/9 cycle.  No matter how you compute it, 9 factors in and is a pretty accurate look at my life.

So here is what came up with the  theme of my dream – what do you see?

https://www.gematrix.org

A Tribute in Music = 184/13/4/2/1

Tribute = 95/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Music = 65/11/2/1

Hear = 32/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Listen = 79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Play = 54/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle 

Sing = 49/13/4/2/1 

Song = 55/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  (kind of how it goes when we are deciding if we like a song)

Write = 75/12/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

Write Music = 140/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (looks the process of writing a song)

Play Music = 119/11/2/1 

Sing a song = 105/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

Play a song = 110/2/1

Hear a song = 88/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Listen to a song = 170/8/4/2/1

Love Music = 119/11/2/1

Music (65) + Sing (49) + Play Music (119) + Play a song (110) + Listen to a song (170) + Love Music (119) = 632/11/2/1 (632 is basically love music)

Hear (32) + Listen (79) + Play (54) + Song (55) + Write (75) = 295/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Write music (140) + Sing a song (105) + Hear a song (88) = 333/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle 

632 + 295 = 927/18/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

632 – 295 = 337/13/4/2/1

632 + 295 + 333 = 1260/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Hard (31) work (67) = 98/17/8/4/2/1

Music (65) Business (108) = 173/11/2/1

Business = 108/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle 

98 + 173 = 271/10/1

Dream (41) Theme (51) = 92/11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or just 2/1

Indian Blanket Flower. ‘Gaillardia pulchella’. The Indian Blanket Flower also known as the Firewheel or the Sundance flower, is the official state wild flower of the State of Oklahoma.

Gaillardia pulchella = 164/11/2/1
Indian Blanket Flower = 195/16/7
Firewheel = 91/10/1
Sundance flower = 160/7
Flower = 79/16/7
Plant = 63/9 cycle
Living Being = 110/2/1
Open Field = 86
Planet = 68
Gift from God = 120/3 cycle (what it is for me)

 

 

3 Sept 2018 “The Tree” (Dream)

3 Sept 2018 – Drawing I did last night. It was hard to concentrate. I guess they have started hunting again or something. It’s unnerving to hear gunfire so close to a residential area these days.

Hello to you.  As I write there is very gentle rain and I’m so grateful for that.  It was getting dry here again.

It’s Labor Day again and a day to remember all those laborers of the past who literally died so people of today could have this day off of work:  https://www.history.com/topics/holidays/labor-day – there is video and more information at this link

“Many of these events turned violent during this period, including the infamous Haymarket Riot of 1886, in which several Chicago policemen and workers were killed. Others gave rise to longstanding traditions: On September 5, 1882, 10,000 workers took unpaid time off to march from City Hall to Union Square in New York City, holding the first Labor Day parade in U.S. history.

I stayed in bed a bit longer than Kyle did this morning and had an interesting dream while doing so.  It was about a woman remembering a story about her Grandma asking to speak to “The tree.”  It appeared in her room but she was afraid and then she couldn’t see it.   So she asked again.  Then the woman found her Grandma nearly dying face down on the floor when The Black Tree appeared again, but she was able to wake her, she wasn’t dead yet.

CAT PEOPLE — Irena’s Dream  (One of my cult classic films from childhood)

Source is internet:  3 Sept 2018 – “The tree “in the dream makes me think of Cat People. It looked like a shadow of a tree; a black tree.

My Grandma’s taught me a lot about nature as I was growing up and to respect it – especially the flowers and the trees.  I miss my Grandma Schmidt’s beautiful flowers – especially her giant roses!  I miss my Grandma Becker and our walks in her neighborhood where she would point out her favorite trees and tell me about them.  How each one was an individual and had its own personality just like people.

In my own experience with trees, I would say the same.  I have mourned for trees that were taken in storms or by sickness.  I have sensed when a tree wasn’t feeling well by putting my hands on it.  I have listened to the wind blowing through the trees living around me and hearing a sound like cheering… “Hurray!” but in a whisper.  Through them I have learned about the cycles of life and how there is hope when you look at their life cycles.   Just one tree is a whole eco-system!  I suspect that when you take off your shoes and socks and stand on the ground, you are plugging yourself into the tree network!  Who knows for sure but the God who made all this wonder.

I found this interesting article to share on the subject.  May be there is something in it for you too:

https://qz.com/1116991/a-biologist-believes-that-trees-speak-a-language-we-can-learn/

WHISPERING PINES

A biologist believes that trees speak a language we can learn

By Ephrat Livni November 3, 2017

I’m in a redwood forest in Santa Cruz, California, taking dictation for the trees outside my cabin. They speak constantly, even if quietly, communicating above- and underground using sound, scents, signals, and vibes. They’re naturally networking, connected with everything that exists, including you.

Biologists, ecologists, foresters, and naturalists increasingly argue that trees speak, and that humans can learn to hear this language.

Many people struggle with this concept because they can’t perceive that trees are interconnected, argues biologist George David Haskell in his 2017 book The Songs of Trees. Connection in a network, Haskell says, necessitates communication and breeds languages; understanding that nature is a network is the first step in hearing trees talk.

For the average global citizen, living far from the forest, that probably seems abstract to the point of absurdity. Haskell points readers to the Amazon rainforest in Ecuador for practical guidance. To the Waorani people living there, nature’s networked character and the idea of communication among all living things seems obvious. In fact, the relationships between trees and other lifeforms are reflected in Waorani language.

In Waorani, things are described not only by their general type, but also by the other beings surrounding them. So, for example, any one ceibo tree isn’t a “ceibo tree” but is “the ivy-wrapped ceibo,” and another is “the mossy ceibo with black mushrooms.” In fact, anthropologists trying to classify and translate Waorani words into English struggle because, Haskell writes, “when pressed by interviewers, Waorani ‘could not bring themselves’ to give individual names for what Westerners call ‘tree species’ without describing ecological context such as the composition of the surrounding vegetation.”

Because they relate to the trees as live beings with intimate ties to surrounding people and other creatures, the Waorani aren’t alarmed by the notion that a tree might scream when cut, or surprised that harming a tree should cause trouble for humans. The lesson city-dwellers should take from the Waorani, Haskell says, is that “dogmas of separation fragment the community of life; they wall humans in a lonely room. We must ask the question: ‘can we find an ethic of full earthly belonging?’”

There’s room at the Redwood Inn.

Haskell points out that throughout literary and musical history there are references to the songs of trees, and the way they speak: whispering pines, falling branches, crackling leaves, the steady hum buzzing through the forest. Human artists have always known on a fundamental level that trees talk, even if they don’t quite say they have a “language.”

Redefining communication

Tree language is a totally obvious concept to ecologist Suzanne Simard, who has spent 30 years studying forests. In June 2016, she gave a Ted Talk (which now has nearly 2.5 million views), called “How Trees Talk to Each Other.”

Simard grew up in the forests of British Columbia in Canada, studied forestry, and worked in the logging industry. She felt conflicted about cutting down trees, and decided to return to school to study the science of tree communication. Now, Simard teaches ecology at the University of British Columbia-Vancouver and researches “below-ground fungal networks that connect trees and facilitate underground inter-tree communication and interaction,” she says. As she explained to her Ted Talk audience:

“I want to change the way you think about forests. You see, underground there is this other world, a world of infinite biological pathways that connect trees and allow them to communicate and allow the forest to behave as though it’s a single organism. It might remind you of a sort of intelligence.”

Trees exchange chemicals with fungus, and send seeds—essentially information packets—with wind, birds, bats, and other visitors for delivery around the world. Simard specializes in the underground relationships of trees. Her research shows that below the earth are vast networks of roots working with fungi to move water, carbon, and nutrients among trees of all species. These complex, symbiotic networks mimic human neural and social networks. They even have mother trees at various centers, managing information flow, and the interconnectedness helps a slew of live things fight disease and survive together.

Simard argues that this exchange is communication, albeit in a language alien to us. And there’s a lesson to be learned from how forests relate, she says. There’s a lot of cooperation, rather than just competition among and between species as was previously believed.

Peter Wohlleben came to a similar realization while working his job managing an ancient birch forest in Germany. He told the Guardian he started noticing trees had complex social lives after stumbling upon an old stump still living after about 500 years, with no leaves. “Every living being needs nutrition,” Wohlleben said. “The only explanation was that it was supported by the neighbor trees via the roots with a sugar solution. As a forester, I learned that trees are competitors that struggle against each other, for light, for space, and there I saw that it’s just [the opposite]. Trees are very interested in keeping every member of this community alive.” He believes that they, like humans, have family lives in addition to relationships with other species. The discovery led him to write a book, The Hidden Life of Trees.

By being aware of all living things’ inter-reliance, Simard argues, humans can be wiser about maintaining mother trees who pass on wisdom from one tree generation to the next. She believes it could lead to a more sustainable commercial-wood industry: in a forest, a mother tree is connected to hundreds of other trees, sending excess carbon through delicate networks to seeds below ground, ensuring much greater seedling survival rates.

Foreign language studies

Biology’s philosophers in dialogue.

Seedling survival is important to human beings because we need trees. “The contributions of forests to the well-being of humankind are extraordinarily vast and far-reaching,” according to the United Nations Food and Agriculture Organization 2016 report on world forests (pdf).

Forests are key to combating rural poverty, ensuring food security, providing livelihoods, supplying clean air and water, maintaining biodiversity, and mitigating climate change, the FAO says. The agency reports that progress is being made toward better worldwide forest conservation but more must be done, given the importance of forests to human survival.

Most scientists—and trees—would no doubt agree that conservation is key. Haskell believes that ecologically friendly policies would naturally become a priority for people if we’d recognize that trees are masters of connection and communication, managing complex networks that include us. He calls trees “biology’s philosophers,” dialoguing over the ages, and offering up a quiet wisdom. We should listen, the biologist says, because they know what they’re talking about. Haskell writes, “Because they are not mobile, to thrive they must know their particular locus on the Earth far better than any wandering animal.”

 

2 Sept 2018 Hologram (Dream) and 149

Hello.  It’s Sunday morning as I write.  Laundry is chugging away and everybody is still in bed yet.  We have been struggling to get restful sleep for some time now.  I’m hoping as we get closer to fall and cooler days that this will change too.

Had a couple interesting dreams this morning.  One was one of those really brief flash dreams.  It looked a bit like a computer simulation of a black circle moving through space.  It made me think of a slinky.  A circle leaving an “after image” behind itself.  A slinky actually has a bunch of them tangibly connected to it.  Don’t know what that was about!

The other one was about walking into a dusty room and an Aaliyah like woman was standing there as a hologram….so I thought.  We started to sing together.  I did the harmonizing thing I do and walked closer to her.  I reached out to touch her because what we were doing seemed like something two real people would do not a hologram.  When I touched her she was warm.  I was surprised and said, “I didn’t think you were real!” and she said, “Neither did I!”  The song stuck in my head as I was writing down this dream was Aaliyah’s song “One in a Million.”

https://www.aaliyah.com/ – her official site

Aaliyah’s tragic death hit me really hard.  I used to sing and harmonize with her songs to try and comfort myself.

I’ve been thinking about these police involved shootings and thinking about reflexes.  I was thinking about survival instincts and what people do, no matter how much training they have had, when they are afraid.  People are typically afraid of what they cannot see.  When you encounter someone who is unstable, mentally ill or that you have a fear about, I suspect reflexes and survival instincts kick in.   You can’t see “what someone is going to do” in situations like what happened with Vanessa and so many others now.

Speaking as a person who has been through this,  I honestly don’t know how well you can prepare yourself.  Unless you can read minds or you are like a dog and can read even the slightest tick in body behavior and respond accordingly it seems like your screwed no matter what you do!  I think there is hope in sensitivity training and application of that training in various hands-on scenarios.  Reading about and or clicking buttons through a scenario simulator aren’t enough.  I think you actually need interactive training for this.

The way the police dealt with me to make sure I was ok came at many different levels.  One was they reminded me of my brother-in-laws I love so that helped.  Two they did not approach me in an aggressive or threatening manner – very kind.  Three they managed their energy with the tone of their voice and body language – the way they spoke to me was very soothing and enlisted my trust.   Four I am a white woman who speaks English.  I wonder if I were black, Hispanic or some other nationality if things would have gone the same?  When I think of our town police who I respect greatly, I’d like to think it would have gone just the same but I don’t know.

The internal clashes of culture, of all the labels we all wear,  do not end when someone puts on a badge.  We ask human beings to suppress so much of themselves to become police officers.  I think under duress, sometimes, all those normal safety catches get lifted and the bullets fly.  We get angry when the cops don’t respond quickly enough to our time of crisis and hate them when they do.  We ask human beings to be armed angels and are surprised when some of them fall.

I don’t know if this is an appropriate example but it’s what Kyle and I were talking about yesterday.  It’s like zombie movies.  The person looks like a human, acts like a human but behaves like something else completely.  Is this the person I knew or is it a zombie?!  You just don’t know what the zombie is going to do!  How can you prepare yourself to deal with this type of scenario?  Do you shut off any sort of human empathy you have and just shoot before finding out the zombie isn’t a zombie or do you use the empathy inside of you and risk being hurt, bitten or eaten?

To me, this is what many of our police are facing today.  They are having to deal with a lot of people who look human but under fear and duress become something completely different.  We are seeing the police survival instincts versus the survival instincts kicking in for a person who is having the worst day of their life.  In more cases than not, this is a lethal combination.

1006 am – Betrayed = 80 (Vanessa = 81 Rodriguez = 123 = 204)  204-149 = 55 (#value for cuffs) 204-80 = 124 

Aaliyah – Rock The Boat

Aaliyah = 57/12/6/3 cycle

1 Sept 2018 Rv’s, Woman in the mirror (dreams) and Vanessa Marquez (ER)

Hello to you.  It’s one of those weird mornings after having many dreams, some very vivid.  Dreaming about RV’s (mobile home) some of which were self-driving and that didn’t go well, a fancy replica sword in the RV, meeting a Valkyrie (cosplay) in a parking lot asking me to coffee and then her and two other people, Kyle the dogs and I ending up at some Comic-con and looking at “blobs of plastic” aka action figures and monster toys with big eyes.

I told Kyle I wonder if instead of a car I’m an RV.  He said, “As long as you aren’t carrying too many unwanted passengers!”

The one that woke me up was the woman in the mirror.  She looked familiar to me, almost like the woman I met awhile back with the 68 shirt and the dog in our neighborhood.  She also looked like the nice Valkyrie from the parking lot!  She had honey-blonde or light brown hair and dark green eyes.  She was talking to me and as she was talking I was saying what she was saying if that makes any sense.  I could almost hear my voice while I was asleep saying what she was saying.  She said, “Don’t forget about me Jackie, I’m not that old.”  Then her eyes turned red and I woke up with a warm sensation in the middle of my head at either side of my temples.  It was one of the strangest dream experiences I’ve had in awhile and if you have been following along, you know I’ve had several strange and wonderful experiences!

As I lay in bed reflecting on her eyes turning red, I remembered that when our eyes reflect light they flash red.  Like when someone takes our picture.  It doesn’t necessarily mean something evil.  It’s a phenomenon.

Has anyone else had anything like this happen?

This morning tears have been shed, yet again, for more tragic death in the news.  When I read what happened to Vanessa I felt my heart break.  This could have been me a few months ago!  Kyle called the police to come out to our house because he was afraid I was going to hurt myself.  They had guns too.  Thanks be to God our cops here know me for more than just this part of who I am and were very understanding and kind to me.  To me, this is another example of what’s gone wrong with the system.

As a person who has had several “altered states experiences” now, I’ve begun to wonder about these sorts of scenarios.  Sometimes I wonder how much say we really have once our spirit has decided it wants to leave the “car” it’s in.  I don’t know if that makes sense but that’s what I’ve begun to see.   How many of these scenarios have we seen now?

https://www.mercurynews.com/2018/05/11/report-mentally-ill-are-in-nearly-40-percent-of-south-bay-police-shootings/ – excerpt

“In the most definitive look yet at a growing public-safety problem facing South Bay police today, a new civil grand jury report reveals that nearly 40 percent of officer shootings in Santa Clara County involve someone who is mentally ill.

So the watchdog group is urging law enforcement agencies and public health officials to step up training and resources to combat the troublesome trend.

The grand jury found that nine of the 31 people killed in county officer-involved shootings between 2013 and 2017 suffered from a serious mental illness, and that 22 of the 56 total police shootings during that period — including those that were non-fatal — involved a mental-health crisis.”

9 out of 31….not good!   Why aren’t police officers just shooting someone in the leg, an arm or tackling them in these scenarios?  I think self-preservation probably plays a big part in these scenarios….”it’s them or me.”

I wonder if the “driver” of the body knows just what to do in such scenarios to make it possible to escape the car.  Are all accidents just accidents?  Are all murders just murder?  Is mercy somehow mingled in all of this?  I don’t truly know!  Could it be a hostile takeover by the organisms, bacteria, viruses etc. in the body?  Could it be a coup by the energy source within us, the soul?  Another mystery of the many mysteries of this life.

I truly hope Vanessa has found her heaven and that she has found happiness.

 

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Source is Internet

https://www.msn.com/en-us/tv/news/er-actress-shot-and-killed-by-south-pasadena-police-during-wellness-check-at-home/ar-BBMIbOL?OCID=ansmsnnews11

‘ER’ actress shot and killed by South Pasadena police during wellness check at home

Hannah Fry, Laura Newberry

19 hrs ago

Actress Vanessa Marquez was identified by authorities Friday as the 49-year-old woman shot and killed by police a day earlier during a welfare check at her apartment in South Pasadena.

Marquez was best known for her recurring role as nurse Wendy Goldman on the popular medical drama “ER,” which ran for 15 seasons until 2009. Marquez appeared on the show from 1994 to 1997.

More recently, Marquez used social media to reference her struggles with celiac disease and seizures. She wrote on Facebook in March that she was “terminally ill.”

She also grabbed headlines last year when she accused her “ER” co-star George Clooney of helping to blacklist her from the series. He denied the allegations. Marquez’s landlord called police Thursday to request a wellness check on her, Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Department Lt. Joe Mendoza said. She was having a seizure when authorities arrived at her apartment, in the 1100 block of Fremont Avenue, about noon.

Officers and a county mental health clinician spoke with Marquez for more than 90 minutes in an effort to persuade her to accept medical help. Police said she was “uncooperative,” may have been suffering from mental health issues and appeared to be unable to care for herself.

Then, while they were talking, Marquez grabbed what they thought was a semiautomatic handgun and pointed it at them, Mendoza said.

Two officers fired at her, striking her at least once in the torso, Mendoza said.

The officers retrieved a weapon after the shooting and determined it was a BB gun that resembled a pistol, Mendoza said.

Marquez was taken to a hospital, where she was pronounced dead.

The Sheriff’s Department is investigating, as is common in police shootings. The names of the officers involved have not been released.

A similar incident involving South Pasadena police occurred in June 2017, when authorities said 41-year-old Marco Cardoza pointed what appeared to be a handgun at officers who were attempting to serve a warrant at his Burbank home. Multiple officers fired their weapons at Cardoza, who was pronounced dead at the scene. Detectives later learned that the man’s pistol was a replica.

hannah.fry@latimes.com

 

“The devil made me do it” = 174/12/3 cycle  devil = 52/7  God = 26/8  Jesus Christ = 151/7

22 Aug 2018 The Broken Vase (dream)

Just stopping in for a moment to say hello.  I have been resting today as I’ve had a lot on my mind.  The words to numbers has been pretty steady and has turned out to be a great coping mechanism to help me riddle out things logically for myself.  This morning I worked through through aspects of my life to include some of the major players in it and got some very interesting results.  For example, the total numeric value for my Dad’s full name (186), the numeric value of the phrase “leave home” (86) and for the age I was when I joined the military (18 years and 6 months) all line up!  What’s interesting also – I was born in 1968!  I found out the numeric value of my birth mom’s full maiden name comes to 137 which is interesting because Becker means baker or “to bake”.  Baker = 37!  I was born in Sioux Falls South Dakota and the full numeric value for this is 273.  It’s interesting that it took two to make the reverse version of my mother in numbers 73.  In doing this, I found myself feeling like I’ve finally been let in on the “plan” for my life.  I’m only half way in so that’s not too bad lol!

I went out to do some chalk drawing earlier and just couldn’t do it.  What I did draw I knew was going to take me on a path I’m done treading – the 9/11 bit.  I have to let it go and it’s so hard to.  I want justice for what happened to EVERYONE involved with this and as it seems, there never will be.  At least in this life!

I picked up the foot piece of the Blondie dog statue I had broken in anger a few months ago and examined it.  There was a tiny spider hiding in it.  If you remember, the number value for spider is 71/8 which is the same number value for God of 26/8.

16 Aug 2018 – What came to me about this here was anger being at the center of many problems. Kyle’s message was, “Anger is a symptom of hopelessness” and I agree. There is a core element to the feelings and subsequent actions people take to get relief from how uncomfortable they can become.

I started crying thinking about and missing my Dad.  Ironically the word Dad comes out to 9 in the numbers!  It makes sense this word would be a 9 cycle.  I feel like I literally have “Daddy issues.”   Attachment problems.  I love my Dad (and Mom) so much that I’m afraid to be close to him and have him leave me!  This is stupid I know, but it’s like when my Grandma, his mother was still alive and I would call her.  I used to just end up crying because I missed her so much.  After a point she kind of asked me to stop calling her.  It’s gotten that way with my parents.  The last time Mom and Dad visited my Dad said to me, “You could always come home (274/13/4).”  If it were only that easy to do!  There are so many “if’s” attached to just picking up and leaving when you are grown up!

So I went and took a nap and had a dream that pulls this all together.  Ironically the time I recorded it, 3:01 am (4).

The dream was about one of those decorative,  huge vases you might see in a museum.  There was something about rearranging furniture and this vase fell over and broke.  It had been broken many times before.  There was a discussion about putting it back together but there were so many pieces.

Some words and phrases that I did the numbers for about this dream:

https://www.gematrix.org = online word/phrase calculator

Give (43) Up (39) = 80/8     Resilient = 111/3 (666 in English Gematria)  Broken (65) Vase (47) = 112/4 (4=D for Dad)

Rearrange = 87/15/6/3 cycle   Start (78) Over (60) = 138/12/3 cycle   Restart = 101/2 (# for system)  Reset = 67/13/4 (13 day I was born, 4 for D)

Forget = 71/8  (I see Christ/Devil/God, self in here)

Anger = 45/9 cycle

Forgive = 82/10/1 (I see God (26), 2 people – the one who wants to be forgiven and the one who forgives, spirit (91) and self in this)

Psychological = 145/10/1 (9 cycle is in this number for 1 person)

Psychological Shock = 201/3 cycle (part of what creates PTSD)

Shock = 56/11/2/1

Trauma = 74/11/2/1

Psychological Trauma = 219/12/3 cycle (both 22 and 19 are in here, 22 = 4 which is first letter in Dad)

Assuming KIAs accurately represented age groups serving in Vietnam, the average age of an infantryman (MOS 11B) serving in Vietnam to be 19 years old is a myth, it is actually 22 [CACF]

skeptics.stackexchange.com/questions/9772/was-19-the-average-age-of-a-combat-soldier-in-vietnam

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) = 368/17/8 (Eleven September Two Zero Zero One = 386)

Empath = 63/9 cycle — me    Empathy = 88/16/7

He will give his angels charge over you in all your ways – Psalm 91:11= 564/15/6/3 cycle (my Bible cover from my parents)

22 Aug 2018 – Cover of my Bible my parents gave to me many years ago.

18 Aug 2018 “With a Thought” (Drawings)

Hello – hope this finds you well in your present moment.  This post is exploring some things that may or may not interest you.  I have had some interesting thoughts pass through with my drawings.  May be something here will resonate.  Thank you for taking the time to stop by!  The abyss that is now the internet is vast.  One can easily get lost within it!

Interesting how often this “grid” is coming into my thoughts.  This is an excerpt from a dream I had 14 May 2017 that involved the grid image for one of the first times.

https://saymber.com/2017/05/14/14-may-2017-mothers-day-birthday-wishes-pergola-demolition-dream-about-traveling-in-space-and-drawings/

“So the dream that woke me up this morning was pretty cool.  I guess my mind’s way of processing all these thoughts I’ve been having about particles and life.  Well in the dream I was traveling in space and it was like a black and white grid.  We actually “went off grid” and beyond what was charted or known.  Something about a ship “picking me up” (the round cell shaped ship) that was free-floating and if you passed through it, you were on a new ship.  I encountered life forms that were just light and colors.  To the person in the dream they were kind of annoying as they “poured in” through rainbow light and had voices but it was hard to understand them.  There was a blonde woman who was very mature but wasn’t very old that was a “life-form.”  I can remember seeing her talking, she was shy but don’t know what she said.”

Numbers in the Words:

“With a thought two become one” = 295/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (This is a phrase that came to me before bed when I was thinking about the drawings of the day.  Without really thinking about it I had drawn 16 lines for my grid.  It’s enormously pleasing and fulfilling to have these sorts of experiences.

Point of Singularity = 250/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Singularity = 155/11/2/1 (still ended up divided in parts)

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In the center of a black hole is a gravitational singularity, a one-dimensional point which contains a huge mass in an infinitely small space, where density and gravity become infinite and space-time curves infinitely, and where the laws of physics as we know them cease to operate.

Singularities – Black Holes and Wormholes – The Physics of the Universe

The Sum of Two = 165/12/3 cycle (This made me chuckle, it take two to make a third.  In my mind, even when you are making something on your own it’s still “two.”  You are a co-creator working with creation (the creator) to manifest something into reality.)

Symmetry = 138/12/3 cycle

Dark Matter = 111/3 cycle

Matter = 77/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Material =79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 – 8/4/2/1

Mass = 52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

atom = 49/13/4/2/1

particle = 84/12/3 cycle

dust = 64/10/1

ash = 28/10/1

soil = 55/10/1

void =50/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (interesting how matter and void values match up)

gravity = 102/3 cycle

infinity = 106/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (interesting how it comes back to one, not a cycle)

perpetuity = 155/11/2/1 (interesting how this word, contrary to the definition we’ve given it, doesn’t mean forever either)

Perpetuity | Definition of Perpetuity by Merriam-Webster

The word derives ultimately from the Latin adjective perpetuus (“continual” or “uninterrupted”), which is also the source of our perpetual and perpetuate. It frequently occurs in the phrase “in perpetuity,” which essentially means “forever” or “for an indefinitely long period of time.”

perspective = 138/12/3 cycle

perception = 121/4/2/1

eight = 49/13/4/2/1 (when written is the infinity symbol on it’s side, it isn’t an indefinite cycle either)

one = 34/7 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

alone = 47/11/2/1

The Grid = 71/8/4/2/1

forever = 89/17/8/4/2/1 (Again, doesn’t the word and the meaning we’ve given it doesn’t coincide with what the numbers say about it! Forever and most the words like it must measure up to an individuals person’s own interpretation and perspective (a word which ironically DOES have a 3 cycle).  A second can feel both like forever or no time at all depending on who is experiencing it.