21 May 2018 Breaking down walls

20 May 2018 – we had some wonderful rain. God cleaned off my canvas ūüôā

Reading this first thing this morning helped me a lot.   What if this message could transcend all the barriers we put up to separate ourselves from each other?!  What if this message could transcend and eventually melt tools people use to harm one another into playgrounds and places that would bring us together in peace?  May be some day.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/pope-francis-tells-gay-man-god-made-you-like-that/ar-AAxzTp8

Describing his encounter with the Pope to CNN, Cruz said: “You know Juan Carlos, that does not matter. God made you like this. God loves you like this. The Pope loves you like this and you should love yourself and not worry about what people say.”

19 May 2018 – what happens when you don’t go to a professional to go blonde LOL!¬† I am working on finding my way through the darkness I’ve been in.¬† I’m so grateful for my family (two and four legged) and dear friends who love me no matter how wild it gets.¬†

 

6 18 9 5 14 4 19

F R I E N D S = 75 (3 cycle)

6 1 13 9 12 25

F A M I L Y = 66 (3 cycle)

2 5 12 15 22 5 4

7 18 1 20 5 6 21 12

G R A T E F U L = 90 (9 cycle)

B E L O V E D = 65

19 16 9 18 9 20 21 1 12 9 20 25

S P I R I T U A L I T Y = 179

2 12 15 14 4 5

B L O N D E = 52

Yesterday I got a little teary thinking about my dogs and cats.¬† It’s because I was feeling overwhelmed by all the art and writings I have through the house.¬† Dogs and cats are so simple.¬† What do they leave behind by way of material things but a collar, a leash and a few toys?¬† What matters the most is what they leave in my heart….so much love and gratitude!¬† Intangible things you can’t hold on to with your hands!¬†¬† I found the actual story where a vet shares a beautiful story and explanation from a little boy about why dogs don’t live as long as humans.

http://blog.nilesanimalhospital.com/2011/10/normal-0-false-false-false.html

Why Dogs Don’t Live as Long as Humans

A four year old child’s wisdom

(From the internet….author unknown)

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten year old Irish wolfhound, named Belker. The dog’s owners, Ron, his wife Lisa and their little boy Shane were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer.

I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog. Ron and Lisa told me that they thought it would be good for the four year old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker’s family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few moments, Belker slipped away peacefully. The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker‚Äôs death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives. Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, ‚ÄúI know why.‚ÄĚ Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I never had heard a more comforting explanation.

He said, ‚ÄúPeople are born so that they learn how to live a good life ‚Äď like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?‚ÄĚ The four year old continued, ‚ÄúWell, dogs already know how to do that, so they don‚Äôt have to stay as long.‚ÄĚ

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18 May 2018 Collage and Low Tide

Hello to you.¬† I hope this finds you well.¬† I’ve been very tired the past couple of days and just wanting to sleep.¬† Kyle thinks it’s probably me just coming down from the past few months of an extreme high.¬† He’s probably right.¬† The cycles are very taxing for me and the older I get, the more difficult they can be.¬† So my little travel buddy Link and I just have been resting as we can and trying to restore the ol’ battery.¬†¬† My life can be¬† like the ocean currents with the high and low tides.

The drawing today is a collage of stuff I’ve been watching and thinking about lately…all just floating out there in the collective conscious space.

I am sad to see so many more shootings in this country, the latest¬†in Sante Fe Texas….a 17 year old kid too! (http://abc13.com/10-dead-10-injured-in-shooting-at-santa-fe-high-school/3490869/)!¬†¬†What is sad for me is these¬†shootings are taking place¬†in homes and schools.¬† Our kids are supposed to be safe¬†in their homes and at school and they aren’t.¬† Even with all the new security and open carry laws, it’s just not getting much better.¬† We keep putting band-aids on top of what the real problems are like allowing so many troubled people access to a tool¬†they can use in an act of passion (not self defense).¬† A tool they end up¬†using to do¬†something they can’t ever take back.¬† It’s not just the victims and their families that suffer either, it’s all of us!¬†It is essentially an act of terrorism to go into a public place and shoot people.¬† Why these types of shootings are not treated at as an act of terrorism I don’t know but that’s what it is.¬† Now you have a whole bunch of people who are afraid to send their kids to school and go out into public places again.¬† Every time this kind of shooting happens in this country,¬†it is an act of terrorism.¬†¬†¬†

“I walked through the cosmos today….all I had to do was stand still and dream…‚Ķ”

13 9 14 4

M I N D = 40

16 5 1 3 5

P E A C E = 30 (3 cycle)

18 5 4

R E D = 29 (9 cycle)

8 5 1 22 5 14

H E A V E N = 55

1 14 7 5 12

A N G E L = 39 (3 cycle)

8 5 12 12

H E L L = 37

4 5 13 15 14

D E M O N = 51 (3 cycle)

18 1 4 9 15

R A D I O = 47

4 5 13 15 3 18 1 20

D E M O C R A T = 79

18 5 16 21 2 12 9 3 1 14

R E P U B L I C A N = 101

3 8 9 12 4

C H I L D = 36 (9 cycle)

19 20 1 18

S T A R = 58

3 15 19 13 15 19

C O S M O S = 84 (3 cycle)

20 5 18 18 15 18 9 19 13

T E R R O R I S M = 135 (9 cycle)

7 21 14

G U N = 42 (3 cycle)

8 1 20 5

H A T E = 34

20 5 23 1 19

T E X A S = 68

16 May 2018 Is this all just a dream?

Hello to you.  It is Wednesday in my timeline but it feels like Friday already!  Had a fun dream this morning.  I was with an old co-worker from when I was working in Personnel Systems Management for the Air Force.  I bent a piece of metal with my mind and levitated a rose quartz crystal Рapparently my right hand was stronger in the dream for such things lol!  My friend was in disbelief at what he had seen, so I repeated it.  I told Kyle this is why I enjoy the dream world so much.  In the dream realm I fly invisible ships, have wings, can just jump and fly out of a tree.  In my dreams I can visit other worlds and as of last night,  bend metal and levitate crystals with my mind!  Way cool!

Speaking of dreams.¬† Yesterday we “publicked” and went and got the tires on our car rotated and did a Target run for our favorite liquid soap, Dr. Bronners: (https://www.drbronner.com/).¬† Exciting right?!¬† Well when we checked out at Target, the clerk named Robbin seemed to be having a day like I mentioned to you, that surreal feeling like nothing is real…like everything is just a dream.¬† I took her hands in mind to try to reassure her we were all real.¬†¬†She still was left wondering about reality but a little more grounded I think!¬† I guess working in a place like Target could put you in that state of mind!¬† So many nice things that most of us can’t really afford.¬† We wandered around in there and talked ourselves out everything but absolute essentials.¬† Not easy!¬† I’m pretty sure Robbin’s wages don’t allow her to buy much where she works.

19 15 21 12

S O U L = 67

18 5 1 12 9 20 25

R E A L I T Y = 90 (9 cycle)

5 18 5 1 13

D R E A M = 41

20 9 18 5

T I R E = 52  (funny that tire and door have the same numeric value!)

4 15 15 18

D O O R = 52

23 1 6 6 12 5

W A F F L E = 53 (it cracks me up with words like this – essentially a waffle is a kind of wafer and they have the same numeric value)

23 1 6 5 18

W A F E R = 53

13 21 19 9 3

M U S I C = 65

Dreamt about some men this morning who looked like they may be from Hawaii or Samoa (been praying for Hawaii a lot lately!).  One of them was playing an instrument that I have come to find out today actually exists!  The Coconut Thumb Piano, Kalimba or a Mbira which actually has origins in Africa:

(Redirected from Thumb piano) The mbira is an African musical instrument consisting of a wooden board (often fitted with a resonator) with attached staggered metal tines, played by holding the instrument in the hands and plucking the tines with the thumbs.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thumb_piano

Origin

It is said that before globalisation, these instruments could only be found in Africa and where African descendants lived. Therefore, the thumb piano we know in the West, called kalimba, is a modernized version of its African ancestors.

Many tribes, all across the continent, have developed their own unique thumb pianos over the centuries. Because the languages and cultures of these tribes vary so much, so do the names and traditions of their instruments.

Thumb Piano Coconut Natural

Program we started watching, kind gives me an “ache” inside…man I’m getting so old!

https://www.rediscoverthe80s.com/2017/02/recap-of-cnns-the-eighties-miniseries.html

The Sixties, The Seventies, and The Eighties Intros- CNN ***HD QUALITY***

 

15 May 2018 Fixing broken things

Hello to you.¬† Hope you are well today.¬† I am a little tired and not feeling real rested.¬† I had another traveling dream this morning.¬† There were small lime green cars and traveling to Sophie, my niece I think.¬† I was in one of the cars and as I was getting ready to drive away, a couple other versions of the same car I was driving got in my way.¬† Then I drove down a hill through what seemed to be like a bunch of shopping carts and the car I was driving was all beat up at the bottom of the hill.¬† Then there was a blurry image of a blonde girl at the end of the dream just before I woke up.¬† Anyways….those kinds of dreams aren’t very restful lol!

During my last “cycle” I went through, things got pretty wild here at the house.¬† I was literally not myself and things got broken.¬† For some reason, this time more than others, specific objects had a strong association with unpleasant feelings I had about certain people and or situations and there was bloodshed and they got broken.¬† The blue and red blown glass dragons I had kept fixing were irretrievably broken.¬†¬†Kyle, out of frustration, ¬†even got into the act this time.¬†¬†I am happy to say, out of the wreckage, there was beauty.¬†¬†Sometimes¬†it feels like I am under siege by unseen forces and thankfully it’s just material “things” that get broken!¬† Being an empathic, highly sensitive person, I am very¬†porous and if I’m not careful, can be an easy mark for spiritual mischief makers.¬†¬†I am so grateful for¬†Kyle, Link, Spot and my family and friends that know to just “stand-by” until the channel changes.

2 18 15 11 5 14

B R O K E N = 65

 

13 May 2018 Dreaming stone (Labradorite) and Mom’s Day

Hello to you.  Today has been a really  nice day.  My sweetheart cooked us dinner while I was outside drawing and sweating Рreally warm and humid today.

13 May 2018 – this drawing is me thinking of myself as a baby blue dragon clutching my labradorite ball last night. I had like 2 or 3 lucid dreams in a row! One of them is represented by the little black girl holding a pink crystal necklace. She wanted to take it and I told her no. There is also a box represented by the realtor like lady from one of the dreams last night. There is a box with two people with huge dogs – these special beautiful beings seem to show up and just disappear for me. The dogs they are with are almost like spirits more than dogs.

Hope all the folks that nurture others are having a special day.¬†¬† The term “Mom” isn’t just for women in my book.¬† I called my Mom today and it was hard because there was so much I wanted to say but tears got to¬†me first.¬† For all my Mom and I have been through, I just dearly love her and am so grateful for all the important things she managed to get through my thick skull.¬† This is her first Mother’s Day without her Mom and I can only imagine how surreal that would be if I were in her shoes.¬† We lost Grandma a couple of months ago.¬† We had all been praying for her to “be free” but as we all know, it’s not all up to us with these sort of things.

13 May 2018 – drawing I did after I talked to Mom

As I mentioned in my notes with the drawing, last night I decided to sleep with my Labradorite crystal ball and it was like one lucid dream after another.¬† This hasn’t happened to me in a¬†long time.¬†¬†¬† Both of the orbs I have are in the picture.¬† Do you have a favorite crystal for dream travels?

What is Labradorite?

https://www.gemselect.com/gem-info/labradorite/labradorite-info.php

Labradorite Gemstone Information

About Labradorite – History and Introduction

Labradorite is a gemstone that was named after Labrador in Canada, where it was found on the Isle of Paul, near Nain in 1770. It has since been found in other places, including Finland, Madagascar, and Australia. After its discovery, labradorite became popular with the missionaries. Labradorite is a plagioclase feldspar which shows adularescence (a white or bluish light seen when turned). This optical effect is so unique to labradorite that it has been termed “labradorescence”. It is the result of diffraction of light in the layers of rock. When viewed at certain angles, labradorite exhibits such captivating color that has led to Inuit legends stating that the Northern Lights shone down on the shores of Labrador and were captured inside these colorful stones. The most highly valued labradorite is material that shows the full spectrum of color in its labradorescence. Labradorite that does not exhibit labradorescence can still make beautiful gemstones because of aventurescence, which is a glitter caused by diffraction of light from mineral platelets.

There are three further types of labradorite; spectrolite, andesine-labradorite and rainbow moonstone (which is sometimes referred to by the trade name, “Madagascar moonstone”). As the trade name indicates, rainbow moonstone comes from Madagascar and it has an intense blue schiller. Spectrolite is a rare labradorite from Finland. It is known for displaying a beautiful spectral play of color, hence the name, “spectrolite”. Andesine-labradorite is created by enhancing the color of labradorite.

Interesting:

Labradorite Gemstone Mythology, Metaphysical and Alternative Crystal Healing Powers Back to Top

According to an Inuit legend, the Northern Lights are captured in the minerals on the coast of Labrador. This is not surprising considering the magical, iridescent color of labradorite. Labradorite is thought to be a magical stone that possesses powerful protective properties and helps its wearer to find their true path in life. It is thought to “bring light” to the otherwise unknown, and thus provide its wearer with insight. Additionally, labradorite is credited with having the ability to bring out the positive in people and calm overactive minds, bringing peace to its wearer. Labradorite is also thought to soothe menstrual problems, aid disorders of the lungs, prevent colds, help with digestion and regulate both metabolism and blood pressure. In traditional Hindu belief systems, labradorite is associated with the throat chakra, or vishuddha, which is the center of purification. The throat chakra is associated with hearing, speech and self-expression. Wearing labradorite is thought to contribute to true and honest expression. Labradorite is said to facilitate communication between the spiritual and physical world, helping its wearer to recall dreams and experiences from past lives. It is therefore thought to help bring out psychic abilities.

12 1 2 18 1 4 15 18 20 5

L A B R A D O R I T E = 105 =6=3 cycle

 

My children:

13 May 2018 – my kids Spot and Link.

9 May 2018 Avengers movie (Spoilers), numbers, drawing and Wakfu (animated series)

Hello, hope this finds you well.   My allergies are saying hello big time these past couple of days.  Tis that time of year for nature to be doing things that make my immune system fuss.

Well to celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary, we went to see Avengers Infinity War.¬†¬†My husband enjoyed it more than I did.¬† What I’m struggling with is going to the theater, holding my bladder for 2¬† plus hours¬†and leaving the theater overwhelmed, sad and slightly disappointed.¬† Twist the eye of Agamotto (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_of_Agamotto) back to our anniversary in 2012!¬†¬†We went and saw the first Avenger’s movie on that day and it was a totally different story!¬† We came away from the theater so pumped up and excited!

8 May 2012 – we went to see the first Avengers film for our wedding anniversary date!

What I’m seeing happen¬†to these Marvel movies is what happened to the Harry Potter franchise for me.¬† The first couple of movies were balanced and “lighter” and then just progressively got really dark and depressing to the point I didn’t even go to the theater to see them!¬†¬†¬†When I¬†actually take the time to go a movie theater to have that experience, I want it to be a positive experience and it just hasn’t been for several years for me.¬†¬†We actually heard people crying in the theater when we left it yesterday!

To be fair, there was ALOT going on in this movie.¬† I will probably have to watch the movie a couple more times to continue to process all of it.¬† I had to do that with Dr. Strange.¬† I didn’t like that film either on the first go around.¬† They¬†managed to squeeze in like¬†30 plus¬†main characters and¬†added a few extras like Peter Dinklage’s ginormous dwarf¬†to the mix (we loved that!)¬† There were quips that made me laugh out loud that did help break up some of the tension.¬†¬†It helped me a lot when the¬†Guardians of the Galaxy folks showed up in the film but even that got really dark.¬† I mean they killed Gamora! BOO!¬† (Zoe Saldana: https://movieweb.com/zoe-saldana-hollywood-walk-of-fame-star/)!¬† I actually got goosebumps when they went to Wakanda which is¬†Black Panther’s world.

The end of the film was surreal for me and I honestly didn’t feel anything about it.¬†¬† I guess it’s because I know that all the writers have to do is rewind time or come up with some paradox and everyone will be resurrected.¬†¬†Seeing Thanos in his happy moment at the end, ¬†made me think of Marlon Brando from Apocalypse Now for some reason.¬† There he was all peaceful while we the viewers know countless lives, to include those of superhero’s we care about, have been reduced to literal dust.

Apocalypse Now: Marlon Brando Horror Speech

I was of course curious what the “numbers” would say about some words pertaining to the film:

1 22 5 14 7 5 18

A V E N G E R= 72 (9 cycle)

6 9 3 20 9 15 14

F I C T I O N = 76 = 13 = 4 = 2 = 1

1 14 20 1 7 15 14 9 19 20

A N T A G O N I S T = 120 = 3 cycle

16 18 15 20 1 7 15 14 9 19 20

P R O T A G O N I S T = 154 = 10 = 1

8 5 18 15

H E R O = 46 = 10 = 1

22 9 12 12 1 9 14

V I L L  A  I N = 79 = 16 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 = 4 = 2= 1

13 1 18 22 5 12

M A R V E L = 71 = 8 = 4 = 2 = 1

20 8 1 14 15 19

T H A N O S = 77 = 14 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 = 4=2=1

9 14 6 9 14 9 20 25

I N F I N I T Y  = 106 = 7

23 1 18

W A R = 42 = 6 = 3 cycle (3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 = 3 and back again)

8 May 2018 – drawing I did yesterday that kind of correlates to Wakfu anime we’ve been watching. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wakfu_(TV_series)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wakfu_(TV_series)

WAKFU Series – Trailer

8 May 2018 Poem for my somebody

Hello to you.¬† It’s a beautiful morning and we have plans today to help us celebrate our wedding anniversary.¬† I am reminiscing a bit this morning.¬† Time goes so fast when it comes to the “good parts” doesn’t it?!

This was taken at Universal Studios in Florida, Jan 2005. Our first real dates together. We want to get back there to explore Harry Potter world soon!

I wrote this little poem for my sweetheart.¬† We have a “theme” of trees for our anniversaries.
For my husband 8 May 2018 – Jackie

Tangled, winding, ancient and green

A path to the middle

A stretch to the unseen

You woven into me, me woven into you

In the end it’s all looking up

Into the ancient blue

 

My friend EasyWeimaraner reminded me that today is an important for another reason:

Victory in Europe Day, generally known as V-E Day, VE Day or simply V Day, was the public holiday celebrated on 8 May 1945 to mark the formal acceptance by the Allies of World War II of Nazi Germany’s unconditional surrender of its armed forces. It thus marked the end of World War II in Europe.

 

7 May 2018 Anniversary

Hi there.¬† Hope this finds you well.¬† Todays theme of words and numbers is in honor of my husband and I celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary tomorrow.¬† It’s interesting to me how two different words for the same thing, like wedding and marriage, ¬†can come to different outcomes in the numeric realm.¬† The more I do this, the more I am beginning to see that when the 9 cycle comes up, it’s usually not a positive thing!¬†¬†Speaking from experience and what I’ve seen in especially America,¬† marriage can come to be quite a negative arrangement!

How my husband and I began back in FFXI playing Prinzessa and Efess

As with everything, marriage is¬†all what you make of it.¬† My husband and I have certainly been testing these past few years and yet¬†we are still together!¬† I tell him he’s already got his angel suite putting up with me!

1  14 14 9 22 5 18 19 1 18 25

A N N I V E R S A R Y = 146 = 1 +4+6=11 can go straight to 11, 2 then 1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 =5+5=10 go straight to 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 +5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1.

23 5 4 4  9 14 7

W E D D I N G= 66 = 6 +6 = 12  1+2 = 3 divided by 2 =1.5 1+5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

13 1 18 18 9 1 7 5

M A R R I A G E = 72 = 7 +2 = 9 = 9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 4 +5 = 9 cycle (always comes back to 9)

21 14 9 15 14

U N I O N = 73 = 7 +3 = 10 = 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

8 1 14 4 6 1  19 20 9 14 7

H A N D F A S T I N G  (Kyle and I had considered this in lieu of formal marriage) = 103= 1 + 3 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

https://www.brides.com/story/handfasting-wedding-ceremony-101

2 18 9 4 5

B R I D E = 38 = 3 +8 = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2  divided by 2 = 1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 5 + 5 = 10 = 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 2 + 5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 +5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1.  (I prefer the most direct approach)

7 18 15 15 13

G R O O M = 68 = 6 + 8 = 14 = 1 + 4 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 2 + 5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

8 21 19 2 1 14 4

H U S B A N D = 69 = 6 + 9 = 15 = 1 + 5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 1 + 5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

23 9 6 5

W I F E = 43 = 4 + 3 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

 

 

19 April 2018 Elections Dilemma

Hello to you. It’s Thursday as I write to you in your where and when. Have you ever had a lot on your mind? Have you ever had a bunch of things you think you should¬†do but just can’t bring yourself to do any of the things you used to do? My current dilemma is voting in the upcoming elections in our town. I have seen signs around town telling me who is running for office, but I don’t know who these people are. There are a lot of issues I’m concerned about but don’t even know if my going to vote will have any impact. My husband¬†and I have voted before and just didn’t feel like our votes counted. I guess I’m experiencing a bit of apathy about things like this.¬† All of what I am sharing is from my own personal experience and so keep that in mind if you decide to read what I’ve written here!

There are several¬†major concerns for me.¬† They are¬†ongoing issues we’ve been dealing with as a community since my husband and I moved here back in 2009.¬†¬†We¬† have¬†tried to do something about many of these things but little has¬†changed.¬† Many of the issues are town has had to face¬†are so expensive, like the city water system, that it’s been a very slow walk to getting things dealt with.

Am I a bad¬†person if I¬†don’t choose to vote on 5 May 2018?

Well it¬†would make me a hypocrite of sorts. My husband and I have been hard on people in the past when they told us they weren’t going to vote.¬† For the 2016 election, my husband¬†and I went and voted. We each voted for we who we felt would best serve the country.¬† We prepared as best we could.¬† ¬†I voted for a candidate that was a 3rd party candidate.¬† My hope was¬†that if enough people would do so,¬†we would have the option¬†for future elections.¬† Unfortunately, my thought process didn’t¬†seem to make a difference.¬†¬† It seems, as is customary, ¬†most people¬†voted along party lines.

I feel like we need more choices….more options.¬† There is a quote I have read somewhere, ¬†by Mark Twain that says¬†“if voting truly mattered, they wouldn’t let us do it.” I guess it’s a darned if you, darned if you don’t kind of set of circumstances. If you don’t vote, you kind of give up the right to complain about the results but ironically….we still complain anyways regardless of how things go!

There is a part of the voting process I have a problem with,¬†the electoral college.¬† It feels like with this system in place,¬†the value of our votes¬†is somehow diminished.¬†¬†When my husband¬†and I lived in Delaware, it was primarily a Democratic state. We¬†registered as Democrats.¬† We voted in the 2008 election and felt like our vote mattered.¬† Now we live in Texas, which is primarily a Republican state. We are still registered Democrats.¬†¬†¬†Knowing what we do about the Electoral College, it felt like¬†our vote in the 2016 election was pretty much irrelevant.¬† It seems like, as I look back over the past couple of years, there is a divine plan at work.¬† For those of you who read my blog on a regular basis, you know that there has been a part of me wondering if this wasn’t some reverse psychology experiment to try to repair our damaged country.¬†¬† I want to believe positive changes are manifesting as I write today!

So what do I do for this upcoming local election¬†right?? ¬†Not vote and risk losing the option or vote and get a resentment? I’m just not sure yet what I will do.¬† My Mom, for the last elections in her town, and I’ve done this too, got ballots prior to the election.¬† She did this¬†so she could research what was up for voting before she went in and cast her ballot.¬† There doesn’t seem¬†to be an¬†easy, unbiased way to research candidates especially for local elections. Not everyone has easy access to¬†the internet. I don’t know if my town has ballots people can pick up to read and information about candidates. Sometimes I’ve seen stuff like this at the public library.¬† I wonder if they have ever considered mailing them out to all those in their water bill system?¬† We get both an electronic and paper copy of our bill now.¬† We¬†tried to pay online, but there is a¬†service fee and we chose not to participate.

I would like to see more diverse representation of life for our town. For one local election a few years ago, one of the candidates, a woman, actually walked around and came to our door to talk to us. We ended up voting for her but she lost to incumbents holding office. We had a lot of admiration for her being willing to actually take the time to talk to us in person so we could put a face with the name on the ballot. Right now, as it stands, I do not feel qualified to vote for our local election.   I have a lot of concerns I think a candidate should know about and hopefully address in their tenure in office.

I am concerned about our drinking water and personally concerned about living next to natural gas lines running along utility lines along a major road.¬† The soil in which the lines are running is expansive clay soil and next the lines are several electrical and internet lines.¬† I was very upset when they fracked the natural gas well in between our middle school and junior high school.¬† We had a gas leak a couple of years ago and didn’t find out about it until a neighbor who used gas in their house told us about it.¬† Why aren’t there sensors all along the lines or are there?¬† Are they being monitored so if something goes wrong people are¬†directly notified?¬†¬†If not, why not?!¬† We have natural gas lines running all through our town and it really kind of scares me.¬† I’ve written about the issues we’ve had since we moved here many times.¬† I have deleted many posts just because it seemed like a moot point because it just keeps happening.¬† I feel bad for the person running our town, heck our state.¬† It must be very difficult¬†to¬†be responsible for managing something like a city, state or country.¬† So much¬†money is required to maintain what seems to be a crumbling¬†infrastructure.¬† For our town, a lot of those repairs are chronic and¬†homeowners like myself end up paying¬†more than once for what¬†it takes to extract energy from the earth.¬† We have spent thousands of dollars on our home and all the repairs we’ve had to make are not covered by our home owners insurance.¬†¬†I know with all energy systems there is¬†risk, but natural gas is particularly scary for me.¬†¬†Even though we don’t choose to use it in our home, we are still subjected to the risks our neighbors incur by choosing to¬†use it in their homes and businesses.

We are getting a¬†new subdivision down the street when we have so many other pre-existing things going on that are not be addressed it seems. The other day I was using a pot of tap water with some essential oil in it and it cooked all the way down. There was a white powder residue at the bottom of the pot! I have seen this same white powder on my soaker hose that we use to water the grass and that’s part of the reason we don’t drink tap water in our town.¬† We reported the problem to the city and they came out to investigate.¬† They told us just to run the lines to clear it which didn’t make sense to me.¬†¬†¬† We have had reoccurring problems with regards to drinking water ever since we first moved here.¬† I have a health condition and have to take medication as do many other people in our area.¬† There are many families with elderly and young children.¬† I hope the water is safe.¬†¬† Personally I would like to be able to trust the tap water and stop having to feel like I need to buy water in plastic containers from the local grocery store.

I hope that whomever is elected will ensure¬†each department has enough staff.¬† A couple of years ago, prior to the contract being approved for¬†the subdivision near completion down the street, ¬†I warned the city¬†that they needed to make sure we had adequate¬†resources¬†for growth. Just the traffic alone is a concern.¬† With 120 units going in, ¬†with a minimum of 2 cars per house, that’s about 240 additional cars being added to the traffic on North Cummings.¬†¬†There are currently only¬†two ways out of the subdivision and in the event of an emergency, this could prove to be a hardship for the families living there now.¬†¬†I think the city¬†still has the option,¬†to create another exit point.¬† I have been told¬†the RV Park owns the property that would be required to make another exit point for the neighborhood.

I hope¬†the people who plan to run the town are going to make sure we have the dog park that¬†we were told by other citizens was promised some¬†15 or 20 years ago.¬† A lot of people have¬†dogs in our town.¬†¬†I have tried to participate in local politics.¬† I¬†served on the Planning and Zoning Committee,¬†the Parks board and my husband and I used¬†to attend City Council¬†meetings.¬† We stopped having anything to do with most things going on in town¬†after what happened with the¬†subdivision process.¬† I was pretty hurt about it.¬† I went before the council and spoke for probably 15 minutes with my Mom, my husband and another neighbor present.¬†¬†I didn’t feel¬†we were prepared for what adding so many more people to the town would mean and what I said didn’t seem to matter.¬† It was like they had already decided what they were going to do and just let me talk anyways.

Sigh….such is local politics and pretty much every layer on up to the White House in my opinion. It’s so complex and so hard to find a middle ground for just about anything it seems. I am going to be praying about what I should do and do a little research to see if there is anything on the City web page about the election: http://www.cityofalvarado.org/.

I hope something here is helpful to someone out there.¬†¬†I’m not trying to put a stick in the hive.¬† I am¬†just sharing my own personal experience with the voting process from a perspective at the lowest level and I hope it’s helpful.¬†¬† Ultimately, you have to decide for yourself what you would do if you were in similar circumstances.¬† You can decide to do nothing or to at least try to speak up.¬† Writing is pretty much the only way I have found for myself that I can try to make any sort of difference for hopefully the better.

26 Aug 2016 – I wrote this in my pink spirit book while waiting to get a military identification card and it seems appropriate to share with all this:

We choose our anger

We choose which

Direction we look

We choose our hallowed ground

Our battlegrounds

For war or peace

Each space between an action

A thought unspent

A choice

A promise kept

It’s so easy to choose

A reflex….a flash

Buying a way out

With someone else’s cash

Whichever direction

We choose to fill the space

In between thought and deed

We best avoid reliance

On the currency

Of greed……