7 Oct 2018 Walking with God

hund in Simple Gematria equals: 47 (German word for dog)

dog in Simple Gematria equals: 26

gott in Simple Gematria equals: 62 (German word for God)

god in Simple Gematria equals: 26

 

walking with god in Simple Gematria equals: 163

elohim in Simple Gematria equals: 62

the tetragram in Simple Gematria equals: 136

el in Simple Gematria equals: 17

shaddai in Simple Gematria equals: 46

theos in Simple Gematria equals: 67

yhvh in Simple Gematria equals: 63

jehovah in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (# for people is 69)

addaa in Simple Gematria equals: 11 (name I’ve used, like Daddy for me)

= 634/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

A fellow blogger used the phrase life is not a game in his post that I read today:

life is not a game in Simple Gematria equals: 136

god in Simple Gematria equals: 26

card in Simple Gematria equals: 26

game in Simple Gematria equals: 26

lie in Simple Gematria equals: 26

life in Simple Gematria equals: 32

= 136/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

It doesn’t surprise me there isn’t a definitive origin for the name of God.  Knowing God for yourself, in your way, is a very personal relationship.  Just as you come up with names for special people, family, friends, pets etc. in your life, so do many have a name for the God of their understanding.  I have found it easier at this point in my life to just call God, God.  The God of my understanding isn’t confined to books, dogma or ritual.  For me, God is every single particle that is this existence.  Every breathe.  Every single aspect of what it means to be here on this planet is God.    We are all elements of God. 

answers.com/q/is_all_the_world’s_a_stage_a_metaphor
The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’. New Living Translation. And the King will say, ‘I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!’. English Standard Version.

God has become for me like an actor who has 7 billion plus different costumes to choose from.  That is the best way I can describe it.  God looking at God in many different suites of clothes only made of flesh and blood.   Some aspects of God are light and some are shadow but all God.  Through us God is able to go from the intangible to the tangible.  God can be anyone.  God is not just human but presents themselves in all life on this planet. 

all the worlds a stage in Simple Gematria equals: 202

“All the world’s a stage” is a quote from Shakespeare’s play “As You Like It.“. It is one of many such quotes that is known by the vast majority of people, but is not always di…rectly recognized for its Shakespearean origins. In the play, the character Jaques says “All the world’s a stage,/ and all the men and women merely players.”.

An analogy that comes readily to mind as a person who enjoys playing video games now and again is this.  What I am perceiving is this life we share is a lot like video game avatars.  We are God’s avatars. 
One of my favorite things about playing an online MMO is character customization features.  For Kyle and I, the character customization part of an online game is one of the best parts.  After making a character and playing them for a period of time, I have experienced “alt-idis”.  For those who play these sorts of games, you know what I mean.  You grow bored with one character and make another without deleting the old one.  Sometimes it feels like this is the way of God as I’m beginning to understand them.  The Sims was very much like reality and that’s probably why I got bored with it.  It was tedious to have to worry about the characters physical needs and personal growth and development.  This often lead to some pretty awful deaths for many Sims just to spice things up.  Those of you that have played the Sims know exactly what I mean. 

Unlike digital characters and avatars, we have physical needs, we age, we get sick and we eventually die.  Like the digital characters we delete, when we die the billions of segments of data that made us a physical being in this world are broken down and taken back into the main program to be reconfigured and begin again.   This process seems to be the reset button, the great forgetting and then we are reborn.  I don’t believe we actually go anywhere after we die.  We return to God’s mainframe and are eventually reborn.    

mainframe computer in Simple Gematria equals: 191

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

main·frame

[ˈmānˌfrām]

NOUN
mainframes (plural noun)
  1. a large high-speed computer, especially one supporting numerous workstations or peripherals.
    “cumbersome mainframe systems”
  2. the central processing unit and primary memory of a computer.

 

http://www.keyway.ca/htm2003/20030125.htm

Where Did “God” Come From?

The English word God originated from an old Anglo-Saxon word which itself was derived from the Germanic word Gott which was used to refer to all sorts of “gods,” not necessarily the True God (just as “god” still is). In English-language translations of The Holy Bible (the Old Testament was written mostly in Hebrew, while the New Testament mostly in Greek) “God” is used to translate a number of actual Divine Names, specific to the True God, as recorded in the Scriptures. Using “God” as a name for God rather than a statement of what He is can perhaps be compared to calling your best friend “Human” instead of by their actual name.

Elohim

The Tetragram Elohim, from the Hebrew pronounced el-oh-heem, is the most frequently recorded name for God, more than 2,500 times in the Old Testament. Elohim is actually the plural form of its root word, but singular in usage – after all, there is only one God (see The Logos).

Examples where Elohim was translated as God:

“In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.” (Genesis 1:1 KJV)”And God said, Let Us make man in Our image, after Our likeness” (Genesis 1:26 KJV)

The Tetragram

The second most common Name for God is the YHVH, or “Tetragram” as it has been called. It is shown in the illustration along with the names of the Hebrew letters and their approximate sounds (note that Hebrew is written right to left).

The ancient pronunciation of the YHVH is uncertain, and there have been a number of interpretations. The most common is “Jehovah,” which some Bibles use in their translation, while others render the YHVH as “Lord.” For example, for Exodus 20:2-3, the American Standard Version has, “I Am Jehovah thy God, Who brought thee out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. Thou shalt have no other gods before Me,” while the King James Version has, “I Am The Lord thy God, which have brought thee out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. Thou shalt have no other gods before Me.”

There are also a number of Names which use the YHVH in combination. Examples, using the “Jehovah” interpretation: Jehovah-ropheka, “Jehovah that heals” (Exodus 15:26), Jehovah-meqaddeshkem, “Jehovah Who sanctifies you” (Exodus 31:13), Jehovah-tsabaoth, “Jehovah of hosts” (1 Samuel 1:3), “Jehovah-elyon, “Jehovah Most High (Psalm 7:17), Jehovah-roi, “Jehovah my shepherd (Psalm 23:1)

El

El is used over 200 times as a Name for God, often in combination as El, Eloah and Elyon. Many of the faithful people of God had “el” in their name e.g. Elijah (“The Lord is God”), Daniel (“The Lord is my Judge”). Another name for Jesus Christ was Immamuel (Matthew 1:23) which means “The Lord is with us.”

Shaddai

Shaddai is found almost 50 times in the Old Testament, and is usually translated as Almighty. It was first recorded when God spoke to Abraham: “And when Abram was ninety years old and nine, The Lord appeared to Abram, and said unto him, I Am the Almighty God; walk before Me, and be thou perfect. And I will make My covenant between Me and thee, and will multiply thee exceedingly.” (Genesis 17:1-2 KJV)

Theos

In the New Testament “God” is used for the original Greek word Theos

Examples of Translations

“And Moses said unto God, “Behold, when I come unto the children of Israel, and shall say unto them, ‘The God of your fathers hath sent me unto you’; and they shall say to me, ‘What is His Name?’, what shall I say unto them?” And God said unto Moses, “I AM THAT I AM:,” and He said, “Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, I AM hath sent me unto you.” And God said moreover unto Moses, “Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, The Lord God of your fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, hath sent me unto you: this is My Name for ever, and this is My memorial unto all generations.” (Exodus 3:13-15)”For thou shalt worship no other god: for The Lord, whose Name is Jealous, is a jealous God: Lest thou make a covenant with the inhabitants of the land, and they go a whoring after their gods, and do sacrifice unto their gods.” (Exodus 34:14-15 KJV)

“Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For Thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.” (Matthew 6:9-13)

Fact Finder: What is the Third Commandment?
Exodus 20:7
See also The Ten Commandments


 

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6 Oct 2018 Mutual Agreement

This morning I have a phrase on my mind.  It started yesterday with the conversations I had at an appointment and then a by chance meeting at our local park.  It feels like people are part of my life because of a mutual agreement we seem to have.  I want them to be part of my life  and they seem to want me to part of theirs.   We have mutually agreed to exist for each other.   When someone doesn’t want me to be part of their life anymore they move, stop calling, stop writing.  Basically discontinue any sort of tangible contact.  I do the same if don’t want someone to be part of my life.

control is an illusion in Simple Gematria equals: 251 (God #26 or 8 is in this)

8/4/2/1

we are reflections of each other in Simple Gematria equals: 282

12/6/3 cycle

The other part of the equation, is the God of my understanding who puts people, places or things in my life as part of my life school education.  There are people I would never choose to be in my life that God puts in my life for a reason.  There is a lesson I haven’t yet learned yet, a new lesson is being presented or my favorite, God’s “pop quizzes” which more times than not I epically fail.  It’s either for me or for the other person that our worlds collide.   Every single part of this existence is a teacher, student and message whether we like it or not.   Every single part a piece of the entire code.

what is the purpose of a mutual agreement in Simple Gematria equals: 421

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of a mutual agreement in Simple Gematria equals: 413 (God #8 again)

8/4/2/1

A mutual agreement is when two parties undertake obligations to each other to do, or refrain from doing, one or more defined actions. A mutual agreement can be oral or in writing and is also known as a contract.

I’m not surprised that one of my go-to prayers in times I feel the most powerless is a “13” – yet another God-wink
a god wink in Simple Gematria equals: 84
12/6/3 cycle
god grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change courage to change the things i can and wisdom to know the difference in Simple Gematria equals: 1147
13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

2 Sept 2018 Hologram (Dream) and 149

Hello.  It’s Sunday morning as I write.  Laundry is chugging away and everybody is still in bed yet.  We have been struggling to get restful sleep for some time now.  I’m hoping as we get closer to fall and cooler days that this will change too.

Had a couple interesting dreams this morning.  One was one of those really brief flash dreams.  It looked a bit like a computer simulation of a black circle moving through space.  It made me think of a slinky.  A circle leaving an “after image” behind itself.  A slinky actually has a bunch of them tangibly connected to it.  Don’t know what that was about!

The other one was about walking into a dusty room and an Aaliyah like woman was standing there as a hologram….so I thought.  We started to sing together.  I did the harmonizing thing I do and walked closer to her.  I reached out to touch her because what we were doing seemed like something two real people would do not a hologram.  When I touched her she was warm.  I was surprised and said, “I didn’t think you were real!” and she said, “Neither did I!”  The song stuck in my head as I was writing down this dream was Aaliyah’s song “One in a Million.”

https://www.aaliyah.com/ – her official site

Aaliyah’s tragic death hit me really hard.  I used to sing and harmonize with her songs to try and comfort myself.

I’ve been thinking about these police involved shootings and thinking about reflexes.  I was thinking about survival instincts and what people do, no matter how much training they have had, when they are afraid.  People are typically afraid of what they cannot see.  When you encounter someone who is unstable, mentally ill or that you have a fear about, I suspect reflexes and survival instincts kick in.   You can’t see “what someone is going to do” in situations like what happened with Vanessa and so many others now.

Speaking as a person who has been through this,  I honestly don’t know how well you can prepare yourself.  Unless you can read minds or you are like a dog and can read even the slightest tick in body behavior and respond accordingly it seems like your screwed no matter what you do!  I think there is hope in sensitivity training and application of that training in various hands-on scenarios.  Reading about and or clicking buttons through a scenario simulator aren’t enough.  I think you actually need interactive training for this.

The way the police dealt with me to make sure I was ok came at many different levels.  One was they reminded me of my brother-in-laws I love so that helped.  Two they did not approach me in an aggressive or threatening manner – very kind.  Three they managed their energy with the tone of their voice and body language – the way they spoke to me was very soothing and enlisted my trust.   Four I am a white woman who speaks English.  I wonder if I were black, Hispanic or some other nationality if things would have gone the same?  When I think of our town police who I respect greatly, I’d like to think it would have gone just the same but I don’t know.

The internal clashes of culture, of all the labels we all wear,  do not end when someone puts on a badge.  We ask human beings to suppress so much of themselves to become police officers.  I think under duress, sometimes, all those normal safety catches get lifted and the bullets fly.  We get angry when the cops don’t respond quickly enough to our time of crisis and hate them when they do.  We ask human beings to be armed angels and are surprised when some of them fall.

I don’t know if this is an appropriate example but it’s what Kyle and I were talking about yesterday.  It’s like zombie movies.  The person looks like a human, acts like a human but behaves like something else completely.  Is this the person I knew or is it a zombie?!  You just don’t know what the zombie is going to do!  How can you prepare yourself to deal with this type of scenario?  Do you shut off any sort of human empathy you have and just shoot before finding out the zombie isn’t a zombie or do you use the empathy inside of you and risk being hurt, bitten or eaten?

To me, this is what many of our police are facing today.  They are having to deal with a lot of people who look human but under fear and duress become something completely different.  We are seeing the police survival instincts versus the survival instincts kicking in for a person who is having the worst day of their life.  In more cases than not, this is a lethal combination.

1006 am – Betrayed = 80 (Vanessa = 81 Rodriguez = 123 = 204)  204-149 = 55 (#value for cuffs) 204-80 = 124 

Aaliyah – Rock The Boat

Aaliyah = 57/12/6/3 cycle

1 Sept 2018 Rv’s, Woman in the mirror (dreams) and Vanessa Marquez (ER)

Hello to you.  It’s one of those weird mornings after having many dreams, some very vivid.  Dreaming about RV’s (mobile home) some of which were self-driving and that didn’t go well, a fancy replica sword in the RV, meeting a Valkyrie (cosplay) in a parking lot asking me to coffee and then her and two other people, Kyle the dogs and I ending up at some Comic-con and looking at “blobs of plastic” aka action figures and monster toys with big eyes.

I told Kyle I wonder if instead of a car I’m an RV.  He said, “As long as you aren’t carrying too many unwanted passengers!”

The one that woke me up was the woman in the mirror.  She looked familiar to me, almost like the woman I met awhile back with the 68 shirt and the dog in our neighborhood.  She also looked like the nice Valkyrie from the parking lot!  She had honey-blonde or light brown hair and dark green eyes.  She was talking to me and as she was talking I was saying what she was saying if that makes any sense.  I could almost hear my voice while I was asleep saying what she was saying.  She said, “Don’t forget about me Jackie, I’m not that old.”  Then her eyes turned red and I woke up with a warm sensation in the middle of my head at either side of my temples.  It was one of the strangest dream experiences I’ve had in awhile and if you have been following along, you know I’ve had several strange and wonderful experiences!

As I lay in bed reflecting on her eyes turning red, I remembered that when our eyes reflect light they flash red.  Like when someone takes our picture.  It doesn’t necessarily mean something evil.  It’s a phenomenon.

Has anyone else had anything like this happen?

This morning tears have been shed, yet again, for more tragic death in the news.  When I read what happened to Vanessa I felt my heart break.  This could have been me a few months ago!  Kyle called the police to come out to our house because he was afraid I was going to hurt myself.  They had guns too.  Thanks be to God our cops here know me for more than just this part of who I am and were very understanding and kind to me.  To me, this is another example of what’s gone wrong with the system.

As a person who has had several “altered states experiences” now, I’ve begun to wonder about these sorts of scenarios.  Sometimes I wonder how much say we really have once our spirit has decided it wants to leave the “car” it’s in.  I don’t know if that makes sense but that’s what I’ve begun to see.   How many of these scenarios have we seen now?

https://www.mercurynews.com/2018/05/11/report-mentally-ill-are-in-nearly-40-percent-of-south-bay-police-shootings/ – excerpt

“In the most definitive look yet at a growing public-safety problem facing South Bay police today, a new civil grand jury report reveals that nearly 40 percent of officer shootings in Santa Clara County involve someone who is mentally ill.

So the watchdog group is urging law enforcement agencies and public health officials to step up training and resources to combat the troublesome trend.

The grand jury found that nine of the 31 people killed in county officer-involved shootings between 2013 and 2017 suffered from a serious mental illness, and that 22 of the 56 total police shootings during that period — including those that were non-fatal — involved a mental-health crisis.”

9 out of 31….not good!   Why aren’t police officers just shooting someone in the leg, an arm or tackling them in these scenarios?  I think self-preservation probably plays a big part in these scenarios….”it’s them or me.”

I wonder if the “driver” of the body knows just what to do in such scenarios to make it possible to escape the car.  Are all accidents just accidents?  Are all murders just murder?  Is mercy somehow mingled in all of this?  I don’t truly know!  Could it be a hostile takeover by the organisms, bacteria, viruses etc. in the body?  Could it be a coup by the energy source within us, the soul?  Another mystery of the many mysteries of this life.

I truly hope Vanessa has found her heaven and that she has found happiness.

 

Image result for vanessa marquez

Source is Internet

https://www.msn.com/en-us/tv/news/er-actress-shot-and-killed-by-south-pasadena-police-during-wellness-check-at-home/ar-BBMIbOL?OCID=ansmsnnews11

‘ER’ actress shot and killed by South Pasadena police during wellness check at home

Hannah Fry, Laura Newberry

19 hrs ago

Actress Vanessa Marquez was identified by authorities Friday as the 49-year-old woman shot and killed by police a day earlier during a welfare check at her apartment in South Pasadena.

Marquez was best known for her recurring role as nurse Wendy Goldman on the popular medical drama “ER,” which ran for 15 seasons until 2009. Marquez appeared on the show from 1994 to 1997.

More recently, Marquez used social media to reference her struggles with celiac disease and seizures. She wrote on Facebook in March that she was “terminally ill.”

She also grabbed headlines last year when she accused her “ER” co-star George Clooney of helping to blacklist her from the series. He denied the allegations. Marquez’s landlord called police Thursday to request a wellness check on her, Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Department Lt. Joe Mendoza said. She was having a seizure when authorities arrived at her apartment, in the 1100 block of Fremont Avenue, about noon.

Officers and a county mental health clinician spoke with Marquez for more than 90 minutes in an effort to persuade her to accept medical help. Police said she was “uncooperative,” may have been suffering from mental health issues and appeared to be unable to care for herself.

Then, while they were talking, Marquez grabbed what they thought was a semiautomatic handgun and pointed it at them, Mendoza said.

Two officers fired at her, striking her at least once in the torso, Mendoza said.

The officers retrieved a weapon after the shooting and determined it was a BB gun that resembled a pistol, Mendoza said.

Marquez was taken to a hospital, where she was pronounced dead.

The Sheriff’s Department is investigating, as is common in police shootings. The names of the officers involved have not been released.

A similar incident involving South Pasadena police occurred in June 2017, when authorities said 41-year-old Marco Cardoza pointed what appeared to be a handgun at officers who were attempting to serve a warrant at his Burbank home. Multiple officers fired their weapons at Cardoza, who was pronounced dead at the scene. Detectives later learned that the man’s pistol was a replica.

hannah.fry@latimes.com

 

“The devil made me do it” = 174/12/3 cycle  devil = 52/7  God = 26/8  Jesus Christ = 151/7

30 Aug 2018 A Long Time Ago (1990’s) and Hold On (Wilson Phillips)

Hello to you.  Doesn’t it seem like 1990 was such a long time ago?!  A whopping 28 years!  So much has happened for those of us that have been here all that time.  Today I had a pity party for myself.  Sometimes it’s good to cry it out, bitch, whine and moan a bit.   To point at the piles of dog poop in the backyard and make self comparisons…”yeah that one is definitely me today.”   My poor backyard that has to listen to this!  I had a bird walk by me while I was sitting out back tonight blubbering.  It stopped and just stared at me with that”what is your problem” look.  Kept on walking.  Anyways, I hope this finds you well.  If you are feeling a bit low too, just do the best you can.  Remember, it’s inside work!

Nineteen ninety = 173

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Billboard_Year-End_Hot_100_singles_of_1990

Hold on = 68  by Wilson Phillips = 193 Number One = 107 = 368  (I was born in 1968 – go figure!  Perfect song and message for me today!)

Wilson Phillips – Hold On

Hold On

I know there’s pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don’t ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things’ll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You’ve got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin’ your worries pass you by
Don’t you think it’s worth your time
To change your mind?

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things’ll go your way
Hold on for one more day

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Some day somebody’s gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don’t you know?
Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on

Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Won’t you tell me now
Hold on for one more day ‘Cause
It’s gonna go your way

Don’t you know things can change
Things’ll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can’t you change it this time

Make up your mind
Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on

Songwriters: Carnie Wilson,Chynna Phillips,Glen Ballard
© Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind

 

 

 

28 Aug 2018 Zero

https://www.gematrix.org/?word=

Beginning = 81/9 cycle

Sun = 54/9 cycle

Word = 60/6/3 cycle

Speak = 52/7

Speech = 56/11/2/1

Poor Teacher = 124/7

Son = 48/12/6/3 cycle

The Poor = 97/16/7

Learn to do without = 220/4/2/1

The Have’s and the Have Not’s = 244 (64)/10/1

Tithe = 62/8/4/2/1

Share=51/6/3 cycle

Charity = 84/12/3 cycle

Give and Take = 99/18/9 cycle

Sustainability =181/10/1

Consumption = 159/15/6/3 cycle

Population Control = 236/11/2/1

Birth Control = 154/10/1

Resources = 123/6/3 cycle (ABC, 123)

Poverty = 121/4/2/1

Cat = 24/6/3 cycle

Dog = 26/8/4/2/1

Tree = 48/12/6/3 cycle

Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle

Life = 32/5

Human Life = 89/17/8/4/2/1

Nobody = 75/12/6/3 cycle

Nothing = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Alone = 47/11/2/1

Who’s Dream Am I In? (I ask myself this sometimes) = 152/8  (If I were to take this result literally, it would be God’s)

David Bowie – Zeroes, 2018 (Official Audio)

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah

You’ve arrived in the land of a thousand different names
And the fabulous sons have crashed their planes in flames
Now tomorrow is back claiming redemption is on your heels
And a toothless past is asking you how it feels

And me, my little red corvette has driven by
Fair weather heart has fallen in
My rainyday girl is feeling down
And she tells me that the world is spinning round

I say the dream was all for you
You’re nobody else
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
Yeah

Hi! Can I walk you home again today?
Gotta get forgive and forget hey hey
Something good is happening and I don’t know what it is
Don’t you know we’re back on trial again today

And it’s breaking wine for you
Hell!, it’s only ’cause you’re true
Someone outtimed my heart
Stopping and preaching and letting love in

You are my moon, you are my sun
Heaven knows what you are
Tonight the zeroes are singing for you
Yes, they were

Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You

It doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter where you try to go
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter who we really are
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter

Songwriters: DAVID BOWIE
© TINTORETTO MUSIC
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

 

25 Aug 2018 Ichthys in the Desert

24 Aug 2018 – I asked Kyle for a subject to draw. At first he said aquatic and I said I had already drawn mermaids. He said something in the desert. So that made me think of Streams in the Desert and I came up with this. It is the title of a little red book spiritual devotion book my Grandparents gave me. I’ve shared about here before. I have an Ichthys (92) tattoo (91) = 183. I also have a chameleon which until yesterday I didn’t know has a 13 in it! It’s 76, the same number for my maiden name Schmidt. Go figure! As I sat in front of this drawing and thought about all that I’ve found out the past few days, how complicated it all is, I gained an even deeper love and respect for God as I understand them. “In the Beginning” = 137 which is the same value for my birth Mom’s full name. My Grandfather was a pastor who must have know about this system. If he didn’t….wow! She was my Grandparents first child.  She was my beginning and technically my end as I have given birth to no children. Alpha and the Omega = 131 (same value as Jack Kevorkian as I came to find out looking for Dr. Who’s Trenzalore which is 134)

It’s interesting the story the numbers are telling me about myself and my life choices and the people I’ve chosen to include on my journey.  I found out yesterday that in the numbers, it took four grandparents and two people who chose each other to make me.  When I added the first and last names of my 4 Grandparents it came to 248 (68 in there).  Just their first names came to 204 which is 6.  I was born in 1968. To me, this is proof a power much greater than myself is operating here.  To me, this is evidence of God.  Think of all the fragments, pieces..single moments that had to happen to make just one person!

24 Aug 2018 – Thinking about people and the relationship between them and insects, spiders and trees.

Human Being = 94  Sing = 49 = 143/8 – that’s me these days lol.

As I explore my life in numbers, I am beginning to understand why I feel like there is really no such thing as a coincidence (84/12/3 cycle).  I think there really is a divine (63) calendar (58) = 121/4/2/1.

Ichthys

Ichthys
The ichthys or ichthus, from the Greek ikhthýs, is a symbol consisting of two intersecting arcs, the ends of the right side extending beyond the meeting point so as to resemble the profile of a fish. It was used by early Christians as a secret Christian symbol and now known colloquially as the “sign of the fish” or the “Jesus fish”.

IchthysWikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ichthys

Origin[edit]

An early circular ichthys symbol, created by combining the Greek letters ΙΧΘΥΣ, Ephesus.

16 July 2018 – Completed painting with what I’m calling “Swircles” (what happens when you mix a swirl and a circle!)

https://www.ancient-symbols.com/buddhist-symbols.htmlWheel = 53/8  God = 26/8

The Dharma wheel

The Dharma wheel This wheel is also called the dharma chakra or the Dhamma Chakka and is often used to represent Buddha himself. It has also universally become the symbol for Buddhism. The dharma wheel has eight spokes, which represent Buddha’s Eightfold Path.wheel of law

 

21 Aug 2018 Exploring the meaning of 9/11 in another way – with numbers

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you well.  The dialogue in words and numbers continues – just sharing!  This one you might find interesting.

21 Aug 2018 4:54 am (5:39 am)

Woke up thinking about what 9/11/2001 would mean in the numbers and I was “encouraged” to write it down, meaning I couldn’t go back to sleep. Then came the word communicate popped in so I wrote that down in the dark and tried to go back to sleep. Nope, not happening. So I got up and started working the phrases and very interesting things to be seen. This event in our shared history is something I have been trying to come to terms with ever since it happened. When I look at this, there was some sort of “plan” at work.  This is not as in depth as it could be.

I am not sharing this to upset anyone or feed any existing conspiracy theories. We’ve all have had them. I wanted to show you what the words in the events say in numerical values — to me.

A couple of “breaks” ago I found this system for myself when I was having trust issues. I then found out it’s actually something that has been done for a very long time by people far smarter than myself. Even found an online calculator to make it easier! May be how I’m different about this is I’m actually using it for practical application for problem solving in my own life.

I feel like I’m looking for a way between all of us so we can have world peace or at least a more cooperative coexistence!

Eleven (63) September (103) Two (58) Zero (64) Zero (64) One (34) = 386/17/8/4/2/1

Nine (42) Eleven (63) = 105/6/3 cycle

Communicate = 117/9 or Nine = 42/6 Six = 52/7 Seven = 65/11 Eleven = 63/9 — 9/11 is in communicate. Nine is a repeating pattern.

Message = 69/15/6/3 cycle

Warning = 86/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — With consideration, it is a “one time deal.” If you look, the number 86 is part of 386.

Plane = 48/12/3 cycle — If you look 3 is also part of 386. There were 4 planes involved in attack.

Plan = 43/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Twin Towers = 166/ 166/13/4/2/1

Bomb = 32/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

New York City = 168/15/6/3 cycle — If you look 68 is 86 in reverse and 3 is the first number of 386.

Big Apple = 68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — Just like the word warning with reversed numbers.

Pentagon = 92/11/2/1 — Again, 9/11 is in the value for one of the places attacked

First Responder = 186/15/6/3 cycle — interesting how 386 is in these two words!

Osama Bin Laden = 128/11/2/1 — 9/11 can be found in his name.

Middle East War = 134/8/4/2/1 — Middle (47/11) East (45/9) War (42/6/3 cycle) — 9/11 is in here too.

Nuclear Weapons = 167/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 Nuclear (74/11) Weapons (93/12/3 cycle) — 9/11 can be found here also and the 5 value takes us up to warning

Religion = 89/17/8/4/2/1

Spirituality = 179/17/8/4/2/1

Dogma = 40/4/2/1

I = 9 cycle — interesting to find out that religion and spirituality come to the same values to include Dogma which I have associated with the difference between religion and spirituality. When I think of the letter I it makes me think of eye, of the ego, me or self.

Church = 61/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Temple = 71/8/4/2/1

Synagogue = 93/12/3 cycle

Mosque = 90/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Nature = 79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/34/2/1 — where I feel the closest to God

Place of Worship = 166/13/4/2/1 — probably not a coincidence this matches up with Twin Towers number values.

Tower of Babel = 124/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Eyes = 54/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Eye = 35/8/4/2/1

God = 26/8/4/2/1 — Interesting how eye and God are the same values, probably not a coincidence. Just remembered a spider has eight eyes! Insect = 70/7 Spider = 71/8

(this isn’t an all inclusive list of all the names worshipped)

Jesus Christ = 151/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — Jesus (74) Christ (77)

Lucifer = 74/11/2/1

Satan = 55/10/1

Adonai = 44/8/4/2/1

Allah = 34/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — same values as Jesus Christ

Muhammed = 78/15/6/3 cycle

Buddha = 40/4/2/1

Shiva = 59/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Odin = 42/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

Gaia = 18/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Earth = 52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — there’s that 7 again!

Blood = 48/12/6/3 cycle — interesting how blood has the same numerical value as plane

Water = 67/13/4/2/1

Life = 32/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 — what do we use that makes us feel the most alive? Our 5 senses!

Death = 38/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1. Interesting how the number value of death includes 6

 

 

 

 

 

20 Aug 2018 Black Panther (movie), Dishwasher and outdoor chalk meditation with words and numbers

Hello.  I hope this finds you well wherever and whenever you are.  I’ve had a lot of places around the world on my mind and you will see them in my pictures today.  We finally got to see the Marvel movie Black Panther last night.  Our friend who has moved back home brought it over last night so we could see it.  I really enjoyed it.  It was refreshing for me to see African culture woven into a superhero story that speaks so loudly to the times we are in.  I was glad that they brought forth to give arms to the oppressed and set them out against their oppressors makes them no better. You just become what you hate and the cycle continues.  Just a different version of tyranny.  There are other ways to win these sort of wars and this story was told too.  Well done!

BLACK PANTHER Trailer 2 Extended) Marvel 2018

We have a dishwasher again!  Kyle’s parents purchased some new appliances and changed out the Miele they had.  It was still in excellent working so we said we’d take it.   We had bought a Whirlpool July of 2015 and it stopped working just after the warranty on it expired!  It’s curbside as I write.  May be someone who is into fixing things will pick it up and be able to get it operating again.  Our poor Link howled like a wolf for a couple of hours after they left!  He acts just like a toddler when he does that.  Just stands at the window and cries.

Yesterday afternoon I was, I want to say seized, by a meditation.  It started with a my drawing a young Indian (India) woman in water. I was thinking/praying about the flooding going on over there right now.  Things just went from there!  This is what happens to me once I get on a train of thought!  There is much here.  For many it will not resonate.  This is for those who enjoy the thought process and riddles numbers and words put together can produce!  This process can be quite enthralling.  It even got me into a bit of trouble this morning! I was doing this sort of thing instead of getting the dogs walked while Kyle got groceries!  Opps!

Origin of numbers:

https://www.britannica.com/topic/Hindu-Arabic-numerals

Hindu-Arabic numerals

Written By:

The Editors of Encyclopaedia Britannica

See Article History

Alternative Title: Arabic numeral

Hindu-Arabic numerals, set of 10 symbols—1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 0—that represent numbers in the decimal number system. They originated in India in the 6th or 7th century and were introduced to Europe through the writings of Middle Eastern mathematicians, especially al-Khwarizmi and al-Kindi, about the 12th century. They represented a profound break with previous methods of counting, such as the abacus, and paved the way for the development of algebra.

Origin of letters:

http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/alphabet.html

The Origin of the Alphabet


In Chinese: 字母表的起源 (translated by Liu Yu)

The original alphabet was developed by a Semitic people living in or near Egypt.*  They based it on the idea developed by the Egyptians, but used their own specific symbols.  It was quickly adopted by their neighbors and relatives to the east and north, the Canaanites, the Hebrews, and the Phoenicians.  The Phoenicians spread their alphabet to other people of the Near East and Asia Minor, as well as to the Arabs, the Greeks, and the Etruscans, and as far west as present day Spain.  The letters and names on the left are the ones used by the Phoenicians.  The letters on the right are possible earlier versions. If you don’t recognize the letters, keep in mind that they have since been reversed (since the Phoenicians wrote from right to left) and often turned on their sides!

‘aleph, the ox, began as the image of an ox’s head.  It represents a glottal stop before a vowel.  The Greeks, needing vowel symbols, used it for alpha (A).  The Romans used it as A.
Beth, the house, may have derived from a more rectangular Egyptian alphabetic glyph of a reed shelter (but which stood for the sound h). The Greeks called it beta (B), and it was passed on to the Romans as B.
Gimel, the camel, may have originally been the image of a boomerang-like throwing stick.  The Greeks called it gamma (Γ).  The Etruscans — who had no g sound — used it for the k sound, and passed it on to the Romans as C.  They in turn added a short bar to it to make it do double duty as G.
Daleth, the door, may have originally been a fish!  The Greeks turned it into delta (Δ), and passed it on to the Romans as D.
He may have meant window, but originally represented a man, facing us with raised arms, calling out or praying.  The Greeks used it for the vowel epsilon (E, “simple E”).  The Romans used it as E.
Waw, the hook, may originally have represented a mace.  The Greeks used one version of waw which looked like our F, which they called digamma, for the number 6.  This was used by the Etruscans for v, and they passed it on to the Romans as F.   The Greeks had a second version — upsilon (Υ)– which they moved to to the back of their alphabet.  The Romans used a version of upsilon for V, which later would be written U as well, then adopted the Greek form as Y.  In 7th century England, the W — “double-u” — was created.
Zayin may have meant sword or some other kind of weapon.  The Greeks used it for zeta (Z). The Romans only adopted it later as Z, and put it at the end of their alphabet.
H.eth, the fence, was a “deep throat” (pharyngeal) consonant.  The Greeks used it for the vowel eta (H), but the Romans used it for H.
Teth may have originally represented a spindle.  The Greeks used it for theta (Θ), but the Romans, who did not have the th sound, dropped it.
Yodh, the hand, began as a representation of the entire arm.  The Greeks used a highly simplified version of it for iota (Ι).  The Romans used it as I, and later added a variation for J.
Kaph, the hollow or palm of the hand, was adopted by the Greeks for kappa (K) and passed it on to the Romans as K.
Lamedh began as a picture of an ox stick or goad. The Greeks used it for lambda (Λ).  The Romans turned it into L.
Mem, the water, became the Greek mu (M).  The Romans kept it as M.
Nun, the fish, was originally a snake or eel.  The Greeks used it for nu (N), and the Romans for N.
Samekh, which also meant fish, is of uncertain origin.  It may have originally represented a tent peg or some kind of support.  It bears a strong resemblance to the Egyptian djed pillar seen in many sacred carvings.  The Greeks used it for xi (Ξ) and a simplified variation of it for chi (X).  The Romans kept only the variation as X.
‘ayin, the eye, was another “deep throat” consonant.  The Greeks used it for omicron (O, “little O”).  They developed a variation of it for omega (Ω, “big O”), and put it at the end of their alphabet.  The Romans kept the original for O.
Pe, the mouth, may have originally been a symbol for a corner.  The Greeks used it for pi (Π).  The Romans closed up one side and turned it into P.
Sade, a sound between s and sh, is of uncertain origin.  It may have originally been a symbol for a plant, but later looks more like a fish hook.  The Greeks did not use it, although an odd variation does show up as sampi (Ϡ), a symbol for 900.  The Etruscans used it in the shape of an M for their sh sound, but the Romans had no need for it.
Qoph, the monkey, may have originally represented a knot.  It was used for a sound similar to k but further back in the mouth.  The Greeks only used it for the number 90 (Ϙ), but the Etruscans and Romans kept it for Q.
Resh, the head, was used by the Greeks for rho (P).  The Romans added a line to differentiate it from their P and made it R.
Shin, the tooth, may have originally represented a bow.  Although it was first pronounced sh, the Greeks used it sideways for sigma (Σ).  The Romans rounded it to make S.
Taw, the mark, was used by the Greeks for tau (T).  The Romans used it for T.

The Greek letter phi (Φ) was already common among the Anatolians in what is now Turkey. Psi (Ψ) appears to have been invented by the Greeks themselves, perhaps based on Poseidon’s trident.  For comparison, here is the complete Greek alphabet:

* Until recently, it was believed that these people lived in the Sinai desert and began using their alphabet in the 1700’s bc.  In 1998, archeologist John Darnell discovered rock carvings in southern Egypt’s “Valley of Horrors” that push back the origin of the alphabet to the 1900’s bc or even earlier.  Details suggest that the inventors were Semitic people working in Egypt, who thereafter passed the idea on to their relatives further east.

 

From this morning!  I just want to stress that this is my interpretation of things, not anyone else’s.  Some may look at what I’m sharing and not agree or see things I don’t – even deeper.  I don’t know if there is a “right” or “wrong” but just different….that is where perception comes in.  We are each biologically incapable of perceiving life and what it is exactly the same way.  This goes for any life form on the planet – we were each given our own “car” to drive be it a fly or a human.

Zero = 64/10/1

One = 34/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (first time 7 and 8 appears)

Two = 58/13/4/2/1 (first time 13 appears)

Three = 56/11/2/1 (first time 11 appears)

Four = 60/6/3 cycle

Five = 42/6/3 cycle (60 + 42 = 102 = 3 cycle and 4 + 5 = 9 cycle)

Six = 52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Seven = 65/11/2/1 (when I see this is see two individuals in 11 that become 2 that become 1. 7 and 11 came up a lot in catastrophes I was puzzling out)

Seven Deadly Sins = 177/15/6/3 cycle (when you add up the numeric values of pride (52), covetousness (191), lust (72), anger (45), gluttony (134), envy (66) and sloth (74) you get 634/13 – taking us back to 2 either of self, perception or two separate people)

Catastrophe = 126/9 cycle

Eight = 49/13/4/2/1 (62, the value of Ate – the value of Eight 49 = 13! Interesting!)

Ate = 62/8/4/2/1 (Interesting that the word we use to describe consumption (159) both sounds like and comes to the value of the number 8.)

Eat = 26/8/4/2/1

Nine = 42/6/3 cycle

No = 29/11/2/1

Know = 63/9 cycle (Interesting that this word would equal the number value of the word Nine)

Nein (German for No) = 42/6/3 cycle

Ten = 39/12/3 cycle

Eleven = 63/9 cycle (Eleven seems to have come up a lot with Seven yesterday)

Twelve = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Teen = 44/8/4/2/1

Thirteen = 99/18/9 cycle (such a ominous number, takes us back to Two)

Fourteen = 104/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Fifteen = 65/11/2/1 (Interesting this is the same value as Seven)

Sixteen = 96/15/6/3 cycle

Seventeen = 109/10/1

Eighteen = 73/10/1

Nineteen = 86/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Twenty = 107/8/4/2/1

(The following are a couple that came to me to number out this morning)

Disease = 62/8/4/2/1 (interesting how disease and cancer both come to 8)

Alzheimer’s = 116/8/4/2/1 (Interesting seeing 8 in conditions that involve eating)

Dementia = 71/8/4/2/1

Memory Loss = 154/10/1 (A person in a 9 cycle if you look at 154! Memory=89 Loss = 65)

Cancer = 44/8/4/2/1 (There’s that 8, ate again)

Heart disease = 114/6/3 cycle (this makes sense to me that conditions of the heart would be cyclic and or reaccuring)

Cardiovascular = 147/12/3 cycle (the heart pumps blood, makes sense it would be a cycle)

Diabetes = 65/11/2/1 (same value as Seven again!)

Mental illness = 155/11/2/1 (Mental= 65 and Illness = 90 which is a 9 cycle)

Pain = 40/4/2/1

Feel = 28/10/1 (interesting how the values of feel and pain come to 68, the last two of my birth year!)

highly sensitive person = 278/17/8/4/2/1

Empath = 63/9 cycle (it isn’t always a positive thing to be such a person)

Empathy = 88/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Cure = 47/11/2/1 (Interesting that cardiovascular has a 47 in it too. A lot of what ails us has origins in the heart)

Heart = 52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (There’s 7 again! I see a deciding what we eat, think and feel that brings us back to self and to God – to health)

Health = 54/9 cycle (Maintaining our health is a cycle but actually staying healthy seems to be a decision on our part)

Healthy = 79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (to this aligns with values for the Heart)

dishwasher = 114/6/3 cycle (Couldn’t help but put this one in there lol!  It is a seemingly never ending cycle isn’t it?!)

Miele (Italian word for Honey) = 44/8/4/2/1

 

Black Panther = 111/3 cycle (interesting if you have seen the movie!)

Cat = 24/6/3 cycle

Leopard = 71/8/4/2/1 (the family a black panther is from)

spots = 89/17/8/4/2/1 (notice how 17, reverse of the 71 in leopard is in this word.  Leopards have spots, even the black ones)

Immortality = 155/11/2/1 (interesting how this lines up with the numbers in Black Panther)

Immortal = 101/2/1 (Same number for the dreaded room in Orson Welles 1984!)

 

19 Aug 2018 Pluribus

Hello.  How are you in this moment?  I am grateful to have a wonderful husband who has placed a hot cup of coffee next to me as I write to you.  I am grateful for all those who make coffee a reality in my home.  I am grateful for the cows and farmers who care for them who make sure milk gets to the store so I can put it in my coffee.  I am grateful for all those who make sugar a reality so my coffee can be sweetened.  So many involved for my one cup of coffee!

This leads me to the word that came to me late yesterday afternoon after we got home from helping Kyle’s dad celebrate his birthday – “Pluribus.”  By itself it mean “More” in Latin on our currency it means, “Of the many, One.”

The Pluribus multiprocessor was an early multi-processor computer designed by BBN for use as a packet switch in the ARPANET. Its design later influenced the BBN Butterfly computer. The Pluribus had its beginnings in 1972 when the need for a second-generation interface message processor (IMP) became apparent.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pluribus
Pluribus = 118/10/1
E Pluribus Unum = 192/12/3 cycle (Interesting!!)
Of the many one = 141/6/3 cycle (Interesting how in Latin and English the result is the same)
We had a really nice visit with Kyle’s Mom, Dad and brother yesterday and got caught up on things.  Beth sent me home with the sequel to The Sweetness at the Bottom of the Pie by Alan Bradley called The Weed That Strings The Hangman’s Bag and I’m excited about that.  My happy dance was reserved for other news though.  We found out that through Beth’s side of the family Benedict Cumberbatch is her 9th cousin!  Not once or twice removed but just cousin.  There is a positive DNA match with a common ancestor named Hanna Harden who lived from 1657 to 1690.  My husband is related to Dr. Strange!  I knew there was some kind of connection!  Now I’m just waiting for Jonathan Rhys Meyers to show up lol.
I told Beth yesterday that from what I’ve noticed is it’s not just a coincidence when we are interested and or attracted to certain people.  I think there is a sort of “recognition” with how we gravitate towards certain people.  The men I am attracted to are put up to a couple of templates – mainly Kyle but also my Dad and other men I care about in my life present or past.   It seems to be a combination of physical characteristics, mannerisms/behavior and aspects I’m not even always conscious of.   Sometimes I will gravitate to a person because we share a common thread in life or they will remind me of someone I used to know, loved or lost through life.
Sometimes I wonder if the organisms that keep us alive have a system of their own and through us are attracted to “their kind” if that makes sense.  They don’t see the same way we do if at all.  There is probably a whole different criteria for attraction.  For example if you meet someone and hit it off right away or love at first sight – is that “you” or is that what’s going on with the organisms INSIDE of you?!  Are your emotions and the subsequent actions you take completely “you” or is what lives inside of you running the show?  I think of the North Korean man who defected to South Korea last year and was shot while doing so.  They found he was full of parasitic worms: https://www.theguardian.com/world/2017/nov/17/north-korean-defector-parasitic-worm-parasites-south-korea.  I also think of cravings for certain foods or wanting to see, do/interact with particular people, places and things.  Who or what is driving those urges?  Things that make you hmmmm.

Interesting article I found about my ponderings about attraction and what’s going on inside of us:

https://www.iflscience.com/health-and-medicine/organisms-make-us-who-we-are/

The Organisms That Make Us Who We Are

Wikimedia Commons. E. coli

From bacteria to viruses, mites to fungi, our bodies are literally riddled with life. Perhaps to a greater extent than you ever thought imaginable. But are these guests up to mischief; should we throw them out for trashing the house? Or do we welcome them with open arms and beg them not to leave. From assisting your immune system to having sex on your face (wait, what?!), this article is going to explore the organisms that have set up camp on and inside our bodies.

The Human Microbiome

Let’s start with microbes. Microbes are microscopic organisms such as bacteria, archaea, protozoa and fungi, and these microorganisms that reside on or within your body are referred to as the human microbiome. This microbial colonization begins during and shortly after birth. Your body is composed of about 10 trillion human cells, but bacteria outnumber them by at least ten to one. Microbes actually make up around 1 to 3% of your total body mass. These microbes colonize lots of different areas of the body including your skin, gut, mouth, eyes, and genitals.

What’s lurking in your gut

You can find anywhere between 500 to 1,000 different species of bacteria in your gut alone, and they actually make up 60% of the dry mass of your feces- yummy. Common bacterial species found includes E. coli, B. bifidum and E. faecalis. These bacteria are far from just being gate crashers; we have developed a symbiotic relationship with them. We provide these bacterial species with a nice home to live and replicate in, whilst they provide us with a myriad of benefits. For example, they assist in the breakdown of food, and they help to prevent harmful species from colonizing which could adversely affect our health. They also assist in the production of hormones and vitamins, namely vitamins B and K. It is also becoming increasingly apparent that the bacteria present in your gut play a role in modulating and training your immune system to be able to recognize friend from foe.

Scanning electron micrograph of E. faecalis​, found in the human colon. Wikimedia commons.

But do these bacteria only do good things? Apparently not. There is an increasing amount of evidence to suggest that certain bacterial species colonizing the gut are actually associated with obesity. These microbes are more commonly found in those living in colder northern areas of the world, compared to warmer southern areas. It seems that certain types of bacteria found in leaner individuals are better at breaking down certain types of food.

Spotty Skin and Smelly Pits

Your skin also has plenty of microbes, especially your hands- it’s amazing what you can grow in a petri dish if you stick your finger on one. Bacteria present on your skin can sometimes associate with oil glands, playing a role in the development of acne. Your sweat is also naturally odorless; it’s the bacteria found on the skin that make it smell. Interestingly, your unique body odor correlates with the presence of specific microbes, as they break down non-volatile compounds into volatile compounds with characteristic scents. It was discovered that the higher the density of a group of bacteria called coryneforms, the more the underarms smelt.

The skin microbiome. Wikimedia commons.

Recently the bacterial species living in our navels (belly buttons) was investigated; it was found to be colonized to an extent greater than scientists could have ever predicted. They swabbed 60 bellybuttons and found a whopping 2,368 phylotypes of bacteria, which probably corresponded to an even bigger number of bacterial species. It was thought that 1,458 of these bacterial species could be new to science. Amazingly, one volunteer harbored a species of bacteria that has only ever been isolated in Japanese soil– and he had never been to Japan! Another (who admitted to not washing very much…) had a species of extremophilic (thrives in extreme environments) bacteria that is often found in deep sea hydrothermal vents and ice caps. Intriguing or disgusting, but our bellybuttons are turning out to be a microscopic jungle, and it’s exciting microbiologists a great deal. Just imagine what could be in yours! Or maybe don’t…

Most of the bacterial species found in our bodies don’t do us any harm, and so are referred to as commensals. But they can become opportunistic pathogens, for example if immunity is lowered or natural barriers become compromised, such as the blood brain barrier. This is where they can go rogue and cause problems.

Organisms That Can Alter Your Behavior?

So, we know that organisms can affect your health, in positive and negative ways. But what about your personality? There has been some very interesting research emerging on a protozoan organism called Toxoplasma gondii which is found in 22-84% of the human population (depending on the country). The most intriguing effect of toxoplasmosis is the apparent “fatal attraction syndrome” which occurs in infected rodents. T. gondii can only productively replicate in cats, but it can infect humans and rodents. Amazingly, it has found a way to alter the brain signaling of the rodents to make them more likely to be consumed by the cat. Infected rodents in studies had slower reaction times and displayed no aversion to the scent of cat urine, which rodents usually have an innate fear of.

But what’s perhaps more interesting is what they have found in humans. It was discovered that people with toxoplasmosis had slower reaction times and actually enjoyed the smell of cat urine! No other types of urine (they tested a few), just cat urine, whereas uninfected individuals did not like the smell. Is the organism trying to alter the behavior of the human to make it more likely to be eaten by cats?! It goes on; they studied people involved in road traffic accidents in Prague. They found that those involved in accidents, whether they were a pedestrian or driver, were more likely to be infected when compared with residents not involved in accidents. This suggested that those individuals were perhaps sometimes more reckless. This research has certainly been met with raised eyebrows, and confounding factors are always a possibility. For example, it may not be that toxoplasmosis affects your personality, but perhaps people with a particular personality are more susceptible to toxoplasmosis.

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Your Face As A Breeding Ground

So what other weird things live on your body? There are some very interesting creepy crawlies alongside these microbes. Mites, or more specifically Demodex, live in places such as your eyelash and eyebrow follicles. They’re the most common ectoparasite (parasite that lives on the surface of the host) on the human skin. Usually these critters will do you no harm, although in some instances they have been found to cause skin disease. They can leave the follicles and walk around the skin at night, meeting others to then mate at the follicle opening. Once they’ve done the dirty deed, they go back to the inside of the hair follicle to lay eggs. You give these mites a comfy bed and what do they do? Have sex on your face. They’re worse than teenagers. Perhaps even more disgustingly, Demodex don’t actually have an anus. This means they have no way of getting rid of their feces, so when they die they explode all of this feces into your pores. Some scientists may believe that this is sufficient to stimulate an immune reaction, and may be the cause of the acne-like skin condition rosacea.

Nobody Loves Me… Think I’ll Go And Eat Worms.

Although worms are not found in everyone, they’re surprisingly common in the human population. There are 3 main types found in humans; flatworms such as tapeworms, flukes such as blood flukes, and roundworms such as threadworms, pinworms or hookworms.

The largest of the intestinal worms found in humans is the roundworm Ascaris lumbricoides, which can reach a whopping 35 centimeters. After ingesting the eggs they hatch and bury into the intestinal wall, entering the blood stream. From here, they travel to the lungs where they’re coughed up and swallowed again, returning to the gut once more.

​Wikimedia commons, Ascaris lumbricoides.

Tapeworms are transmitted via infected food, and once inside the body it attaches to the intestine via hooks found on its head. Here, it can survive for up to 25 years! If you’re unlucky enough to become infected with hookworms (Necator americanus), these intestinal parasites actually drink your blood and can cause a type of anemia.

And finally my favorite, the pinworm. These little guys are only a few millimeters in length, and once again live in the intestines. They mate by traumatic insemination- the male stabs the female with his penis, and then dies. At least they die happy…

Let’s Not Forget Viruses!

It might surprise you to learn just how many viruses there are in our bodies. It recently emerged that like the human microbiome, humans also have a virome. Our human viromes have been suggested to be even more diverse than our microbiomes, and they also vary considerably between people. In one study investigating twins and their mother, they found between 52-2773 different viruses. We also have a surprising amount of viruses in our bodies that infect bacteria- these are called bacteriophages. For every bacterium in your body, it is estimated that there is a whopping 100 bacteriophages. Going back to poo- there is approximately 10 billion in each gram. Wow.

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Just like how it has been suggested that the bacteria in your gut can contribute to obesity, there has been some interesting, if very controversial, research to suggest that perhaps viruses can also play a role. A small number of researchers have been investigating a particular type of adenovirus, and they found that infection correlated nicely with obesity. This was triggered by observations in animal models where this virus was found to dramatically increase the amount of fat found in the body. Not everyone is convinced by this virus, but some people are beginning to take it more seriously. The idea that obesity could be an infectious disease, possibly spread by a simple cough or sneeze, has met some raised eyebrows.

Just like bacteria, viruses can live harmlessly in the body, but can then go on to cause problems when the person becomes immune suppressed.

I could go on, but simply there’s just too many things living inside you to talk about them all. You are literally riddled with life, but these organisms play a big part in your life, and most of them are quiet do-gooders that we wouldn’t even know were there. You can thank some of these organisms for helping to shape who you are.