15 Aug 2018 “I’m Always Here” – We are not alone

Hello.  How are you in your present moment?  Me?  There are so many things I could say, but really I’m grateful.  Within the past couple of months people I care about have been going through some really rough stuff like divorce, the sickness of family and friends and the deaths of family and friends.  It feels like we are all just going through some serious shit right now and it’s hard but like I told my sweet friend last night, “I know it’s hard but it won’t always be this way.”  This is something life has taught me.  This is something losing our sweet dog Sammy taught me.  When hard times come, they only last as long as you allow them to and time is really the best healer.  The more of it that passes between you and what your going through, the less it hurts.  The pain won’t completely go away.  You won’t forget the pain, but it will hurt less.

I am not a materially rich person but in terms of meaningful wealth, there is no earthly equivalent.  Sometimes I forget, sometimes I whine, complain, I wallow, bitch and moan about trivial and frivolous things….most of which I cannot change.   Time passes, things get better.

These moments are so small in the scheme of all the moments.  As I often hear in my mind when I manage to get it quiet, “Let everything pass through.  Everything passes through.  Let the images and emotion that come into your mind just through.”

This morning I was laying in bed worrying about my friends and what they are going to do today and their fur kids.  I’ve been very sad and anxious for them.  In my head I asked  “Are you there?”  and the answer I heard was, “I’m always here.”  Who is this loving, comforting voice I am having a telepathic conversation with?  Is it God?  Is that just my mind manufacturing an answer of comfort for me?  Whatever the answer, that voice helped me get out of bed this morning to come and write this!

We are not abandoned, no matter how it may seem.  No matter how many negative headlines splash in front of our eyes, how many tragedies real or manufactured are put before or placed on us – we are not alone.  All you have to do is ask to be reassured.

 

Enya – Only Time (Official Music Video)

 

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13 Aug 2018 32 Years, school’s back in session, dreams and owls for Zarbakht

Hello!  It’s the first day of school for us here in Alvarado TX and I can already hear the train of traffic starting behind the house.  Must be some new folks driving to school now – lots of stereo thumping and bass going by.   It’s hard to get motivated to go back to school!  Even as long ago as that’s been for me, I still remember the feeling.  Kind of the same feeling you get on Sunday  night before having to go back to work on Monday!  “Do I have to go?!”

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I was hoping the city would fix the road problem before all this started but they weren’t able to I guess.  Between the extreme heat and now the rain and wet I guess it wasn’t possible.  Every once in a while we hear a loud thump that sounds like thunder as someone who doesn’t know the divet is there hits it.  The dogs are reasonable to freak out about it!

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Personal Milestone:

It was 32 years ago today that I joined the Air Force.  I was medically retired from being a Personnelist (basically I flew a desk aka I was a secretary) in September 2002.  Man I’m getting old but just in numbers lool!  I don’t miss that part of my life but I will always miss many of the people I had the honor to work with.  It was a great experience to work with people from all walks of life and not care about our differences.  We were a team and in many cases close like family.  I think of these people often and hope wherever and whenever life has taken them that they are well.

Dreams:

Last night –

Had a couple of interesting dreams.  I’ve been having a lot of them lately.  The first one was about being a bird and flying.  I flew into a wood where there was a group of people gathered.  A woman was telling me to follow the currents.  I veered off course but then I saw a flock of birds and started to follow them.  I ended up near a woman who changed into a leopard cat.  Something about her car getting stuck.  I remember seeing the tail lights of a car.  Just before I woke from this dream I flew into a brush of nettles – a thorny bushes – and couldn’t find my way out.

The dream before I woke up was interesting.  I was trying out for a sports team.  I was a tomboy and they could tell.  Then I remember being back stage wearing a jacket and had a cigar or something in my mouth.  I was confident even with not knowing what song I was going to sing.  I went out to a room full of people and started singing about unity and freedom like a black woman might, a very big and powerful voice.  The crowd wasn’t sure about me!

Nap yesterday –

12 Aug 2018 – What came to me in my brief time out chalking yesterday. This would be a lovely fountain!

I dreamt I was doing some exercise routine like aerobics outside in the sunshine in front of a tall white house.  I could see someone in the top floor window moving/watching me.  It wasn’t “me” in the dream.  The way I could tell it wasn’t me was I could see my thighs/knees/legs were very thick and muscular.  My skin was reddish brown.  I was moving very fast, effortless almost like a child might.  My hands were smaller.  I woke up from this dream hearing Native American singing set to very fast paced electronic dance music.

Changing gears:  OWLS! (owls are symbolic of wisdom and learning – which is perfect for folks going back to school today!)

Yesterday I commented on a post by a new WordPress friend Zarbakht.  She had shared about her kitty Margo not feeling well and in one of the pictures Margo was sleeping with a Ty Beanie Boo Owl like I have in my collection.  Well when I mentioned this, she was very enthusiastic for me to share more about these owls of mine.  She apparently is very much in love with owls!  I’m not sure if she thought I had real owls, as some people do so I clarified for her the only owls in my possession were of the stuff variety.  However, my friend Cindy Knoke (https://cindyknoke.com/?s=owls) is an amazing nature photographer and has captured the image of REAL owls in the wild and near her property!

Anyhew – I love owls too.  This is for you Zarbakht!

Numbers in the Words:

United States Air Force = 232/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Military = 107/8/4/2/1

Computer = 111/3 cycle

Owl = 50/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Photography = 149/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Public School = 135/9 cycle

Roads = 57/12/3 cycle

School Bus = 114/6/3 cycle

College = 59/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Freedom = 66/12/3 cycle

Dreams = 60/6/3 cycle

https://www.nasa.gov/ – bookmarked so I can check in on Parker mission!

13 Aug 2018 – Link and his “Ma I just pooped in your bathroom again” face.

 

 

 

 

10 Aug 2018 Simple Reminder, Dreams and Hot Glue and Aluminum Pyramid

Hello to you in your here and now as you visit me here.  Thank you for taking the time.  Hopefully visits here are part of the fulfillment aspect of your time in this life.

Time is an illusion with a face and moving hands.

So this morning I got teary, in a good way.  We were walking Link and Spot and our neighbor George came out to head to work.  We did a cheery exchange of how are you doings like we always do and then I said, “It’s a rough time for a lot of folks” and stopped and looked at me and said, “Is it?” and that made me pause and think, “I like that!” I said.  Positive thinking and faith in one phrase.  It’s hard times if you believe it and if you focus your thoughts on the difficulties and not the blessings.  He said, “We got rain” and I said, “I was out playing in it too, grateful to God for that!”

As we walked away, I felt myself tearing up at this simple exchange.  It was a reminder.  My sharing this isn’t to say or negate the fact that life isn’t difficult for too many people.  It’s about mindfulness and empowerment – mastering the struggles you are facing on your terms.

Profound quote I found this morning that I had never seen/read before:

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I didn’t have a very restful sleep again last night, part of the reason I’m more easily triggered emotionally.  I had a couple of weird/troubling dreams.  The first dream was of an Asian woman and something about being put in a brothel against her will.  The second was of a woman with blonde hair put up on her head.  She was wearing a red gown with straps.  She almost looked like Sissy Spacek in the movie Carrie (Carrie’s dress started out white).  The woman had a long tan arms and there was a red welt on one of them.  I don’t know if the welt was a sore or from an injection.  She was struggling against someone or something.  Then all the sudden she was wrapped in this white latex and looked like one of the featureless wisp people in my drawings.  She had a crown of the same white material attached to her head.  Then she was put into what looked like a sarcophagus or casing of some kind.  As I watched this happening in my dream, it was like she was going to live in it.

More weird from Jackie’s dream theater!  I have no idea where this stuff comes from.  Sometimes I wonder if I’m walking in someone else’s dream world or they have put their stuff in mine!  Most likely it’s just my brain putting together snippets of all the data I’ve been exposed to in my waking world and making a movie.  Sometimes I wish my mind would just move things directly to the cutting room floor!

 

1 Aug 2018 Excitement

Hello.  Hope this finds you well as you visit here.  Today has been a weird and tiring day.  We had excitement in both forms.  The kind you want and the kind you don’t.  The excitement we planned for was stopping by the Arlington Mall after my doctors appointment.  Just to do something different for a change.  We were quickly reminded why we don’t go to the mall very often.  We left without buying anything even from the food court!  It’s a great Mall, we are just not the same people we used to be I guess.  I think we were both just tired which can make any experience lack luster.

Anyhew – to the other excitement…..

The excitement we didn’t want came from finding out via our neighborhood Facebook called Next Door that two prisoners had escaped from the Prairieland Detention Center (ICE) – (https://www.ice.gov/detention-facility/prairieland-detention-center-pdc) a couple of miles from us!  Yesterday afternoon I had been sitting out back and all the sudden there were emergency vehicles racing in both directions.  I had that sinking feeling that something really bad had happened but didn’t know what.  There wasn’t anything on the news and no alert from the city to let us know what was going on.   We heard what sounded like a firework go off late in the afternoon which someone later mentioned might have actually been gunfire.   It wasn’t until I checked Next Door that I found out what had happened.  There was a very passionate thread on Next door – a lot of upset people!  It’s frustrating to have to find out about something like this from a social media site!

Most of us that have been here awhile and weren’t part of city government didn’t want the facility here.  A lot of people in town didn’t even know about it being built.  We didn’t even really have a say about it and any lack of resistance to it being built was because most people didn’t know about it!    I’m glad school wasn’t in session.  I always worry about all the families we have around here with children when this stuff happens.   This type of stuff doesn’t help the me with “labels” either!

When they were talking about getting the facility here a couple of years ago, which was during the time Kyle and I were still actively attending city council meetings and trying to stay involved, we all expressed concerns about many things to include escapee situations.  We were concerned with them putting this facility so close to where people live.  They seemed more concerned about bringing in people, jobs, houses and property tax dollars.  They got all the things they wanted but also a whole bunch of stuff none of us have been enjoying very much to include this escaping business.  I feel bad for our local cops and fire department folks who are getting pulled into this stuff while still trying to take care of our town.

This has happened before, JUST A FEW MONTHS AGO, and we weren’t told about this escape either!  I didn’t know about it until I looked it up: 

https://www.nbcdfw.com/news/local/Honduran-Escapes-North-Texas-ICE-Detention-Facility-476462503.html

Man Caught After Escaping From North Texas ICE Detention Facility

Published at 4:07 PM CST on Mar 10, 2018 | Updated at 3:57 AM CDT on Mar 12, 2018 – excerpt

“North Texas authorities say a man who escaped from an Immigration and Customs Enforcement Detention Facility in Alvarado has been re-captured.

At about 5:30 a.m. Saturday, Jose Manzanares Montalavan, 23, was last seen in the line for breakfast at the Prairieland Detention Center in Alvarado, according to ICE spokesperson Carl Rusnok.

Officials said Manzanares Montalavan scaled a fence of the facility and fled near Gas Line Road where it is believed he could have been picked up from the area.”

Seems we have a theme with the fence because that’s how the two escapee’s yesterday got out!  Someone was saying this is like the 3rd or 4th time it’s happened and this is a brand new facility!  I only found the March article so if it’s happened before it may not have made the news.  The thread on Next Door got pretty passionate.  One person even said she was about to pack up and move because of this.   There is a city council meeting on 20 August 2018 that people were talking about attending and bringing all this up.  If it’s like anything else, I don’t know that it’s going to matter much.

https://www.cityofalvarado.org/index.asp?SEC=B5F952A8-387F-4888-9B9F-AF0A80F969FC – City Calendar

https://www.nbcdfw.com/news/local/Inmates-Scale-Fence-Escape-ICE-Detention-Center-489753821.html

Inmates Scale Fence, Escape ICE Detention Center in Johnson County

Both inmates have been captured: ICE

Published at 10:04 AM CDT on Aug 1, 2018 | Updated at 10:45 AM CDT on Aug 1, 2018

Authorities in Johnson County say two inmates who escaped a U.S. Immigration and Customs Enforcement detention facility in Alvarado Tuesday have been captured.

An ICE spokesman said staff at the Prairieland Detention Center were notified at 2:15 p.m. that two men climbed the fence and escaped. One person was captured about two hours later. The second man remained at large overnight and was found Wednesday morning.

ICE said neither of the men had convictions for violent crimes.

Multiple police agencies are involved in the search.

Agents were investigating how the escape happened.

30 July 2018 What a World

Hello.  How are you doing in your present moment?  I hope you are doing well…..so many are not.  Lots of fires, earthquakes, flooding and other manners of calamity going on all around us these days.

What are you doing to help yourself navigate these times?  It’s been harder for me lately but I have it easy compared to most everyone else I know.

There are people all over wearing multiple hats.  People in my neighborhood and beyond that are working so hard for themselves and their families – trying to be good people in this world.  In our midst so many hero’s!  In the above, middle and below of the strata of our existence so many trying to do their best in spite of all the obstructions put before them!

My thoughts, prayers and love go out to all our flesh and blood hero’s of today.  The police and fire departments, the hospice workers, the nurses, the doctors, the first responders, our veterans and those leaders of the many positive walks of faith at work in their churches, temples and communities.   A few may fall short and disappoint us, but most all of them try so hard!  It takes very special people to answer the call of service before self.

Every person on this earth, trying to make the world a better place each day is a hero in my book!

7:58 am have to pause – as I’m writing I’m hearing the patter of rain!  Oh thank goodness!  Living here in North Texas you just don’t take rain in the summer for granted!  Imagining all those cracks in the yards getting filled!  The skin of the earth getting some healing balm!

This morning on my Facebook I was reminded that I had shared this post from a friend a year ago.  I have tried to find the source book it’s from and haven’t found it yet.  I want to read the rest of the book lool!   When I read this it made me think that no matter what your vision or path to the God of your understanding or in some cases no God at all, when you were manifested a seed was planted within you…..a seed planted with love.  I know some would say their origin story doesn’t feel anything like that.  Way too many have an origin story rooted in violence….but yet you are here….you have a purpose and there is a place for you.   You just have to find it and there are many to help with this quest!   I hope you choose a positive path.  Remember, life is all about choices!

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Drawings from yesterday:

http://abc30.com/crews-continue-to-fight-to-keep-ferguson-fire-away-from-yosemite-and-populated-areas/3848455/

MARIPOSA COUNTY

Crews continue to fight to keep Ferguson Fire away from Yosemite and populated areas

The Ferguson Fire continues to grow– consuming more than 800 acres on Sunday. As of Monday morning, it is 56,659 acres and is 30-percent contained.

Firefighters are working to secure the southeast quadrant of the fire to keep it from spreading into Yosemite National Park and the more populated areas south of the park.

Residents can expect to see increased smoke during the next few days as these fire operations continue.

While the Ferguson Fire continues its slow growth, those working the fire lines are also in mourning. Another one of their own was killed while on the job fighting the flames in Mariposa County.

Brian Hughes, 33, lost his life when he and his crew were conducting a tactical firing operation on the east side of the fire. During that operation, he was struck by a tree. He was treated on scene, but died before he could make it to the hospital.

This comes just 16 days after Cal Fire Heavy Equipment Operator Braden Varney was killed on the job.

Dozens lined the streets of the town of Mariposa and Merced Sunday to pay their final respects to Hughes. A procession led the firefighter’s body from the Mariposa Airport to the Stanislaus County Coroners Office.

Fire personnel escorted his body through the city of Merced.

https://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/video/neil-diamond-firefighters-battling-wildfire-surprise-performance-56910229video at this link of him singing.  Sharing this for my Mom who has always loved the Jazz Singer! 
Neil Diamond thanks firefighters battling wildfire with surprise performance

23 July 2018 The stranger

Hello to you.  How are you in your here and now?  The present moment you are sitting in as you visit here?  What I’ve been seeing in my own life and in  our shared existence is a struggle.   People struggling with their personal demons, work, homes, families, communities, churches, governments and with the environment itself.  It is the cause and effect, the push and pull….the balancing act between the light and shadows of our  nature that we call life.

For the longest time I have had trouble with accepting life isn’t just about contentment, peace and happiness all the time.  Why can’t we just experience the “flow” of existence without any entanglements along the way?!  What I have come to understand for myself is without struggles of some sort in my life I become complacent and learn very little about myself or others.  I get stagnant, bored and apathy sets in. I begin to feel almost non-existent or transparent even.  It’s not that I want to have a lot of struggles and drama in my life.  I just know how I feel when some sort of struggle, challenge, or purpose is absent.  My life is reduced to existing….barely living at all.

A part of me becomes a stranger if I am not vigilant.

Is it our current ways of communicating with others and retrieving information?  Being able to click and have a steady stream of struggle and purpose fed into our senses.

I have found for myself that it is in the moments of my unplugging from the world, when the green flickering lights of the internet box is off, the stranger appears.   The one that takes me outside and sits with me under our little oak tree and we listen to and watch the birds, cicada’s, dragonflies, flies, wasps and other winged beings in their personal struggles of survival in this sometimes hostile place.  We feel the faint breeze still hot from the day flowing through our fingers.  We look up at the clouds and pray for rain.  We cry for a world there is little we can do anything about but pray and meditate for.

The stranger within responds with love to the stranger unseen.  All too soon our moment of getting reacquainted is over.  Our time ends as the sun finally goes to bed wrapping itself in a blanket of purple, blue, pink and gold.

We are not alone in the struggles of this life when worldly distractions are set aside.   It the middle of countless vibrating particles of energy, the “lines” of time,  is the “stranger.”

 

22 July 2018 – I was thinking of the collective mind/consciousness floating above the earth in the clouds. The mirror was to get more light on the drawing. What’s interesting to me is in my attempt to get more light there is a reflection – like the consciousness having to look at and “reflect” on itself!

Exploring the numbers of the Words, interesting today:

http://www.crystalinks.com/numerology2.html – Numbers and Their Meanings

https://www.gematrix.org/ – Gematria Calculator (found this just today – very handy!)

http://moonatnoon.com/puzzles/reference/a1b2z26.html

The most useful tool is a substitution cipher where each letter of the alphabet is represented by a number which corresponds to that letter’s position in the alphabet. In simplest terms, this can be written as A=1, B=2 … Z=26. Since A is the first letter of the alphabet, it is represented by the number 1. B, the second letter, is represented by 2. Z, the last of the 26 letters in the alphabet, is represented by 26.

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

19 20 18 21 7 7 12 5

S T R U G G L E = 109/10/1

4 9 19 20 18 1 3 20 9 15 14  (ION – Eye on, like keep an eye on something)

D I S T R A C T I O N = 132/6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

19 20 18 1 14 7 5 18

S T R A N G E R = 102/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

19 5 12 6

S E L F = 42/6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

18 5 6 12 5 3 20 9 15 14 – (ION – Eye on, like keep an eye on something)

R E F L E C T I O N = 107/8/4/2/1

3 15 14 19 3 9 15 21 19 14 5 19 19

C O N S C I O U S N E S S – 175/13/4/2/1

13 9 18 18 15 18

M I R R O R = 91/10/1 (your two eyes and two parts of yourself see and instantly recognize and accept the person in the mirror as self)  or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (like looking back and forth at yourself and finally coming to accept the self in the mirror)

12 9 6 5

L I F E = 32/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

5 24 9 19 20

E X I S T = 77/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

3 1 21 19 5

C A U S E = 49/13/4/2/1

5 6 6 5 3 20

E F F E C T = 45/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

19 21 9 3 9 4 5

S U I C I D E = 70/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

13 21 19 4 5 18

M U R D E R = 80/8/4/2/1

12 9 5

L I E = 26/8/4/2/1

23 1 18

W A R = 42/6/3 cycle

1 3 9 4

A C I D = 17/8/4/2/1 (I have been sad at seeing the use of this to disfigure people lately)

20 18 21 20 8

T R U T H = 87/15/6/3 cycle

20 5 3 8 14 15 12 15 7 25

T E C H N O L O G Y = 124/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

20 15 15 12

T O O L = 62/8/4/2/1

 

 

 

17 July 2018 Rescuing or Enabling?

Hi there – how are you?  I hope if you in an area like I live where it’s been extremely hot that you have access to everything you need and are staying cool and hydrated.  Kyle and I were talking today that it’s ironic that it’s probably our trying to stay cool using electricity that is partially contributing to it getting hotter on this planet.  It gets really hot so we need it cooler and use more energy which makes it hotter and so on and so on lol.  Sigh.   We are flesh and bone paradoxes with legs at time aren’t we?!

For example!

Today Kyle and I went to his eye appointment and did our shopping after to maximize our trip out of the house.  One of our new favorite places is Home Goods in Burleson – darn interior design shows!   Anyhew I found what I didn’t expect to find in there, crystals!  Well one “spoke” to me and I couldn’t even put them down after they were in my hand:

17 July 2018 Amethyst geode portion we rescued from Home Goods Burleson TX. My birthstone.

Did I “rescue” this crystal cluster or did I enable an industry to continue harvesting these instead of leaving them in the ground?  I’ve come to believe after spending time with many different crystals over the years, they are not just rocks but part of the memory of the Earth.  Each harvested fragment is part of the planets collective memory.

So did I rescue or enable?  I’m going with rescue at this point but it does feel like a “loop” we as a material world are stuck in.  Unless every single person on earth, at the same time, was to completely boycott buying or doing certain things, there is still profit if even just one person caves in.  I’ve said this about oil, gas and many other things we all use that are damaging the environment.

The other reason this question arises is because of a video Kyle and I saw yesterday about the practice of putting small sea creatures and lizards inside of plastic keychains and selling them in China.  They said that people will buy them either because they have no empathy for animals and just want a trinket or the other reason was to set the creatures inside the keychains free.

http://www.asiaone.com/asia/live-animals-sold-keychains-china

Live Animals Sold as keychains in China

Live Animal Keychain in China(ANIMAL CRUELTY)

The rescuing and enabling can apply to people too.  At what point are we no longer helping someone get their life back together and just enabling them to stay the same?  I’ve had to have people use tough love with me more than once in my life.  There comes a point when apologies and excuses are like a looping recording and no longer have any meaning.  There comes a time for action on the parts of all those connected to such things.  A phrase I’ve used a lot about letting go of toxic people in my life after I realized trying to help them was at my own peril – letting them go with love.  Depending on the situation, that’s easier said than done.

I had a neighbor friend I had to do this with.  I tried for a very long time to be her friend, to listen to her pain and troubles, even try to calm her down when she called my house screaming having an anxiety attack.  There came a point we had to ask her to stay away from me because my own mental health was at risk being around her.  She tragically died not long after I had to push her away.  For a time I had regrets but came to understand that I did what I needed to do to help her get free.   I never stopped loving her and we had time together before she died.  I was able to help her using Quantum Touch.  I sat by her side when she was in hospice and sang to her.  We got to look each other in the eye and tell each other we loved each other before her eyes could no longer see and her systems started shutting down.

Letting go with love doesn’t mean stopping your love for someone.  It’s realizing that you must love yourself first if you are going to survive this life.  It’s realizing that you can’t do for someone else what only they and the God of their understanding can do.

http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/msn/genetically-modified-babies-given-go-ahead-by-uk-ethics-body/ar-AAAbmOk – excerpt

Genetically modified babies given go ahead by UK ethics body

“The creation of babies whose DNA has been altered to give them what parents perceive to be the best chances in life has received a cautious green light in a landmark report from a leading UK ethics body.

The Nuffield Council on Bioethics said that changing the DNA of a human embryo could be “morally permissible” if it was in the future child’s interests and did not add to the kinds of inequalities that already divide society.

The report does not call for a change in UK law to permit genetically altered babies, but instead urges research into the safety and effectiveness of the approach, its societal impact, and a widespread debate of its implications.”

 

https://ipscell.com/2015/11/haunting-doudna-nightmare-about-hitler-wanting-crispr/ – excerpt – this dream was a warning I think

Haunting Doudna nightmare about Hitler wanting CRISPR

Here is the recollection of the Dr. Doudna’s dream:

“I had a dream recently, and in my dream”—she mentioned the name of a leading scientific researcher—“had come to see me and said, ‘I have somebody very powerful with me who I want you to meet, and I want you to explain to him how this technology functions.’ So I said, Sure, who is it? It was Adolf Hitler. I was really horrified, but I went into a room and there was Hitler. He had a pig face and I could only see him from behind and he was taking notes and he said, ‘I want to understand the uses and implications of this amazing technology.’ I woke up in a cold sweat. And that dream has haunted me from that day. Because suppose somebody like Hitler had access to this—we can only imagine the kind of horrible uses he could put it to.”

 

 

1 July 2018 Be A Bridge (Chalk drawing, dream)

Hello.  How are you doing in this moment you visit here?  I hope you are well.  My heart is a bit heavy and conflicted.  It’s confusing emotionally to read news of about a murder suicide of a family of 5 in Price Delaware, the death toll from the flood in Western Japan rising, a newborn being killed in a tornado, tariff wars tempered with 6 year old twins saving a drowning child, interesting progress in space exploration, China offering to fund restoration of the Middle East….such a tenuous balance all of “this.”

My drawing from yesterday and the dream I had this morning kind of ties in nicely to this balance, this race we are running together….this bridge we are building.

10 July 2018 – I drew this without a message and then we got some piddly rain that came through (rain just enough to blurr the drawings I did ) so I went back and touched it up.

The dream this morning was of being at a running race that was taking place on a very high bridge like the one in this drawing.  The little yellow shapes on the bridge in my drawing are people.  So I’m initially below the bridge watching the people running and then I try to figure out how they got up on the bridge to run the race.  I take a closer look and see they are using trampolines to jump up to the top of the bridge to finish the race.  Then, like happens in dreams, fast forward and I’m on top of the bridge with other people like we are waiting for the others.  Then we transition to watching a version of the very same race in a very primitive video game form.

When I talked out this dream with Kyle we think it was like dream central saying, “Yeah, you guys are about 6 consoles away from getting your shit together.”   Funny Universe, very funny! 

We are innovative.  We have a lot of ambition, ingenuity and creativity as a species.  What we haven’t yet mastered, and I’m as guilty as anyone, is team work.   I’ve never been very good at working with others but I try.  My problem is I learned the lesson of self reliance all too well growing up.  I also learned that unless I do it, it’s not going to get done right….yeah…some trust issues.  Too many times I trusted people to do their jobs right and they didn’t.  They let me down.  Turns out that’s too bad because you can’t do everything by yourself!  Sooner or later you are going to have to let other people help.  You are going to have to trust other people to do things with and for you.  They may fuck up but that’s part of the journey and you just have to let that process happen.  Remember….Life is School.  We are all in Earth School.  

If we are going to survive as a species, we have got to ditch all those things we are using to exclude people from the team like skin color, physical appearance, race, religion, sex, sexual orientation, economic class, profession, disabilities/health conditions.  It’s time to ditch the “labels” we put on people that make them ineligible to join the team of life.  The energy of God put us all here for a purpose otherwise we wouldn’t be here.  God doesn’t make junk!

Sooner or later we are all going to find our way to get to the top of the bridge and I think there has got to be an better way than relying on trampolines and a Nintendo console!

Source Internet: Track and Field

2 18 9 4 7 5

B R I D G E = 45/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle (it is a very labor intensive work to build a bridge and keep it structurally sound)

9 18 5 12 1 14 4

I R E L A N D = 63/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle (interesting that two unrelated words would be the same)

18 1 9 2 15 23

R A I N B O W = 68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (7 known colors to the rainbow, I’ve seen 8.  The color pink hidden in there)

10 July 2018 We Are God’s Heart

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you well in whatever time and place this finds you.

Yesterday I took my pink spirit book and a pencil out to our pecan tree to jot down some thoughts that I couldn’t get out of my head.  I am a very spiritual person and quite often the topics that come up relate to the concept I have of God at this phase of my life.  Intelligent Energy.  I have come to believe that all of creation is an Energy construct.  When I lay in bed at night I can see all these tiny little vibrating particles that make up the wall, the dresser, the blankets draped over me….the dogs and Kyle.  When I lay down and gaze at the sky it’s much the same.  An untold number of tiny vibrating particles making reality real.  Each place I look, each breath I take….all God energy.

9 July 2018 – Drawing I did yesterday. It fits this post I think.

Here is what came up in my pink spirit book yesterday:

“Why a man to become a God? Why Jesus? Because human beings make God “care.”  To look at nature without the heart of man, one would think there was no loving God.  Everything is just food.  One energy feeding the next size up.  I saw a black spider wasp disable and dismantle a spider twice its size in seconds.  I’ve seen larger wasps do the same.  The bird I tried to console to its death was attacked by ants before it was completely dead.  Ants attacking and eating a molting Cicada before it can even fly away.  It’s new form devoured just inches from its previous one.  Just energy!  Just food!  One energy form devouring another.  There are no emotions.  There are no feelings.  There is no morality or conscience without human beings.  God can be cruel….nature can be cruel.

Some higher forms of life seem even more compassionate than humans or is it just our wanting them to be?  Our influence as observers on the “experiment” affecting how we perceive them?  What came to me during several of my episodes is we are only alive because the rest of existence allows it….just hasn’t figured out a way to eat us more quickly just yet!  Is this why we must not be still too long?  Eat or be eaten?!”

I don’t know that God/Nature is cruel, it’s just super efficient.  Everything around us is part of a perfect design and we, with our feelings and consciousness are the cog in the wheel so to speak!   We are the ones who will go out of our way to save a three legged dog from death.  If this dog were born into a setting without us, it would just be left to die.

I believe we are God’s heart.  Without us, without a Jesus or all the pantheon of other Gods taking human form, God just isn’t all that friendly and or relatable….tangible.

How we love and take care of each other makes God real on this earth.

Later in the day we watched the Queer Eye episode where the Fab  5 went to Gay Georgia to help with a lovely woman and her church community center.  A lot of irony in just that sentence!  They helped Tammye, her gay son, her family and the entire town.  What a beautiful example of what I am talking about!  Without the heart of human beings, without the act of building bridges between different worlds,  empathy, compassion and care, there really is no unconditionally loving God.   We give God all their senses (sight, smell, touch, hearing and taste) and our many beating hearts in which to process this complicated existence.

It’s people like the Fab 5, like Tammye and all those in this world who seek to fill this world with unconditional love that are God’s heart.

http://ew.com/tv/2018/06/19/queer-eye-season-2-episode-1-tammye-interview/

1 John 4:20 20Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen.

Source Internet: Queer Eye Jonathan Van Ness, Karamo Broan Fire House episode

9 July 2018 Sleep, Bird in the Water (missions) and Buy the Milk (story)

Hello – how are you doing in your here and now?  I hope this finds you well.  I’m tired again but getting better.  Think I’m getting closer to figuring out what the problem is – being too warm at night.  Link likes to cuddle right up next to me and he runs really warm.  Last night I went out to the couch and it was nice and cool and I actually slept some until he figured out I had left the bed and came looking for me lol.  Then we went back to the main bed and it had cooled down and I slept some more until things heated back up.   I’ve always slept better when it is cooler and ever since we adjusted the thermostat in the house, by just 1 degree higher, I haven’t been sleeping as well!

https://sports.yahoo.com/science-says-sleeping-cold-room-174708555.html

Science Says Sleeping In a Cold Room Is Better for Your Health

Courtney Campbell

Those who prefer to keep bedroom temperatures chilly while catching some shut eye may be on to something. According to an article written by Dr. Christopher Winter, Medical Director at Charlottesville Neurology & Sleep Medicine, and published by the Huffington Post, our bedroom temperatures can make a big difference when it comes to getting a good night of sleep.

Although most of us might not give a second thought to the temperature of our bedroom at night (unless you’re trying to save money), Winter says our rooms should be 60 to 67 degrees Fahrenheit for the best sleep. If the temperature goes above 75 degrees or below 54 degrees, it can cause people to toss and turn all night.

Why does the number on the thermostat matter? Our body temperatures naturally peak and decline during a 24-hour period, with the highest numbers occurring in the late afternoon and the lowest ones around 5 a.m. Sleep usually begins when our body temperature drops, so a colder room can encourage us to fall asleep faster.

If the promise of more sleep isn’t enough, there are plenty of other reasons to keep the air on cool:

You’ll have a more restful sleep.

Research done at the University of South Australia found that certain forms of insomnia occur with poor body temperature regulation. If you’re having trouble falling asleep at night, a colder room could help your body cool down enough to reach a level of deeper, restorative sleep.

It’ll keep you looking young.

Sleeping in a room warmer than 70 degrees will stop your body from releasing melatonin, one of the body’s best anti-aging hormones. Once we’re asleep in total darkness and our body temperature drops, it releases melatonin and triggers a slight cool-down in the body.

It can help you lose weight.

According to the Huffington Post, naturopathic doctor Natasha Turner says that as your body temperature drops and growth hormone is released, the stress hormone cortisol will also decrease with healthy sleep patterns. When you aren’t able to sleep enough, you’ll wake up with high levels of cortisol-meaning you’re more likely to reach for a box of cookies and have increased anxiety.

You lower your risk for metabolic disease.

One study found that sleeping in a room set to 66 degrees can help prevent certain metabolic diseases, like diabetes. Participants not only burned more calories when they were awake, but also nearly doubled their amount of brown fat, or good fat, which allows the body store fewer calories. Over time, this can lower the risk of metabolic diseases.

So, put on your favorite PJs, turn the A/C down to 65 degrees, and get ready to catch some zzz’s. ]]>😴

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Ugh…..yesterday was an emotional day for me.   It started with watching a video of a man saving an otter from killer whales.  Alas he couldn’t rescue the baby that was with her.  Hearing her scream for her baby just tore me up!  Little did I know this was going to be the tempo of my day!

As Temple Grandin says:

Temple Grandin

“Nature is cruel but we don’t have to be”

Temple Grandin, The Way I See It: A Personal Look at Autism & Asperger’s

8 July 2018 – Simple drawing I did before the sequence of events that would unfold

So yesterday Kyle and I decided to take the dogs on a walk in the evening and came across a loose dog.  He looked like Spot, probably even the same age, but was a Chihuahua.  He had tags and seemed to be a nice dog but we just couldn’t get close enough to him to read his tags.  Having Link and Spot along with us didn’t help either.  So we finished the walk and I went home.  I put a note about him and his whereabouts on our neighborhood Next Door page to let folks know about him in case they were looking.  Then I grabbed my phone and went out to see if I could get a picture to help identify him.

I didn’t find the sweet boy but I did find something quite tragic in front of my neighbor Fred’s place.  There was a bird in a puddle of water in his front yard.  At first glance I wasn’t sure if it was dead or alive.  When I stopped to really look, I saw labored breathing.  I chose to stop and sit down next to the dying being.  Their wings were all messed up.  I sat and talked to them in soothing tones and stroked their head which they seemed to respond to.  There were tears on my part because I knew there wasn’t much else I could do for the poor thing.  Fred’s cats were out and I knew it was either they were going to get the bird or it was going to be the ants we have around here.  We have ants that wait for Cicada’s to molt and eat them before they even fully get out of their casing!

So I was sitting there and Fred came home and asked me if everything was ok.  I told him about the bird.  He is a hospice nurse and was just home from work.  He was very tired and said, “Why always in my front yard?  The last time it was you telling me about my favorite cat!”  A year or so ago I had been walking and found his favorite cat with it’s throat torn on his front yard.  I had taken the time to tell him instead of just ignoring it.  He told me he had just been on vacation to California and it’s been 8 months since his wife died.  I said that I bet Cindy would be happy that he’s moving on, that she would want him to be happy…he deserved to be happy.  His wife had been sick for a very long time and they both suffered so much with it.   The dying bird I was sitting with was almost symbolic of what they had been through.

He went inside and grabbed some paper towels for me so I could remove the bird to what I hoped would be a safer dying place in my yard.  The bird seemed to find peace in being wrapped and closed it’s eyes as I carried it home.  One last effortless flight.  Alas the space I chose to give this poor thing rest in my yard was later found by the ants.  I think, I HOPE,  the bird had already passed on.  There just was no winning with this case.  I am praying that the bird found a moment of peace with how I chose to handle things.

Remember the message about life is about choices?  What I’ve shared with you illustrates this.  It’s probably happened so many times in your own life and you may not even have been conscious of it!

1) Kyle and I chose to take the dogs for a second walk which we don’t normally do in the summer here.  2) This lead us to the loose dog we wanted to help.  3) This lead me to going back out for a longer walk.   4) This lead me to finding and trying to console a dying bird.  5) This lead me to a loving conversation with Fred about his wife who died after suffering a long illness.

All of this felt like a mission.  I don’t believe that it was “just a coincidence.”  There is the hidden director at work!  Do you heed the direction or do you ignore it?

A long time friend shared a story with me recently.  I don’t know if it’s true story but it was a great example of what I have experienced in my own life when I heed direction from the unseen director….God of energy, the Source….the Universe.

http://www.gospelweb.net/Illustrations/BuyTheMilk.htm

Buy The MilkOr Are You An Angel?
Author Unknown
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A young man had been to Wednesday night Bible Study. The Pastor had spoken about “listening to God and obeying the Lord’s voice.”

The young man couldn’t help but wonder, “Does God still speak to people?” After service he went out with some friends for coffee and pie and they discussed the message. Several different ones talked about how God had led them in different ways. It was about ten o’clock when the young man started driving home. Sitting in his car, he just began to pray, “God, if you still speak to people, speak to me. I will listen. I will do my best to obey.”

As he drove down the main street of his town, he had the strangest thought to stop and buy a gallon of milk. He shook his head and said out loud, “God is that you?” He didn’t get a reply, so he started on toward home. But again, the thought came to him… buy a gallon of milk.

The young man thought about Samuel, and how he didn’t recognize the voice of God, and how little Samuel ran to Eli. “Okay, God, in case that is you, I will buy the milk.” It didn’t seem like too hard a test of obedience. He could always use the milk. So, he stopped and purchased the gallon of milk and started toward home.

As he passed Seventh Street, he again felt the urge, “Turn down that street.” This is crazy, he thought, and drove on past the intersection. Again, he felt that he should turn down Seventh Street. At the next intersection, he turned back and headed down Seventh. Half jokingly, he said out loud, “Okay, God, I will”.

He drove several blocks, when suddenly, he felt like he should stop. He pulled over to the curb and looked around. He was in a semi-commercial area of town. It wasn’t the best, but it wasn’t the worst of neighborhoods either. The businesses were closed and most of the houses looked dark, like people were already in bed.

Again, he sensed something, “Go and give the milk to the people in the house across the street.” The young man looked at the house. It was dark and it looked like the people were either gone or they were already asleep. He started to open the door and then sat back in the car seat. “Lord, this is insane. Those people are asleep and if I wake them up, they are going to be mad and I will look stupid.”

Again, he felt like he should go and give the milk. Finally, he opened the door and said, “Okay God, if this is you, I will go to the door and I will give them the milk. If you want me to look like a crazy person, okay. I want to be obedient. I guess that will count for something but, if they don’t answer right away, I am out of here.”

He walked across the street and rang the bell. He could hear some noise inside. A man’s voice yelled out, “Who is it? What do you want?”

Then the door opened before the young man could get away. The man was standing there in his jeans and T-shirt. He looked like he just got out of bed. He had a strange look on his face and he didn’t seem too happy to have some stranger standing on his doorstep.

The man asked, “What is it?”

The young man thrust out the gallon of milk and said, “Here, I brought this to you,” he said.

The man took the milk and rushed down a hallway speaking loudly in Spanish. Then from down the hall came a woman carrying the milk toward the kitchen. The man was following her holding a baby. The baby was crying. The man had tears streaming down his face.

The man began speaking and half crying, “We were just praying. We had some big bills this month and we ran out of money. We didn’t have any milk for our baby. I was just praying and asking God to show me how to get some milk.”

His wife in the kitchen yelled out,”I ask him to send an angel with some. Are you an Angel?”

The young man reached into his wallet and pulled out all the money he had on him and put it in the man’s hand. Then he turned and walked back toward his car and tears were streaming down his face. He knew then that God does still speak to people… and answer prayers.

 

8 July 2018 – Simple drawing I did before the sequence of events that would unfold – looks like a man in a box looking for a way out to me.