9 Dec 2018 Everything U (You) Think is True

9 Dec 2018 Prince Rogers Nelson Paisley Park Everything U think is true wall – when I saw this it felt important to me.  Source is internet.

everything u think is true in Simple Gematria equals: 308 – on one of the walls in Prince’s Paisley Park home, saw it on video tonight

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

everything you think is true in Simple Gematria equals: 348 – I substituted u for you with an interesting result

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

This train of thought was thinking about super famous people like Prince, like Elvis Presley, Michael Jackson, David Bowie and so many others in  entertainment, government, leaders of companies, local government officials, police, fire department, first responders, healthcare workers and how being exposed to the hordes of us probably affected them.  I was also thinking about myself and so many I know that are categorized as heavy, obese or even fat and how difficult it can be to lose weight and keep it off.  It’s all connected in my mind.

Even if we act like we don’t care about other people, we are still exposed to their pain and all the spiritual, emotional and physical baggage they carry with them as they walk through the world.  We are mostly made of water and in some ways like sponges I want to say.  We are extremely absorbent of the world we interact with.  These days the toxicity levels of folks in this world is pretty high.  Preparing for the holidays or experiencing them can be chaotic for many folks.  I don’t like this time of year very much.  It’s gotten worse over the years because it’s become so materialistic versus being about the intangible aspects.  Those intangibles vary from person to person.   For me, it’s being with family, friends and giving thanks for nice shared meal together.  As I’ve gotten older the gift aspect just isn’t as important to me as it once was.  Guess I’ve become a bit of a ol’ fuddy duddy they say!

What do we do to not feel pain within ourselves or others?  We distract ourselves.  Some of us eat, we drink, we go shopping, we play video games, we binge watch our favorite shows on streaming services, we “do things” to compensate.   Some people don’t get overweight in this process.  They  just get really sick emotionally, spiritually and or physically.  From what I’ve experienced and observed in others it’s either an out or in kind of thing.   The number values here, and there are many more variables that can be added, seem to support what I’ expressing here.   It’s important to find healthy ways to externalize and process the pain and other “stuff” we are absorbing from the world we are exposed to each day.

I hope something here resonates and is helpful to you!

 

being fat in Simple Gematria equals: 64

obesity in Simple Gematria equals: 95

some people literally expand to contain all the pain they absorb from the world they live in in Simple Gematria equals: 909

nice people who are obese in Simple Gematria equals: 216

= 1284/15/6/3 cycle

*The ways they choose to compensate often make things worse*  (Speaking from experience here)

overeating in Simple Gematria equals: 116

overspending in Simple Gematria equals: 148

overdrinking in Simple Gematria equals: 146  (drinking in Simple Gematria equals: 86)

reckless behavior in Simple Gematria equals: 172

abusive behavior in Simple Gematria equals: 159

depression in Simple Gematria equals: 124

loneliness in Simple Gematria equals: 124

work too much in Simple Gematria equals: 162

addiction in Simple Gematria equals: 79

overcompensation in Simple Gematria equals: 204

= 1434

1434 + 1284 = 2718/99 (thirteen in Simple Gematria equals: 99)

human being in Simple Gematria equals: 94

 

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7 Dec 2018 Fast Car (Tracy Chapman)

I woke up thinking of this song and crying about a young man we love and care about who has chosen to join the Navy and leave home.  A journey many of us have made.  A journey I chose to make to join the Air Force on 13 Aug 1986.  It’s a choice made about getting away, leaving home, trying to find and make a better life for ourselves.  It’s important to know why your leaving before you go.  You can’t run from yourself.  Where you go, there you are no matter how fast the car.

2 Aug 2009 – Here he is with our Sam. We were celebrating his Grandpa Ed’s s 75th birthday. Seems so long ago!

fast car in Simple Gematria equals: 68  (I was born in 1968)

As I look at my life in this moment, there is a comfort in this.  Regardless of “how” or “why” we seem to get “there.”  Wherever “there” is meant to be for us.   There is so much wrapped up in all that.  So many variables that are beyond our control.  The variable at the center of whatever happens is us and our behavior in the midst of it.   For me, the other variables have been God and love.   The God part has changed a lot as I have gone through life.   I had to abandon many parts of what I learned and was taught early in my life to find God for myself.

It’s been hard, especially these past years to trust this world and the people in it.  I have had to remind myself that each and every life on this planet, in whatever it’s shape and form is part of the God of my understanding.  The earth and the energy forces that keep it together.  Whether or not I love each shape and form is my choice.  I have found that because I know I have made many mistakes and am not perfect that everyone is worthy of love.  Worthy of a chance (or may be more than one).  Worthy of forgiveness;  I don’t forget easily.  It doesn’t mean they have to part of my day to day life or in my life at all, but I still love and care about them.

I left home thinking I was going to get away from a small town.  I left home thinking I was going to get away from the influence of my parents.  I left home not really completely knowing why I was doing it.  I do know I was running.  Not like I did in cross country and track….the other kind of running.  Doesn’t that seem a bit like what birds in nature do?   They either leave the nest on their own or Mom and Dad push them out?  Neither of them really knows what’s going to happen, it’s just what their programmed to do.    The programming of nature as a whole seems a bit off these days doesn’t it?

bluebird in Simple Gematria equals: 73 (my parents Larry and Dianne were married in 1973)

Tracy Chapman – “Fast Car” (Official Music Video)

programmed in Simple Gematria equals: 110

you cant run away from yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 375

68 + 73 + 110 + 375 = 626/68 or 86

6 Dec 2018 Attraction and Eternal Life

Hello to you.  I ran some numbers this morning on the subject of attraction and what I’ve seen for myself as evidence there must be eternal life.  Some would say these are just words, just phrases and numbers they don’t mean anything.  Well this is how we communicate to each other.  We use words and we use numbers….does that make them meaningless?  I believe that the God of my understanding works through each of us to include language and numbers we use to communicate.  They say only 10% of a human is actually human.  What is the other 90%?  What are they doing in and outside of us and how does that affect civilization?  Affect communication?  Affect how we relate to each other….why we have all these ongoing “fights” we can’t seem to get resolved.  I’m going to give an example I’ve noticed lately in myself.  I will be looking at something, reading something, hearing something and then all the sudden I scratch my nose and I find myself thinking, “that stinks.”  Like my body is giving me a verbal indication of disagreement or dislike of what I’m interacting with.   Is that just a coincidence?  I would encourage to take a look at these variables…words…numbers.  Check my work.  Add other things that come to your mind and see what comes forth for you personally.

I would encourage you to pay attention to how you and your own body interact.  Do you get the chills when you are around someone?  Do you get flushed when you are around someone?  Do you find yourself drawn to a particular scent someone is wearing?  Why is that happening?  Is it memory?  Is it attraction?  Is it the beings within us?  As much as we’d like to think we are in control of who and what we are and the world around us, I suspect we are not.

Attraction – 1st set

content of character in Simple Gematria equals: 189

color in Simple Gematria equals: 63

sexual preference in Simple Gematria equals: 177

skin in Simple Gematria equals: 53

gay in Simple Gematria equals: 33

straight in Simple Gematria equals: 102

homosexual in Simple Gematria equals: 133

lesbian in Simple Gematria equals: 62

bisexual in Simple Gematria equals: 93

transgender in Simple Gematria equals: 125

religion in Simple Gematria equals: 89

finances in Simple Gematria equals: 71

how much money you have in Simple Gematria equals: 260

appearance in Simple Gematria equals: 80

how famous you are in Simple Gematria equals: 206

how powerful you are in Simple Gematria equals: 247

behavior in Simple Gematria equals: 80

responsibility in Simple Gematria equals: 192

actions in Simple Gematria equals: 81

= 2336/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  “two three three six” = 222/6/3 cycle

“two three three six” = 222/6/3 cycle

 

Attraction 2nd set –

breeding in Simple Gematria equals: 64

natural selection in Simple Gematria equals: 189

how you were raised in Simple Gematria equals: 214

personal preference in Simple Gematria equals: 195

sexual attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 203

fetish in Simple Gematria equals: 67

social media in Simple Gematria equals: 91

peer pressure in Simple Gematria equals: 165

television in Simple Gematria equals: 130

movies in Simple Gematria equals: 83

music videos in Simple Gematria equals: 139

magazines in Simple Gematria equals: 95

newspapers in Simple Gematria equals: 136

parents in Simple Gematria equals: 93

family in Simple Gematria equals: 66

kids at school in Simple Gematria equals: 136

friends in Simple Gematria equals: 75

society in Simple Gematria equals: 96

public opinion in Simple Gematria equals: 155

senses in Simple Gematria equals: 81

lowered standards in Simple Gematria equals: 182

low self esteem in Simple Gematria equals: 159

high self esteem in Simple Gematria equals: 141

unrealistic expectations in Simple Gematria equals: 282

superficial attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 240

just want sex in Simple Gematria equals: 176

being a fan in Simple Gematria equals: 59

fangirl in Simple Gematria equals: 67

fanboy in Simple Gematria equals: 63

admiration in Simple Gematria equals: 104

online game relationship in Simple Gematria equals: 241

platonic relationship in Simple Gematria equals: 236

mutual respect in Simple Gematria equals: 174

intellectual attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 255

wanting to be with someone who is married or in a relationship with someone else in Simple Gematria equals: 808

coveting in Simple Gematria equals: 95

lust in Simple Gematria equals: 72

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

physical features in Simple Gematria equals: 188

subconscious reasons for attraction in Simple Gematria equals: 411

soulmate in Simple Gematria equals: 106

past life in Simple Gematria equals: 88   (past life know and unknown)

age difference in Simple Gematria equals: 88

recognition in Simple Gematria equals: 129

someone reminding you of someone else in Simple Gematria equals: 388

familiar in Simple Gematria equals: 69

scent in Simple Gematria equals: 61

gestures in Simple Gematria equals: 114

speech patterns in Simple Gematria equals: 169

voice in Simple Gematria equals: 54

experiences in Simple Gematria equals: 123

proof of eternal life in Simple Gematria equals: 198

= 8067/21/3 cycle

21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

“eight zero six seven” = 230/5  “two three zero” = 178/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 16/8/4/2/1

blood memory in Simple Gematria equals: 137 (Jeanne Faith Becker, my Mom’s name, = 137)

deoxyribonucleic acid in Simple Gematria equals: 201 (DNA)

genetics in Simple Gematria equals: 82

= 420

6/3 cycle

“four two zero” = 242/8/4/2/1

6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

2336 + 8067 + 420 = 10823/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

“one zero eight two three” = 261/9 (9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle, difficult = 90/9 cycle)

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

people in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (animals in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

 

you cant run away from yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 375

15/6/3 cycle

no matter where you go there you are moving to a new town a new city a new country or a new house doesnt change who you are inside in Simple Gematria equals: 1328/68/14/5 or 14/7

(this is something I had to learn over time and the last two numbers of the year I was born is 68, very personal message).

5 Dec 2018 Bible Study…She fell in love with a ghost

Hello to you.  the past couple of days I have been riddling out a lot of personal things which include scripture.  For most of my life, pretty much ever since I found out the cause for my birth mother’s taking her own life, post partum depression,  I have been blaming myself.  Post Partum depression, or what they call “Baby Blues” is something that occurs after child birth.  If I hadn’t ever been born may be she wouldn’t have done what she did.  My Dad and I don’t talk much about my Mom and that’s because I know it would hurt him and it hurts me too.   I love my Dad so much.  I know if we embarked on those discussions it would be like opening Pandora’s Box.  He has found a way through this life without opening it.  I must open my own.  We all have one.  A place inside of us that we put things too horrible to face and we shut them away so we can almost forget they even exist.  It’s important to remember even the best of boxes don’t always seal completely shut and contents leak out.

One thing he did tell me about her was her devotion to God and religion.  Perhaps overly so.  Her father, Reverend Harold or Hal Becker, served the God of his understanding for many years.  His wife Carol, my Mom Jeanne, her sister Ruth and their brother Bill were part of that service.  After she took her life at the young age of 26 with the gun my Dad used in his work as a policeman, he put away that service, never got over my Mom’s death and neither have I.  There was much blaming and finger pointing after she died.  Mostly directed at my Dad for leaving his gun in the house with her after she came home from Yankton State Mental Hospital.   Ultimately who is to blame?  My Mom.  She chose to do what she did whatever her state of mind was at the time.  Who is to blame when we become overweight?  When we succumb to a night of drinking?  Texting while we are driving and get into an accident?  We want it to be someone or something else.  We would like to have someone or something else to blame besides ourselves.

Her death has been and still is a mystery, a cold-case file that there aren’t any answers to.  I have gained personal insight in my quest to know her.  She and I have much in common, if what I’ve been told about her and have read is true.  She loved God.  Loving God is a lot like being in love with a ghost.  You can’t see a tangible being but recently, within the past few years, that changed for me.  I started to understand why I was always fascinated with Dracula lore by reflecting on what I experienced trying to be a Roman Catholic.  I can remember one time as a child kneeling during mass and really thinking about what was being said about the blood of Christ and I nearly fainted!

With the help of my Dad and others like Cesar Millan, Maran Keshe, Nikola Tesla and Wilhelm Reich and so many others (animals, insects, the trees, plants, fish etc) living and dead I began to understand energy.  I began to look around and see God everywhere in everyone and everything….”everything is energy….everything is God.”  Just this past year or so the exploration of words as numbers came to me.  Now I dig even deeper and find truth in numbers and I am even closer to the God I have come to understand.

I don’t blame God for my misfortunes.  I don’t blame God for anything because my life has been a series of choices I made.  There might be some behind the scenes stuff going on I am not privy to but to look at my life for it’s face value – it’s my responsibility.  Loving the God of my understanding and seeking to know them better helps me make better choices.

 

she fell in love with a ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 274

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

holy spirit in Simple Gematria equals: 151

52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

jesus christ in Simple Gematria equals: 151*

52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(Jesus = 74 Christ = 77) Energy = 74 Power = 77)

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52*

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the bible in Simple Gematria equals: 63

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

a person in Simple Gematria equals: 88

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

a human being in Simple Gematria equals: 95

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

a people in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

a ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

third wheel in a relationship in Simple Gematria equals: 282

48 or 84/12/3 cycle or 12/6/12/3 cycle

my father�s house has many rooms in Simple Gematria equals: 344 (we are rooms for God)

a body in Simple Gematria equals: 47

= 1687/787/22/4/2/1  or 22 divided by 2 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

 

holy eucharist in Simple Gematria equals: 164

74/11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

flesh in Simple Gematria equals: 50

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

blood in Simple Gematria equals: 48

12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 3 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

red wine in Simple Gematria equals: 78

15/6/3 or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

the last supper in Simple Gematria equals: 180

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

animal sacrifice in Simple Gematria equals: 123

6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

human sacrifice in Simple Gematria equals: 130

4/2/1

people sacrifice in Simple Gematria equals: 142

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

war in Simple Gematria equals: 42

6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

gun in Simple Gematria equals: 42

6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

suicide in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

murder in Simple Gematria equals: 79

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1 or 16/8/4/2/1

= 1148/68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

a soul in Simple Gematria equals: 68

= 1216/37/10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+14&version=NIV

John 14 New International Version (NIV)

Jesus Comforts His Disciples

14 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God[a]; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.”

Jesus Promises the Holy Spirit

15 “If you love me, keep my commands. 16 And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be[c] in you. 18 I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 19 Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 20 On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. 21 Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”

 

one bread one body in Simple Gematria equals: 144

54 or 45/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

omnipresence in Simple Gematria equals: 136 (A Nine – Nein…No)

10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

be everywhere at once in Simple Gematria equals: 199 (A Thirteen)

19/10/1 or 19 divided by 2 = 9.5 = 14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

difficult in Simple Gematria equals: 90

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

be all at once in Simple Gematria equals: 90

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

be everything to everyone in Simple Gematria equals: 284

68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

please everyone all of the time in Simple Gematria equals: 293

59/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

just be in Simple Gematria equals: 77

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

you are ultimately responsible for your behavior in Simple Gematria equals: 555*

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 3 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

blame in Simple Gematria equals: 33

6/3 cycle

responsibility in Simple Gematria equals: 192

39 or 93/12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 3 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

a choice in Simple Gematria equals: 44

8/4/2/1  (choice=43/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1)

everything is energy everything is god in Simple Gematria equals: 422

26/8/4/2/1

= 2423/65/11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

1687 + 1216 + 2423 = 5326/78

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 3 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle*

1 Dec 2018 My Family Table

family table in Simple Gematria equals: 106

what do you want in this life focus on that in Simple Gematria equals: 443

= 549/99/18/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

doing what is right is seldom easy but always necessary in Simple Gematria equals: 570

= 12/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

follow your heart in Simple Gematria equals: 214

if it doesnt sit in the middle of your chest it isnt right in Simple Gematria equals: 580

if it aint light it aint right in Simple Gematria equals: 279

let your conscience be your guide in Simple Gematria equals: 338

=1465

when your heart falls into your gut in Simple Gematria equals: 416

= 2442/66/12/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

family in Simple Gematria equals: 66

intuition in Simple Gematria equals: 131

= 2639/20/2/1 or 20 divided by 2 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

(26 is God number and 39, on a personal level, is my first name Jackie.  26 and 39 numbers can mean other things to other people, in the context of this conversation, it speaks to me.  My relationship with the God of my understanding, ultimately comes back to me.)

30 Nov 2018 Cohabitation

Hello again.  I am doing a double post today as this subject is very near and dear to my heart – “Pets.”   Two names:  Sam.  Species:  Dog  Amber. Species Cat.  There is also May a cat, Blondie a dog, Spot and Link both dogs.  I have had birds as well.  I don’t think of them as merely pets.  They are and were family and friends….teachers.

The short time we had with Sam was some of the most important time of my life.  He taught me so much.  He showed me how great the God of my understanding is.  In all the many forms of life we share this plane with, the closest ambassadors the God of my understanding sends are dogs and cats.  Sam was one of the finest of them all.   When we had to help him travel on it about destroyed me.  I have grieved for family and other humans I have loved and lost before but it was different with Sam.   It hurt much more deeply.  You say good-bye but it never feels like there is closure.  Losing him  was like losing my son, my best friend and teacher.

If you decide to adopt or breed a dog, cat, bird or any other species of animal you are making an oath to them.  It’s a commitment for life.  They are not toys.  They are not status symbols.  They are not “just” dogs, cats….animals.  As I look at the world right now, many of these beings caged love slaves trapped in yards, basements, apartments…prisons.  They don’t get daily walks.  They don’t get social interaction.  Many don’t ever get to see anything beyond a space between a backyard fence.  I have heard many horror stories like puppies being left to die with no food or water.  Being found dead with their heads in dry water bowls.

People say it’s better than them being in an animal shelter or out on the streets starving or dead.  Is it?  I understand they don’t feel or think like we do but they do think, they do feel we just can’t always understand what they are saying.  We are often too preoccupied with our own lives to truly try to understand or it’s just one thing too many to even try.

cohabitation in Simple Gematria equals: 117

*549 pm

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/technology/51-pilot-whales-die-in-another-mass-stranding-in-new-zealand/ar-BBQhkqI?OCID=ansmsnnews11

30 Nov 2018 Jackie numbers New Zealand pilot whale deaths IMG_4982 – just a few variables tell a story within this story. The variable not highlighted, value 205, “lost the will to live.” This is incredibly tragic. I am seeing this behavior in other beings also. Dolphins are some of the most intelligent mammals on the planet. The “thanks for the fish” phrase came to mind from Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy when I saw this. It’s another warning.

30 Nov 2018 World View

Hello to you.  I have been doing some more number/variable runs and some interesting things showed up I wanted to share with you for your consideration.  As I mention later in this post, double check, add variables, do your own and see what you come up with.  It’s a sort of brainstorming when I do this with numeric values attached.  This method could help guide and focus discussions.

world population in Simple Gematria equals: 211

4/2/1

united states population in Simple Gematria equals: 296

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

population in Simple Gematria equals: 139

13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

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U.S. Population  – 329, 091, 932 (constantly changing)

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One death every 12 seconds
One international migrant (net) every 28 seconds
Net gain of one person every 14 seconds

World Population – 7, 536,544, 035 (constantly changing)

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TOP 10 MOST POPULOUS COUNTRIES (July 1, 2018)

TOP 10 MOST POPULOUS COUNTRIES (July 1, 2018)
Rank. Country Population Rank. Country. Population NaN
1. China 1,384,688,986   6. Pakistan 207,862,518
2. India 1,296,834,042   7. Nigeria 203,452,505
3. United States 329,256,465   8. Bangladesh 159,453,001
4. Indonesia 262,787,403   9. Russia 142,122,776
5. Brazil 208,846,892   10. Japan 126,168,156

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States

State Population, 2017 Pop. per sq. mi., 2017
California 39,536,653 253.8
Texas 28,304,596 108.3
Florida 20,984,400 391.3
New York 19,849,399 421.2
Pennsylvania 12,805,537 286.2
Illinois 12,802,023 230.6
Ohio 11,658,609 285.3
Georgia 10,429,379 181.1
North Carolina 10,273,419 211.3
Michigan 9,962,311 176.1

Counties

County Population, 2017 Pop. per sq. mi., 2017
Los Angeles County, CA 10,163,507 2,504.5
Cook County, IL 5,211,263 5,514.7
Harris County, TX 4,652,980 2,729.1
Maricopa County, AZ 4,307,033 468.2
San Diego County, CA 3,337,685 793.2
Orange County, CA 3,190,400 4,033.9
Miami-Dade County, FL 2,751,796 1,449.3
Kings County, NY 2,648,771 38,182.2
Dallas County, TX 2,618,148 3,002.1
Riverside County, CA 2,423,266 336.3

Cities

City, ST Population, 2017 Pop. per sq. mi., 2017
New York city, NY 8,622,698 28,707.7
Los Angeles city, CA 3,999,759 8,534.5
Chicago city, IL 2,716,450 11,948.8
Houston city, TX 2,312,717 3,633.4
Phoenix city, AZ 1,626,078 3,141.2
Philadelphia city, PA 1,580,863 11,781.8
San Antonio city, TX 1,511,946 3,279.9
San Diego city, CA 1,419,516 4,371.1
Dallas city, TX 1,341,075 3,944.8
San Jose city, CA 1,035,317 5,832.3

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States

State Population, 2017 Pop. per sq. mi., 2017
District of Columbia 693,972 11,350.6
New Jersey 9,005,644 1,224.4
Rhode Island 1,059,639 1,024.8
Massachusetts 6,859,819 879.4
Connecticut 3,588,184 740.9
Maryland 6,052,177 623.2
Delaware 961,939 493.6
New York 19,849,399 421.2
Florida 20,984,400 391.3
Pennsylvania 12,805,537 286.2

Counties

County Population, 2017 Pop. per sq. mi., 2017
New York County, NY 1,664,727 73,475.2
Kings County, NY 2,648,771 38,182.2
Bronx County, NY 1,471,160 34,985.4
Queens County, NY 2,358,582 21,685.3
San Francisco County, CA 884,363 18,854.1
Hudson County, NJ 691,643 14,957.2
Suffolk County, MA 797,939 13,699.6
Philadelphia County, PA 1,580,863 11,781.8
District of Columbia, DC 693,972 11,350.6
Alexandria city, VA 160,035 10,716.0

Cities

City, ST Population, 2017 Pop. per sq. mi., 2017
Guttenberg town, NJ 11,695 60,591.2
Union City city, NJ 70,387 54,690.3
West New York town, NJ 54,227 54,539.5
Hoboken city, NJ 55,131 44,097.4
Kaser village, NY 5,343 31,100.1
New York city, NY 8,622,698 28,707.7
East Newark borough, NJ 2,735 26,676.7
Cliffside Park borough, NJ 25,142 26,305.4
Maywood city, CA 27,586 23,409.2
New Square village, NY 8,451 23,006.2

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“Heraclitus observed 2,500 years ago: It is not the same river, but we are also not the same people.”

(it is not the same river but we are also not the same people in Simple Gematria equals: 580 – 13)

I’ve personally noticed, as has Kyle, that insects are not the same.  The ones that get in the house these days are so tired and weak.  I have had them come to me and land on me and not want to leave.  It is so sad to see one lone bee out tryin to pollinate all the flowers in my backyard.  One lone insect, I had never seen before, the other day was just clinging on to a little metal table we keep outside.  I took them into my hand and they slowly climbed around like a little old person might….so gentle.  We have stopped using any chemicals and the diametreous earth only to deter ants from coming in the house.  I suspect they come in to the house when they are hungry, thirsty or just confused.  I’ve been seeing a lot of confused insects.  If we don’t have insects on this earth, how long do we have?  They do the jobs we don’t even know they do like the human farmers, tilling soil.  The garbage men removing waste.  I try to be kind.  I have been trying to understand why they do what they do from the perspective of the “least of these.”  Would I want someone to step on me?  Would I want someone to spray me with poison?  Would I want someone to scream at me?  Would I want someone to smash me with a newspaper?  Would I want someone to deny me water?  Would I want someone to deny me food?

Why are the bears killing people?  Why are the sharks attacking people?  Why are the mountain lions attacking and killing people?  Why do alligators eat dogs and children?  They are thirsty.  They are hungry.  The prey they used to have to hunt is gone, relocated, fewer in numbers or contaminated.  What would you do?  What are you doing to improve the quality of your life?  One bad experience can put you off wanting anything to do with a person.  This same mentality seems to exist for all life.  We are given a new day to try again.  Each day we get up and face the day is a chance to try again.  Unfortunately, we are so out of balance I am beginning to wonder how many new days, how tries we are going to get.

animals in Simple Gematria equals: 69

people in Simple Gematria equals: 69

insects in Simple Gematria equals: 89

fish in Simple Gematria equals: 42

food in Simple Gematria equals: 40

water in Simple Gematria equals: 67

shelter in Simple Gematria equals: 87

today in Simple Gematria equals: 65

tomorrow in Simple Gematria equals: 137

never in Simple Gematria equals: 64

= 729/99/18/9

Thirteen = 99

Take a look, double check the numbers, add variables and see what comes through for you.  I am looking at the world from my personal perspective, what I see.  There are variables, because I’m not in the world/part of these industries/practices, that I am unaware of and may be worthy of consideration.  I just want to help somehow.  This is just a way for me to try to help those in the world with incredibly difficult decisions to make.   First and foremost for me is my love of “all.”

16 Nov 2018 Mother Earth

16 Nov 2018 Jackie painting outside with fabric paint Alvarado TX DSC_0257 – used up the last of the fabric paint I had. An abstract interpretation of the mother we all share….earth.

What follows here may or may not make any sense to you.  It’s just come to me to put this together and put it out into the blogosphere and hope it helps somehow.  What has been coming to me with these numbers and words is we are tasking nature to a breaking point and cannot delay or procrastinate change much longer.  The earth doesn’t understand delays and or excuses we might make to put off what is hard but must be done.

witch mother in Simple Gematria equals: 142 *52  – phrase that came up in my meditations recently and I was surprised it had the same value as earth only because I had never put the two together. 

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52*

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

mother earth in Simple Gematria equals: 131

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

human in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

soul in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

spirit of the earth in Simple Gematria equals: 197

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 646

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

*This phrase that came to me thinking about our relationship with the earth.  We have become estranged from whom all of what we are and shall ever be – the earth. 

who suffers the works of man in Simple Gematria equals: 308

who suffers the works of women in Simple Gematria equals: 350

those who cannot speak in Simple Gematria equals: 232

the language of the trees in Simple Gematria equals: 222

all men women and their children in Simple Gematria equals: 279

= 1391/491/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

http://www.thefinertimes.com/Middle-Ages/witches-and-witchcraft-in-the-middle-ages.html – interesting article about the history of what happened to people who were declared to be witches (wise women).

wise women in Simple Gematria equals: 126 (god in Simple Gematria equals: 26)

midwife in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

=195/69/15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

wise wom·an
[wīz ˈwo͝omən]

NOUN
wise women (plural noun)
  1. a woman considered to be knowledgeable in matters such as herbal healing, magic charms, or other traditional lore.
    synonyms:
    prophet · prophetess · seer · sibyl · augur · wise man · wise woman · sage · oracle · prognosticator · prophesier · forecaster of the future · diviner · fortune teller · ·

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    mother in Simple Gematria equals: 79
    father in Simple Gematria equals: 58
    brother in Simple Gematria equals: 86
    sister in Simple Gematria equals: 90
    stepmother in Simple Gematria equals: 139
    stepfather in Simple Gematria equals: 118
    children in Simple Gematria equals: 73
    grandfather in Simple Gematria equals: 102
    grandmother in Simple Gematria equals: 123
    aunt in Simple Gematria equals: 56
    uncle in Simple Gematria equals: 55
    relative in Simple Gematria equals: 92
    family in Simple Gematria equals: 66
    = 1137/12/6/3 cycle
    friend in Simple Gematria equals: 56
    neighbor in Simple Gematria equals: 78
    = 134/44/8/4/2/1
    city in Simple Gematria equals: 57
    state in Simple Gematria equals: 65
    country in Simple Gematria equals: 116
    home in Simple Gematria equals: 41
    house in Simple Gematria equals: 68
    world in Simple Gematria equals: 72
    planet in Simple Gematria equals: 68
    room in Simple Gematria equals: 61
    = 548/98/17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
    646 + 1391 + 195 + 1137 + 134 + 548 = 4051/91/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
    battle of the sexes in Simple Gematria equals: 186
    patriarch in Simple Gematria equals: 94
    matriarch in Simple Gematria equals: 91
    = 371/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

    4051 + 371 = 4422/84/12/6/3 cycle

we are using up all the space to run away from arguments in Simple Gematria equals: 569

move away in Simple Gematria equals: 105

urban sprawl in Simple Gematria equals: 145

= 819/99/18/9 cycle (9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9)

(thirteen in Simple Gematria equals: 99)

    4422 + 819 = 5241/75/12/6/3 cycle

cooperation in Simple Gematria equals: 131 (mother earth in Simple Gematria equals: 131)

  5241 + 131 = 5372/89/17/8/4/2/1  or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Healer of the Broken Hearted (reblog Rachel Mankowitz post)

Personal stories about what violence like happened in Pittsburgh does to people and communities are not isolated to the point of impact but the radius that spreads from the point of impact. Violence of this magnitude is like the detonation of a bomb or any other form of violence against one, against oneself or the many….it spreads one way or another to us all.  When I read Rachel’s story and message, had to pass it on!  She is a beautiful example of courage and not letting fear determine the course of her life.

My comment to Rachel’s post best expresses how I see this:

“The phrase “staying in the warm space” came to mind reading this. “What do you love the most?” energy is what we were taught to tap into during my Quantum Touch Energy healing training. Pure, unconditional love, which our pet family often teaches us about the best, is what we need to take out into the world to help other see what love looks like. Many people in this world have no idea and so they turn to what they know and sadly that is often hate, bigotry and violence. They were taught this. I’m so sorry you and members of the spiritual world you are part of are having to endure this lesser aspect of human nature. Remember, they are broken. It’s easy to pray and love our family and friends, not so much the broken. I have to remind myself about this each day. Love and hugs to you sweet girl.”

(I’m currently reading A Wind In the Door by Madeline L’Engle and ironically loving your enemies is one of Margaret’s lessons.  When you love someone who seems unlovable, sometimes all that is unlovable ceases to exist to reveal who the person underneath all the hate and darkness truly is…worthy of love.  They always were lovable but their existence, for whatever reasons, made them forget.)

A question I have been asking myself a lot lately, “What brings you joy?”  Do I feel my heart in the center of me radiating warmth and light or has it fallen into my stomach or is it stuck in my throat?  The place of fear or obstruction being the throat most times!  You can consciously move where your heart, your fragment of the sun sits within you with your thoughts, feelings and actions.  You have a personal barometer placed right in the center of you to help you navigate this life.  As my Quantum Touch teacher Carol Lee taught me, “If it ain’t light, it ain’t right!”   

 

healer of the broken hearted in Simple Gematria equals: 229

49/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what brings you joy in Simple Gematria equals: 232 (the lovely part of this is my full maiden name comes to 223!)

52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 461/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

*I am learning that 13 has to do with the struggle between our natures whether it is in yourself or the world.   The push and pull, the tipping and rebalancing of the scales.

4 Nov 2018 Jackie first drawing new sketch book Alvarado TX DSC_0239

rachelmankowitz

We had a solidarity service at my synagogue last Sunday, in the aftermath of the shootings at the Tree of Life synagogue in Pittsburgh. Four synagogues came together in one building, and by the time Mom and I arrived, twenty minutes before the service started, there was no parking left. People had to stand along the sides of the sanctuary after all of the seats had been filled. The clergy of all four synagogues led the service, with readings by the rabbis and songs by the cantors. There was an enormous amount of crying, but I couldn’t cry. The music was beautiful. The presence of clergy from all of the local Christian denominations was meaningful (the local mosque was planning another service for the following day). But the words didn’t reach me. I just wanted to find comfort, and to feel something, but I couldn’t feel anything.

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29 Oct 2018 Wonderful stars on the lawn

 

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you in a positive energy space wherever and whenever you are as you read this.

My inspiration this morning comes from our Link and how he responds lately to the word “Wonderful.”  His eyes light up, his ears perk up and sometimes he starts playing enthusiastically.  It’s absolutely….well…wonderful!  It sparks in me the wonder that comes from still having a child living inside this aging suite of flesh I am wearing that is named Jackie.   So he inspired me.  I went outside and inside I heard a nudging to think about what is wonderful to me.  There are many, many wonderful things on my list but near the top has always been dewdrops shining in the sunshine.  I even made a little phrase for it.  It’s changed over the years but basically this:

“Stars on the lawn shimmer in the morning sun and then their gone.”  (number value = 641)

I would ask you to consider talking to the child within yourself and ask, “What do you think is wonderful?”  What brings you a sense of wonder in this world?  When is the last time you took time with what wonderful is for you?

 Wonderful = 118

Wonder = 79  Full = 51 = 130

Shiny = 75 Shine = 55 = 130 (A little two word song I used to sing to our Sammy…..often crying as I did because I knew he had to leave me some day.)

Three= 56  Years = 68 = 124 (The length of time Kyle and I had to wait for Link to come to us)

A Miracle = 62

= 564

Sam = 33

Link = 46

= 79 + 564 = 643

 

god is in everything and everyone in Simple Gematria equals: 338

 68/14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1