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5 May 2026 Advice

May 6, 2026May 6, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Home, human rights, In the News, Mental Health, Politics and Government, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs

List the people you admire and look to for advice…

Hello to you. How is it in your world? Here in mine it’s sunny and warm again. I went and got groceries this morning after putting it off as long as I could. It was $214 just for me! That’s double what it was since all the tariffs nonsense began. Last night as I did my nightly prayers, I realized how much I hate our President and had to pray about it. Praying for those we don’t like is even more important than praying for those we do like. I had to pray for him to get the hate out of my heart. I don’t want to hate anybody but every day it’s one more thing he does that pisses me off. I can’t stand seeing his face or hearing his voice every day. I want him and his entire administration fired! I don’t understand why Congress hasn’t done anything. We shall have to see what Gods will is about it all. This uncalled for war with Iran must end!

In answer to today’s prompt I would say the people I look to for advice and admire is my family. I especially listen to my Aunt and Uncle. My Aunt and Uncle are the closest thing for me having parents. Sometimes they get it wrong but it’s rare. Other people I turn to are my Pastor and friends I’ve made through church.

Dear Jesus please guide the leaders at all levels of government. Give them wisdom and empathy towards the people they serve. Please wrap your loving arms around the unhoused, the addicted, the sick, those trying to heal, the abused, the poor and the hungry. Please continue to send your earth angels to the aide of neglected and abused animals. Amen.

I am finding these shorter exercises easier to do:

https://youtu.be/jIjRNg-pOBs?si=GSzDE8DcNq09xG6f – 7 min Gentle Tai Chi for Seniors

New song from Ryan Perdz:

https://youtu.be/ayVVlOfslik?si=QD82-8oQRuw7ga1C – Sour – Ryan Perdz

4 May 2026 Ladies Coffee

May 5, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Health, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs

Hello to you. How are you doing today? I hope well. The main event of my day today was going to the ladies coffee this morning. I wasn’t sure if I was going but my body made its mind up for me. I’ve been having trouble sleeping lately and my ears have really been bothering me. The nasal spray and antihistamine don’t seem to be helping like I had hoped they would.

There was a good turn out. Missy lead us by reading the Daily Bread for 1 May and we went around the room for prayer intentions. We put together gifts and treats for the ladies at The Cottages assisted living home in town for Mothers Day. Terry made sun catchers and other ladies brought cookies they baked. The sun catchers were really nice. I signed some cards and helped assemble a few bags with the sun catchers. I left before everything was done as my ears were really bothering me. When they flare up my head feels so tight – very uncomfortable! I’m glad I went though the ladies are so kind and understanding.

Workout for today:

https://youtu.be/uf0lM1Cy-bw?si=0j8aSW_AG_RQpZzP – 12 minute Tai Chi Workout For Beginners

3 May 2026 Part 2

May 4, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Health, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Writing and blogging

Hello to you on this warm Sunday evening. How are you? I am feeling weak and tired again. I didn’t go to church this morning. I have just been wanting to sleep and the more I chase it the harder it is. The Olanzapine makes me sleepy and so like last night I was up at like 3 am taking it.

Here is the link for today’s message from Pastor Jason about the prodigal son:

https://youtu.be/zhiU2Soardg?si=Ys8MyM0iAxRHI4uP – Run Baby Run Part 2 – Pastor Jason Boyd

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke%2015%3A11-32&version=NIV

https://youtu.be/yxq_6prPABs?si=0TsBKEfPJa-584-3 – Open the Eyes of My Heart – Michael W Smith

Want to See You)

Song by Worship Circle ‧ 2024

Overview Lyrics

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord
Open the eyes of my heart
I want to see You
I want to see You

To see you high and lifted up
Shining in the light of Your glory
Pour out Your power and love
As we sing holy, holy, holy

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord
Open the eyes of my heart
I want to see You
I want to see You

To see you high and lifted up
Shining in the light of Your glory
Pour out Your power and love
As we sing holy, holy, holy

To see you high and lifted up
Shining in the light of Your glory
Lord Pour out Your power and love
As we sing holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
You are Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy (I want to see You)
You are holy, Lord
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy (I want to see You)
Open the eyes of my heart Lord
Open the eyes of my heart
I want to see You, I want to see You
Open the eyes of my heart Lord
Open the eyes of my heart
I want to see You, I want to see You

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Paul Baloche

Open The Eyes Of My Heart (I Want to See You) lyrics © Integrity’s Hosanna! Music, Leadworship Songs, Pt. Nadaku Musik

29 Apr 2026 Full Moon and Healing

April 30, 2026 by saymber, posted in animals, Bipolar life, drawing, Health, Music, photography, Spirituality and Religion, Writing and blogging

I am a bit rusty at drawing but gave it a try tonight

Hello to you. As I write to you the moon is beaming brightly outside. I got out my little sketchbook tonight and did the drawing I’m sharing. It’s me imagining Jesus, the Holy Spirit and Metatron healing my ears. The nasal spray and antihistamine that was prescribed isn’t helping me get rid of the problem with my ears. I don’t want to lose hope that there is some way for me to be healed! My body has been through it and now as I age it’s all catching up to me.

Tonight I am saying a special prayer for my cousin and his wife as their 16 year old dachshund Lincoln passed away today. My heart goes out to them!

General Healing Prayer: “Lord, I know You are able to heal me in every way I need healing—mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically… And I know it is Your will to heal me, because Your son Jesus died so I could be healed.”

One of my favorite songs:

https://youtu.be/6wcR_X_GEE8?si=PUFkcE530XK-v0Va – VNV Nation – Nova

“Nova”

I long to feel my heart burned open wide, til nothing else remains
Except the fires from which I came
Like parted souls, divided for an age, awe and wonder I’d embrace
And the world anew again
But now, this picture from me fades
From still’s cold hand there’s no reprieve, light the fire in me

Shine, shine your light on me
Illuminate me, make me complete
Lay me down, and wash this world from me
Open the skies, and burn it all away
‘Cause I’ve been waiting, all my life just waiting
For you to shine, shine your light on me

I dreamed the world, with my eyes open
But time moved on and then, new worlds begin again
Oh my heart, in this universe so vast
No moment was made to last, so light the fire in me

Shine, shine your light on me
Illuminate me, make me complete
Please shine, shine your light on me
No hesitation, make me complete

Lay me down, and wash this world from me
Open the skies, and burn it all away
‘Cause I’ve been waiting, all my life just waiting
For you to shine, shine your light on me

Lay me down, and wash this world from me
Open the skies, and burn it all away
‘Cause I’ve been waiting, all my life
Forever waiting, shine your light on me

‘Cause I’ve been waiting, all my life just waiting
For you to shine, shine your light on me

28 Apr 2026 Turning On My Television

April 29, 2026April 29, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, history, human rights, In the News, Spirituality and Religion, Television

Hello to you – I hope this finds you well and safe wherever and whenever you are. As I write to you I have my tv on which is extremely rare for me. What am I watching? Our local corporation for public broadcasting channel 4.1. Even without federal funding they carry on and I’m so glad. One of the shows I saw today was Finding Your Roots. One of the people they traced was Rebecca Hall. It’s really fascinating what is discovered :

https://www.pbs.org/video/hidden-in-the-genes-wxcku0/ – link to episode

PBS is a way to get news and culture. Yesterday I got to see one of my Aunt, Uncle and my favorite shows Father Brown:

internet summary of what the show is about:

https://youtu.be/3E5Kf8PFLyE?si=AYanN8-uUV50mES1 – Father Brown

Father Brown is a British period detective series starring Mark Williams as a crime-solving Roman Catholic priest, based loosely on G.K.Chesterton’s stories, that airs on BBC One and streams on platforms like BritBox. Set in the 1950s Cotswolds, the show follows the mild-mannered but sharp-witted priest as he solves mysteries, often with the help of his parish friends, using his understanding of human nature rather than modern technology. The series is known for its cozy, “howdunit” style and has been running since 2013, with new seasons confirmed.

Dear Jesus I pray that you be with all those dealing with severe weather issues. I pray you be with the sick, the poor, the unhoused, the addicted and those struggling to recover from trauma. Wrap your loving arms around all those trying to heal from various conditions. Please be with my cousin Heidi, my Uncle Bill and my friends Cheryl and Roy. Amen.

26 Apr 2026 Run Baby Run

April 26, 2026 by saymber, posted in Uncategorized

Hello to you on this beautiful sunny Sunday afternoon. Today began with going to church. My friend Jeannie was there but was sitting in the back with Roy that despite falling twice insisted on being there. I feel bad for her as she doesn’t say no and he has no one else living close by to help him. We had a baby dedication today and got to hear wonderful news about Pastor Jason’s daughter Harper being miraculously healed after a laying of hands on her. Today we were in Luke 15:11-32:

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke%2015%3A11-32&version=NIV – link to scripture. For some reason I can no longer copy and paste from this site.

https://youtu.be/u5qPz2r-SWs?si=y6X2ZWaNV_qDMJ3T – Run Baby Run – Pastor Jason Boyd

One of my favorite songs we sang today:

https://youtu.be/RZeJTtUrhwA?si=jUA4TAKKx84eT0MD – Hillsong Worship – Here I am To Worship

Verse 1 Light of the world, You stepped down into darkness, Opened my eyes, let me see Beauty that made this heart adore You, Hope of a life spent with You.

Chorus So, here I am to worship, Here I am to bow down Here I am to say that You’re my God! You’re altogether lovely, altogether worthy, Altogether wonderful to me!

Verse 2 King of all days, Oh so highly exalted, Glorious in Heaven above, Humbly You came to the earth You created, All for love’s sake became poor.

Chorus So, here I am to worship, Here I am to bow down Here I am to say that You’re my God You’re altogether lovely, altogether worthy Altogether wonderful to me!

Bridge I’ll never know how much it cost To see my sin upon that cross! I’ll never know how much it cost To see my sin upon that cross!

Chorus So, here I am to worship, Here I am to bow down Here I am to say that You’re my God You’re altogether lovely, altogether worthy Altogether wonderful to me!

After service I went to the busy Sunrise. I sat at my little table for two that I usually sit at. After I finished and went to pay I got a blessing. Someone had paid for my meal! I think I saw who it was as they went out of their way to greet me as they were leaving. I have paid for others before and now I was on the receiving end! What a nice feeling!

24 Apr 2026 Mystic Iran

April 25, 2026 by saymber, posted in history, human rights, Movies, Spirituality and Religion

Hello to you. It’s evening as I write to you. I just finished watching a wonderful documentary on Amazon Prime Video called Mystic Iran The Unseen World:

https://youtu.be/rDfjwVTvpf4?si=gumv2y17S7ljY_4x – Trailer for Mystic Iran The Unseen World

https://www.spiritualityandpractice.com/films/reviews/view/8289/mystic-iran-the-unseen-world :

Presents one woman’s amazing spiritual encounters with Muslim believers, Zoroastrians, and Sufi dervishes in the hinterlands of this country once known as Persia.

Zoroastrianism is one of the world’s oldest monotheistic religions, founded in ancient Persia by the prophet Zoroaster (Zarathustra) around the 6th century BCE, focusing on the cosmic struggle between truth (Asha) and falsehood (Druj). Followers worship the creator god, Ahura Mazda, and emphasize “Good Thoughts, Good Words, Good Deeds” as their core ethical tenet.

I really enjoyed watching this and seeing a part of Iran that we don’t see right now. In the news we just see and hear negativity about Iran.

23 Apr 2026 Surrender

April 24, 2026 by saymber, posted in Spirituality and Religion, Mental Health, Veteran Affairs, Health, Food, Bipolar life

Hello and good evening to you. I’m writing to you after finishing off my Dairy Queen Peanut Parfait. It’s been on my mind for a month now and tonight I decided I was going to surrender to my desire. Like Joyce Meyers talks about with chocolate cake. Once you have it on your mind that you want it, you are going to figure out a way to get it! One way or another I was going to have that Parfait! Now that I’ve had it I can stop wanting it! Mind over matter – harumpf!

What we focus our minds on gains power. Thoughts precede action. We think of something and then develop a plan of action and then we carry out our plan. Even though I have been trying to lose weight and knew the Parfait wasn’t good for me, I still got in the car tonight and went and got it. I think the take away from this is not to make it a habit. I also wonder if the Resilia Oil of Oregano is working at curbing my sweet tooth. I have almost finished a bag of capsules and don’t feel any different. Did I get sold snake oil?! My gut bacteria still wants sweets and won’t let me rest about it. They claim within weeks of taking the oil you should stop craving sweets. Such hasn’t been the case for me. Sometimes it feels like my stomach is more powerful than my brain!

Here is a short, effective prayer for strength and guidance:

“Dear Lord, I come before you needing your strength and guidance. When I feel weak, be my rock; when I am unsure, be my light. Please guide my decisions and grant me the courage to face this day with peace. Lead me on the right path. Amen.”

22 Apr 2026 Earth Day

April 23, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Music, Nature, Spirituality and Religion

Hello to you on this Earth Day. Did you do anything special?

Earth Day

Celebration

DateWednesday, April 22, 2026

Earth Day is an annual event on April 22 to demonstrate support for environmental protection. First held on April 22, 1970, it now includes a wide range of events coordinated globally through earthday.org including 1 billion people in more than 193 countries.

When I lived in Texas I had a grass yard and used to spend almost every day outside. I felt connected to everything- the sky, trees, plants, insects and other earth beings. Now that I live in a home surrounded by gravel/rocks I don’t spend as much time outside. When it gets warmer I will sit on my front porch some but it’s just not the same as having the privacy of a green back yard. I feel bad for Link as the only grass he gets to enjoy is when we go to my Aunt and Uncles house. Yesterday I had to pick a lot of weeds out back. They are growing through the layer beneath the rocks. I don’t have the lawn people coming and spraying the weeds anymore so I have to do it manually.

A nice prayer I found for this day:

A Prayer for Our Earth (Based on Laudato Si’)
“All-powerful God, you are present in the whole universe and in the smallest of your creatures. You embrace with your tenderness all that exists. Pour out upon us the power of your love, that we may protect life and beauty… Bring healing to our lives, that we may protect the world and not prey on it, that we may sow beauty, not pollution and destruction”.

https://youtu.be/b3qy23UIynU?si=W1Clw0xe6kiDVbs- – Peter Gabriel – Deep Forest – While The Earth Sleeps

21 Apr 2026 Amen

April 21, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Music, Spirituality and Religion

Hello to you today. I wanted to share this special song and video by one of my all time favorite musical groups – Enigma:

https://youtu.be/ZYlNjQ5TTF4?si=9gzMTzxZc1r4TaeJ – Enigma – Amen

Amen

Song by Enigma ‧ 2016

Overview Lyrics

I’m out on a new road in search for a land with no name
And I never looked back, ’cause I’m walking through sunshine and rain
I’m a man who has lived in the tombs and who’s broken the chain

Amen
Amen

I was blind, but now I see
What if God is not for me
And I know, it’s time to go

I’ve been used and I’ve been played
I’ve been spied on and betrayed
And I know, it’s time to go

I defeat the pain
(Watch out) I’m alive again
The past is gone for good, it’s time to say

Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen

At last, I believe I will be found
In the silence of my nights
I can hear a distant voice
Someone out there is calling my name

I’m not afraid
(Watch out) I’m beyond the dread
It’s time to turn the page and love again

Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen

I defeat the pain
(Watch out) and I cry again
I’m leaving all my shadows behind

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Michael Kunze / Michael Cretu

Enigma is a group that is timeless – never gets old!

This is another song and video by them that is one of my favorites and gets me teary:

https://youtu.be/Rk_sAHh9s08?si=nEN_mhz9mkdMYfDp – Enigma- Return To Innocence

Return to Innocence

Song by Enigma ‧ 1993

Overview Lyrics

Love
Devotion
Feeling
Emotion

Don’t be afraid to be weak
Don’t be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence

The return to innocence

And if you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don’t hide
Just believe in destiny

Don’t care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don’t give up and use the chance
To return to innocence

That’s not the beginning of the end
That’s the return to yourself
The return to innocence

That’s return to innocence

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: M.C. Curly

Prayer I found that resonated with me:

Lord, I commit this day to You. Please give me strength for the challenges, wisdom for decisions, and peace in my heart. Guide my steps, help me to love well, and use me to bring light to those around me. I trust You with every moment, Amen.