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9 Dec 2016 The Time Lord (poem), a question of Judas and a farewell to Easy

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The Time Lord by Jackie Wygant

I go where you dare not go

I have been where you dare not to be

I see through your eyes and beyond the stars

For I am you but not of you

I am not below or above you

I am inside you

A light that wavers in darkened times

Of bliss, of horror, of sorrow and immense joy

I am in the rhymes

I cannot see too far ahead

I cannot see all the way back

I am in the stream that is now

I am the flow…….I AM

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*Time is a flawed concept trying to control that which cannot be controlled.  You cannot stop time you can only walk through it. 

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God was an astronaut

 

I decided to spin the world prayers prayer wheel this morning and it lead me to Judas. I have never felt Judas was evil or a bad man. As a matter of fact I think he was probably a very good man and may have been framed by history to be the traitor versus a good friend.

Let me share my logic. When I think of Jesus Christ and how he was portrayed in the Bible I think of our modern movie and music stars and the misery their fame often brings them. They can’t even go to a public bathroom without someone bothering them! So imagine being someone like Jesus who not only could turn a phrase but had the power to help people heal themselves? Would there ever be a moments peace once that got out?! I’m venturing to guess no. So what if Jesus enlisted the help of Judas to get himself out of the limelight so he could have some semblance of a normal life? Like be married? I don’t believe he wasn’t. I look at the lives of our modern celebrities and how difficult it is to be successfully married while being in the burning light of fandom. It only seems logical to me that he had to find a way out. I think the Bible, like all great books, was exaggerated and enhanced for “dramatic” effect. What do we really know as truth? As a person who likes to look at the “facts” of things….there are a lot of plot holes to proving even Judas hung himself. It’s not as interesting to read about a man growing old and dying in the loving arms of his family is it? What good is a mystery without a villain? It seems even the early writers knew what our tastes for today would be. After all how can you know what is “good” without the “bad.” We could take a note from those cultures on this planet yet untainted by words and modern concepts of good and evil. They seem to do just find without it.

http://www.worldprayers.org/prayerwheel/index.html

Jesus said, Come, that I may teach you about secrets no person has ever seen. For there exists a great and boundless realm, whose extent no generation of angels has seen, in which there is a great invisible Spirit, which no eye of an angel has ever seen, no thought of the heart has ever comprehended, and it was never called by any name.

the gospel of judas – 2nd century

I was lead to wondering about the “validity” of the gospel and found National Geographic had a PDF file so I am sharing it in case you haven’t read it and or weren’t aware of it.  From what I can tell of it, Jesus sounds like a Time Lord to me!  An astronaut trying to explain very complicated concepts to a simple people and only Judas seemed to be up to the task!  It’s kind of difficult to read this as the pieces they found were fragmented but you can get the gyst of things.

Gospel of Judas – Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gospel_of_Judas\l

The Gospel of Judas is a Gnostic gospel whose content consists of conversations between Jesus and Judas Iscariot. It is thought to have been composed in the second …

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THE GOSPEL OF JUDAS – National Geographic

www.nationalgeographic.com/lostgospel/_pdf/GospelofJudas.pdf

THE GOSPEL OF JUDAS Translated by Rodolphe Kasser, Marvin Meyer, and Gregor Wurst, in collaboration with François Gaudard

From The Gospel of Judas Edited by Rodolphe Kasser, Marvin Meyer, and Gregor Wurst Published in book form complete with commentary by The National Geographic Society.

Copyright (c) 2006 by The National Geographic Society. All rights reserved. No part of this translation may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, without permission in writing from the National Geographic Society.

INTRODUCTION: INCIPIT The secret account of the revelation that Jesus spoke in conversation with Judas Iscariot during a week three days before he celebrated Passover. THE

EARTHLY MINISTRY OF JESUS When Jesus appeared on earth, he performed miracles and great wonders for the salvation of humanity. And since some [walked] in the way of righteousness while others walked in their transgressions, the twelve disciples were called. He began to speak with them about the mysteries beyond the world and what would take place at the end. Often he did not appear to his disciples as himself, but he was found among them as a child. SCENE 1: Jesus dialogues with his disciples: The prayer of thanksgiving or the eucharist One day he was with his disciples in Judea, and he found them gathered together and seated in pious observance. When he [approached] his disciples, [34] gathered together and seated and offering a prayer of thanksgiving over the bread, [he] laughed. The disciples said to [him], “Master, why are you laughing at [our] prayer of thanksgiving? We have done what is right.” He answered and said to them, “I am not laughing at you. are not doing this because of your own will but because it is through this that your god [will be] praised.” They said, “Master, you are […] the son of our god.” Jesus said to them, “How do you know me? Truly [I] say to you, no generation of the people that are among you will know me.” THE DISCIPLES BECOME ANGRY When his disciples heard this, they started getting angry and infuriated and began blaspheming against him in their hearts.

When Jesus observed their lack of [understanding, he said] to them, “Why has this agitation led you to anger? Your god who is within you and […] [35] have provoked you to anger [within] your souls. [Let] any one of you who is [strong enough] among human beings bring out the perfect human and stand before my face.” They all said, “We have the strength.” But their spirits did not dare to stand before [him], except for Judas Iscariot. He was able to stand before him, but he could not look him in the eyes, and he turned his face away. Judas [said] to him, “I know who you are and where you have come from. You are from the immortal realm of Barbelo. And I am not worthy to utter the name of the one who has sent you.” JESUS SPEAKS TO JUDAS PRIVATELY Knowing that Judas was reflecting upon something that was exalted, Jesus said to him, “Step away from the others and I shall tell you the mysteries of the kingdom. It is possible for you to reach it, but you will grieve a great deal. [36] For someone else will replace you, in order that the twelve [disciples] may again come to completion with their god.” Judas said to him, “When will you tell me these things, and [when] will the great day of light dawn for the generation?” But when he said this, Jesus left him. SCENE 2: Jesus appears to the disciples again The next morning, after this happened, Jesus [appeared] to his disciples again. They said to him, “Master, where did you go and what did you do when you left us?” Jesus said to them, “I went to another great and holy generation.” His disciples said to him, “Lord, what is the great generation that is superior to us and holier than us, that is not now in these realms?” When Jesus heard this, he laughed and said to them, “Why are you thinking in your hearts about the strong and holy generation? [37] Truly [I] say to you, no one born [of] this aeon will see that [generation], and no host of angels of the stars will rule over that generation, and no person of mortal birth can associate with it, because that generation does not come from […] which has become […]. The generation of people among [you] is from the generation of humanity […] power, which [… the] other powers […] by [which] you rule.” When [his] disciples heard this, they each were troubled in spirit. They could not say a word. Another day Jesus came up to [them]. They said to [him], “Master, we have seen you in a [vision], for we have had great [dreams …] night […].” [He said], “Why have [you … when] <you> have gone into hiding?” [38] THE DISCIPLES SEE THE TEMPLE AND DISCUSS IT

They [said, “We have seen] a great [house with a large] altar [in it, and] twelve men—they are the priests, we would say—and a name; and a crowd of people is waiting at that altar, [until] the priests [… and receive] the offerings. [But] we kept waiting.” [Jesus said], “What are [the priests] like?” They [said, “Some …] two weeks; [some] sacrifice their own children, others their wives, in praise [and] humility with each other; some sleep with men; some are involved in [slaughter]; some commit a multitude of sins and deeds of lawlessness. And the men who stand [before] the altar invoke your [name], [39] and in all the deeds of their deficiency, the sacrifices are brought to completion […].” After they said this, they were quiet, for they were troubled. JESUS OFFERS AN ALLEGORICAL INTERPRETATION OF THE VISION OF THE TEMPLE Jesus said to them, “Why are you troubled? Truly I say to you, all the priests who stand before that altar invoke my name. Again I say to you, my name has been written on this […] of the generations of the stars through the human generations. [And they] have planted trees without fruit, in my name, in a shameful manner.” Jesus said to them, “Those you have seen receiving the offerings at the altar—that is who you are. That is the god you serve, and you are those twelve men you have seen. The cattle you have seen brought for sacrifice are the many people you lead astray [40] before that altar. […] will stand and make use of my name in this way, and generations of the pious will remain loyal to him. After hi another man will stand there from [the fornicators], and another [will] stand there from the slayers of children, and another from those who sleep with men, and those who abstain, and the rest of the people of pollution and lawlessness and error, and those who say, ‘We are like angels’; they are the stars that bring everything to its conclusion. For to the human generations it has been said, ‘Look, God has received your sacrifice from the hands of a priest’—that is, a minister of error. But it is the Lord, the Lord of the universe, who commands, ‘On the last day they will be put to shame.’” [41] Jesus said [to them], “Stop sac[rificing …] which you have […] over the altar, since they are over your stars and your angels and have already come to their conclusion there. So let them be [ensnared] before you, and let them go [—about 15 lines missing—] generations […]. A baker cannot feed all creation [42] under [heaven]. And […] to them […] and […] to us and […]. Jesus said to them, “Stop struggling with me. Each of you has his own star, and every[body—about 17 lines missing—] [43] in […] who has come [… spring] for the tree […] of this aeon […] for a time […] but he has come to water God’s paradise, and the [generation] that will last, because [he] will not defile the [walk of life of] that generation, but […] for all eternity.” JUDAS ASKS JESUS ABOUT THAT GENERATION AND HUMAN GENERATIONS Judas said to [him, “Rabb]i, what kind of fruit does this generation produce?” Jesus said, “The souls of every human generation will die. When these people, however, have completed the time of the kingdom and the spirit leaves them, their bodies will die but their souls will be alive, and they will be taken up.”

Judas said, “And what will the rest of the human generations do?” Jesus said, “It is impossible [44] to sow seed on [rock] and harvest its fruit. [This] is also the way […] the [defiled] generation […] and corruptible Sophia […] the hand that has created mortal people, so that their souls go up to the eternal realms above. [Truly] I say to you, […] angel […] power will be able to see that […] these to whom […] holy generations […].” After Jesus said this, he departed. SCENE 3: Judas recounts a vision and Jesus responds Judas said, “Master, as you have listened to all of them, now also listen to me. For I have seen a great vision.” When Jesus heard this, he laughed and said to him, “You thirteenth spirit, why do you try so hard? But speak up, and I shall bear with you.” Judas said to him, “In the vision I saw myself as the twelve disciples were stoning me and [45] persecuting [me severely]. And I also came to the place where […] after you. I saw [a house …], and my eyes could not [comprehend] its size. Great people were surrounding it, and that house <had> a roof of greenery, and in the middle of the house was [a crowd—two lines missing—], saying, ‘Master, take me in along with these people.’” [Jesus] answered and said, “Judas, your star has led you astray.” He continued, “No person of mortal birth is worthy to enter the house you have seen, for that place is reserved for the holy. Neither the sun nor the moon will rule there, nor the day, but the holy will abide there always, in the eternal realm with the holy angels. Look, I have explained to you the mysteries of the kingdom [46] and I have taught you about the error of the stars; and […] send it […] on the twelve aeons.” JUDAS ASKS ABOUT HIS OWN FATE Judas said, “Master, could it be that my seed is under the control of the rulers?” Jesus answered and said to him, “Come, that I [—two lines missing—], but that you will grieve much when you see the kingdom and all its generation.” When he heard this, Judas said to him, “What good is it that I have received it? For you have set me apart for that generation.” Jesus answered and said, “You will become the thirteenth, and you will be cursed by the other generations—and you will come to rule over them. In the last days they will curse your ascent [47] to the holy [generation].” JESUS TEACHES JUDAS ABOUT COSMOLOGY: THE SPIRIT AND THE SELF-GENERATED Jesus said, “[Come], that I may teach you about [secrets] no person [has] ever seen. For there exists a great and boundless realm, whose extent no generation of angels has seen, [in which] there is [a] great invisible [Spirit], which no eye of an angel has ever seen, no thought of the heart has ever comprehended,

and it was never called by any name. “And a luminous cloud appeared there. He said, ‘Let an angel come into being as my attendant.’ “A great angel, the enlightened divine Self-Generated, emerged from the cloud. Because of him, four other angels came into being from another cloud, and they became attendants for the angelic Self-Generated. The Self-Generated said, [48] ‘Let […] come into being […],’ and it came into being […]. And he [created] the first luminary to reign over him. He said, ‘Let angels come into being to serve [him],’ and myriads without number came into being. He said, ‘[Let] an enlightened aeon come into being,’ and he came into being. He created the second luminary [to] reign over him, together with myriads of angels without number, to offer service. That is how he created the rest of the enlightened aeons. He made them reign over them, and he created for them myriads of angels without number, to assist them. ADAMAS AND THE LUMINARIES “Adamas was in the first luminous cloud that no angel has ever seen among all those called ‘God.’ He [49] […] that […] the image […] and after the likeness of [this] angel. He made the incorruptible [generation] of Seth appear […] the twelve […] the twentyfour […]. He made seventy-two luminaries appear in the incorruptible generation, in accordance with the will of the Spirit. The seventy-two luminaries themselves made three hundred sixty luminaries appear in the incorruptible generation, in accordance with the will of the Spirit, that their number should be five for each. “The twelve aeons of the twelve luminaries constitute their father, with six heavens for each aeon, so that there are seventy-two heavens for the seventy-two luminaries, and for each [50] [of them five] firmaments, [for a total of] three hundred sixty [firmaments …]. They were given authority and a [great] host of angels [without number], for glory and adoration, [and after that also] virgin spirits, for glory and [adoration] of all the aeons and the heavens and their firmaments. THE COSMOS, CHAOS, AND THE UNDERWORLD “The multitude of those immortals is called the cosmos— that is, perdition—by the Father and the seventy-two luminaries who are with the Self-Generated and his seventytwo aeons. In him the first human appeared with his incorruptible powers. And the aeon that appeared with his generation, the aeon in whom are the cloud of knowledge and the angel, is called [51] El. […] aeon […] after that […] said, ‘Let twelve angels come into being [to] rule over chaos and the [underworld].’ And look, from the cloud there appeared an [angel] whose face flashed with fire and whose appearance was defiled with blood. His name was Nebro, which means ‘rebel’; others call him Yaldabaoth. Another angel, Saklas, also came from the cloud. So Nebro created six angels—as well as Saklas—to be assistants, and these produced twelve angels in the heavens, with each one receiving a portion in the heavens. THE RULERS AND ANGELS

“The twelve rulers spoke with the twelve angels: ‘Let each of you [52] […] and let them […] generation [—one line lost—] angels’: The first is [S]eth, who is called Christ. The [second] is Harmathoth, who is […]. The [third] is Galila. The fourth is Yobel. The fifth [is] Adonaios. These are the five who ruled over the underworld, and first of all over chaos. THE CREATION OF HUMANITY “Then Saklas said to his angels, ‘Let us create a human being after the likeness and after the image.’ They fashioned Adam and his wife Eve, who is called, in the cloud, Zoe. For by this name all the generations seek the man, and each of them calls the woman by these names. Now, Sakla did not [53] com[mand …] except […] the gene[rations …] this […]. And the [ruler] said to Adam, ‘You shall live long, with your children.’” JUDAS ASKS ABOUT THE DESTINY OF ADAM AND HUMANITY Judas said to Jesus, “[What] is the long duration of time that the human being will live?” Jesus said, “Why are you wondering about this, that Adam, with his generation, has lived his span of life in the place where he has received his kingdom, with longevity with his ruler?” Judas said to Jesus, “Does the human spirit die?” Jesus said, “This is why God ordered Michael to give the spirits of people to them as a loan, so that they might offer service, but the Great One ordered Gabriel to grant spirits to the great generation with no ruler over it—that is, the spirit and the soul. Therefore, the [rest] of the souls [54] [—one line missing—]. JESUS DISCUSSES THE DESTRUCTION OF THE WICKED WITH JUDAS AND OTHERS “[…] light [—nearly two lines missing—] around […] let […] spirit [that is] within you dwell in this [flesh] among the generations of angels. But God caused knowledge to be [given] to Adam and those with him, so that the kings of chaos and the underworld might not lord it over them.” Judas said to Jesus, “So what will those generations do?” Jesus said, “Truly I say to you, for all of them the stars bring matters to completion. When Saklas completes the span of time assigned for him, their first star will appear with the generations, and they will finish what they said they would do. Then they will fornicate in my name and slay their children [55] and they will […] and [—about six and a half lines missing—] my name, and he will […] your star over the [thir]teenth aeon.” After that Jesus [laughed]. [Judas said], “Master, [why are you laughing at us]?”

[Jesus] answered [and said], “I am not laughing [at you] but at the error of the stars, because these six stars wander about with these five combatants, and they all will be destroyed along with their creatures.” JESUS SPEAKS OF THOSE WHO ARE BAPTIZED, AND JUDAS’S BETRAYAL Judas said to Jesus, “Look, what will those who have been baptized in your name do?” Jesus said, “Truly I say [to you], this baptism [56] […] my name [—about nine lines missing—] to me. Truly [I] say to you, Judas, [those who] offer sacrifices to Saklas […] God [—three lines missing—] everything that is evil. “But you will exceed all of them. For you will sacrifice the man that clothes me. Already your horn has been raised, your wrath has been kindled, your star has shown brightly, and your heart has […]. [57] “Truly […] your last […] become [—about two and a half lines missing—], grieve [—about two lines missing—] the ruler, since he will be destroyed. And then the image of the great generation of Adam will be exalted, for prior to heaven, earth, and the angels, that generation, which is from the eternal realms, exists. Look, you have been told everything. Lift up your eyes and look at the cloud and the light within it and the stars surrounding it. The star that leads the way is your star.” Judas lifted up his eyes and saw the luminous cloud, and he entered it. Those standing on the ground heard a voice coming from the cloud, saying, [58] […] great generation […] … image […] [—about five lines missing—]. CONCLUSION: JUDAS BETRAYS JESUS […] Their high priests murmured because [he] had gone into the guest room for his prayer. But some scribes were there watching carefully in order to arrest him during the prayer, for they were afraid of the people, since he was regarded by all as a prophet. They approached Judas and said to him, “What are you doing here? You are Jesus’ disciple.” Judas answered them as they wished. And he received some money and handed him over to them. THE GOSPEL OF JUDAS

I found out this morning that one of my dear furried friends has crossed the rainbow bridge quite suddenly!  Lots of tears this morning!  I know exactly how it feels to lose someone like Easy and I tell you only “time” can make the pain hurt any less. 

In loving memory of the Easy and his Ma and Pa

In loving memory of the Easy and his Ma and Pa

https://easyweimaraner.wordpress.com/2016/11/25/easyblog-black-furryday/

4 Dec 2016 My Eye of Agamatto (Dr. Strange Ref)

6 Dec 2016 The luxury of boredom, how a high carb lunch can make you crabby and a new song by the group Enigma – Amen

 

Hello family.  I wasn’t sure if I would write to you today.   I am having a big case of the feck-it I’m bored.  We live in a small town and are pretty isolated.  I’m craving the kind of stimulating conversation I’m just not really going to get here.  Kyle and I talk about things but as with any married couple, you get so “synchronized” the more time you spend together that you almost get to the point you don’t speak anymore lol.   You can just think something or point at something and communicate.  Hell sometimes we don’t even use real words — “you know that thingamagig in the whatsahoozit behind the thingy” and scarily he knows exactly what I’m talking about!  Anyhew…..on the walk today we just put it to the Universe, “Hey we want friends that like to talk about real stuff besides football, the weather, politics and gossip.”  We’ll see what manifests!  In the mean time….here I am blogging.  Blogging, for me, is a lot like just talking to myself via text.  It helps me not feel so isolated and bored.  May be, just may, one person stopping by will feel the same…..not so alone.

Anyhew…Kyle reminded me that being bored like he and I are now that the “dust has settled” after my latest hospital stay, is a luxury.  Most people would give just about anything to have the luxury of boredom.  He’s probably right.  Sometimes I need a reminder about such things.

There was a whole lead up to being crabby, restless and bored.  I had to use my self evaluation tool to figure it out, the HALT (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired) and realized my cranky mood was due in part to having too many carbs for lunch.

For lunch I had a sushi roll (faux crab) Kyle got for me at HEB, I had a Coke to drink and we had some cake too…..too many carbs and not enough protein.  So with this in mind I headed into the bathroom to take my afternoon hot bath and watch a new show on Amazon Prime Red Oaks but no dice!  I guess because we did laundry and Kyle took a shower, the hot water tank hadn’t refilled.  I tried to make it work but just got so irritated.

Do you see the crabby train building?!  LOL!

So I was highly irritated and didn’t feel like going to a walk and decided I was so bored that I would rake the leaves in the front yard!! Holy shit right?!  That’s pretty bored.  Kyle thought so too lol.  Anyways,  after a short time, I realized why I let the leaves lay there so long!  It’s fecking exhausting to rake wet leaves and golf ball size acorns that drop from our oak tree in the front yard! No wonder people hire people to do it!  I normally enjoy doing yard work for the exercise of it but today  I just didn’t have the normal energy I’m used to having to do the work….it all traces back to the high carb meal!   The high carb meal I ate affected me in every way imaginable so I need to work on avoiding repeating the cycle for future meals.   I do better with higher protein meals because I am a very active person.  I am finding coconut flakes to be a great snack!

Anyhew….I wanted to share a song I found today by a group I’ve been listening to practically every day for the past 20 years – Enigma.  They have a new song I heard and bought today and it’s so my jam!  When I hear it I easily harmonize and even fill in with my own bits as it plays.  It’s on ITunes if you like it!

“Amen”
(feat. Aquilo)

I’m out on a new road in search for a land with no name
And I never look back cause I’m walking through sunshine and rain
I’m a man who has lived in the tombs and who’s broken the chainsAmen
Amen

I was blind but now I see
What god is enough for me
And I know it’s time to go
I’ve been used and I’ve been played
I’ve been spied on and betrayed
And I know it’s time to go

Watch out
I feel the pain
Watch out
I’m alive again
The past is gone for good, it’s time to say

Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen

I’m lost, I believe I will be found
In the silence of my nights
I can hear a distant voice
Someone out there is calling my name

Watch out
I’m not afraid
Watch out
I’m beyond the dread
It’s time to turn the page and love again
Watch out
I can feel your pain
Watch out
In a crying game
I’m leaving all my shadows behind

Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen

(Tentanda Incognita)

I wasn't going to do hard copy Holiday cards this year but decided why not!  This symbol helped inspire me to get into the spirit.

5 Dec 2016 My personal symbols for today and the cyber abyss we sometimes fall into on social media

Hello family how are you this morning, afternoon….wherever and whenever the Universe finds you as you come here.  I hope all is well for you and if it isn’t that you have the support systems and resources you need to find better times and terms.  Where there is a will, generally a way can be found.

This morning I had a couple symbols come to me.  I like to draw my own symbols that I will put on my hands, arms and in chalk in my backyard.  On my body, I gain power and strength….inspiration energy from them.  A young girl told me she did it to keep her from cutting and I do it not because I want to cut but because I don’t want to have a body covered in permanent ink.  Some people get tattoos all over and I admire their commitment lol!  Sharpe’s are my “ink” of choice.

I wanted to thank Margarita and Dymoon for checking on me in my absence.  Sometimes it feels like if we aren’t on social media of some sort….Facebook….that we are “dead.”   For some reason humanity in many corners of the world seems to have forgotten their is actual existence beyond social media…beyond the internet.  There is life outside of being hard-wired into a device of any sort for more than a couple of hours.  I know that’s ironic coming from someone who blogs, spends  a lot of time on Facebook and online gaming.  The reason I came back to Facebook?  The reason I got a text plan for my cell phone?  Without this we didn’t hear from anyone!  It’s like we were “dead” to the world!  Kind of ridiculous.  I don’t carry my phone everywhere and if I want to be found I can be found and the same follows with “disa-not-hering.”  The people that actually give an actual  shit about Kyle and I know how, where and when to find us!

Sometimes we go for walks with our dogs, go to the grocery store, go to visit family or friends and oh my gosh – no phone!  I’m not really thrilled that phones have GPS tracking and such applications because yes it can be for good reasons to track a missing person but you should be able to disable it if you don’t want to be found or don’t want to be “tracked” with or without awareness that it’s happening.  I am concerned about so much “wireless” signal energy floating about.  It disrupts the homing beacons of Mother Natures creatures to include us….scrambles our energy signals and I think it’s actually been proven to cause some forms of cancer.  When my hero Nikola Tesla conceived of wireless energy I don’t think he was thinking in terms of the organic aspects of the human body like my other hero Dr. Wilhelm Reich did.  We must take care what energy signals we decide to “cast about” all willy nilly into the atmosphere.  Insulated wiring is good.

Anyhew….just be mindful of what you expose yourself too when it comes to energy signals and don’t be afraid to unplug from the “collective consciousness” we’ve created called the Internet once and awhile.  Read a book!  Draw a picture!  Go for a walk in nature!  Call a friend and go for breakfast or coffee!  LIVE, LOVE AND BE HAPPY….just BE YOU!

I love you much and hope this finds you having a day filled with personal empowerment and personal freedom in whatever you choose to do and however you choose to express your own sense of personal style.

*I love this song and I bought a copy of it on Itunes

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3 Dec 2016 Living a life without “Labels” Cat People in fur and clothes…….

Good morning family!  How are you?

3 Dec 2016 Jackie this morning with pouch made by Jimmy from Steam Punk November

3 Dec 2016 Jackie this morning with pouch made by Jimmy from Steam Punk November

I haven’t been posting as regularly because I was in the hospital for a couple of days again.  It’s always about the medication but also learning about how I can grow as a person.  Turns out Lithium salts is a good fit for me with my label for my way of being….Bipolar.  I don’t like labels but this one is suitable to describe everything about me.  In all the ways a human being can be split in two….there am I!

The topic for today springs from me getting schooled about the term I’ve used to describe my new friends from Steam Punk November in Venus TX this year….”Gypsies.”  My husband informed me this morning that using this term is like calling a black person the “N” word!  I didn’t know this!  What these ancient traveling people like to be called is Roma!

When we are ignorant of another person or groups culture and identity, we have a tendency to give them “labels” that can in most cases prove to be derogatory and insulting!  It’s best to ask someone what they liked to be called before just ass-summing *assuming makes and ass out of you and me lol.

For me personally, I’ve chosen as of these past couple of years to not have a label – even for my gender now.  I think Jackie is good enough a label with a caveat of Bipolar for nothing more than describing my being.

These are pictures from Steam Punk November – looking forward to going again next year and visiting the Roma camps!

http://steampunknovember.com/ – link to website

I can remember the first time I saw this film thinking I looked a lot like Natasha.  I was alone the night I watched this and I can remember taking my dog Pita out afterwards and just running so fast…..like I was a cat person.

This film’s opening was the most painful I’ve ever watched!  We weren’t sure we’d make it but we did and watched the entire film and it was worth it.  Her struggle for freedom resonates with me.  Sometimes we make mistakes when we are seeking revenge from a state of unresolved pain, rage and trauma.  Sometimes we don’t even know why we are so hurt and angry until it gets provoked out of us….it was just hidden there waiting for the match.

 

Sounds like 2018 is going to be fabulous…..a trip to the Burning Man Festival is in the sights!  My brother-in-law John talked to Kyle last night about us Rv’ing it to the festival in 2018 and I’m so down for that!  Wanted to go this year but am willing to wait.

http://burningman.org/ – link to main website!

 

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1 Dec 2016 London Town (2016) – Jonathan Rhys Meyers and the “heart” of a Hollywood lost and found

I’m tired after a long day but I saw a movie tonight that I want everyone to know about – London Town starring one of my all-time favorite actors, Jonathan Rhys Meyers!

Just today  I was just talking with Kyle that I was waiting to be able to see Jon in this film and wasn’t sure when it was coming out and or if it was going to be released in the theatres!  Well I was having fun watching the trailer for a James Franco Film that also looks like fun, Why Him? and Kyle reminded me to look up the release date for London Town.  Well low and behold, much to my delight, the film was available to rent, on I tunes this evening!  For only $6.99!  Well I’m here to tell you that this movie is going on my Amazon Wishlist once it’s available to buy in a physical form.  Right now you can only watch it online via I Tunes and Amazon Prime: https://www.amazon.com/London-Town-Jonathan-Rhys-Meyers/dp/B01M0P70CO/ref=sr_1_fkmr0_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1480644865&sr=8-1-fkmr0&keywords=London+town+starring+jonathan+rhy+meyers and also You tube:

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1724597/?ref_=nv_sr_1

In ’70s London, a 14 year-old boy is introduced to the Clash by his estranged mother. It changes his life forever.

Director:

Derrick Borte

Writers:

Matt Brown (screenplay), Sonya Gildea (based on the screenplay “Untitled Joe Strummer Project” by) | 1 more credit »

London Town  (2016)

Full Cast & Crew

Directed by

Derrick Borte
Writing Credits (in alphabetical order)

Matt Brown   … (screenplay)
Sonya Gildea   … (based on the screenplay “Untitled Joe Strummer Project” by)
Kirsten Sheridan   … (based on the screenplay “Untitled Joe Strummer Project” by)

Cast

Natascha McElhone  Natascha McElhone   …
Sandrine

Jonathan Rhys Meyers  Jonathan Rhys Meyers   …
Joe Strummer

Dougray Scott  Dougray Scott   …
Nick Baker

Tom Hughes  Tom Hughes   …
Johnny

Daniel Huttlestone  Daniel Huttlestone   …
Shay Baker

Kerry Howard  Kerry Howard   …
Penelope

Meredith Ostrom  Meredith Ostrom   …
Rebecca

Paul Blackwell  Paul Blackwell   …
Skinhead

Kamryn Boyd  Kamryn Boyd   …
Punk Rock Kid

Alex Marx  Alex Marx   …
Doctor

Jeff Leach  Jeff Leach   …
Ronnie

Nell Williams  Nell Williams   …
Vivian Daniels

Michael Chapman  Michael Chapman   …
Skinhead

Lee McQueen  Lee McQueen   …
Piano Worker

Camilla Talarowska  Camilla Talarowska   …
Punk

Nathanjohn Carter  Nathanjohn Carter   …
Police Officer

Leanne Faulkner  Leanne Faulkner   …
Rudy

Anya McKenna-Bruce  Anya McKenna-Bruce   …
Alice

Peter Benedict  Peter Benedict   …
Sir Basil

Samuel Fava  Samuel Fava   …
Jack

Christian Di Sciullo  Christian Di Sciullo   …
Skinhead

Jack Morris  Jack Morris   …
Whiteboy

Alex Gold  Alex Gold   …
Topper Headon

Brooke Conroy  Brooke Conroy   …
Punk Musician Buying Guitar

Trevor Watts  Trevor Watts   …
Tow Truck Driver

Delaney Meadows  Delaney Meadows   …
Pedestrian

Gregor Babic  Gregor Babic   …
Skinhead

Angus McCabe  Angus McCabe   …
Clash Fan

Bronx Lacoste  Bronx Lacoste   …
Street Punk (uncredited)

Jet Lacoste  Jet Lacoste   …
Street Punk (uncredited)

Vassiliki Tzanakou  Vassiliki Tzanakou   …
Clash fan (uncredited)
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Produced by

Matt Brown   … executive producer
Alastair Burlingham   … executive producer
Tom Butterfield   … producer
Angel Chen   … executive producer
Alex Cutler   … executive producer
Luke Daniels   … executive producer
Charlie Dombek   … executive producer
Victoria Goodall   … line producer
Phil Hunt   … executive producer
Matthew Lamothe   … executive producer
Scott Floyd Lochmus   … executive producer
Dennis Mykytyn   … executive producer
Jeff Rice   … executive producer
Compton Ross   … executive producer
Elliot Ross   … associate producer
Fenella Ross   … associate producer
Sofia Sondervan   … producer
Christine Vachon   … producer
Lee Vandermolen   … executive producer
Music by
Bryan Senti

Cinematography by
Hubert Taczanowski

Film Editing by
Brian Ufberg

Casting By
Cara Beckinsale
Celestia Fox

Production Design by
Laura Ellis Cricks

Art Direction by
Thalia Ecclestone

Set Decoration by
Candice Marchlewski

Costume Design by
Angela Billows

Makeup Department
Sara Austin   … hair and makeup daily
Hannah Forbes   … hair stylist / makeup artist
Kelly Forbes   … daily makeup artist
Velina Iankova   … makeup and hair: daily
Jacquetta Levon   … hair designer / makeup designer
Ella Noble-Jones   … makeup daily

Production Management
Jeremy Campbell   … production manager
Daniel Voltz   … post-production supervisor

Second Unit Director or Assistant Director
Tom Allan   … second assistant director

Art Department
Sarah Bick   … assistant buyer
Angus Carter   … standy props
Anna Czerniavska   … set dresser: dailies
Chapman C.H. Kan   … set dresser
Anna Mould   … standby art director: stand-by art-director
Gabrielle Williams   … production buyer

Sound Department
Christian Bourne   … sound mixer
Robbie Derrick   … boom operator
Nicholas Fedora   … foley mixer
Jonny Hall   … sound trainee
Samantha Iorio   … foley artist / foley supervisor
Dan Kremer   … sound effects editor
Michael Perricone   … re-recording mixer / supervising sound editor
Andrew Rice   … adr mixer
Philip Walker   … boom operator
Rob Young   … assistant sound editor

Visual Effects by
David Ariew   … visual effects supervisor
May Satsuki Asai   … visual effects artist
Bart Walczak   … visual effects artist
Wanyan Zhu   … visual effects artist

Stunts
Levan Doran   … stunt coordinator
Cristian Knight   … assistant stunt coordinator

Camera and Electrical Department
Barny Crocker   … camera operator
Riley Donigan   … camera staff assistant
Arthur Graham-Maw   … digital imaging technician
Oliver Hallam   … camera trainee
Eric Hurt   … Cinematographer, 2nd Unit.
Robbie Jones   … camera trainee
Sebastian Marczewski   … second assistant camera
Oliver Poole   … electrician
Laura Radford   … still photographer
Jonathan Spencer   … gaffer
Lydia Stott   … second assistant camera “b” camera: dailies
Harry Wheeler   … second assistant camera: dailies

Costume and Wardrobe Department
Holly Broughton   … principal costume standby
Barbara Elum-Baldres   … Costume assistant- daily
Bryde Gordon   … Junior costume assistant
Chrysta Jones   … assistant costume designer

Editorial Department
Breannah Gibson   … assistant editor
Joe Klotz   … additional editing
J.D. Moore   … digital intermediate editor
Sebastian Perez-Burchard   … colorist

Location Management
Ben O’Farrell   … location manager

Music Department
Noah Hoffeld   … cello
Jeff Kolhede   … alto saxophone / baritone saxophone / tenor saxophone
Pru Miller   … music supervisor

Other crew
Brian Adach   … production assistant
Peter Benedict   … dialogue coach
Henry Eshelman   … release publicist / unit publicist
Charlie Rose Jones   … Director’s assistant
Sheila McNaught   … script supervisor
Christos Michaels   … legal services
Andy Piers Morris   … consultant: water safety
Mark Rabinowitz   … release publicist / unit publicist
Logan Steinhardt   … coordinator: Killer Films
Amaka Ugwunkwo   … production coordinator
Sabrina Zeile   … release publicist / unit publicist

Thanks
Daniel Forte   … special thanks

This movie, from what I remember hearing Jon say in one of the many interviews I’ve watched of him talking about his projects, didn’t come with a lot of resources monetarily.  I witnessed brilliance in the lack of the monetary element and what could be purchased for less….talent.  That is what you get when you don’t threaten people with money, you get their very best because they are at ease and focused on the craft and not how much money they have been promised….their stated “worth.”  This is a terrific interview with Jon that I’ve watched probably 4 times now because his message resonates so much with me on the subject of acting in Hollywood:

So let’s get to the movie and what it meant to me personally.  From the start Shay and Nell captured my heart!  The people who made this film did their homework!  They paid attention to the small, as some would callously say, “minutia” moments of a life during the period the film was set in.  Now my memories from this time included dressing like Shay, becoming passionate about music but my idol then was David Bowie.  I lived, breathed and ate everything he did.  I was, as they say, completely smitten with him!  To this day, I can mimic his gestures and his singing voice lol. The day he died was probably one of the saddest days of my life!  I was fortunate enough to see him in concert once….going to his concert was the cherry popping for me musically lol.  I wrote down where I was in relation to him on the stage and even as I write this, can remember what it felt like to be there….screaming and crying his name like a silly school girl lol!  Getting to see someone you idolize like that is a life-changing experience and for me it was also a healthy dose of reality.  David, as I’ve found out in recent months, found the “Let’s Dance” part of his career, the timeframe I saw him, to be the worst!  The “sell-out.”  So when it seemed like he wasn’t exactly excited to be performing that day I saw him, well, he truly wasn’t enjoying himself.  He wasn’t being true to himself and despite that, put on his best front for me and all the rest of the mob gathered and swooning at his feet.  David was human and so are the rest of the “star cars” we idolize and place on such fragile pedastals.

I loved all of the performances in this film and was absolutely delighted to see Jonathan doing a role that I enjoy the most seeing him in – a musician.  I can remember the first time my mother-in-law introduced me to Jonathan was when he was in the film with Glenn Close The Lion in Winter (2003) and then as the “King” Elvis Presley for the television series in 2005.  I saw him in the Tudors and he was amazing but after that I let him slip off my radar and then he did the role I think most affected me, NBC’s Dracula as the dashing Alexander Grayson aka Dracula, which unfortunately only lasted a season.  As soon as I found out he was doing that role and I saw the series….wow.  He was in my full view.

I consider him to be a brother from a soul mother….he and I definitely share many fragments of similiarities in our character.  I think we gravitate to our lost or shared soul fragments and I am capable of seeing these in other people.  I don’t know if we’ll ever actually meet in person, I won’t discount the possibility, “we have met”.  His character, Alexander, has twice played an integral part in trying to free me from my personal prison and for that I am eternally grateful.  His movies and his music have helped me embrace who I am and I am eccentric, bat shit crazy at times but always true to those I love and now, thanks to the likes of him and his work, that includes me too.

This film, London Town, is an example of what we have lost in our world and I wish for us to reclaim it.  There are actors like Jon and the others in this film who are shining in the dark abyss of greed that focusing on only the “money” has made.  I hope and pray that you will watch this film and be reminded of the days when we fought for causes like peace between the races and sought to have a life without labels….just human beings!  I choose a life without labels and that is how I find people like Jon and films like London Town.  It can’t be about the money, as Jon says, “Your only as good as your last film.”  It’s got to be about the craft and the love of the making of films first and foremost.

My favorite song Jon did with his brothers:

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12 Nov 2016 Steampunk November (Venus TX) opening night, Streams in the Desert (Daily Meditation) and New Testament

Good morning Family.  I’m up (couldn’t stay asleep) and it’s 2:57 am here as I write to you.  A lot on my mind!  Last night we had quite a bit of excitement!  The two of us haven’t really ventured out much since we moved here to North Texas.  One of the things we really enjoyed when we came here was going to the http://www.srfestival.com/ (Scarborough Festival in Waxahachie TX) but we kind of got disenchanted about it because it seemed like you needed to have so much money to enjoy yourself.  Every time we sat down to watch something, you felt like you had to have money for the performers which I felt should be paid by the Festival promoters!  You paid for the tickets to get in to the main event and then everything you did while you were in the event was for “tips” which felt to me a lot like being in church!  I felt like something wasn’t quite right about things, like your ticket should cover everything that happened while you were at the Festival entertainment wise.

Well last night we went to the opening night of Steampunk November, which we thought, and it was advertised on our tickets, was in Mansfield TX. When we plugged in the address on our tickets, the GPS said the event was actually in Venus which was confusing!  Our GPS knew the address and we just had to trust it to get us there and it did.  Kyle did a few deviations from the route because we really love Mansfield the town and he wanted to find a more direct way to get us there for future excursions!   The GPS knew where we were despite the course corrections so that was good.  This event location was quite “hidden” but such a beautiful location!  We had a great view of the full moon and the stars last night in this place.

Since it was opening night, there were only a few of us and many of us, vendors and people like Kyle and I, were literally “virgins.”  On our way in to get our tickets, there was even an Olive Oil truck!  We had found out about this Festival when we went to the Pickle Festival in Mansfield earlier in the year.  Some regulars from the Fair were dressed up in their best Steampunk regalia and handing out wrist-bands with information and both Kyle and I were so excited!  We have just been learning about the Steampunk genre – the fusion of the new and the old to make the new!  This is like an archetype of the relationship Kyle and I have!  He’s 16 years my junior but we make it work and are so good for each other!

It was quite dark by the time we got our tickets and started to explore the place.  We were welcomed by nearly every single vendor and I was just amazed and inspired by such a wealth of craftspeople and people who sell the crafts of others but with the sole intention of trying to help spread the word about these talented people!  Such a man as Jack from Steam Chest (wwww.chestofsteam.com).  It was an absolute honor for me to be able to talk to fellows who share my love of creation and just want to do it every day!  It’s their passion and is what drives them to want to be here!  It makes them feel alive and worthwhile….gives them purpose!  All of this resonates with me so much because I am the same.  Our only difference, and this is because of my circumstances, is I do my creating with no need to make a profit.  Most people like I spoke to, their work is their “bread and butter.”  They have to sell things to be able to afford to make more things….to pay for supplies and keep themselves and their families in food, clothing, shelter with electricity, phone service and most of all clean drinking water.   The phrase “starving artist” applies here.  Those who are “true” to the “heart” of their passion tend to not make a lot of money and can lead a life of “hand-t0-mouth.”  This is a shame and it didn’t used to be this way!

I’ve shared may times here about the importance of putting love into everything you do — love is the most powerful “energy” we generate as human beings!  Remember Harry Potter…..why did Harry Live?  It was because he had the hand of his mother’s love upon him.   I am a lot like Harry in that regard.  I am touched with my Mother Jeanne’s love and the love of every single person who ever loved her also love me!

So back to last night……

The evening ended on kind of a low note.  A couple of things happened and I am not blaming anyone for it.  We had talked to so many amazing people and then we got to a couple of vendors who were selling things that are near and dear to my heart — wire wrap jewelry, crystals and art.    The first “whammy” I’ll call it, kind of like Red Kryptonite for SuperGirl, was the wire wrap jewelry and crystals vendor.  Her designs were of such a caliber!  I was in complete awe at her talent but then the crystal table literally “cried out” to me and I went over there to a table of various quartz and other gemstone crystals fashioned into all matter of forms.  I ran my hand over them to try and find who was “screaming” and it was like talking to a family….a dysfunctional, fragmented consciousness.  I held some very “wounded” amethyst fragments and nearly cried holding them.  I found a large quartz “wounded warrior” and I think that was the one screaming at me.  I believe crystals, and I had to learn this from our Native Brothers and Sisters (Voices of our Ancestors book) that these Crystals are not just “rocks” but they are sentient fragments of Mother Earth.  When we harvest these beings from the earth and buy, sell, trade and “shape” them, it’s not much different than what we have done in the name of Slavery.  By the time I found the one in so much pain,  I was in so much pain and disoriented that I had to leave the booth and I felt bad about that.  The young man who was there with us seemed to be someone like me! I would have enjoyed talking to him in more depth but was unable.  I saw him later and wanted to talk to him but just was too compromised.   May be when we come back today, I will have another chance?

Cover of the book I'm currently reading - Voices of our Ancestors Cherokee (Tsalagi) Teachings from the Wisdom Fire by Dhyani Ywahoo

Cover of the book I’m currently reading – Voices of our Ancestors Cherokee (Tsalagi) Teachings from the Wisdom Fire by Dhyani Ywahoo

The final blow was when we went to a booth that had a Brothers Grimm type arrangement.  I won’t go into all the particulars about our encounter but I did caution them to take care what spells you weave with words.  When you think, write and speak “horror”…..you are manifesting dimensions of it.    What we focus on expands and gains power and such is the way of both God and Demons.  It’s one thing to draw and write out your inner traumas into a journal or draw a picture but quite another to then try and turn a profit by selling your nightmares.  You are passing them on.    I am not judging these two young men in any way because I understand them.  I have been them with the exception of ever trying to profit from sharing my personal horrors.

The way that I work through my personal horrors and traumas is through a combination of things which included praying, meditating, naps, reading, writing, drawing, crafts, singing, dancing, running, a loving sexual partner, friendships, and  the amazing support systems I developed through  the years which included Clergy, Psychiatrists and Psychologists.  My doctors are not just doctors, they are my family, they are my friends!  You don’t have to have a piece of paper to be a “Doctor.”  All my doctors want their patients to get well so they don’t “need” them anymore.  Money is not the primary motivation for their calling!  That is the oath they took!  The Hippocratic oath (not to be confused with very similar word Hypocrisy).

First Do No Harm!

First Do No Harm!

The Wiccan Rede is much like the Hippocratic Oath for a reason (Alchemy)

The Wiccan Rede is much like the Hippocratic Oath for a reason (Alchemy)

When it is my time to go, whenever and wherever that may be, my papers detailing my journey will never be bought and sold.   They will be available for anyone to read in the context of learning what I have been through and learning from my mistakes……be a better person for knowing I wasn’t perfect.  This is a lesson my brothers and sisters at Alcoholics Anonymous taught me – we are here to share our experience, strength and Hope with others.

So I will close things up here!  We are planning on going back to the Festival in the light so we can get a better view of the amazing people that I’m sure will be gathered there!

 

 

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11 Nov 2016 Hearing the Voice (the God of your understanding in your favorite songs), Mind the tone of your voice, and the importance of energy disbursement in building design (Give and Take of “building batteries”)

Good morning family. This morning I woke to the song by Enigma, Gravity of Love inside my head and that lead me to a train of thought. It lead me to thinking about my last movie theater experience being very cold. It’s about energy disbursement – give and take. The same for any buildings we occupy. One of the best designs for a home was this, the Native American Teepee!  It’s important that there be a healthy exchange of energy.  Think about how much “people” energy a bunch of people sitting in an enclosed theatre makes – I know you have seen the “rising steam” at outdoor concerts…..that’s not just people smoking pot lol.  There must be Give and Take in the exchange of energy and EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE is a “power cell” of the One.

Source Internet - Native Americans understood they couldn't not completely separate themselves from their Mother and Father....they knew there must be give and take.

Source Internet – Native Americans understood they couldn’t not completely separate themselves from their Mother and Father….they knew there must be give and take.

Teepee Painting of different designs of the different Native American Tribes

Teepee Painting of different designs of the different Native American Tribes

The following songs are a path I followed this morning and I hope you will take the time, to follow too. I have been visiting these “places” for many years and have even shared them here many times, but what I had to do, and I suggest you do this also, is pay closer attention to the lyrics….the words of the “songs”.   Songs aren’t just “musical” they are speeches and rhetoric also!  Some people aren’t that physically attractive but their voices are mesmerizing!  I know a few people like that….this gift can be used for good or for malice.  Therein is the voice of the God of my understanding trying to help me navigate my way through this life. There is a reason certain songs “resonate” with us and evoke strong emotions and feelings. It’s because, contrary to what psychiatrists have literally drilled into our heads, God is speaking to us.

Pay attention to the “tone” of what you say and what you sing.   Great interview with a man I think is pretty special and have enjoyed manifest into the amazing actor AND musician he is:

Gravity of Love

Gravity Of Love

Enigma

Turn around and smell what you don’t see Close your eyes it is so clear Here’s the mirror, behind there is a screen On both ways you can get in

Don’t think twice before you listen to your heart Follow the trace for a new start

What you need and everything you’ll feel Is just a question of the deal In the eye of storm you’ll see a lonely dove The experience of survival is the key To the gravity of love

The path of excess leads to The tower of Wisdom The path of excess leads to The tower of Wisdom

Try to think about it That’s the chance to live your life and discover What it is, what’s the gravity of love

Look around just people, can you hear their voice Find the one who’ll guide you to the limits of your choice

But if you’re in the eye of storm Just think of the lonely dove The experience of survival is the key To the gravity of love.

Songwriters: CARL ORFF, MICHAEL CRETU

© Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

For non-commercial use only.

Data from: LyricFind

 

Enigma – Return To Innocence

 

Return to Innocence

Enigma

That’s not the beginning of the end That’s the return to yourself The return to innocence.

Love Devotion Feeling Emotion

Love Devotion Feeling Emotion

Don’t be afraid to be weak Don’t be too proud to be strong Just look into your heart my friend That will be the return to yourself The return to innocence.

If you want, then start to laugh If you must, then start to cry Be yourself don’t hide Just believe in destiny.

Don’t care what people say Just follow your own way Don’t give up and use the chance To return to innocence.

That’s not the beginning of the end That’s the return to yourself The return to innocence.

Don’t care what people say Follow just your own way Follow just your own way Don’t give up, don’t give up To return, to return to innocence.

If you want then laugh If you must then cry Be yourself don’t hide Just believe in destiny.

Songwriters: M.C. CURLY

© Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

For non-commercial use only.

Data from: LyricFind

 

Enigma Back to the Rivers of Belief

Back To The Rivers Of Belief (Medley)

Enigma

A: Way to Eternity … quem quaerimus adjutorem, nisi te, Domine… Sancte Deus, Sancte fortis, Sancte misericors Salvator, amarae morti ne tradas nos. B: Hallelujah Turn off the lights take a deep breath… and relax… Turn off the lights… relax… take a deep breath… relax… C: The Rivers of Belief Take me back to the rivers of belief Take me back to the rivers of belief, my friend… I look inside my heart I look inside my soul I promise you I will return … and when the lamb opened the seventh seal… … silence covered the Sky… Take me back to the rivers of belief Take me back to the rivers of belief, my friend… I look inside my heart I look inside my soul I´m reaching out for you lets hope one day We´ll rest in peace on my rivers of belief

Songwriters: DAVID FAIRSTEIN, M.C. CURLY

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Dead Can Dance – ‘Return of the She-King’

 

Dead Can Dance – The Carnival Is Over (Official Video)

https://youtu.be/mPDLJ1UU2Uk

The Carnival Is Over

Dead Can Dance

Outside The storm clouds gathering, Moved silently along the dusty boulevard. Where flowers turning crane their fragile necks So they can in turn Reach up and kiss the sky.

They are driven by a strange desire Unseen by the human eye Someone is calling.

I remember when you held my hand In the park we would play when the circus came to town. Look! Over here.

Outside The circus gathering Moved silently along the rainswept boulevard. The procession moved on the shouting is over The fabulous freaks are leaving town.

They are driven by a strange desire Unseen by the human eye. The carnival is over

We sat and watched As the moon rose again For the very first time.

Songwriters: BRENDAN MICHAEL PERRY, LISA GERMAINE GERRARD

© Universal Music Publishing Group, BMG RIGHTS MANAGEMENT US, LLC

For non-commercial use only.

Data from: LyricFind

 

Light my fire – The doors

 

The Doors – Riders on the Storm

 

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“Riders On The Storm”

Riders on the storm Riders on the storm Into this house we’re born Into this world we’re thrown Like a dog without a bone An actor out on loan Riders on the storm There’s a killer on the road His brain is squirmin’ like a toad Take a long holiday Let your children play If you give this man a ride Sweet family will die Killer on the road, yeah Girl, you gotta love your man Girl, you gotta love your man Take him by the hand Make him understand The world on you depends Our life will never end Gotta love your man, yeah Riders on the storm Riders on the storm Into this house we’re born Into this world we’re thrown Like a dog without a bone An actor out on loan. Riders on the storm Riders on the storm Riders on the storm Riders on the storm Riders on the storm Riders on the storm

Finger Death Punch – House Of The Rising Sun

 

House Of The Rising Sun

Five Finger Death Punch

There is a house in Sin City They call the Rising Sun And it’s been the ruin of many a poor boy And God, I know I’m one

My mother was a tailor She sewed my new blue jeans My father was a gamblin’ man Down in Sin City

Now the only thing a gambler needs Is a suitcase and a trunk And the only time he’s satisfied Is when he’s on a drunk

Well, I’ve got one foot on the platform The other’s on the train I’m goin’ back to Sin City To wear that ball and chain

Well, mother, tell your children Never do what I have done Spend your lives in sin and misery In the house of the rising sun

In the house of the rising sun

Well, there is a house in Sin City They call the Rising Sun And it’s been the ruin of many a poor boy And God, knows I, I’m one

Songwriters: ALAN PRICE

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Five Finger Death Punch – Wrong Side Of Heaven

Wrong Side Of Heaven

Five Finger Death Punch

I spoke to God today and she said that she’s ashamed What have I become. What have I done I spoke to the devil today and he swears he’s not to blame And I understood ’cause I feel the same

Arms wide open I stand alone I’m no hero and I’m not made of stone Right or wrong I can hardly tell I’m on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell The wrong side of heaven and the righteous side, The righteous side of hell

I heard from God today and she sounded just like me What have I done and who have I become I saw the devil today and he looked a lot like me I looked away, I turned away

Arms wide open I stand alone I’m no hero and I’m not made of stone Right or wrong I can hardly tell I’m on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell The wrong side of heaven and the righteous side, The righteous side of hell

I’m not defending Downward descending Falling further and further away Getting closer every day

I’m getting closer every day To the end, to the end, the end of the end I’m getting closer every day

Arms wide open I stand alone I’m no hero And I’m not made of stone Right or wrong I can hardly tell I’m on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell I’m on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell The wrong side of heaven and the righteous side, Righteous side of hell

Songwriters: IVAN MOODY, JEREMY SPENCER, KEVIN CHURKO, THOMAS JASON GRINSTEAD, ZOLTAN BATHORY

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What came during my afternoon meditation with the brilliant sun, blue sky and the "intelligent" clouds....Insects aren't just stupid bugs....

10 Nov 2016 My afternoon meditation with the clouds – Spiders (are) From Mars….sentient insects….we haven’t begun to define “life”

 

Hello family.  My afternoon meditation with the sun, blue sky and clouds lead me to someone who had left behind quite a bread trail for me to follow…..David Bowie.  In particular, his song Life on Mars.  It occurred to me as I was watching silken spider threads floating across the sky as I lay on my cot out back, that perhaps it was such a crumb from David.  I don’t believe we have begun to understand the definition of what an alien lifeform is….what life and sentience is.  Energy is capable of anything and if you put enough “charges” to a thought or an idea….you can even create life.   Look around and witness the power of your thoughts!  Stay in the God-light of your understanding and together we can restore balance in all things of this dimension.

Each Dawn is a New Beginning....like Ground hog day only longer

Each Dawn is a New Beginning….like Ground hog day only longer

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What came during my afternoon meditation with the brilliant sun, blue sky and the "intelligent" clouds....Insects aren't just stupid bugs....

What came during my afternoon meditation with the brilliant sun, blue sky and the “intelligent” clouds….Insects aren’t just stupid bugs….they are fragments of the one just like us.

 

 

 

 

Life on Mars

David Bowie – this was much of my life growing up – immersion in music, movies, television and books

It’s a God awful small affair
To the girl with the mousey hair
But her mummy is yelling, “No!”
And her daddy has told her to go
But her friend is no where to be seen
Now she walks through her sunken dream
To the seats with the clearest view
And she’s hooked to the silver screen
But the film is sadd’ning bore
For she’s lived it ten times or more
She could spit in the eyes of fools
As they ask her to focus on

Sailors
Fighting in the dance hall
Oh man!
Look at those cavemen go
It’s the freakiest show
Take a look at the lawman
Beating up the wrong guy
Oh man!
Wonder if he’ll ever know
He’s in the best selling show
Is there life on Mars?

It’s on America’s tortured brow
That Mickey Mouse has grown up a cow
Now the workers have struck for fame
‘Cause Lennon’s on sale again
See the mice in their million hordes
From Ibiza to the Norfolk Broads
Rule Britannia is out of bounds
To my mother, my dog, and clowns
But the film is a sadd’ning bore
‘Cause I wrote it ten times or more
It’s about to be writ again
As I ask you to focus on

Sailors
Fighting in the dance hall
Oh man!
Look at those cavemen go
It’s the freakiest show
Take a look at the lawman
Beating up the wrong guy
Oh man!
Wonder if he’ll ever know
He’s in the best selling show
Is there life on Mars?

Songwriters: DAVID BOWIE
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Aurora borealis at Arctic Henge in Raufarhöfn, Iceland
The shimmering colors of the northern lights add yet another level of mystic mystery to the Arctic Henge. This work in progress stands on a hill over Raufarhöfn, a village in the far north of Iceland. Similar to Stonehenge and other henges around the globe, the Arctic Henge is compass and calendar, with the sun at the solstice and equinoxes visible through various arches in the structure. 
Unlike Stonehenge, comparatively small slabs of stone were used to make the arches here. On each stone is engraved the name of a dwarf referenced in a poem of Norse mythology called the Völuspá. If this gives you a Tolkien vibe, know that the writer borrowed heavily from the Völuspá when writing ‘The Hobbit.’

9 Nov 2016 The morning after (Maureen McGovern), I like coffee AND tea, Touch Me The Morning After (Diana Ross), Just Give Me a Reason (Pink), On The Edge of Glory (Lady Gaga), Janduny Remix (Coldplay), Let’s Dance (David Bowie)

Good morning family.  It’s the Morning After and I decided on something.  No matter what happens next, I will remain true to who I Am.  I will continue to love my neighbors as myself, I will continue to lead by my example and will remain teachable.    It doesn’t matter what anyone else is doing right now, what matters is what I feel, what I think, what I say and do.  It is in the power of our intention we manifest entire worlds.    It occurred to me this morning that the Earth is very much like a battery.  A battery has a positive and a negative charge.  So is the way of Mother Earth.  What happened is we got out of balance and there was “too much” negative charge.  I pray in the coming days we can all work together, as we have up to this moment in time brothers and sisters, to restore balance.  My love to you wherever and whenever you are right now as you visit me here.

Aurora borealis at Arctic Henge in Raufarhöfn, Iceland The shimmering colors of the northern lights add yet another level of mystic mystery to the Arctic Henge. This work in progress stands on a hill over Raufarhöfn, a village in the far north of Iceland. Similar to Stonehenge and other henges around the globe, the Arctic Henge is compass and calendar, with the sun at the solstice and equinoxes visible through various arches in the structure.  Unlike Stonehenge, comparatively small slabs of stone were used to make the arches here. On each stone is engraved the name of a dwarf referenced in a poem of Norse mythology called the Völuspá. If this gives you a Tolkien vibe, know that the writer borrowed heavily from the Völuspá when writing ‘The Hobbit.’

9 Nov 2016 Bing Home Page Image – Aurora borealis at Arctic Henge in Raufarhöfn, Iceland
The shimmering colors of the northern lights add yet another level of mystic mystery to the Arctic Henge. This work in progress stands on a hill over Raufarhöfn, a village in the far north of Iceland. Similar to Stonehenge and other henges around the globe, the Arctic Henge is compass and calendar, with the sun at the solstice and equinoxes visible through various arches in the structure.
Unlike Stonehenge, comparatively small slabs of stone were used to make the arches here. On each stone is engraved the name of a dwarf referenced in a poem of Norse mythology called the Völuspá. If this gives you a Tolkien vibe, know that the writer borrowed heavily from the Völuspá when writing ‘The Hobbit.’

Remember what I told you about a “refinement process” about creation.  Sometimes it takes several tries to “get it right.” 

The Morning After by Maureen McGovern

Uploaded on Aug 23, 2008

There’s got to be a morning after If we can hold on through the night We have a chance to find the sunshine Let’s keep on lookin’ for the light Oh, can’t you see the morning after It’s waiting right outside the storm Why don’t we cross the bridge together And find a place that’s safe and warm It’s not too late, we should be giving Only with love can we climb It’s not too late, not while we’re living Let’s put our hands out in time There’s got to be a morning after We’re moving closer to the shore I know we’ll be there by tomorrow And we’ll escape the darkness We won’t be searchin’ any more There’s got to be a morning after (There’s got to be a morning after) There’s got to be a morning after (There’s got to be a morning after) There’s got to be a morning after (There’s got to be a morning after) There’s got to be a morning after (There’s got to be a morning after) There’s got to be a morning after MAUREEN MCGOVERN

“The Morning After” Wins Original Song: 1973 Oscars

Published on Sep 30, 2013

Cher and Sonny Bono presenting Al Kasha and Joel Hirschhorn the Oscar® for Best Original Song for “The Morning After” from “The Poseidon Adventure” at the 45th Annual Academy Awards® in 1973. Hosted by Michael Caine.

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Touch Me In The Morning – Diana Ross

Pink – Just give me a reason (Pink, one of my favorite and most misunderstood colors of the rainbow)

Lady Gaga – The Edge of Glory — “The body is just a suite of energy that contains Love” – Me

Coldplay – O (Janduny Remix) – Christopher Martin “Birdy”….a voice that helped me find my way home.

David Bowie – Let’s Dance (How we help “charge” Mother Earth’s battery!  How we help “earn our keep” to live here.  It’s a give and take relationship)

 

Ultravox We Came to Dance (Banned in UK version) Time to ditch the “stiff upper lip”

Matrix Reloaded Rave (Zion Dance Party) – Aphrodite Mix (Do you remember Dancing?  It’s a way to generate powerful positive energy and “other things” that bring pleasure)  This morning I had a dream that something that looked like these creatures was locked up and released….what came to me is it’s ability to reproduce very quickly and enough so to take over the earth.  Like a huge parasite.

The bracelet from my friend Cyndy broke while I was doing gardening work, I'm going to repair it...make it even stronger.  The angel and star were bound in wire and chained together I bought them from my friend Wayne Lone Eagle Darling last year.  Sacred beings beings do not like to be bound....imprisioned.

8 Nov 2016 Smoke Signals (1998 film – one of the best I’ve ever seen), Fry Bread (recipe) and Freedom….How do we forgive our Fathers

Good morning family it’s 7:13 am…..the month and day of the birth of my husband Kyle Martin Wygant (the year of his birth was 1984).  Today we will be voting for the next President of the United States.  Kyle said he is certain one thing as he prepares to go the polls after class today, he will not be voting for Donald Trump.  I know nothing else on his part but I don’t need to know.  Who he votes for is his personal decision and I have no right to judge him whichever person he should choose.  He had said he was going to handwrite in Bernie Sanders but I don’t know if he still will.  That ship has sailed in this dimension.

I wish you all much love, light and a special dashes of Wisdom and Courage.  Today is truly going to be an awesome day.  I woke up with this being my first words, “Today is going to be awesome because I have Faith.”

The bracelet from my friend Cyndy broke while I was doing gardening work, I'm going to repair it...make it even stronger. The angel and star were bound in wire and chained together I bought them from my friend Wayne Lone Eagle Darling last year. Sacred beings beings do not like to be bound....imprisioned.

The bracelet from my friend Cyndy broke while I was doing gardening work, I’m going to repair it…make it even stronger. The angel and star were bound in wire and chained together I bought them from my friend Wayne Lone Eagle Darling last year. Sacred beings do not like to be bound….in prison.

Angels, stars (Merkaba), and cats on a stove top

Angels, stars (Merkaba), and cats on a stove top

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Food

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Hands

Tea kettles, cats, beads of broken promises, angels and stars on one stovetop...the dogs blended into them all..."Dats" a little dog, a little cat.

Tea kettles, cats, beads of broken promises, angels and stars on one stovetop…the dogs blended into them all…”Dats” a little dog, a little cat.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0120321/fullcredits?ref_=tt_ov_st_sm – IMDB full credits for film

Smoke Signals (1998)

The seats don’t BELONG to anyone

Smoke Signals (4/12) Movie CLIP – John Wayne’s Teeth (1998) HD

Smoke Signals (12/12) Movie CLIP – To Forgive Our Fathers (1998) HD

https://towardtheone.org/2009/01/26/how-do-we-forgive-our-fathers-by-dick-lourie/

How do we forgive our Fathers? Maybe in a dream Do we forgive our Fathers for leaving us too often or forever when we were little?

Maybe for scaring us with unexpected rage or making us nervous because there never seemed to be any rage there at all.

Do we forgive our Fathers for marrying or not marrying our Mothers? For Divorcing or not divorcing our Mothers?

And shall we forgive them for their excesses of warmth or coldness? Shall we forgive them for pushing or leaning for shutting doors for speaking through walls or never speaking or never being silent?

Do we forgive our Fathers in our age or in theirs or their deaths saying it to them or not saying it?

If we forgive our Fathers what is left?

* This poem is read during the last scene in Smoke Signals. It was originally published in a longer version titled “Forgiving Our Fathers” in a book of poems titled Ghost Radio published by Hanging Loose Press in 1998

Fry Bread Recipe – I’ve started making this instead of full loaves of bread and find it’s a very satisfying meal even just by itself!

2 1/2 cups flour (adjust as needed)

1/2 tsp salt

1 TBSP Baking Powder

3/4 cup water or milk

Combine ingredients – adjust flour as needed.  Want a bread dough texture, shouldn’t be “wet.”

Take palm size clump of dough.  Drop into separate bowl of plain flour.  Roll around until coated.  Then flatten to palm size pieces.

For griddle – 1/2 inch to 1 inch hot oil (I use peanut or olive oil).  Preheat while rolling dough.  Drop “flats” in oil.  Want a golden crust on both sides.  Use tongues to flip.  Can leave plain or drop into paper bag that has sugar/cinnamon mix (we use organic powdered sugar and sprinkle that on top – sometimes add cinnamon to the dough).  Cool on paper towel covered plate.  This recipe makes about 8 palm size pieces.  Can Fry Daddy deep fat fry cook – that’s what we use.   This is a variation of a recipe my Dad and I used to share when I was a little girl.  He would buy frozen bread dough instead and cut it up and deep fat fry them.