To be

1 August 2026 BTS

August 2, 2026 by saymber, posted in Spirituality and Religion, Music, Social media

Hello to you. I hope this finds you well. Tonight I got to watch via NYCTHRASHERs Tik Tok page a South Korean boy band named BTS. I was one of some 50,000 people watching the performance which is a lot for Tik Tok! The MetLife Stadium in New Jersey had about 82,500 people in attendance. – sold out show. I had never really heard of the band before them being mentioned on Tik Tok. Here is what the internet has to say about them:

BTS (Bangtan Sonyeondan) is a famous seven-member South Korean boy band formed in 2010 that debuted on June 12, 2013 under BIGHIT MUSIC. The group consists of members RM, Jin, Suga, J-Hope, Jimin, V, and Jung Kook. [1, 2, 3, 4]

The Members

RM: Group leader and main rapper.
Jin: Oldest member and vocalist.
Suga: Rapper and major music producer.
J-Hope: Main dancer, rapper, and vocalist.
Jimin: Vocalist and dancer.
V: Vocalist with a deep baritone voice.
Jung Kook: Youngest member (maknae), main vocalist, and dancer. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]

Music and Global ImpactName Meaning: The name stands for the Korean phrase Bangtan Sonyeondan, meaning “Bulletproof Boy Scouts,” and later gained the English branding “Beyond the Scene”.Themes: Their songs explore mental health, youth struggles, school-age hardships, and self-love.Fandom: Their massive global fan base is officially known as ARMY. [1, 2, 3, 4]

One of the songs they performed tonight that I liked:

https://youtu.be/qZTVU04UOO4?is=5_hndPLqiTQD4ZjY – BTS – Swim

Spin of the World Prayer Wheel:

Father, we thank thee for the night,
and for the pleasant morning light;
for rest and food and loving care,
and all that makes the day so fair.

Help us to do the things we should,
to be to others kind and good;
in all we do, in work or play,
to grow more loving every day.

child’s bedtime prayer – rebecca weston – 1890

30 July 2026 Reason

July 30, 2026July 31, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, drawing, history, Home, Mental Health, Nature, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs

Do you think everything happens for a reason?

Hello to you. It’s another smoky and hazy day as I write to you. I’m getting a bit of cabin fever staying inside so much. We stay inside for the winter and stay inside for the summer! it feels like the whole earth is burning.

Do I think everything happens for a reason? The way I’ve come to understand how things work is this existence is like a chess match. Every move of a piece is carefully thought out. Our Lord knows where every single fragment of this existence is going to go. Each move carefully thought out. To answer a single prayer requires the movement of so many pieces. The Lord has all the time in world – he operates in infinity. One day in our time is forever in his. He exists outside of time whereas our mortal coil is limited by time and circumstances.

I can remember sitting out in my back yard in Texas and I would point at a dead leaf or a blade of grass. I would ask “what are you going to do with this,” and then a breeze would come and move the leaf or blade of grass. Sometimes an insect would land on it. I came to understand that God had a plan for everything in creation – even things that seemed to not be of use anymore.

Sometimes things happen in this shared existence that seem to make no sense at the moment. It’s only when enough time passes that we see the purpose. We can often look back and see Gods plan and have an “aha” moment. We are able to see what happened that seemed horrible while we were living in it was actually for our greater good. If my second husband had not divorced me, I would not have the relationship I have with God, my family and church. At the time I was going through the divorce I wasn’t sure I would make it!

https://youtu.be/HuV2ID4PVgA?is=IM4tOhSr-2uwiQNL – Enigma – Why

Spin of the World Prayer Wheel:

I would say to young people
a number of things, and I have only one minute.

I would say — let them remember
that there is a meaning beyond absurdity.

Let them be sure that every little deed counts,
that every word has power,
and that we do — everyone — our share
to redeem the world, in spite of all absurdities,
and all the frustrations, and all the disappointment

And above all, remember that the meaning of life
is to live life as if it were a work of art.

rabbi abraham joshua heschel – 1972

29 July 2026 Home Decor

July 29, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion

What’s your home decoration style?

Hello to you. It’s another hazy smoky day here today. I haven’t been out walking the past couple of days. I feel bad for all the countries of this world suffering from fires, earthquakes and floods. Mother Earth is speaking and we better start listening!

Today’s prompt is pretty easy for me. One word describes my decoration style. – eclectic. I don’t have a particular style or genre. When I was with Kyle we collected dragon figurines and stuff like McFarland plastic dragons. For awhile we also collected My Little Ponies and stuffed owls. After the divorce and me leaving Texas I gave a bunch of stuffed animals like my bears, to my cousin for the children to play with. When we divorced I kept only one dragon figurine and a couple stuffed dragons we had bought on our first date at Universal Studios in Orlando Florida. The only other collection I have is crystals. Living in a tiny house you have to be careful with accumulating stuff!

I rewatched this yesterday – it’s been posted for 17 years now and it’s still relevant. Its a very good explanation about our current stuff system:

https://youtu.be/9GorqroigqM?is=jLBnLFjlpEQBL_N0 – The Story of Stuff

Spin of the prayer wheel :

Touch the pain of the world
and release hope into the darkness.

sister simone campbell – sisters of social service

28 July 2026 Surrender

July 29, 2026 by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing, Health, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs

Hello there. As I write today is another smoky and hazy day. I haven’t done any walks because of the conditions. After I write this I am going to try and do a 20 min Tai Chi session on YouTube with Don Fiore.

I had a therapy session today and we ended with Alyssa giving me a challenge. She asked me to do a drawing of what surrender looks like for me now. The last big surrender was when I was still married to Ken and lived in Florida. When I turned myself into the care of God, the doors of freedom and recovery flew open.

Here is an abbreviated version of what happened. While stationed in Colorado and then Florida I had started abusing alcohol. One day, in Florida, I met a man who was a broker, can’t remember his name, but he was striking. He was a black man with incredibly blue eyes. He asked me if I had a church home and I said no. He invited me to his mega non- denominational church. I went and the message was about the Holy Spirit being an actual person. The next day I was on my patio drunk and miserable. I simply said “I surrender.” The very next day the Holy Spirit began his work on me. I rode my bike to work and was going to go even with a hangover. As I was getting ready to go I watched the chain on my bike fall off in slow motion. I fixed the chain but was running late now to get to work. I was riding in front of where Ken used to work and all the sudden a Transam about ran me over. I was really shook up now! Had I been there a few seconds earlier I would have been hit!

When I got to work I remembered I had my annual physical exam so I left again. At the appointment there was a questionnaire and alcohol use was one of the questions. I had the courage to be honest. Because I was honest, within a couple days I was in rehab in Maryland! At first Ken and I were mad because we didn’t think I was an alcoholic. Later I realized it was to get the alcohol out of my system to see what was really going on. There is much more to my story of this surrender – let’s just say when the Holy Spirit is in charge nothing is impossible!

I feel like I’ve been doing what God wants me to do right now. My physical conditions prevent me from over doing it like I used to do. What would happen if I surrendered again? Would I be healed so I could be a worthy vessel of the Holy Spirit or how I am now is forever? This drawing is how I view Surrender right now:

Putting to crude drawing what Surrender looks like today

Spin of the World Prayer Wheel:

Let my heart be the vessel of God’s Love.

Let my thoughts be the blossom of God’s Love.

Let my words be the expression of God’s Love.

Let my actions be the fulfillment of God’s Love.

willingness – david ridge

26 July 2026 A Prayer of Lament and Star Trek

July 27, 2026 by saymber, posted in Spirituality and Religion, Television, Bipolar life

Hello to you. I am just home from spending some time with my Aunt and Uncle. It’s really hazy out! Lots of fires around us. It feels like the whole world is in flames right now. My prayers go out to everyone dealing with the fires right now.

Today began with church we were in Psalm 13 a voice of lament:

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm%2013&version=NIV

https://youtu.be/jjXb0GsggRs?is=fsvYok5eqZQJr-hI – A Prayer of Lament – Bryant Strot

Lament is turning to God with the unfiltered truth of what hurts. A prayer of lament begins by voicing an honest complaint.

After dinner we watched a couple episodes of Star Trek Strange New Worlds:

https://youtu.be/XL4iCAB6MFo?is=FRwTVkaqmfgxIicy – Trailer for Star Trek Strange New Worlds

Core Premise & Creative Style

The series follows the crew of the Enterprise as they embark on a five-year mission to explore unknown sectors of space, seek out new life, and confront unique cosmic phenomena. Unlike many contemporary serialized dramas, it blends campy science-fiction fun, deep ethical dilemmas, character-driven comedy, and intense action.

Parts of it were kind of cheesy but overall it was fun to watch! I can remember watching the original Star Trek in my younger days.

Spin of the World Prayer Wheel:

This is the beginning of a new day.
I can waste it or use it for good.
What I do today is important because I am exchanging a day of my life for it.
When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever,
leaving in its place something I have traded for it.
I want it to be a gain, not a loss;
good, not evil;
success, not failure —
in order that I shall not regret the price I paid for it today.

author unknown

25 July 2026 Evening Flowers

July 26, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Nature, photography, Spirituality and Religion

Hello there! How are you? I’m just back from an evening walk. The air is so stagnant which makes it hard for me to breathe. I’ve noticed these flowers for a couple days now and just had to get a picture to share with you!

Spin of the World Prayer Wheel:

The angels dance in your wake
The sun rises for your glory
Stars illume in your light
Magnificent and eternal
My Lord Jesus
My timeless love

justina m. pernetter

22 July 2026 All That I Have

July 23, 2026 by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing, Spirituality and Religion

Hello to you. It’s evening as I write to you. How are you? I hope this finds you well and if not I want you to know you’re not alone. You are loved unconditionally.

Today I found this post on Tik Tok that is so simple but profound at the same time:

I had to draw it myself:

I just had to try my hand at drawing this profound and simple message!

My heart is all Jesus wants! It’s not complicated even though I sometimes make it so.

Spin of the World Prayer Wheel:

Walk softly upon the earth.
May its beauty forever surround you,
its wonders forever astound you.

May its wisdom delight you,
its music invite you
to dance and to play and to sing.

May you love and be loved by all that you meet;
may you know and practice compassion.

Rejoice in the earth and in all of creation.
Rejoice in life.

a parting blessing – alfred v. fedak – 2008

21 July 2026 Practice

July 21, 2026 by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, drawing, history, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion

Hello there! How are you doing today? I just finished another attempt at drawing one of my favorite things the Metatrons Cube. I did it mostly free hand. I am so out of practice!

My first attempt at drawing a Metatrons Cube in a couple of years

What exactly is the meaning of the shape? Here is what the internet had to say:

Metatron’s Cube is a complex, mystical geometric symbol in sacred geometry that contains all the fundamental shapes of the universe. Named after the Archangel Metatron, who is said to oversee the flow of energy in creation, it is believed to be the ultimate blueprint of reality and physical matter. [1, 2, 3]

Here are the key elements of its meaning:

The Blueprint of Creation: The cube is derived from ancient patterns like the “Fruit of Life” (13 interconnected circles). By drawing straight lines connecting the center of every circle to every other circle, it reveals the Five Platonic Solids (the tetrahedron, hexahedron, octahedron, dodecahedron, and icosahedron). These solids represent the basic building blocks of all organic life and matter. [1, 2, 3]
Balance and Harmony: Metatron’s Cube merges the feminine (the curved circles) with the masculine (the straight lines). In spiritual practices, this represents the perfect balance of polarities and the harmony of the cosmos. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]
Protection and Healing: Historically, the cube has been used as a sacred grid or glyph. Believers often use or wear it to repel lower frequencies, clear negative energy, and foster a peaceful environment. [1, 2, 3]
Spiritual Awakening: As a visual tool, it is frequently used in meditation to help focus the mind, gain higher consciousness, and connect with the divine. [1]

I first learned about the shape from my friend Sarah many years ago. Something about it just was a balm for my brain. I have a pendant I wear with the shape all the time.

Spin of the World Prayer Wheel:

God,

I’m willing
to do your work.

Please
show me what it is.

tami simon

20 July 2026 Break For The Brain and Rosary

July 21, 2026July 21, 2026 by saymber, posted in animals, Bipolar life, Food, Movies, Spirituality and Religion

Hello to you. I’m just back from a good walk. The air quality wasn’t too bad. I checked my mailbox and was pleased to see a small package from Bishop James Long on Tik Tok. I won a rosary about a week ago while listening to his page. I had a couple of rosaries but during my last big manic episode I removed the crosses. Some parts of my spiritual path, being raised Roman Catholic, I hold on to. I listen to Bishop Long almost everyday.

Rosary received today and guide on how to pray

This morning I went to coffee at the Grace House. There was a good turnout. We prayed over the 21 days of prayer cards and Missy lead prayer over our personal intentions.

Later in the afternoon I went over to my Aunt and Uncles house for linner of grilled burgers and potato salad. Afterwards we watched a movie that was kind of dumb but gentle on the brain called Sheep Detectives – it’s on Amazon Prime:

Directed by Kyle Balda, the PG-rated animated comedy The Sheep Detectivesfollows a flock of sheep who leave their meadow to solve the mysterious murder of their shepherd, George. The 1-hour and 49-minute film was released in the US on May 8, featuring a voice cast that includes Hugh Jackman, Nicholas Galitzine, and Molly Gordon. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]

https://youtu.be/pyZI5oM6hWk?is=ehgsIGgxQo_T_cOW – Sheep Detectives Trailer

Spin of the World Prayer Wheel:

Prayer is not asking.
Prayer is putting oneself in the hands of God,
at his disposition,
and listening to his voice in the depths of our hearts.

mother teresa – in her own words

19 July 2026 The Greatest Prayer

July 20, 2026July 20, 2026 by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing, history, Mental Health, Music, Spirituality and Religion

Hello to you. Today has been a good day. The morning began with church. I had never really read John 17 before. It was a great prayer from Jesus for his followers then and his followers now. I got to sit next to my friend Jeannie. She brought me something special – colored pencils! She likes my drawings and wanted to encourage me. I did a little drawing – I’m so out of practice!

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John%2017&version=NIV – John 17

https://youtu.be/wagJfhhi0_Q?is=90djIWlIo3yVbZEe – The Greatest Prayer – Pastor Jason Boyd

https://youtu.be/6CKCThJB5w0?is=jCQcVyPBLETX94vM – Here I Am To Worship – The Call – Hillsong Worship

Spin of the World Prayer Wheel:

At the center of the universe is a
loving heart that continues to beat
and that wants the best for every person.

Anything we can do to help foster
the intellect and spirit and emotional growth
of our fellow human beings, that is our job.

Those of us who have this particular vision
must continue against all odds.

Life is for service.

mister rogers neighborhood – fred rogers – 1928-2003