8 February 2020 Amusing yourself

Hello to you.  It’s Saturday afternoon as I write to you in your here and now.  How are you?  I hope well.  I am having some shall I say, “alone time” right now and find myself challenged to find things to do.  Today I took out the trusty cribbage and chessboards and found myself quickly bored with the board lol.  I write and draw a lot, sometimes paint, take pictures, enjoy almost every genre of music (some more than others), love to dance and be physically active, enjoy good food, truly enjoy being outside with God and sometimes play a video game here and there.  I enjoy making things but don’t really have an outlet for the things I make.  I think it is safe to say, at least for my house, you can have too many home made blankets!  Hobbies can get expensive no matter what they are.  When you are on a fixed income you have to watch your spending, at least that has been my personal choice about it.

Living where I do, most of the activities that I could participate in require me to spend money.  Driving to even a “free” place can get expensive over time.  So I have learned to amuse myself the best I can in the parameters in which I live.  For many, I think, it would be quite a dull existence.

I have planted a seed, if you want to call it that, for the God of my understanding to gradually and tangibly, put people in my life that are interested in the sorts of things I am interested in.  Some time ago, I had a “tribe” here, but everyone went their separate ways and all are extremely busy with their lives and pursuit of their dreams and or livelihoods.   Some of what I’m interested in may be considered “fringe” type things – much of which is in the spiritual, scientific and paranormal realms.

Sometimes when you plant a seed with God it takes time and the right “soil” in which for the seed to germinate. 

https://www.ridingthebeast.com/gematria-calculator/

seed = 33

one two five” in the English Ordinal system equals 134

one five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 125

one four zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 158

one five zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 140

one three four” in the English Ordinal system equals 150

one five two” in the English Ordinal system equals 134

one four two” in the English Ordinal system equals 152

one three six” in the English Ordinal system equals 142

one five four” in the English Ordinal system equals 136

one four four” in the English Ordinal system equals 154

one two six” in the English Ordinal system equals 144

one one two” in the English Ordinal system equals 126

three three” in the English Ordinal system equals 112

seed” in the English Ordinal system equals 33

germinate = 92

one three four” in the English Ordinal system equals 150

one five two” in the English Ordinal system equals 134

one four two” in the English Ordinal system equals 152

one three six” in the English Ordinal system equals 142

one five four” in the English Ordinal system equals 136

one four four” in the English Ordinal system equals 154

one six two” in the English Ordinal system equals 144

one zero zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 162

nine two” in the English Ordinal system equals 100

germinate” in the English Ordinal system equals 92

one two five” in the English Ordinal system equals 134

soil = 55

one five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 125

one four zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 158

one zero nine” in the English Ordinal system equals 140

eight four” in the English Ordinal system equals 109

five five” in the English Ordinal system equals 84

soil” in the English Ordinal system equals 55

5 Feb 2020 Tangible or Intangible experiences

Where will my feet be taking me next?

Hello to you.  It’s a gray and cold afternoon as I write.  Hope this finds you doing well in your where and when as you visit me here.

I was trying to think of something to write about and the subject of tangible and intangible experiences came to my mind.  It’s one thing to imagine the things you would like to do in life but quite another to actually do them.  I’m at a cross roads point in my life right now.  There is a part of me that longs for an adventure and part of me that is hesitant to even step my feet too far out of my own neighborhood!  Can you relate?

I ran these numbers in the gematria calculator with interesting results:

https://www.ridingthebeast.com/gematria-calculator/

(Remember the word values I’ve listed aren’t the only ones that exist.  I encourage you to explore this for yourself and see what shows up for you personally)

Tangible or Intangible Experiences = 319 132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150/140…..(pattern repeats)

(ironically my name, Jackie = 39 and life = 32) (148 – human emotion) (some 143’s-resourceful, contentment, rehabilitation)(some 150’s – understanding, communication, divine planning, positive image) (some 140’s – interesting, observation) food-40) (some 158’s – quality of life, being yourself) feeling-58)

(some 125’s – courageous, surprise, solution, spiritual) all-25) (some 134’s – intellectual, information, combinations, responsible) one-34)

Tangible = 70 129/134/150/140/158/125/134/150….(pattern repeats)

(some 70’s – effort, tasks, seeking affordable)(some 129’s – experiment, experiencing, stimulant)

Intangible = 93 98/91/76/117/133/146

(some 93’s – management, growing, outside, internal, trying, physical, writer)  (together – 98, spirit-91, value for my last name/humans-76) (some 117’s -humility, upbringing, occupation) (some 118’s – conscious, true love, wonderful, concentrate, attention)(some 133’s – community, intentional, system life, property) and (some 146’s – brain function, peace for the brain).

31 January 2020 – Living alone together

Hello to you.  It’s been awhile since I posted anything.  I am currently going through some challenging times in my life and haven’t been feeling like doing much.  I hope something in what I will share here will help you if you find yourself visiting my blog today.

What I am currently facing is something similar to what I went through in my previous marriage.  The experience of living with someone but feeling like you are just sharing a space but not truly connected like you once were.  I call it, living alone together.  It’s not a condition I want to exist but it currently does.

I am the sort of person who can get carried away into many different directions at once and find it difficult to be in the present moment all the time.  To be in a healthy relationship with someone, I think you have to communicate and sometimes even that breaks down.  For my husband and I, we have had the same conversations so many times, our own personal echo chamber if you will.  After a time, things just get stale.  We used to share a lot of the same interests but over time, things have changed for both of us.  I think this world has changed and not necessarily for the better.

I am currently trying to find a way to navigate through my current circumstances and maintain a positive attitude.  I have been writing letters, writing in a journal, taking pictures, cleaning and organizing the house, doing yard work, going for walks, doing crafts, trying to eat better and get enough sleep, trying to communicate more with loved ones as coping mechanisms. Our two dogs are affected by what is going on as much as we are.  I think it must be very confusing to them.

I ran a couple of words-numbers phrases in line with this topic.  As I have mentioned before in previous posts,  I want to emphasize my interpretation of these numbers isn’t the only interpretation.  You may see something else.  You may be experiencing something else.  It’s interesting to me to see the patterns.  May be for your own experience there are other things you would add:

https://www.ridingthebeast.com/gematria-calculator/ (online calculator I use for this but I have a personal offline system also)

Energy fields emitted from a life form = 342 174/159/118/117/133/146

(one = 34, self= 42)

resonance = 94 102/156/128/141/128/141……

(why=56 141=energy exchange 28=man)

fluctuating energy levels in the types of energy consumed=575 149/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134…..

(human=57 spiral/eternal=75 way/cause=49 child=36 self=42 earth=52 one=34 animal/easy/fight/Joy/role=50 food=40 all=25)

a balanced energy diet = 155 118/117/133/146

(shared/wages=55 true love/modification/scent glands/wonderful/concentrate=118 I’m sorry/nurture/humility/upbringing=117 temptation/community/don’t give up = 133 (the=33) people matter/brain function/peace for the brain = 146 (body=46)

metabolism = 109/140

“to have a healthy metabolism” = 260 174/159/118/117/133/146

(energy=74 five = 42 nine= 42 self=42 (the five senses of the body and nine (nein) or no self)

living alone = 120 156/128/141/128/141…..

living by yourself = 221 150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125

(understanding/communication/fifty states/uncertainty/divine planning/possession = 150 feeling=58)

living with someone you are married to but feeling alone = 555 126/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134……

(God/dog/game = 26 brain/faith=44 sun/love/play/voice=54 child=36 self=42)

alone = 152

together = 98 91/76/117/133/146

(spirit=91 sharing/fiction/divorce/revenge/humans/master/species/draining/contact/example/crying/mixing/concept/losing/a cat’s life = 76)

positive attitude = 215/134

negative attitude = 183 139/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150……..

(positive = 115 negative=83 attitude=100 culture=100)

4 Sept 2019 Horse Apple Tree – Alvarado TX

2 Sept 2019 Jackie Wygant cell phone picture horse apple tree next to abandoned house near The Family Dollar Alvarado TX

The other day I was walking to the Family Dollar down the street and happened to notice this beautiful tree living near an abandoned house across the street from our local Elementary School.  I got to thinking about how nice it would be if that property could be annexed to the school for learning about plants and nature; like a nature learning center or something.  There is a large field next to it I imagined being turned into a community garden and it could also be part of the learning center.  I imagined children learning how to grow their own food and appreciating nature like I do.

https://lancaster.unl.edu/enviro/pest/nebline/hedgeapple.htm

Facts and Myths of Hedge Apples
by Dr. Barbara Ogg, Extension Educator

This article appeared in the October 2001 NEBLINE Newsletter

This time of year, hedge apples – the fruit from the Osage-orange tree – are being sold at farmer’s markets, garden centers, and other locations. Many people have heard that these fruits can be used as an insect repellent, but the truth is that many people don’t know much else about this unusual tree and its fruit.

The Tree and Its Fruit:

Osage-Orange Tree - Click on Image for Larger ViewThe Osage-orange is a small to medium-sized tree, having a short trunk and a rounded or irregular crown. The twigs are buff to orange-brown and are armed with one-half inch long spines. The stems exude a milky sap when cut. The Osage-orange is dioecious, meaning that male and female flowers are produced on separate trees. The small, green flowers appear in May or June. Female trees produce 3-to 5-inch diameter fruit which ripen in September or October and fall to the ground.

Native Habitat and Current Distribution:

The Osage-orange is native to a small area in eastern Texas, southeastern Oklahoma, and southwestern Arkansas. This region is the home of the Osage Indians which gives the tree its common name. Settlers found that the Osage-orange transplanted easily, tolerated poor soils, extreme heat, and strong winds and had no serious insect or disease problems. It was widely planted in the Midwest as a living fence because, when pruned into a hedge, it provided an impenetrable barrier to livestock. The development of barbed wire curtailed its widespread planting, but many Osage-orange trees can still be found in fence rows.

Osage-orange fence post - Click on Image for Larger viewUses of the Osage-Orange:

The wood is extremely hard, heavy, durable and shrinks or swells little compared to the wood of other trees. The wood is used for fence posts, treenails, furniture, and archery bows. In fact, many archers consider the wood of the Osage-orange to be the world’s finest wood for bows. Another common name for this tree, bodark, is from the French bios d’arc meaning “bow wood.” This tree also produces a bright yellow dye which can be extracted from the wood.

The fruit of the Osage-orange is a nuisance in the home landscape and has little value. Hedge apples are not an important source of food for wildlife as most birds and animals find the fruit unpalatable. The thorny trees do provide nesting and cover for wildlife.

The belief about the use of hedge apples for insect control is widespread and persistent. it is claimed that placing hedge apples around the foundation or inside the basement will repel or control insects. A few years ago, Iowa State University toxicologists extracted compounds from hedge apples. When concentrated, these compounds were found to repel insects.

Scientists also found that natural concentrations of these compounds in the fruit were too low to be an effective repellent. So, don’t be fooled into spending much to use hedge apples as an insect repellent.

If you decide to pick hedge apples to check out the repellency yourself or to use the fruit as a fall decoration, it would be wise to wear gloves. The milky juice present in the stems and fruit of the Osage-orange can irritate the skin.

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https://www.ridingthebeast.com/ – site I use to look at words and phrases.  It helps me learn in a different way.

horse apple tree” in the English Ordinal system equals 163

(empath – 63)

hedge apples” in the English Ordinal system equals 98

(together – 98)

Osage-Orange tree” in the English Ordinal system equals 155

(shared – 55)

7 August 2019 “Being there”

Hello to you.  I’ve been away for quite awhile again.  Lately there have been many things going on in my life that have required my attention on a personal, physical, emotional and spirit level while I am trying to heal from a recent fall.  I won’t burden you with the details.  This morning my husband and I can’t sleep again even with it being quiet and dark.  A lot on our minds, bodies and spirits these days.  I believe it is in our house and outside of our houses that affect us on every level – directly and indirectly by the very nature of how our systems are connected as living organisms.

One of the things on my mind right now is how to be there for my family and my friends and still have something left for me.  In my current condition I am not able to be there for those I love in the same capacity I have been able to in the past and I kind of beat myself up for it!  Am I being a bad friend?  A bad daughter?  A bad wife?  Then comes the “shouldn’ing” all over myself which doesn’t help!   So I ran a couple things to share with those of you who this might resonate with – those who might be feeling/going through this right now and have need of a different way to see it:

“Being there” = 93/98/91/76/117/133/146

9 = 42 = self  (a “no” self as 5 also equals 42 but I think of this as the feeling/five senses/physical self) 3 = 56 = 42/52  (“self earth”)

98 = together  91= spirit  76 = humans  33= the  46 = body

Being there for a friend = 189

1=34 =one  8=49=alive  9=42=self (add 34 + 49 + 42 = 125 and 25 = all, “a all” = 26 which = God)

Sometimes we can’t be there like we want to for a friend or how a friend might expect us to be so we can pray for them to the God/Gods of our understanding.  If you don’t like that – just even having a loving/positive thought for them.  It is different for each of us.  Sometimes we just can’t be there for someone like they think they want or need from us.  An energy greater than ourselves must step in our place for them.  For many, that is God.

Being there for family = 198

1=34=one  9=42=self 8=49=alive (add 34 + 42 + 49 = 125)

Being there for yourself = 253

2=58=feeling  5=42=self  3=56=light  (add 58 + 42 + 56 = 156) (56’s I have found, why, light out and there are more but these are a couple)

156/128/141/128/141…. = a why a man a garbage?  a why a man energy exchange.

For me personally, for the past several months, years…may be most of my life I have questioned my worth, my value….am I garbage?  Did God make a mistake by making me?  What I have had to do is find a way to make peace within myself so I don’t hate myself all the time.  People like my husband, family, my friends all seem to love and care about me but if I don’t love myself, their energies are wasted on me.  One of the hardest things I’ve ever done, still do, is tell the person in the mirror I love them.

As I age, that girl looking back at me has changed but when I look in her eyes, that little girl is still looking back at me and I can’t stop loving her.  The God I know has changed through the years – stripped down now to energetic form.  Why would God expend all that energy to make something and not love it?  The human world is full now of creations cast aside, seeming mistakes.  Are they really mistakes if God is in all of us?  Made all of us?  Who decides but God?!  These are the questions of our time.

We have all been given a set of clothes to wear in this life and underneath them is energy, children of God.  Sometimes our inner child gets lost and just wants to be comforted.  We cast about in this world to get some relief from the pain that child may be enduring and we can’t find it!  I have gone through that process so many times in my life and it was due in great part to a black, white and tan cocker spaniel named Sam that I found out nothing can fill the void that is created by loss but God.  Isn’t it ironic that God turned around is dog.  Yes, people living and dead in my life have taught me a great deal of life but with Sam there were no conditions.

I will close for now.  I am typing one-handed so can’t do this so often.  I hope something here is what you were looking for and or needed today.

 

The Wasp

 

*Seeing this today was like they were showing me, “Hey, look what my job is! I have value, I have worth!”  We used to be mean to the wasps until I took the time to learn their job in nature actually is.  From what I have personally witnessed, their purpose for existence includes trying to keep our trees healthy.  Since trees are basically the lungs of the planet, I think that’s a pretty important job!   I have read conflicting information about wasps online.  My personal experience is they are helpers and teachers.  What came through in the numbers is a pecan tree and a teacher have a pattern in common.  What I believe is we all, whatever form, are teachers, students, messages and receivers of those messages.  I believe everyone has value in one way or another.  It’s not always easy to understand what we are trying to convey to each other.  I don’t think we should give up trying!

133 – “don’t give up”

Wasp – 59/84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140…….

*remember, these are only just a few of the meanings of these numbers that I have found for myself and am sharing with you.

59’s – dragon, social, size, gather, larvae, learned

84’s – lesson, daughter, motive, “create life”

109 – struggle

40’s – food, weak

58’s – lunch, want, “eat life”, feeling

25’s – all

34’s – chance, free, heat

134 – information

50’s – easy, fight, numb

150’s – understanding, communication, positive image, energy draining, possession, pure oxygen

“The Wasp” – 92/100/162/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140……..

92’s – thinking, seasons, training, opinion, purging, relative, picture, appetite, day shift

100’s – sources, services, attitude, collecting, culture, acknowledge, accumulate, intellect, boundary

62’s – taking, riches, behaves, noise, hearing, germs, humane, queen, disease, favor, plasma, choices

162’s – “break in routine,” “eyes of the sun,” “to have conscience”

44’s – brain, talk

144 – disruption

54’s – love, sun, voice, chemical, health, acting, breath, bodies

154’s – comprehension, “a feeling process,” “point of view,” autonomous

36’s – child, bite, heard, asp, agree

136’s – evaporation, “life experience,” “human nature,” “mixed signals,” “speaking voice”

42’s – self, new, gift, balanced, rain, war, female, rebel

142’s – profiteering, “we are all related,” temperature, “food is energy ,” “energy language,” brain trust, life purpose,

52’s – earth, seeds, caring, speak, heart, raise, create, birds, crop,

152’s – amber tree resin, positive drama, positive being,

pecan tree – 87/114/128/141/128/141……….

87- person, truth, roots, justice

pecan – 39/98/91/76/117/133/146

98 – killer bees (I found this value trying to figure out why people may have a fear of bees/wasps.  Remember those old Killer bee television shows and movies?  When I was a very small girl I can remember drinking a can of soda without realizing a bee was in the can and I got stung.  I was pretty freaked out!  It wasn’t the bee’s fault but a “seed of fear” was planted that I had to actively overcome through time.  I did this through trying to understand them instead of thinking they were all bad. The same principle I have used towards other insects and life forms to include people.  It’s not easy to do but for me personally, it has been worth trying to do.)

76 – humans

117’s – nurture, “I’m sorry,” dissection, projecting, “broken earth,” humility, upbringing, occupation, statement, cultivated, heartbroken, water falls (If you look at a pecan it looks like a human brain in the shell and they are considered a healthy food for the brain). http://www.alzheimersweekly.com/2016/11/pecans-provide-brain-boost.html

tree – 48/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150……….

https://www.lung.org/ – The American Lung Association website

https://www.arborday.org/ – The Arbor Day Foundation website

helpers – 83/105/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150……..

83’s – wisdom, nerves, non-biased

teacher – 60/116/120/156/128/141/28/141…….

“make peace” = 60

22 June 2019 Focus

Hello to you.  This morning has been a bit rough for me.  I found out some upsetting news about the health of my neighbors and I found myself feeling very sad and powerless.  What could I do but cry with them?  Give them  hug?  Reassurance?  Pass on their situation to people who I know are prayer/meditation warriors that could add their names to their list for daily intentions?

After breakfast I realized there was something else I could do not only for them but for myself.  I lay down on the grass and talked and cried with the one I love so much, the Earth.  I curled up into a ball like a small child and let it all go and was comforted just like being held in loving arms.  I have done this before.  It’s hard to remember sometimes, when you are all upset and stuck in a moment what to do or who to talk to about such things and get any kind of relief.

Some people talk to priests and people of the church, some call family, some talk to their pets, some people will dig deeper into work, exercise, hobbies…distractions and some people do destructive things because they just don’t know what else to do about what they are feeling.

Feelings get so big that you might feel like you could get lost in them and not find your way out.  I’ve done all the things I’ve mentioned but the thing I did this morning has been the best for me.  The Earth and sky is “big enough” to carry these things I take on sometimes.  I feel bad dumping on other living beings with this kind of pain because it’s “so big.”  I know how it feels when it happens to me.  Most times, like this morning with our neighbors, I feel so small.  I feel powerless and sad!  Sometimes it’s so strong I just want to jump out of my skin!

The other thing I realized was this, and I ran the number values on it and the answers I got matched up for me:

“Focus on what you love, what you want to happen, don’t give power to what you don’t want in this world

(Focus = 64 112/126/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150)

(Grass/true/mercy/chosen =64) (Vulnerable = 112) (Brain=44) (Love=54) (Child=36) (Self/War/balanced=42)(Earth/Caring=52) (Information=134)

(Communication/Understanding/Fifty States = 150) (Purple heart = 140) (Quality of Life = 158) (All = 25)

Ordinal number value: 1109  174/159/118/117/133/146

Two people suffering with a difficult situation, a “90/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle” set of circumstances.  Some “74’s” are energy, Jesus, Lucifer, Alvarado, trauma, talking, cross, cloud and parts to name just a couple I’ve found in my journey with this system.  I also turned to my Mom and Dad, a 47 and 74 in the number’s to ask for their prayers.  The number 47 is also the value for Time.  The number 59 is Wish, cruel and spare.  The number 118 is witnessed.  The number 117 “I’m sorry.” The number 133 condensation…tears.  The number 146 relationship.  These two neighbors have been so good to us ever since we moved here and those two are like peas and carrots together.  It just hurts to see them going through this.  I want the very best for them both.

So again this morning I had to remember the question/answer/phrase I use when there are bad storms and I want them to go away:

What do you want to happen?  Focus on what  you want to happen not what you don’t.”

The Ordinal number value for this = 859/133/146.

“Who did I cry on? Who comforted me in my sorrow? The Earth.  I lay down and wept and was comforted.”

Ordinal number value for this = 911 110/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

Comforted = 99 84/109/140/158/125/134/150

(Thirteen = 99) (Woman = 66, a right side up 99)

Emergency number = 168 135/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

(In United States you call 911 for help. Most people use a telephone or cell phone)

(human = 57) human being = 94) (humans = 76) (planet = 68) (people = 69) (psychologist =168)

Good health = 95 84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

“Turn a frown into a smile and turn the frown upside down” = 598/133/146

Powerless = 132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

(Life = 32)

Powerful = 116 120/156/128/141/128

(Eternity = 116)

Thought = 99 84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Power = 77 130/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Feeling = 58 91/76/117/133/146

(A Feeling = 59)

Strength = 111 102/156/128/141/128

(Computer=111) (Why = 56) (Man=28) (Garbage=41) (Energy exchange=141)

Weakness = 97/107/163/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Strong = 93 98/91/76/117/133/146

Weak = 40 124/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Emotion = 91 76/117/133/146

“To show Emotion” = 191 110/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

Thanks for stopping by today!  Hopefully something here will resonate with you at some level.  Writing this helps me work through my feelings about painful experiences and this system often helps give me insights I didn’t have before I began exploring it.

19 June 2019 “People Message”

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well today.  I have started exploring some things using sumerian gematra values in addition to the ordinal on this website: https://www.ridingthebeast.com/gematria-calculator/ and this morning, with just a few key words, saw some pretty interesting patterns I wanted to share with those who have been interested in what I’m doing….following along so to speak.  I have my own personal reference for key words that showed up to me here.  I am providing a couple at the end of this, but I encourage you to look at this for yourself and see what it says to you personally.  The main reason I do this is for that reason, it’s a conversation.

Words (sumerian) = 474  1110/996/816/810/882/936/900/1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996….repeating pattern

Words (ordinal) = 79  107/163/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Numbers (sumerian) = 552 852/894/906/948/906…..repeating pattern

Numbers (ordinal) = 92 100/162/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Phrases (sumerian) = 516 768/996/816/810/882/936/900/1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996…..repeating pattern

Phrases (ordinal) = 86 101/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Meaning (sumerian) = 378 1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996…..repeating pattern

Meaning (ordinal) = 63  108/147/159/118/117/133/146

Reason (sumerian) = 432 1044/1308/1218/1050/1224/1260/1248/1206/1248….repeating pattern

Reason (ordinal) = 72 123/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Message (sumerian) = 414 924/960/948/906/948/906….repeating pattern

Message (ordinal) = 69 94/102/156/128/141

Communication (sumerian) = 900 1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996…..repeating pattern

Communication (ordinal) = 150 140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Memory (sumerian) = 534 948/906/948/906….repeating pattern

Memory (ordinal) = 89  91/76/117/133/146

Remember (sumerian) = 474 1110/996/816/810/882/936/900/1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996….repeating pattern

Remember (ordinal) =  79  107/163/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

Conversation (sumerian) = 930 972/990/888/882/936/900/1020/1320/1272/1290/1188/996…..repeating pattern

Conversation (ordinal) = 155 118/117/133/146

“Do not forget me”  (ordinal) = 157/141/128/141

“Do not forget me” (sumerian) = 942 960/948/906/948

people (sumerian) = 414 924/960/948/906//948/906…..repeating pattern

message (sumerian) = 414

people (ordinal) = 69 94/102/156/128/141/128….repeating pattern

message (ordinal) = 69


Some key words/phrases that may or may not help you comprehend the above information*

*it’s important to remember I have only found just a few of these so far and I would be taking away from the adventure if I just gave them all to you!  If you decide and or have decided to do this for yourself, you will find more word/number values as you go through the experience.  I encourage you to make up your own personal key code list for reference.  Part of the wonder of this for me is finding the values during the process.  One word/number value will often lead me to another and as that happens, as I’ve shown above with the repeating patterns, it’s interesting to see the connections/associations.

I think you will find, as I have, sometimes as you go through a train of thought using this, a message will be there specifically for you and no one else.  This process is helping me work through the chronic trust issues I have and I am sharing to help others who might be going through the same thing and haven’t found anything else to help them.

This is not something I have chosen to “monetize/commoditize” for profit and that’s why I haven’t and don’t intend to do so if at all possible.

As I’ve stated before, this system has been around a very long time!  I’m very much a novice yet about this system of communication.  I think I’m making good progress considering I have never had any formal training/teaching given to me about it.    I’m kind of glad I haven’t had formal training.  I have to wonder if that’s why it’s going the way it has? I feel like sometimes when we have formal training about things of this nature we can get kind of narrow minded about it.  In places I used to be narrow minded about religion/spirituality, this system has opened me up to new thoughts and patterns.

I think a basic foundation that is important with this whole process is learning the alphabet, learning to read, learning how to count/do basic math and for me personally, I have explored the Bible and other spiritual writings by various authors of various walks of faith and spirituality.     

all/fame = 25

God/dog/card/game/lie/eat/ate/bear/tea = 26

feel/read/man = 28

due/baby/peace/Bible/day/make/date = 30

agenda, life, again = 32

halo/child/hair/bite/heard = 36

garbage/sail/alien/cow/fuck/help/blind/awake/key = 41  (yes, I included THAT word)

anger/milk/bath/bridge/denial/leader/cheese/cool = 45

blonde/earth/seeds/caring/speak/what/thaw/hobby = 52

sun/love/play/voice/eyes = 54

horn/warm/cloud/satan/move/higher/wire = 55

drive/star/feeling/fragile/glass/Father/lunch/night/asleep/bedtime/illegal/reading = 58

color/carpet/traffic/skill/divine = 63

music/white/broken/backyard/poker/cleaning/random/alphabet = 65

woman/beasts/family/happy/walks/twin/freedom/relics = 66

ways/house/waste/right/married/sweat/war dog/key code/planet = 68

animals/people/husband/slow/wealth/fatigue/message = 69

machines/quiet/money/singer/discord/charisma/marriage/school/stuff/boredom/crochet/world = 72

clouds/energy/nuclear/Jesus/Lucifer/trauma = 74

feelings/power/Christ/things/glory/teapot/store/forbidden/wearing/temper = 77

nature/listen/remember/zones/watches/mother/should/relocate/super/disobey/ground/loving/murder/your/bribery/addiction = 79

filthy/behavior/rebirth/plastic/empathy/gullible/handyman/letter/short/fighting/laptop/learning = 80

wanting/allergies/ghosts/policeman/exercise = 88

courier/insects/memory/religion/location/disappear/anatomy = 89

thirteen/egocentric/judgement/fortune/tradesmen/sickness/answers/open minded = 99

estrogen/suspect/expecting/counting = 103

conscious/unfaithful/negative image/witnessed = 118

counseling/sympathy/mentality/expensive= 119

courageous/surprise/examination/super girl/mystery/previous/”I don’t know”/resistant/solution/spiritual = 125

copper wire = 128

commandments/information/combinations = 134

energy exchange = 141

understanding/communication/fifty states/uncertainty/divine planning/positive image = 150

comprehension/copper tools = 154

critical thinking = 167

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gematria

Gematria /ɡəˈmtriə/ (Hebrew: .mw-parser-output .script-hebrew,.mw-parser-output .script-Hebr{font-size:1.15em;font-family:”Ezra SIL”,”Ezra SIL SR”,”Keter Aram Tsova”,”Taamey Ashkenaz”,”Taamey David CLM”,”Taamey Frank CLM”,”Frank Ruehl CLM”,”Keter YG”,”Shofar”,”David CLM”,”Hadasim CLM”,”Simple CLM”,”Nachlieli”,”SBL BibLit”,”SBL Hebrew”,Cardo,Alef,”Noto Serif Hebrew”,”Noto Sans Hebrew”,”David Libre”,David,”Times New Roman”,Gisha,Arial,FreeSerif,FreeSans} גמטריא or גימטריה, plural גמטראות or גמטריאות, gematriot)[1] is an alphanumeric code of assigning a numerical value to a name, word or phrase based on its letters. People who practice gematria believe that words with identical numerical values may bear some relation to each other or to the number itself. A single word can yield multiple values depending on the cipher used.

Gematria originated as an Assyro-Babylonian-Greek system of alphanumeric code or cipher that was later adopted into Jewish culture. Similar systems have been used in other languages and cultures: earlier, the Greek isopsephy, and later, derived from or inspired by Hebrew gematria, Arabic abjad numerals, and English gematria.

A well-known example of Hebrew gematria is the word chai (“alive”), which is composed of two letters that (using the assignments in the Mispar gadol table shown below) add up to 18. This has made 18 a “lucky number” among the Jewish people. Gifts of money in multiples of 18 are very popular.[2]

13 June 2019 Looking at Time in the numbers

Hello to you.  I haven’t been in for a bit – doing lots of queries with the letters to numbers bit these days.  Today my husbands friend had a good question that I decided to explore and thought anyone who is interested in this might want to see what came up!  So what happens when I do queries of this nature is I am basically brainstorming and doing associations between things that are related to the subject.  It’s often surprising and delightful to see the “answers” or may be better yet to say “clues” that come through.

So here goes; the question was:  “What is time and how does it work?”

What is time and how does it work ? = 331/146

— what I saw in this result was this:  The 3, to me, is “yes, no may be” aspect of existence.  How we question ourselves when faced with a person, place, thing or situation we are uncertain about.  In this query it would be time.  The 146 doesn’t convert to anything else.   “One engaged with part of their brain, all the vices (7 deadly sins) but one.”  If you add 1 plus 46 it equals 47, which is the number value for time.

— “the yes, no, may be” for the light and shadow of one” = 396/150/140/158/125/134/150

— people=69  communication and uncertainty = 150  light= 56  shadow= 70

This didn’t really help us answer the question did it?  So what I did is started taking a look at a bunch of variables, mind you hardly all inclusive, that came to my mind and it was interesting to see what  came up.  I noticed that there are of course reoccurring patterns and 134, which I recently discovered was information and 150 which is fifty states, communication and uncertainty come up in almost all of them.  As is common for me when I do these, specific number values came up that spoke directly to me.  When you do this for yourself, should you choose, you may see the same.

To begin I have provided a “ledger” I use to help me make sense of what comes up without having a specific word meaning.  Keep in mind, with all the words in the English language there are many variations that can produce similar numeric values.  More than one word or sequence of words can equal the same thing and may or may not have the same meaning or association if that make sense?!  I would have to be a powerful computer or at this for a much longer time to find all the combinations!  Part of my enjoyment of this process is when a new value will come to me for a number that I had a previous association.  For example 150 was just fifty states for a time and now it’s communication and uncertainty just showed up this week!

1 – person, animal, object etc.

2 – process

3 – yes, no, may be

4 – brain

5 – sensation/senses/physical aspects

6 – cycle, all the “7” in check but 1

7 – vices, too much, preferences, purpose, motive

8 – system of eternity which can seem slow and the racetrack which can seem fast

9 – no? yes? unsure, uncertainty, resistance, insecurity  *interesting to note nine is nein, or “no” in German

10 – Zero = 64 Body = 46 observatory process  spirit = 91/10

7 Vices = Pride=52, Envy=66, Wrath=70, Sloth=74, Greed=39, Gluttony=134 and Lust=72

Moderation = 114  Balance=38  controlling yourself = 260  motive = 84  purpose = 110  intention = 120  expectation = 132  resentment = 133

 

(As always, feel free to add variables of your own.  I didn’t add these all up like I normally do this time but you can.  It’s interesting to see what final summary comes of many different variables.  Sometimes there will be direct correlation to one or more of the variables in the query.)

Brainstorm (129/134/150):

 

sunrise = 105/140/158/125/134/150

sunset = 98/91/76/117/133/146

time and the position of the sun = 324/174/159/118/117/133/146

time is a process for one in eternity which is either slow or fast like a racetrack = 793/163/142/152/134/150

earth = 52  information= 134 communication/uncertainty = 150

a racetrack is sometimes in a figure eight design = 424/178/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

provocation = 148 – this one came up today!

(the number 78 = childhood, the number 8 on its side looks like the eternity symbol and ate/eat = 26/8)

twenty four hour clock = 273/179/141/128/141

(man=28, 141=energy exchange and 41=garbage!)

sundial = 80/113/124

(racetrack and behavior = 80)

chronological time = 179/141/128/141

linear time = 106/150/140/158/125/134/150

rotation of the earth and time = 184/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

the flow of time and space around a person = 381/139/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

(what was funny about this is Jackie=39 and Life=32!)

pace = 25/100/162/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

(earth = 52/100  brain=44  54=sun/love

speed = 49/102/156/128/141

(light=56)

world time = 119/110/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/1/50

clock = 44/120/156/128/141

brain = 44/120/156/128/141

thinking time is passing by quickly = 377/186/135/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

believing time is passing by quickly = 370/185/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

timeline= 87/114/128/141

time standing still = 207/187/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150

to stop time = 152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

counter clockwise = 196/128/141

counter clockwise rotation = 308/169/128/141

counter clockwise rotation of the earth = 447/185/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150

brain = 44 time = 47  “brain time” = 91/76/117/113/146

to go forward in time = 212/150/140/158/125/134/150

to go backward in time = 190/140/158/125/134/150

backward = 63  child = 36

to stand still in time = 235/156/128/141/128

time stasis = 134/150

time travel = 125 134/150

all = 25 travel = 78  childhood=78

to relive a childhood through your child = 397/163/142/152/134/150

mistakes = 97

giving you child the childhood you were not given = 512/134/150

sparing your child the childhood you lived = 423/174/159/118/117/133/146

Alvarado, Jesus, Lucifer, Larry are some 74’s

learning from your own childhood and not repeating the same mistakes with your own children = 936/150

child = 36 learning = 80 behavior= 80

experiencing the passing of time through watching children grow up = 670/181/117/133/146

experiencing the passage of time through watching children grow up = 653/150

passage = 68  planet = 68

to give birth = 135/132

life = 32

to witness life = 176/151/110/132

hysterectomy = 176 (I had this happen to me in August 2005)

to witness death = 182/141/128

to experience life = 171/133/146

to experience death = 177/164/146

power = 77 Christ = 77

*in high school I wrote a poem titled Lady time and this progression made me this of it

Lady Time = 89/91/76/117/133/146

Schmidt, my maiden name = 76

“Lady Time sits with her hour glass and watches as time passes her by” = 669/146

woman = 66 people= 69

“she is surprised at all the time she’s managed to waste as the world spins by her with such extreme haste” = 1028/205/164/146

waste = 68  world = 72 haste = 53

(old phrase this made me remember from my Grandparents, “haste makes waste” = 170/163/142/152/134/150)

 

I hope this resonates with someone besides this numbers to letter nerd I’ve become these days.  This system came to me during a time when I didn’t even know what Gematria was.  Just the nudge to take a look at words by putting a number with the alphabet and see what they said.  Having trust issues to the degree I was having and yet have at times, this gave me some direction, relief and insight.  Thank you for stopping by.