11 May 2018 Nature’s Pharmacy

Hello to you today.  Just stopping in to say hello.  Yesterday I received a box of essential oils I ordered using up the rest of a birthday gift card.  I am very pleased with them and think it was money well spent!  There are a lot of different companies that sell oils like this and some are better than others.  When I can afford it, I buy Young Living brand oils from my friend who is a distributor.  We’ve been using the ones we got yesterday in the  diffuser we picked up at Michael’s (it’s great, doesn’t require a filter!).  With both of our allergies acting up right now, having the diffuser going has helped out.  I of course geeked out and did the numbers for the oils that came in the kit and I wasn’t surprised to see several came out to the 3 cycle (life, death and rebirth).  My main “go-to” oil is mostly Peppermint.    Do you have a favorite?

 

1 18 15 13 1 20 8 5 18 1 16 25

A R O M A T H E R A P Y = 141 = (3 cycle)

5 19 19 5 14 20 9 1 12   15 9 12

E S S E N T I A L             O I L = 140

5 21 3 1 12 25 16 20 21 19

E U C A L Y P T U S = 143

6 18 1 14 11 9 14 3 5 14 19 5

F R A N K I N C E N S E = 119

12 1 22 5 14 4 5 18

L A V E N D E R = 81 (9 cycle)

12 5 13 15 14 7 18 1 19 19

L E M O N G R A S S = 123 (3 cycle)

16 5 16 16 5 18 13 9 14 20

P E P P E R M I N T = 132 (3 cycle)

18 15 19 5 13 1 18 25

R O S E M A R Y = 114 (3 cycle)

19 23 5 5 20  15 18 1 14 7 5

S W E E T      O R A N G E = 132 (3 cycle)

20 5 1 20 18 5 5

TEA   T R E E = 74

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10 May 2018 Still processing Avengers Infinity War

9 May 2018 – this mess of images is me still trying to process Avengers Infinity War I think and the latest episode of Wakfu!

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you well.  I’m still processing the latest Avengers film, as this mess of a drawing shows.  Yesterday my husband and I talked more about it and Loki came up.  They keep getting rid of him or cutting him from films and I don’t understand why!  Is it that he’s too much of  a scene stealer?  Too likeable?!  It’s not like Tom Hiddleston can just come back as another random character either.  Sigh.  I really like Tom’s Loki.  We also talked about Chris Hemsworth’s performance which was very impressive.  I felt his story was one of the best developed in the film.  I can’t imagine anybody else being Thor really.

DAMN THE SNAP!

I had kind of an a-ha before bed last night thinking about the film.  I have been figuring out for myself that there really isn’t much of a difference between hero’s and villains.  The only real difference is motive and perspective.  Heck the name Thanos, in the numbers comes up to the same numbers as Jesus Christ, 77!  It’s almost like somewhere in the cosmos the writers for this film decided to give me a middle finger about my thoughts on this.

By turning a bunch of folks to ash we are left with the question, what will happen without one side of the equation?!  What truths will be revealed?  What will the Marvel Universe be with just Tony Stark and a handful of others to protect the planet?  Well there is always the DC folks lol….can you imagine that phone call with Tony’s flip phone (we laughed during the movie about this because Tony’s phone is just like my husband’s flip phone)?

“Hey uh Sup….yeah it’s me Tony….we got a bit of a problem.  Get the Flash on your way over.”   Is it finally time for an epic cross-universe effort between Marvel and DC?  May be DC would finally make bank on a great film?   We’ll see.

 

9 May 2018 Avengers movie (Spoilers), numbers, drawing and Wakfu (animated series)

Hello, hope this finds you well.   My allergies are saying hello big time these past couple of days.  Tis that time of year for nature to be doing things that make my immune system fuss.

Well to celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary, we went to see Avengers Infinity War.  My husband enjoyed it more than I did.  What I’m struggling with is going to the theater, holding my bladder for 2  plus hours and leaving the theater overwhelmed, sad and slightly disappointed.  Twist the eye of Agamotto (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_of_Agamotto) back to our anniversary in 2012!  We went and saw the first Avenger’s movie on that day and it was a totally different story!  We came away from the theater so pumped up and excited!

8 May 2012 – we went to see the first Avengers film for our wedding anniversary date!

What I’m seeing happen to these Marvel movies is what happened to the Harry Potter franchise for me.  The first couple of movies were balanced and “lighter” and then just progressively got really dark and depressing to the point I didn’t even go to the theater to see them!   When I actually take the time to go a movie theater to have that experience, I want it to be a positive experience and it just hasn’t been for several years for me.  We actually heard people crying in the theater when we left it yesterday!

To be fair, there was ALOT going on in this movie.  I will probably have to watch the movie a couple more times to continue to process all of it.  I had to do that with Dr. Strange.  I didn’t like that film either on the first go around.  They managed to squeeze in like 30 plus main characters and added a few extras like Peter Dinklage’s ginormous dwarf to the mix (we loved that!)  There were quips that made me laugh out loud that did help break up some of the tension.  It helped me a lot when the Guardians of the Galaxy folks showed up in the film but even that got really dark.  I mean they killed Gamora! BOO!  (Zoe Saldana: https://movieweb.com/zoe-saldana-hollywood-walk-of-fame-star/)!  I actually got goosebumps when they went to Wakanda which is Black Panther’s world.

The end of the film was surreal for me and I honestly didn’t feel anything about it.   I guess it’s because I know that all the writers have to do is rewind time or come up with some paradox and everyone will be resurrected.  Seeing Thanos in his happy moment at the end,  made me think of Marlon Brando from Apocalypse Now for some reason.  There he was all peaceful while we the viewers know countless lives, to include those of superhero’s we care about, have been reduced to literal dust.

Apocalypse Now: Marlon Brando Horror Speech

I was of course curious what the “numbers” would say about some words pertaining to the film:

1 22 5 14 7 5 18

A V E N G E R= 72 (9 cycle)

6 9 3 20 9 15 14

F I C T I O N = 76 = 13 = 4 = 2 = 1

1 14 20 1 7 15 14 9 19 20

A N T A G O N I S T = 120 = 3 cycle

16 18 15 20 1 7 15 14 9 19 20

P R O T A G O N I S T = 154 = 10 = 1

8 5 18 15

H E R O = 46 = 10 = 1

22 9 12 12 1 9 14

V I L L  A  I N = 79 = 16 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 = 4 = 2= 1

13 1 18 22 5 12

M A R V E L = 71 = 8 = 4 = 2 = 1

20 8 1 14 15 19

T H A N O S = 77 = 14 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 = 4=2=1

9 14 6 9 14 9 20 25

I N F I N I T Y  = 106 = 7

23 1 18

W A R = 42 = 6 = 3 cycle (3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 = 3 and back again)

8 May 2018 – drawing I did yesterday that kind of correlates to Wakfu anime we’ve been watching. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wakfu_(TV_series)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wakfu_(TV_series)

WAKFU Series – Trailer

8 May 2018 Poem for my somebody

Hello to you.  It’s a beautiful morning and we have plans today to help us celebrate our wedding anniversary.  I am reminiscing a bit this morning.  Time goes so fast when it comes to the “good parts” doesn’t it?!

This was taken at Universal Studios in Florida, Jan 2005. Our first real dates together. We want to get back there to explore Harry Potter world soon!

I wrote this little poem for my sweetheart.  We have a “theme” of trees for our anniversaries.
For my husband 8 May 2018 – Jackie

Tangled, winding, ancient and green

A path to the middle

A stretch to the unseen

You woven into me, me woven into you

In the end it’s all looking up

Into the ancient blue

 

My friend EasyWeimaraner reminded me that today is an important for another reason:

Victory in Europe Day, generally known as V-E Day, VE Day or simply V Day, was the public holiday celebrated on 8 May 1945 to mark the formal acceptance by the Allies of World War II of Nazi Germany’s unconditional surrender of its armed forces. It thus marked the end of World War II in Europe.

 

7 May 2018 Anniversary

Hi there.  Hope this finds you well.  Todays theme of words and numbers is in honor of my husband and I celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary tomorrow.  It’s interesting to me how two different words for the same thing, like wedding and marriage,  can come to different outcomes in the numeric realm.  The more I do this, the more I am beginning to see that when the 9 cycle comes up, it’s usually not a positive thing!  Speaking from experience and what I’ve seen in especially America,  marriage can come to be quite a negative arrangement!

How my husband and I began back in FFXI playing Prinzessa and Efess

As with everything, marriage is all what you make of it.  My husband and I have certainly been testing these past few years and yet we are still together!  I tell him he’s already got his angel suite putting up with me!

1  14 14 9 22 5 18 19 1 18 25

A N N I V E R S A R Y = 146 = 1 +4+6=11 can go straight to 11, 2 then 1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 =5+5=10 go straight to 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 +5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1.

23 5 4 4  9 14 7

W E D D I N G= 66 = 6 +6 = 12  1+2 = 3 divided by 2 =1.5 1+5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

13 1 18 18 9 1 7 5

M A R R I A G E = 72 = 7 +2 = 9 = 9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 4 +5 = 9 cycle (always comes back to 9)

21 14 9 15 14

U N I O N = 73 = 7 +3 = 10 = 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

8 1 14 4 6 1  19 20 9 14 7

H A N D F A S T I N G  (Kyle and I had considered this in lieu of formal marriage) = 103= 1 + 3 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

https://www.brides.com/story/handfasting-wedding-ceremony-101

2 18 9 4 5

B R I D E = 38 = 3 +8 = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2  divided by 2 = 1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 5 + 5 = 10 = 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 2 + 5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 +5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1.  (I prefer the most direct approach)

7 18 15 15 13

G R O O M = 68 = 6 + 8 = 14 = 1 + 4 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 2 + 5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

8 21 19 2 1 14 4

H U S B A N D = 69 = 6 + 9 = 15 = 1 + 5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 1 + 5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

23 9 6 5

W I F E = 43 = 4 + 3 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

 

 

6 May 2018 Drawing and more fun with words and their numeric values

6 May 2018 – drawing I did this morning.

Just stopping in to say hello.  I’ve really been having an adventure with the numeric value of English words.  It’s been interesting to find that the values of different words, meaning the same thing, like Pyramid and Triangle, could come out to the same exact value!

Words that I explored the numeric value of this weekend and got some surprises:

4 May 2018 – I was having “trust issues” recently and it came to me to look at things from a numeric perspective. I decided to look at words, break them down into numeric values and see what the word meant after that. It helped me.

19 25 18 21 16

S Y R U P  = 99/18/9/2=4.5=9 (cycle)

19 21 7 1 18

S U G A R = 66/12/3/2=1.5 =6/2= 3  (cycle)

It’s interesting that both words, both addictive substances, have a “cycle” aspect.  If you flip either 99 or 66 over and they are the same number too!

16 25 18 1 13 9 4

P Y R A M I D = 86/14/5

20 18 9 1 14 7 12 5

T R I A N G L E = 86/14/5

8 21 13 1 14

H U M A N= 57/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

20 18 5 5

T R E E= 48/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

*3 I think of cycle as life, death and rebirth or a number that keeps coming back to itself even after you divide it in half.

 

 

4 May 2018 Sleeping, Dreaming and Healing

Just a note to say hello before the weekend.  We woke up to thunder, lightning and much needed rain this morning.  As I write, it continues to rain. We really needed it so I am grateful for it.

This kind of weather does make me just want to stay in bed!   Lately that’s all I’ve been wanting to do is sleep!  My therapist and I agreed this morning it’s probably just my body healing after what I went through recently.  That last round of a new medication really messed me up!  Ironically, speaking of the healing power of sleep, last night I had a vivid dream of helping a man a woman with the balancer/healing wands I’ve shared about.  In the dream I taught them to make the sea salt GANS for themselves.  It would be nice to think that it wasn’t just a dream and actual people may have been helped somehow!

The dream world is very interesting for me because my mind will incorporate elements of my real world into the dream world.  Sometimes I don’t want to wake up and want to just stay in the dream world.  Have you ever had one of those dreams that made you feel that way?

4 May 2018 – I was having “trust issues” recently and it came to me to look at things from a numeric perspective. I decided to look at words, break them down into numeric values and see what the word meant after that. It helped me.  I don’t know if this will make sense to anyone else but it might!

I decided to play the numbers game with the words dream, sleep and heal.   I doubt what I’ve been doing with this unique, but it is for me!  It has been very interesting!  Sometimes I have to wonder that if the numeric value of a word is odd,  can there actually be a positive motive for it’s existence?  Did the person who created the word to describe something like sleep know in numeric terms it would come out to represent a cyclic pattern?  Or is that evidence of a  power greater than ourselves at work?  The more I explore the numeric value of certain words, the more it seems possible.  What do you think?

4   18  5  1  13

D  R  E  A  M = 41=5/2=2.5=7/2=3.5=8/2=4/2=2/2=1

(interesting that Dream comes back to 1 or to self as I perceive it.  No one knows if you have had a dream except yourself.  There is no evidence of it even if someone is monitoring your brainwaves)

19 12 5 5  16

S  L  E  E  P = 57 = 12 = 3 (cycle) 3/2=1.5=6/2=3

(sleep is actually a repeating cycle sort of thing.  You have morning, noon and night.  In the patterns of sleep you are either awake, dozing or actually asleep.)

8  5   1  12

H  E  A  L = 26 = 8/2 = 4/2=2/2 = 1

(healing comes out to an “even” motive number from the start and when broken down comes back to self or the value of one.  Ultimately, with healing, we are the ones who benefit right?)

*The reason I divide the number by 2 is like taking a look at something with each side of ourselves if that makes sense.

“I am surrounded by rain, thunder and lightning and yet I have traveled without leaving my bed!  Am I inside or outside of my own head?”

 

1 May 2018 Michael The General

Hello to you.   Yesterday I was drawing with my compass and this message came forth with it about the angel Michael.  As I thought about him,  he came across as a sort of General.  Can you imagine what it would be like to be God’s literal “wing man?!”

30 April 2018 – I started by using the compass and this is what came forth for me about the angel Michael, a sort of General.

The reason Michael often comes to my mind is my spiritual background.  I grew up Lutheran and then Roman Catholic for many years.   These days I don’t go to traditional church services etc. but there are aspects of my spiritual journey I have held on to.  The concept of angels is definitely one of them!   I have had experiences in my life where I believe angels have definitely been watching out for me!   There is great power in personal belief.

“In late medieval Christianity, Michael, together with Saint George, became the patron saint of chivalry and is now also considered the patron saint of police officers, paramedics, firefighters and the military.[33][84]

My Dad was a policeman when he was a young man and I’d like to think he was being watched over by Michael all those years!  That’s probably why Michael comes to mind a lot when I hear a siren go off nearby.  I am always worried about all those connected to that sound!  In many cases it’s a policeman or woman, a fire fighter or an ambulance driver….first responders to the scene of usually some persons worst day.  When I hear a siren go off, I try to just say a quick prayer that everything will be ok.

Divine beings, or angels like Michael transcend Christianity.  When you take the time to look, it’s interesting to find how many different walks of faith have angels or divine beings within them.  I am sharing some links to other information if your interested to learn more:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deva_(Buddhism)beings from Buddhism that are like angels in other walks of faith.

http://www.paganspath.com/meta/angels.htminteresting article about how angels are not unique to just Christianity

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michael_(archangel)a lot of information about Michael here.  This angel seems to cross boundaries between different walks of faith.  When I did the “numbers” for this name, it came to a total of 51, which becomes 6, which divided into 2 becomes 3 which then becomes the trinity or a cycle.  The word angel comes to a numeric value of 39, which is 12 which is also 3! 

http://moonatnoon.com/puzzles/reference/a1b2z26.html (something I initially looked at when I decided to start using the numeric value of the alphabet to examine words and their meanings.  I use this system a lot now.  It’s amazing to see a more logical view of words we use in the English language.  This system, for me, helps bridge the gaps I sometimes have between my faith and reality.  Unlike people and words can do sometimes, numbers don’t lie!  I don’t know if this would work for other languages but it would be interesting if it did!)

A cycle is a  repeating pattern.  It makes sense to me that angels and a being like Michael,  created by human beings, would end up in this pattern.  Sometimes our faith is tested or we have doubt.  We will literally “cycle” around on a journey to either come back to believing or discarding our faith all together.     

Have you ever had an encounter with someone who seemed like an angel or divine being?  In the realm of the God of my understanding, energy, pretty much anything goes I think!

Matthew 7:7

Ask, Seek, Knock

7“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

 

29 April 2018 Who should get the “credit” for creation?

Hello to you.  I’m up early this morning and was thinking about something that has come to me before.  Who gets the “credit” for what we create in this world?  Credit can be in the context of just pats on the back or accolades.  Credit can also mean, in our modern world,  financial support.  When I create, I’m not really looking for either, it used to, but not anymore.  The reason this came up in my thoughts?  I was I was going to try to put my initials and date on the drawings I’m sharing today and realized that it really doesn’t matter all that much!  They don’t belong to me really, they belong to a power greater than myself.  They belong to the God of my understanding, energy and energy is everyone and everything….the collective consciousness.

When I do something creative, I feel like I’m tapping into the collective consciousness.  After all, I my opinion, there really isn’t such a thing as an original idea just a reinterpretation of one that has already come before.  Even what I am writing at this moment doesn’t really belong to me in a sense.  Only when my ego needs a stroke do I really care about such things!  Sometimes I can be pretty hard on myself.  When I get like that, my self-esteem plummets pretty low.  I will sometimes look for a source outside of myself to somehow lift myself up.  Ironically, this was the driving force behind me using Facebook to share my drawings and stuff!

Since I seldom turn a profit for what I channel aka “create”, I think that’s about as pure as it gets.  Why should I get hung up on labeling my work?  The only reason that comes to mind, is kind of like from that Big Eyes movie when the husband tried to take credit and actually profit from his wife’s work.  The karmic resolution to that took place in a courtroom.  The judge put the husband and wife to work at blank canvas painting and the husband was unable to recreate his wife’s paintings.

Amy Adams and Margaret Keane tell Big Eyes Movie Story (I wonder if all the folks involved with this film, to include Margaret, receive money for sales of this film?  Not quite sure how that works.)

So should I consider copywriting everything I do?  I guess if I decided that I was going to try and make a living doing what I do but what a struggle that would be!  Whenever I have tried to make money doing something it has often turned into a negative thing.  I have very few positive experiences with making money for what I have made.  The only ways  it has been positive is when I do something for a gift or someone has asked me to make something and they provided the financial support and or materials for me to do it.  I think making things and churning them out for profit would be very pretty empty for me.  Something else I’ve realized, like blogging here for example, as soon as I upload anything into this artificial collective consciousness, the internet, I give away any all the relevance of ownership in my opinion.  Anyone can save my pictures to their hard drive and “make them their own” as I’ve done with other artists work.

Why do I create?  What is my motivation?  My motivation is most often having the feeling I get by being close to God.  It feels good!  It’s like having a conversation without words and it makes me feel complete inside.  Then, out of gratitude, I feel I have to pass it all on to help somebody else like I do here in this blog.   Isn’t this the way God, divinity….whatever your word for the energy that propels you through this life supposed to be?  A power greater than ourselves that unconditionally loves and accepts us even if we make a drawing that looks like a child may have done it? 

Matthew 19:14 14Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”

No one, no matter how hard they try can exactly replicate what I do.  Kind of like forgeries and copies….they will always be forgeries and copies but never the original work as it was first channeled through me.  So I’m not very worried about it anymore.   I feel bad for people in this world who do get so hung up on ownership versus staying in the flow of creation.  It must be such a fight everyday to keep what they perceive belongs to them!  I would say this is especially true for anyone who makes a living on their image and creative endeavors in any profession.  I wonder what would happen if they just let go of that?

What has come to me in meditations with the God of my understanding (I use the word God because it’s simpler) many times is nothing belongs to us but perhaps one thing, the essence of who we are inside.  The energy ball, the soul, part of our being that makes us uniquely “us” no matter what outside forces may try to change it.  I imagine that when our bodies are tired and must be returned back to the earth, we just move on and become something or someone else but we are not lost.  The unconditional, loving energy of existence makes sure we are never truly lost.   We just become something a little different but just the same.

These drawings I did yesterday were made for me and for someone else to enjoy and I hope you do:

U2 – Song For Someone (Directed by Matt Mahurin)

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Lyrics

 Song for Someone

You got a face not spoiled by beauty
I have some scars from where I’ve been
You’ve got eyes that can see right through me
You’re not afraid of anything they’ve seen
I was told that I would feel nothing the first time
I don’t know how these cuts heal
But in you I found a rhyme

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Now we shouldn’t doubt
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
A song for someone

You let me into a conversation
A conversation only we could make
You break and enter my imagination
Whatever’s in there
It’s yours to take
I was told I’d feel nothing the first time
You were slow to heal
But this could be the night

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Within and without
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
This is a song for someone

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

And I’m a long way
From your hill of Calvary
And I’m a long way
From where I was, where I need to be
If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a kiss
I stole from your mouth
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

 Songwriters: ADAM CLAYTON, DAVE EVANS, LARRY MULLEN, PAUL DAVID HEWSON
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