11 Nov 2018 Peace

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well in your where and when as you visit here.  Kyle and I had a rare adventure yesterday and went to the Steampunk November festival.   We didn’t stay long but did get the honor or talking to and listening to some very good people.  This morning we enjoyed some lovely tea we acquired.  There was books with folded pages, bad yet funny poetry, music and bonfires to sit by and enjoy the atmosphere around us.  Kyle found a treasure of his own as did I.  It was just great to be in the presence of so many creative and interesting souls.  We are grateful.  Our many thanks to the organizers, vendors and performers that make the gathering so special.

Today is a day to honor Veteran’s living and those who have passed on.  The best way I can think to honor them (me as I too am a Veteran) is to “be peace” in your world.  All these folks fought and far too many died for us to still be harming each other with violence via all the weapons we have at our disposal these days made both of metal and words.

*Metropolis is name of important silent film this movie quote is from

*the mediator between the head and the hands must be the heart in Simple Gematria equals: 506

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

metropolis in Simple Gematria equals: 142

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

veterans day in Simple Gematria equals: 134


steampunk november in Simple Gematria equals: 214

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

heart of iron in Simple Gematria equals: 129

12/6/3 cycle

people of love and peace in Simple Gematria equals: 193

13/4/2/1 or 13 Divided by 2 = 6.5 =11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 1318

58/13/4/2/1 or 13 Divided by 2 = 6.5 =11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

blessed are the makers of peace in Simple Gematria equals: 241

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

*1776 – number/date that came up today that has a lot to do with war and peace in this country




Blue Oyster Cult: Veteran of the Psychic Wars

*veteran of the psychic wars in Simple Gematria equals: 283/13*

Veteran of the Psychic Wars

You’re seeing now a veteran of a thousand psychic wars,
I’ve been living on the edge so long, where the winds of Limbo roar.
And I’m young enough to look at,
And far old to see, all the stars are on the inside.
I’m not sure that’s there’s anything left to me

Don’t let these shakes go on!
It’s time we had a break from it,
It’s time we had some leave.
We’ve been living in a place,
We’ve been eating up our brains.
Oh please don’t let these shakes go on!

You ask me why I’m willing, why I can’t speak to you,
You blame me for my silence, saying it’s time I changed and grew.
But the wars still going on dear,
And there’s no one that I know.
And I can’t stand forever.

I can’t say if were ever gonna be free,
Don’t let these shakes go on!
It’s time we had a break from it,
It’s time we had some leave.
We’ve been living in a place,
We’ve been eating up our brains,
Oh please don’t let these shakes go on!

You’re seeing now a veteran of a thousand psychic wars,
My energy is spent at last, and my armor is destroyed,
I have used up all my weapons, and I’m helpless and bereaved.

Wounds are all I’m made of!
Did I hear you say that this is victory?
Don’t let these shakes go on!
It’s time we had a break from it,Send me to the rear!
Where the title madness swell,
And been sliding into Hell.

Oh please don’t let these shakes go on!
Don’t let these shakes go on
Don’t let these shakes go on!

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For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind
peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30
3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

1 Nov 2018 The ghost is alive

30 June 2018 – my astral self visiting Bela Lugosi on the island


This morning I woke up to a couple dreams and a message.  One dreams was a brief flash of my calculator with a total appearing in it (think it was the value for alive but not certain) and the other with the shadow of a man standing next to my bed.  The message stuck in my head was, “The Ghost is Alive.”  It was strange, but I’ve gotten so I just go with it.  Write it down, draw it or whatever.

I went and looked at our calendar and I had made a connection with a spiral between All Saints Day and All Souls Day.  I asked Kyle if he did that because I didn’t remember doing it.   He said he just writes the recycling schedule on the calendar, that was me.

1 Nov 2018 Our Calendar Alvarado TX DSC_0233 – I didn’t remember doing this writing on the calendar.

the ghost is alive in Simple Gematria equals: 179 (ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 69*) (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69*)

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

ghost alive in Simple Gematria equals: 118

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

all saints day in Simple Gematria equals: 137 * (in the beginning in Simple Gematria equals: 137)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

1 Nov 2018 Jackie outdoor chalk drawing Alvarado TX DSC_0232

all souls day in Simple Gematria equals: 141 (souls in Simple Gematria equals: 86)

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

spiral in Simple Gematria equals: 75

12/6/3 cycle

christianity in Simple Gematria equals: 155*

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(69 + 86 = 155)*

roman catholic in Simple Gematria equals: 132

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

the holy ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 162

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

the holy spirit in Simple Gematria equals: 184

13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

philosophers stone in Simple Gematria equals: 233 (revisiting book I bought to learn about this)

8/4/2/1   (God = 26/8)

materia prima in Simple Gematria equals: 124

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 1640/74

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1


I am revisiting a book I bought some time ago about this subject.  Kind of got prompted to it after we saw the movie As Above So Below the other night.  From what I’ve been able to figure out for myself is there is “something” or “potential” energy in between what is life and what is death.  It seems to be what is drawn from to manifest reality – like a fountain comes to mind.  Everything and everyone is made of energy.  What is it that powers us through this life?  The sun, food, water, the energy of other people and life forms and the energy that exists in between it all.  I call it ambient energy.

pri·ma ma·te·ri·a
[ˌprīmə məˈti(ə)rēə, ˌprēmə]

materia prima (noun) · materia prima (noun)
  1. a formless primeval substance regarded as the original material of the universe.
    ambient energy in Simple Gematria equals: 138
    12/6/3 cycle

What is ambient energy?

Ambient energy scavenging, also called energy harvesting or power harvesting, is the process of obtaining usable energy from natural and human-made sources that surround us in the everyday environment.
ether in Simple Gematria equals: 56
11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

  1. chemistry
    a pleasant-smelling colorless volatile liquid that is highly flammable. It is used as an anesthetic and as a solvent or intermediate in industrial processes.
    • any organic compound with a structure similar to ether, having an oxygen atom linking two alkyl or other organic groups.
      “methyl t-butyl ether”
  2. literary
    the clear sky; the upper regions of air beyond the clouds.
    “nasty gases and smoke disperse into the ether”
    sky · heavens · ether · atmosphere · aerosphere · airspace
    • informal
      (the ether)
      air regarded as a medium for radio.
      “choral evensong still wafts across the ether”
  3. physics
    a very rarefied and highly elastic substance formerly believed to permeate all space, including the interstices between the particles of matter, and to be the medium whose vibrations constituted light and other electromagnetic radiation.

27 Oct 2018 Broken Pieces (put back together to make someone new)

broken pieces put back together to make someone new in Simple Gematria equals: 487

19/10/1 or 19 divided by 2 = 9.5 = 14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the tree of life in Simple Gematria equals: 134

8/4/2/1  (God = 26)

= 621/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle Difficult = 90/9

I tried to avoid the news but wasn’t able to avoid reading about what happened at the Tree of Life synagogue in Pittsburgh.  The message from the 25th making a sense I don’t want it to make.  People shouldn’t have to worry about being shot in their place of fellowship and worship no matter what walk of faith.   We’ve now had Christians, Muslims and Jews all having to deal with this kind of violence.  The Second Amendment has made being a person of faith a difficult gamble in this country.  There is a severe imbalance at work here.   We keep putting band-aids on top of a mortal wound.

Every time this happens we decry the act.  Every time this happens we say, “This isn’t who we are” or “Our thoughts and prayers are with the victims and their families” and guess what….it happens again.  Unresolved wrongs, unresolved revenge and hatred, ancient battles that carries forward to a new generation over and over again.  The answer from our top office, “if they had only more guns or an armed guard may be no one would have been killed or died.”  They’ve tried armed guards and guess what, the guards ran and people died.  In my heart I don’t think just adding more guns to the fight is going to win it.  There is only a returning cycle to such things, no one ever truly “wins.”

This act of terrorism, not just merely a hate crime, is yet another example of why I’m reading about friends who are worried about having to leave this country because of what it’s becoming or what it has always been under the surface.

There is not much I can do to change someone’s mind, heart, thoughts or actions with such volatile matters.  I can do the things I do to include sending positive energy and love to all sides of these equations.  We are all, whether we like it or not, precious parts of a one.  We may be very dysfunctional, some even murderous but we are a family.  I will never stop believing it is possible for all of us to coexist without bloodshed in the headlines every day.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/gunman-kills-11-in-pittsburgh-synagogue-massacre-investigated-as-a-hate-crime/ar-BBOY7Lw?OCID=ansmsnnews11use this link to read entire article.

Gunman kills 11 in Pittsburgh synagogue massacre investigated as a hate crime

Deanna Paul, Avi Selk, Amy Wang, Mark Berman

A gunman killed 11 people at a Pittsburgh synagogue during Saturday-morning services in what the Anti-Defamation League called “likely the deadliest attack on the Jewish community in the history of the United States.”

Law enforcement officials said Robert Bowers — a 46-year-old man with a history of making virulently anti-Semitic statements online — was taken into custody after a gun battle with police and is expected to face federal hate crime charges.

“Justice in this case will be swift and it will be severe,” said Scott W. Brady, the U.S. Attorney for the Western District of Pennsylvania. Brady said Bowers could be charged sometime Saturday for what he called a “terrible and unspeakable act of hate.”

Authorities described a rampage at the Tree of Life synagogue, the city’s oldest Jewish congregation, that was stunning in its savagery.

“This is the most horrific crime scene I’ve seen in 22 years with the Federal Bureau of Investigation,” said Robert Allan Jones, Special Agent in Charge of the FBI’s Pittsburgh field office. “Members of the Tree of Life synagogue conducting a peaceful service in their place of worship were brutally murdered by a gunman targeting them simply because of their faith.”

gunman kills eleven in pittsburgh synagogue massacre investigated as a hate crime in Simple Gematria equals: 790

16/8/4/2/1  or 16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1


Home 2018

Gun violence  and crime incidents are collected/validated from 2,500 sources daily – incidents and their source data are found at the gunviolencearchive.org website.

1: Actual number of deaths and injuries
2: Number of INCIDENTS reported and verified

22,000 Annual Suicides not included on Daily Summary Ledger

Numbers on this table reflect a subset of all information
collected and will not add to 100% of incidents.

http://www.gunviolencearchive.org  http://www.facebook.com/gunviolencearchive

Data Validated: October 27, 2018


Interesting things here to look at in these words:

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
494 + 373 = 867
21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
The account that appeared to belong to Bowers was rife with bigoted messaging. His biography on the site read “jews are the children of satan” and his background photo was a radar gun reading “1488,” a popular white supremacist symbol.
21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
Some of what we use to divide us and is often used as justification for much of the above:
religion in Simple Gematria equals: 89
17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  (494)
politics in Simple Gematria equals: 103
the media in Simple Gematria equals: 65
11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
= 257 (77 – same #value as Christ)
14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
(there are many other labels we use to separate ourselves from each other that I didn’t include here.  They are just as volatile in nature as these and it makes me so sad.) 

21 Oct 2018 Drawing Meditations in Numbers and Being Real (Smooth McGroove)

(the numbers in the first drawing, this is just stuff that came to me yesterday in thinking about my life and also current events)

27 = Red 104 = Versus 40 = Blue = 171

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Nothing = 87 Ever = 50 Changes = 57 = 194

(The faces, places and specific circumstances may appear different, may give us the illusion of change and the passage of time,  but the underlying stories remain the same all the way back to our beginning.  I feel like that is because much is unresolved and just keeps on rolling forward into each new generation of life.)

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Cycle = 48

12/6/3 cycle

Dad = 414

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Sun = 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

= 881

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

We found Smooth McGroove on our morning journey through You Tube and really enjoyed what we found.  He does these types of videos for video game music as well.  I enjoyed one of his latest videos talking about “being real” on You tube and in whatever you do.  A message I needed today.  Thank you Smooth McGroove!

Everytime – A Failed Kitty Romance 😿 Acapella by Smooth McGroove (Boy Pablo cover)

Published on Feb 10, 2018

After hearing this song, I decided it was actually about my cat Charl and Dahli, my parents’ cat 😺 They’ve never met, so she literally doesn’t know who he is.

It’s been quite a while since I’ve done anything besides video game music, and almost five years to the day that “My Cat Knows What You Do in the Dark” came out. Hope you guys enjoy!

Being real on YouTube

Published on Mar 3, 2018

Over the years I’ve seen people starting YouTube channels for the wrong reasons and, because of that, they have a hard time. This video is me trying to explain why I think being yourself, being real, is the most important foundation to start any creative project.

I hope this video helps anyone who has hit blocks with their own channel or in their creative life. Being on YouTube these past five-plus years has taught me a few things so I thought I’d try and share these lessons as best as I could.

I really appreciate all the people who shared their stories after the previous video. I can’t respond to them all but I’ve read most of them and I’m glad that the video could help in any way!

Being comfortable in your own skin and being your own best friend isn’t easy to do.  From what I’ve seen of even those the most comfortable in who and what they are, the forces of the external world don’t allow them to be that without interruption:

being real in Simple Gematria equals: 73

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

be yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 128

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

to thine own self be true in Simple Gematria equals: 256

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

inner critic in Simple Gematria equals: 122

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

criticism in Simple Gematria equals: 103


being your own worst enemy in Simple Gematria equals: 325

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

finding balance in Simple Gematria equals: 101



10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

24 Sept 2018 Word, Number, Language and Kicking Your Own Ass

Hello to you.  How are you?  I’m pretty tired.  Last night Link jumped off the bed in the middle of the night like he does sometimes and in the process of trying to collect him in the dark living room, I beat the crap out of myself on the corner of my computer chair lol!  Gave myself some purple and red eyeshadow on one eye!  Sigh.  Later this morning I hurt my foot on a doorstop.  We were afraid for me to continue baking bread lol.  With the way things have been going I’d end up with mutant bread dough that would turn into a face hugger from Aliens!

I couldn’t help myself and had to see what the numeric value of kicking your own ass was and got a pleasant surprise.  I’ve been a “friend of Bill” before too!  If you have been in a support group of any kind, you know the process involves others besides just yourself.  This explains the AA values but what is going on with the kicking of one’s own ass?!  Well the two parts of yourself aren’t working together and one side is doing the kicking of the ass and the other side is on the receiving end.  In my case, my mind and my body not communicating!  My mind doesn’t seem to understand there is a body attached to it sometimes!

what is the purpose of alcoholics anonymous in Simple Gematria equals: 478/19/10/1 or 19 divided by 2 = 9.5 = 14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of kicking your own ass in Simple Gematria equals: 478/19/10/1 or 19 divided by 2 = 9.5 = 14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of alcoholics anonymous in Simple Gematria equals: 470/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of kicking your own ass in Simple Gematria equals: 470/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1


I was curious to see the purpose of the foundations of how we communicate in this world – words, numbers and language.  Some interesting results! It seems from what I’ve been able to gather through my journey with this that words have to go through a test.  The questions I stumbled on to seem to be the questions or pretty close to the questions the makers of words had to ask themselves when considering naming something.


what is the purpose of a word in Simple Gematria equals: 305


what is the function of a word in Simple Gematria equals: 297

18/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

a word in Simple Gematria equals: 61

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the word in Simple Gematria equals: 93

12/3 cycle or 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

word in Simple Gematria equals: 60

6/3 cycle

what is the purpose of a number in Simple Gematria equals: 318

12/3 cycle or 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

what is the function of a number in Simple Gematria equals: 310


what is the purpose of language in Simple Gematria equals: 312

6/3 cycle

what is the function of language in Simple Gematria equals: 304

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of a name in Simple Gematria equals: 278

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of a name in Simple Gematria equals: 278

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of a name in Simple Gematria equals: 270

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the purpose of a mom in Simple Gematria equals: 286

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

what is the function of a mom in Simple Gematria equals: 278

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of a dad in Simple Gematria equals: 254

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of a dad in Simple Gematria equals: 246

12/3 cycle or 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

what is the purpose of naming in Simple Gematria equals: 302

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of naming in Simple Gematria equals: 294*

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

what is the purpose of birth in Simple Gematria equals: 301


what is the function of a birth in Simple Gematria equals: 294*

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

what is the purpose of a label in Simple Gematria equals: 277

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

what is the function of a label in Simple Gematria equals: 269

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1


Sometimes, during this process I’m doing here, you revisit some parts of your life and you see, in the numbers at least, a portion of a plan you weren’t even aware of.  My maiden name is Schmidt and in August of 2005 I had a hysterectomy.

what is the function of a hysterectomy in Simple Gematria equals: 413  (8/August and 2005/7 in here)

hysterectomy in Simple Gematria equals: 176

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

schmidt in Simple Gematria equals: 76

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of fibrocystic ovarian syndrome in Simple Gematria equals: 566

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of fibrocystic ovarian syndrome = 558

18/9 cycle

Information for those unfamiliar with ovarian cysts etc.  The first one I had removed wasn’t until after many years of having it.  I always had trouble with my cycles but some were so bad I’d get suicidal during them.  I had a dream of something being taken out of my stomach so it would finally be flat.  I told my therapist about this dream and she suggested I go and talk to a doctor.  They found a huge cyst inside of me and I had surgery to remove it.  I was terrified!  Thankfully it wasn’t cancerous.  A year later I had another one show up and that’s when we decided to undergo the hysterectomy.


Uterine Fibroids, Endometrial Polyps and Ovarian Cysts

Quick look at uterine fibroids, endometrial polyps and ovarian cysts

Uterine fibroids are noncancerous muscle growths within the walls of the uterus.

Endometrial polyps are abnormal tissue growths within the endometrium, the inner lining of the uterus.

Ovarian cysts are fluid-filled sacs on one or both ovaries that usually form during ovulation.

Symptoms of fibroids, polyps and cysts vary, but these structural abnormalities can all contribute to pelvic pain, abnormal uterine bleeding and other complications including infertility.

Treatment for fibroids, polyps and cysts depends on symptoms and patient goals and includes conservative, nonsurgical methods as well as surgical intervention when necessary.

Uterine fibroids

Uterine fibroids, which are also called leiomyomas or myomas, are benign (noncancerous) muscular growths within the walls of the uterus. In fewer than 1 in 1,000 cases, what was thought to be a uterine fibroid may be a cancerous mass. They range in size from ¾ inch to several inches in diameter.

According to a study published in The American Journal of Obstetrics and Gynecology, fibroids affect up to 70 percent of white women and between 80 to 90 percent of African-American women by age 50. They often do not cause any symptoms and are frequently detected incidentally during a routine examination.

Symptoms of uterine fibroids

Fibroids often cause heavy and painful periods, abnormal uterine bleeding, and pelvic pain and pressure in patients. In addition to discomfort, fibroids may also cause pregnancy complications and/or infertility. Symptoms of uterine fibroids include:

  • Changes in the menstrual cycle, including heavy or prolonged bleeding
  • Abdominal and pelvic cramping
  • Lower back pain
  • Pain or pressure during intercourse
  • Frequent or difficult urination
  • Recurrent miscarriages
  • Infertility.

If fibroids are suspected or discovered in a routine pelvic exam, an OB-GYN will first aim to fully assess their size, number and position. This can be done using a variety of imaging methods including ultrasound and hysteroscopy (a thin tube with a camera inserted through the vagina to examine the uterus).

More advanced imaging techniques such as magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) scans and computerized tomography (CT) scans may be ordered in more complex cases.

Uterine fibroids treatment

Determining the appropriate treatment for fibroids depends on several variables including severity and type of symptoms, to what degree the fibroids are affecting the body’s ability to function normally, and whether or not a woman wishes to get pregnant in the future.

Over-the-counter pain medication can sometimes relieve uterine fibroid symptoms. Hormonal medications, including certain birth control medications, can be very effective in reducing the pain and heavy bleeding caused by fibroids, provided the woman does not wish to become pregnant.

Women who are actively trying to get pregnant or wish to preserve their future reproductive options may opt to have fibroids surgically removed while leaving the uterus intact. Surgical removal of the fibroids alone is called a myomectomy.

Other options for fibroid removal include uterine artery embolization (UAE), a procedure that eliminates blood vessels that supply the fibroids, and MRI-focused ultrasound therapy that is a nonsurgical technique using high-intensity ultrasound waves to destroy fibroids. Pregnancy is not recommended after these procedures.

A hysterectomy will provide definitive treatment. This is the surgical removal of the uterus and can be performed in various degrees and with different surgical approaches.

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Endometrial polyps

Endometrial polyps, also called uterine polyps, are abnormal tissue growths on the inner lining of the uterus. Most of the time endometrial polyps are not cancerous (benign) but they can sometimes develop into cancer if left untreated.

Since women of reproductive age shed the inner lining of the uterus during menstruation, endometrial polyps are more common in women that have gone through menopause. However, they can affect women of all ages.

Symptoms of endometrial polyps

Like fibroids, endometrial polyps may or may not cause symptoms, depending on their size, number and location. Symptoms of endometrial polyps include:

  • Postmenopausal vaginal bleeding
  • Bleeding between menstrual periods
  • Very heavy bleeding during menstrual periods
  • Bleeding after intercourse or exercise.

If endometrial polyps are suspected, imaging techniques such as ultrasound and hysteroscopy are usually used to confirm their presence. If polyps are found, an OB-GYN will take a small tissue sample for a biopsy to check for cancer or precancerous cells.

Endometrial polyps treatment

Sometimes polyps will go away over time without treatment. If endometrial polyps are identified in an exam and a woman is not experiencing severe symptoms and is not at risk for cancer, she may be advised to wait and see if the polyps resolve on their own.

Usually an OB-GYN will recommend the removal of symptomatic endometrial polyps, and removal will always be advised if there is concern for cancerous or precancerous cells. Hysteroscopy is performed to remove polyps. This involves using a lighted tube and camera called a hysteroscope, which is inserted through the vagina. The surgeon will insert small instruments through the tube to remove the polyps.

Hormonal medications may be prescribed for short-term relief of symptoms caused by polyps, but may not eliminate the polyps themselves.

Ovarian cysts

Ovarian cysts are fluid-filled sacs that may develop on one or both of a woman’s ovaries. The ovaries are responsible for producing female reproductive hormones as well as releasing an egg each month during ovulation. The most common types of cysts form during ovulation when one of the follicles on the ovaries responsible for releasing an egg fails to open.

In most cases these cysts will go away in a few months without treatment and without causing symptoms. Because most ovarian cysts form during ovulation, they are far less common in women who have gone through menopause.

Complications arise when cysts become abnormally large. Less commonly, cysts may rupture or cause ovarian torsion, a condition in which the ovary is abnormally twisted due to the cyst. In rare cases, ovarian cysts can be cancerous. Additionally, some women produce many small cysts on their ovaries due to a condition called polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). PCOS is a common cause of infertility in women.

Symptoms of ovarian cysts

fibroids | CU Rocky Mountain OB-GYN | woman in pain on couchThe majority of ovarian cysts will not cause symptoms. When they do, the symptoms include:

  • Bloating
  • Abdominal pressure
  • Pelvic pain
  • Pain during intercourse
  • Frequent and/or difficult urination
  • Sudden, sharp pain due to a ruptured cyst.

Women experiencing sudden and severe pain should seek immediate medical help, particularly if the pain is accompanied by vomiting or fever.

When ovarian cysts are suspected during an exam, an OB-GYN will determine whether or not further testing is needed. This is usually done via pelvic ultrasound.

If further evaluation is needed, laparoscopic surgery may be used to investigate ovarian cysts. This minimally invasive technique uses a small incision and a camera to help guide the surgeon. Laparoscopy may also be used to surgically remove the cysts.

Ovarian cysts treatment

Since ovarian cysts often resolve on their own without treatment, a period of watchful waiting may be recommended if a cyst is identified during a routine examination. Periodic pelvic ultrasounds may be used to monitor the growth and development of the cyst.

Oral contraceptives (birth control) may be prescribed to prevent the formation of ovarian cysts during ovulation.

If surgical intervention is necessary, ovarian cysts can often be removed while keeping the ovaries and other pelvic organs intact. This is called a cystectomy. In more severe cases, an oophorectomy (removal of one or both ovaries) may be necessary.

The first step in preventing complications from fibroids, polyps and cysts is a routine pelvic exam.

16 July 2018 Cycles of Spirit (painting), Glitter and Jane Goodall Joins Wyoming Protestors in Buying Up Grizzly Hunt Tickets

Hello!  I finished my painting, Kyle is still working on his and taking his time – so proud of him!  After I finished mine, complete with lots of glitter paint, I saw my friend had posted a video about how bad glitter is for the environment….ugh.  Cue pin popping balloon!  I am trying to finish up all the stuff I have and not buy any more of it until I can find an alternative for adding sparkle to my paintings.  It’s important to be a responsible makers/creators in this world.  If we don’t buy it, there is no profit in them making it and eventually they will stop.  In the case of like micro-beads, some responsible governments have put themselves behind banning the products from being made at all.  I would be bummed if glitter disappeared but I’d definitely get over it.



Apparently mica powder, eucalyptus leaves and even lentils treated with aluminum could be alternatives to traditional glitter.   I’ll have to look into these options when I prepare to purchase more art materials like paint etc.



The mica group of sheet silicate (phyllosilicate) minerals includes several closely related materials having nearly perfect basal cleavage. All are monoclinic, with a tendency towards pseudohexagonal crystals, and are similar in chemical composition. The nearly perfect cleavage, which is the most prominent characteristic of mica, is explained by the hexagonal sheet-like arrangement of its atoms.

The word mica is derived from the Latin word mica, meaning a crumb, and probably influenced by micare, to glitter.[5]

Mica powder[edit]

Throughout the ages, fine powders of mica have been used for various purposes, including decorations. Powdered mica glitter is used to decorate traditional water clay pots in India, Pakistan and Bangladesh; it is also used on traditional Pueblo pottery, though not restricted to use on water pots in this case. The gulal and abir (colored powders) used by North Indian Hindus during the festive season of Holi contain fine crystals of mica to create a sparkling effect. The majestic Padmanabhapuram Palace, 65 km (40 mi) from Trivandrum in India, has colored mica windows. Mica powder is also used as a decoration in traditional Japanese woodblock printmaking, as when applied to wet ink and allowed to dry it sparkles and reflects light.

Changing gears –

I saw this today and am so proud of the concerned citizens and folks like Jane Goodall who are doing what they can to try and stop the Grizzly Bear hunt in Wyoming.  I can’t do much, I’ve tried phone calls and letters before and that didn’t do much for stuff like this.   What I can do is use this blog and pass it on.  I don’t understand why people like to kill sentient beings for trophies and call it sport.  I could understand if the people of Wyoming were starving to death and had to do whatever they had to do to survive.  I could understand if Wyoming was being completely overrun by bears and they had to defend themselves from them.

Trophy/Sport hunting feels like a waste of life and a waste of God’s gifts to this planet.

I think shooting a majestic animal like a bear through the lense of a camera is the way to go.  I would love to see eco-tourism a boom for the people of Wyoming and all states like it that are supposed to be good stewards for wild beings.


Jane Goodall Joins Wyoming Protestors in Buying Up Grizzly Hunt Tickets

Todd Wilkinson
Within the last few days, Goodall, 84, and Moss, 78, entered a lottery hoping to win a coveted hunting license in Wyoming allowing them to sport shoot a grizzly bear in the Yellowstone region. They have no aspirations to actually kill a bruin. Their maneuver is part of a mass act of civil disobedience to protest Wyoming’s controversial hunt of up to 22 grizzlies—the first in 44 years—slated to commence only weeks from now.

Called “Shoot ‘em With A Camera, Not A Gun,” the impromptu campaign, spearheaded mainly by women, has caught hunting officials in Wyoming off guard. It has also created a groundswell among those who condemn the state’s recommencement of a trophy season on grizzlies just a year after they were removed from federal protection. In May, Wyoming’s wildlife commission approved the hunt unanimously 7-0.

“People felt desperate, wanting to do something positive that could help keep these bears alive. I think we surprised ourselves at how much public support this has gotten in so little time,” says Jackson Hole conservationist Lisa Robertson.

Targeted Plan

The strategy of “Shoot ‘em With A Camera” is to swamp Wyoming’s random system for allocating bear licenses with applications from non-hunters. Should they be awarded a coveted tag, they’ll head into the mountains this fall to take pictures of grizzlies rather than stalking them with rifles.

Begun less than a week ago, “Shoot ‘em” has gone viral on social media. A final push is being made to enlist thousands of bear advocates to apply for a hunting license (https://wgfd.wyo.gov/apply-or-buy) before Monday’s deadline (July 16) at midnight mountain time.

The campaign grew out of a meeting of 19 concerned citizens (16 of them women) and then a group of five who floated the unconventional concept in an ad in the local Jackson Hole newspaper. Ann Smith provided her phone number to answer any questions and she braced for the worse.

“What stunned me is the number of positive calls I’ve received and 85 to 90 percent have come from women,” Smith says. Driving around Jackson Hole in a replica antique pick-up truck, the bed of Smith’s vehicle has a near life-sized stuffed teddy bear in it with a sign that reads “Grizzly Lives Matter.” “No one has called me up on the phone and yelled at me,” she said. I’ve received lots of affirmative horn honks and people giving me thumbs up.”

Brian Nesvik, chief game warden with the Wyoming Game and Fish Department, is not so enamored. He acknowledged he was surprised at how fast the campaign mobilized, heightening a level of drama that was already unprecedented given that it involves the wildlife symbol of the Yellowstone region.

Thousands of hunters nationwide and plenty in his state, he said, are excited by the prospect of being able to take a grizzly, with the odds of securing a license still astronomically low. Now, with perhaps thousands of additional applications pouring in, it makes those chances even slimmer.

“This is more about taking away hunting opportunity than having an impact on our population management objective,” Nesvik said, noting that with 700 grizzlies in the Greater Yellowstone region, Wyoming’s quota will not jeopardize the population.

In Wyoming, population 580,000, citizens are divided over whether bears should be killed for sport. During a nationwide public comment session, when the U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service was readying to turn management of grizzlies over to Wyoming, Montana, and Idaho, more than 650,000 people weighed in, the vast majority expressing opposition to trophy hunting.

The discussion about wildlife management in America has long been dominated by hunters, but with their numbers declining nationwide, non-consumptive admirers of nature are refusing to stand passively on the sidelines, says attorney Deidre Bainbridge.

Concern over grizzlies has created a force to be reckoned with, she says. “Now we, many strong women, are speaking out for wildlife management based on science, fact and respect for life, not money and politics.” (Learn more about Yellowstone, America’s wild idea.)

Impacting the Lottery?

The lottery selects license recipients at random based on a computer program, the same kind used to award permits to kill other big game species. Three quarters of the licenses are reserved for Wyomingites and the rest for out-of-staters. Nesvik acknowledges the campaign could mean fewer bears die.

While it costs less than $20 to enter Wyoming’s grizzly hunt sweepstakes, those few individuals who get licenses then have to shell out for the tag—$602 for Wyoming residents and $6,002 for out-of-staters (who also must then enlist a guide).

American wildlife photographer Thomas Mangelsen, who stands firmly opposed to the hunt, has signed up for the lottery and if a non-Wyoming resident secures a tag he said he’ll pay half of their $6,000 fee. To help others who do get a tag cover their costs, there’s also a fundraising campaign at GoFundMe.

The tactic of using licenses not to kill bears is legal. “I just feel it’s wrong to kill animals for fun,” Moss told National Geographic as she was visiting Wyoming this week. “Tourism brings in millions upon millions more than any amount generated through the killing of grizzlies. The economic rationale being made by people who simply want to shoot bears doesn’t hold water.”

Wyoming has spent tens of millions of dollars to manage grizzlies since 1975. But that’s actually a small number when extrapolated over four decades and compared to the $1 billion annually generated for the regional economy based on nature-related tourism in Yellowstone and Grand Teton national parks alone. Wildlife watching ranks among the most desired activities by travelers and interest in it continues to grow.

Judy Hofflund has been coming to Wyoming for 50 years and remembers the era when grizzlies were virtually eliminated and few thought they would return. Hofflund has a vacation home in Jackson Hole and recently retired from a long career as an agent in Hollywood for actors such as Kenneth Branagh, Julia Louis-Dreyfus, Sally Field, and Kevin Kline.

Yet it’s been a different star in recent years that caught her eye—famed Jackson Hole grizzly mother 399, arguably the most famous bear in the world, beloved to millions. 399, often viewed along the roadsides of Grand Teton National Park, is 22 years old and, with two cubs at her side, has again been attracting large crowds.

“When the Greater Yellowstone grizzly population was delisted [removed from federal protection] and it became apparent states like Wyoming wanted to offer bears as trophies to hunters, it broke my heart,” she said. “Grizzly 399 is such a beautiful mother, intelligent and caring. This effort is our attempt to give bears like her a voice.” (How the world’s most famous wolf lived hard.)

A Wider Debate

Where Wyoming is leading the Lower 48 back into a new era of grizzly hunting, citing human intolerance toward bears as a reason for targeting them in areas where they aren’t wanted, the Canadian province of British Columbia serves as a counterpoint. It recently ended grizzly hunting, citing declining social tolerance for trophy hunting. British Columbia has roughly 20 times the number of grizzlies that Wyoming does and they roam across a much larger area.

Hunting grizzlies in the Greater Yellowstone Ecosystem is an anachronism, says endangered animal advocate Heather Lang Mycoskie, who spends summers in Jackson Hole and sits on the national council of the Humane Society of the U.S. Not only has she applied for a grizzly tag herself but she’s recruited family and friends to do the same, including people who hunt birds and big game for the table.

“The debate now isn’t one of hunters vs. non-hunters,” she said. “There’s a divide in the hunting community that has opened up whether grizzlies should be shot as trophies.” Mycoskie has received a helping hand in spreading the word about “Shoot ‘em With A Camera” from her entrepreneur-philanthropist husband, Blake Mycoskie, founder of TOMS shoes.

Nesvik says Wyoming is actually being conservative with the number of bears it is allowing hunters to take. “I really, truly respect those people who have a philosophical disagreement with grizzly hunting. And I respect people expressing their opinions that engaging in trophy hunting is an unethical activity. But some opponents are being disingenuous in skewing the science,” Nesvik said. “The science supports what we are are doing and it is not refutable. It’s as solid as we have for any species.”

Goodall is an ardent fan of grizzly 399. She also has accompanied her close friend Mangelsen, who lives in Jackson Hole and has chronicled the bruin’s life, on bear-viewing trips to Yellowstone and Alaska. Goodall made her opposition to grizzly hunting known to members of Congress, arguing it’s a travesty to turn bears beloved by millions into stuffed heads on the wall or floor rug that benefit only a few people.

The hunt itself may be endangered. U.S. District Judge Dana Christensen is expected to issue a ruling in August on legal challenges to removing the bears from federal protection. If animal advocates prevail in the case, Wyoming’s hunt could be suspended.

“This is the start of a movement,” Robertson said. “We want to show that the worth of an animal is not measured by how much you can collect from killing it.”

Related: Dr. Jane Goodall On a Lifetime of Studying Animals [Provided by NBC News]

28 June 2018 Drawings, Moon Pics, Headlines Like Cubes and Extreme Empathy (Daily Good)

Hello to you.  How are you?  I hope you are well.   We are getting our car back today….Yay!  It’s the little things right?!

The moon is full and was just so lovely last night.  I got four new mosquito bites to get these LOL!

This morning when I was looking at the headlines on MSN I started thinking about those nightmare cubes from the Cabin in the Woods movie.  If I click on any of the boxes in front of me, some nightmare is contained in there to come at me!

The Cabin in the Woods – Cubes

Not all the news is negative and I’m usually able to find positive things to find out about but it seems harder to do.  The Daily Good website (http://www.dailygood.org/) and others like it help remind me there is a lot of good, a lot of “heart” yet going on in this world.

http://www.dailygood.org/story/2016/i-feel-you-the-surprising-power-of-extreme-empathy-knowledge-wharton/if you are interested about the subject of empathy, you will find this informative.


Knowledge@Wharton: I wonder if we are born with a certain level of empathy.

“I don’t think that there’s a finite amount [of empathy] that you’re given at birth. But I do think that there are people that are born with a disability.”–Cris Beam

Beam: There’s some research that suggests that, when we look at sociopaths and psychopaths who are supposedly born without it. It’s hard to make that overarching judgment that some people are born with it and some people are born without it. I do think that it can grow. If it’s modeled for you, you can learn empathy. You can absorb it. You can become a more empathetic person if you are treated empathically. So, I don’t think that there’s a finite amount [of empathy] that you’re given at birth. But I do think that there are people that are born with a disability [of not having it].

I send you love, a hug and mega positive vibes through the wires!  If you are suffering in in some sort of “nightmare cube” of an existence right now, I hope there will be a loving, healing, positive way out for you. 


8 June 2018 When God Says Hello

Hi again.  It’s another hot Texas afternoon and we are all hold up inside today.  Not even Link and Spot want to go outside lol.  Spot is usually the first to want to go out.  So here I am writing to you…hope you don’t mind.

This morning was very pleasant.  I was out on my cot singing with my Ipod.  Then I looked up to see a bunch of very large birds swirling over my head like angels.  I just started crying like I do and said, “Well hello God*.”   I just sat there, unable to sing anymore crying and looking at those giant angels that seemed to be ferrying off spirits to far off corners….just passing through.

So this crude chalk drawing is me trying to express what I saw because of course I didn’t have my camera and I was so overcome by the experience I didn’t dare leave to go and get it!

*God for me is energy – all – everything that makes this world reality and not limited to any one religion or walk of spirit’s rendition of what God is.

8 June 2018 – With all the heart aching stuff going on I would like to think those giant angels of birds I saw were ferrying off spirits to the next world to find peace.

There is a song, menfolk please don’t cringe, by Coldplay I absolutely love that suites my post here:

A flock of birds
Hovering above
Just a flock of birds
That’s how you think of love

And I always
Look up to the sky
Pray before the dawn
‘Cause they fly always
Sometimes they arrive
Sometimes they are gone
They fly on

A flock of birds
Hovering above
Into smoke I’m turned
And rise following them up

Still I always
Look up to the sky
Pray before the dawn
‘Cause they fly away
One minute they arrive,
Next you know they’re gone
They fly on
Fly on

So fly on
Ride through
Maybe one day I’ll fly next to you

They fly on
Ride through
Maybe one day I come fly with you
Fly on
Fly on
Fly on

© Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind

Coldplay – O (Janduny Remix)

Coldplay – O (from Ghost Stories)

With all the “stuff” going on in our world, it’s important to stay in the heart, stay in the light of love and the places that lift me up.  I am so grateful for my husband, my family and friends, for nature, for art, for music, for love and all the little things.

Like the Cloud Man John A Day used to say “Look up and see!” (http://www.cloudman.com/)

7 June 2018 Why? (Suicide)

Hello to you.  How are you doing in the moment you are in visiting here?  I’m doing o.k.  Kyle and I aren’t feeling 100% today.  This too shall pass!  It always does.

We are having the suicide discussion as a country again after another public figure took her own life.   I didn’t know who Kate Spade was until hearing about her death on the news yesterday.


Suicide rate: US saw 25% increase since 1999, CDC says
By Susan Scutti, CNN

Suicide rates increased by 25% across the United States over nearly two decades ending in 2016, according to research published Thursday by the US Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Twenty-five states experienced a rise in suicides by more than 30%, the government report finds.

More than half of those who died by suicide had not been diagnosed with a mental health condition, said Dr. Anne Schuchat, principal deputy director of the CDC.

“These findings are disturbing. Suicide is one of the top 10 causes of death in the US right now, and it’s one of three causes that is actually increasing recently, so we do consider it a public health problem — and something that is all around us,” Schuchat said. The other two top 10 causes of death that are on the rise are Alzheimer’s disease and drug overdoses, she noted.

In 2016 alone, about 45,000 lives were lost to suicide.

“Our data show that the problem is getting worse,” Schuchat said.

7 June 2018 – drawing I did this morning for my friend.

There are so many personal reasons for deciding to end it all.  My Mother, my Grandfather and my cousin actually went through with it.  I will tell you  their choosing to take their own lives was definitely a deterrent for me making the same choices.  It’s easier to leave than it is to be left after something like that.  The survivors are left with so many questions, the “what if I’d only’s,” blame, shame and overwhelming despair.  For many years I blamed myself for my Mom’s taking her own life.  They said she suffered from baby blues or post-partum depression and when I found out what that was, I blamed myself for her choosing to die.

I don’t have all the answers.  I’ve been in the mental health system since the 1990’s and it really hasn’t changed too much since then which is really sad.  I’m seeing way too much emphasis on drug therapy and too little on alternatives like talk, art, musical, spiritual and physical therapy.   I won’t say that the pills haven’t helped me at all, but I will say that there have been times that nothing of this earth could begin to contain what was going on inside of me.

What’s my opinion as someone who is in the risk group of this “crisis”?

A good start would be to work as a country to remove the stigmas attached to mental illness.  May be people would be more inclined to get the help they need.    Another, probably the most important thing,  would be to make reputable mental health care accessible and affordable to anyone who needs it.  I’m not talking just handing people a bunch more pills….obviously that is tipping the suicide tables.   I’m talking about integrated mental health care that deals with the entirety a human being is – their mind, body and spirit.   Troubled people need someone they can trust, someone with integrity who they can talk to about their problems on a regular basis.  They should be able to do this without having to choose between doing that and putting food on their table.  Sometimes that’s all somebody needs is just to talk and get things out of their own head!

It’s sad that it takes another famous person to die before this issue gets serious attention.  Mental health and suicide is a lot like the gun issue.  It surfaces, gets talked about for awhile, everybody throws up their hands because it’s too complicated and volatile to deal with and it gets pushed aside until the next time.  Unfortunately, there is always going to be a next time with this.

https://www.bustle.com/p/9-people-on-the-alternative-type-of-therapy-thats-working-for-them-9244860several of these suggestions are in my personal toolkit. 

9 People On The Alternative Type Of Therapy That’s Working For Them

While the jury is still out on why, it’s pretty clear that mental illness is on the rise in the United States in recent years. Titles like “The Meteoric Rise of Mental Illness in America and Implications for Other Countries” and “The Alarming Rise in Teen Mental Illness” blare at us from social media and news outlets. Mass shooting after mass shooting is attributed to individual mental health problems, rather than structural societal ones. The opioid epidemic barrels forward, with no sign of stopping. And, at the same time, a recent CDC study found that despite increases in serious mental distress, access to mental health services are on the decline.

“Alternative” therapy just refers to anything that isn’t traditional talk therapy or cognitive behavioral therapy. (You, know — the image of sitting down in a room with a therapist and talking about your feelings.) It can include working with a professional or can simply be an activity that helps people manage their minds, feelings, and symptoms. While traditional therapy has been and continues to be a great resource for people dealing with mental health issues and trauma, it’s not available to or not the right fit for plenty of people.

With that in mind, here are nine people who use different types of alternative therapy, and why they love it.

1Arielle, 27: Dance

Andrew Zaeh/Bustle

“I suffer from pretty intense derealization and dissociation and find that dance is one of the only modalities to really help get me back into my body. When I stay consistent, I find it’s really helpful. I’ve been off the wagon for a bit and notice my symptoms intensify when I haven’t danced in a while. By just having a few moments of tapping back into my body and myself, I find that I don’t get as anxious or nervous when I’m floating above myself the rest of the day, because I have a point of reference to come back to.

I just recently started getting back into traditional therapy, which is definitely helpful but doesn’t alleviate any symptoms. It’s been a great way to focus on the specific issues I want to work on and make me feel like I’m doing everything I can to get better, but it doesn’t necessarily help me get better.”

2Anonymous: Trauma Sensitive Yoga

Andrew Zaeh/Bustle

“[I use] trauma sensitive yoga to incorporate therapy and healing into my physical body once I had gotten to that stage in my recovery. Yes, I am still doing both [traditional and alternative therapy]. I find the combination of “traditional” and “alternative” to be the most effective, rather than one or the other.”

3Irene, 40: Somatic Experiencing Therapy

Andrew Zaeh/Bustle

“[I chose this form of therapy] because trauma is stored in the body and cannot be released by talking about it. Somatic Experiencing works with the nervous system to release stuck energy from a past nervous system activation (when we were unable to fight/flee or froze) that did not get discharged (nervous system was not allowed to calm down), thereby creating a new balanced, relaxed and calm normal.

Somatic Experiencing helped me release pent up anger and regulate my nervous system, releasing most triggers that would have created anxiety in the past. I have done traditional therapy and coaching before and it helped to a point — but it did not go deep enough within the body, so I had outbursts of anger and anxiety that I did not know were coming from or how to manage them.”

4Genya: Reiki


“I found a therapist who is also a reiki practitioner, so she offers both talk therapy and reiki for my anxiety. And since she’s an LMHC my insurance covers our visits. I love it! It’s an amazing option for dealing with stress and anxiety. When I’m having trouble slowing down to process complex emotions, it’s a great tool.”

5Emma, 31: Acupuncture

Joe Raedle/Getty Images News/Getty Images

“I actually started acupuncture as treatment for a hormone imbalance, but I found that talking about the different things that are affecting my energy each week has been as therapeutic as — if not more than — the needles themselves. I’ve done traditional therapy in the past but the thought of finding a therapist right now exhausts me. Starting acupuncture felt like a much lower barrier to entry.”

6Chris, 45: Biking

Thomas Lohnes/Getty Images News/Getty Images

“I hate all people. You know, pretty much. [I chose biking because] it’s biking. Ipso facto, it is awesome. Did couples counseling once. Meh. People are really really really stupid and there’s just no substitute for good ol’ introspection.”

7Michael, 43: 5 Rhythms And Ecstatic Dance

Andrew Zaeh for Bustle

“Check out Maps to Ecstasy by Gabrielle Roth. It’s an effective and fun way to process through emotions via movement. And the community is amazing, all over the world. I have not done traditional therapy, but am familiar with it. The model isn’t my style.”

8Alex, 30: Meditation, Self-Help Books

Andrew Zaeh/Bustle

“[I chose this type of therapy because] I feel like it is more on my time. I like that I’m not expecting anything of anyone else, even a therapist… I know from the outside it looks great. I’m positive that I’m checking lots of societal boxes, but I’m not sure I’m doing all I want to. No, I know I’m not. I want a lot.”

9D, 31: Meditation Community

Andrew Zaeh for Bustle

“[I found this type of therapy] through my family. It is a beautiful and supportive community that encourages me to change how I view, react to, and accept circumstances instead of constantly thinking something is ‘wrong’ with me. I still do [traditional therapy]. But meds weren’t doing it. I needed to change how I saw the world instead of hoping a pill a day might completely save me from traumatic past”.

There you have it — nine people and the type of alternative therapy that they use. When it comes to treating a mental health issue, there’s clearly no one-size-fits-all answer. The most important thing is that you find something that works for you.


1 June 2018 Good day and Journey Back to Me (Poem)

Hello to you.  How are you?  We’ve been having a really good day today.  I had an appointment I look forward to and then afterwards, to maximize our time out and about, we got some errands done in Burleson.

At PetSmart, besides the normal Blue Dog Food, we found an organic spray from Earthbath, Hot Spot Relief Spritz at PetSmart (https://earthbath.com/product/hot-spot-relief-spritz/) to help Link and Spot with seasonal allergy irritations.  Link has a real problem with allergies and insect bites.  I asked the woman who was at checkout (she always seems to be working lol), Cindy, if they were treating her well and her reply made me smile, “Yes they do, I love my job.”  How many people do you know that can say that?!  So awesome!

After that we stopped by Michael’s and I picked up a batch of canvas for painting.  I am excited because I think I’ve talked Kyle into doing a painting with me!  I would love to hang up a painting by him in the house!  I also found a little glass box on sale (http://www.michaels.com/clear-glass-display-box-with-lid-by-bead-landing/10492022.html#q=glass+box&start=10) to hold our essential oils so they don’t take up so much space on the kitchen counter.  We also grabbed a couple small boxes of chalk with colors I use the most to augment what I already have that’s almost gone.  I went out for a bit after we got home….couldn’t stay out there….just too hot!

After all this we decided to use the gift cards my parents had given to us for Christmas for Logan’s Steakhouse.  As always, it was a wonderful experience.  Besides a great steak their root beer just tasted so good!  We had to flag ourselves of the stuff LOL!  Our server,  Joseph,  was having his first day without supervision and was terrific.  We encouraged him to hold on to his wonderful attitude.  Being a waiter or waitress is not an easy job!

1 June 2018 – having a date!

I know this post is full of mundane activities but for me, after the past few months of not trusting anything or anyone and not wanting to leave the house, it was a big deal.  It was a big deal for Kyle to have his “normal” happy and silly wife back.  It’s the little things that fill all the space from our start to our finish.  They are precious moments never to take for granted. 

31 May 2018 – I was thinking of spirit travelers when I did this. This group being lead by one with the light.

This poem is about what my last bought with an episode, a cycle, a spiritual awakening….whatever the hell happens to me was like.  This last one was very volatile and we had a lot of broken stuff.  Kyle, the dogs, my family, my friends, my doctors,  and even our amazing local cops helped me so much.  Just my Dad calling me during the worst of it, pleading with me to take my meds, my Mom sending a three line note in the mail…it all meant everything.  I will tell you that you don’t have to wait to die and go to heaven to encounter angels on this earth!   Sadly we know with the way the past couple of years have been, this won’t be the last time we go through this.  Just a varying degree of it.

Journey back to Me – (Jackie)

The strangers walked through the door in me

There was mistrust, shattered glass, cops,  and conversations with the unseen

A gap in the veil most cannot see

An entire cast of unseen characters took center stage on my chest

Me a mere puppet

A pulsing heart with my flesh and blood sewn….unable to sleep…..unable to rest

Perhaps it was my sweetheart’s and dogs unconditional love

The drugs or some kind of divine intervention

From above

But I was able to finally journey back to me

Sadly we know the seasons and cycles will turn

I will not remain this me…free……


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