30 July 2022 Betrayal and Forgiveness

https://youtu.be/ND-nldJc8kU – How Do We Forgive Our Fathers – Smoke Signals

10 May 2022 The Wind

Hello there. How are you doing today? I hope you are well. The saga of spooky stuff at night continues. Last night it was a jump scare that startled both Link and I. Whatever is going on doesn’t feel malicious but is strange. Forces either within myself or outside myself are trying to communicate. This stuff was happening when I lived in Texas and has been a part of most of my life. I’ve always been really sensitive to energy in its various forms.

Yesterday in my internet scrollings I found this message from the Anasazi Foundation about the wind. What brought me to years was hearing “messages of the heart can change.”

https://youtu.be/8MGI7yp92YU – The legend of the wind by Good Buffalo Eagle – Native American Legend

Listening to this and thinking about my own experiences and thoughts about the purpose of our global winds, I thought about the Holy Spirit:

I can remember times of just wanting to drink in a breeze on a hot day. I can remember as a child playing with the winds…talking to them. I can remember cowering with my little family in the hallway of our house more than once for fear of our lives as powerful winds battered the house. I can remember the different sounds of breath from loved ones. Breath being the way we personally interact with the wind always moving around and through our bodies. Without the oxygen of the wind we cease to exist.

I asked myself why this was on my mind yesterday and the answer was because it’s something else in our shared existence that we have in common. We all bleed and we all must breathe. To me it’s not all about what makes us different in these times but about how we are the same….what we have in common.

These are just a few examples of warnings carried by the wind:

https://www.npr.org/sections/goatsandsoda/2021/05/30/1000530563/buried-alive-in-mongolias-worst-sandstorms-in-a-decade

https://amp.france24.com/en/live-news/20220505-thousands-sick-as-latest-severe-sandstorm-sweeps-across-iraq

https://www.usnews.com/news/top-news/articles/2021-12-15/dust-bowl-winds-hit-tornado-devastated-western-united-states?context=amp

With the way I have come to understand God and this earth is there are many warnings and after they go unheeded, things escalate.

A short walk:

When I saw clouds like this I used to become afraid
When wind and weather happens I pray for all those holding down the fort outside like trees, birds, small critters, insects and dogs and cats left outside…the homeless people with no shelter
Bands of life giving rain falling down
A little comic relief. This little tree got a pinwheel like a child might play with! Made me smile to see this little tree being loved! Part of the family!
I had to spend some time admiring the pine trees last night – this is amazing
A different pine trees fruit

https://youtu.be/mnVtTvINXpM – Rhythmic Tribal Sounds Earth Song – Mei-lan and Ali Pervez Mehdi

15 March 2022 Ego vs Intuition

Check out 15 March 2022 Tuesday chat https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1426485699

Hello to you. How are you today? I hope you are well. We finally got a few drops of rain – hopefully we will get more. We need it!

Todays messages from A Woman’s Spirit have to do with discerning the difference between our ego and our intuition:

My intuition can lead me in the right direction when my will and God’s will are one. -Kathy McGraw

Sometimes we mistake ego for intuition. Then we wonder why doors don’t open. We may try to force circumstances to meet our expectations. Our chemical dependency led us to behave this way in the past, and this behavior helped to get us here to this program. Today we are striving for times when things flow smoothly, when doors just open at just the right moment, when we experience effortless living- in short, times when our will and God’s are one. But how do we do it?

The key is to slow down and ask ourselves if what we are about to do feels right. Doing God’s will always feels right. By contrast, being driven by our own ego often feels wrong , very wrong. In our using days we were adept at ignoring the feeling that something was wrong. However, our growth through the Steps makes ignoring what is wrong impossible now. That’s good for us. And it’s even better for the people in our lives. Wanting to follow Gods will is there first step to actually following it.

My ego is always ready to jump in where God’s will is needed. Today I’ll slow down each time I’m ready to jump, and I’ll listen instead to my feelings.

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There’s nothing quite like that feeling of being in the flow of all that is. Time becomes irrelevant! Why does such a feeling…such an experience seem to be such a rare thing for most of us? To only have fleeting glimpses of complete peace! I guess that’s why it’s so important to stay tuned in…mindful and aware….to remain willing to go where God is leading you. Sometimes it’s so hard to know and I guess that’s where practice comes. What I have done many times on my journey so far is ask God to show me in a language I can understand what it is I’m supposed to be doing….”show me God.” The answers do come but it’s not enough for a lifetime – sometimes an answer just for the next moment. After all what is time to God?! Be willing…….

If you would like to get your own copy of A Woman’s Spirit daily meditation, here is one source I found: https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/a-womans-spirit-more-meditations-for-women——the-author-of-each-day-a-new-beginning-hazelden-meditations_hazelden-foundation/339506/item/3261660/?gclid=CjwKCAjw8sCRBhA6EiwA6_IF4aPCsBcorpWPahqiLrIXoREIoqTcGCton_i_M9wLAfQTZYxszJjoZRoC2vQQAvD_BwE#isbn=0062552821&idiq=3261660

13 Jan 2022 Light headed

Check out 12 January 2022 Wednesday evening https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1261922019

Hello to you. How are you? It’s an overcast day here but listening to some music from Astravert helps: Check out Thorsday Jamz | !spotify !youtube !bandcamp !twitter !merch https://www.twitch.tv/astravert – you can watch the stream even if it’s not live. Got my coffee. Praying about my aunt having knee surgery today. Have an appointment with my medicine doctor in a bit. I hope he’ll have answers for me if we are on the right track with my medicine. I’m still getting over that damn cold. The past couple of days I’ve been feeling light headed hopefully that’s just remnants! I really want to be over it! I need groceries on the way home and am kind of dreading going with so many people being sick.

Yesterday I streamed on Twitch a lot. I actually got a chance to visit with a couple interesting people. One was a woman in training to be a therapist and last night an applied math scientist. I love it when that happens. I love hearing peoples stories and love sharing mine. The scientist asked me about what I considered one of my craziest times in my military career and what came to mind was 9/11. I’ll be honest that day really f-d up my world and those of the people I was working with at the time! We were in shock!

Anyhew- feeling a little scrambled this morning. Trying to pull it together. Had my talk with the Holy Spirit this morning – trying to make a habit of welcoming his presence everyday. Thank you for coming by! I would love to hear from you if you have the time.

Stuff going on in my world

28 December 2021 Tuesday

Hello to you. How are you? Hopefully staying warm! It’s a balmy 22 degrees here as I write to you. Winter is definitely here. I’m so grateful Link and I have a warm shelter. Even as we near 2022 there are people without affordable housing.

So I rousted myself with some Heilung and my little drum this morning. My little drum circle idea rose and fell this year. It’s ok. I don’t regret buying the drum. It gets lots of use.

https://youtu.be/64CACoHNBEI – Heilung Norupo

Thinking of hearth and home this chilly Tuesday!

“Primal beat of my drum and ancient calling, steam rises from my coffee…snow is falling. A warm hearth and home within my heart can be found. An echo of the beginning sound.”

As I sit here this morning I wonder where we are heading in this world. Where am I heading. Things are doing things…..I keep trying to stand still in time but it doesn’t work that way. How do I graciously embrace the inevitable? Lately I’ve been feeling like my mind is in an in between place. When I feel this way I don’t get to just live my life and move forward with it. It’s been a long time since I’ve been in the flow….that stream of existence where time doesn’t matter. Your doing what God put you here to do and that’s all you want to do! All you want to do is be in that “sweet spot” with God.

Sometimes when I’m writing I get the place I desire to be. It’s warm and safe. The words just flow and I don’t want it to end but it always does. I had these sort of feelings when I would sit outside in Texas and draw with chalk. I would sit outside for hours and just draw. I felt such a direct connection with God. What was nice is my drawings lasted until the rains came. Then I would have a fresh canvas. I used to draw spaceships that sailed off with the rains. Where I live now I don’t have a slab in the backyard to draw on. I just have a driveway in the front yard and I’m a little self conscious about doing my drawings there.

I believe God isn’t done with me yet. There is a reason I still exist. I have to remind myself that the reason(s) aren’t always big ones. One of my favorite Saints is Therese of Lisieux: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Th%C3%A9r%C3%A8se_of_Lisieux and the reason is because of how she believed in serving God in little ways. Every time I smell roses I think of her. We each have a part in Gods play. Some are major parts and some are very small but they are all important. Sometimes we are destined to live the little way and have to find peace with that.

I hope something here resonated!

22 December 2021 Evening 3rd shirt

Hello to you. It’s evening again and I’m all by my lonesome with Link. Thank God for Link. I am so grateful for you readers that come and keep me company too – each of you are a blessing to me! You help me not feel so alone in this world. I hope my visits to your blogs do the same for you. This community is so special.

So we are on the 3rd shirt. I wasn’t sure if I was going to do the complete Metatrons cube because I liked it without the extra lines. We will see how I feel about it in the morning. It’s an experiment.

3rd shirt- I like it just as it is but we shall see how I feel about it in the morning

I streamed today on Twitch and had one viewer but they didn’t say anything. In the back of my mind I’m hoping whomever is watching enjoys my company – might be home bound or something. That’s my hope anyway. I have a couple followers that I don’t know who they are. I’m thinking it’s one of them because they pop up shortly after I get on. My hope when I stream is in some way I’m helping not only myself. It would make me so happy to think my taking time to focus on the sun and sky could cheer up a person unable to get out and see/experience those things!

I was listening to a more popular affiliated streamers named Barnacles today. Apparently it’s kind of a dirty business once you start getting sponsorship. I don’t see myself ever getting to that point. Like I was saying with my crafts and mixing money I think the same would happen if I got a sponsored stream.

Anyhew I hope this finds you doing well whatever and however you are celebrating this time of year! Hugs!

I’m live on Twitch – Watch me at https://twitch.tv/jwygant

26 November 2021 Learning About Going Live On Twitch

I’m live on Twitch – Watch me at https://twitch.tv/jwygant

Good morning from here how are you? It’s the day after Thanksgiving and I’m guessing a lot of you are taking advantage of Black Friday deals….not my thing lol!

So I’m sipping on some coffee and thinking about what I want to do with my Twitch channel. I’m not entirely sure who my audience is as no one has left a comment in chat yet. I don’t even know how someone would leave a comment. I am working with what I have which is my phone. Most streamers I’ve spent time with have pretty elaborate setups with microphones and multiple cameras. The other thing is content – actually having something new to say each stream. I think with the pros the chat feedback helps them with that.

Today I’m thinking about talking about my dog Links origin story. I can’t believe he’s going to be 7 on the 9th of December! Thankfully he’s in good health. Anyways his story is pretty special – especially how God let me know he was coming! Unfortunately his baby pictures are trapped on an external hard drive I can’t use – it got dropped one too many times!

Looking forward to going with my friend and her grandson to see the holiday lights in Caldwell tonight! Hope you have a good day!

16 November 2021 How The Rose Came To Be (Short Story)

Once upon a time there lived a gentle carpenter named Lawrence and his daughter Rose. They lived in a tiny little house in a tiny little village named Roslyn. In our modern times Roslyn would be considered a one stop light sort of place. Blink and you might miss it.

Lawrence supported himself and Rose by making furniture. It kept him very busy so Rose ended up spending a lot of time alone. She didn’t have any friends. The kids at school were very cruel to her. You see Rose was different. She had red hair, freckles and she was very mature for her age.

One day after yet another day of being tormented at school, Rose decided to go for a walk in the woods on the outskirts of town. She had never done this before. She was crying. Shortly after entering the woods she heard a whisper calling to her,”Rose why are you crying?” “They hate me I just want to escape forever and ever!” “Sleep” the forest whispered. Little did Rose know she was in an enchanted forest. Rose suddenly felt very sleepy and curled up in the grass. Soon she faded away and all that remained were seeds. The seeds burrowed into the soil and all was still.

The shadows of the ending day began to fall. Lawrence put the finishing touches on the chair he had been working on and headed into the house, “Rose?!” He called out but there was no answer. He started to get worried and decided to go looking for her. He went by the school and all the other places he could think she had gone. He couldn’t find her. Off in the distance he saw the woods, “I wonder if she went in there?” He felt his heart sink. If only he paid more attention to her!

Lawrence went home and grabbed his flashlight and headed back to the woods. It didn’t take long before he got to the clearing where Rose had fallen asleep…..but she wasn’t there! All Lawrence found was an outline of his daughters sleeping form. He touched the soil. It was still warm. He called out to her but only heard birds settling down to sleep. He began to weep. His tears fell to the space where she had been and then something miraculous happened….a plant with a deep red flower began to rise up to him. He had never seen such a flower. His tears flowed over the flower as it seemed to respond to his voice. It started to sink in that his Rose was gone. “I will call you Rose,” the bereaved father cried….and that is how the Rose came to be. The End.

1 November 2021 Monday

Hello. Good morning from here. I have a cup of coffee and my writing buddy Link beside me. How are you? If you celebrated Halloween how was it? Did you get a lot of trick-or- treaters? I had about ten or so. Turns out most people in my neighborhood go to the other side of town. Aw well….me and my hat with goggles showed up !

Someday I’m going to get more of a costume together!

Now there will be a lull for a couple of weeks and then it will be Thanksgiving. I am trying to keep my heart in the center of my chest and out of my stomach. I’m trying to push myself more…..baby steps.

“The Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear. … I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.” (Dune)