3 September 2021 Change

Hello to you ! How are you today ? I hope your doing well. I am waking up and debating what I should do with my day. As I sit here on the porch it’s quite chilly, only 52 degrees !

A topic that has been coming up a lot for myself personally and many I know is getting older. I’m 53 and already I can feel my body has changed . Just bending down to pick something up takes an effort like it never used to . At my age comes the discussions of colonoscopies and the importance of annual exams . I have been horrible about self care! A big reason is I don’t trust the system we have to use. For people like me with sketchy coverage by insurance you just don’t know what kind of care you are going to get. Healthcare and getting old kind of go hand in hand .

I wanted to talk about my drawing briefly . Metatrons cube keeps showing up because I perceive it as a symbol of divine plans. The wisp people represent the spirit world that is ever present within and all around us.

Divine plans and messengers to deliver messages

28 August 2021 Morning

Hello to you ! How are you doing from where you are visiting from ? I hope we’ll. It’s morning as I write to you. I have been been better but I will be alright . It’s really helpful to have this blog to turn to.

Morning arrives with light, flitting of wing and color , the trees whisper amongst themselves and stretch their limbs to the morning sun, “ Good morning! Good morning!” The world seems so pleased there is another day.

For the past year or so mornings have been rough for me . I was am still adjusting to be alone and not having a people to wake up to every day . I am grateful for Link but he can’t wrap his arms around me and say “good morning.” I keep hoping it will get better.

I have been trying to establish a routine that includes walking Link and then taking a walk myself. Walking helps alleviate the anxiety I feel most mornings . I am having to come to a peace about my life now and I am hoping gradually it will get better .

24 August 2021 Feelings

Hello again. How are you doing? It’s chilly this morning! I am not sure I’m ready for cooler temperatures just yet!

Feelings…….how reliable are they? When I listen to people like Joyce Meyer, she often discounts them . As a person that has lived 53 years as a really sensitive person or an empath I have relied on feelings. I have oftentimes connected feelings to the voice of intuition – the “still, small voice.” Have I been mislead all this time ? Are feelings really that unreliable ?

For the past couple of years I’ve been trying to put my life back together. The biggest stumbling block has been the feeling of fear . I really want to overcome it and get back in touch with the part of me that is confident. I want to feel sure about things again.

Drawing for today

9 August 2021 Survival

Hello to you! How are you doing today? I am doing pretty good. Link and I got around the block once and then I did two laps on my own. It was nice and cool.

Yesterday I went to the Idaho Discovery Center exhibit of the Titanic with my aunt, cousin and niece. My passenger, Ms. Edwina Celia Troutt was a survivor. The exhibit overall was a lot of reading and kind of lean on artifacts I felt.

I can remember how the story of the Titanic captured my imagination as a child and I even wrote a song about it. The thought of so many children dying in the lower decks made me so sad . Then there was of course the movie that really brought the tragedy to life. A heavily romanticized telling of the tale.

My boarding pass
Ms Troutt

It was really nice to be out with family . We went to The Curb afterwards and had a nice meal . They were having trouble keeping staff. They said they had lost two people that day ! Things are changing in the restaurant business . Our waitress didn’t hand us menus we had to have a smart phone . She was saying eventually the trend is going to be no wait staff at all – just order directly front the kitchen ! Sad !!! I guess that’s survival of another kind.

6 August 2021 Stabile

Hello there, how are you ? I’m doing ok this morning. I just finished talking with my therapist about some things . One of the subjects that came up was about the importance of being in a stabile relationship. In order to have that I have to be stabile myself. She and I agreed that I am not entirely stabile myself. So I need to work on that.

Through the stars I cast my gaze , your face is a mystery shrouded in haze. I once knew you well, before the down times before I fell . You were always there to catch me and guide me home, then came the day you left me to fly alone. Why can’t I shake my unrequited love for you ? Why can’t I accept what is true ?

3 August 2021 Science Fiction

Hello to you ! How are you ? I am doing ok it’s a warm humid day after some nice rains .

My drawing today I think is based on an Amazon original series called Expanse. I’m not quite done with it yet. It’s got an interesting plot with bioterrorism using an alien life form.

Drawing for today

Sometimes science fiction becomes science fact. The plot of the show is plausible . I can see them terraforming Mars!

21 July 2021 Gratitude

Hello to you . How are you doing today? I am doing good – grateful for my health and well being today. There are a lot of people in this world who have drawn the short straw of life. I am grateful for my family and friends. I am grateful for Link. I am grateful to have food, clothing and shelter . I am grateful to have a loving God of my understanding. There is so much! It’s important that when I start to feel out of sorts that I pull out my gratitude list! I pray for all those who aren’t so fortunate that things will get better !

20 July 2021 Running from Yourself

Hello to you. How are you as I write to you today? I am doing ok . It’s been really smokey and hazy here and it’s made me think of the topic I’ve talked about before – you can’t run away from yourself . Where you go there you are. Like many people I am a transplant to Idaho . I wasn’t born here and since moving here I have felt a bit like the Californians and other people who have invaded this ill prepared state . People who are from here do not have competitive wages to allow for them to buy decent homes so they have to pay ridiculous rent fees or some are even resorting to sleeping in campers! The infiltrators have gradually destroyed this states economy. They are turning this place into what they ran away from ! Ugh ! Tracts of farmland are being turned into homes of little to no character! I don’t mean to be negative but it’s true. The same thing is happening all over the country . Who is winning in all this? It seems fleeting – like a gold rush or like when the boom towns happened in the Midwest over oil. Does anyone have vision? Foresight ? Or does greed rule the day ?

15 July 2021 Walking

Hello to you! How are you as I write to you today ? I am doing ok . This morning I got out with Link and had the morning drag (lol) and then I made myself get out for a lap on my own. I’m trying to tone up my body and my plan is to walk more to do that . Anything is better than nothing ! I also do sit-ups and lift my little 5lb weights throughout the day. I’ll just keep at it !!!

8 July 2021 Starlight Mountain Adventure

Hello to you how are you as you visit me here ? It’s shaping up to be another hot day! I already got my mile walk in. Truth be told I’m still recovering from an adventure with my aunt last night . We joined her church group The Oakes (55plus) on a bus trip to the Starlight Mountain Theater production of Singing in the Rain . Wow was it good! The tap dancing was my favorite part !! They had a cute way of advertising for their sponsors – they sang and danced ! They have a talented bunch of young people on cast ! I would highly recommend if you are in the Garden City area that you make seeing one of their shows a part of the trip !