6 Dec 2017 Link, Map like a blanket (dream) and I-7 (Genesis)

Hello to you in your here and now.  It’s 3:36 am on this cold Wednesday morning here as I start to write to you.  How are you?  Kyle and I are all off schedule lately.  We’ve been going to bed at like 7 and getting up at 1 or 2 in the morning.  I know some of it has to do with May’s passing and our processing grief over that but also it’s probably the season’s change in lightness and darkness, the weather and things like that.  We have learned to just go with it and get rest when we can!  Since a  young age I’ve been a person who takes naps.  When I was younger,  it was usually after I ate and the carb crash thing but now it’s that, side effects to my medication and just getting older.  My battery needs more frequent recharges lol.

I am blessed to have a Link who is always up for a nap!

6 Dec 2017 – Link this morning snuggling in a small version of one of my fleece blankets. I like making blankets for our “kids” – they just love them as much as people do.

In a couple of days he is going to be 3 years old!  I will never forget the joy Kyle and I shared meeting him and his brothers Dutch and TJ the first time.  He was so tiny he fit into the palms of our hands.  Holding him them,  I would have never guessed he would grow to be as big as Spot is!

23 Dec 2014 Jackie Spot and Baby Link for his first Christmas Alvarado TX

He was both a Christmas AND Birthday present to me.  We went to Norman Oklahoma for my 47th birthday in 2015 to bring him home.

13 Feb 2015 Kyle and Link after we arrived Tippie in back and his first toy blue monkey in his pocket Norman OK

The past few days I’ve been dreaming a lot but I have been lax about writing them down or trying to remember all of them.  The dream I had last night is just fragments but poignant ones.  There was something about a map being like a blanket and two women, one being me, crying and being/feeling very small like children.  I remember a man thanking me for something.  He was looking at me like a parent looks at their child when they are hurting.  It was very comforting.

In their way, May, Amber, Sam and Blondie have been some of the finest teachers I could ever hope for in this Earth School.

Imagining May enjoying sunshine wherever she is now. 12 Feb 2015 May in the sunshine Alvarado TX 1

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22 July 2010 our Sammy smiling.

25 Nov 2010 Blondie and Sam at the kiddie table. Blondie was only with us about a year.

Now Spot and Link continue on with the teachings Kyle and I must learn.  Lessons that only can be learned from beings so close to the source of all things….God.

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5 Dec 2017 – I did this drawing yesterday. What came to me was I-7 at first then the number 5982 which I broke down to 3. I was curious to see if there was any correlation to the Bible and I was lead to Genesis. When I look at this I think of a director, a captain of a ship or an engineer. I think of the life force inside of the earth and all it’s manifestations on this earth.

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Genesis+1+&version=NIV

Genesis 1New International Version (NIV)

The Beginning

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness. God called the light “day,” and the darkness he called “night.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day.

And God said, “Let there be a vault between the waters to separate water from water.” So God made the vault and separated the water under the vault from the water above it. And it was so. God called the vault “sky.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the second day.

And God said, “Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place, and let dry ground appear.” And it was so. 10 God called the dry ground “land,” and the gathered waters he called “seas.” And God saw that it was good.

11 Then God said, “Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds.” And it was so. 12 The land produced vegetation: plants bearing seed according to their kinds and trees bearing fruit with seed in it according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good. 13 And there was evening, and there was morning—the third day.

14 And God said, “Let there be lights in the vault of the sky to separate the day from the night, and let them serve as signs to mark sacred times, and days and years, 15 and let them be lights in the vault of the sky to give light on the earth.” And it was so. 16 God made two great lights—the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made the stars. 17 God set them in the vault of the sky to give light on the earth, 18 to govern the day and the night, and to separate light from darkness. And God saw that it was good. 19 And there was evening, and there was morning—the fourth day.

20 And God said, “Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the vault of the sky.” 21 So God created the great creatures of the sea and every living thing with which the water teems and that moves about in it, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to its kind. And God saw that it was good. 22 God blessed them and said, “Be fruitful and increase in number and fill the water in the seas, and let the birds increase on the earth.” 23 And there was evening, and there was morning—the fifth day.

24 And God said, “Let the land produce living creatures according to their kinds: the livestock, the creatures that move along the ground, and the wild animals, each according to its kind.” And it was so. 25 God made the wild animals according to their kinds, the livestock according to their kinds, and all the creatures that move along the ground according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good.

26 Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals,[a] and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”

27 So God created mankind in his own image,
    in the image of God he created them;
    male and female he created them.

28 God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground.”

29 Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food. 30 And to all the beasts of the earth and all the birds in the sky and all the creatures that move along the ground—everything that has the breath of life in it—I give every green plant for food.” And it was so.

31 God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day.

Footnotes:

  1. Genesis 1:26 Probable reading of the original Hebrew text (see Syriac); Masoretic Text the earth

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4 Dec 2017 Journey in my mind using pieces of glass about May cat’s rainbow bridge crossing

Hello to you.  I wanted to share the meditation/grief and therapy session I had this afternoon about our May transitioning beyond us.  I hope something in what you see here will resonate with your heart somehow.  There is no definitive proof of what happens to what was “us” after we die but I like to think we return to the light….the One..to God.  The actual place, if there is such a thing, where the energy comes from for all of what life on earth is.  Back to what “animates” us so we can begin anew.  For those who have lost loved ones of any kind,  I hope this train of thought here helps you heal.  Much love and light to you.

 

4 Dec 2017 – May’s 2nd birthday was today

Rainbow Bridge Michael Bittick Deviantart.com When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.

Sigh….heavy hearts in our time and space as I write to you.  This morning at about 9:30 am  May had her second birthday and has returned to the God of my understanding.  Where once there was a little skinny gray cat there is now only memories and ether…..our love and gratitude is with her essence.

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Last night I noticed she had blood on her left ear, had been unusually quiet all day and hadn’t eaten anything all day either.  Very concerning.  We decided that we would take her to the Alvarado Veterinary Hospital in the morning and ask for an honest assessment of her condition.  It was a very difficult night for me.  I had a nightmare like I haven’t had in a long time.  I remember my friend Rhonda was in it and something about being dragged away in the dark.  I started screaming in my dream for help which then made it to the real world and woke up Kyle.  I realize it may have been about Amber.  She lost all movement just before she died and I had to carry her to bed in the dark that night.  All she could do was purr.  It was a scary dream.

Morning came early.  I spent some quality time with May.  I talked and sang to her and brushed her very dry, matted hair.  She just loved on me like she always did and purred with gratitude.

The clinic opened around 8:00 am and was hopping when we got there.  The Vet who examined May was Dr. Jeremy R. Mitchell.  Kyle and I really appreciated his being straight-forward and honest about May’s condition…..it was time.  He could tell from his examination that she was suffering renal/kidney failure and was severely dehydrated.  He said he could run some blood tests for her but it wouldn’t really change the outcome.  I had to shake his hand because we both appreciated, more than words can express, his honesty and strength in helping us with this most difficult of all decisions a pet owner has to make.   We are grateful to the entire staff at Alvarado Veterinary that helped us today!  We were so impressed today, we may consider  returning to them once the health plans for Banfield expire.

22 Oct 2016 Our May kitty ruling the cat room now since Amber isn’t there

I won’t go into much else right now…still processing and I need to stay focused on the good of all this….the good that was our May.  I will write more as it comes.

Sweet May….who could purr her way out of just about anything.  The cat who loved to play ball….I would day “ready?” and toss a little ball at her and she’d swat it like a champ.  She was always a very heavy cat until this past year…from nearly 20 lbs to just 7.  We have a funny memory of Kyle trying to get her to lose weight in Delaware by chasing her around the apartment.  Oh she hated that!  She even stopped and hissed at him for that lol!  So many memories stretching all the way back to 1999!  We were together all that time and went through so much!

Even with how poorly she was feeling in that office, she loved on both Kyle and I before it was time to go.  She, like every animal I have had the honor to share a life with, teaching me…modeling for me….grace all the way to the end of her story.

I feel like the days leading up to this were God’s way of preparing me….May’s favorite color was Blue.   “Mr. Blue” aka God was very much in my recent drawings and thoughts.

May in 2007 when we lived in Newark DE.

3 Dec 2017 – this picture holds even more meaning for me. We had to make a very difficult choice today.

https://pets.webmd.com/cats/kidney-failure-uremia-symptoms-cats#1 – 

Kidney Failure in Cats – some information about what May was experiencing.  Every cat I’ve had has gone through problems with their kidneys.  My first cat, Kiki, actually died from kidney failure.

This is the song I sang to May as she transitioned on.  I think of it as her , Amber, Blondie and Sam’s message of comfort to Kyle and I about the most difficult part of our shared journey here on earth….being tangibly parted by death.  It’s comforting to think that it’s only temporary….”til we see each other again.  A little different but much the same.”

Marilla Ness – Be not afraid.

A song my friend Cindy shared with me after we lost Amber last year.

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Old Black Cat – Ian Anderson

3 Dec 2017 Our Sacred House (drawing), Trevince House (My Beautiful Things) and A Prayer When I Feel Lonely (Rachel Wojo)

Hello to you.  How are you?  It’s Sunday morning here and I am slowly waking up.  It’s one of those mornings where it was warmer in bed but my lower back was starting to hurt and I couldn’t go back to sleep so I knew it was time to get up!  My goal today is to continue working on writing up notes in Christmas cards so I can more of them in the mail tomorrow.   I was going to do a Christmas letter and decided against it.  Kyle was joking that I should write “Have a nice summer” in the cards.   I told him that wasn’t very  nice LOL!  Remember the school yearbooks?  Getting that written in your book was kind of like them saying, “I don’t know who you are but hey, have a nice summer!”    I won’t be writing that in my notes to people lol!

So I was looking at posts of folks I follow here on WordPress and got a nice synchronicity sort of thing.  My friend Sally from My Beautiful Things had shared some pictures from their visit to Trevince House and in looking at the second picture she shared, I realized it looked a lot like a drawing I did yesterday afternoon!

2 Dec 2017 240 pm Jackie Wygant outdoor chalk drawing our sacred house Alvarado TX

When I drew this all sorts of thoughts were going through my head!  The title I came up with, “Our Sacred House” coincides very well with Sally’s picture I think!

My Beautiful Things

Paddling, Trevince House and Canapés 

Photo #2 From My Beautiful Things blog post about Sally’s visiting Trevince House. (Trevince sits proudly atop a hill overlooking St Wennappa’s Church in the parish of Gwennap, Cornwall)

I was curious about where she was talking about and found the official web site for Trevince House:

http://www.trevince.co.uk/
Trevince sits proudly atop a hill overlooking St Wennappa’s Church in the parish of Gwennap, Cornwall. With roots in the 13th century, Trevince has experienced many architectural changes, from a lost medieval house, to a modest Elizabethan country farmhouse, to a grand redevelopment by the famed Cornish architect Piers St. Aubyn in 1865.

Set in two hundred and seventy acres of farm and woodland, Trevince is adjacent to the renowned ‘richest square mile in the world’, a term coined in the nineteenth century when the area was rich in copper. The importance of Trevince as part of the social history of copper mining led to it being included in the World Heritage Site.

With its granite ashlar and pink killas stone, and classical portico entrance, Trevince has a beauty of its own. It has been in the same family since before 1281, and had never been open to the public until it hosted its first event at Christmas 2016; A COUNTRY HOUSE CHRISTMAS was a unique retail event and pop-up café to which thousands of shoppers eager for a new experience visited during the double-week end event.

The Trevince Team has now announced the dates for the 2017 event. So please join us on 24, 25, 26 November and 1, 2, 3 December for an exquisite Christmas shopping experience. Keep an eye on our news pages for more information.


I hope this finds you well and if not, I hope you know you are not alone in this world.  No one is ever truly alone.  It may seem like it sometimes but just because there isn’t another person around, that doesn’t mean no one is there.   The holiday season isn’t always so jolly for many people.   I was looking for a message to share to help anyone who might need help with this feeling of being alone today and found Rachel Wojo’s message.   I would ask you to get beyond this being a prayer, the words Father and Jesus, if Christianity offends you.  Try to read this prayer with your heart and not with your head.

http://rachelwojo.com/a-prayer-when-i-feel-lonely/

A Prayer When I Feel Lonely

Yesterday on the Facebook page, we took prayer requests. One of our precious readers, Joeann, lost her husband two years ago and she is feeling so lonely.  There have been times in my life when I felt deep feelings of loneliness and my heart aches for Joeann. I was thinking about her during my run today. We’re all praying for you, Joeann! May this prayer provide comfort to her and to you.

A Prayer When I Feel Lonely

Thank you for listening to my heart;

Your patience with me is to be praised.

Today I had that feeling again-

The one where I feel so alone.

It seems that no one understands…

Even my family and friends don’t “get” me at times.

Though I can be in a room full of people,

I feel lonely…

And I feel alone.

I know You said You would never leave me.

 Your Word promises this and it’s true.

These feelings are but signs of my human form.

Would You reveal Yourself to me

In a way far beyond my imagination?

Thank you for the peace beyond my comprehension

That can only be provided by You.

In Jesus’ name,

Amen.

 

when you feel lonely

Be blessed!

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+7&version=NIVthis Chapter is resonate with my thoughts this morning and for most of this year.  We will never heal as a nation or as a world if we continue to take joy in others sufferings.  

Matthew 7New International Version (NIV)

Judging Others

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

“Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

Ask, Seek, Knock

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

“Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

The Narrow and Wide Gates

13 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

True and False Prophets

15 “Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. 16 By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? 17 Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18 A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. 19 Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20 Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.

True and False Disciples

21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22 Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ 23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

The Wise and Foolish Builders

24 “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. 26 But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.”

28 When Jesus had finished saying these things, the crowds were amazed at his teaching, 29 because he taught as one who had authority, and not as their teachers of the law.

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1 Dec 2017 Morning Meditation

Hello to you. How are you doing in your present moment as you visit here? I hope you are less conflicted inside than I am! I am excited about seeing Lindsey Stirling tonight and sad with the news that our neighbors sister died yesterday after not recovering from complications due to an automobile accident! Rhonda was apt to remind me there are pills for my being happy and sad at the same time. I reminded her I’m taking some of those and it’s not helping with my predicament today!

There are more than a few things just popping some pill or another won’t provide any sort of consolation for. Coping with mixed emotions is an inside job to tackle with the God of your understanding if you have one or spending time in prayer, meditation, a long walk….for some to even smoke some weed! It’s important to allow ourselves to feel emotions and not just use people, places and things to obstruct or mask the experience. We are human beings and having feelings is part of being human!

Had an early morning wake up, like 1:38 am or so. It was like someone was standing right next to my side of the bed with a cup of prepared coffee! The mystery kind of got solved when I let the dogs out later and smelled the same sort of smell outside. Must have got into the house via our HVAC system or something.

So this morning’s meditation included my cards and a map of the United States I got from the Sierra Club many years ago. The messages spoke to me but also seemed to speak to what I see is happening these days in our country…in our world. I want to stress cards of any kind and there are millions of different types people use, are just tools. Sometimes I feel like my chalk drawings are too ambiguous and vague. Adding the cards lately is helping things get more specific.

It’s important to not read too much into such things..the phrase “self-fulfilling prophecy” comes to mind. There is always a fork in the road and we can choose, at any moment, which road to take.

1 Dec 2017 – overall reading

1 Dec 2017 – closer look at the cards ad their positions. The direction, facing up or down, changes the overall meaning.

8 of Cups face up- Tells you you will get what you’ve hoped for, but you may be being over-cautious

8 of Swords face down – Warns of unexpected calamities

Knight of Cups face up- Most often represents a lover, or the messenger of true love

8 of Wands face up – This is a time to take action, to be hopeful, to plan your next moves.

2 of Wands face down – Portends something unexpected will happen or enter the picture, or loss or failure in your new enterprise

Ace of Swords face up – Represents triumph by force

3 of Wands face up – Problems can be resolved if the person remains calm, dignified, intelligent

The World face down – Symbolizes complete mastery and understanding of your own inner nature and of the forces surrounding you

3 of Swords face up – Indicates the disintegration of alliances

6 of Swords face down – Indicates a journey, or visitor or message

Special: 5 of Wands face up – Signifies Greed, competition for financial gain, hardship

1 Dec 2017 – the “special” card today speaks directly to America.

The drawings that came up, especially the one with Vladimir Putin dressed in the colors of our flag, political parties and surrounded in “Cheeto Orange” comes with messages that resonated with me with the recent indictment of Michael Flynn. The messages, “They all play in this game” and “Takes many sheep to make a lamb” were what came forth after the poor drawing of Putin. In my perception, it’s not fair to just go after one person when so many are probably involved with this whole thing.  I think it’s important for transparency in this whole issue and to focus on how to make these wrongs right instead of just tearing more people and this country apart.   Sometimes looking at or hearing the news headlines in this country seems like what it may have been for the Romans in their Colosseums!  Just watching people being shredded alive!  Only in our day an age it isn’t flesh being ripped apart by lions, it’s their characters…their very souls. 

1 Dec 2017 – this poor rendering of Vladimir Putin dressed in red white blue and surrounded by Cheeto orange and the messages that came are about how it seems a lamb is chosen to take the fall for everyone and no one ultimately benefits from this. Everyone involved should be held in account!

1 Dec 2017 – my dream has always been a unified earth. Enemies we all share Greed Hate and Fear, Fear being the worst in my feeling. This is me ruminating about the plethora of sexual misconduct allegations we are seeing that are destroying people’s lives. We have to be careful about this tactic.

The other messages pertains to what is going on with people, mostly men, being ripped apart and their legacies laid waste with sexual misconduct allegations. It came to me, as someone who has experienced sexual misconduct many times in my life, that bringing such things to light out of a heartspace of spite does no one any good. It’s just pouring more gasoline on a fire. We don’t heal as a nation and a people by attacking each other out of spite and vengeance.

http://variety.com/2017/politics/news/michael-flynn-guilty-charged-russia-probe-1202627430/ – use link for complete article

Michael Flynn Pleads Guilty to Lying to FBI in Russia Probe

WASHINGTON — Michael Flynn, President Donald Trump’s former national security adviser, plead guilty to one count to lying to the FBI as part of an agreement reached with Special Counsel Robert Mueller in his probe into Russian interference in the 2016 election.

Mueller charged Flynn with “willfully and knowingly” making false statements to the FBI regarding his conversations with Russia’s ambassador, Sergey Kislyak.

 

I told Kyle this morning that in a way, despite how ugly this whole year has been in this country, I am becoming almost grateful for it.  I am seeing it has been the sort of humbling experience this country has needed for a very long time.  We can learn from what is happening in this literal and figurative dismantling of America.  We can come together as a nation and instead of rebuilding other countries as we’ve done in the past after wars….begin to rebuild ours in peaceful cooperation with the rest of this world.   

 

1 Dec 2017 – this was the last drawing and looking at it after talking to our neighbor about the tragic loss of his sister makes me wonder if this was for her.

28 Nov 2017 Connections (drawing inspired by misifusa blog Connecting the Dots)

Hello again.  Just put some food to bake in the oven, the easy pot-pie and have a couple of minutes as we wait.  It’s been a lovely and breezy first part of the day.  As I sat outside doing the drawing I’m going to share, I was being pelted by falling leaves lol.  I loved it.  Leaves hitting me in the face, landing on my drawing or in my lap lol.  I imagined this was the trees with the help of the winds expressing their opinion about things….”put another circle right there!” *leaf falls on the paper in a blank spot lol.

This drawing was inspired by fellow WordPress blogger misifusa’s post today about the special connections we make as bloggers.   As I was drawing, I began to think about all the connections that exist at all levels of our existence.  From one star’s path to another’s in space to a leaf blowing in my yard from a tree across the street.  There is the old 6 degrees of separation connection game.  The connections in our brain from one neural path to another.  It seems so random but is it really?  I don’t think the connections are just a coincidence.  When you lay them all out it’s like a map….a complex plan.

https://misifusa.wordpress.com/2017/11/28/connecting-the-dots/

Excerpt and shared sentiment not just about the blogosphere but just life itself:

“So today, I’m grateful for all of our connections, internet and otherwise.  I love how blogging has expanded our friendships globally.  I can now count friendships with all of you, in many different countries and across the USA.  We are gratefully united through friendship and caring.”

24 Nov 2017 Thanksgiving

Hello there!  I wasn’t sure I was going to post today but decided writing would clear my head before heading to bed early. Kyle is already out lol!  That darn time savings stuff and how much earlier it gets dark out doesn’t help either.  We are both very tired after the fantastic visit with family for Thanksgiving. Kyle’s brother Mark, his wife Tami and their three awesome kids drove down from Delaware to celebrate the holiday with all of us. The weather was perfect and I got to experience why Tim and Beth chose to live in more secluded place….the night sky! This morning, around 4:25 am or so, I was up to take the dogs out and saw a huge falling star streak across the sky! The stars are so bright where they live, little to no light pollution!

What was funny was before the star shot across the sky I remember thinking, “Are you there God? It’s me Jackie!” The answer was there before I even finished the thought in that streak of light. I just couldn’t get enough of that celestial tapestry they have at their place!  You just stand beneath it in awe, wonder and the thought, “How great thou art.”

It was fantastic to get caught up with everyone. Some of the things we talked about however, broke my heart and Kyle’s parents too.  You don’t ever want to hear your child, who is among three of their boys who have or are still serving in the military, tell you what we heard Mark has been going through.  He is serving in the Guard and is suffering from side-effects of the Anthrax vaccine. There is nothing he can do legally about it since he’s still employed  for another 2 years. They are having to pay a $500 co-pay for injections to treat abnormally low testosterone levels caused by the shot! His story fuels my strong feelings about military service.  His story is just another reason why I encourage young people considering military service to find another option!

Hearing him talk about what he’s been going through physically and emotionally with this brought me to tears and I felt very angry.  He’s pretty sure at some point he’s going to have to deal with cancer or some other illness from just the injections he’s getting now and they have three young children!

I found this post from back in 2009 that gives a little insight into what Mark and Veterans like him are going through:

http://vets4politics.blogspot.com/2009/01/from-colonel-dan.html

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

From Colonel Dan

No weapons of mass destruction found in Iraq, but forced anthrax vaccinations are back anyway

Meryl Nass, M.D.

January 20, 2007

The bad news is that the Pentagon has begun giving mandatory anthrax vaccinations to soldiers, despite the lack of a formal announcement.

In late October 2006, Assistant Secretary of Defense for Health Affairs, William Winkenwerder, M.D. ( http://www.ha.osd.mil/ha/winkenwerder-bio.cfm ), announced that the mandatory anthrax vaccine program was to be reinstated in about two months, after new policies were issued. Although the policies are still pending, perhaps due to the fact that a new Secretary of Defense began his tenure after the announcement was made, the military has begun widespread vaccinations, often during boot camp. Previously, vaccinations were generally given to soldiers right before deploying, when they were more seasoned.

One may surmise that vaccinating soldiers with a controversial and dangerous vaccine as soon as they begin active duty was carefully calculated: the new recruits won’t have the opportunity to learn about all the problems associated with this vaccine in advance of their inoculations. By making no formal announcement of the resumption of vaccinations, the Defense Department forestalled public discussion of the program in the media, which would likely lead to undesirable publicity, when the military is already enmeshed in a very unpopular war and trying hard to “look good.”

Here are the facts about the vaccine:

1. FDA only approved the vaccine manufacturing plant in January 2002 under pressure from the administration, as a result of 9/11. The renovated plant was still not able to produce sterile vaccine! The compromise led to all vaccine batches being trucked to Washington State, to be bottled by another company with cleaner procedures.

2. The recipe and method for making vaccine did not change since 1998, according to the manufacturer’s testimony to the Institute of Medicine in 2001. Thus there is no reason to think this version of the vaccine is any better than the old version.

3. Unfortunately, I am still contacted several times a week by soldiers who received post-renovation anthrax vaccine, but became sick with the same illnesses that were caused by older vaccine lots. Although some lots of vaccine may be worse than others, please do not assume that any lots are completely safe. The vaccine component(s) causing the illnesses remains unknown.

4. Many studies of Gulf War veterans suggest anthrax vaccine caused or contributed to chronic illness in those veterans. The only studies that claim the vaccine is safe were performed by the Defense Department. Most of those studies were supervised by the same individual, Colonel John Grabenstein, who was the director of the military’s vaccine program. Colonel Grabenstein claimed that NO chronic illnesses resulted from anthrax vaccine. Yet on the anthrax vaccine package insert, FDA explains why those military studies had serious problems and cannot be relied upon.

5. Anthrax vaccine reactions are unfortunately very common. Most soldiers who have been in the military for long know several people who became ill and/or disabled shortly after receiving anthrax inoculations. I estimate that 10% – 30% of all soldiers who have been vaccinated have developed some medical problem as a result. Some are minor, some severe. Many airmen have lost the ability to continue flying (DNIF).

6. The most common side effects are new pains in muscles and joints. Short-term memory loss and periods of confusion are also common. Fatigue and problems sleeping usually accompany these symptoms. Some people develop inflammatory bowel disease, with severe, sometimes bloody diarrhea. Some develop other autoimmune disorders, like lupus erythematosus, multiple sclerosis, and reactive arthritis. Rashes are common. There have been many cases of low testosterone. Thyroid disorders appear commonly.

You can download vaccine adverse event reporting system (VAERS) reports since 1998 from the FDA website to see what kinds of medical problems were experienced following anthrax inoculations, according to the nearly 5,000 soldiers who have reported them to FDA.

You can read about a study of the anthrax vaccine VAERS reports by independent researchers Mark and David Geier at:

http://www.military-biodefensevaccines.org/documents/GeierOct2006.ppt

7. Sometimes other vaccinations bring on recurrent symptoms. Sometimes odors begin to trigger symptoms. Some people improve over time; some stay the same; some worsen. A few have died. There is a suspicion that thyroid cancer may be caused by the vaccine, and breast or cervical cancers in females. Military statistics from the Defense Medical Surveillance System Database indicate many more hospitalizations for those problems after anthrax vaccination, compared to before vaccination. See the military’s own statistics at: http://books.nap.edu/openbook.php?record_id=10310&page=246

What can soldiers do when faced with the anthrax vaccine? It seems we are in a legal gray area now. Personally, I would ask to be given informed consent. I would ask for a copy of the vaccine label to review, which can be found at: http://www.fda.gov/CBER/label/biopava0131022LB.pdf

No one has been court-martialed for refusal recently, and ASD Winkenwerder did not say what punishments might be used against vaccine refusers last October, when he announced the program was to be restarted.

You are welcome to contact the Military Biodefense Vaccine Project (http://www.military-biodefensevaccines.org/) and contact@military-biodefensevaccines.org for a discussion of your personal situation with a knowledgeable volunteer.

Meryl Nass, M.D.

http://www.anthraxvaccine.org

On a more positive note….

The visit allowed me to get to spend some time with Mark and Tami’s three children Laci, Alex and Owen. This was very precious to me as we so seldom get to see each other and as most know, kids grow up so darn fast! The weather was fantastic and I had a hankering to do some chalk drawing but I had left mine at home. My mother-in-law Beth happened to have a couple pieces of chalk on hand, so their youngest, Owen and I went out at first and then Alex and Laci joined us. We traced shadows of their bikes and them lol. It was a lot of fun and they really did a good job!

23 Nov 2017 – Laci Wygant tracing of her bicycles shadow.

 

23 Nov 2017 – Alex Wygant tracing of his bicycles shadow Cresson TX

 

23 Nov 2017 – Owen Wygant tracing of his bicycles shadow.

We had a pizza party on Wednesday and traditional faire on Thursday. I was hoping Beth would go easy on herself. One of these years I’ll get her to do that! Her and Tim always make sure the holidays are full of great food and fun. We also had 6 dogs in addition to all the extra humans this year. There would have been more but Mark and Tami kenneled their dogs as they weren’t sure how their large dogs would do with a bunch of, as my Mom so aptly calls them, “yipper shitters.” LOL!

24 Nov 2017 – all the little dogs but Dale who is our shy one. Jack, Link, Henry, Spot and Suzie.

I decided I was finally ready for the camera Tim and Beth had offered me awhile ago.  It’s a Nikon Digital Camera D5100 with lenses you can change out. It’s very similar to the high quality camera’s I used to use a lot in my younger days when I was stationed in Europe. So now comes the learning curve and so far so good. I love the responsiveness of it compared to my poor old Canon I’ve used to death and the dying cell phone camera. So the quality of my pictures for posts will be better. I’m probably going to have to go through and cull pictures from older posts again soon….not much room left!

Anyhew…time to close. Hope those who celebrated the holiday had a great time and just finds anyone stumbling in here on purpose or by accident doing great! Keep your inner lamps lit!  Love and Hugs through the wires!

Great line from Stranger Things 2, episode 5 – Murray Bauman

“You’re being naïve Nancy! those people, they’re not wired like me and you okay? They don’t spend their lives trying to get a look at what’s behind the curtain. They like the curtain, and open the curtain behind that curtain. So the minute someone with an ounce of authority calls bullshit, everyone will nod their heads and say, See? Ha! I knew it was bullshit. That is if you even get their attention at all.

 

 

20 Nov 2017 A sky of X’s and exploring shadows in art

Hello to you.  It’s 9:29 am on this Monday morning as I begin to write to you.  How is your present moment going?  Good I hope!  It’s really chilly here.  On the walk this morning I was pretty disappointed to look up and see airplane poop tracks all over the sky and more being put down as we walked.  Kyle and I have resigned ourselves to knowing it’s happening and not just here.  We are hoping our tax dollars aren’t paying for this sort of thing!  We certainly didn’t vote on or have a say in it happening.  It’s just happening and affects every living thing on this planet….especially the trees.  I’ve noticed for quite some time now that some of the trees in our yard, neighborhood and in the surrounding area seem to have compromised immune systems.   I don’t think it’s just from what they are getting exposed to above of course, but I’m sure it’s not helping.

I see scenery and outdoor pictures other people post that have the trails in them.  There was a scene in the BBC show The Living and the Dead that had them too.  They actually used the trails as a plot device to show the bleedover from the future into Colin Morgan’s characters present!  Most recently, I remember seeing a sky of the all too familiar “x’s”watching Stranger Things 2.  I see several other folks noticed it too.  This recording I found probably won’t stay long on You tube because of copyright and licensing stuff tied to sharing bootleg things from television shows and movies:

Chemtrails in stranger things 2.

The chalk drawings this morning were inspired by shadows.  Blame it on the “upside down” concept in Stranger Things 2 lol.  It’s kind of eery what happens when you look at something in the sun then draw the shadow whatever you are looking at casts beyond it.  I think that thought could go beyond just art but to so many other matters of our existence.  What we “see” isn’t all that is before us – people, places, things and situations.  They all have what we can see and it’s amazing what sunlight can do to illustrate what may not be readily visible.

For example, from *coughs uncomfortably,  my own experience.  Have you ever thought you swept your tile floor and then the sun comes through the window and shows you all that you missed?  Those glass shelves (don’t ever buy furniture made of metal with glass shelves it attracts dust like crazy) you literally just dusted are still incredibly dusty?!  The sun can show you just how inept your house keeping skills really are!  For me, the “suns judgement”  usually means it’s time to get on my hands and knees with a bucket of soapy water!

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Revelation 10:11–11:14 – this is the story of the Two Witnesses that I am referring to.  I know it’s probably “out there” to suggest the witnesses could be trees.  Just the thought that came to me doing this drawing:

Revelation 10:11-11:14New International Version (NIV)

11 Then I was told, “You must prophesy again about many peoples, nations, languages and kings.”

The Two Witnesses

11 I was given a reed like a measuring rod and was told, “Go and measure the temple of God and the altar, with its worshipers. But exclude the outer court; do not measure it, because it has been given to the Gentiles. They will trample on the holy city for 42 months. And I will appoint my two witnesses, and they will prophesy for 1,260 days, clothed in sackcloth.” They are “the two olive trees” and the two lampstands, and “they stand before the Lord of the earth.”[a] If anyone tries to harm them, fire comes from their mouths and devours their enemies. This is how anyone who wants to harm them must die. They have power to shut up the heavens so that it will not rain during the time they are prophesying; and they have power to turn the waters into blood and to strike the earth with every kind of plague as often as they want.

Now when they have finished their testimony, the beast that comes up from the Abyss will attack them, and overpower and kill them. Their bodies will lie in the public square of the great city—which is figuratively called Sodom and Egypt—where also their Lord was crucified. For three and a half days some from every people, tribe, language and nation will gaze on their bodies and refuse them burial. 10 The inhabitants of the earth will gloat over them and will celebrate by sending each other gifts, because these two prophets had tormented those who live on the earth.

11 But after the three and a half days the breath[b] of life from God entered them, and they stood on their feet, and terror struck those who saw them. 12 Then they heard a loud voice from heaven saying to them, “Come up here.” And they went up to heaven in a cloud, while their enemies looked on.

13 At that very hour there was a severe earthquake and a tenth of the city collapsed. Seven thousand people were killed in the earthquake, and the survivors were terrified and gave glory to the God of heaven.

14 The second woe has passed; the third woe is coming soon.

Footnotes:

  1. Revelation 11:4 See Zech. 4:3,11,14.
  2. Revelation 11:11 Or Spirit (see Ezek. 37:5,14)

New International Version (NIV)Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.® Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.

 

 

19 Nov 2017 Meditations (wasp), FFXIV Warrior of Light and hot glue gun ring

Hello to you – just popping in on this beautiful Sunday .  Hope this finds you well.  The pictures are just some random things from the past couple of days.  For my meditations the past couple of years, I’ve started using things like statues etc., as part of my experience.  Yesterday I realized I was kind of doing something that Henry Thoreau talked about in his book Walden.  It’s the part when he noticed how much different objects he had in his home looked when he took them outside when he had to clean the floor.  He was right!  The sunlight on an object versus artificial light of most homes really does change how an object appears.

“It was pleasant to see my whole household effects out on the grass, making a little pile like a gypsy’s pack, and my three-legged table, from which I did not remove the books and pen and ink, standing amid the pines and hickories.  They seemed glad to get out themselves, and as if unwilling to be brought in.  I was sometimes tempted to stretch an awning over them and take my seat there.  It was worth the while the see the sun shine on these things, and hear the free wind blow on them; so much more interesting objects look out of doors than in the house.” – Walden by Henry David Thoreau

My dream factory last night melded a lot of what I’ve been watching, reading and thinking about lately all into one.  In one of the dreams last night I was in the woods and walked by a tiny home that was painted blood red inside and all it had was a built-in-dresser.  Then there were two tall blonde men standing near a stream in the woods talking to me.  They looked familiar, like Ragnar and Bjorn from Vikings.  They were talking about buying a small fishing cabin.  I can remember hearing the voice of a man out of visual range of the two men I was talking to adding to the conversation.  There was something about Psalms from the bible, my mind wants to say it was 137,  but I’m not sure.  It does correlate a bit to talking to the two men at the stream.

Psalm 137New International Version (NIV) – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm%20137

Psalm 137

By the rivers of Babylon we sat and wept
    when we remembered Zion.
There on the poplars
    we hung our harps,
for there our captors asked us for songs,
    our tormentors demanded songs of joy;
    they said, “Sing us one of the songs of Zion!”

How can we sing the songs of the Lord
    while in a foreign land?
If I forget you, Jerusalem,
    may my right hand forget its skill.
May my tongue cling to the roof of my mouth
    if I do not remember you,
if I do not consider Jerusalem
    my highest joy.

Remember, Lord, what the Edomites did
    on the day Jerusalem fell.
“Tear it down,” they cried,
    “tear it down to its foundations!”
Daughter Babylon, doomed to destruction,
    happy is the one who repays you
    according to what you have done to us.
Happy is the one who seizes your infants
    and dashes them against the rocks.

New International Version (NIV)Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.® Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.

‘Vikings’ Renewed for Season 6 at History Ahead of Season 5 Premiere

*29 Nov 2017 premiere – History channel – if we can watch it (don’t have cable, had to watch it online last time) looking forward to seeing Jonathan Rhys Meyers and the remaining cast.

The hot glue gun ring is me experimenting…at play.  I had bought what’s called a “candle ring” from a neighbors garage sale a while ago and it tarnished on me like rings of that quality tend to do.  I really liked the setting design and the red crystal in it.  So this morning I tried to make a wire wrap ring using the stone and it didn’t work.  What I came up with was a mess.  So a thought occurred to me to try to make a ring out of hot glue and set the loose stone in it.  Why not?!  Well it came out pretty cool lol.  I have no idea how durable it is or how long it will last but it was fun.  I have had more fun with the hot glue gun.  Kyle brought it home several years ago now after he was done with it in his welding classes.  They used Styrofoam and the hot glue guns to practice welding things together before actually trying to weld metal together.

100 DIY ways to use a GLUE GUN | CRAFTS & HACKS

31 Oct 2017 What does “Made in American” mean today and Halloween meditations in chalk

Hello to you, how are you doing in your here and now?  I’m kind of bummed lol.  We bought a bunch of Halloween candy and it looks like the powers that be have decided to possibly rain us out.  We do need water more than candy so I won’t get too upset lol…just kind of shitty.  It’s ok no matter what as it’s not as much fun celebrating Halloween without Kyle around anyways…he still has to work.  The other reason I’m bummed out is our dishwasher, a Whirlpool, that is only about 2 years old is already acting up on us.  We aren’t sure what’s wrong with it but no matter what we did, it wouldn’t go through it’s cycles and clean the dishes.  Since we’ve lived here, anything that has to do with water – toilets, sinks, shower,  appliances has had something go wrong with it.  I really hope our dishwasher wasn’t made with the intention of it only lasting 2 years!  I expect better from a brand like Whirlpool *American made….that use to mean something!  Now when I see something is made in America I question if I should buy it!  What is the companies bottom line?  Profit or a quality product…caring about customer satisfaction?  Grrrr.

Went out and had some time with the chalks this morning.  The themes that came up aren’t new and have come up before; it’s just a different way.  Some of the things help me further understand things I’ve been thinking and writing about lately.  The meditations in chalk and notes I made are part of my quest to understand myself, God as I perceive them and the “shine” attraction I mentioned yesterday.

Anyhew to close-

Last night I saw an article about spooky space sounds NASA was sharing and really got a kick out of hearing them!  Some sounded like old video game music, some sounded like sacred sounds “OM” and some sounded like some sort of language.  If you go to this link, they have a way for you to listen too if your interested!  Thank you NASA!

http://www.businessinsider.com/scary-sounds-space-astronomy-nasa-2017-10

These eerie space ‘sounds’ recorded by NASA are creepy enough to make your skin crawl

Dave Mosher

“Just in time for Halloween, NASA on Thursday released a compilation of 22 outer-space sounds “that is sure to make your skin crawl,” the space agency said in a release.”

*2:13 pm – it’s raining….sigh.