1 July 2018 Be A Bridge (Chalk drawing, dream)

Hello.  How are you doing in this moment you visit here?  I hope you are well.  My heart is a bit heavy and conflicted.  It’s confusing emotionally to read news of about a murder suicide of a family of 5 in Price Delaware, the death toll from the flood in Western Japan rising, a newborn being killed in a tornado, tariff wars tempered with 6 year old twins saving a drowning child, interesting progress in space exploration, China offering to fund restoration of the Middle East….such a tenuous balance all of “this.”

My drawing from yesterday and the dream I had this morning kind of ties in nicely to this balance, this race we are running together….this bridge we are building.

10 July 2018 – I drew this without a message and then we got some piddly rain that came through (rain just enough to blurr the drawings I did ) so I went back and touched it up.

The dream this morning was of being at a running race that was taking place on a very high bridge like the one in this drawing.  The little yellow shapes on the bridge in my drawing are people.  So I’m initially below the bridge watching the people running and then I try to figure out how they got up on the bridge to run the race.  I take a closer look and see they are using trampolines to jump up to the top of the bridge to finish the race.  Then, like happens in dreams, fast forward and I’m on top of the bridge with other people like we are waiting for the others.  Then we transition to watching a version of the very same race in a very primitive video game form.

When I talked out this dream with Kyle we think it was like dream central saying, “Yeah, you guys are about 6 consoles away from getting your shit together.”   Funny Universe, very funny! 

We are innovative.  We have a lot of ambition, ingenuity and creativity as a species.  What we haven’t yet mastered, and I’m as guilty as anyone, is team work.   I’ve never been very good at working with others but I try.  My problem is I learned the lesson of self reliance all too well growing up.  I also learned that unless I do it, it’s not going to get done right….yeah…some trust issues.  Too many times I trusted people to do their jobs right and they didn’t.  They let me down.  Turns out that’s too bad because you can’t do everything by yourself!  Sooner or later you are going to have to let other people help.  You are going to have to trust other people to do things with and for you.  They may fuck up but that’s part of the journey and you just have to let that process happen.  Remember….Life is School.  We are all in Earth School.  

If we are going to survive as a species, we have got to ditch all those things we are using to exclude people from the team like skin color, physical appearance, race, religion, sex, sexual orientation, economic class, profession, disabilities/health conditions.  It’s time to ditch the “labels” we put on people that make them ineligible to join the team of life.  The energy of God put us all here for a purpose otherwise we wouldn’t be here.  God doesn’t make junk!

Sooner or later we are all going to find our way to get to the top of the bridge and I think there has got to be an better way than relying on trampolines and a Nintendo console!

Source Internet: Track and Field

2 18 9 4 7 5

B R I D G E = 45/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle (it is a very labor intensive work to build a bridge and keep it structurally sound)

9 18 5 12 1 14 4

I R E L A N D = 63/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle (interesting that two unrelated words would be the same)

18 1 9 2 15 23

R A I N B O W = 68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (7 known colors to the rainbow, I’ve seen 8.  The color pink hidden in there)

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8 July 2018 Options (Drawing) and True Facts About The Octopus (video)

7 July 2018 – Strange drawing I did and the title “options” came to me afterwards.

As I get older, I realize that the thing I value the most is good-heartedness.
Alice Walker

Hello to you in your here and now.  How are you doing?  I hope this finds you well.  I’m still waking up.  I am finally feeling like I’ve got some rest but still not got my “Sim Energy Bar” completely back to full lool.  For those who have played or have seen the Sims videogame, you know what I’m talking about!

Dreams were happening all night long but none that have prompted me to get up and write them down like I normally do.  This isn’t necessarily a bad thing as then I stay in bed and get more sleep!  The only thing I remember from last nights journeys was a ghostly, transparent white face in one of them.

The drawing I’m sharing today is strange.  Let me try to explain what it means to me.

Source Internet: jack-storms-glass-cube

It started out being like a jewelry design.  Then it became something Jack Storms the glass carver/artist (https://jackstorms.com/) might make with the boxes on top.  Then the thought of hot boxes from space falling in the water and landing on a giant octopus came to my mind.  Finally, when I sat back and really looked at this mess of imagery, it looked like something happening to the earth.  The eye of the octopus began to look like the earth to me.  The gray line and three planets to the right came after that….hence “options.”   What are our options as a planet should something really big hit it?  My imagination run amok loool.

My husband told me about this Meme this morning and it made me laugh especially since we are tackling laundry this morning!

See the source image

10 5 4 9

J E D I = 28/10/1

12 1 21 14 4 18 25

L A U N D R Y = 95/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

15 3 20 15 16 21 19

O C T O P U S = 109/10/1

3 12 1 13

C L A M = 29/11/2/1

15 16 20 9 15 14

O P T I O N = 89/17/6/3 cycle (makes sense, when you are making choices or considering options it would be a cycle)

This video surprised me.  I thought it was just going to be another nature video until I started listening to the narrator!  Zomg I found it hilarious and informative at the same time.  He sounds like a variation of Morgan Freeman to me.  He managed to bridge the gap between humor and learning….”Clams are dumb.”  Never considered the intelligence of a clam before!

True Facts About The Octopus

I hope you have a lovely day.  Positive vibes through the wires!

4 July 2018 Unity

https://translate.google.com/ – handy tool I’ve been using so I can enjoy posts from folks here in their home languages

Hello to you – hope this finds you well today.  It’s a holiday for us here in the states.  We plan to celebrate with family – cook out and visit.  My favorite part of any holiday is sharing good food and catching up with people I haven’t seen in awhile!

Holidays are a time to express a micro version of what the world could be but isn’t quite yet – one big family.  World unity is probably a word to chalk up to the ancient dreams of Utopia but definitely a prize to seek.  It is a vision I’ve always had to see the celebration of all our differences.  The people of this world working as a family.  Each bringing their unique pieces of thread and fabric to construct the world quilt.  For all the ways we are different, there are so many more ways we are just the same.

Source Internet: World Quilt

http://www.worldprayers.org/prayerwheel/index.html 

The spin of the World Prayer wheel gave me this, I think it’s beautiful.  I had to read it through aloud more than once as the language style is not what I’m used to reading or writing: 

A faintish journey do I make
As through this frazzled world I wind,
With heavy heart and weary steps,
But with determined mind.

Beseech I for a flicker of
The faith than can a mountain move,
And hold that tenet close to me,
Believing where I cannot prove.

The pow’r that comes when sinking low
To man who grasps for straw or rope,
Will clutch til has he breath no more
For where there’s life, there’s hope.

If my good turn be given to
My fellow man’s deficiency,
I’ll try to share my lowly gifts
Of Faith and Hope and Charity.

faith, hope, and charity – anne shannon demarest – 1965
Interesting results with the words today:

21 14 9 20 25

U N I T Y = 89/17/8/4/2/1

21 20 15 16 9 1

U T O P I A = 82/10/1

4 9 6 6 5 18 5 14 20

D I F F E R E N T  = 87/15/6/3 cycle – makes sense it would be a endless cycle

19 1 13 5

S A M E = 38/11/2/1

1 12 9 11 5

A L I K E = 38/11/2/1

23 15 18 12 4

W O R L D = 72/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle – makes sense to divide the world would create a cycle and not a positive one.

17 21 9 12 20

Q U I L T = 79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 – a quilt is made of many parts of various pieces of cloth

2 12 1 14 11 5 20

B L A N K E T = 65/11/2/1 – I was curious!  A quilt eventually becomes a blanket

My deepest condolences to Tina Turner at the loss of her son Craig.  No mother should have to lose her child this way.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/music/celebrity/tina-turners-son-dead-of-apparent-suicide/ar-AAzxNKo?li=BBnb7Kz&OCID=ansmsnnews11

Tina Turner’s eldest son, Craig Raymond Turner, has died of an apparent self-inflicted gunshot wound.

TMZ reported that authorities arrived at Craig’s Studio City, Calif., home around noon on July 3 and found his body.

Craig, 59, was pronounced dead at the scene. He was in the real estate business in the Los Angeles area.

Craig was born in 1958 when his famous mother was 18 years old. His biological father is a musician named Raymond Hill. After Tina married Ike Turner, Ike adopted Craig as his own.

Tina is currently in Paris attending events associated with Paris Fashion Week events. On Tuesday, she stepped out for the Giorgio Armani Prive Haute Couture Fall/Winter 2018-2019 show.

9 June 2018 Songs of our time – What Else Is There (Royksopp) and More Than This (The Cure)

I don’t know who wrote this.  I found it on the internet this morning without an author attached to it.  It was interesting to me:

Time
If the Particle in question
is to also move in time
it should change its energy
Or it stands still in time

Hello to you.  It’s morning in my here and now.  Already battling dust bunnies and ants but mercifully there is coffee and I am not the lone witness to these petty struggles lol!  How are you?  I hope this finds you well.

This morning I wanted a couple of songs for my post and What Else Is There by Royksopp and More Than This by the Cure stood out.  Songs with messages that speak to our current times.  The struggle I think so many, to include myself, are facing these days.  What else is there to this life?  Is there more than “this?”  What exactly is “this?”

For some the “this” seems to be a struggle from the moment they are born until the moment of their departure.  For some it seems only given a moment to be born and a few short days, months of years to struggle to be here and fade away.  For some the “this” is never knowing any pain, conflict or difficulty – a pampered and sheltered existence their entire lives.

Everyone seems to arrive and depart with assigned positions on the stage of life with very few roles being cast off to another player.  Painters painting, tradespeople trading, the usury using, talking heads talking, politicians politicking, soldiers soldiering, lawyers lawyering, police, fire and emergency responders flying with unseen wings from one crisis to another.  All the possible colors and textures of our skin be it human or otherwise the costumes we adorn for this blurring dance.   In between all “this,” the first of us be they of wings or fins, frantically sew all the holes we are tearing open across this planet closed with the beauty their existence.

Ever since last January I have experienced and sensed a big change in what “this” is for me personally.  I have drifted out to the darkness and looked over the edges quite a bit.  The tether that keeps me from drifting completely away made of family, friends, love, faith and hope.   I know I am extremely blessed to have this tether as far too many in this world don’t even know any of that exists!   I have seen many others also drifting out there in the confusion that is now America.  I think there is a great sense of futility in the air.  We must stay tethered to what matters most and the wisdom of the deepest part of our heart….our souls.

I’ve experienced, spoken and written many times that there is nothing of this world that can fill the void of spirit.  If you rely completely on other people, food, drink, places, things, conquests for power, do things that garner negative attention etc. to fill you up inside, you will always be left wanting more.  Just like any addiction, it takes bigger and bigger “doses” to achieve the same results until you finally realize there will never be enough to fill you up.   Then will come the questions I think people we are seeing that have lost hope are asking, “Is this it?!  Is there nothing more than this?!  What else is there?!  What do I have to do to feel alive?!”

Röyksopp – What Else Is There? (HD)

Lyrics

It was me on that road
But you couldn`t see me
Too many lights out, but nowhere near here

It was me on that road
Still you couldn`t see me
And then flashlights and explosions

Roads ends getting nearer
We cover distance but not together
I am the storm and I am the wonder
And the flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

I don’t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

It’s about you and the sun
A morning run
The story of my maker
What have I and what I ache for

I`ve got a golden ear
I cut and I spear
And what else is there
Roads and getting nearer
We cover distance still not together

If I am the storm if I am the wonder
Will I have flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

There is no room where I can go and
You`ve got secrets too

I don`t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

Songwriters: DANNY SHOSHAN,ROBERT HUXLEY,ROGER GREENAWAY,SVEIN BERGE,TOBJOR BRUNDTLAND,KARIN DREIGER,OLAF DREIGER,TONY MACAULEY
© Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.,Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC,Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

 

Sometimes I will grasp around for something to energize me, to make me happy and often find there is nothing.  So I go outside with my music and just flop down on my cot and look up or take off my shoes and just stand still with my arms raised to the sky.  The “this” I am seeking most often finds me then.   In the eyes of my husband and my dogs, in the songs of the birds, the buzzing of the bees, the dirt between my toes, the petals of the flowers, the whispers of the trees, the blazing sun, the gentle breeze that caresses my arm and the billowing clouds overhead all is “this”…God.  

 

8 June 2018 – Drawing yesterday. The word “corners” came to mind after I was done with it.

 

the cure – more than this

 

Lyrics

For this second of your life,

Tell me that its true,

Waiting for a sign,

That’s all I want of you.

Your heart hides a secret

A promise of what is,

Something more than this.

 

Just a second of your time,

Any one will do,

Taste of any other,

Is all I want from you,

You offer me the world,

And how can I resist

Something more than this?

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible,

Nothing as it seems

To see touch taste smell hear

But never know if its real

 

For this second of your life

Tell me if its true

Anyway we are

Is all I want of you

Your lips lies a secret

A promise of a kiss

Something more than this

 

Just a second of your time

Any one will do

To know any other is all I want for you

Giving me the world

Now I can’t resist

Something more than this

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible

Nothing as it seems

Never really understand what anything means

 

Another second of my life

Not knowing if its true

Make believe in nothing

Is all I want of you

Whisper me your secret

Whisper me your ears

Always something other

Something more than this…

 

Songwriters: JAMES SMITH,NATHAN BARDEEN,RORY DOLAN,TODD EISENKERCH

© Universal Music Publishing Group

For non-commercial use only.

Data From: LyricFind

 

 

4 June 2018 After the Rain, Dear David (Nuke’s Top 5) and book versions of movies

Hello to you!  How are you doing from where and when you are?  I hope doing well.  We had a blessing this morning – some rain!

I finished reading the book version of the movie Constantine last night.  If you have ever seen the movie, the book version elaborates on things they didn’t put in the movie. I really hope that none of what’s in that story about the planes of existence, especially hell, isn’t true!  There is something about the elements of this story that resonate with me on many levels.  Sometimes it feels like this country has a huge case of possession going on.  Not by opoids either!  Sometimes I read the headlines and the things people are doing to themselves and each other and seriously wonder if it’s them or them being possessed by a force beyond their control.  I have mentioned that when I’m in my cycles, especially this last one, it can feel like being possessed by an outside force!  You are in your body but the stuff you do is totally not you!  You have to ask when these mass shootings happen, “Who was driving that car?!”  (car meaning person).

I’ve talked to many people who look at the world both logically and from the spiritual aspect.  Many of us agree that with all the wifi/wireless transmissions going on all around us and so many battery operated devices like cell phones etc. that ghosts, spirits, entities from other dimensions are getting a lot of extra juice in which is operate in the world of the living.  The increase in technology combined with all the negative energy generated by so many of us being used as pawns against each other for one reason or another is creating portals for shadow beings.

https://www.livescience.com/52641-science-of-paranormal-ghosts.html – interesting article that talks about infrasound and electromagnetic energy fields as possible explanations for paranormal activity.

in·fra·sound
[ˈinfrəˌsound]

NOUN
infra-sound (noun)
sound waves with frequencies below the lower limit of human audibility.
What is electromagnetic energy?
Quick Answer. Electromagnetic energy is a form of energy that can be reflected or emitted from objects through electrical or magnetic waves traveling through space. Electromagnetic energy comes in many examples including gamma rays, X-rays, ultraviolet radiation, visible light, microwaves, radio waves and infrared radiation.

Kyle and I watch a lot of programs on You tube about stuff caught on surveillance cameras etc. and there just seems to be so much more strange stuff than their used to be.  Some of it you watch and you know it’s bullshit but some of it is really creepy and you can’t just dismiss it!   This Dear David story is one where I wonder if it’s an elaborate hoax or legitimate haunting.  There are some we’ve seen where I’ll get goosebumps all over and my hair will stand on end and I just know there is something there in the video that shouldn’t be here with us!

Man Has Nightmares About a GHOST Child, Turns Out It’s REAL!

Ghost Caught On Camera? The Real Ghost Story of Dear David (Part 2)

I started Cabin in the Woods.  Earlier in the week, part of our errands was stopping by one of our favorite places, Half Price Books.  We were tired of reading the same book for the third of fourth time lol.  So we bought a couple of books that are what I’ll call “candy.”  For those who are avid readers, you know what I’m talking about.  It’s those books you read mainly for fun and finish off about as fast as a candy bar.

We have both of these movies in our collection.  We actually have bought Constantine more than once.  I think it’s the only Keanu Reeves film we own now.  We don’t buy books or movies very often.   The stuff that we do get, we make sure we can watch or read much more than just one time.

Constantine (2005) Official Trailer # 1 – Keanu Reeves Movie HD

Cabin in the Woods (2012 Movie) – Official Trailer – Chris Hemsworth & Jesse Williams

 

2 June 2018 The Layers (Ancestral Trauma, Trauma in DNA, Intergenerational and Historic Trauma)

Hello to you.  How are you doing so far in your where and when?  I’m doing pretty well.  The subjects today are kind of heavy but hopefully this message is intended for more than just myself.

Recently I have been in discussion in an online support group about ancestral karma and it’s connection to mental illnesses.  I mentioned what I’ve noticed during my time at inpatient facilities is that people seem to be walking around with layers on top of them – like past selves.   As a sensitive person (Empath/HSP), I was deeply affected and reacted to these layers these troubled folks I was sharing time and space with were carrying around.  I know some of what was going on was the projecting of my past on to them – like seeing archetypes of family or friends in these people and reacting to them.  It was a very confusing experience!

2 June 2018 – my outdoor chalk drawing this morning. Thinking of the Layers theme.

I believe that our souls travel from one life to the next, one body to the next.  Who we are as people (how we think, how we act, what we are interested in, what we have an aptitude towards, how we express ourselves emotionally etc) is part of a complex weaving of DNA, blood, ingesting and assimilating into ourselves the elements from what we eat, what we drink, what we are exposed to via the senses day to day.

All of this tangible energy matter woven via particles around an intangible soul of energy…spirit.   It’s like we are comprised of layers very much like an onion if that make sense.  The ancestral/karmic layers unseen but like a cloak around us.  This cloak passed on through generation and generation to us to wear.  Some cloaks are very unpleasant and heavy to wear!  Sometimes made up of trauma, abuse, addiction, scarcity, loss and sorrow.

I have found through my experience with practicing and experiencing energy healing, that healing the inside first makes a space for the physical body to heal.   

Well back to the ancestral karma discussion.  In talking about “layers” in people, one of the group members shared this fascinating piece from PBS about the study of how trauma from past generations can affect the DNA of future ones:

http://www.pbs.org/newshour/extra/daily-videos/can-trauma-be-passed-to-next-generation-through-dna/

http://player.pbs.org/viralplayer/2365554485/ – (video you can watch if you go to link)

New research suggests that experiencing intense psychological trauma may have a genetic impact on a person’s future children.

A study examining the DNA of Holocaust survivors and their children found similar variations from the norm in both generations for the gene associated with depression and anxiety disorders. The findings imply that children of individuals who experience profound stress in life may be more likely to develop stress or anxiety disorders themselves.

The pattern — known as an epigenetic change because it affects the chemical marker for the gene rather than the gene itself — suggests that profound stress in the older generation translated into an adaptation that passed on to the next, said Dr. Rachel Yehuda, director of Mount Sinai’s Traumatic Stress Studies Division and leader of the study.

Scientists have long-known that parents pass genetic traits down to their children, but Yehuda’s research suggests that life experiences can also produce chemical effects in DNA. Similar research has been done into the effects of famine on later generations, as well as stress levels in the children of women who survived the September 11th attacks.

Although the study involved just 32 Holocaust survivors and their offspring, Yehuda said the findings provide proof of concept that could lead to more research into exactly how the changes occur.

The findings may provide an explanation for why people like Karen Sonneberg struggle with anxiety and stress disorders despite having never experienced trauma themselves. Sonneberg’s Jewish parents both suffered under Nazi oppression in Germany at a young age. She said many of her friends with similar backgrounds experienced similar struggles with anxiety.

“There were definitely challenges that quote unquote ‘American’ kids didn’t seem to have experienced,” Sonneberg said.

Reading this made me think about a subject I’ve shared about many times, Intergenerational Trauma:

https://saymber.com/2015/03/04/4-march-2015-intergenerational-and-historical-trauma-and-forgiveness/ – if you type intergenerational in the search window you’ll find all the other posts I’ve done on this subject

This article pertains to Native American and Alaskan Native Communities but if you look through history, this concept and study can apply to all walks of life on this earth at one point in history or another.    

https://blog.samhsa.gov/2015/11/25/the-impact-of-historical-and-intergenerational-trauma-on-american-indian-and-alaska-native-communities/#.WxKOmeSG-M8

The Impact of Historical and Intergenerational Trauma on American Indian and Alaska Native Communities

November 25, 2015 / SAMHSA / Tribal

By: Paolo del Vecchio, M.S.W., Director, Center for Mental Health Services, Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration

Trauma not only effects those who directly experience it, but also those in the generations that follow. Dr. Maria Yellow Horse Brave Heart describes historical trauma as the “cumulative emotional and psychological wounding across generations, including the lifespan, which emanates from massive group trauma.”

The span of one generation is not a long time. In fact, an American Indian or Alaska Native (AI/AN) who is over the age of 30 is only one generation removed from the “boarding school era.” During this era, many AI/AN children were removed from their homes, families, and communities and forced to assimilate to the culture and practices of the majority population. These experiences caused a ripple effect of intergenerational trauma throughout Indian Country.

When discussing the effects of this historical trauma, many AI/ANs have been told to “get over it.” However, dismissing what happened does not help these communities move forward. To move forward, this history and its effects on AI/AN communities must be understood. This is not dwelling on the past, but ensuring a brighter future by addressing barriers and creating solutions.

As noted in the White House’s 2014 Native Youth Report, tribes, federal and state programs, and non-profit organizations are creating focused strategies to overcome historical trauma. There is a specific focus on Native youth and supporting their return to cultural traditions, practices, and language. Strengthening ties to community and culture have been successful in promoting behavioral health and supporting recovery.

One way tribes have started addressing historical and cultural trauma is by Gathering of Native Americans (GONA) and Gathering of Alaska Natives (GOAN). GONA and GOAN focus on the underlying reasons causing individuals, families and communities to become at risk for addictions and self-destructive behaviors while recognizing the importance of cultural values, traditions and spirituality in healing.

By reflecting the four levels of life’s teachings – belonging, mastery, interdependence and generosity – GONA and GOAN provide a structure for communities to address healing, and how to develop response plans and strategies. The GONA and GOAN are also important because they confront historical trauma in culturally sensitive and healthy ways that allow for critical prevention planning. More than just a one-time event, they are the start of continuous community efforts.

Access to the River: Community Capacity Building through the GONA Process

 

https://www.consciousreminder.com/2017/07/17/family-karma-release-energetic-ties-ancestors/

Ancestral Karma refers to the karma that has been accrued by our family, our ancestors, parents, grandparents, great grandparents, and other relatives, Uncles, Aunts and so on. This Karma has built up within families for generations.

26 May 2018 Not Forgotten

This post is about remembering and being grateful for what we have.  It’s so easy to take the people, places and things of this life for granted.   Last night I started reading Vampire Hunter D books again and came across one of my favorite phrases in it, page 70 – “Transient Guests Are We.”   Indeed, we are guests and the Earth, our Mother, the hostess.

8 Sept 2012 – Hope emerges. Thought of this drawing with the message from the World Prayers site.

http://www.worldprayers.org/prayerwheel/index.html

Creator of heaven and earth,
You are me,
I am you.

prayer of a navajo girl – early 20th century
5 1 18 20 8
E A R T H = 52
6 15 18 6 5 20
F O R G E T = 70

3 18 5 1 20 15 18

C R E A T O R = 80

20 18 1 14 19 9 5 14 20

T R A N S I E N T = 120 (3 cycle)

7 21 5 19 20

G U E S T = 72 (9 cycle)

14 1 22 1 10 15

N A V A J O = 63 (9 cycle)

14 1 20 21 18 5

N A T U R E = 79

8 21 13 1 14 19

H U M A N S = 76

1 14 9 13 1 12 19

A N I M A L S = 69 (3 cycle)

5 20 5 18 14 9 20 25

E T E R N I T Y  = 116 (8 on it’s side is the eternity symbol)

7 15 4

G O D = 26 (8, no surprise!)

20 18 5 5

T R E E = 48 (3 cycle)

3 1 20

C A T = 24 (3 cycle – Feline 51, another 3 cycle)

3 1 14 9 14 5

C A N I N E = 46

2 5 1 18

B E A R = 26

23 15 12 6

W O L F = 56

2 9 18 4

B I R D = 33 (3 cycle)

13 1 13 13 1 12

M A M M A L = 53

23 8 1 12 5

W H A L E = 49

4 15 12 16 8 9 14

D O L P H I N = 78 (3 cycle)

6 9 19 8

F I S H = 42 (3 cycle)

23 5

W E = 28

3 15 14 19 3 9 15 21 19

C O N S C I O U S = 118

11 14 15 23

K N O W = (9 cycle)

IDL TIFF file

7 May 2018 Anniversary

Hi there.  Hope this finds you well.  Todays theme of words and numbers is in honor of my husband and I celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary tomorrow.  It’s interesting to me how two different words for the same thing, like wedding and marriage,  can come to different outcomes in the numeric realm.  The more I do this, the more I am beginning to see that when the 9 cycle comes up, it’s usually not a positive thing!  Speaking from experience and what I’ve seen in especially America,  marriage can come to be quite a negative arrangement!

How my husband and I began back in FFXI playing Prinzessa and Efess

As with everything, marriage is all what you make of it.  My husband and I have certainly been testing these past few years and yet we are still together!  I tell him he’s already got his angel suite putting up with me!

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A N N I V E R S A R Y = 146 = 1 +4+6=11 can go straight to 11, 2 then 1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 =5+5=10 go straight to 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 +5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1.

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W E D D I N G= 66 = 6 +6 = 12  1+2 = 3 divided by 2 =1.5 1+5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

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M A R R I A G E = 72 = 7 +2 = 9 = 9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 4 +5 = 9 cycle (always comes back to 9)

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U N I O N = 73 = 7 +3 = 10 = 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

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H A N D F A S T I N G  (Kyle and I had considered this in lieu of formal marriage) = 103= 1 + 3 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

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B R I D E = 38 = 3 +8 = 11 = 1 + 1 = 2  divided by 2 = 1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 5 + 5 = 10 = 1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 2 + 5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 +5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1.  (I prefer the most direct approach)

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G R O O M = 68 = 6 + 8 = 14 = 1 + 4 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 2 + 5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

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H U S B A N D = 69 = 6 + 9 = 15 = 1 + 5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 1 + 5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

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W I F E = 43 = 4 + 3 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 3 + 5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

 

 

6 May 2018 Drawing and more fun with words and their numeric values

6 May 2018 – drawing I did this morning.

Just stopping in to say hello.  I’ve really been having an adventure with the numeric value of English words.  It’s been interesting to find that the values of different words, meaning the same thing, like Pyramid and Triangle, could come out to the same exact value!

Words that I explored the numeric value of this weekend and got some surprises:

4 May 2018 – I was having “trust issues” recently and it came to me to look at things from a numeric perspective. I decided to look at words, break them down into numeric values and see what the word meant after that. It helped me.

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S Y R U P  = 99/18/9/2=4.5=9 (cycle)

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S U G A R = 66/12/3/2=1.5 =6/2= 3  (cycle)

It’s interesting that both words, both addictive substances, have a “cycle” aspect.  If you flip either 99 or 66 over and they are the same number too!

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P Y R A M I D = 86/14/5

20 18 9 1 14 7 12 5

T R I A N G L E = 86/14/5

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H U M A N= 57/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

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T R E E= 48/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

*3 I think of cycle as life, death and rebirth or a number that keeps coming back to itself even after you divide it in half.

 

 

4 May 2018 Sleeping, Dreaming and Healing

Just a note to say hello before the weekend.  We woke up to thunder, lightning and much needed rain this morning.  As I write, it continues to rain. We really needed it so I am grateful for it.

This kind of weather does make me just want to stay in bed!   Lately that’s all I’ve been wanting to do is sleep!  My therapist and I agreed this morning it’s probably just my body healing after what I went through recently.  That last round of a new medication really messed me up!  Ironically, speaking of the healing power of sleep, last night I had a vivid dream of helping a man a woman with the balancer/healing wands I’ve shared about.  In the dream I taught them to make the sea salt GANS for themselves.  It would be nice to think that it wasn’t just a dream and actual people may have been helped somehow!

The dream world is very interesting for me because my mind will incorporate elements of my real world into the dream world.  Sometimes I don’t want to wake up and want to just stay in the dream world.  Have you ever had one of those dreams that made you feel that way?

4 May 2018 – I was having “trust issues” recently and it came to me to look at things from a numeric perspective. I decided to look at words, break them down into numeric values and see what the word meant after that. It helped me.  I don’t know if this will make sense to anyone else but it might!

I decided to play the numbers game with the words dream, sleep and heal.   I doubt what I’ve been doing with this unique, but it is for me!  It has been very interesting!  Sometimes I have to wonder that if the numeric value of a word is odd,  can there actually be a positive motive for it’s existence?  Did the person who created the word to describe something like sleep know in numeric terms it would come out to represent a cyclic pattern?  Or is that evidence of a  power greater than ourselves at work?  The more I explore the numeric value of certain words, the more it seems possible.  What do you think?

4   18  5  1  13

D  R  E  A  M = 41=5/2=2.5=7/2=3.5=8/2=4/2=2/2=1

(interesting that Dream comes back to 1 or to self as I perceive it.  No one knows if you have had a dream except yourself.  There is no evidence of it even if someone is monitoring your brainwaves)

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S  L  E  E  P = 57 = 12 = 3 (cycle) 3/2=1.5=6/2=3

(sleep is actually a repeating cycle sort of thing.  You have morning, noon and night.  In the patterns of sleep you are either awake, dozing or actually asleep.)

8  5   1  12

H  E  A  L = 26 = 8/2 = 4/2=2/2 = 1

(healing comes out to an “even” motive number from the start and when broken down comes back to self or the value of one.  Ultimately, with healing, we are the ones who benefit right?)

*The reason I divide the number by 2 is like taking a look at something with each side of ourselves if that makes sense.

“I am surrounded by rain, thunder and lightning and yet I have traveled without leaving my bed!  Am I inside or outside of my own head?”