13 Dec 2017 Random Sharpies and Women with wings (dream)

Hello to you.  It’s Wednesday.  There is the sound of rapid gun-fire somewhere in town just now – sounds like it’s just down the street by the man-made pond where they just built a bunch of new houses.  Living where I do that isn’t  uncommon to hear people target practicing or hunting but not at 6:55 am on a school day!  Kind of weird.   With all the mass shootings in this country now it’s unsettling to hear gun fire like that because it’s hard to know if people are hunting animals or other people!   We live right near an Jr. High School and an Elementary school.

23 July 2016 the process today — getting fancy!

Yesterday afternoon I decided to revisit making music with my lap harp (https://saymber.com/2016/07/23/22-july-2016-my-first-light-song-using-my-music-maker-lap-harp-to-help-me-a-possible-new-way-to-make-music-practicing-the-exercise-of-following-through-for-people-with-adhd-aka-monkey-mind/).  The pendant I was using before lost all the color coating on it so I can’t really use it and it’s difficult to use.  So I came up with an idea to toss my collection of colored Sharpie markers and that actually worked lol!  I definitely need to refine this idea.  It’s fun to be creative and explore new ways of making music.

It all started with this pendant I got for like a $1 at a neighbors garage sale last year

This is the combination that came up.  I had to laugh when I actually played it on my harp because it sounded horrible, dissonant just like this world looks and sounds to me right now:

So – Blue, Do – Pink, La – Indigo, G – Teal, Fa – Green, Ti, Violet, Do – Red, Re – Orange, Fa – Lime Green, B – Pink, Fa – Green, Mi – Yellow, D – Brown, Do- Red, Ti –  Violet, B – Pink, Ti – Violet, C# – orange, La – Indigo, Fa – Green, Re- Orange, B- Fuchsia, Ti – Violet, Re – Orange

When I had the markers laid out, a large fly landed specifically on an orange marker and flew away.  Colors can “mean” many things.  Lately orange for me has been about our President.  This time the colors orange, green, black and brown brought to mind the Irish slave trade: https://saymber.com/2016/09/24/24-sept-2016-london-town-2016-film-starring-jonathan-rhys-meyers-and-inconvenient-truths-of-our-past-the-irish-slave-trade/.

This phrase, “Slavery is not a color problem it is a human problem” came to mind looking at these colors put together.  In this very day and age we have human beings being trafficked, bought and sold into slavery  (Lybia:  http://www.ibtimes.co.uk/horrified-by-libya-slave-trade-rwanda-offers-refuge-african-migrants-wishing-leave-country-1648518).  Sometimes the slavery is consensual but it is slavery nonetheless.

The dream I had last night/this morning (time doesn’t exist in the dream world of course) was about being in a place where women had wings.  I had wings too but we didn’t use them, we hid them until one day when “Grandma” was gone.  I can remember flying over water were other women with wings were.  Then she was coming back unannounced and we had to hurry and clean up before we got caught using our wings.

This dream is resonant to what I am seeing in the headlines ever day about sexual misconduct.  Women want to soar next to the men and make this world a better place without shame for being who they are…without the four letter word FEAR clipping their wings.  People just want to be who they have been put on this earth to be.  They just keep getting obstructed!  If you notice, babies are talking and becoming aware faster and faster than I’ve ever seen before.  I wonder if this is an indication of the state of emergency we are in?

12 Dec 2017 – I was thinking the spiral on the tips of our fingers is a reminder of our connection to God and the Universe.

The way I’ve been feeling lately – on a bridge walking to the unknown.

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12 Dec 2017 The year 1981, Corporations becoming People and ‘Father Of The Internet’ Skewers FCC: ‘You Don’t Understand How The Internet Works’ (Huffington Post, Dominique Mosbergen)

Hello to you.  I have been doing a lot of active meditation with the God of my understanding via my chalkboard etc. the past couple of days.  Since I don’t have much picture space here even after starting to cull pictures, I’m unable to share pictures of everything  with you but it has been interesting!  Something that came up with my meditations was a penny from 1981.  The date felt significant to me so I used the internet to look up what was significant about that year.   On my mind was Ronald Reagan and my feeling it was about then corporations started to truly infiltrate government activities.

https://www.npr.org/2014/07/28/335288388/when-did-companies-become-people-excavating-the-legal-evolution

Law

When Did Companies Become People? Excavating The Legal Evolution

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Volunteers at the Lincoln Memorial help roll up a giant banner printed with the Preamble to the Constitution during an October 2010 demonstration against the Supreme Court’s Citizens United ruling.

Volunteers at the Lincoln Memorial help roll up a giant banner printed with the Preamble to the Constitution during an October 2010 demonstration against the Supreme Court’s Citizens United ruling.
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Are corporations people? The U.S. Supreme Court says they are, at least for some purposes. And in the past four years, the high court has dramatically expanded corporate rights.

It ruled that corporations have the right to spend money in candidate elections, and that some for-profit corporations may, on religious grounds, refuse to comply with a federal mandate to cover birth control in their employee health plans.

These are personal rights accorded to corporations. To many, the concept of corporations as people seems odd, to say the least. But it is not new.

The dictionary defines “corporation” as “a number of persons united in one body for a purpose.” Corporate entities date back to medieval times, observes Columbia law professor John Coffee, an authority on corporate law. “You could think of the Catholic Church as probably the first entity that could buy and sell property in its own name,” he says.

Indeed, having an artificial legal persona was especially important to churches, says Elizabeth Pollman, an associate professor at Loyola Law School in Los Angeles.

“Having a corporation would allow people to put property into a collective ownership that could be held with perpetual existence,” she says. “So it wouldn’t be tied to any one person’s lifespan, or subject necessarily to laws regarding inheriting property.”

By the 1800s, the process of incorporating became relatively simple. But corporations aren’t mentioned anywhere in the Constitution, leaving the courts to determine what rights corporations have — and which corporations have them. After all, Coca-Cola is a corporation, but so are the NAACP and the National Rifle Association, and so are small churches and local nonprofits.

“All these truly different types of organizations might come under the label ‘corporation,’ ” Pollman observes. “And so the real difficulty is figuring out how to treat these different things under the Constitution.”

In the early years of the republic, the only right given to corporations was the right to have their contracts respected by the government, according to legal historian Eben Moglen.

The great industrialization of the United States in the 1800s, however, intensified companies’ need to raise money.

“With the invention of the railroad, you needed a great deal of capital to exploit its purpose, ” Columbia professor Coffee says, “and only the corporate form offered limited liability, easy transferability of shares, and continued, perpetual existence.”

In addition, the end of the Civil War and the adoption of the 14th Amendment provided an opportunity for corporations to seek further legal protection, says Moglen, also a Columbia University professor.

“From the moment the 14th Amendment was passed in 1868, lawyers for corporations — particularly railroad companies — wanted to use that 14th Amendment guarantee of equal protection to make sure that the states didn’t unequally treat corporations,” Moglen says.

Nobody was talking about extending to corporations the right of free speech back then. What the railroads sought was equal treatment under state tax laws and things like that.

The Supreme Court extended that protection to corporations, and over time also extended some — but not all — of the rights guaranteed to individuals in the Bill of Rights. The court ruled that corporations don’t have a right against self-incrimination, for instance, but are protected by the ban on warrantless search and seizure.

Otherwise, as the Cato Institute’s Ilya Shapiro puts it, “the police could storm down the doors of some company and take all their computers and their files.”

But for 100 years, corporations were not given any constitutional right of political speech; in fact, quite the contrary. In 1907, following a corporate corruption scandal involving prior presidential campaigns, Congress passed a law banning corporate involvement in federal election campaigns. That wall held firm for 70 years.

The first crack came in a case that involved neither candidate elections nor federal law. In 1978 a sharply divided Supreme Court ruled for the first time that corporations have a First Amendment right to spend money on state ballot initiatives.

Still, for decades, candidate elections remained free of direct corporate influence under federal law. Only money from individuals and groups of individuals — political action committees — were permitted in federal elections.

Then came Citizens United, the Supreme Court’s 5-4 First Amendment decision in 2010 that extended to corporations for the first time full rights to spend money as they wish in candidate elections — federal, state and local. The decision reversed a century of legal understanding, unleashed a flood of campaign cash and created a crescendo of controversy that continues to build today.

It thrilled many in the business community, horrified campaign reformers, and provoked considerable mockery in the comedian classes.

“If only there were some way to prove that corporations were not people,” lamented the Daily Show‘s Jon Stewart. Maybe, he mused, we could show “their inability to love.”

Fellow Comedy Central comedian Stephen Colbert tried unsuccessfully to get the question of corporate personhood on the South Carolina ballot, and also formed a superPAC, which asked whether voters would be comfortable letting Mitt Romney date their daughters’ corporations.

But there are serious people on both sides of this issue.

Cato’s Shapiro sees all corporations, when they spend on political campaigns, as merely associations of like-minded people.

“Nobody is saying that corporations are living, breathing entities, or that they have souls or anything like that,” he says. “This is about protecting the rights of the individuals that associate in this way.”

Countering that argument are those who note that individuals are perfectly free to give money to candidates with whom they agree, and to spend unlimited amounts independently supporting those candidates. They shouldn’t need a corporation to express themselves, the argument goes.

Some critics, like Pollman, see a difference between for-profit and nonprofit corporations. A nonprofit corporation formed to advance particular political views is one thing, she says. A large for-profit corporation is something else entirely.

“There’s no reason to believe that the people involved — shareholders, employees, even the directors or managers — have come together for an expressive purpose related to anything other than really what the business is doing,” she argues.

And shareholders and employees, Pollman observes, have no real recourse if they disagree with how corporate money is spent in campaigns.

And then there is the money-is-not-speech argument. The problem for First Amendment believers, Moglen says, arises not because they think corporations shouldn’t have rights so much as they think money isn’t equal to speech.

“And we are now winding up using constitutional rules to concentrate corporate power in a way that’s dangerous to democracy,” he says.

That, of course, is not how the Supreme Court majority sees its decision. The court has said that because speech is an essential mechanism of democracy, the First Amendment forbids discrimination against any class of speaker.

It matters not, the court said just this year, that some speakers, because of the money they spend on elections, may have undue influence on public policy; what is important is that the First Amendment protects both speech and speaker, and the ideas that flow from each.


When I looked it up yesterday, this is what came up:  January 19 – United States and Iranian officials sign an agreement to release 52 American hostages after 14 months captivity.  Jan 20- Ronald Reagan succeeds Jimmy Carter as the 40th President of the United States. 

10 Dec 2017 Jackie Wygant outdoor meditation about our worlds progression to today Alvarado TX DSC_0005

11 Dec 2017 – My blackboard meditation in exploring numbers and letters.

For this morning, perfectly in alignment with the subject of the pending FCC Net Neutrality ruling on my mind this morning:

1981 Many notable technological advances happened in 1981 one of the most exciting was the First Flight of the Space Shuttle Columbia. This was also the first year that the Word Internet was mentioned and MS-DOS was released by Microsoft along with the first IBM PC.

I hope the FCC tables this decision until it is more well informed and takes into account the country and it’s people this decision will adversely impact:

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/internet-pioneers-fcc-net-neutrality_us_5a2f48a9e4b046175432ca2c

BUSINESS

12/12/2017 12:16 am ET Updated 3 hours ago

‘Father Of The Internet’ Skewers FCC: ‘You Don’t Understand How The Internet Works’

More than 20 tech luminaries, including Vint Cerf, Tim Berners-Lee and Steve Wozniak, have urged the FCC to stop its plan to repeal net neutrality.

By Dominique Mosbergen

Internet luminaries, including “father of the internet” Vint Cerf and Tim Berners-Lee, inventor of the World Wide Web, have a blistering message for the Federal Communications Commission as its vote on net neutrality looms: “You don’t understand how the internet works.”

In an open letter published Monday, more than 20 industry leaders and pioneers skewered the FCC over its plan to repeal net neutrality rules, which require internet service providers (ISPs) to treat all content equally.

“It is important to understand that the FCC’s proposed Order is based on a flawed and factually inaccurate understanding of Internet technology,” the letter, addressed to lawmakers with oversight of the FCC, reads. “These flaws and inaccuracies were documented in detail in a 43-page-long joint comment signed by over 200 of the most prominent Internet pioneers and engineers and submitted to the FCC on July 17, 2017. Despite this comment, the FCC did not correct its misunderstandings.”

The comment referred to in the letter detailed numerous technical mistakes in the FCC’s proposed order, including a flawed understanding of the differences between ISPs and edge providers (content companies like Netflix), and how firewalls function (described in the document as “a stunning lack of technical knowledge”).

The engineers and experts who penned the comment warned that repealing net neutrality could have “dangerous consequences, including stifling future innovation and depressing future investment in the wealth of Internet services that drive such a large part of the U.S. economy.”

(Since I’m low on picture room,  I remembered I had this drawing and it looks a lot like Mr. Cerf!)

20 Nov 2017 – This man showed up in the chalks. He kind of looks like the Architect from the Matrix to me.

KENZO TRIBOUILLARD via Getty Images Vint Cerf, Google’s vice president and “father of the internet,” was one of more than 20 tech luminaries who wrote a letter to lawmakers this week urging them to push the FCC to cancel its vote on net neutrality.

This sentiment was echoed in Monday’s letter, whose signatories included Apple co-founder Steve Wozniak, Mozilla Foundation Executive Chairwoman Mitchell Baker and Internet Archive founder Brewster Kahle.

The letter detailed how the FCC has not just ignored experts’ warnings but also the millions of public comments that have been submitted on the issue. The FCC, the letter noted, has also not “held a single open public meeting to hear from citizens and experts about the proposed Order” ― a break from “established practice.”

The letter’s authors urged lawmakers on the Senate Commerce Subcommittee on Communications, Technology, Innovation, and the Internet, and the House Energy Subcommittee on Communications and Technology to push FCC Chairman Ajit Pai to “cancel the FCC’s vote,” scheduled for Thursday.

“The FCC’s rushed and technically incorrect proposed Order to abolish net neutrality protections without any replacement is an imminent threat to the Internet we worked so hard to create. It should be stopped,” the letter concluded.

http://www.heraldextra.com/business/fcc-head-ajit-pai-goes-after-hollywood-tech-companies/article_940ef1da-8343-59c0-8640-690246d2cd5b.html

Interesting:

He called out Twitter specifically, contending that it takes action — such as suspending accounts or removing their “verified” status — against conservatives more frequently than liberals. He didn’t specify who he was talking about, but Twitter this month “unverified” the account of white nationalist Richard Spencer .

Final thought on this matter: 

When you have people as addicted to such a substance such as the Internet and all it’s gadgets and you threaten to throttle, control or restrict access….you are going to have a big problem on your hands.  Does America need a “withdrawal” or an “intervention” measure like this?  Is this potential ruling a humanitarian gesture on the part of the United States government or something else entirely?  Is this the infiltration of Fascism by taking out our many ways to communicate freely to each other?  We shall see. 

9 Dec 2017 Happy Birthday to Link and The Hum (Dr. Glen MacPherson)

Hello to you. Today we have a reason to celebrate – it’s our Link’s 3rd birthday! Hard to believe he’s not a little pup anymore but he will always be my baby!  Not sure what we will do special for him today that’s out of the normal.  A valuable lesson that he and most dogs teach me is that EVERY MOMENT is special!

 

Back in April 2014 I was walking in the field down the street from our house before it became houses and found half of an Choctaw Indian Christmas ornament and later found the other half at the entrance to our neighborhood! I thought it was a sign my friend Erin who is part Choctaw was having a son but we got three puppies….Link…instead. In a way it was like God answering my pleas to bring my Sammy back!

21 Nov 2017 – Link sticking his tongue out at me lool!

Chihuahua Maltese mix puppies at play – Link is the baby on the left in this video.  I’m not sure if it’s Dutch or TJ he’s playing with here.  He grew up to look a lot more like his Momma Tippie the Maltese than his Poppa Tyler the Chihuahua.

Not a baby anymore! Be a flirt!

Changing gears a bit now….

Yesterday there was an update on Dr. Glen MacPherson’s page here on WordPress in regards to his research with The Hum, a setback he felt. I had put a note of encouragement and he responded back sharing an article dated today that helped show this issue has permeated the surface beyond conspiracy theory and an global case of tinnitus!

http://www.nzherald.co.nz/world/news/article.cfm?c_id=2&objectid=11956499

WORLD

Mystery ‘hum’ that has baffled people around the world for decades is recorded in the ocean

9 Dec, 2017 9:23am

Researcher Glen MacPherson, a Canadian science teacher is attempting to discover evidence of the elusive ‘worldwide hum’. Source – Youtube/Al Jazeera English

Daily Mail

By: Harry Pettit

A strange hum that has baffled people all over the world for decades has been recorded in the ocean for the first time.

The low frequency hum has been known about for nearly half a century- but its source remains a mystery.

Scientists claim the sound is inaudible to humans, but thousands of people still insist they have heard it, reports the Daily Mail.

A website, called “The Hum”, has reports about the noise dating back as far as the 1960s.

Theories about what causes it range from mating fish, a secret project to tunnel under the Earth and the presence of aliens.

Now, by measuring the sound using underwater seismometers positioned across the globe, scientists may be able to finally figure out what it.

It’s not clear what’s causing the hum, but scientists say it may be the result of tiny vibrations in the Earth called ‘free oscillations’ that can only be picked up by sensitive equipment.

The vibrations are triggered by constant minuscule expansions and contractions of our planet constantly, though scientists still don’t understand their source.

Earthquakes have been known to cause the Earth to emit similar vibrations for extended periods, but the hum only occurs in the absence of seismic activity.

The first attempt to detect this hum was made in 1959, but it wasn’t until 1998 that scientists had conclusive proof it exists.

Many observations of the hum have been taken since then from land-based seismometers.

And many people have reported hearing it on The Hum website, although scientists claim this is impossible.

MacPherson said: “Most people find my website because they are searching for the source of an unusual low-frequency sound.

“The classic description is that it sounds like there is a truck idling outside your home. For some people, it is a deep and distant droning bass tone. Some people perceive the sound as a rumbling noise.

“The sound is louder indoors than outdoors, and louder late at night than during the afternoon. It can suddenly appear or disappear for days or months.

“People of all ages can be affected, although the incidence among children is very low. In the more serious cases, the Hum can affect people’s quality of life. In a number of documented cases, the torment of the noise has been life-altering.”

Experts at France’s Paris Institute of Earth Physics have recorded a humming noise from the bottom of the ocean.

Previously this has been impossible because seismometers measure movement, meaning tidal interference obscures any readings of the tiny signal.

The team studied 11 months’ worth of observations from 57 seismometer stations on the seafloor in the Indian Ocean east of Madagascar.

They picked the two stations with the highest quality readings and painstakingly removed any interference from the data.

By cross-referencing what was left with measurements from terrestrial stations, the team realised the signal that remained was the hum.

The researchers found the noise is almost 10,000 times below the 20 hertz threshold of human hearing.

Experts have previously suggested the hum is caused by the constant pounding of waves on the ocean floor, or by currents whisking over continental shelves.

Other studies have suggested the noise is the result of atmospheric turbulence, as it is stronger in the northern hemisphere’s Pacific Ocean during the northern winter, and southern oceans during the southern hemisphere’s winter.

The researchers found that the amplitude of the hum did not match up with seasonal changes, meaning atmospheric turbulence can only partially explain the sound.

“The Earth’s hum is the permanent free oscillations of the Earth recorded in the absence of earthquakes,” the team, led by Dr Martha Deen, wrote.

“The hum was proposed to be induced by acoustic resonance between the atmosphere and the solid Earth, but this can only explain part of its [loudness].”

The researchers say studying the hum via ocean floor seismometers could help to determine its origins, particularly if currents or waves are responsible.

They also say their technique could help map Earth’s interior, which is usually done using sporadic seismic data from earthquakes.

The study

The team studied 11 months worth of observations from 57 seismometer stations on the seafloor in the Indian Ocean east of Madagascar.

They picked the two stations with the highest quality readings and painstakingly removed any interference from the data.

By cross-referencing what was left with measurements from terrestrial stations, the team realised the signal that remained was the hum.

The researchers found the noise is almost 10,000 times below the 20 hertz threshold of human hearing.


The Hum for me really started back in the 2012-2013 timeframe when they started to frack natural gas wells close to our house. First it was when one was put in next to the Stonegate neighborhood and then when they put a large one between our middle school and junior high across the street. It has rarely been “quiet” for me since. I’ve just had to learn to live with it. For me it was hell on earth to feel and hear the earth roaring. I couldn’t sleep, I could feel it (still do) inside of my chest, the ground trembles and vibrates most of the time, our bed shakes at night, if it’s really “loud” it triggers anxiety attacks.

I noticed we didn’t and still don’t have nearly as many earth worms as we used to have when we first moved here either. They are sensitive to vibrations like this since their home is of course inside of the layers of the earth. Worms and other beings that live and literally make the soil move away from unpleasant sensations like humans do. We are left with increasingly more unhealthy soil. With it shaking so much, the earth in our yard and around the house is very compressed and it’s hard to keep healthy top soil. Kind of like what happens when you put flour through a sifter.

The people we had fix our foundation and I talked about this the last time I had him come out and check our foundation because we were getting more cracks in the house. They don’t like such calls because they don’t make money doing warranty work and around here with all the activity I’m describing here, that’s a lot of what they end up doing. We don’t even call them out anymore even with a so-called “Life-time Warranty.”

The expansive clay soil we have here, after it gets aerated with all the sifting and infrequent rains compresses and becomes as hard as a concrete slab. Anything that makes noise and causes vibrations intensifies.

I’ve written about all this several times before – to include all the foundation, driveway and road repairs that had to be done in and around our neighborhood after the fracking. I think part of the Hum phenomena can be attributed to natural gas and oil activities, mining, erosion, sink holes, blowing up things like what North Korea is doing. There are also all the man-made “wireless” activities with energy going on that we don’t fully know what are doing to us and the environment.  We have made this Earth a very noisy place.  I sometimes wonder if phenomena like this is behind some of the mental health and violence issues in the world almost like a hidden trigger.

Previous post I’ve done on this subject:

https://saymber.com/2017/04/22/22-april-2017-finally-getting-information-on-what-may-be-the-source-of-the-constant-low-level-rumbling-in-my-house-the-hum-and-natural-gas-drilling-in-north-texas/

20 Aug 2012 Jackie Drawing – what was happening to us when they started fracking well in other neighborhood

It was such a relief for me to find Dr. MacPherson and read posts of other people experiencing similar things that I was!  When you are experiencing something like this and hardly anybody else is, you question yourself a lot.

Here is a link to Dr. MacPherson’s WordPress page and information about what he’s doing:

https://hummap.wordpress.com/

World Hum Map and Database Project

Research and World Hum News from www.thehum.info

This news and research blog augments the World Hum Database and Mapping Project located http://www.thehum.info

Dr. Glen MacPherson lectured for 16 years at the University of British Columbia (UBC), training mathematics teachers in the Faculty of Education, and now works with UBC Robson Campus with its GMAT and GRE curriculum program. He is also an ethnographic researcher, and high school teacher of physics, mathematics, psychology, general science, and biology. He lives and works on the west coast of British Columbia, Canada. His books, articles, and speaking engagements focus primarily on mathematics education.

After first noticing the Hum in spring of 2012 and discovering the Hum community, he sensed the need for a unified, moderated, and serious place for discussions and research surrounding the world Hum. This led to the World Hum Map and Database Project.

The current working theory is that the world Hum is rooted in part in VLF radio transmissions, although recent evidence has cast serious doubt on that. There are four competing theories.

This is a place for disciplined inquiry, and not for wild speculation and conspiracy. There are many entertaining and interesting websites available for those who want to indulge in those activities.

Contact Glen at glen.macpherson@gmail.com

A couple of interesting videos about this subject. Dr. MacPherson is in the first one and explains his personal experience with this phenomena:

What is causing the mysterious ‘worldwide hum’?

I likeThoughty2’s style of explaining complext subjects:

2% of People Have Heard “The Hum” …Have You?

What is tinnitus?  The difference for me is I feel it and hear it.  Sometimes Kyle does as well.
tin·ni·tus
[ˈtinədəs]
NOUN
medicine
  1. medicine
    ringing or buzzing in the ears.

https://www.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/understanding-tinnitus-basics

What Is Tinnitus?

Tinnitus (pronounced ti-ni-tis), or ringing in the ears, is the sensation of hearing ringing, buzzing, hissing, chirping, whistling, or other sounds. The noise can be intermittent or continuous, and can vary in loudness. It is often worse when background noise is low, so you may be most aware of it at night when you’re trying to fall asleep in a quiet room. In rare cases, the sound beats in sync with your heart (pulsatile tinnitus).

Tinnitus is very common, affecting an estimated 50 million adults in the U.S. For most people, the condition is merely an annoyance. In severe cases, however, tinnitus can cause people to have difficulty concentrating and sleeping. It may eventually interfere with work and personal relationships, resulting in psychological distress.

Although tinnitus is often associated with hearing loss, it does not cause the loss, nor does a hearing loss cause tinnitus. In fact, some people with tinnitus experience no difficulty hearing, and in a few cases they even become so acutely sensitive to sound (hyperacusis) that they must take steps to muffle or mask external noises.

Some instances of tinnitus are caused by infections or blockages in the ear, and the tinnitus can disappear once the underlying cause is treated. Frequently, however, tinnitus continues after the underlying condition is treated. In such a case, other therapies — both conventional and alternative — may bring significant relief by either decreasing or covering up the unwanted sound.

6 Dec 2017 Pete Davidson (SNL) Survivor of 9/11

For the past couple of days I have been trying to soothe Kyle and I with our recent loss by turning to one of the greatest medicines on earth – laughter through comedy.  Yesterday afternoon and this morning we’ve been watching Saturday Night Live skits on You Tube.  In particular we love the videos with Pete Davidson and his portrayal of a character named Chad.  The first time we were introduced to Pete and this character was when one of my favorite actors, Benedict Cumberbatch, was hosting the show.

This is the video where we first met Pete and his hilarious character Chad:

Office Hours – SNL
Published on Feb 21, 2017

A professor’s (Benedict Cumberbatch) chats with a student (Pete Davidson) help him realize something about himself.

Get more SNL: http://www.nbc.com/saturday-night-live
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I was surprised to find this video this morning:

Weekend Update: Pete Davidson on Mental Health – SNL
Published on Oct 7, 2017

Pete Davidson explains how SNL could help ease his depression.

#SNL #SNL43

After watching this, I wasn’t sure if it was entirely fact or just another skit and decided to see if there was any information and found this Rolling Stone article:

http://www.rollingstone.com/tv/news/snls-pete-davidson-i-have-borderline-personality-disorder-w505489

‘Saturday Night Live’ Star Pete Davidson: I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

Comedian explains he originally thought his mental breakdowns were caused by weed

and then I found this US Magazine article.  When I put it all together, this helps me understand why Pete might be having problems with depression!  He lost his Dad, Scott Davidson, a fire fighter to 9/11! Pete’s mental, spiritual and physical reaction to this horrific experience and loss makes perfect sense to me.

https://www.usmagazine.com/celebrity-news/news/pete-davidson-dad-died-911-reacts-steve-rannazzisi-lies-2015169/

Celebrity News

Pete Davidson, Who Lost His Dad in Terrorist Attack, Responds to Steve Rannazzisi’s 9/11 Lies

By Rachel McRady
September 16, 2015

Comedian Steve Rannazzisi’s lies hit a little too close to home for Saturday Night Live newbie Pete Davidson. On Wednesday, Sept. 16, after Rannazzisi, 37, released a public statement saying he’d lied about being in the World Trade Center on 9/11, Davidson took to Twitter to give The League star a piece of his mind.

“It’s ok @SteveRannazzisi people make mistakes … Can’t wait to meet my dad for lunch later,” the SNL actor, 21, tweeted.

Davidson’s father, Scott Davidson, was a firefighter who died after rushing to the scene on Sept. 11, 2001.

Rannazzisi missed Davidson’s dark humor, tweeting, “thank you pete. i really appreciate it,” which the SNL star retweeted, writing, “I think you missed the point…” Rannazzisi later deleted his tweet.

Davidson later tweeted, “All kidding aside this @SteveRannazzisi story sucks because he’s actually a funny comic and I love The League. It’s f—ked up.”

Fortunately, Rannazzisi attempted to right his wrong, and Davidson gave an update to his 175,000-plus followers.

“Take it easy on @SteveRannazzisi … He reached out to me and is truly sorry,” he tweeted. “We all sometimes lie and exaggerate a story to seem cooler …Unfortunately this is a very touchy topic n very near n dear 2 peoples hearts.Its years later but he apologized n owned up 2 it like a man.”

This young man is a classic example of what such things do to people, to families, to countries….to an entire world.  It eviscerates our very souls.  Pete is an example of not giving up, asking for help when you need it and trying to give back as you heal yourself.   I think his Dad would be proud of him – he is a survivor!

What is Borderline Personality Disorder?

https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/borderline-personality-disorder/index.shtml

Borderline Personality Disorder

Overview

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a serious mental disorder marked by a pattern of ongoing instability in moods, behavior, self-image, and functioning. These experiences often result in impulsive actions and unstable relationships. A person with BPD may experience intense episodes of anger, depression, and anxiety that may last from only a few hours to days.

Some people with BPD also have high rates of co-occurring mental disorders, such as mood disorders, anxiety disorders, and eating disorders, along with substance abuse, self-harm, suicidal thinking and behaviors, and suicide.

While mental health experts now generally agree that the label “borderline personality disorder” is very misleading, a more accurate term does not exist yet.

Signs and Symptoms

People with borderline personality disorder may experience extreme mood swings and can display uncertainty about who they are. As a result, their interests and values can change rapidly.

Other symptoms include:

  • Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment
  • A pattern of intense and unstable relationships with family, friends, and loved ones, often swinging from extreme closeness and love (idealization) to extreme dislike or anger (devaluation)
  • Distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self
  • Impulsive and often dangerous behaviors, such as spending sprees, unsafe sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, and binge eating
  • Recurring suicidal behaviors or threats or self-harming behavior, such as cutting
  • Intense and highly changeable moods, with each episode lasting from a few hours to a few days
  • Chronic feelings of emptiness
  • Inappropriate, intense anger or problems controlling anger
  • Having stress-related paranoid thoughts
  • Having severe dissociative symptoms, such as feeling cut off from oneself, observing oneself from outside the body, or losing touch with reality

Seemingly ordinary events may trigger symptoms. For example, people with borderline personality disorder may feel angry and distressed over minor separations—such as vacations, business trips, or sudden changes of plans—from people to whom they feel close. Studies show that people with this disorder may see anger in an emotionally neutral face and have a stronger reaction to words with negative meanings than people who do not have the disorder.

Some of these signs and symptoms may be experienced by people with other mental health problems—and even by people without mental illness—and do not necessarily mean that they have borderline personality disorder. It is important that a qualified and licensed mental health professional conduct a thorough assessment to determine whether a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder or other mental disorder is warranted, and to help guide treatment options when appropriate.

Tests and Diagnosis

Unfortunately, borderline personality disorder is often underdiagnosed or misdiagnosed. A licensed mental health professional experienced in diagnosing and treating mental disorders—such as a psychiatrist, psychologist, or clinical social worker—can diagnose borderline personality disorder based on a thorough interview and a comprehensive medical exam, which can help rule out other possible causes of symptoms.

The licensed mental health professional may ask about symptoms and personal and family medical histories, including any history of mental illnesses. This information can help the mental health professional decide on the best treatment. In some cases, co-occurring mental illnesses may have symptoms that overlap with borderline personality disorder, making it difficult to distinguish borderline personality disorder from other mental illnesses. For example, a person may describe feelings of depression but may not bring other symptoms to the mental health professional’s attention.

Research funded by NIMH is underway to look for ways to improve diagnosis of and treatments for borderline personality disorder, and to understand the various components of borderline personality disorder and other personality disorders such as impulsivity, relationship problems, and emotional instability.

Risk Factors

The causes of BPD are not yet clear, but research suggests that genetic, brain, environmental and social factors are likely to be involved.

  • Genetics. BPD is about five times more likely to occur if a person has a close family member (first-degree biological relatives) with the disorder.
  • Environmental and Social Factors. Many people with BPD report experiencing traumatic life events, such as abuse or abandonment during childhood. Others may have been exposed to unstable relationships and hostile conflicts. However, some people with BPD do not have a history of trauma. And, many people with a history of traumatic life events do not have BPD.
  • Brain Factors. Studies show that people with BPD have structural and functional changes in the brain, especially in the areas that control impulses and emotional regulation. However, some people with similar changes in the brain do not have BPD. More research is needed to understand the relationship between brain structure and function and BPD.

Research on BPD is focused on examining biological and environmental risk factors, with special attention on whether early symptoms may emerge at a younger age than previously thought. Scientists are also studying ways to identify the disorder earlier in adolescents.

Treatments and Therapies

BPD has historically been viewed as difficult to treat. However, with newer and proper treatment, many people with BPD experience fewer or less severe symptoms and an improved quality of life. Many factors affect the length of time it takes for symptoms to improve once treatment begins, so it is important for people with BPD and their loved ones to be patient and to receive appropriate support during treatment. People with BPD can recover.

If you think you have BPD, it is important to seek treatment.

NIMH-funded studies indicate that BPD patients who never recovered may be more likely to develop other chronic medical conditions and are less likely to make healthy lifestyle choices. BPD is also associated with a high rate of self-harm and suicidal behavior.

If you are thinking about harming yourself or attempting suicide, tell someone who can help right away. Call your licensed mental health professional if you are already working with one. If you are not already working with a licensed mental health professional, call your personal physician or go to the nearest hospital emergency room.

If a loved one is considering suicide, do not leave him or her alone. Try to get your loved one to seek immediate help from his or her doctor or the nearest hospital emergency room, or call 911. Remove any access he or she may have to firearms or other potential tools for suicide, including medications, sharp edges such as knives, ropes, or belts.

If you or a loved one are in crisis: Call the toll-free National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. The service is available to anyone. All calls are confidential.

The treatments described below are just some of the options that may be available to a person with BPD. However, the research on treatments is still in very early stages. More research is needed to determine the effectiveness of these treatments, who may benefit the most, and how best to deliver treatments.

Psychotherapy

Psychotherapy (or “talk therapy”) is the main treatment for people with BPD. Current research suggests psychotherapy can relieve some symptoms, but further studies are needed to better understand how well psychotherapy works.

Psychotherapy can be provided one-on-one between the therapist and the patient or in a group setting. Therapist-led group sessions may help teach people with BPD how to interact with others and how to express themselves effectively. It is important that people in therapy get along with and trust their therapist. The very nature of BPD can make it difficult for people with this disorder to maintain a comfortable and trusting bond with their therapist.

Types of psychotherapy used to treat BPD include:

  • Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT): CBT can help people with BPD identify and change core beliefs and/or behaviors that underlie inaccurate perceptions of themselves and others and problems interacting with others. CBT may help reduce a range of mood and anxiety symptoms and reduce the number of suicidal or self-harming behaviors.
  • Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT): This type of therapy utilizes the concept of mindfulness, or being aware of and attentive to the current situation and moods. DBT also teaches skills to control intense emotions, reduce self-destructive behaviors, and improve relationships. DBT differs from CBT in that it integrates traditional CBT elements with mindfulness, acceptance, and techniques to improve a person’s ability to tolerate stress and control his or her emotions. DBT recognizes the dialectical tension between the need for acceptance and the need for change.
  • Schema-Focused Therapy: This type of therapy combines elements of CBT with other forms of psychotherapy that focus on reframing schemas, or the ways people view themselves. This approach is based on the idea that BPD stems from a dysfunctional self-image—possibly brought on by negative childhood experiences—that affects how people react to their environment, interact with others, and cope with problems or stress.
  • Systems Training for Emotional Predictability and Problem Solving (STEPPS) is a type of group therapy that aims to educate family members, significant others, and health care professionals about BPD and gives them guidance on how to interact consistently with the person with the disorder using the STEPPS approach and terminology. STEPPS is designed to supplement other treatments the patient may be receiving, such as medication or individual psychotherapy.

Families of people with BPD may also benefit from therapy. The challenges of dealing with a loved one with BPD on a daily basis can be very stressful, and family members may unknowingly act in ways that worsen their relative’s symptoms. Some therapies include family members in treatment sessions. These types of programs help families develop skills to better understand and support a relative with BPD. Other therapies focus on the needs of family members and help them understand the obstacles and strategies for caring for a loved one with BPD. Although more research is needed to determine the effectiveness of family therapy in BPD, studies on other mental disorders suggest that including family members can help in a person’s treatment.

Other types of psychotherapy may be helpful for some people with BPD. Therapists often adapt psychotherapy to better meet a person’s needs. Therapists may also switch from one type of psychotherapy to another, mix techniques from different therapies, or use a combination of psychotherapies. For more information, please see the NIMH webpage on Psychotherapies.

Medications

Medications should not be used as the primary treatment for BPD as the benefits are unclear. However, in some cases, a mental health professional may recommend medications to treat specific symptoms, such as mood swings, depression, or other disorders that may occur with BPD. Treatment with medications may require care from more than one medical professional.

Because of the high risk of suicide among people with BPD, health care providers should exercise caution when prescribing medications that may be lethal in the event of an overdose.

Certain medications can cause different side effects in different people. Talk to your doctor about what to expect from a particular medication.

Other Treatments

Some people with BPD experience severe symptoms and require intensive, often inpatient, care. Others may use some outpatient treatments but never need hospitalization or emergency care. Although in rare cases, some people who develop this disorder may improve without any treatment, most people benefit from and improve their quality of life by seeking treatment.

Finding Help

More information about finding a health care provider or treatment for mental disorders in general is available on our Finding Help for Mental Illness webpage. You may also find additional information through the NIMH Outreach Partners or the NIMH National Partners.

How can I help a friend or relative who has BPD?

If you know someone who has BPD, it affects you too. The first and most important thing you can do is help your friend or relative get the right diagnosis and treatment. You may need to make an appointment and go with your friend or relative to see the doctor. Encourage him or her to stay in treatment or to seek different treatment if symptoms do not appear to improve with the current treatment.

To help a friend or relative you can:

  • Offer emotional support, understanding, patience, and encouragement—change can be difficult and frightening to people with BPD, but it is possible for them to get better over time.
  • Learn about mental disorders, including BPD, so you can understand what your friend or relative is experiencing.
  • With written permission from your friend or loved one, talk with his or her therapist to learn about therapies that may involve family members. Alternatively, you can encourage your loved one who is in treatment for BPD to ask about family therapy.
  • Seek counseling from your own therapist about helping a loved one with BPD. It should not be the same therapist that your loved one with BPD is seeing.

Never ignore comments about someone’s intent or plan to harm himself or herself or someone else. Report such comments to the person’s therapist or doctor. In urgent or potentially life-threatening situations, you may need to call the police or dial 911.

How can I help myself if I have BPD?

Although it may take some time, you can get better with treatment. To help yourself:

  • Talk to your doctor about treatment options and stick with treatment.
  • Try to maintain a stable schedule of meals and sleep times.
  • Engage in mild activity or exercise to help reduce stress.
  • Set realistic goals for yourself.
  • Break up large tasks into small ones, set some priorities, and do what you can, as you can.
  • Try to spend time with other people and confide in a trusted friend or family member.
  • Tell others about events or situations that may trigger symptoms.
  • Expect your symptoms to improve gradually over time, not immediately. Be patient.
  • Identify and seek out comforting situations, places, and people.
  • Continue to educate yourself about this disorder.
  • Don’t drink alcohol or use illicit drugs – they will likely make things worse

Clinical Trials

What are Clinical Trials?

Clinical trials are research studies that look at new ways to prevent, detect, or treat diseases and conditions, including BPD. During clinical trials, treatments might be new drugs or new combinations of drugs, new surgical procedures or devices, or new ways to use existing treatments. The goal of clinical trials is to determine if a new test or treatment works and is safe. Although individual participants may benefit from being part of a clinical trial, participants should be aware that the primary purpose of a clinical trial is to gain new scientific knowledge so that others may be better helped in the future.

Research on BPD treatment is focused on the development and evaluation of psychotherapy and pharmacological interventions to prevent self-harming and suicidal behaviors, which occur at a higher rate among people with BPD.

Please note: Decisions about whether to participate in a clinical trial and which trial may be best suited for you should be made in collaboration with your licensed health professional.

How do I find Clinical Trials at NIMH/NIH on Borderline Personality Disorder?

Scientists at the NIH campus conduct research on numerous areas of study, including cognition, genetics, epidemiology, and psychiatry. The studies take place at the NIH Clinical Center in Bethesda, Maryland and require regular visits. After the initial phone interview, you will come to an appointment at the clinic and meet with one of our clinicians. Find NIH-funded studies currently recruiting participants with BPD by using ClinicalTrials.gov (search: BPD). NIH also supports clinical trials nationwide and in other countries.

How Do I Find a Clinical Trial Near Me?

To search for a clinical trial near you, you can visit ClinicalTrials.gov. This is a searchable registry and results database of federally and privately supported clinical trials conducted in the United States and around the world. ClinicalTrials.gov gives you information about a trial’s purpose, who may participate, locations, and phone numbers for more details. This information should be used in conjunction with advice from health professionals.

Learn More

Federal Resources

Related NIMH Booklets and Brochures

  • Eating Disorders: About More Than Food: A brochure about the common eating disorders anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and binge-eating disorder, and various approaches to treatment.
  • Depression: What You Need to Know: This booklet contains information on depression including signs and symptoms, treatment and support options, and a listing of additional resources.

Last Revised: August 2016

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3 Dec 2017 Our Sacred House (drawing), Trevince House (My Beautiful Things) and A Prayer When I Feel Lonely (Rachel Wojo)

Hello to you.  How are you?  It’s Sunday morning here and I am slowly waking up.  It’s one of those mornings where it was warmer in bed but my lower back was starting to hurt and I couldn’t go back to sleep so I knew it was time to get up!  My goal today is to continue working on writing up notes in Christmas cards so I can more of them in the mail tomorrow.   I was going to do a Christmas letter and decided against it.  Kyle was joking that I should write “Have a nice summer” in the cards.   I told him that wasn’t very  nice LOL!  Remember the school yearbooks?  Getting that written in your book was kind of like them saying, “I don’t know who you are but hey, have a nice summer!”    I won’t be writing that in my notes to people lol!

So I was looking at posts of folks I follow here on WordPress and got a nice synchronicity sort of thing.  My friend Sally from My Beautiful Things had shared some pictures from their visit to Trevince House and in looking at the second picture she shared, I realized it looked a lot like a drawing I did yesterday afternoon!

2 Dec 2017 240 pm Jackie Wygant outdoor chalk drawing our sacred house Alvarado TX

When I drew this all sorts of thoughts were going through my head!  The title I came up with, “Our Sacred House” coincides very well with Sally’s picture I think!

My Beautiful Things

Paddling, Trevince House and Canapés 

Photo #2 From My Beautiful Things blog post about Sally’s visiting Trevince House. (Trevince sits proudly atop a hill overlooking St Wennappa’s Church in the parish of Gwennap, Cornwall)

I was curious about where she was talking about and found the official web site for Trevince House:

http://www.trevince.co.uk/
Trevince sits proudly atop a hill overlooking St Wennappa’s Church in the parish of Gwennap, Cornwall. With roots in the 13th century, Trevince has experienced many architectural changes, from a lost medieval house, to a modest Elizabethan country farmhouse, to a grand redevelopment by the famed Cornish architect Piers St. Aubyn in 1865.

Set in two hundred and seventy acres of farm and woodland, Trevince is adjacent to the renowned ‘richest square mile in the world’, a term coined in the nineteenth century when the area was rich in copper. The importance of Trevince as part of the social history of copper mining led to it being included in the World Heritage Site.

With its granite ashlar and pink killas stone, and classical portico entrance, Trevince has a beauty of its own. It has been in the same family since before 1281, and had never been open to the public until it hosted its first event at Christmas 2016; A COUNTRY HOUSE CHRISTMAS was a unique retail event and pop-up café to which thousands of shoppers eager for a new experience visited during the double-week end event.

The Trevince Team has now announced the dates for the 2017 event. So please join us on 24, 25, 26 November and 1, 2, 3 December for an exquisite Christmas shopping experience. Keep an eye on our news pages for more information.


I hope this finds you well and if not, I hope you know you are not alone in this world.  No one is ever truly alone.  It may seem like it sometimes but just because there isn’t another person around, that doesn’t mean no one is there.   The holiday season isn’t always so jolly for many people.   I was looking for a message to share to help anyone who might need help with this feeling of being alone today and found Rachel Wojo’s message.   I would ask you to get beyond this being a prayer, the words Father and Jesus, if Christianity offends you.  Try to read this prayer with your heart and not with your head.

http://rachelwojo.com/a-prayer-when-i-feel-lonely/

A Prayer When I Feel Lonely

Yesterday on the Facebook page, we took prayer requests. One of our precious readers, Joeann, lost her husband two years ago and she is feeling so lonely.  There have been times in my life when I felt deep feelings of loneliness and my heart aches for Joeann. I was thinking about her during my run today. We’re all praying for you, Joeann! May this prayer provide comfort to her and to you.

A Prayer When I Feel Lonely

Thank you for listening to my heart;

Your patience with me is to be praised.

Today I had that feeling again-

The one where I feel so alone.

It seems that no one understands…

Even my family and friends don’t “get” me at times.

Though I can be in a room full of people,

I feel lonely…

And I feel alone.

I know You said You would never leave me.

 Your Word promises this and it’s true.

These feelings are but signs of my human form.

Would You reveal Yourself to me

In a way far beyond my imagination?

Thank you for the peace beyond my comprehension

That can only be provided by You.

In Jesus’ name,

Amen.

 

when you feel lonely

Be blessed!

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+7&version=NIVthis Chapter is resonate with my thoughts this morning and for most of this year.  We will never heal as a nation or as a world if we continue to take joy in others sufferings.  

Matthew 7New International Version (NIV)

Judging Others

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

“Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

Ask, Seek, Knock

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

“Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

The Narrow and Wide Gates

13 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

True and False Prophets

15 “Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. 16 By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? 17 Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18 A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. 19 Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20 Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.

True and False Disciples

21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22 Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ 23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

The Wise and Foolish Builders

24 “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. 26 But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.”

28 When Jesus had finished saying these things, the crowds were amazed at his teaching, 29 because he taught as one who had authority, and not as their teachers of the law.

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1 Dec 2017 Morning Meditation

Hello to you. How are you doing in your present moment as you visit here? I hope you are less conflicted inside than I am! I am excited about seeing Lindsey Stirling tonight and sad with the news that our neighbors sister died yesterday after not recovering from complications due to an automobile accident! Rhonda was apt to remind me there are pills for my being happy and sad at the same time. I reminded her I’m taking some of those and it’s not helping with my predicament today!

There are more than a few things just popping some pill or another won’t provide any sort of consolation for. Coping with mixed emotions is an inside job to tackle with the God of your understanding if you have one or spending time in prayer, meditation, a long walk….for some to even smoke some weed! It’s important to allow ourselves to feel emotions and not just use people, places and things to obstruct or mask the experience. We are human beings and having feelings is part of being human!

Had an early morning wake up, like 1:38 am or so. It was like someone was standing right next to my side of the bed with a cup of prepared coffee! The mystery kind of got solved when I let the dogs out later and smelled the same sort of smell outside. Must have got into the house via our HVAC system or something.

So this morning’s meditation included my cards and a map of the United States I got from the Sierra Club many years ago. The messages spoke to me but also seemed to speak to what I see is happening these days in our country…in our world. I want to stress cards of any kind and there are millions of different types people use, are just tools. Sometimes I feel like my chalk drawings are too ambiguous and vague. Adding the cards lately is helping things get more specific.

It’s important to not read too much into such things..the phrase “self-fulfilling prophecy” comes to mind. There is always a fork in the road and we can choose, at any moment, which road to take.

1 Dec 2017 – overall reading

1 Dec 2017 – closer look at the cards ad their positions. The direction, facing up or down, changes the overall meaning.

8 of Cups face up- Tells you you will get what you’ve hoped for, but you may be being over-cautious

8 of Swords face down – Warns of unexpected calamities

Knight of Cups face up- Most often represents a lover, or the messenger of true love

8 of Wands face up – This is a time to take action, to be hopeful, to plan your next moves.

2 of Wands face down – Portends something unexpected will happen or enter the picture, or loss or failure in your new enterprise

Ace of Swords face up – Represents triumph by force

3 of Wands face up – Problems can be resolved if the person remains calm, dignified, intelligent

The World face down – Symbolizes complete mastery and understanding of your own inner nature and of the forces surrounding you

3 of Swords face up – Indicates the disintegration of alliances

6 of Swords face down – Indicates a journey, or visitor or message

Special: 5 of Wands face up – Signifies Greed, competition for financial gain, hardship

1 Dec 2017 – the “special” card today speaks directly to America.

The drawings that came up, especially the one with Vladimir Putin dressed in the colors of our flag, political parties and surrounded in “Cheeto Orange” comes with messages that resonated with me with the recent indictment of Michael Flynn. The messages, “They all play in this game” and “Takes many sheep to make a lamb” were what came forth after the poor drawing of Putin. In my perception, it’s not fair to just go after one person when so many are probably involved with this whole thing.  I think it’s important for transparency in this whole issue and to focus on how to make these wrongs right instead of just tearing more people and this country apart.   Sometimes looking at or hearing the news headlines in this country seems like what it may have been for the Romans in their Colosseums!  Just watching people being shredded alive!  Only in our day an age it isn’t flesh being ripped apart by lions, it’s their characters…their very souls. 

1 Dec 2017 – this poor rendering of Vladimir Putin dressed in red white blue and surrounded by Cheeto orange and the messages that came are about how it seems a lamb is chosen to take the fall for everyone and no one ultimately benefits from this. Everyone involved should be held in account!

1 Dec 2017 – my dream has always been a unified earth. Enemies we all share Greed Hate and Fear, Fear being the worst in my feeling. This is me ruminating about the plethora of sexual misconduct allegations we are seeing that are destroying people’s lives. We have to be careful about this tactic.

The other messages pertains to what is going on with people, mostly men, being ripped apart and their legacies laid waste with sexual misconduct allegations. It came to me, as someone who has experienced sexual misconduct many times in my life, that bringing such things to light out of a heartspace of spite does no one any good. It’s just pouring more gasoline on a fire. We don’t heal as a nation and a people by attacking each other out of spite and vengeance.

http://variety.com/2017/politics/news/michael-flynn-guilty-charged-russia-probe-1202627430/ – use link for complete article

Michael Flynn Pleads Guilty to Lying to FBI in Russia Probe

WASHINGTON — Michael Flynn, President Donald Trump’s former national security adviser, plead guilty to one count to lying to the FBI as part of an agreement reached with Special Counsel Robert Mueller in his probe into Russian interference in the 2016 election.

Mueller charged Flynn with “willfully and knowingly” making false statements to the FBI regarding his conversations with Russia’s ambassador, Sergey Kislyak.

 

I told Kyle this morning that in a way, despite how ugly this whole year has been in this country, I am becoming almost grateful for it.  I am seeing it has been the sort of humbling experience this country has needed for a very long time.  We can learn from what is happening in this literal and figurative dismantling of America.  We can come together as a nation and instead of rebuilding other countries as we’ve done in the past after wars….begin to rebuild ours in peaceful cooperation with the rest of this world.   

 

1 Dec 2017 – this was the last drawing and looking at it after talking to our neighbor about the tragic loss of his sister makes me wonder if this was for her.

27 Nov 2017 “Come and See Me” (dreams)

Hello to you.  How are you doing in your present?  It’s 7:52 am on this Monday morning as I begin to write to you.  Can’t spend too much time here as we have chores today….tree trimming…yeah….can you hear my enthusiasm lol?

So lots of dreams this morning, starting about 1:42 am on.  I can tell that I recently spent time with children and yesterday during my adventures in FFXIV my character Aurora flew with a lost character Minfilia (http://finalfantasy.wikia.com/wiki/Minfilia_Warde):

17 Nov 2017 – my FFXIV avatar Aurora in new duds!

Final Fantasy XIV: HeavenswardEdit

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Minfilia’s body being used by Hydaelyn.

We speak now with one Voice. One Will. One Word. Unto thee we bequeath the most precious of gifts: the truth which lieth at the heart of this world.

—The Word of the Mother to the adventurer

After the adventurer defeats Archbishop Thordan VII and reunites with Y’shtola and Thancred, the Scions are joined by Minfilia’s close friend, Krile. With her help, the Scions discover the truth of Minfilia’s fate in Ul’dah, and attempt to find her with whatever knowledge of the Aetherial Sea they can obtain from the Antitower.

The adventurer is transported to the Mother Crystal’s realm and learns of Minfilia’s new existence as “The Word of the Mother.” She reveals the existence of Zodiark and urges the adventurer to stop the Ascians. Seemingly using the remainder of her strength in the encounter, Minfilia dissipates before returning the adventurer to Eorzea.

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Minfilia, moments before dissipating into the aether.

Though disheartened to learn of Minfilia’s apparent demise, the Scions promise to fulfill her wishes and defeat the Ascians once and for all. They choose to keep the truth of Minfilia’s fate a secret known to only the leadership of the Scions, telling the remainder of their allies, including F’lhaminn, merely that their efforts to locate her have reached a dead end.

Some time later, Urianger manipulates both the Warriors of Darkness and the Scions into a confrontation. During the conflict, the power of the crystals held by the Warriors of Darkness combines with that of the Adventurer, transporting everyone present into the Mother Crystal’s realm, and reconstituting Minfilia. Urianger reveals that this was his goal, and apologizes for his apparent betrayal. Minfilia agrees to travel to the Warriors of Darkness’ world as Hydaelyn’s avatar in order to save it from the flood of light that threatens to destroy it, despite knowing that she will likely never be able to return to Eorzea. She bids farewell to her friends, and thanks F’lhaminn for everything she did for her, before leaving with the Warriors of Darkness.

The dreams:

1:42 am

Very clear message in dream — blue background with white letters that said, “Come and see me”  But who would I be going to see?!  Very unclear that part!

3:30 am

Children trapped in the stairwell of a school.  I can remember the railing was like a lime green color.  I helped them find a way out but going the opposite direction from where they were standing with a man who seemed to be trying to figure out how to help.  One child was “featured” in this dream kind of like one might be in a newspaper.  He had short blonde hair and blue eyes and was expressing gratitude about life.

4:59 am

This dream was about being able to fly, it was a snowy place.  I met family there who could too but then I was in a place, like a nursing home or children’s home or something – a place for sick people.  I remember trying to write down last wishes but then it was “time to go” and I left without saying good-bye.  I remember sneaking out of this place and turning a white painted door knob.  The world was green and alive and I was flying again.  I got to a clearing in a grassy field with tall grass and then I woke up.

6:32 am

In this last dream there was a little boy showing me a bookshelf and a chair that could be moved to make a place to read.  There were blankets stacked on a small couch and before I woke up from this dream, he was on the floor hugging a small purple teddy bear that seemed familiar.  I remember saying something about sneaking it back home, like I had donated it to where the boy was.

Drawings from yesterday:

26 Nov 2017 Psalm 62 (different translations for the same message) and Drawings

Hello to you.  How are you doing thus far in your today?  I’m still waking up lol.  I don’t know why, but lately I’ve been getting drawn to exploring Bible scriptures with my chalk drawings.  Yesterday I pulled out a Bible my parents had given to me as a child, The New American Bible (NAB – Catholic) published by Thomas Nelson Inc. July 27, 1970.  Unlike my other Bibles, I haven’t done a lot of highlighting or writing in it but had highlighted Psalm 62 on page 595.

After reading it, I pulled out my NIV Study Bible and noticed how different the two translations were from each other.  The differences between the two translations are subtle,  but this is a primary example of how one message, when interpreted by different people, may not have the same meaning to a reader.  This thought transcends all sorts of the different ways we communicate to each other.  Just changing one word can change the entire intention behind the original message!  Human beings have a bad habit of changing words to suite their personal intentions.

 

When people hear there are over 50 different versions of the Bible in English alone, they often think to themselves, “No wonder there are many denominations each teaching different things, there are many different versions of the Bible.”.
I hope there is something for you here today even if you are like me, and not a Christian walking another path of spirituality.  I think I have been drawn back to the Bible as a way to try to understand myself and those around me here in the United States.
Psalm 91:11New International Version (NIV)

11 For he will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;

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26 Nov 2017 – cover for my Bible. It was given to me many years ago and has helped me many times when I felt alone.

This is Psalm 62 from the NAB,  III resonated very strongly!  – http://www.usccb.org/bible/psalms/62

Psalms, chapter 62

 PSALM 62*

Trust in God Alone

1For the leader; ‘al Jeduthun.* A psalm of David.

I

2My soul rests in God alone,a

from whom comes my salvation.

3God alone is my rock and salvation,

my fortress; I shall never fall.

4How long will you set yourself against a man?

You shall all be destroyed,

Like a sagging wall

or a tumbled down fence!

5Even highly placed people

plot to overthrow him.

They delight in lies;

they bless with their mouths,

but inwardly they curse.b

Selah

II

6My soul, be at rest in God alone,

from whom comes my hope.

7God alone is my rock and my salvation,

my fortress; I shall not fall.

8My deliverance and honor are with God,c

my strong rock;

my refuge is with God.

9Trust God at all times, my people!

Pour out your hearts to God our refuge!

Selah

III

10Mortals are a mere breath,

the sons of man but an illusion;d

On a balance they rise;*

together they weigh nothing.

11Do not trust in extortion;

in plunder put no empty hope.

On wealth that increases,

do not set your heart.e

12*One thing God has said;

two things I have heard:f

Strength belongs to God;

13so too, my Lord, does mercy,

For you repay each man

according to his deeds.g

* [Psalm 62] A song of trust displaying serenity from experiencing God’s power (the refrains of Ps 62:23 and Ps 62:67) and anger toward unjust enemies (Ps 62:45). From the experience of being rescued, the psalmist can teach others to trust in God (Ps 62:912).

* [62:1] ‘Al Jeduthun: apparently the Hebrew name for the melody.

* [62:10] On a balance they rise: precious objects were weighed by balancing two pans suspended from a beam. The lighter pan rises.

* [62:12] One thing…two things: parallelism of numbers for the sake of variation, a common device in Semitic poetry. One should not literally add up the numbers, cf. Am 1:3; Prv 6:1619; 30:15, 18, 21.

a. [62:23, 67] Ps 18:3; 31:34; 42:10; 118:8; 146:3.

b. [62:5] Ps 12:3; 28:3; 55:22; Prv 26:2425.

c. [62:8] Ps 3:3; Is 26:4; 60:19.

d. [62:10] Ps 39:67; 144:4; Jb 7:16; Wis 2:5.

e. [62:11] Jb 31:25; Eccl 5:9; Jer 17:11; Mt 6:1921, 24.

f. [62:12] Jb 40:5.

g. [62:13] Ps 28:4; 31:24; 2 Sm 3:39; Jb 34:11; Jer 17:10; Mt 16:27; Rom 2:6; 2 Tm 4:14.

this is how it was reads for the NIV Study Bible:

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+62&version=NIV

Psalm 62New International Version (NIV)

Psalm 62[a]

For the director of music. For Jeduthun. A psalm of David.

Truly my soul finds rest in God;
    my salvation comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
    he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

How long will you assault me?
    Would all of you throw me down—
    this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
Surely they intend to topple me
    from my lofty place;
    they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,
    but in their hearts they curse.[b]

Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
    my hope comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
    he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God[c];
    he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
Trust in him at all times, you people;
    pour out your hearts to him,
    for God is our refuge.

Surely the lowborn are but a breath,
    the highborn are but a lie.
If weighed on a balance, they are nothing;
    together they are only a breath.
10 Do not trust in extortion
    or put vain hope in stolen goods;
though your riches increase,
    do not set your heart on them.

11 One thing God has spoken,
    two things I have heard:
“Power belongs to you, God,
12     and with you, Lord, is unfailing love”;
and, “You reward everyone
    according to what they have done.”

Footnotes:

  1. Psalm 62:1 In Hebrew texts 62:1-12 is numbered 62:2-13.
  2. Psalm 62:4 The Hebrew has Selah (a word of uncertain meaning) here and at the end of verse 8.
  3. Psalm 62:7 Or / God Most High is my salvation and my honor

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Drawings from yesterday:

25 Nov 2017 – drawing I did early yesterday. Kind of looks like David Cassidy.

 

25 Nov 2017 – all the crap in the sky yesterday morning. Sometimes I wonder if they aren’t doing a sky sweeping to clean it because there hasn’t been any rain coming from this activity.

 

25 Nov 2017 – me trying to process my frustration with the sky trails. I wish they would come out and explain to the public what it is they are doing and who is paying for it!

 

25 Nov 2017 – last drawing of the day. I was thinking the center object looked like a ship. Then came the boxes and thinking of people in the boxes. Then came the thought of all existence being just a thought.

 

 

 

 

25 Nov 2017 Reincarnation (dream), Mosque attack, Mysterious Booms and TransCanada major oil spill in Amherst South Dakota

Hello to you. It’s 6:50 am on this Saturday morning as I begin to write to you. I did a scan of the headlines and regretted it. My prayers go out to those affected by the attack on a Mosque in Egypt….death toll of like 300 plus right now. So sad! Another example, like the Sutherland TX shooting, even houses of worship aren’t off-limits to murderous intentions, revenge and hate. So tired of this crap!

http://time.com/5036386/egypt-mosque-attack/305 Killed in Egypt Mosque Attack State, Media Says – “(ISMAILIA, Egypt) — Egypt on Saturday said an attack on a mosque by militants in the country’s troubled region of northern Sinai has killed 305 worshippers, including 27 children, a dramatic increase in the death toll previously announced, which was 235.”

So I had a really strange dream. It was about a meeting. I was meeting someone but they weren’t fully ready yet….something about reincarnation. I remember telling someone this was my 3rd incarnation, may be my fourth. There was something about figures being stored in a box much like action figures would be. Ashes associated with these figures were stored in a separate, sometimes hidden place. I remember seeing small wooden boxes and a sliding wooden floor. There was a meeting but the man I ended up meeting wasn’t the one I was waiting for. He’s the one who told me the one I was waiting for wasn’t ready. There was a small blonde man with a pair of sewing scissors who threatened to gut me like a fish using the scissors. He was holding them near my nose and was going to cut but someone stopped him and then I woke up.

I can’t even begin to put together all the keys that unlocked this one – my dream factory just putting thoughts I’ve had and media I’ve either read or watched to a script!

In my look at the headlines I saw this about Mysterious Booms :

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/mysterious-booms-are-being-recorded-across-the-country/ar-BBFAVkL?OCID=ansmsnnews11

Mysterious Booms Are Being Recorded Across the Country

Video by CBS News

Loud booming noises have startled people across the United States, but it’s not clear what actually is happening or if the separate events are even related.

Residents in a number of states—Alabama, California, Idaho, Michigan and New Jersey—have reported hearing similar, mysterious sounds. Most recently, the noises also were heard in Colorado, CBS Denver reports.

The Monday sounds left CBS Denver’s meteorologist Chris Spears baffled. The only possible explanation Spears could conclude was that meteors from the Leonid meteor shower were bursting in the sky, creating the loud noises. However, Ron Hranac, an astronomy expert, struck down his theory saying that the meteors produced by the Leonids are way too small for this to happen, according to CBS Denver.

A day after the explosion-like noises, officials believed they had a better answer of what happened on Monday night, but they still aren’t certain.

An empty oil storage tank over-pressurized near the region where residents were calling in about the boom, Colorado Oil and Gas Conservation Commission (COGCC) officials told The Denver Channel. Due to the pressure, the lid was blown from the tank, “potentially resulting in a loud noise,” officials explained.

Following the incident, the oil and gas production company went on to file an accident report, which stated “that a malfunction of a production vessel led to an over-pressurization of a new and empty … storage tank, which resulted in the lid of the tank being compromised,” The Denver Post reports.

Furthermore, the report notes that no one was hurt and there were no environmental impacts or property damage outside of the boundaries of their property. The COGCC is now looking into the event to further understand what happened.

“The wells at the site will be closed in until equipment repairs have been made and a more thorough review of the incident has been completed,” the report said, according to The Denver Post.

Although the cause of the Colorado noises may have been discovered, other noises from across the country remain a mystery. A recent boom heard in Alabama left the National Weather Service in Birmingham taking many guesses as to what happened.

“Re: loud boom heard: we do not see anything indicating large fire/smoke on radar or satellite; nothing on USGS indicating an earthquake,” the agency wrote on Twitter. “We don’t have an answer, and can only hypothesize with you. 1) sonic boom from aircraft; 2) meteorite w/ current Leonid shower?”

However, the November 14 incident has still yet to be solved.

It makes sense that the boom in Colorado was just a lid popping off of an over pressurized tank but what about the booms being heard elsewhere. What do I think? I think it could be our “house”, the earth is shifting. I know when our little house shifts and adjusts to changes in water levels in the soil or extreme heat or cold we start hearing loud pops and booms in our house. I wonder if the same thing is going on with the earth on a global scale?

This is plausible if you consider all the natural and destructive activities that are going on all over the globe beneath the surface of the Earth’s “skin” and in the various waterways. There are nuclear bombs being tested, fracking, oil drilling, mining and any number of other activities all of which would I would believe could cause the “floor” of our earth to shift. These shifts may not always cause earthquakes at least not right away. If it’s like in our house, it may sound like it’s happening over head but it’s just an echo of sound coming from the ground. I’m not a geologist or seismologist etc. but that’s just what comes to mind about this. Or….it’s the second coming or aliens. Yeah lol. We shall see.

 

24 Nov 2017 – I was tired after such a full visit with family. Not sure what’s behind this one.

https://www.reuters.com/article/us-transcanada-keystone-spill/transcanada-recovers-44400-gallons-of-oil-from-keystone-pipeline-spill-site-idUSKBN1DP012it wasn’t if there would be a spill, it was when.  You can’t drink or eat oil. 

TransCanada recovers 44,400 gallons of oil from Keystone pipeline spill site

(Reuters) – TransCanada Corp said on Friday it has recovered 44,400 gallons, or 1,057 barrels, of oil from the Keystone pipeline spill site at Amherst, South Dakota.

An aerial view shows the darkened ground of an oil spill which shut down the Keystone pipeline between Canada and the United States, located in an agricultural area near Amherst, South Dakota. REUTERS/Dronebase

The company had shut down its 590,000 barrel-per-day Keystone pipeline, which links Alberta’s oil sands to U.S. refineries, on Nov. 16 after a 5,000-barrel spill. It has not yet set an expected restart date for the pipeline, which is one of Canada’s main crude export pipelines.

Additional excavation will be conducted beyond Sunday for soil remediation purposes, the Calgary-based company said, adding, it has about 170 personnel round-the-clock on the site engaged in clean-up activities.

Preliminary inspections of the damaged section will be completed on site by both TransCanada and U.S. Pipeline and Hazardous Materials Safety Administration (PHMSA) staff, then sent to Washington, D.C., for an investigation by the National Transportation Safety Board’s Metallurgical Laboratory, the company said.

“As a safety precaution, TransCanada sampled one residential water well yesterday at a location about 1.5 miles from the site to alleviate any concerns — all test results were normal,” TransCanada added.

 Reporting by Catherine Ngai in New York and Eileen Soreng in Bengaluru; Editing by Lisa Shumaker
Our Standards:The Thomson Reuters Trust Principles.

*ONLY one water well was tested?!!! They need to be testing ALL of them!  This is exactly the sort of stuff the DAPL water protectors were worried about happening.  It’s happening.  It’s like drawing blood with a faulty needle.  The oil we take from the earth is essentially the Earth’s blood. 

31 July 2012 Jackie drawing cleansing of mother earth with the sun

 

24 Nov 2017 Thanksgiving

Hello there!  I wasn’t sure I was going to post today but decided writing would clear my head before heading to bed early. Kyle is already out lol!  That darn time savings stuff and how much earlier it gets dark out doesn’t help either.  We are both very tired after the fantastic visit with family for Thanksgiving. Kyle’s brother Mark, his wife Tami and their three awesome kids drove down from Delaware to celebrate the holiday with all of us. The weather was perfect and I got to experience why Tim and Beth chose to live in more secluded place….the night sky! This morning, around 4:25 am or so, I was up to take the dogs out and saw a huge falling star streak across the sky! The stars are so bright where they live, little to no light pollution!

What was funny was before the star shot across the sky I remember thinking, “Are you there God? It’s me Jackie!” The answer was there before I even finished the thought in that streak of light. I just couldn’t get enough of that celestial tapestry they have at their place!  You just stand beneath it in awe, wonder and the thought, “How great thou art.”

It was fantastic to get caught up with everyone. Some of the things we talked about however, broke my heart and Kyle’s parents too.  You don’t ever want to hear your child, who is among three of their boys who have or are still serving in the military, tell you what we heard Mark has been going through.  He is serving in the Guard and is suffering from side-effects of the Anthrax vaccine. There is nothing he can do legally about it since he’s still employed  for another 2 years. They are having to pay a $500 co-pay for injections to treat abnormally low testosterone levels caused by the shot! His story fuels my strong feelings about military service.  His story is just another reason why I encourage young people considering military service to find another option!

Hearing him talk about what he’s been going through physically and emotionally with this brought me to tears and I felt very angry.  He’s pretty sure at some point he’s going to have to deal with cancer or some other illness from just the injections he’s getting now and they have three young children!

I found this post from back in 2009 that gives a little insight into what Mark and Veterans like him are going through:

http://vets4politics.blogspot.com/2009/01/from-colonel-dan.html

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

From Colonel Dan

No weapons of mass destruction found in Iraq, but forced anthrax vaccinations are back anyway

Meryl Nass, M.D.

January 20, 2007

The bad news is that the Pentagon has begun giving mandatory anthrax vaccinations to soldiers, despite the lack of a formal announcement.

In late October 2006, Assistant Secretary of Defense for Health Affairs, William Winkenwerder, M.D. ( http://www.ha.osd.mil/ha/winkenwerder-bio.cfm ), announced that the mandatory anthrax vaccine program was to be reinstated in about two months, after new policies were issued. Although the policies are still pending, perhaps due to the fact that a new Secretary of Defense began his tenure after the announcement was made, the military has begun widespread vaccinations, often during boot camp. Previously, vaccinations were generally given to soldiers right before deploying, when they were more seasoned.

One may surmise that vaccinating soldiers with a controversial and dangerous vaccine as soon as they begin active duty was carefully calculated: the new recruits won’t have the opportunity to learn about all the problems associated with this vaccine in advance of their inoculations. By making no formal announcement of the resumption of vaccinations, the Defense Department forestalled public discussion of the program in the media, which would likely lead to undesirable publicity, when the military is already enmeshed in a very unpopular war and trying hard to “look good.”

Here are the facts about the vaccine:

1. FDA only approved the vaccine manufacturing plant in January 2002 under pressure from the administration, as a result of 9/11. The renovated plant was still not able to produce sterile vaccine! The compromise led to all vaccine batches being trucked to Washington State, to be bottled by another company with cleaner procedures.

2. The recipe and method for making vaccine did not change since 1998, according to the manufacturer’s testimony to the Institute of Medicine in 2001. Thus there is no reason to think this version of the vaccine is any better than the old version.

3. Unfortunately, I am still contacted several times a week by soldiers who received post-renovation anthrax vaccine, but became sick with the same illnesses that were caused by older vaccine lots. Although some lots of vaccine may be worse than others, please do not assume that any lots are completely safe. The vaccine component(s) causing the illnesses remains unknown.

4. Many studies of Gulf War veterans suggest anthrax vaccine caused or contributed to chronic illness in those veterans. The only studies that claim the vaccine is safe were performed by the Defense Department. Most of those studies were supervised by the same individual, Colonel John Grabenstein, who was the director of the military’s vaccine program. Colonel Grabenstein claimed that NO chronic illnesses resulted from anthrax vaccine. Yet on the anthrax vaccine package insert, FDA explains why those military studies had serious problems and cannot be relied upon.

5. Anthrax vaccine reactions are unfortunately very common. Most soldiers who have been in the military for long know several people who became ill and/or disabled shortly after receiving anthrax inoculations. I estimate that 10% – 30% of all soldiers who have been vaccinated have developed some medical problem as a result. Some are minor, some severe. Many airmen have lost the ability to continue flying (DNIF).

6. The most common side effects are new pains in muscles and joints. Short-term memory loss and periods of confusion are also common. Fatigue and problems sleeping usually accompany these symptoms. Some people develop inflammatory bowel disease, with severe, sometimes bloody diarrhea. Some develop other autoimmune disorders, like lupus erythematosus, multiple sclerosis, and reactive arthritis. Rashes are common. There have been many cases of low testosterone. Thyroid disorders appear commonly.

You can download vaccine adverse event reporting system (VAERS) reports since 1998 from the FDA website to see what kinds of medical problems were experienced following anthrax inoculations, according to the nearly 5,000 soldiers who have reported them to FDA.

You can read about a study of the anthrax vaccine VAERS reports by independent researchers Mark and David Geier at:

http://www.military-biodefensevaccines.org/documents/GeierOct2006.ppt

7. Sometimes other vaccinations bring on recurrent symptoms. Sometimes odors begin to trigger symptoms. Some people improve over time; some stay the same; some worsen. A few have died. There is a suspicion that thyroid cancer may be caused by the vaccine, and breast or cervical cancers in females. Military statistics from the Defense Medical Surveillance System Database indicate many more hospitalizations for those problems after anthrax vaccination, compared to before vaccination. See the military’s own statistics at: http://books.nap.edu/openbook.php?record_id=10310&page=246

What can soldiers do when faced with the anthrax vaccine? It seems we are in a legal gray area now. Personally, I would ask to be given informed consent. I would ask for a copy of the vaccine label to review, which can be found at: http://www.fda.gov/CBER/label/biopava0131022LB.pdf

No one has been court-martialed for refusal recently, and ASD Winkenwerder did not say what punishments might be used against vaccine refusers last October, when he announced the program was to be restarted.

You are welcome to contact the Military Biodefense Vaccine Project (http://www.military-biodefensevaccines.org/) and contact@military-biodefensevaccines.org for a discussion of your personal situation with a knowledgeable volunteer.

Meryl Nass, M.D.

http://www.anthraxvaccine.org

On a more positive note….

The visit allowed me to get to spend some time with Mark and Tami’s three children Laci, Alex and Owen. This was very precious to me as we so seldom get to see each other and as most know, kids grow up so darn fast! The weather was fantastic and I had a hankering to do some chalk drawing but I had left mine at home. My mother-in-law Beth happened to have a couple pieces of chalk on hand, so their youngest, Owen and I went out at first and then Alex and Laci joined us. We traced shadows of their bikes and them lol. It was a lot of fun and they really did a good job!

23 Nov 2017 – Laci Wygant tracing of her bicycles shadow.

 

23 Nov 2017 – Alex Wygant tracing of his bicycles shadow Cresson TX

 

23 Nov 2017 – Owen Wygant tracing of his bicycles shadow.

We had a pizza party on Wednesday and traditional faire on Thursday. I was hoping Beth would go easy on herself. One of these years I’ll get her to do that! Her and Tim always make sure the holidays are full of great food and fun. We also had 6 dogs in addition to all the extra humans this year. There would have been more but Mark and Tami kenneled their dogs as they weren’t sure how their large dogs would do with a bunch of, as my Mom so aptly calls them, “yipper shitters.” LOL!

24 Nov 2017 – all the little dogs but Dale who is our shy one. Jack, Link, Henry, Spot and Suzie.

I decided I was finally ready for the camera Tim and Beth had offered me awhile ago.  It’s a Nikon Digital Camera D5100 with lenses you can change out. It’s very similar to the high quality camera’s I used to use a lot in my younger days when I was stationed in Europe. So now comes the learning curve and so far so good. I love the responsiveness of it compared to my poor old Canon I’ve used to death and the dying cell phone camera. So the quality of my pictures for posts will be better. I’m probably going to have to go through and cull pictures from older posts again soon….not much room left!

Anyhew…time to close. Hope those who celebrated the holiday had a great time and just finds anyone stumbling in here on purpose or by accident doing great! Keep your inner lamps lit!  Love and Hugs through the wires!

Great line from Stranger Things 2, episode 5 – Murray Bauman

“You’re being naïve Nancy! those people, they’re not wired like me and you okay? They don’t spend their lives trying to get a look at what’s behind the curtain. They like the curtain, and open the curtain behind that curtain. So the minute someone with an ounce of authority calls bullshit, everyone will nod their heads and say, See? Ha! I knew it was bullshit. That is if you even get their attention at all.