1 July 2018 Look Within (Happy birthday wishes)

Our calendar message for July is:  “Look within.  The secret is inside you.” – Hui Neng

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you doing well in your where and when.  Last night I had a snippet of a dream about actress Maggie Smith of all people.  Something about her and selecting chocolate toffee bunnies lol.  I woke up before finding out what she picked out lol.  Today has been productive for us.  We got the grocery shopping done early.  We were remind why Kyle normally goes without me:

1 July 2018 – Kyle made the mistake of saying this little dragon looked sad. Darla had to come home with us. “Darla – They say I’m bold, fun and pink. I love to do puzzles , they make me think.” My birthday is May 25th.

I had to agree with him that going shopping with me is a lot like going with a toddler, “Daddy can we have this?! What about that?!” I wasn’t too bad though lol.  Other than our coming home with a sad looking pink dragon named Darla that we didn’t need, we spent about $153 which is pretty good for us.  We filled the car and it wasn’t too bad yet, $2.58 a gallon.  Wait til the 4th comes!  If it’s like other holidays, serious sticker shock will be happening at the gas pump!

Today is my mother-in-law Beth’s birthday and we will all be getting together for the 4th to celebrate her day, Kyle’s birthday (13th of July) and the other birthdays we missed and those yet to come later this summer.  It’s tricky getting everyone together so when we do, we have a great time!  Happy Birthday to Beth! Loving daughter, sister, wife, mom and friend.   She has walked with me through some serious trials and loves me still.

 

25 Aug 2009 – trip back in time. Beth and her beautiful Grandbaby Laci who was trying on some Mary Kay products for herself lol.

For the birthday girl – Beth introduced me to Glee and one of our special things was watching it together.  Love us some Blaine (Darren Criss)!

GLEE – Raise Your Glass (Full Performance) (Official Music Video)

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27 June 2018 It’s Hot and CO2 Shortage in Europe

27 June 2018 – This being came out of the chalk this hot afternoon. When I draw someone like this I’m not trying to be creepy. These beings without eyes can see without traditional eyesight. This “man” felt like someone peeking in from an another dimension.

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you well in mind, body and spirit.  It’s hot here in North Texas again, 98 degrees!  I feel terrible for all those who have to be out in this for their jobs!  I am not a fan of summer in Texas at all.  This recent stretch of hot with little to no rain reminds me just how much I dislike it and how much I miss dips in my father-in-laws salt water swimming pool!  He would get the chemistry just right and it was so refreshing to soak when it was hot like this.  When they moved to the country, the in ground pool stayed behind.  I’ve thought more than once about getting one of those kiddie pools but talk myself out of it every time.  Knowing my luck I’d forget to empty it and grow a bunch of mosquitos LOL!!  I’d be miserable from the heat AND itchy bites!

Speaking of water, we just got our water turned back on in the house.  They had to shut it down for a few hours today to clear the lines or something after doing a necessary repair.  May be my toilet will flush properly now lol!  Yay and thank you to the people who fixed it!

There is very little in this life that you can afford to take for granted.  Like running water in your house and also a working car.

We are still waiting for Ford to call us about our car repair.  We made an appointment a week in advance.  They had the car all day Monday and didn’t even look at it or call us to tell us anything.  We are going on the third full day of what we are calling the “hostage situation.”   They finally called us yesterday to let us know what the ransom was going to be and what was going on with the car.  We paid for a bumper to bumper warranty on our Ford Fiesta when we bought it new and the repair is under warranty and yet they still are finding a way to get money out of us.  What the *f—k did I pay for?!  Should of bought another Hyundai!

So getting back to my heart space from being hot and grumpy!  I’m grateful we have water.  I’m grateful we have a place to get the car fixed.  I’m grateful that we even have a car at all.

Gratitude

“Sometimes

 I go about pitying 

 Myself 

 While I am carried by the wind 

 Across the sky.”

I’m grateful not to have to worry about the C02 crisis, I had never heard of such a thing until today!  I can’t imagine what would happen in America if people were faced with the possibility of being without soda and beer this time of year! 

Here’s what you need to know about the big European carbon dioxide shortage

Published: June 26, 2018 10:25 a.m. ET

It comes at a tricky time, as temperatures climb and soccer fans flood pubs to watch the World Cup

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Coca-Cola Co. says it has paused some production due to the carbon dioxide shortage.
By

VictorReklaitis

Markets writer

Will your investment portfolio and taste buds survive the big European carbon dioxide shortage of 2018?

Brewers, along with producers of soft drinks, chicken and other packaged foods, have been grappling this month with a hit to CO2 supplies.

It’s coming at a tricky time, as temperatures are climbing and soccer fans are flooding to pubs, bars and restaurants to watch the World Cup.

Here’s what the summertime shortage could mean for shareholders in beverage companies — and for regular thirsty folks.

What the fizz?

Trade publication Gasworld first reported last week about the “worst supply situation to hit the European carbon-dioxide business in decades,” adding that the U.K. appeared to be the hardest-hit country. CO2 is used to put the fizz into beer and soft drinks, and it helps extend the shelf life of poultry and other meat.

Ammonia plants serve as a major source of food-grade CO2 in Europe, as the gas is a byproduct. But ammonia is manufactured for use in fertilizer products, and there is less demand for those from farmers in summer. So such plants regularly shut down in April through June, that industry’s slow period, Gasworld noted.

“What has compounded the situation this year is not only the timing of all the maintenance procedures, but that ammonia market prices have fallen to a low and imports are available from outside of Western Europe,” the trade publication reported.

That has led to European producers prolonging the downtime for ammonia plants. In addition, higher prices for natural gas NGN18, +1.40%  — a major raw material for ammonia manufacture — have crimped profit margins and provided another reason to stay shut down. Technical problems at some plants also helped the situation become “critical,” according to Gasworld.

How long will it last?

The supply crunch looks set to improve, the trade journal reported more recently. “I do not expect to see any severe shortages of beer or fizzy drinks. Some of the big branded breweries have their own CO2 recovery and production, so they can keep on producing beers and lagers,” said John Raquet, the trade publication’s founder and CEO.

How is it affecting companies?

From Coca-Cola Co. KO, -0.53% to Heineken NV HEIA, -0.12% HEINY, -1.15%  , key companies have said they’ve been affected by the CO2 shortage in Europe.

“We are currently responding to an industry-wide issue that is impacting the supply of CO2 in the U.K.,” said Coca-Cola in an email to MarketWatch.

“During this period, we’ve paused some of our production lines for short periods, however there has been no disruption to supply to date and we are continuing to fulfill orders to our customers,” the company added.

Heineken has warned British pubs about low supplies for two of its popular beers — Amstel lager and John Smith’s bitter. “We’ve been informed by our CO2 supplier that they are facing a major issue with supply availability in the U.K.,” a spokeswoman for the Dutch brewer told the Wall Street Journal.

A.G. Barr PLC BAG, -0.58%  , known for the Irn-Bru soft drink that’s popular in Scotland, sounds like it’s managing to weather the shortage. It has confirmed that it is “producing normally” at the moment, as it’s “benefiting from the decision to increase CO2 storage last year,” said Numis Securities analyst Damian McNeela in a recent note.

Another U.K. soft-drinks company, Britvic PLC BVIC, +1.30% has said it will see an impact, but has indicated that it is working closely with suppliers to help mitigate the problem, as well as seeking to secure alternative supplies of CO2, according to McNeela.

What does it mean for affected companies?

The Numis Securities analyst said he’s not changing his predictions for the beverage companies that he covers

“Clearly, this shortage comes as the industry moves into peak seasonal demand and, if the situation remains unresolved, could be a negative catalyst for earnings for all companies in our coverage universe” McNeela said. “However, given that the potential impact is difficult to quantify at the moment, we have made no changes to forecasts.”

One thing that beer drinkers can do

CO2 isn’t used in old-fashioned real ales, which are naturally carbonated in casks or bottles by the live yeast they contain, noted Paul Davies, a Heard on the Street columnist for the Wall Street Journal.

So beer drinkers visiting London might want to try these ales.

“The British are famous for serving up warm, flat beer — or at least you think they are,” wrote Davies, as he also said: “Warmer, flatter beers might be making a big return after all.”

Tonya Garcia contributed to this report

 

25 June 2018 Unwanted (Dream), Haunted Dolls and Insight About Mexico ( Mexican Elections: Last Week Tonight with John Oliver (HBO)

Hello to you.  How are you doing?  I’m doing pretty good today.  We had a blessing of a smidge of rain we desperately needed coming through this morning.  It will probably be completely evaporated by the time I finish writing this but it was an answered prayer!

Had an interesting dream this morning just before waking up.  It was about a little girl and a baby that looked like a doll but it was a child.  It seemed unwanted.  I picked up and examined the baby and it had a golden eye – two different colored eyes.  Then there was a soldier-like man who had the same colored eyes that seemed to blame the little girl for the baby existing.

My husband tells me that I must have subconsciously been picking up on goings-on from his playing the Kingdom Hearts video game lol.  It could be my subconscious processing a bunch of videos we’ve seen lately with haunted baby dolls.  We are both very highly suspicious of most of these types of videos but every once and awhile you will see one that gives you pricklies on the back of the neck!

When I was younger I used to have a lot of dreams about objects doing things without anybody being there.  For example I remember having a dream about my red Datsun 210 starting by itself and driving into the driveway.  Another was of walking by the front of my childhood home and the living room curtains moving when nobody was in the house.  The creepiest was one of being in our basement and the vacuum cleaner lifting off of the ground by itself and in the dream my thinking my birth mom was the one doing it.

Anyhew….if I was a spirit and wanted to keep an eye on my prey and or majorly mess with somebody I’d get in a doll I think lol.   It wouldn’t have to be like Chuckie or anything.  Some of the videos we’ve seen are so subtle the people taking the videos don’t even notice the movement until somebody else says something or they play back the video.  I’m still very suspicious of most of them being just a way to get attention.

10 Haunted Dolls Caught On Tape

Changing subjects.

This morning Kyle and I were talking about immigration again and what would be the motivating factors for people wanting to come to this country.  We were pleased to see John OIiver has just put out a video exploring what’s going on in Mexico with regards to their political system.  After watching this video, I can see many motivators for someone to want to leave Mexico.  They have had 113 politicians murdered this election season alone!  As I’ve mentioned before, and most already know this, if someone can tick off the hierarchy of needs checklist they are most likely going to stay where they are and flourish.   Sadly and ironically it’s not much different for these folks here or in Mexico!  I was thinking this morning that instead of using all that money to build a wall, why not use those funds to collaborate to make both Mexico and America better countries?  I know, that would be too easy….

24 June 2018 – my drawing after it cooled down…”Rise.”

My prayer for the Mexican people and their upcoming elections is that whatever the outcome, it will be for their very best.  I want better for these hard working and in some cases very desperate people.  They deserve better!  (So do we but that’s a box I’m not going to open!) 

Mexican Elections: Last Week Tonight with John Oliver (HBO) – WARNING – this video has a very inappropriate Santa Claus in it!

20 June 2018 Morning Chalk Drawings and World Refugee Day

Hello to you.  How are you?  My mind feels like there are just marshmallows up there lately!  Just a very surreal feeling all around for me lately.  I guess the movie we watched last night was perfect for that!  We finally watched Through the Looking Glass last night and we enjoyed it.  I loved the imagery throughout and Kyle could see many video game inspired sets.  Seeing the Alan Rickman farewell tribute was sad.  I thought his being the voice of a blue butterfly, which symbolizes freedom, was perfect for this being his last film. 

Alice Through the Looking Glass Official Trailer #2 (2016) – Mia Wasikowska, Johnny Depp Movie HD

This morning on the dog walk I saw another neighbors yard that looked like someone had messed with it.  So far there have been three that I’ve seen in our immediate neighborhood.  We aren’t quite sure if the culprit is a human or a large canine that’s getting loose.  It looked like human activity to me.  We are living in a small town that is starting to experience big city problems.  People move to small towns from larger ones and bring their problems along with them.  Taking a young person of whatever age from a place where there friends are, support systems are and where there is more to do and transplanting them into a town like ours can be quite a culture shock for them.  When you are bored, and I know this from being their age once, you sometimes do stupid shit you will regret.  All the things that are going on are things I warned the city council before the growth and development started and it’s so frustrating to see it actually happening.   

http://www.cleburnetimesreview.com/news/vandalism-occurring-at-alvarado-parks-on-a-daily-basis/article_01727e86-7000-11e8-aa1f-9b6b57c211a0.html

“Over at Parkway Park on Monday there was some graffiti of racial slurs,” he said. “It was tagged on some of the benches, the little library and the skate park. It took about four hours to try to remove the paint, which they weren’t able to do all the way so they had to just sand it down and go back later to repaint.”

Alvarado Park board member Terri Fulton said the little free libraries — built and donated by members of the Alvarado Rocks group — have been the most disheartening.

“We’re a little irritated about this,” she said. “You will see that people are constantly refilling them with books, so that means kids are using them. But there’s been spray painting on them and the other day someone busted out the Plexiglass in one of them.”

And then they are talking about growing our town….ironically for the past few days we’ve been unable to properly flush the toilet for lack of water pressure!  This has been an ongoing problem since we moved here in 2009 too!  It’s taken millions of dollars to fix just the plumbing and sewer  infrastructure.  Don’t get me started on the conditions of our roads!   

http://www.cleburnetimesreview.com/news/durington-welcomes-growth-to-alvarado/article_32870120-6b61-11e8-b234-030937a8f7a1.html

“Holden said some of the challenges the mayor discussed during the meeting scare him.

“I’ve got to be able to provide water and I’ve got to be able for you to flush the toilet, and if I can’t, there is a big problem,” he said. “We want people to come [to Alvarado], but if they do we are going to have to do some major improvements to the system. We are working on ways right now, looking at all of the development as a whole. We want to be able to look at the big picture.”

Yep….growing pains on the small town scale and then there is World Refugee Day today and our extremely sad and embarrassing goings on with immigration in my country.  I don’t even know what to do with this in my heart.  It’s a very complex and sensitive issue that can’t be handled with rough hands.  I feel like we have yet to really tackle as a globe the core issues as to “why” it’s happening in the first place.  If people have food, clean water, clothing, shelter, meaningiful work and education opportunities, and they feel safe living where they are (not in the center of crime, violence, slavery and or a war zone) will tend to stay where they are and flourish.  We apparently have oodles of  people without checkmarks in those boxes and are understandably on the move!  

18 5 6 21 7 5 5

R E F U G E E = 67/13/4/2/1

9 13 13 9 7 18 1 14 20

I M M I G R A N T = 104/5 divide by 2 = 2.5 = 7 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Number of refugees worldwide

The total includes 16 million refugees and asylum seekers and 26 million internally displaced people uprooted within their own countries, according to UNHCR’s annual “Global Trends” report released today.

 

Why do immigrants and refugees  keep coming to America?  Part of it has to be money.  Someone is paying them enough money to live here.  I think if our government is going to insist on punishing these people and their children like this, they need to “follow the money.”  In all the articles I’ve looked at about this chronic issue, this element just doesn’t come up.  The blame always seems to fall on the immigrants and refugees for their existing.   Who is hiring these people to be nannies, yard workers, produce pickers, home builders, masons, welders, road construction workers, janitors etc?! 

https://blogs.voanews.com/all-about-america/2015/08/24/most-common-jobs-held-by-immigrants-in-each-us-state/If there is no economic – this article is rather dated but does show interesting information that probably hasn’t changed too much:

Most Common Jobs Held by Immigrants in each US State

There are 41 million foreign-born people living in the United States and a new map illustrates the most common jobs held by those immigrants.

Business Insider  used information from the US Census Bureau’s American Community Survey, an ongoing statistical survey that samples a small percentage of the population every year. The data was assembled and processed by the Minnesota Population Center’s Integrated Public Use Microdata Series program.

The map below shows the jobs most commonly held by people who said they were born in a country other than the United States.

Immigrants make up 12.9 percent of the overall population, according to the Center for American Progress. That sounds like a lot of people, but the high point for immigration in the U.S. actually came in 1890, when 14.8 percent of the population was foreign born.

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While the map shows that many immigrants are housekeepers, janitors and agricultural workers, the majority of jobs thought to be overwhelmingly worked by non-natives are in fact filled by native-born Americans, according to the Center for Immigration Studies:

  • Maids and housekeepers: 51% native-born
  • Taxi drivers and chauffeurs: 58% native-born
  • Butchers and meat processors: 63% native-born
  • Grounds maintenance workers: 64% native-born
  • Construction laborers: 66% native-born
  • Porters, bellhops, and concierges: 72% native-born
  • Janitors: 73% native-born

Jobs worked by immigrants tend to pay low wages and usually require little formal education. In high-immigrant occupations, 59 percent of the workers have a high school education or lower, compared to 31 percent of the rest of the labor force.

 https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/pope-francis-criticizes-separation-of-immigrant-children-from-their-parents-on-us-border/ar-AAyUlD7

https://www.npr.org/2018/06/19/621065383/what-we-know-family-separation-and-zero-tolerance-at-the-border

https://www.madinamerica.com/2016/11/combining-art-therapy-mindfulness-refugees/ I found this article and it really resonated for me as a way to help promote internal healing for both refugees and the immigrant children we are seeing locked up in detention centers right now: 

Combining Art Therapy and Mindfulness for Refugees

Program in Hong Kong demonstrates the healing power of art therapy and mindfulness for refugees and asylum seekers

A new article, published in The Arts in Psychotherapy, describes the ways art therapy and mindfulness have benefitted refugees and asylum seekers in Hong Kong. The article describes how the program, Inhabited Studio, which provides workshops on art making and mindfulness meditation, has supported individuals in moving forward after traumatic experiences.

“The combination of art therapy and mindfulness helped participants cope day to day and allowed participants to begin to get a sense of not only who they were and what they had lived through, but potentially who they could become,” write the authors, led by Debra Kalmanowitz from the Department of Social Work and Social Administration at the University of Hong Kong.

The increasing number of Syrian refugees has raised the issue of how to support the mental health of individuals who have fled their countries and experienced political violence. An estimated 11 million refugees have left Syria since 2011 and there are over 21 million refugees worldwide. Although the majority of refugees do not develop Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, mental health professionals working with refugees often use a trauma framework.

The authors state:  “It is true that we do not want to medicalize distress and that we cannot take it out of context, and yet we cannot ignore the disadvantaged situation in which asylum seekers live or the suffering they endure.”

Both art therapy and mindfulness have been used with survivors of trauma. This theoretical article “considers how the combination of art therapy and mindfulness in work with refugees acknowledges human suffering and traumatic events while at the same time recognises the resilience that exists and the search for healing, health and growth.”

The authors describe the ways art therapy and mindfulness have been combined to provide support for refugees and asylum seekers at Inhabited Studio in Hong Kong. Inhabited Studio is a short-term group program that uses a holistic approach and provides workshops over an 8 day period. “The presence of the group allowed for the individuals to be seen, witnessed and heard (even without words) and in so doing served to share and normalize behavior and expression,” write the authors. The authors outline nine features found in the work at Inhabited Studio that may be used as broader guides for providing support to refugees.

Safety: Establishing a sense of safety is one of the most basic needs after experiencing a trauma and the authors note that it “is an on-going process and not something that is established once and maintained.” The authors found that art therapy and meditation assisted individuals in regulating their emotions, which aided in regaining a sense of emotional safety.

Doing versus thinking: The authors explain that art therapy and mindfulness emphasize doing, and describe the importance of an experiential approach. “Art making and mindfulness meditation demand a focus of the mind through activity or inactivity, action or inaction, through direct experience,” write the authors.

Changing our relationship to our thoughts and feelings: “Making art externalizes our thoughts and feelings and creates a distance between them” while “mindfulness effects relationship too; rather than trying to control the thoughts and feelings, there is an emphasis on acknowledgment and acceptance of them,” explain the authors.

Time: According to the authors, “trauma can trap a person in the past.” Since both the creative process and mindfulness are grounded in the present moment, they can be helpful activities for those who are overwhelmed by memories.

Making meaning: Meaning making involves both making sense of the trauma and of one’s current experiences. The authors explain how art therapy and mindfulness can assist in meaning making because “both lead to an awareness of the self and the context of the self in relation to the event, the group, the culture, the violence and or society.” To illustrate this, one of the participants of Inhabited Studio reported, “I am very proud of this drawing… it tells me something very clear that I did not know.”

Flexibility: Individuals who have experienced trauma may get stuck in their thinking patterns. The creative process can facilitate mental flexibility, and mindfulness can make it easier to tolerate intense negative emotions and still return to an emotional equilibrium.

Catharsis: “Art therapy can facilitate the expression of feelings that are associated with the trauma, suffering, and coping, such as anger, rage, vulnerability, depression, frustration or joy and pleasure. This can lead to a sense of relief as well as reveal that which was previously unconscious,” explain the authors.

Increased self-awareness and self-knowledge: Both self-awareness and self-knowledge can be promoted by art making and mindfulness practices. One participant described how the process of making multiple pieces of art helped her to clarify her emotions, “I have many mixed feelings although I am looking towards a better future. So the next painting I tried to sort out the colours to help me next time to be more focused… to know exactly what I want.”

Coping with loss: The authors report, “Art therapy and mindfulness together allowed for the expression of loss and also to begin a process of the formation of a new identity… It took strength and imagination to create a new identity and the open structure, along with the non-judgemental attitude of the Studio provided the potential.”

“Political violence has far-reaching effects. It can challenge the community and society, lead to fragmentation and destruction and impact on culture at large. Political violence impacts on the individual and can lead to the breakdown of relationships between individuals, community and society itself,” write the authors. Refugees and asylum seekers who have experienced trauma and political violence deserve support services that do not pathologize their experiences, but instead honor both their suffering and strength.

The focus on art therapy for refugees is part of a larger trend to explore how art can be used in therapeutic ways (for example, art therapy for veterans with PTSD or for individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia, and music therapy for children and adolescents). The authors in the present article state that the “overlap between art therapy and mindfulness in this context represent the realities of the suffering of the participants as well as the possibility of working towards enhancing coping and resilience.”

Kalmanowitz, D., & Ho, R. T. (2016). Out of our mind. Art therapy and mindfulness with refugees, political violence and trauma. The Arts in Psychotherapy, 49, 57-65. (Abstract)

 

Here are some links to some music I was exploring this morning.  I am on the hunt for new sounds and this Electro Swing and Modern Jazz struck a chord:

Club Des Belugas – The Beat Is Rhythm

Orkestra Obsolete play Blue Monday using 1930s instruments – BBC Arts – I love the version done by Orgy for this song so finding this tickled me.

Electro Swing Collection – ads in between

Published on Dec 2, 2014

PLAYLIST OF INDIVIDUAL SONGS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C6-TW…

SONGS
0:00:00 Parov Stelar – All Night
0:02:42 Jamie Berry (ft Rosie Harte) – Peeping Tom
0:06:12 Scott Bradlee & Post Modern Jukebox – Thrift Shop (Baker&Bart Electro Swing Remix)
0:09:59 Parov Stelar – The Mojo Radio Gang
0:12:38 Lionel Hampton – It Don’t Mean A Thing
0:16:14 Caravan Palace – Dragons
0:20:27 Tape Five – Geraldines Routine
0:23:32 Caravan Palace – Suzy
0:27:40 Jamie Berry (ft Octavia Rose) – Delight
0:33:24 Dunkelbunt (Ft Boban) – Cinnamon Girl
0:37:20 Jamie Berry – Sweet Rascal
0:41:28 Parov Stelar – Booty Swing
0:44:40 Parov Stelar – Libella Swing
0:49:00 Parov Stelar – Catgroove
0:53:29 Parov Stelar – Chambermaid Swing
0:59:15 Jamie Berry – Dirty Stop Out
1:05:25 Parov Stelar – Beatbuddy Swing
1:09:44 Parov Stelar – Josephine

 

9 June 2018 Songs of our time – What Else Is There (Royksopp) and More Than This (The Cure)

I don’t know who wrote this.  I found it on the internet this morning without an author attached to it.  It was interesting to me:

Time
If the Particle in question
is to also move in time
it should change its energy
Or it stands still in time

Hello to you.  It’s morning in my here and now.  Already battling dust bunnies and ants but mercifully there is coffee and I am not the lone witness to these petty struggles lol!  How are you?  I hope this finds you well.

This morning I wanted a couple of songs for my post and What Else Is There by Royksopp and More Than This by the Cure stood out.  Songs with messages that speak to our current times.  The struggle I think so many, to include myself, are facing these days.  What else is there to this life?  Is there more than “this?”  What exactly is “this?”

For some the “this” seems to be a struggle from the moment they are born until the moment of their departure.  For some it seems only given a moment to be born and a few short days, months of years to struggle to be here and fade away.  For some the “this” is never knowing any pain, conflict or difficulty – a pampered and sheltered existence their entire lives.

Everyone seems to arrive and depart with assigned positions on the stage of life with very few roles being cast off to another player.  Painters painting, tradespeople trading, the usury using, talking heads talking, politicians politicking, soldiers soldiering, lawyers lawyering, police, fire and emergency responders flying with unseen wings from one crisis to another.  All the possible colors and textures of our skin be it human or otherwise the costumes we adorn for this blurring dance.   In between all “this,” the first of us be they of wings or fins, frantically sew all the holes we are tearing open across this planet closed with the beauty their existence.

Ever since last January I have experienced and sensed a big change in what “this” is for me personally.  I have drifted out to the darkness and looked over the edges quite a bit.  The tether that keeps me from drifting completely away made of family, friends, love, faith and hope.   I know I am extremely blessed to have this tether as far too many in this world don’t even know any of that exists!   I have seen many others also drifting out there in the confusion that is now America.  I think there is a great sense of futility in the air.  We must stay tethered to what matters most and the wisdom of the deepest part of our heart….our souls.

I’ve experienced, spoken and written many times that there is nothing of this world that can fill the void of spirit.  If you rely completely on other people, food, drink, places, things, conquests for power, do things that garner negative attention etc. to fill you up inside, you will always be left wanting more.  Just like any addiction, it takes bigger and bigger “doses” to achieve the same results until you finally realize there will never be enough to fill you up.   Then will come the questions I think people we are seeing that have lost hope are asking, “Is this it?!  Is there nothing more than this?!  What else is there?!  What do I have to do to feel alive?!”

Röyksopp – What Else Is There? (HD)

Lyrics

It was me on that road
But you couldn`t see me
Too many lights out, but nowhere near here

It was me on that road
Still you couldn`t see me
And then flashlights and explosions

Roads ends getting nearer
We cover distance but not together
I am the storm and I am the wonder
And the flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

I don’t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

It’s about you and the sun
A morning run
The story of my maker
What have I and what I ache for

I`ve got a golden ear
I cut and I spear
And what else is there
Roads and getting nearer
We cover distance still not together

If I am the storm if I am the wonder
Will I have flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

There is no room where I can go and
You`ve got secrets too

I don`t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

Songwriters: DANNY SHOSHAN,ROBERT HUXLEY,ROGER GREENAWAY,SVEIN BERGE,TOBJOR BRUNDTLAND,KARIN DREIGER,OLAF DREIGER,TONY MACAULEY
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Sometimes I will grasp around for something to energize me, to make me happy and often find there is nothing.  So I go outside with my music and just flop down on my cot and look up or take off my shoes and just stand still with my arms raised to the sky.  The “this” I am seeking most often finds me then.   In the eyes of my husband and my dogs, in the songs of the birds, the buzzing of the bees, the dirt between my toes, the petals of the flowers, the whispers of the trees, the blazing sun, the gentle breeze that caresses my arm and the billowing clouds overhead all is “this”…God.  

 

8 June 2018 – Drawing yesterday. The word “corners” came to mind after I was done with it.

 

the cure – more than this

 

Lyrics

For this second of your life,

Tell me that its true,

Waiting for a sign,

That’s all I want of you.

Your heart hides a secret

A promise of what is,

Something more than this.

 

Just a second of your time,

Any one will do,

Taste of any other,

Is all I want from you,

You offer me the world,

And how can I resist

Something more than this?

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible,

Nothing as it seems

To see touch taste smell hear

But never know if its real

 

For this second of your life

Tell me if its true

Anyway we are

Is all I want of you

Your lips lies a secret

A promise of a kiss

Something more than this

 

Just a second of your time

Any one will do

To know any other is all I want for you

Giving me the world

Now I can’t resist

Something more than this

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible

Nothing as it seems

Never really understand what anything means

 

Another second of my life

Not knowing if its true

Make believe in nothing

Is all I want of you

Whisper me your secret

Whisper me your ears

Always something other

Something more than this…

 

Songwriters: JAMES SMITH,NATHAN BARDEEN,RORY DOLAN,TODD EISENKERCH

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6 June 2018 Zombies (Dream) and Not Ours To Take

Hello to you.  How are you this morning?  I have been sleeping but just don’t feel rested if that makes sense.  It seems like a long time since I woke up where you stretch and yawn and just feel rejuvenated.  It doesn’t help having pretty much nonstop dreams lately, most of which I am not remembering.  Which isn’t a bad thing because at least then I’m staying in bed and not getting up to write dreams down constantly through the night.

The dream that was memorable from last night was of being in like a hospital type setting and seeing people throwing up.  Then I was out in a field being “zombie bait” and yelling at a bunch of pale, shambling people trying to come after me.  Then I saw drawings similar to those I did when my friend and I were talking about chakras and holistic health.  Before I woke up I was in Prince Roger’s Nelsons car and nervous to drive it lol.

WEIRD!  I’m thinking the zombies symbolized how a lot of Americans have become when it comes to health and their well being.  Anyhew, writing my dreams down and sharing helps me lol – so thank you for enduring.

So warning, don’t talk about selling your house if you aren’t prepared to have someone actually ask you to sell your house!

I went to bed upset last night because my friend and I were talking about our selling our house to them.  For as many times as I’ve talked about it and wanted to do it, we know we just can’t do it right now.  With Kyle’s job situation, my health, our fragile finances, having two dogs and all our stuff…we just can’t hop out of this house easily.   If Kyle had a secure job, I  was more stable and we knew we had a place to smoothly transition to, we’d seriously consider it!  Sometimes having bought a house feels like a trap lol.   I don’t know if anyone can relate to what I’m talking about here.  It must be so stressful for people and families who do this all the time.  Moving was so much easier when I was in the military!

Today I saw some stuff a friend posted about being in a sacred place and she was taking stuff from it for the work she does.  I found myself getting upset.  I guess because I used to do it too.  I’ve always been a “rockhound” and like to pick up rocks and stones when I’m in nature.  In recent years I’ve stopped myself from doing this or at least I put them back where I found them.  I’m getting even more reluctant to buy  more crystals and stuff like I used to.  I guess I realize that if I buy crystals, take dirt, rocks or other things from sacred public places,  then other people’s experience in this world will be diminished.

It seems like as human beings we have it embedded in us to touch things, to want to collect tangible momentos from travels to such places, to take resources that will benefit us financially.  It is easy to forget in our fervor there will be others who follow in our steps.  We must find restraint and  acknowledge that if we take everything from these places,  all that will be left for future generations will be a barren vistas.

https://www.legendsofamerica.com/na-proverbs/

We will be known forever by the tracks we leave. – Dakota

The-whole-of-planet-Earth-is-a-sacred-site-and-we-are-all-One

5 June 2018 Rag Rug Project, Drawing and Paradise (Phil Collins)

Hello there.  How are you in this moment you visit here?  I hope you are well.  It’s been very hot here so I’ve been inside most of the day doing something I said I wouldn’t do again – make a rag rug.   It’s a pretty messy operation lol.  The hardest part is cutting the sheets up into strips so you can crochet them into the rug.  Here is a video I found early on when I first was trying to learn how to make them:

RagRugs

As the sun moved over the house, I decided to go outside and get some vitamin nature and draw with the chalks for a bit!

This morning just before doing breakfast dishes, Kyle and I, without knowing what the other was doing, walked towards our CD player at the same time to start some music!  Love that!  We decided to throw in our Phil Collins Greatest Hits CD and the very first song gave me goosebumps….Paradise.  I hadn’t heart it in a long time and it was so refreshing, yet poignant (very sad story in the song) to hear it again.  Sometimes we complain about such trivial things, the “first world problems” phrase comes to mind.  There are so many who survive with so little food, water, clothing, shelter and unconditional love.  It’s not that our problems don’t matter or shouldn’t be acknowledged but certainly not wallowed in for long.  Sometimes I am too good at wallowing.

This song is a musical reminder to be grateful for our blessings and to help others the best we can.  Sometimes, I’ve found just a kind word and taking a few moments to talk is worth all the money in the world you could give someone.   Sometimes all a soul needs is for someone to see them with the eyes of their heart.  To be acknowledged straight eye to eye and then to know for certain….”I exist.  I was here.” 

Phil Collins – Another Day In Paradise (Official Music Video)

Another Day in Paradise

Phil Collins

She calls out to the man on the street
‘Sir, can you help me?
It’s cold and I’ve nowhere to sleep,
Is there somewhere you can tell me?’

He walks on, doesn’t look back
He pretends he can’t hear her
Starts to whistle as he crosses the street
Seems embarrassed to be there

Oh think twice, it’s another day for you and me in paradise
Oh think twice, ’cause it’s just another day for you,
You and me in paradise, think about it

She calls out to the man on the street
He can see she’s been crying
She’s got blisters on the soles of her feet
She can’t walk but she’s trying

Oh think twice, ’cause it’s another day for you and me in paradise
Oh think twice, it’s just another day for you,
You and me in paradise, think about it

Oh Lord, is there nothing more anybody can do
Oh Lord, there must be something you can say

You can tell from the lines on her face
You can see that she’s been there
Probably been moved on from every place
Cause she didn’t fit in there

Oh think twice, ’cause another day for you and me in paradise
Oh think twice, it’s just another day for you,
You and me in paradise, just think about it, think about it

it’s just another day for you and me in paradise
it’s just another day for you and me in paradise, paradise
Just think about it, paradise, just think about it
Paradise, paradise, paradise

Songwriters: PHILLIP DAVID CHARLES COLLINS,WILLIE NORWOOD

© EMI Music Publishing,BMG RIGHTS MANAGEMENT US, LLC

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16 1 18 1 4 9 19 5

P A R A D I S E = 73/10/1

 

 

22 May 2018 Dust, Purple and Blue Cars, Alaskan Hunting and Flowers

Hello to you.  It’s a beautiful, yet very dusty Tuesday morning.   We have metal and glass furniture with electronics on top and near them.  The effort of dusting is pretty much a futile activity at our house lol.  The sun is shining on my desk exposing all the dust particles and I look at it thinking, “have I ever cleaned this house?!”

Funny Facebook Meme from We are Moms Club yesterday:

When life gets you down and you feel you can’t go on, just remember who will always
be there for you, Dishes,  they will literally always be there.

@Adventuresinbliss

I don’t feel very rested this morning.  More busy dreaming.  I only remember a fragment about really fast purple and blue cars that looked like those old El Camino’s but they had closed cabs on the back and were a bit more modernized.  I don’t know why literal cars are popping up in my dreams but they are.  I am thinking these are analogies for what I’m seeing on the political front lately with “people cars.”  I saw Bernie Sanders is talking about a re-election bid yesterday.  Are we talking about this already?!  I saw something that made me sick and I don’t even want to believe they are considering doing this:  https://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2018/may/21/trump-administration-moves-reverse-obama-era-hunti/Trump administration moves to reverse Obama-era hunting restrictions in Alaska.  Is it me, or does it seem like when things aren’t going his way he starts attacking the environment?  Just something I’ve noticed.  I am trying so hard to find the good in this administration and I am coming up bankrupt again after seeing this.  I felt physically ill last night reading about this.  If I lived in Alaska I would be standing in front of the hibernating bears and their cubs.  This seems like such a dishonorable and senseless style of hunting to me.  Is Alaska really that hard up for revenue to consider allowing this?!  There seems to be something wrong with the moral compass in this world unless there are things I just don’t know that make this seem necessary.  Don’t these beings have it hard enough to have to endure even more cruelty from humanity?

8 21 14 20 9 14 7

H U N T I N G = 93 (3 cycle)

21 May 2018 – flowers and spirits of gratitude and thanks for all the beings that have been helping me get restored back to center.

6 12 15 23 5 18 19

F L O W E R S = 98

16 May 2018 Is this all just a dream?

Hello to you.  It is Wednesday in my timeline but it feels like Friday already!  Had a fun dream this morning.  I was with an old co-worker from when I was working in Personnel Systems Management for the Air Force.  I bent a piece of metal with my mind and levitated a rose quartz crystal – apparently my right hand was stronger in the dream for such things lol!  My friend was in disbelief at what he had seen, so I repeated it.  I told Kyle this is why I enjoy the dream world so much.  In the dream realm I fly invisible ships, have wings, can just jump and fly out of a tree.  In my dreams I can visit other worlds and as of last night,  bend metal and levitate crystals with my mind!  Way cool!

Speaking of dreams.  Yesterday we “publicked” and went and got the tires on our car rotated and did a Target run for our favorite liquid soap, Dr. Bronners: (https://www.drbronner.com/).  Exciting right?!  Well when we checked out at Target, the clerk named Robbin seemed to be having a day like I mentioned to you, that surreal feeling like nothing is real…like everything is just a dream.  I took her hands in mind to try to reassure her we were all real.  She still was left wondering about reality but a little more grounded I think!  I guess working in a place like Target could put you in that state of mind!  So many nice things that most of us can’t really afford.  We wandered around in there and talked ourselves out everything but absolute essentials.  Not easy!  I’m pretty sure Robbin’s wages don’t allow her to buy much where she works.

19 15 21 12

S O U L = 67

18 5 1 12 9 20 25

R E A L I T Y = 90 (9 cycle)

5 18 5 1 13

D R E A M = 41

20 9 18 5

T I R E = 52  (funny that tire and door have the same numeric value!)

4 15 15 18

D O O R = 52

23 1 6 6 12 5

W A F F L E = 53 (it cracks me up with words like this – essentially a waffle is a kind of wafer and they have the same numeric value)

23 1 6 5 18

W A F E R = 53

13 21 19 9 3

M U S I C = 65

Dreamt about some men this morning who looked like they may be from Hawaii or Samoa (been praying for Hawaii a lot lately!).  One of them was playing an instrument that I have come to find out today actually exists!  The Coconut Thumb Piano, Kalimba or a Mbira which actually has origins in Africa:

(Redirected from Thumb piano) The mbira is an African musical instrument consisting of a wooden board (often fitted with a resonator) with attached staggered metal tines, played by holding the instrument in the hands and plucking the tines with the thumbs.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thumb_piano

Origin

It is said that before globalisation, these instruments could only be found in Africa and where African descendants lived. Therefore, the thumb piano we know in the West, called kalimba, is a modernized version of its African ancestors.

Many tribes, all across the continent, have developed their own unique thumb pianos over the centuries. Because the languages and cultures of these tribes vary so much, so do the names and traditions of their instruments.

Thumb Piano Coconut Natural

Program we started watching, kind gives me an “ache” inside…man I’m getting so old!

https://www.rediscoverthe80s.com/2017/02/recap-of-cnns-the-eighties-miniseries.html

The Sixties, The Seventies, and The Eighties Intros- CNN ***HD QUALITY***

 

29 April 2018 Who should get the “credit” for creation?

Hello to you.  I’m up early this morning and was thinking about something that has come to me before.  Who gets the “credit” for what we create in this world?  Credit can be in the context of just pats on the back or accolades.  Credit can also mean, in our modern world,  financial support.  When I create, I’m not really looking for either, it used to, but not anymore.  The reason this came up in my thoughts?  I was I was going to try to put my initials and date on the drawings I’m sharing today and realized that it really doesn’t matter all that much!  They don’t belong to me really, they belong to a power greater than myself.  They belong to the God of my understanding, energy and energy is everyone and everything….the collective consciousness.

When I do something creative, I feel like I’m tapping into the collective consciousness.  After all, I my opinion, there really isn’t such a thing as an original idea just a reinterpretation of one that has already come before.  Even what I am writing at this moment doesn’t really belong to me in a sense.  Only when my ego needs a stroke do I really care about such things!  Sometimes I can be pretty hard on myself.  When I get like that, my self-esteem plummets pretty low.  I will sometimes look for a source outside of myself to somehow lift myself up.  Ironically, this was the driving force behind me using Facebook to share my drawings and stuff!

Since I seldom turn a profit for what I channel aka “create”, I think that’s about as pure as it gets.  Why should I get hung up on labeling my work?  The only reason that comes to mind, is kind of like from that Big Eyes movie when the husband tried to take credit and actually profit from his wife’s work.  The karmic resolution to that took place in a courtroom.  The judge put the husband and wife to work at blank canvas painting and the husband was unable to recreate his wife’s paintings.

Amy Adams and Margaret Keane tell Big Eyes Movie Story (I wonder if all the folks involved with this film, to include Margaret, receive money for sales of this film?  Not quite sure how that works.)

So should I consider copywriting everything I do?  I guess if I decided that I was going to try and make a living doing what I do but what a struggle that would be!  Whenever I have tried to make money doing something it has often turned into a negative thing.  I have very few positive experiences with making money for what I have made.  The only ways  it has been positive is when I do something for a gift or someone has asked me to make something and they provided the financial support and or materials for me to do it.  I think making things and churning them out for profit would be very pretty empty for me.  Something else I’ve realized, like blogging here for example, as soon as I upload anything into this artificial collective consciousness, the internet, I give away any all the relevance of ownership in my opinion.  Anyone can save my pictures to their hard drive and “make them their own” as I’ve done with other artists work.

Why do I create?  What is my motivation?  My motivation is most often having the feeling I get by being close to God.  It feels good!  It’s like having a conversation without words and it makes me feel complete inside.  Then, out of gratitude, I feel I have to pass it all on to help somebody else like I do here in this blog.   Isn’t this the way God, divinity….whatever your word for the energy that propels you through this life supposed to be?  A power greater than ourselves that unconditionally loves and accepts us even if we make a drawing that looks like a child may have done it? 

Matthew 19:14 14Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”

No one, no matter how hard they try can exactly replicate what I do.  Kind of like forgeries and copies….they will always be forgeries and copies but never the original work as it was first channeled through me.  So I’m not very worried about it anymore.   I feel bad for people in this world who do get so hung up on ownership versus staying in the flow of creation.  It must be such a fight everyday to keep what they perceive belongs to them!  I would say this is especially true for anyone who makes a living on their image and creative endeavors in any profession.  I wonder what would happen if they just let go of that?

What has come to me in meditations with the God of my understanding (I use the word God because it’s simpler) many times is nothing belongs to us but perhaps one thing, the essence of who we are inside.  The energy ball, the soul, part of our being that makes us uniquely “us” no matter what outside forces may try to change it.  I imagine that when our bodies are tired and must be returned back to the earth, we just move on and become something or someone else but we are not lost.  The unconditional, loving energy of existence makes sure we are never truly lost.   We just become something a little different but just the same.

These drawings I did yesterday were made for me and for someone else to enjoy and I hope you do:

U2 – Song For Someone (Directed by Matt Mahurin)

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Lyrics

 Song for Someone

You got a face not spoiled by beauty
I have some scars from where I’ve been
You’ve got eyes that can see right through me
You’re not afraid of anything they’ve seen
I was told that I would feel nothing the first time
I don’t know how these cuts heal
But in you I found a rhyme

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Now we shouldn’t doubt
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
A song for someone

You let me into a conversation
A conversation only we could make
You break and enter my imagination
Whatever’s in there
It’s yours to take
I was told I’d feel nothing the first time
You were slow to heal
But this could be the night

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Within and without
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
This is a song for someone

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

And I’m a long way
From your hill of Calvary
And I’m a long way
From where I was, where I need to be
If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a kiss
I stole from your mouth
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

 Songwriters: ADAM CLAYTON, DAVE EVANS, LARRY MULLEN, PAUL DAVID HEWSON
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