21 May 2018 Breaking down walls

20 May 2018 – we had some wonderful rain. God cleaned off my canvas ūüôā

Reading this first thing this morning helped me a lot.   What if this message could transcend all the barriers we put up to separate ourselves from each other?!  What if this message could transcend and eventually melt tools people use to harm one another into playgrounds and places that would bring us together in peace?  May be some day.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/pope-francis-tells-gay-man-god-made-you-like-that/ar-AAxzTp8

Describing his encounter with the Pope to CNN, Cruz said: “You know Juan Carlos, that does not matter. God made you like this. God loves you like this. The Pope loves you like this and you should love yourself and not worry about what people say.”

19 May 2018 – what happens when you don’t go to a professional to go blonde LOL!¬† I am working on finding my way through the darkness I’ve been in.¬† I’m so grateful for my family (two and four legged) and dear friends who love me no matter how wild it gets.¬†

 

6 18 9 5 14 4 19

F R I E N D S = 75 (3 cycle)

6 1 13 9 12 25

F A M I L Y = 66 (3 cycle)

2 5 12 15 22 5 4

7 18 1 20 5 6 21 12

G R A T E F U L = 90 (9 cycle)

B E L O V E D = 65

19 16 9 18 9 20 21 1 12 9 20 25

S P I R I T U A L I T Y = 179

2 12 15 14 4 5

B L O N D E = 52

Yesterday I got a little teary thinking about my dogs and cats.¬† It’s because I was feeling overwhelmed by all the art and writings I have through the house.¬† Dogs and cats are so simple.¬† What do they leave behind by way of material things but a collar, a leash and a few toys?¬† What matters the most is what they leave in my heart….so much love and gratitude!¬† Intangible things you can’t hold on to with your hands!¬†¬† I found the actual story where a vet shares a beautiful story and explanation from a little boy about why dogs don’t live as long as humans.

http://blog.nilesanimalhospital.com/2011/10/normal-0-false-false-false.html

Why Dogs Don’t Live as Long as Humans

A four year old child’s wisdom

(From the internet….author unknown)

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten year old Irish wolfhound, named Belker. The dog’s owners, Ron, his wife Lisa and their little boy Shane were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer.

I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog. Ron and Lisa told me that they thought it would be good for the four year old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker’s family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few moments, Belker slipped away peacefully. The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker‚Äôs death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives. Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, ‚ÄúI know why.‚ÄĚ Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I never had heard a more comforting explanation.

He said, ‚ÄúPeople are born so that they learn how to live a good life ‚Äď like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?‚ÄĚ The four year old continued, ‚ÄúWell, dogs already know how to do that, so they don‚Äôt have to stay as long.‚ÄĚ

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18 May 2018 Collage and Low Tide

Hello to you.¬† I hope this finds you well.¬† I’ve been very tired the past couple of days and just wanting to sleep.¬† Kyle thinks it’s probably me just coming down from the past few months of an extreme high.¬† He’s probably right.¬† The cycles are very taxing for me and the older I get, the more difficult they can be.¬† So my little travel buddy Link and I just have been resting as we can and trying to restore the ol’ battery.¬†¬† My life can be¬† like the ocean currents with the high and low tides.

The drawing today is a collage of stuff I’ve been watching and thinking about lately…all just floating out there in the collective conscious space.

I am sad to see so many more shootings in this country, the latest¬†in Sante Fe Texas….a 17 year old kid too! (http://abc13.com/10-dead-10-injured-in-shooting-at-santa-fe-high-school/3490869/)!¬†¬†What is sad for me is these¬†shootings are taking place¬†in homes and schools.¬† Our kids are supposed to be safe¬†in their homes and at school and they aren’t.¬† Even with all the new security and open carry laws, it’s just not getting much better.¬† We keep putting band-aids on top of what the real problems are like allowing so many troubled people access to a tool¬†they can use in an act of passion (not self defense).¬† A tool they end up¬†using to do¬†something they can’t ever take back.¬† It’s not just the victims and their families that suffer either, it’s all of us!¬†It is essentially an act of terrorism to go into a public place and shoot people.¬† Why these types of shootings are not treated at as an act of terrorism I don’t know but that’s what it is.¬† Now you have a whole bunch of people who are afraid to send their kids to school and go out into public places again.¬† Every time this kind of shooting happens in this country,¬†it is an act of terrorism.¬†¬†¬†

“I walked through the cosmos today….all I had to do was stand still and dream…‚Ķ”

13 9 14 4

M I N D = 40

16 5 1 3 5

P E A C E = 30 (3 cycle)

18 5 4

R E D = 29 (9 cycle)

8 5 1 22 5 14

H E A V E N = 55

1 14 7 5 12

A N G E L = 39 (3 cycle)

8 5 12 12

H E L L = 37

4 5 13 15 14

D E M O N = 51 (3 cycle)

18 1 4 9 15

R A D I O = 47

4 5 13 15 3 18 1 20

D E M O C R A T = 79

18 5 16 21 2 12 9 3 1 14

R E P U B L I C A N = 101

3 8 9 12 4

C H I L D = 36 (9 cycle)

19 20 1 18

S T A R = 58

3 15 19 13 15 19

C O S M O S = 84 (3 cycle)

20 5 18 18 15 18 9 19 13

T E R R O R I S M = 135 (9 cycle)

7 21 14

G U N = 42 (3 cycle)

8 1 20 5

H A T E = 34

20 5 23 1 19

T E X A S = 68

17 May 2018 Drawing and Dream

Hello to you.¬† Hope this finds you well today wherever and whenever you are tuning in from.¬† Feeling gratitude today.¬† I had a weird dream last night/this morning.¬† It was about some hotel/hospital where people were going to get plastic surgery.¬† I saw Prince there and it was like his face was stitched on and it was a white version of himself.¬† This was the case of many of the people I saw there.¬† I think this dream was triggered by the CNN show we watched last night, “Video Killed The Radio Star.”¬† Since it was from the 80’s, they of course mentioned¬†artists like Prince, Michael Jackson and Whitney Houston.¬† They¬†talked about how difficult it had been for musical artists of color to break through on MTV.¬† They have a clip of an interview where David Bowie asked one of the MTV VJ’s why there were so few videos with black artists and he got a bullshit answer.¬† You could tell by how David responded that he wasn’t falling for it!

David Bowie Criticizes MTV for Not Playing Videos by Black Artists | MTV News

It made my heart ache to think on how many artists I¬†knew and loved from the 80’s¬†like Prince that are no longer here with us!¬† It’s a tough gig to choose to be a performing artist!¬† I miss them and am grateful for their contributions to such a big part of my developmental years.

16 18 9 14 3 5

P R I N C E = 65

3 1 20

C A T = 24 (3 cycle)

16 21 18 16 12 5

P U R P L E = 88

5 25 5

E Y E  = 35

2 9 18 4

B I R D = 33 (3 cycle)

16 12 1 19 20 9 3    19 21 18 7 5 18 25

P L A S T I C  (80)      S U R G E R Y (113) = 193

Prince – When Doves Cry (Official Music Video)

Prince – Thieves In The Temple (Official Music Video)

 

16 May 2018 Is this all just a dream?

Hello to you.  It is Wednesday in my timeline but it feels like Friday already!  Had a fun dream this morning.  I was with an old co-worker from when I was working in Personnel Systems Management for the Air Force.  I bent a piece of metal with my mind and levitated a rose quartz crystal Рapparently my right hand was stronger in the dream for such things lol!  My friend was in disbelief at what he had seen, so I repeated it.  I told Kyle this is why I enjoy the dream world so much.  In the dream realm I fly invisible ships, have wings, can just jump and fly out of a tree.  In my dreams I can visit other worlds and as of last night,  bend metal and levitate crystals with my mind!  Way cool!

Speaking of dreams.¬† Yesterday we “publicked” and went and got the tires on our car rotated and did a Target run for our favorite liquid soap, Dr. Bronners: (https://www.drbronner.com/).¬† Exciting right?!¬† Well when we checked out at Target, the clerk named Robbin seemed to be having a day like I mentioned to you, that surreal feeling like nothing is real…like everything is just a dream.¬† I took her hands in mind to try to reassure her we were all real.¬†¬†She still was left wondering about reality but a little more grounded I think!¬† I guess working in a place like Target could put you in that state of mind!¬† So many nice things that most of us can’t really afford.¬† We wandered around in there and talked ourselves out everything but absolute essentials.¬† Not easy!¬† I’m pretty sure Robbin’s wages don’t allow her to buy much where she works.

19 15 21 12

S O U L = 67

18 5 1 12 9 20 25

R E A L I T Y = 90 (9 cycle)

5 18 5 1 13

D R E A M = 41

20 9 18 5

T I R E = 52  (funny that tire and door have the same numeric value!)

4 15 15 18

D O O R = 52

23 1 6 6 12 5

W A F F L E = 53 (it cracks me up with words like this – essentially a waffle is a kind of wafer and they have the same numeric value)

23 1 6 5 18

W A F E R = 53

13 21 19 9 3

M U S I C = 65

Dreamt about some men this morning who looked like they may be from Hawaii or Samoa (been praying for Hawaii a lot lately!).  One of them was playing an instrument that I have come to find out today actually exists!  The Coconut Thumb Piano, Kalimba or a Mbira which actually has origins in Africa:

(Redirected from Thumb piano) The mbira is an African musical instrument consisting of a wooden board (often fitted with a resonator) with attached staggered metal tines, played by holding the instrument in the hands and plucking the tines with the thumbs.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thumb_piano

Origin

It is said that before globalisation, these instruments could only be found in Africa and where African descendants lived. Therefore, the thumb piano we know in the West, called kalimba, is a modernized version of its African ancestors.

Many tribes, all across the continent, have developed their own unique thumb pianos over the centuries. Because the languages and cultures of these tribes vary so much, so do the names and traditions of their instruments.

Thumb Piano Coconut Natural

Program we started watching, kind gives me an “ache” inside…man I’m getting so old!

https://www.rediscoverthe80s.com/2017/02/recap-of-cnns-the-eighties-miniseries.html

The Sixties, The Seventies, and The Eighties Intros- CNN ***HD QUALITY***

 

13 May 2018 Dreaming stone (Labradorite) and Mom’s Day

Hello to you.  Today has been a really  nice day.  My sweetheart cooked us dinner while I was outside drawing and sweating Рreally warm and humid today.

13 May 2018 – this drawing is me thinking of myself as a baby blue dragon clutching my labradorite ball last night. I had like 2 or 3 lucid dreams in a row! One of them is represented by the little black girl holding a pink crystal necklace. She wanted to take it and I told her no. There is also a box represented by the realtor like lady from one of the dreams last night. There is a box with two people with huge dogs – these special beautiful beings seem to show up and just disappear for me. The dogs they are with are almost like spirits more than dogs.

Hope all the folks that nurture others are having a special day.¬†¬† The term “Mom” isn’t just for women in my book.¬† I called my Mom today and it was hard because there was so much I wanted to say but tears got to¬†me first.¬† For all my Mom and I have been through, I just dearly love her and am so grateful for all the important things she managed to get through my thick skull.¬† This is her first Mother’s Day without her Mom and I can only imagine how surreal that would be if I were in her shoes.¬† We lost Grandma a couple of months ago.¬† We had all been praying for her to “be free” but as we all know, it’s not all up to us with these sort of things.

13 May 2018 – drawing I did after I talked to Mom

As I mentioned in my notes with the drawing, last night I decided to sleep with my Labradorite crystal ball and it was like one lucid dream after another.¬† This hasn’t happened to me in a¬†long time.¬†¬†¬† Both of the orbs I have are in the picture.¬† Do you have a favorite crystal for dream travels?

What is Labradorite?

https://www.gemselect.com/gem-info/labradorite/labradorite-info.php

Labradorite Gemstone Information

About Labradorite – History and Introduction

Labradorite is a gemstone that was named after Labrador in Canada, where it was found on the Isle of Paul, near Nain in 1770. It has since been found in other places, including Finland, Madagascar, and Australia. After its discovery, labradorite became popular with the missionaries. Labradorite is a plagioclase feldspar which shows adularescence (a white or bluish light seen when turned). This optical effect is so unique to labradorite that it has been termed “labradorescence”. It is the result of diffraction of light in the layers of rock. When viewed at certain angles, labradorite exhibits such captivating color that has led to Inuit legends stating that the Northern Lights shone down on the shores of Labrador and were captured inside these colorful stones. The most highly valued labradorite is material that shows the full spectrum of color in its labradorescence. Labradorite that does not exhibit labradorescence can still make beautiful gemstones because of aventurescence, which is a glitter caused by diffraction of light from mineral platelets.

There are three further types of labradorite; spectrolite, andesine-labradorite and rainbow moonstone (which is sometimes referred to by the trade name, “Madagascar moonstone”). As the trade name indicates, rainbow moonstone comes from Madagascar and it has an intense blue schiller. Spectrolite is a rare labradorite from Finland. It is known for displaying a beautiful spectral play of color, hence the name, “spectrolite”. Andesine-labradorite is created by enhancing the color of labradorite.

Interesting:

Labradorite Gemstone Mythology, Metaphysical and Alternative Crystal Healing Powers Back to Top

According to an Inuit legend, the Northern Lights are captured in the minerals on the coast of Labrador. This is not surprising considering the magical, iridescent color of labradorite. Labradorite is thought to be a magical stone that possesses powerful protective properties and helps its wearer to find their true path in life. It is thought to “bring light” to the otherwise unknown, and thus provide its wearer with insight. Additionally, labradorite is credited with having the ability to bring out the positive in people and calm overactive minds, bringing peace to its wearer. Labradorite is also thought to soothe menstrual problems, aid disorders of the lungs, prevent colds, help with digestion and regulate both metabolism and blood pressure. In traditional Hindu belief systems, labradorite is associated with the throat chakra, or vishuddha, which is the center of purification. The throat chakra is associated with hearing, speech and self-expression. Wearing labradorite is thought to contribute to true and honest expression. Labradorite is said to facilitate communication between the spiritual and physical world, helping its wearer to recall dreams and experiences from past lives. It is therefore thought to help bring out psychic abilities.

12 1 2 18 1 4 15 18 20 5

L A B R A D O R I T E = 105 =6=3 cycle

 

My children:

13 May 2018 – my kids Spot and Link.

12 May 2018 Drawing and poem

11 May 2018 – drawing I did about what’s it is like for me when I’m out back meditating on my cot with music and the sky.

 

I am just a bunch of memory bubbles bound together by the fire of life

A child, a daughter and a wife

Swirling, twisting, popping and daily re-made

The wings of angels pass over my small patch of shade

 

1 14 7 5 12

A N G E L = 39 (3 cycle)

13 5 13 15 18 25

M E M O R Y = 89

2 21 2 2 12 5

B U B B L E = 44

19 8 1 4 5

S H A D E = 37

 

 

10 May 2018 Still processing Avengers Infinity War

9 May 2018 – this mess of images is me still trying to process Avengers Infinity War I think and the latest episode of Wakfu!

Hello to you.¬† Hope this finds you well.¬† I’m still processing the latest Avengers film, as this mess of a drawing shows.¬† Yesterday my husband and I talked more about it and Loki came up.¬† They keep getting rid of him or cutting him from films and I don’t understand why!¬† Is it that he’s too much of¬† a scene stealer?¬† Too likeable?!¬† It’s not like Tom Hiddleston can just come back as another random character either.¬† Sigh.¬† I really like Tom’s Loki.¬† We also talked about Chris Hemsworth’s performance¬†which was¬†very impressive.¬† I felt his story was one of the best developed in the film.¬†¬†I can’t imagine anybody else being Thor really.

DAMN THE SNAP!

I had kind of an a-ha before bed last night¬†thinking about the film.¬† I have been figuring out for myself that there really isn’t¬†much of a difference between hero’s and villains.¬† The only real difference is¬†motive and perspective.¬† Heck the name Thanos, in the numbers comes up to the same numbers as Jesus Christ, 77!¬† It’s almost like somewhere in the cosmos the writers for this film decided to give me a middle finger about my thoughts on this.

By turning a bunch of folks to ash we are left with the question, what will happen without one side of the equation?!¬† What truths will be revealed?¬†¬†What will the Marvel¬†Universe be with just Tony Stark and a handful of others¬†to protect the planet?¬† Well there is always the DC folks lol….can you imagine that phone call with¬†Tony’s flip phone (we laughed during the movie about this because Tony’s¬†phone¬†is just like my husband’s flip phone)?

“Hey¬†uh Sup….yeah it’s me Tony….we got a bit of a problem.¬† Get the Flash on your way over.”¬† ¬†Is it finally time for an epic cross-universe effort between Marvel and DC?¬† May be DC would finally¬†make bank on a great film?¬†¬†¬†We’ll see.

 

8 May 2018 Poem for my somebody

Hello to you.¬† It’s a beautiful morning and we have plans today to help us celebrate our wedding anniversary.¬† I am reminiscing a bit this morning.¬† Time goes so fast when it comes to the “good parts” doesn’t it?!

This was taken at Universal Studios in Florida, Jan 2005. Our first real dates together. We want to get back there to explore Harry Potter world soon!

I wrote this little poem for my sweetheart.¬† We have a “theme” of trees for our anniversaries.
For my husband 8 May 2018 – Jackie

Tangled, winding, ancient and green

A path to the middle

A stretch to the unseen

You woven into me, me woven into you

In the end it’s all looking up

Into the ancient blue

 

My friend EasyWeimaraner reminded me that today is an important for another reason:

Victory in Europe Day, generally known as V-E Day, VE Day or simply V Day, was the public holiday celebrated on 8 May 1945 to mark the formal acceptance by the Allies of World War II of Nazi Germany’s unconditional surrender of its armed forces. It thus marked the end of World War II in Europe.

 

6 May 2018 Drawing and more fun with words and their numeric values

6 May 2018 – drawing I did this morning.

Just stopping in to say hello.¬† I’ve really been having an¬†adventure with the numeric value of English words.¬† It’s been interesting to find that the values of different words, meaning the same thing, like Pyramid and Triangle, could come out to the same exact value!

Words that I explored the numeric value of this weekend and got some surprises:

4 May 2018 – I was having “trust issues” recently and it came to me to look at things from a numeric perspective. I decided to look at words, break them down into numeric values and see what the word meant after that. It helped me.

19 25 18 21 16

S Y R U P  = 99/18/9/2=4.5=9 (cycle)

19 21 7 1 18

S U G A R = 66/12/3/2=1.5 =6/2= 3  (cycle)

It’s interesting that both words, both addictive substances, have a “cycle” aspect.¬†¬†If you flip either 99 or 66 over and they are the same number too!

16 25 18 1 13 9 4

P Y R A M I D = 86/14/5

20 18 9 1 14 7 12 5

T R I A N G L E = 86/14/5

8 21 13 1 14

H U M A N= 57/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

20 18 5 5

T R E E= 48/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

*3 I think of cycle as life, death and rebirth or a number that keeps coming back to itself even after you divide it in half.

 

 

4 May 2018 Sleeping, Dreaming and Healing

Just a note to say hello before the weekend.  We woke up to thunder, lightning and much needed rain this morning.  As I write, it continues to rain. We really needed it so I am grateful for it.

This kind of weather does make me just want to stay in bed!¬†¬†¬†Lately that’s all I’ve been wanting to do is sleep!¬† My therapist and I agreed this morning it’s probably just my body healing after what I went through recently.¬† That last round of a new medication really messed me up!¬† Ironically,¬†speaking of the healing power of sleep, last night I had a vivid dream of helping a man¬†a woman with the balancer/healing wands I’ve shared about.¬†¬†In the dream I taught them¬†to make the sea salt GANS for themselves.¬† It would be nice to think that it wasn’t just a dream and actual people may have been helped somehow!

The dream world is very interesting for me because my mind will incorporate elements of my real world into the dream world.¬† Sometimes I don’t want to wake up and want to just stay in the dream world.¬† Have you ever had one of those dreams that made you feel that way?

4 May 2018 – I was having “trust issues” recently and it came to me to look at things from a numeric perspective. I decided to look at words, break them down into numeric values and see what the word meant after that. It helped me.¬† I don’t know if this will make sense to anyone else but it might!

I decided to play the numbers game with the words dream, sleep and heal.¬† ¬†I doubt what I’ve been doing with¬†this unique, but it is for me!¬† It has¬†been very interesting!¬†¬†Sometimes I have to wonder that if¬†the¬†numeric value of a word is odd,¬† can there actually be a positive motive for it’s existence?¬† Did the person who created the word to describe something like sleep know in numeric terms¬†it would come¬†out to represent a cyclic pattern?¬† Or is that evidence of a¬† power greater than ourselves at work?¬†¬†The more I explore the numeric value of certain words, the more it seems¬†possible.¬†¬†What do you think?

4   18  5  1  13

D  R  E  A  M = 41=5/2=2.5=7/2=3.5=8/2=4/2=2/2=1

(interesting that Dream comes back to 1 or to self as I perceive it.  No one knows if you have had a dream except yourself.  There is no evidence of it even if someone is monitoring your brainwaves)

19 12 5 5  16

S  L  E  E  P = 57 = 12 = 3 (cycle) 3/2=1.5=6/2=3

(sleep is actually a repeating cycle sort of thing.  You have morning, noon and night.  In the patterns of sleep you are either awake, dozing or actually asleep.)

8  5   1  12

H  E  A  L = 26 = 8/2 = 4/2=2/2 = 1

(healing comes out to an “even” motive number from the start and when broken down comes back to self or the value of one.¬† Ultimately, with healing, we are the ones who benefit right?)

*The reason I divide the number by 2 is like taking a look at something with each side of ourselves if that makes sense.

“I am surrounded by rain, thunder and lightning and yet I have traveled without leaving my bed!¬† Am I inside or outside of my own head?”