Hello to you, how are you today? I am doing ok, the day is getting better. This morning I was having a bit of a struggle with myself regarding going to get groceries or not. I prayed about it and heard a small voice say, “Cast your cares.” I remembered that being something Joyce Meyers husband David says her a lot when she’s fretting about something. I decided to look up where that scripture came from:
Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.
There was a time in my life when doing chores and other things wasn’t a big deal. For some reason everything is a big deal now. Every day I have to push through this invisible wall to get things done. It’s a physical thing where I will think about doing something and I will almost immediately get a panicky feeling in my gut. A wall of anxiety goes up. It’s that feeling I have to work through to actually accomplish anything. I am taking medication to try and help with it but it doesn’t always work!
“planet” in the English Ordinal system equals 68 (all vices in check but one for eternity)
“Where do I belong God” in the English Ordinal system equals 168
“Cast Your Cares” in the English Ordinal system equals 168
(In the numbers it’s interesting how todays message lines up with yesterdays!)
I know I have to keep strong and have faith that I am on the right path. I asked for God’s strength and I got it. I got to the grocery store, bought what was on my list and got back home again.
Hello to you, how are you doing today? I hope this finds you doing well in your here and now as you visit me here.
I was trying to think of what to write today and a conversation I just had on healthfulchats.com helped me. A long while ago I had written a paper about my theory that the first great beings were trees and everything came after that. I had it posted here but have long since deleted it, In Beginning was Symbiosis. Some of the oldest life forms on the planet are trees and a few of them are still around https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_oldest_trees. Well thinking about that subject made me think about God and who God is.
People often ask me if I believe in God and I say yes. The natural tendency after that is to want to talk about the bible. Then if I have chosen Jesus as my personal savior and to that that I always say Jesus is the best part of the book. Who’s flesh and blood was sacrificed in those early years so that early Bible’s might exist? Trees, animals and plants.
What I believe is the Earth is God and everything and everyone alive on top is an extension of God. For every right there is a left aka cause and affect. There is only good and evil depending on who is perceiving things. People make things good and evil. An example I used today about this was the dandelion. To at least 5 or 6 species of insect the dandelion is a food source. I witnessed this myself in my backyard. So to much of creation the dandelion is food but to some people and a bunch of weed fertilizer companies, the dandelion is just a weed. Who taught them it was just a weed?
Just like with most everything in existence, dandelions were created for a reason and have a reason for existence. To me they are a flower with antioxident properties. A little info I found about dandelions there are tons of websites: https://jhiblog.org/2020/05/20/a-dandelion-story-from-medieval-herbals-to-wholefoods/
“Who is God” in the English Ordinal system equals 100 (this is pretty interesting – 1 and two zero’s)
“dandelion” in the English Ordinal system equals 78
Hello to you out there and I hope this finds you in a good place in your life. If not, if for some reason this finds you in the shadow place of living, I hope that you will find a light space or a light space will find you. That’s how it worked out for me with my recent journey. It’s amazing how a bunch of shut doors can open a bunch of new ones and even reconnect you with people you had lost touch with.
There is a phrase divine timing that comes to mind with what happened with my Uncle Bill and I this morning. My Aunt Ruth has sent him my blog to read and no sooner had he finished reading it, I fumbled with my new phone and “accidentally” called him! The karma/divine timing was not lost on either of us with that one! My Aunt and Uncle have watched my journey with mental health and how I have managed to climb back up after some deep dives. They were both pleased to read my post and I appreciate their encouragement.
It’s amazing how many people you find out love and care for you once you get plugged back in to things. I always find myself humbled and nearly unworthy of so much love and support! Today I got to hear from and see some folks I had been missing and find out how strong our connections are.
Facebook has turned out to actually be useful to with this latest leg of my journey and it’s been a tool to reconnect with positive people in my life. I had kind of shunned using it but am finding it not to be such a bad thing.
The big deal today was Link coming home to see me! I missed him, Spot and my husband so much when I was away! I drew pictures of them in my journals almost everyday! We are testing the waters to see how things go for the next couple of weeks. The hardest part of being gone was the back yard really went and grew tall with no one to maintain it. I’m looking into getting a lawn service to tame it so it’s more Link “going out to do business friendly!”
29 April 2020 – Link checking out his old lookout post
29 April 2020- Link sleeping on pillow our Sammy used to love too
29 April 2020 – So happy Link is home
29 April 2020 – pics of Link getting adjusted to be back home. I love that he was enjoying a pillow we kept from when we had Sammy.
Here is what divine timing looks like in Gematria:
“divine timing” in the English Ordinal system equals 135 – a creed or to bear fruit
“one three five” in the English Ordinal system equals 132 – a life
“one three two” in the English Ordinal system equals 148 – a tree
“one four eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 143 – a choice
“one four three” in the English Ordinal system equals 150 – a Joy
“one five zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 140 – a food
“one four zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 158 – a feeling
one five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 125 – a one
“one two five” in the English Ordinal system equals 134 – a chance
Remember, this is just my interpretation. Gematria reading is very personal and may be different from person to person. I find it interesting that it is in a 9 cycle. When you add up 1 +3 +5 you get 9 and if you divide 9 by 2 (the night and day of existence and light and shadow of self), you get a repeating 9 pattern. There is a certain element of “nein” (in German “no”) or denial about divine timing and things that happen with it! People like to call it just a coincidence but is it always? I don’t think so.
“coincidence” in the English Ordinal system equals 84 – lesson, worth
Hello to you wherever and whenever you are as you visit here. I just wanted to write a note to let those who might have wondered where I went to. My blog kind of has been getting put on the back burner with life stuff. I’m sure anyone who blogs or has life going on with the latest stuff we have going on as a world can relate. There have have been more important things going on and stuff like this is usually the first to get left behind.
Instead of focusing on what has gone wrong the past couple of months in my life I’ll focus on on the most important thing – what I learned that has helped me.
I was recently in a treatment facility and I am grateful for it because I have finally come to realize what my husband and others have been trying to tell me – in order for me to be able to function/operate in the world I’m in, I have to be on medication to help me do that. I have resisted and fought against that concept for the longest time and after everything I went through the past couple of months, I have realized resisting is against my best interest. I have had to do say those words a lot lately, and it might be too late in some cases, “You were right, I was wrong, please forgive me.”
I am a very porous, spiritual empath and unmedicated, my gifts are so strong I can’t function in the “real world.” The treatment plan I have isn’t being overly medicated so that my gifts are completely surpressed, but enough so that I have the clarity I was lacking…..the filter….the invisible guardian at the gate to my soul. The greatest guardian besides the God of my understanding, is turning out to be Lithium. I don’t like some of the side effects but they are minimal in light of most other options before me.
Anyhew – just wanted to share a couple thoughts in case anyone out there was still following my blog here. I hope something I’ve shared here will resonate with someone today and be helpful.
My prayers are with everybody right now and thanks to all those I’ve dealt with personally and those I haven’t on the front lines of all the crisis we have as a shared world right now. Anyone reading this that is having difficulty – please know you are a blessing to someone even if it’s not immediately obvious. Be a light – let your light keep shining even if it’s only on a dimmer switch!