13 July 2018 My Present (birthday), chalk drawings and Once Upon a Star (poem)

Hello there!  Hope you are doing well today.  Today is my husband’s 34th birthday and he said this morning, “It seems like your more excited for my birthday than I am!”  I replied, “I am!  Today is the day my present got here!”  Long before I met Kyle I can remember standing under a starry sky and asking, “Where are you?!”  Little did I know such a person was on their way to my heart and to my life.  Having a husband like Kyle is proof I must have done at least one good thing so far in this life!

I have been sharing a lot of pictures lately knowing I’m probably going to run out of room lool.  It’s worth the trouble.

Once Upon a Star – (Blog poem I wrote 3 May 2006)

Weary eyes and weary soul my light embers dim

I look into the heavens for Pleiades and sing a faraway song

A forgotten hymn

The sisters dance forever make haste to Venus

A veil of silk and dreamwork

Cast a spell between us

Sitting in my plane of invisible air I fly

Through space and time

To your gleaming spires my voice will cry

Once upon a star

Neither light nor shadow

The distance far

 

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6 July 2018 Thank you and Poems

I don’t need many words for what I want to say to the God of my understanding other than “Thank you for the rain!” 

A couple of poems from Kyle and my past to share:

Raining Time – Kyle Wygant March 13 2002

Washing away the ground

In a triumphant descent

Littering the sky with muted mutiny

Filling every the very holes

Meant to remain unspoiled

Gushing down the walls of time

Winding, whirling and dodging

Pummeling down on the ledges

Of the newly founded changes

Brought down from on high

To rinse away the tainted soil

While nourishing the newly

Undamaged ground

 

Untitled – 28 June 2006 by Jackie Schmidt

Before me the road is cleared of trees and any vision of the past

The view out of me is blank and clear

Behind me lies the wreckage twisted and sharp

Painful to touch, painful to feel it brings tears easily to my eyes

Sometimes these new days are so bright I am blinded in my happiness

I find at times I cannot believe what unfolds can be real and true

Can these blessings really be for me in all that I have been?

I spread my arms wide and the rain falls

I lift my head to the heavens and sun shines

I kneel down and the earth trembles

I look around me and the walls fall down

All is layed bare and new; the earth scoured clean the lion roars

From behind the curtain of uncertainty the doors of eternity open

Before me now the shadow passes and light is left in it’s wake

The White Tree shimmers in the dew slipped dawn

There are no leaves just shimmering silver

A new Hope for a new time……..

 

Some interesting results here!

18 1 9 14

R A I N = 42/6/3 cycle (of course!)

20 8 21 14 4 5 18

T H U N D E R = 90/9 cycle

12 9 7 8 20 14 9 14 7

L I G H T N I N G = 100/1

5 July 2018 Mermaid (drawing) and I Am Of The Water (poem)

5 July 2018 – I got around to drawing a mermaid for my friend Cindy this afternoon. Not too bad!

I Am Of The Water – Jackie

All my being flows with the currents swift

Twisting and turning

Fellow beings of the waters give my red tendrils a lift

My song tip toes across the peaks of the waves to the shore

I sit on the rocky cliffs

Taking in the endless rippling horizon I adore

I am of the water, my soul is the sea

Just close your eyes and dream

And you will find me…..

 

13 5 18 13 1 9 4

M E R M A I D = 63/9 cycle – interesting!

23 1 20 5 18

W A T E R = 67/13/4/2/1

4 July 2018 Unity

https://translate.google.com/ – handy tool I’ve been using so I can enjoy posts from folks here in their home languages

Hello to you – hope this finds you well today.  It’s a holiday for us here in the states.  We plan to celebrate with family – cook out and visit.  My favorite part of any holiday is sharing good food and catching up with people I haven’t seen in awhile!

Holidays are a time to express a micro version of what the world could be but isn’t quite yet – one big family.  World unity is probably a word to chalk up to the ancient dreams of Utopia but definitely a prize to seek.  It is a vision I’ve always had to see the celebration of all our differences.  The people of this world working as a family.  Each bringing their unique pieces of thread and fabric to construct the world quilt.  For all the ways we are different, there are so many more ways we are just the same.

Source Internet: World Quilt

http://www.worldprayers.org/prayerwheel/index.html 

The spin of the World Prayer wheel gave me this, I think it’s beautiful.  I had to read it through aloud more than once as the language style is not what I’m used to reading or writing: 

A faintish journey do I make
As through this frazzled world I wind,
With heavy heart and weary steps,
But with determined mind.

Beseech I for a flicker of
The faith than can a mountain move,
And hold that tenet close to me,
Believing where I cannot prove.

The pow’r that comes when sinking low
To man who grasps for straw or rope,
Will clutch til has he breath no more
For where there’s life, there’s hope.

If my good turn be given to
My fellow man’s deficiency,
I’ll try to share my lowly gifts
Of Faith and Hope and Charity.

faith, hope, and charity – anne shannon demarest – 1965
Interesting results with the words today:

21 14 9 20 25

U N I T Y = 89/17/8/4/2/1

21 20 15 16 9 1

U T O P I A = 82/10/1

4 9 6 6 5 18 5 14 20

D I F F E R E N T  = 87/15/6/3 cycle – makes sense it would be a endless cycle

19 1 13 5

S A M E = 38/11/2/1

1 12 9 11 5

A L I K E = 38/11/2/1

23 15 18 12 4

W O R L D = 72/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle – makes sense to divide the world would create a cycle and not a positive one.

17 21 9 12 20

Q U I L T = 79/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 – a quilt is made of many parts of various pieces of cloth

2 12 1 14 11 5 20

B L A N K E T = 65/11/2/1 – I was curious!  A quilt eventually becomes a blanket

My deepest condolences to Tina Turner at the loss of her son Craig.  No mother should have to lose her child this way.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/music/celebrity/tina-turners-son-dead-of-apparent-suicide/ar-AAzxNKo?li=BBnb7Kz&OCID=ansmsnnews11

Tina Turner’s eldest son, Craig Raymond Turner, has died of an apparent self-inflicted gunshot wound.

TMZ reported that authorities arrived at Craig’s Studio City, Calif., home around noon on July 3 and found his body.

Craig, 59, was pronounced dead at the scene. He was in the real estate business in the Los Angeles area.

Craig was born in 1958 when his famous mother was 18 years old. His biological father is a musician named Raymond Hill. After Tina married Ike Turner, Ike adopted Craig as his own.

Tina is currently in Paris attending events associated with Paris Fashion Week events. On Tuesday, she stepped out for the Giorgio Armani Prive Haute Couture Fall/Winter 2018-2019 show.

30 June 2018 Island of the Moon (Painting)

Hello fellow travelers.  I decided to tap into my inner Bob Ross (happy little trees painter) today and try to put to canvas my Island of the Moon dream:

https://saymber.com/2018/05/31/31-may-2018-dads-birthday-and-bela-lugosi-in-my-dreams/

In this dream I was with another person and we were waiting to see someone.  Then there was this beautiful scene of an island with trees and a glowing bright full moon behind it (what is cool is our actual moon is full right now, saw it this morning!).  Then all the sudden there was Bela in theater makeup!  He examined my wrists and the bracelets I was wearing as a sort of payment for this visit.  After examining them, he could see I was attached to the bracelets and didn’t take them.  He then let me talk to him about all the stuff that had been going on the past couple of months.  He just smiled at me and was so kind.  I woke up shortly after this.  I didn’t want to leave!

Sometimes I wish there was a way to push a button when your dreaming and capture an image so you could see it when you wake up lol.  The “island of the moon” I’ll call it was so beautiful.  The image is still stuck in my head as I write this!

Island of the Moon – (Jackie)

There is a place we shall meet where the moon is always glowing

Where the old ones take familiar forms

For how long there is no knowing.

Reality slipping slowly on the tides of the Island of the Moon

There sits the charming Bela Lugosi

Bathing in moonbeams in it’s glowing lagoon.

https://saymber.com/2018/05/31/31-may-2018-island-of-the-moon-drawings-and-traveler-paul-horn/

I messed up the background and there is A LOT OF BLUE in this but I love it.  Kyle approved of it and it’s now hanging in our bedroom.   We both really like the many different shades of blue so it’s perfect for us lol.  The vision changed a bit from the original one of just having Bela alone on the island.  To fix the mistake that happened between the trees, it was like a portal opened from the moon to that spot and I put my astral self there lol.   I need a lot more practice doing this painting thing.  Paint isn’t as forgiving as when I do my chalk drawings but it sure is fun to try.  I use my fingers a lot LOL!  Blasphemy right?!

 

27 June 2018 It’s Hot and CO2 Shortage in Europe

27 June 2018 – This being came out of the chalk this hot afternoon. When I draw someone like this I’m not trying to be creepy. These beings without eyes can see without traditional eyesight. This “man” felt like someone peeking in from an another dimension.

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you well in mind, body and spirit.  It’s hot here in North Texas again, 98 degrees!  I feel terrible for all those who have to be out in this for their jobs!  I am not a fan of summer in Texas at all.  This recent stretch of hot with little to no rain reminds me just how much I dislike it and how much I miss dips in my father-in-laws salt water swimming pool!  He would get the chemistry just right and it was so refreshing to soak when it was hot like this.  When they moved to the country, the in ground pool stayed behind.  I’ve thought more than once about getting one of those kiddie pools but talk myself out of it every time.  Knowing my luck I’d forget to empty it and grow a bunch of mosquitos LOL!!  I’d be miserable from the heat AND itchy bites!

Speaking of water, we just got our water turned back on in the house.  They had to shut it down for a few hours today to clear the lines or something after doing a necessary repair.  May be my toilet will flush properly now lol!  Yay and thank you to the people who fixed it!

There is very little in this life that you can afford to take for granted.  Like running water in your house and also a working car.

We are still waiting for Ford to call us about our car repair.  We made an appointment a week in advance.  They had the car all day Monday and didn’t even look at it or call us to tell us anything.  We are going on the third full day of what we are calling the “hostage situation.”   They finally called us yesterday to let us know what the ransom was going to be and what was going on with the car.  We paid for a bumper to bumper warranty on our Ford Fiesta when we bought it new and the repair is under warranty and yet they still are finding a way to get money out of us.  What the *f—k did I pay for?!  Should of bought another Hyundai!

So getting back to my heart space from being hot and grumpy!  I’m grateful we have water.  I’m grateful we have a place to get the car fixed.  I’m grateful that we even have a car at all.

Gratitude

“Sometimes

 I go about pitying 

 Myself 

 While I am carried by the wind 

 Across the sky.”

I’m grateful not to have to worry about the C02 crisis, I had never heard of such a thing until today!  I can’t imagine what would happen in America if people were faced with the possibility of being without soda and beer this time of year! 

Here’s what you need to know about the big European carbon dioxide shortage

Published: June 26, 2018 10:25 a.m. ET

It comes at a tricky time, as temperatures climb and soccer fans flood pubs to watch the World Cup

George Frey/Getty Images
Coca-Cola Co. says it has paused some production due to the carbon dioxide shortage.
By

VictorReklaitis

Markets writer

Will your investment portfolio and taste buds survive the big European carbon dioxide shortage of 2018?

Brewers, along with producers of soft drinks, chicken and other packaged foods, have been grappling this month with a hit to CO2 supplies.

It’s coming at a tricky time, as temperatures are climbing and soccer fans are flooding to pubs, bars and restaurants to watch the World Cup.

Here’s what the summertime shortage could mean for shareholders in beverage companies — and for regular thirsty folks.

What the fizz?

Trade publication Gasworld first reported last week about the “worst supply situation to hit the European carbon-dioxide business in decades,” adding that the U.K. appeared to be the hardest-hit country. CO2 is used to put the fizz into beer and soft drinks, and it helps extend the shelf life of poultry and other meat.

Ammonia plants serve as a major source of food-grade CO2 in Europe, as the gas is a byproduct. But ammonia is manufactured for use in fertilizer products, and there is less demand for those from farmers in summer. So such plants regularly shut down in April through June, that industry’s slow period, Gasworld noted.

“What has compounded the situation this year is not only the timing of all the maintenance procedures, but that ammonia market prices have fallen to a low and imports are available from outside of Western Europe,” the trade publication reported.

That has led to European producers prolonging the downtime for ammonia plants. In addition, higher prices for natural gas NGN18, +1.40%  — a major raw material for ammonia manufacture — have crimped profit margins and provided another reason to stay shut down. Technical problems at some plants also helped the situation become “critical,” according to Gasworld.

How long will it last?

The supply crunch looks set to improve, the trade journal reported more recently. “I do not expect to see any severe shortages of beer or fizzy drinks. Some of the big branded breweries have their own CO2 recovery and production, so they can keep on producing beers and lagers,” said John Raquet, the trade publication’s founder and CEO.

How is it affecting companies?

From Coca-Cola Co. KO, -0.53% to Heineken NV HEIA, -0.12% HEINY, -1.15%  , key companies have said they’ve been affected by the CO2 shortage in Europe.

“We are currently responding to an industry-wide issue that is impacting the supply of CO2 in the U.K.,” said Coca-Cola in an email to MarketWatch.

“During this period, we’ve paused some of our production lines for short periods, however there has been no disruption to supply to date and we are continuing to fulfill orders to our customers,” the company added.

Heineken has warned British pubs about low supplies for two of its popular beers — Amstel lager and John Smith’s bitter. “We’ve been informed by our CO2 supplier that they are facing a major issue with supply availability in the U.K.,” a spokeswoman for the Dutch brewer told the Wall Street Journal.

A.G. Barr PLC BAG, -0.58%  , known for the Irn-Bru soft drink that’s popular in Scotland, sounds like it’s managing to weather the shortage. It has confirmed that it is “producing normally” at the moment, as it’s “benefiting from the decision to increase CO2 storage last year,” said Numis Securities analyst Damian McNeela in a recent note.

Another U.K. soft-drinks company, Britvic PLC BVIC, +1.30% has said it will see an impact, but has indicated that it is working closely with suppliers to help mitigate the problem, as well as seeking to secure alternative supplies of CO2, according to McNeela.

What does it mean for affected companies?

The Numis Securities analyst said he’s not changing his predictions for the beverage companies that he covers

“Clearly, this shortage comes as the industry moves into peak seasonal demand and, if the situation remains unresolved, could be a negative catalyst for earnings for all companies in our coverage universe” McNeela said. “However, given that the potential impact is difficult to quantify at the moment, we have made no changes to forecasts.”

One thing that beer drinkers can do

CO2 isn’t used in old-fashioned real ales, which are naturally carbonated in casks or bottles by the live yeast they contain, noted Paul Davies, a Heard on the Street columnist for the Wall Street Journal.

So beer drinkers visiting London might want to try these ales.

“The British are famous for serving up warm, flat beer — or at least you think they are,” wrote Davies, as he also said: “Warmer, flatter beers might be making a big return after all.”

Tonya Garcia contributed to this report

 

24 June 2018 Dreams and “Nobody” (song/poem)

Hi there.  Hope this finds you well today.  I had quite a night last night.  Lots of dreams.

23 June 2018 – Only drawing from yesterday. It was just too hot to spend much time outside. “Keyhole in the sky.”

The first dream  was of an awkward introduction to a young dark-haired man who said his name was Alan.  It was like we were having a flying lesson at Hogwarts.  Before he told me his name he gave me a kiss.  We were like awkward teenagers meeting for the first time.

The second dream was about actually going to a Prince tribute concert I had been considering a couple of days ago on Facebook.  The man who was being Prince got lots of excitement – after the concert the fans ran up to him to get their pictures taken.

The third dream was about being with a younger David Bowie in a restaurant.  We were talking about something to do with a piece of paper that had a bunch of difficult questions being left for someone on a table.  He said he didn’t care if they got any of the answers right.  It was about them acknowledging the miracle of a piece of paper being specifically addressed to someone in a random restaurant and their finding it. It would be like you spontaneously deciding to go eat at McDonald’s and going to sit down with your food and finding a test addressed to you by name waiting at your table!  “I’m not trying to be clever, I’m an idiot most of the time,” he said.  Then we both started laughing really hard and I looked to my right and another version of David, older,  is sitting at the table next to us and they start laughing too.  While we were all laughing I felt a sharp scratch on my right ankle in my waking world and woke up.

Before heading out on the dog walk this morning this little poem/song came to me, I’ve given it the title Nobody.  I think it’s about the God of my understanding, energy.  Energy is everywhere and in everything and yet we can’t see all that is going on with it.  The tiny particles that fill the space in between objects, thoughts and deeds.  It is easy to take so much for granted about this life.  I try to remember that every little piece of how and why I am here is thanks to forces seen and unseen.  The trees, the clouds, the insects, the people and animals I love, the very air I breathe is all because of energy….because of God.

Nobody

“I am nobody of any consequence

A passing cloud

A persistent itch at the end of your nose

An unseen tug on the tip of your toes

A passing thought you might of had

That made you smile

Or made you real sad

I am nobody

And yet I’m everything.”

 

23 June 2018 – drawing I did yesterday. “Ghost food” is what I’m calling it lol.

1141 am – adding these drawings to this post.  The blue butterfly is a connection to Alice Through The Looking Glass and having a dream with Alan in it last night.  This drawing is about, to me, the transition from our being one form to another when we are through with this life:

12 June 2018 Surrealism – A Feeling Too

Hello to you.  How are you doing in your here and now?  I’m feeling like a word that isn’t normally attributed to a state of being, surrealism.   Surrealist art is a lot like my dreams…my life lately.  A vast canvas covered with unrelated images that when strung together somehow make sense.  The world we are sharing right now is very surreal to me most of the time.  So many things that make sense and so many more that don’t all going on at once.  Such a mess!

On the one hand we have President Trump and Kim Jong Un shaking hands – which like Dennis Rodman I’m very pleased about and hope it was genuine (https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/trump-kim-summit-trump-says-us-will-end-its-%E2%80%98war-games%E2%80%99-with-south-korea/ar-AAyx0hn?OCID=ansmsnnews11)  and on the other we have ancient trees dying in Africa possibly because of climate change (https://www.popsci.com/baobab-tree-climate-change).  So many extremes all vying for time on the world stage.  No wonder so many people are bipolar and have ADD nowadays!  Up!  Down!  Look here!  Now there!  Forget you saw or heard that!  Now for something completely different!

19 21 18 18 5 1 12 9 19 13

S U R R E A L I S M = 135/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle – makes sense this sort of thing would be a cycle sort of word!

http://www.theartstory.org/movement-surrealism.htm – good article about this art movement actually is if your curious

Exploring Surrealism with Peter Capaldi | Unlock Art – I found this and had to share.  Peter explaining this art form makes it a little more wonderful to learn about.

 

My chalk drawings from the past couple of days are fading and nothing has come to me to put to the slab or paper.  My thoughts have been murky.  My dreams have been fluid and very little to hold on to and write down in my dream journal.   I am not worried.  I need this rest period.  The veil will open.  The curtains will part and show me things to share.  For now it’s sleep, words, numbers, concepts and may a random picture or two.

Surreal – by Jackie

“Surreal is the distance between the grass and the dew

The random points of light when assembled

That make me and you

Am I walking or am I gliding

In the stitches of space

Or am I just a particle hiding…..”

 

I painted this back in April of this year. Yes, that sparkle is fabric paint I included lol. The purple wisps were inspired by the movie The Arrival. One of the weird images to come out of my “long walk” recently. I’m almost ready to bust out one of the blank canvas we bought and see what comes.

Hugs and positive vibes through the wires!

10 June 2018 It’s Such A Good Feeling

“What are you grateful for today?! Find one thing and hold on to it and watch how it becomes a blossoming field. “

 

Hello to you.  How are you?  A song is stuck in my head as I’m writing.  It’s that little song Fred Rogers used to sing:

http://pbskids.org/rogers/songLyricsItsSuchAGoodFeeling.html – If you go to this link, you can hear him actually sing it.  There are other songs also.

It’s such a good feeling to know you’re alive.
 It’s such a happy feeling: You’re growing inside.
 And when you wake up ready to say,
 “I think I’ll make a snappy new day.”
 It’s such a good feeling, a very good feeling,
 The feeling you know that we’re friends.

It’s Such a Good Feeling
By Fred M. Rogers
© 1970 

Singing is a way to express how we feel and what’s important to us. These songs convey many of Mister Rogers’ timeless messages about children and childhood. Read more.

Fred Rogers is one of those famous people that just speaks to and comforts the little girl that still lives inside of me.  I hear him and I almost instantly start tearing up!

Had a couple fun dreams.  One had something about Lady Gaga playing video games and apparently she was quite good at it!  There was something about a flashing light.  Then just before I woke up this morning, I dreamt about actor Robin Williams.  Kyle and I went to some place that had valet parking for cars in a tower like building in the sky.  The valet only asked for $5 for his services.  We weren’t dressed in fancy clothes.  We wore jeans and polo shirts and were walking through some elaborate lobby to the main theater.  Then there was Robin.  He had elaborate hair swooping in all different directions and was dressed in a fancy sparkling gold outfit.  He was being goofy as always and as the show was going to begin….I woke up.

DANGIT!

Why does that always seem to happen to me?!  Waking up just as the good part of a dream is about to begin?!  May be the keepers of those realms are worried I would want to stay.

I think the Robin Williams dream was triggered by seeing a clip of him on a video we were watching on You Tube yesterday and because his name has been coming up a lot in lieu of the recent public figures who have taken their own lives.  His death really hurt but I understand his wanting to go out on his own terms in lieu of suffering through Parkinson’s disease!  Sometimes I think we are kinder to our pets when it comes to terminal or debilitating illnesses than we are to human beings.

This is a funny story we had never heard about his Mrs. Doubtfire role.  While dressed up as Mrs. Doubtfire, he went into a sex shop in San Francisco!

Robin Williams [EXPLICIT] Mrs. Doubtfire Visits Sex Shop // SiriusXM // Town Hall

 

8 June 2018 These Little things (poem)

7 June 2018 – I was thinking as I did this that sometimes it can feel like life is a tunnel.

Hello to you.  We made it, it’s Friday morning (here).   If you are reading this, we did an amazing thing and survived life on this planet another day!  One of the things Kyle and I often say, and I picked this up from my AA days, “It’s always a good day when you wake up on the green side.”  No matter how much proverbial shit the world will shovel to us at times, getting a new day to try again is a blessing.  It may not always feel like it, but life is yet a gift.

As we started off on our walk with Link and Spot this morning we stopped by the mail box and found a love and a hug sealed in an envelope from my Aunt Ruth!  What a lovely way to start the day getting love from across the miles!  Her card will join my Mom’s by my bedside!

8 June 2018 – What a loving message to receive from my Aunt in the mailbox this morning!

I took the camera out back this morning.

These Little Things – Jackie

Each day is a combination so random and yet carefully planned

Who will go where, who will say and do what

Where each one will stand.

In between all the hurry and flurry I see these little things

The fluttering, flapping and singing

All the beings of the earth and sky with wings

The peek-a-boo cat hiding behind the neighbors tree

Watching for rabbits with one eye and with the other

Spying on me

The tired little rose, the last on the bush to bloom

The morning sun through the window

Casting light through dust particles in the room

The fleck of red in my husbands beard and light of his smile

Our little Link resting comfortably in his well-worn bed

On the tile.

These little things all fragments of one part

All the most important things

That fit into my heart.

———-

Indeed, for me, it’s the little things I come back to the most when I need to find my way when I’ve strayed off the path of heart centered living.  When Kyle and I find ourselves really getting crabby and bitching too much about things we stop the train of thought with one question, “What are you grateful for?”  Usually that’s all it takes to turn things around.  I saw this post on my Facebook feed this morning and it resonated:

8 June 2018 – I saw this on my FB feed this morning and it resonated: If you can stay positive in a negative situation, you win.