26 May 2022 Walter and Being Grumpy

https://youtu.be/R7t0Ol6RtRY – Grumpy and Snow White

https://youtu.be/xmQfoAvlIQc – Frenchie arguing with his owner – Walter Geoffrey the French Bulldog

Hello. For the past couple days I have been feeling really grumpy. Sleep has been weird and my body has been hurting. I don’t like being grumpy or being pessimistic about my life so I’ve been trying to find ways to restore “happy Jackie.” One way I found was watching and listening to Walter Geoffrey who is a very vocal French Bulldog. Hearing and watching Walter’s meltdowns has been great therapy! Ohhhh how this boy tells how it is! Sometimes his rants sound like singing to me he just needs some brothers and a drum. What I hear from him is what I’m feeling lately. There aren’t words for it and that’s why Walters behavior resonates with me. There is an energy I’ve been sensing, especially when I go outside, that is just really tense and uncomfortable. I know part of it is myself and the frustration I’m feeling with my body but part of it is just the world I think! All of creation is going through some stuff!

I’ve been trying to do movement to music each day and singing which helps alleviate discomfort. I’m just really out of shape and have gained weight which puts more pressure on the spine and joints. I also listen to the chakra opening meditations and sing tones along with healing focused music like I shared by Mei-lan. I talk to God most of the day and sometimes I bet I sound a bit like Walter to him lol! I’m trying to eat better and drink more water. I’m trying not to be a grump! Sometimes mending pains in the body includes mending the mind and soul too. Intangible pain, the pain we feel emotionally and spiritually, can manifest tangibly in the body. Grief is a big one for that! If you are grieving it’s important to allow yourself to feel it….work through it. I try to remember that everything is a form of energy to include pain.

How are you doing? I hope something I’ve shared resonates with you… I hope it helps. I think a lot of us are experiencing some kind of pain these days. You are not alone! Like my neighbor and I talked about the other day, the only way we are going to get through these times is together. One of the mottos for Grace Bible Church is “Better Together.” When we are in pain and grumpy the tendency many of us have is to isolate ourselves.

God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world. C.S Lewis

10 May 2022 The Wind

Hello there. How are you doing today? I hope you are well. The saga of spooky stuff at night continues. Last night it was a jump scare that startled both Link and I. Whatever is going on doesn’t feel malicious but is strange. Forces either within myself or outside myself are trying to communicate. This stuff was happening when I lived in Texas and has been a part of most of my life. I’ve always been really sensitive to energy in its various forms.

Yesterday in my internet scrollings I found this message from the Anasazi Foundation about the wind. What brought me to years was hearing “messages of the heart can change.”

https://youtu.be/8MGI7yp92YU – The legend of the wind by Good Buffalo Eagle – Native American Legend

Listening to this and thinking about my own experiences and thoughts about the purpose of our global winds, I thought about the Holy Spirit:

I can remember times of just wanting to drink in a breeze on a hot day. I can remember as a child playing with the winds…talking to them. I can remember cowering with my little family in the hallway of our house more than once for fear of our lives as powerful winds battered the house. I can remember the different sounds of breath from loved ones. Breath being the way we personally interact with the wind always moving around and through our bodies. Without the oxygen of the wind we cease to exist.

I asked myself why this was on my mind yesterday and the answer was because it’s something else in our shared existence that we have in common. We all bleed and we all must breathe. To me it’s not all about what makes us different in these times but about how we are the same….what we have in common.

These are just a few examples of warnings carried by the wind:

https://www.npr.org/sections/goatsandsoda/2021/05/30/1000530563/buried-alive-in-mongolias-worst-sandstorms-in-a-decade

https://amp.france24.com/en/live-news/20220505-thousands-sick-as-latest-severe-sandstorm-sweeps-across-iraq

https://www.usnews.com/news/top-news/articles/2021-12-15/dust-bowl-winds-hit-tornado-devastated-western-united-states?context=amp

With the way I have come to understand God and this earth is there are many warnings and after they go unheeded, things escalate.

A short walk:

When I saw clouds like this I used to become afraid
When wind and weather happens I pray for all those holding down the fort outside like trees, birds, small critters, insects and dogs and cats left outside…the homeless people with no shelter
Bands of life giving rain falling down
A little comic relief. This little tree got a pinwheel like a child might play with! Made me smile to see this little tree being loved! Part of the family!
I had to spend some time admiring the pine trees last night – this is amazing
A different pine trees fruit

https://youtu.be/mnVtTvINXpM – Rhythmic Tribal Sounds Earth Song – Mei-lan and Ali Pervez Mehdi

I Am In Everything – Mei- lan

https://youtu.be/KtlJ-28AxH8 – emotional music – I Am In Everything – Mei-lan

Hello to you. How has your day been? My day has been pretty good aside from being kind of grumpy from poor sleep and leg pain. I am posting this tonight as I will be busy tomorrow with church and family festivities. Happy Mother’s Day!

I have been exploring Mei-lan’s music today and thought this was a lovely song and title for celebrating our moms to include this earth. It’s also a beautiful understanding between my Dad and I that God is in everything. My Dad had to be both a Mom and a Dad for me when I was young. It’s important to acknowledge so many men like my Dad – put in the position having to fill both roles in a child’s life. Being a single parent can be so challenging!

This song brought tears to my eyes today. So lovely to hear the masculine and feminine harmonizing without words just sounds:

https://youtu.be/CafKRUvwQ2E – Mei-lan- Eternal Soul – with Ali Pervez Mehdi

A short walk:

Lots of activity in the skies today
A resting place for me
The neighbor this tree belongs to was out working today and we got to visit. He said this is his moms tree and she was actually able to celebrate her birthday and pose for a photo with the tree this year! It’s a crab apple tree he said. What a lovely Moms Day memory to have!
The flowers from my neighbor in the sun
Cheerful yellows
There was some wind when we were out and I just had to stand and listen to the music of these trees
I noticed these on a small tree we passed. Not sure what kind of tree it is. Look like little beans!
Some hallelujah on the way home. My cell phone camera doesn’t do what I see justice sometimes lol
“Happy Mom’s Day !”

A message that is often taught by mothers to their children. It’s easy to pray for, care and love those that give it back to us. We learn from both friend and foe: