15 July 2018 Getting Started (Painting)

Hello to you.  It’s Sunday morning and looks and feels like it’s going to be another scorcher for us.  Last night I put some water on the yard and you can hardly notice.  Aw well.  I know we aren’t alone with this hot summer.

Lots of weird dreams last night and the feeling I get quite often that someone besides the dogs, Kyle and I are in our room.  It was really strong last night.  My heart kind of startled after the lights were out and it sounded like someone walking in front of our floor fan.  There was also the non-tinnitis high pitch noise too I hear sometimes.  It sounds like someone screaming at a pitch too high for human ears.  You know the high pitched noise your t.v. makes sometimes or the sound of a light bulb warming up?  That sound.  It could just be the electronics but I don’t hear it all the time so not sure.  Neither of us slept very well last night.

On a silly note, I woke up in the middle of the night thinking of a song by Exile.  I used to sing to the neighbor girls using a jump rope as a microphone:

Exile – Kiss You All Over (original 1978)

Talk about a walk down memory lane!

This morning Kyle and I got started on our paintings together!  Just the first coats of Naples Yellow for him and Grape Taffy Purple for me.  He seems to have more of an idea of what he’s going to do next than I do lol.  Part of me wants to go primal and just put colored palm prints all over mine!  Honestly,  I’m thinking about doing the woman in the octagon.  It is such an intimidating thing this painting and canvas bit!  It’s so different than just sketching on a notepad or scratch piece of paper.  I am just excited we are finally doing something like this together – going to stay in that part of it and not worry about the rest!

Time to head out and get some chalk time in before it’s too hot.  Lots of love and hugs to you today!  Try something new that brings you joy today!

16 1 9 14 20 9 14 7

P A I N T I N G = 90/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

25 5 12 12 15 23

Y E L L O W = 92/11/2/1

(the song Yellow by Cold Play came on while we were doing our paintings LOL! Kyle was like “Really?!”)

16 21 18 16 12 5

P U R P L E = 88/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

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14 July 2018 Seeing Without Eyes

Hello there.  How are you doing?  It’s Saturday night and now that the sun is dimming, it’s finally cooler.  It was a scorcher again today!  I slept a lot today to try and shake this fatigue I’ve been feeling.

A message came to me as I was trying to drift off, “You don’t have to have eyes to see.  There is vision in feeling…the clouds use the winds to see as well as feel.”   Those who have lost their vision can be physically blind or spiritually bankrupt.  It’s so easy in this world to be tempted to give our souls away to people, places and things that don’t deserve them!

Something I’ve had to learn and relearn over and overdon’t give your personal power away! 

What came to mind with this message about vision is what often happens when I go outside with my head phones on, close my eyes and move my hands through the air around me.  Sometimes I will go out and it’s completely still, no air moving at all.  Then I’ll do that simple ritual I do and a breeze will start to flow through the trees and around me.  It feels like nature responding to my touch almost!  It’s a beautiful experience!  I often imagine I’m flying when this happens.  I’ll open my eyes and look up in the sky and all sorts of birdies will be soaring around above me.

In all honesty, I’m thinking they are enjoying a nice meal I’ve stirred up for them with my moving around!  It’s magical to watch anyway!

22 9 19 9 15 14

V I S I O N = 88/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

19 9 7 8 20

S I G H T = 63/9 cycle

2 12 9 14 4

B L I N D = 41/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

19 5 14 19 5 19

S E N S E S = 81/9 cycle

6 5 5 12 9 14 7

F E E L I N G = 58/13/4/2/1

5 13 15 20 9 15 14 19

E M O T I O N S = 110/2/1

19 25 13 2 15 12

S Y M B O L = 86/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 – 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

23 15 18 4

W O R D = 60/6/3 cycle

I’ve shared this here before, I just love this scene, I love this movie.  This scene shows what it’s like for me sometimes when I’m outside, there is music in the winds.  When we just allow ourselves to connect with the child within the world becomes a place where anything is possible:

August Rush Opening

1 July 2018 Look Within (Happy birthday wishes)

Our calendar message for July is:  “Look within.  The secret is inside you.” – Hui Neng

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you doing well in your where and when.  Last night I had a snippet of a dream about actress Maggie Smith of all people.  Something about her and selecting chocolate toffee bunnies lol.  I woke up before finding out what she picked out lol.  Today has been productive for us.  We got the grocery shopping done early.  We were remind why Kyle normally goes without me:

1 July 2018 – Kyle made the mistake of saying this little dragon looked sad. Darla had to come home with us. “Darla – They say I’m bold, fun and pink. I love to do puzzles , they make me think.” My birthday is May 25th.

I had to agree with him that going shopping with me is a lot like going with a toddler, “Daddy can we have this?! What about that?!” I wasn’t too bad though lol.  Other than our coming home with a sad looking pink dragon named Darla that we didn’t need, we spent about $153 which is pretty good for us.  We filled the car and it wasn’t too bad yet, $2.58 a gallon.  Wait til the 4th comes!  If it’s like other holidays, serious sticker shock will be happening at the gas pump!

Today is my mother-in-law Beth’s birthday and we will all be getting together for the 4th to celebrate her day, Kyle’s birthday (13th of July) and the other birthdays we missed and those yet to come later this summer.  It’s tricky getting everyone together so when we do, we have a great time!  Happy Birthday to Beth! Loving daughter, sister, wife, mom and friend.   She has walked with me through some serious trials and loves me still.

 

25 Aug 2009 – trip back in time. Beth and her beautiful Grandbaby Laci who was trying on some Mary Kay products for herself lol.

For the birthday girl – Beth introduced me to Glee and one of our special things was watching it together.  Love us some Blaine (Darren Criss)!

GLEE – Raise Your Glass (Full Performance) (Official Music Video)

24 June 2018 Dreams and “Nobody” (song/poem)

Hi there.  Hope this finds you well today.  I had quite a night last night.  Lots of dreams.

23 June 2018 – Only drawing from yesterday. It was just too hot to spend much time outside. “Keyhole in the sky.”

The first dream  was of an awkward introduction to a young dark-haired man who said his name was Alan.  It was like we were having a flying lesson at Hogwarts.  Before he told me his name he gave me a kiss.  We were like awkward teenagers meeting for the first time.

The second dream was about actually going to a Prince tribute concert I had been considering a couple of days ago on Facebook.  The man who was being Prince got lots of excitement – after the concert the fans ran up to him to get their pictures taken.

The third dream was about being with a younger David Bowie in a restaurant.  We were talking about something to do with a piece of paper that had a bunch of difficult questions being left for someone on a table.  He said he didn’t care if they got any of the answers right.  It was about them acknowledging the miracle of a piece of paper being specifically addressed to someone in a random restaurant and their finding it. It would be like you spontaneously deciding to go eat at McDonald’s and going to sit down with your food and finding a test addressed to you by name waiting at your table!  “I’m not trying to be clever, I’m an idiot most of the time,” he said.  Then we both started laughing really hard and I looked to my right and another version of David, older,  is sitting at the table next to us and they start laughing too.  While we were all laughing I felt a sharp scratch on my right ankle in my waking world and woke up.

Before heading out on the dog walk this morning this little poem/song came to me, I’ve given it the title Nobody.  I think it’s about the God of my understanding, energy.  Energy is everywhere and in everything and yet we can’t see all that is going on with it.  The tiny particles that fill the space in between objects, thoughts and deeds.  It is easy to take so much for granted about this life.  I try to remember that every little piece of how and why I am here is thanks to forces seen and unseen.  The trees, the clouds, the insects, the people and animals I love, the very air I breathe is all because of energy….because of God.

Nobody

“I am nobody of any consequence

A passing cloud

A persistent itch at the end of your nose

An unseen tug on the tip of your toes

A passing thought you might of had

That made you smile

Or made you real sad

I am nobody

And yet I’m everything.”

 

23 June 2018 – drawing I did yesterday. “Ghost food” is what I’m calling it lol.

1141 am – adding these drawings to this post.  The blue butterfly is a connection to Alice Through The Looking Glass and having a dream with Alan in it last night.  This drawing is about, to me, the transition from our being one form to another when we are through with this life:

23 June 2018 Music Makes Time Travelers Of Us All (James Corden and Paul McCartney), Sewing and Drawings

Hello to you.  How are you doing in your where and when as you visit here?  I hope you are well.  We are still drying our happy tears and glowing a bit from watching this video of James Corden and Paul McCartney carpooling down memory lane in song:

Paul McCartney Carpool Karaoke

Published on Jun 21, 2018

James Corden heads to Liverpool for a special day with Paul McCartney spent exploring the city of Paul’s youth, visiting his childhood home where he wrote music with John Lennon, performing songs in a local pub and of course driving around singing a few of Paul’s biggest hits. Pre-order Paul McCartney’s new album Egypt Station and download his two new songs “Come On To Me” and “I Don’t Know” here: https://paulmccartney.lnk.to/EgyptSta… – Watch The Late Late Show with James Corden’s episodes from London only on Sky One at 10pm.

Just like looking at a photograph, singing and or hearing a song can propel us through our time on this earth.  Music makes time travelers of all of us.  Watching this made my heart ache a bit because there aren’t very many like Paul left here.  Watching this also made me incredibly grateful we have songs of love, hope and unity to turn to and some of the folks who made them yet here to sing them with us!   Thank you for doing this James and Paul!

https://musicandmemory.org/ – great organization that uses music to help people regain some of what Alzheimer’s and dementia makes them lose.

I thought it was beautiful that the inspiration for this song came from Paul’s having a visit from his deceased mother in a dream.

22 June 2018 – drawing I did when it had finally cooled down last night!

Let It Be

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be,
There will be an answer, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be,
There will be an answer, let it be.

Songwriters: JOHN LENNON,PAUL MCCARTNEY
© Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
For non-commercial use only.
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19 June 2018 Digital Time Travel

Hello to you.  How is your here and now as you visit here?  I hope you are well in mind, body and spirit.  I hope if you have hit a rough patch in your life, whatever it is, that you have an excellent support system and a path out charted….that you are being loved through whatever you are facing.

In learning you will teach, and in teaching you will learn.
Phil Collins

May you experience each day as a sacred gift woven around the heart of wonder.
John O’Donohue

We’re all just walking each other home.
Ram Dass

I time traveled a bit this morning to 17 Sept 2015 when Kyle and I visited the Ft. Worth Botanical Gardens. This is so beautiful. If we lived in a non-drought part of the world I would love to have this in my backyard. Great for meditation!

Today I did some digital time traveling to the 1980’s and just a couple of years ago.  Isn’t it amazing how easily we can do that now?  The only glitch I have is I guess how I label my pictures when I save them.  I guess I’m using too many words which confuses my computer later when I go looking for things.   It’s almost to the point I want to go back to saving stuff on CD’s lol.

Since my formative years took place in the 1980’s, my favorite music and many of my best memories are locked into that time zone.  I think this is probably the case for folks my age.  The internet has lots of funny meme’s about the 1980’s.  Since I’m limited on my picture space, which I’ve been rapidly filling again lol, I’ll just share this one:

19 June 2018 – I was in an 80’s nostalgia mood this morning and found this – too funny!

Eddy Grant – Electric Avenue (Official Music Video)   – for those that don’t get the meme, this is the song it’s about

I try to listen to many different types of music from as many realms as possible, but few genres of music affect me as positively as music from the 80’s does.  A lot of the music I hear now sounds the same.  Every once in awhile I’ll hear something that catches me but a lot of times it’s older groups.

18 June 2018 Fragile Stasis (Drawing) and Stasis – Point of No Return (1993 song)

Just stopping by to say hello.  I hope this finds you well in mind, body and spirit.

18 June 2018 – Drawing I did this morning hoping rain clouds would come and wash it away….nope! I was thinking about the fragile stasis of our world bound together by the elements of nature.

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S T A S I S = 87/15/6/3 cycle

In the heat of summer boredom, the word Stasis took me to many different places.  On my digital travels I found this song done in 1993 that took me to familiar musical grounds.  It’s very reminiscent of the style of Hearts of Space, Art of Noise, Tangerine Dream, Vangelis, etc.  Hope you enjoy it too.

Stasis – Point Of No Return

sta·sis
[ˈstāsis]

NOUN
formal
technical
  1. a period or state of inactivity or equilibrium.
    “long periods of stasis” ·

    [more]
    “creative stasis”
    synonyms: inactivity · inaction · inactiveness · inertness · passivity · apathy ·

    [more]
    antonyms: activity · energy
  2. civil strife.

 

9 June 2018 Songs of our time – What Else Is There (Royksopp) and More Than This (The Cure)

I don’t know who wrote this.  I found it on the internet this morning without an author attached to it.  It was interesting to me:

Time
If the Particle in question
is to also move in time
it should change its energy
Or it stands still in time

Hello to you.  It’s morning in my here and now.  Already battling dust bunnies and ants but mercifully there is coffee and I am not the lone witness to these petty struggles lol!  How are you?  I hope this finds you well.

This morning I wanted a couple of songs for my post and What Else Is There by Royksopp and More Than This by the Cure stood out.  Songs with messages that speak to our current times.  The struggle I think so many, to include myself, are facing these days.  What else is there to this life?  Is there more than “this?”  What exactly is “this?”

For some the “this” seems to be a struggle from the moment they are born until the moment of their departure.  For some it seems only given a moment to be born and a few short days, months of years to struggle to be here and fade away.  For some the “this” is never knowing any pain, conflict or difficulty – a pampered and sheltered existence their entire lives.

Everyone seems to arrive and depart with assigned positions on the stage of life with very few roles being cast off to another player.  Painters painting, tradespeople trading, the usury using, talking heads talking, politicians politicking, soldiers soldiering, lawyers lawyering, police, fire and emergency responders flying with unseen wings from one crisis to another.  All the possible colors and textures of our skin be it human or otherwise the costumes we adorn for this blurring dance.   In between all “this,” the first of us be they of wings or fins, frantically sew all the holes we are tearing open across this planet closed with the beauty their existence.

Ever since last January I have experienced and sensed a big change in what “this” is for me personally.  I have drifted out to the darkness and looked over the edges quite a bit.  The tether that keeps me from drifting completely away made of family, friends, love, faith and hope.   I know I am extremely blessed to have this tether as far too many in this world don’t even know any of that exists!   I have seen many others also drifting out there in the confusion that is now America.  I think there is a great sense of futility in the air.  We must stay tethered to what matters most and the wisdom of the deepest part of our heart….our souls.

I’ve experienced, spoken and written many times that there is nothing of this world that can fill the void of spirit.  If you rely completely on other people, food, drink, places, things, conquests for power, do things that garner negative attention etc. to fill you up inside, you will always be left wanting more.  Just like any addiction, it takes bigger and bigger “doses” to achieve the same results until you finally realize there will never be enough to fill you up.   Then will come the questions I think people we are seeing that have lost hope are asking, “Is this it?!  Is there nothing more than this?!  What else is there?!  What do I have to do to feel alive?!”

Röyksopp – What Else Is There? (HD)

Lyrics

It was me on that road
But you couldn`t see me
Too many lights out, but nowhere near here

It was me on that road
Still you couldn`t see me
And then flashlights and explosions

Roads ends getting nearer
We cover distance but not together
I am the storm and I am the wonder
And the flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

I don’t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

It’s about you and the sun
A morning run
The story of my maker
What have I and what I ache for

I`ve got a golden ear
I cut and I spear
And what else is there
Roads and getting nearer
We cover distance still not together

If I am the storm if I am the wonder
Will I have flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

There is no room where I can go and
You`ve got secrets too

I don`t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

Songwriters: DANNY SHOSHAN,ROBERT HUXLEY,ROGER GREENAWAY,SVEIN BERGE,TOBJOR BRUNDTLAND,KARIN DREIGER,OLAF DREIGER,TONY MACAULEY
© Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.,Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC,Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

 

Sometimes I will grasp around for something to energize me, to make me happy and often find there is nothing.  So I go outside with my music and just flop down on my cot and look up or take off my shoes and just stand still with my arms raised to the sky.  The “this” I am seeking most often finds me then.   In the eyes of my husband and my dogs, in the songs of the birds, the buzzing of the bees, the dirt between my toes, the petals of the flowers, the whispers of the trees, the blazing sun, the gentle breeze that caresses my arm and the billowing clouds overhead all is “this”…God.  

 

8 June 2018 – Drawing yesterday. The word “corners” came to mind after I was done with it.

 

the cure – more than this

 

Lyrics

For this second of your life,

Tell me that its true,

Waiting for a sign,

That’s all I want of you.

Your heart hides a secret

A promise of what is,

Something more than this.

 

Just a second of your time,

Any one will do,

Taste of any other,

Is all I want from you,

You offer me the world,

And how can I resist

Something more than this?

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible,

Nothing as it seems

To see touch taste smell hear

But never know if its real

 

For this second of your life

Tell me if its true

Anyway we are

Is all I want of you

Your lips lies a secret

A promise of a kiss

Something more than this

 

Just a second of your time

Any one will do

To know any other is all I want for you

Giving me the world

Now I can’t resist

Something more than this

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible

Nothing as it seems

Never really understand what anything means

 

Another second of my life

Not knowing if its true

Make believe in nothing

Is all I want of you

Whisper me your secret

Whisper me your ears

Always something other

Something more than this…

 

Songwriters: JAMES SMITH,NATHAN BARDEEN,RORY DOLAN,TODD EISENKERCH

© Universal Music Publishing Group

For non-commercial use only.

Data From: LyricFind

 

 

5 June 2018 Rag Rug Project, Drawing and Paradise (Phil Collins)

Hello there.  How are you in this moment you visit here?  I hope you are well.  It’s been very hot here so I’ve been inside most of the day doing something I said I wouldn’t do again – make a rag rug.   It’s a pretty messy operation lol.  The hardest part is cutting the sheets up into strips so you can crochet them into the rug.  Here is a video I found early on when I first was trying to learn how to make them:

RagRugs

As the sun moved over the house, I decided to go outside and get some vitamin nature and draw with the chalks for a bit!

This morning just before doing breakfast dishes, Kyle and I, without knowing what the other was doing, walked towards our CD player at the same time to start some music!  Love that!  We decided to throw in our Phil Collins Greatest Hits CD and the very first song gave me goosebumps….Paradise.  I hadn’t heart it in a long time and it was so refreshing, yet poignant (very sad story in the song) to hear it again.  Sometimes we complain about such trivial things, the “first world problems” phrase comes to mind.  There are so many who survive with so little food, water, clothing, shelter and unconditional love.  It’s not that our problems don’t matter or shouldn’t be acknowledged but certainly not wallowed in for long.  Sometimes I am too good at wallowing.

This song is a musical reminder to be grateful for our blessings and to help others the best we can.  Sometimes, I’ve found just a kind word and taking a few moments to talk is worth all the money in the world you could give someone.   Sometimes all a soul needs is for someone to see them with the eyes of their heart.  To be acknowledged straight eye to eye and then to know for certain….”I exist.  I was here.” 

Phil Collins – Another Day In Paradise (Official Music Video)

Another Day in Paradise

Phil Collins

She calls out to the man on the street
‘Sir, can you help me?
It’s cold and I’ve nowhere to sleep,
Is there somewhere you can tell me?’

He walks on, doesn’t look back
He pretends he can’t hear her
Starts to whistle as he crosses the street
Seems embarrassed to be there

Oh think twice, it’s another day for you and me in paradise
Oh think twice, ’cause it’s just another day for you,
You and me in paradise, think about it

She calls out to the man on the street
He can see she’s been crying
She’s got blisters on the soles of her feet
She can’t walk but she’s trying

Oh think twice, ’cause it’s another day for you and me in paradise
Oh think twice, it’s just another day for you,
You and me in paradise, think about it

Oh Lord, is there nothing more anybody can do
Oh Lord, there must be something you can say

You can tell from the lines on her face
You can see that she’s been there
Probably been moved on from every place
Cause she didn’t fit in there

Oh think twice, ’cause another day for you and me in paradise
Oh think twice, it’s just another day for you,
You and me in paradise, just think about it, think about it

it’s just another day for you and me in paradise
it’s just another day for you and me in paradise, paradise
Just think about it, paradise, just think about it
Paradise, paradise, paradise

Songwriters: PHILLIP DAVID CHARLES COLLINS,WILLIE NORWOOD

© EMI Music Publishing,BMG RIGHTS MANAGEMENT US, LLC

For non-commercial use only.

Data from: LyricFind

 

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P A R A D I S E = 73/10/1

 

 

31 May 2018 Island of the Moon (Drawings) and Traveler (Paul Horn)

Hi there – just a quick note to share my drawings for today.  A friend suggested since the image from the dream I shared was stuck in my head to do a drawing of it.  My drawings here can’t really do justice to illustrate what I experienced but at least it’s out of my head LOL! I like the chalk drawing version.  We are going by Michael’s tomorrow and I plan to pick up some canvas.  I think I want to try to capture this vision in paint and see how that looks.

Spoke to my parents today to wish my Dad a happy birthday – so good to hear both my Dad and Mom’s voices and get caught up.  So grateful and felt so much love talking to them.  Dad was having a good day and was seriously envious of the dessert we were having in his honor – my chocolate chip cookies and vanilla ice cream!

31 May 2018 – Dad loves my chocolate chip cookies. We enjoyed them and some vanilla ice cream in honor of his special day. He was jealous lol!

Traveler   – Paul Horn

(look at the image, instead of a person in my drawings, there is an empty chair….I love it when I get lead to wondrous places)