12 July 2018 Double Rainbow on the Morning Walk

Hello!  We are just back from a walk with Link and Spot and were treated to a rare sight, a double rainbow!  One was bright and the other harder to see but it was there.  I was so excited I even stopped a neighbor as he drove by to ask if he saw the rainbow lol.  He smiled and said, “Yes I did!” I wasn’t sure we’d make it home in time to get a picture of them:

When your me and something like this happens where you’ve been drawing and or thinking about something and then a double rainbow appears, it feels like a conversation has occurred with God as I understand them.  They are saying with a colorful band in the sky “I am here.  I hear you.  I see you.  I will not only give you one rainbow but I will give you two!”  A reminder to slow down, let it go, look up and see the beauty of God in all creation! 

The three drawings here are me trying to work through finding out there was a reason I had a particular actor and his family on my mind these past couple of days.  I hadn’t checked on him in awhile to see what projects he was working on.  Well yesterday I decided to and found out there was another negative incident.  My prayers and positive intentions go out to him and his family.  What he is going through with anger resonates with me on so many levels and what his wife is having to go through resonates with my husband who is often my caretaker when I go off the rails.   I care more about this man as a person than I do as an actor and hope he can get what it is he needs in this life besides anger.

He and I need to sit on my back patio with all my chalks and draw together.  Chalk therapy with Jackie.

Egyptian archeologists found this massive black sarcophagus — and no one knows what’s inside

This was exciting to see – Kyle and I are hoping it’s some scrolls that avoided being burned in the main library of Alexandria or something!  WHAT’S IN THE BOX!!! 

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5 July 2018 Milk Glass Vase, Watching a Different Sort of Darren Criss, The Practice of Walking (Daily Good)

Hello to you.  Just a quick visit.  I’m really tired.  I haven’t had much sleep the past couple of days.  We had a really nice visit with Kyle’s family yesterday and that of course included lots of furry people too.  It was just nice to get caught up as we hadn’t seen each other in several months.  They understood that it was best to steer clear of us until my cycle was over.  So we had burgers and chicken from the grill, some potato and macaroni salads, the blueberry pie Beth made from scratch and my chocolate pudding pie.  We played  a round of Yahtzee and Kyle and his Dad were the only ones to actually roll Yahtzee’s lol!  There were far too many zero’s on my score sheet but it was so fun to play together.  I like the sound of the dice in the cup when you shake it for your roll lol!  I like my dice shaken but not stirred lool!

What is Yahtzee?

Yahtzee

Yahtzee
Yahtzee is a dice game made by Milton Bradley, which was first marketed as Yatzie by the National Association Service of Toledo, Ohio, in the early 1940s. Yatzie was included in a game set called LUCK – 15 Grand Dice Games. It was marketed under the name of Yahtzee by game entrepreneur Edwin S. Lowe in 1956. Lowe is also responsible for introducing Bingo to the U.S. market. The game is a development of earlier dice games such as Poker Dice, Yacht and Generala. It is also similar to Yatzy, which is popular in Scandinavia
This mornings drawing isn’t what I had wrote myself a note to draw.  I was supposed to draw a mermaid for my dear Cindy! I will be sure to do that after I’m rested so she actually looks like a mermaid!  I’m not firing on all cylinders lol!  One of the two milk glass pieces my Aunt Ruth gave me that belonged to my Grandparents made it into things today.  When you think of milk glass do you immediately think about dipping an oreo or something in a glass of milk?  Well there is a type of glass that is actually called Milk glass:

5 July 2018 Milk glass vase that belonged to Grandma and Grandpa Becker Alvarado TX

https://www.countryliving.com/shopping/antiques/g2965/milk-glass-facts/ – a vase like the one I have is actually in this article, valued at about $10.  It’s worth much more in sentimental value of course!
“Opaque Glass originated in 16th century Venice and came in a variety of colors, including white, pink, yellow, blue, and brown. The white variety beloved today rose to prominence during the Victorian era, when 
it was coveted as an economic dead-ringer for porcelain. (The Victorians also get credit for coining the term “milk glass.”) Its production and popularity waned during the Great Depression but saw a resurgence after World War II. Thanks to a frenzy of mass production during the 1950s and 1960s from companies such as Anchor Hocking, Fenton, and Westmoreland, the mid-century finds are readily available today—many for mere milk money. Here are some pretty pieces to add to your own collection.”
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Last night Mom Beth and I stayed up late and watched about half of The Assassination of Gianni Versace: American Crime Story starring Darren Criss (Blaine from Fox show Glee):https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Assassination_of_Gianni_Versace:_American_Crime_Story

The Assassination of Gianni Versace: American Crime Story is the second season of the FX true crime anthology television series American Crime Story. The season premiered on January 17, 2018,[1][2] and concluded on March 21, 2018. It consists of a total of 9 episodes,[3] and explores the murder of designer Gianni Versace by spree killer Andrew Cunanan, based on Maureen Orth‘s book Vulgar Favors: Andrew Cunanan, Gianni Versace, and the Largest Failed Manhunt in U.S. History.[2][4]

I normally don’t like to watch television shows with gun violence or based on real stories.  I used to but with the way things have gotten in this country, I don’t need it in my entertainment too.  This said, this was Darren Criss and Beth and I both have an appreciation for him ever since his role as Blaine on Glee.  While it was strangely delightful watching him dance around in a Speedo at one point, it was equally awful watching him murder people and be the kind of human being he was asked to be for this part.  At least they didn’t do the cardinal sin of showing the harming of a dog (physically.)  Ryan Murphy was at the helm of this production.  You could tell.  He knows how to do character development almost too well!  There were times as I was watching that I squirmed, felt a great awkwardness with watching Darren as Andrew being a sociopath and just never telling the truth.  I was physically uncomfortable, cringed and just felt so mortified for the people being portrayed that had once been alive and how Darren Criss’s character Andrew Cunanan destroyed them.

The last I saw of the show last night was the part that brought Beth and I both to tears and it was enough that I don’t know if I could watch anymore of the series.  It’s when he killed the young architect David Madson.  Ryan really put together a sequence for this that just really brought home the message that David was someone’s little boy once and he was dearly loved.   No matter how his Dad felt about David being gay, he loved him more than anything. 

Like I said, I don’t indulge and or relish watching gun violence in most everything now.  When the violent parts happened in the show, I kept saying to Beth, “this is why I like to watch baking and home decorating shows!”  I see someone being hurt, it’s like it’s happening to me.  This said, this scene I am sharing isn’t all about that.  It’s a painfully poignant scene where Andrew is gunning David down and in this process David is transported to one of his most special memories with his Dad.  He realizes he shouldn’t be there again but it brings him peace in the middle of yet another terrifying bit of time with Andrew and just before he dies:

American Crime Story Versace 2×04- Andrew kills David ( Ending Scene)

How do you smudge your soul after channeling someone like Andrew Cunanan?  I see young actors like Darren, Jonathan Rhys Meyers and others who take on these very dark aspects of human nature and I worry about them.  What is the aftercare for their soul after exposing it to such horror?  Even if it is “just pretend?”  I imagine it is probably therapeutic to some degree to be able to “let loose” of the shadow self.  I know when I’m allowed to really yell, scream or release anger I feel better afterwards but how do you bring things back to balance afterwards?  We’ve seen many instances of actors who just couldn’t get back to balance.  It’s very rare that someone can channel such a villain and not implode or explode afterwards.  People like Christopher Lee, Anthony Hopkins, Alan Rickman, Liam Neeson and Mads Mikkelsen don’t come along too often!

It is easier to build strong children than to repair broken men.
Frederick Douglas

Great article topic from the daily good to share!

http://www.dailygood.org/2018/07/05/the-practice-of-walking/this is one of the most important things in my sanity toolkit.  A 40 min walk is great therapy!

But the beauty is in the walking — we are betrayed by destinations. –Gwyn Thomas

 

The Practice of Walking

–by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee & Hilary Hart, syndicated from heartfulnessmagazine.com, Jul 05, 2018

In the busy-ness of our contemporary life, we are drawn into ceaseless activity that often separates us from the deeper dimension of ourselves. With our smartphones and computer screens, we often remain caught on the surface of our lives amidst the noise and chatter that continually distract us, that stops us from being rooted in our true nature. Unaware we are drowned deeper and deeper in a culture of soulless materialism.

At this time I find it more and more important to have outer activities that can connect us to what is more natural and help us live in relationship to the deep root of our being, and in an awareness of the moment which alone can give real meaning to our everyday existence. Over the years I have developed a number of simple practices that bring together action and a quality of heart-centered attention, or deepening awareness, that can nourish our lives in hidden ways. These activities, like walking, cooking with love and attention, can reconnect us with the web of life, our natural interconnection with life in its beauty and wonder. They can help us ‘declutter’ our outer life and instead become rooted in what is simple and real. One of these practices, which combines action with awareness, is walking.


Walk as if you are kissing
the Earth with your feet.

—Thich Nhat Hanh


I have always loved to walk early in the morning, to sense the Earth at the beginning of a day, to feel Her pulse, Her beauty and magic, before thoughts and demands clutter my day. Waking early, I have a hot cup of tea, meditate in silence, and then, as soon as the first light comes, I walk down the hill to the road beside the wetlands where I live. Sometimes the frost is sparkling around me, sometimes the water is clouded with fog, an egret appearing white against the reeds. This is another time of silent meditation, walking, breathing, feeling the Earth. I try to be as empty as possible, just to be present in the half-light, aware of what is around me. Prayer, meditation, presence, awareness – these are just words for a practice that immerses me in a mystery we call nature. Here the sacred speaks to me in its own language, and I try to listen.

Now I live beside the wetlands, and the tidal water is part of this meeting, this communion. Other times, in other landscapes, it has been rivers and streams, the sounds of waterfowls’ wings, the dawn rising across meadows. Or in forests, a different bird chorus, animals skittering across the path, a deer and her young. Always it is a listening awareness, a deep receptivity to what is around me, an honoring of a world other than people. It is a remembrance of what is essential, elemental, and its nourishment carries me through the day. It is a return to the sacred, sensed and felt, without words or thoughts – a primal consciousness as if of the first day.

This is a practice that has been with me since my teens – when I first started to meditate I also needed to walk. It was not taught or learned, but came as a need, a way to be, an antidote to much of the world around me – a world of people and problems, demands and desires. When one foot follows the other and the day has hardly begun, it seems these demands cannot touch me, as if I am immersed in something simpler, more essential. Placing each foot on the earth is a practice, but a practice that comes from my own roots, not a book or a teacher. Later I came to hear it called “walking in a sacred manner,” and it is sacred, a return to what is sacred. But it also is deeper or more primal than any purpose. Nature speaks to me and I listen. Nature calls and something deep within me responds, and I just need to give it space. I am part of a life far greater than any ‘me’.



The Earth gives us sustenance: the air we breathe, the food we eat. She is generous in so many ways, even as we forget Her and abuse Her. But there is also this deeper nourishment, this invisible, intangible giving. My early morning walk is a communion – if I am receptive, it is a wine drunk deeply. It comes through Her landscape, moss dripping from the trees, white and pink blossoms welcoming spring, the cry of a sea bird. Those first rays of sunrise are always a blessing. I do not understand this with my mind, but my soul feels it, needs it. Once again we are back at the beginning, in that elemental world we never truly leave. Our present culture may have forgotten it, disowned it, covered it over, may pretend we no longer need this communion, but my soul and my feet know otherwise. This is the landscape of the soul as much as it is the wetlands stretching towards the ocean. But it is also any landscape we walk. A walk on city streets is made of the same elements: feet touching ground, the rhythm of walking, breathing, the same sky overhead, the wind touching the face.

I would like to say it is easy, but so often I have to remember to reconnect, to empty the clutter of the coming day from my mind, my everyday thoughts. I have to stay in a place of awareness, sense my feet, feel the air, listen. I have to remember that I am not separate but part of everything around me. I have to push aside this great myth of separation, the great untruth. We are the air we breathe, the earth we touch, the same one life, alive in so many ways. We are the Earth awakening in the early morning, just as we are the buds breaking into color in the spring. To be fully alive is to feel how we are part of this embracing mystery. My morning walk is a remembrance, a reconnection, experienced in the body and felt in the soul.


So often I have to remember to reconnect,
to empty the clutter of the coming day from my mind,
my everyday thoughts.
I have to stay in a place of awareness,
sense my feet, feel the air, listen.
I have to remember that I am not separate
but part of everything around me.


Walking Practice


Walking reinforces our connection to the Earth, one step at a time. Attuning to the rhythms of one’s feet, the swaying of one’s arms, the in and out of breath, the ways walking moves us through time and space, helps develop this relationship, reminding us consciously and unconsciously just how much a part of nature we are. Nature is cyclic and rhythmic, and walking – when we are not focused on where we are going – attunes us to this non-linear reality.

Walking practice is perhaps best begun alone, when the intimacy of nature’s communication can be sensed without distraction. Just as when we meet a lover in the early part of a relationship, we do not want to share that meeting with others. Choose a time when you can be alone, when listening, hearing, and sensing can take place. Perhaps the start or the end of the day, before life’s clamoring takes hold or after it lets go. Lunchtime or an afternoon break from work might be more difficult, but if that is the time available, then make sure the walk is long enough for you to let go of work thoughts or tensions of the day.

Turn off the cell phone, or better yet, leave it at home or the office. There is a way that the vulnerabilities that come with being alive have been squelched by our daily-life safety tools, like cell phones. If you can be without the protection and constant access they provide, try it. Social media will not miss documentation from your walk.

Find a park or a path through quiet woods if you can. Let the rhythm of your steps soothe your mind and create a space for listening. Feel how your feet connect with the earth, how the air moves through your lungs. Follow your attention as it is drawn inward and outward both – to the inner movements of your body and to the feeling of warmth or cold, the sight of birds, the sound of a distant plane. Let your thoughts and impressions move through and out, as part of the natural rhythm of walking. Just as we come back to the breath in silent meditation, return your attention to your feet and their meeting and letting go of the ground.

Commit to walking every day if you can. Walk without expectation, with an attitude of openness and gratitude. If you feel a longing inside you – a need to connect, a desire to be closer to nature – let it motivate and guide you.

The nineteenth-century existential philosopher Søren Kierkegaard once wrote in a letter to his niece, “Every day, I walk myself into a state of well-being and walk away from every illness. I have walked myself into my best thoughts, and I know of no thought so burdensome that one cannot walk away from it.”


Syndicated from Heartfulness MagazineLLEWELLYN VAUGHAN-LEE & HILARY HART explore the contemplative, spiritual value of walking in Nature, and share with us a simple walking practice.

 

 

 

1 July 2018 Look Within (Happy birthday wishes)

Our calendar message for July is:  “Look within.  The secret is inside you.” – Hui Neng

Hello to you.  Hope this finds you doing well in your where and when.  Last night I had a snippet of a dream about actress Maggie Smith of all people.  Something about her and selecting chocolate toffee bunnies lol.  I woke up before finding out what she picked out lol.  Today has been productive for us.  We got the grocery shopping done early.  We were remind why Kyle normally goes without me:

1 July 2018 – Kyle made the mistake of saying this little dragon looked sad. Darla had to come home with us. “Darla – They say I’m bold, fun and pink. I love to do puzzles , they make me think.” My birthday is May 25th.

I had to agree with him that going shopping with me is a lot like going with a toddler, “Daddy can we have this?! What about that?!” I wasn’t too bad though lol.  Other than our coming home with a sad looking pink dragon named Darla that we didn’t need, we spent about $153 which is pretty good for us.  We filled the car and it wasn’t too bad yet, $2.58 a gallon.  Wait til the 4th comes!  If it’s like other holidays, serious sticker shock will be happening at the gas pump!

Today is my mother-in-law Beth’s birthday and we will all be getting together for the 4th to celebrate her day, Kyle’s birthday (13th of July) and the other birthdays we missed and those yet to come later this summer.  It’s tricky getting everyone together so when we do, we have a great time!  Happy Birthday to Beth! Loving daughter, sister, wife, mom and friend.   She has walked with me through some serious trials and loves me still.

 

25 Aug 2009 – trip back in time. Beth and her beautiful Grandbaby Laci who was trying on some Mary Kay products for herself lol.

For the birthday girl – Beth introduced me to Glee and one of our special things was watching it together.  Love us some Blaine (Darren Criss)!

GLEE – Raise Your Glass (Full Performance) (Official Music Video)

25 June 2018 Unwanted (Dream), Haunted Dolls and Insight About Mexico ( Mexican Elections: Last Week Tonight with John Oliver (HBO)

Hello to you.  How are you doing?  I’m doing pretty good today.  We had a blessing of a smidge of rain we desperately needed coming through this morning.  It will probably be completely evaporated by the time I finish writing this but it was an answered prayer!

Had an interesting dream this morning just before waking up.  It was about a little girl and a baby that looked like a doll but it was a child.  It seemed unwanted.  I picked up and examined the baby and it had a golden eye – two different colored eyes.  Then there was a soldier-like man who had the same colored eyes that seemed to blame the little girl for the baby existing.

My husband tells me that I must have subconsciously been picking up on goings-on from his playing the Kingdom Hearts video game lol.  It could be my subconscious processing a bunch of videos we’ve seen lately with haunted baby dolls.  We are both very highly suspicious of most of these types of videos but every once and awhile you will see one that gives you pricklies on the back of the neck!

When I was younger I used to have a lot of dreams about objects doing things without anybody being there.  For example I remember having a dream about my red Datsun 210 starting by itself and driving into the driveway.  Another was of walking by the front of my childhood home and the living room curtains moving when nobody was in the house.  The creepiest was one of being in our basement and the vacuum cleaner lifting off of the ground by itself and in the dream my thinking my birth mom was the one doing it.

Anyhew….if I was a spirit and wanted to keep an eye on my prey and or majorly mess with somebody I’d get in a doll I think lol.   It wouldn’t have to be like Chuckie or anything.  Some of the videos we’ve seen are so subtle the people taking the videos don’t even notice the movement until somebody else says something or they play back the video.  I’m still very suspicious of most of them being just a way to get attention.

10 Haunted Dolls Caught On Tape

Changing subjects.

This morning Kyle and I were talking about immigration again and what would be the motivating factors for people wanting to come to this country.  We were pleased to see John OIiver has just put out a video exploring what’s going on in Mexico with regards to their political system.  After watching this video, I can see many motivators for someone to want to leave Mexico.  They have had 113 politicians murdered this election season alone!  As I’ve mentioned before, and most already know this, if someone can tick off the hierarchy of needs checklist they are most likely going to stay where they are and flourish.   Sadly and ironically it’s not much different for these folks here or in Mexico!  I was thinking this morning that instead of using all that money to build a wall, why not use those funds to collaborate to make both Mexico and America better countries?  I know, that would be too easy….

24 June 2018 – my drawing after it cooled down…”Rise.”

My prayer for the Mexican people and their upcoming elections is that whatever the outcome, it will be for their very best.  I want better for these hard working and in some cases very desperate people.  They deserve better!  (So do we but that’s a box I’m not going to open!) 

Mexican Elections: Last Week Tonight with John Oliver (HBO) – WARNING – this video has a very inappropriate Santa Claus in it!

23 June 2018 Music Makes Time Travelers Of Us All (James Corden and Paul McCartney), Sewing and Drawings

Hello to you.  How are you doing in your where and when as you visit here?  I hope you are well.  We are still drying our happy tears and glowing a bit from watching this video of James Corden and Paul McCartney carpooling down memory lane in song:

Paul McCartney Carpool Karaoke

Published on Jun 21, 2018

James Corden heads to Liverpool for a special day with Paul McCartney spent exploring the city of Paul’s youth, visiting his childhood home where he wrote music with John Lennon, performing songs in a local pub and of course driving around singing a few of Paul’s biggest hits. Pre-order Paul McCartney’s new album Egypt Station and download his two new songs “Come On To Me” and “I Don’t Know” here: https://paulmccartney.lnk.to/EgyptSta… – Watch The Late Late Show with James Corden’s episodes from London only on Sky One at 10pm.

Just like looking at a photograph, singing and or hearing a song can propel us through our time on this earth.  Music makes time travelers of all of us.  Watching this made my heart ache a bit because there aren’t very many like Paul left here.  Watching this also made me incredibly grateful we have songs of love, hope and unity to turn to and some of the folks who made them yet here to sing them with us!   Thank you for doing this James and Paul!

https://musicandmemory.org/ – great organization that uses music to help people regain some of what Alzheimer’s and dementia makes them lose.

I thought it was beautiful that the inspiration for this song came from Paul’s having a visit from his deceased mother in a dream.

22 June 2018 – drawing I did when it had finally cooled down last night!

Let It Be

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be,
There will be an answer, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be,
There will be an answer, let it be.

Songwriters: JOHN LENNON,PAUL MCCARTNEY
© Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind

17 June 2018 Drawings and Positive Reality Television

Hello to you.  Not tired yet so figured I would go ahead and put this together now.  Today has been a good day.  A cloud went by this morning and left a couple droplets for us but nothing heavy yet.  We are getting those fissures in the backyard where the earth splits wide and deep enough I can put an entire tree branch down in it!  It’s feast or famine for us when it comes to rain.

Kyle and I started watching a fun show called 100% Hotter on Netflix.  It’s one of those shows where a train wreck of a person shows up dressed how they like to dress and then gets transformed by a fashion consultant, hair dresser and makeup artist.  We are watching this show for the same reason we love the Queer Eye show and loved Tattoo Nightmares.  We enjoy watching shows where help people become a better version of themselves.  It’s uplifting to watch caring people help someone who doesn’t have a very high opinion of themselves or don’t really know that they are amazing.

There are so many young people in our world that use over the top hair, makeup, style/clothes as literal body armor to get through this life when they should be able to be who they are without all that.  It’s fun to dress up for cosplay, for Halloween or parties but some people wear these things all the time.  It’s truly amazing to see who has been hiding when they remove the fake tan, the layers of foundation, eye makeup and lipstick.  Such truly beautiful spirits.  We are about 5 episodes into the show and the only complaints we really have are some of the clothing choices and the rating system where they go and ask people to rate how they see the people they are working with.  Sometimes that is pretty brutal.  Other than that is just amazing what these folks manage to do for these people that come in.

100% Hotter Wednesday at 8pm on 5STAR

We are really enjoying Queer Eye for so many reasons.  They are not just taking somebody and dressing them up.  These guys are tackling the whole person and have been touching on some very sensitive issues in such a beautiful way.  They have dealt with the really sensitive subject of the relationship between blacks and police.  They have dealt with Christianity and homosexuality.  They have shown someone coming out after many years to their parent.  They have dealt with isolation and have gotten into the “why’s” behind why people sometimes let themselves go or isolate themselves from the world.  Kyle and I watch this show and are like, we need these guys to come to our house.  They also have done some AMAZING transformations to the living spaces of the people they work with.

Queer Eye | Official Trailer [HD] | Netflix

I found this song I’ve never heard before and thought it was perfect for this theme:

Francesca Battistelli Free To Be Me Lyrics

“Free To Be Me”

 

At twenty years of age I’m still looking for a dream
A war’s already waged for my destiny
But You’ve already won the battle
And You’ve got great plans for me
Though I can’t always see’Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I’m so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I’m free to be me

When I was just a girl I thought I had it figured out
My life would turn out right, and I’d make it here somehow
But things don’t always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I’m so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I’m free to be me

And you’re free to be you

Sometimes I believe that I can do anything
Yet other times I think I’ve got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and You tell me
That I’ve got all You seek
And it’s easy to believe
Even though

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I’m so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I’m free to be me

 

 

13 June 2018 Morning Drawing – Cloud In Your Tea

13 June 2018 – A smile and hello to you.

Hello there.  How are you doing?  I hope this finds you in good health and spirit.

It’s another stagnant and hot morning/day here in North Texas.  I decided I’d better water a little morning while it was cool.  I worry about all our trees, plants, birds and insects when it’s dry like it is.  We are under the same drought conditions we’ve been in since we moved here so it was a hand-held watering.   I don’t know if it will help, trees need a lot of water.

13 June 2018 – Our little baby crepe myrtle still finding a way to bloom even with the drought. They are some of my favorite beings here in Texas.

This morning I found out that on the 8th they released a documentary about Mr. Fred Rogers!  I had just posted about him on the 10th! Funny how that works.  I had tears streaming down my face watching it.  It’s not showing in any theatres around here, so I’ll be looking for it on streaming services and eventually hard copy.  I don’t know about anyone else, but I sure miss his gentle, kind, loving spirit and his important messages.  In my opinion, there isn’t anyone in our world right now that has been able to pick up the mantle he carried while he was here:

WON’T YOU BE MY NEIGHBOR? – Official Trailer [HD] – In Select Theaters June 8

I did a drawing this morning and there is a lot of that surrealism stuff I was talking about yesterday going on in it.  I was thinking of a quote from Thich Nhat Hanh about a cloud becoming the tea in your cup:

http://lifebylife.com/2012/05/its-like-a-cloud-in-the-sky-by-thich-nhat-hanh/

“It’s like a cloud in the sky. When the cloud is no longer in the sky, it doesn’t mean the cloud has died. The cloud is continued in other forms like rain or snow or ice. So you can recognize your cloud in her new forms. If you are very fond of a beautiful cloud and if your cloud is no longer there, you should not be sad. Your beloved cloud might have become the rain, calling on you, ‘darling, darling, don’t you see me in my new form?’ And then you will not be stuck with grief and despair. Your beloved one continues always. Meditation helps you recognize her continued presence in new forms. And our nature is the nature of no birth and no death…the nature of a cloud also. A cloud can never die. A cloud can become snow, or hail…or rain. But it is impossible for a cloud to pass from being into non-being. And that is true with your beloved one. She has not died. She is continued in many new forms. And you can look deeply and recognize herself in you and around you.” -TNH

Transcribed from a conversation between Oprah Winfrey and Buddhist Monk, Author and Nobel Peace Prize nominated Peace Activist, Thich Nhat Hanh (pronounced “Tick Not Han”)

 

3 12 15 21 4

C L O U D = 55/10/1

14 5 9 7 8 2 15 18

N E I G H B O R = 78/15/6 (3 cycle)

19 13 9 12 5

S M I L E = 58/13/4/2/1

 

12 June 2018 Surrealism – A Feeling Too

Hello to you.  How are you doing in your here and now?  I’m feeling like a word that isn’t normally attributed to a state of being, surrealism.   Surrealist art is a lot like my dreams…my life lately.  A vast canvas covered with unrelated images that when strung together somehow make sense.  The world we are sharing right now is very surreal to me most of the time.  So many things that make sense and so many more that don’t all going on at once.  Such a mess!

On the one hand we have President Trump and Kim Jong Un shaking hands – which like Dennis Rodman I’m very pleased about and hope it was genuine (https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/trump-kim-summit-trump-says-us-will-end-its-%E2%80%98war-games%E2%80%99-with-south-korea/ar-AAyx0hn?OCID=ansmsnnews11)  and on the other we have ancient trees dying in Africa possibly because of climate change (https://www.popsci.com/baobab-tree-climate-change).  So many extremes all vying for time on the world stage.  No wonder so many people are bipolar and have ADD nowadays!  Up!  Down!  Look here!  Now there!  Forget you saw or heard that!  Now for something completely different!

19 21 18 18 5 1 12 9 19 13

S U R R E A L I S M = 135/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle – makes sense this sort of thing would be a cycle sort of word!

http://www.theartstory.org/movement-surrealism.htm – good article about this art movement actually is if your curious

Exploring Surrealism with Peter Capaldi | Unlock Art – I found this and had to share.  Peter explaining this art form makes it a little more wonderful to learn about.

 

My chalk drawings from the past couple of days are fading and nothing has come to me to put to the slab or paper.  My thoughts have been murky.  My dreams have been fluid and very little to hold on to and write down in my dream journal.   I am not worried.  I need this rest period.  The veil will open.  The curtains will part and show me things to share.  For now it’s sleep, words, numbers, concepts and may a random picture or two.

Surreal – by Jackie

“Surreal is the distance between the grass and the dew

The random points of light when assembled

That make me and you

Am I walking or am I gliding

In the stitches of space

Or am I just a particle hiding…..”

 

I painted this back in April of this year. Yes, that sparkle is fabric paint I included lol. The purple wisps were inspired by the movie The Arrival. One of the weird images to come out of my “long walk” recently. I’m almost ready to bust out one of the blank canvas we bought and see what comes.

Hugs and positive vibes through the wires!

10 June 2018 It’s Such A Good Feeling

“What are you grateful for today?! Find one thing and hold on to it and watch how it becomes a blossoming field. “

 

Hello to you.  How are you?  A song is stuck in my head as I’m writing.  It’s that little song Fred Rogers used to sing:

http://pbskids.org/rogers/songLyricsItsSuchAGoodFeeling.html – If you go to this link, you can hear him actually sing it.  There are other songs also.

It’s such a good feeling to know you’re alive.
 It’s such a happy feeling: You’re growing inside.
 And when you wake up ready to say,
 “I think I’ll make a snappy new day.”
 It’s such a good feeling, a very good feeling,
 The feeling you know that we’re friends.

It’s Such a Good Feeling
By Fred M. Rogers
© 1970 

Singing is a way to express how we feel and what’s important to us. These songs convey many of Mister Rogers’ timeless messages about children and childhood. Read more.

Fred Rogers is one of those famous people that just speaks to and comforts the little girl that still lives inside of me.  I hear him and I almost instantly start tearing up!

Had a couple fun dreams.  One had something about Lady Gaga playing video games and apparently she was quite good at it!  There was something about a flashing light.  Then just before I woke up this morning, I dreamt about actor Robin Williams.  Kyle and I went to some place that had valet parking for cars in a tower like building in the sky.  The valet only asked for $5 for his services.  We weren’t dressed in fancy clothes.  We wore jeans and polo shirts and were walking through some elaborate lobby to the main theater.  Then there was Robin.  He had elaborate hair swooping in all different directions and was dressed in a fancy sparkling gold outfit.  He was being goofy as always and as the show was going to begin….I woke up.

DANGIT!

Why does that always seem to happen to me?!  Waking up just as the good part of a dream is about to begin?!  May be the keepers of those realms are worried I would want to stay.

I think the Robin Williams dream was triggered by seeing a clip of him on a video we were watching on You Tube yesterday and because his name has been coming up a lot in lieu of the recent public figures who have taken their own lives.  His death really hurt but I understand his wanting to go out on his own terms in lieu of suffering through Parkinson’s disease!  Sometimes I think we are kinder to our pets when it comes to terminal or debilitating illnesses than we are to human beings.

This is a funny story we had never heard about his Mrs. Doubtfire role.  While dressed up as Mrs. Doubtfire, he went into a sex shop in San Francisco!

Robin Williams [EXPLICIT] Mrs. Doubtfire Visits Sex Shop // SiriusXM // Town Hall

 

9 June 2018 Songs of our time – What Else Is There (Royksopp) and More Than This (The Cure)

I don’t know who wrote this.  I found it on the internet this morning without an author attached to it.  It was interesting to me:

Time
If the Particle in question
is to also move in time
it should change its energy
Or it stands still in time

Hello to you.  It’s morning in my here and now.  Already battling dust bunnies and ants but mercifully there is coffee and I am not the lone witness to these petty struggles lol!  How are you?  I hope this finds you well.

This morning I wanted a couple of songs for my post and What Else Is There by Royksopp and More Than This by the Cure stood out.  Songs with messages that speak to our current times.  The struggle I think so many, to include myself, are facing these days.  What else is there to this life?  Is there more than “this?”  What exactly is “this?”

For some the “this” seems to be a struggle from the moment they are born until the moment of their departure.  For some it seems only given a moment to be born and a few short days, months of years to struggle to be here and fade away.  For some the “this” is never knowing any pain, conflict or difficulty – a pampered and sheltered existence their entire lives.

Everyone seems to arrive and depart with assigned positions on the stage of life with very few roles being cast off to another player.  Painters painting, tradespeople trading, the usury using, talking heads talking, politicians politicking, soldiers soldiering, lawyers lawyering, police, fire and emergency responders flying with unseen wings from one crisis to another.  All the possible colors and textures of our skin be it human or otherwise the costumes we adorn for this blurring dance.   In between all “this,” the first of us be they of wings or fins, frantically sew all the holes we are tearing open across this planet closed with the beauty their existence.

Ever since last January I have experienced and sensed a big change in what “this” is for me personally.  I have drifted out to the darkness and looked over the edges quite a bit.  The tether that keeps me from drifting completely away made of family, friends, love, faith and hope.   I know I am extremely blessed to have this tether as far too many in this world don’t even know any of that exists!   I have seen many others also drifting out there in the confusion that is now America.  I think there is a great sense of futility in the air.  We must stay tethered to what matters most and the wisdom of the deepest part of our heart….our souls.

I’ve experienced, spoken and written many times that there is nothing of this world that can fill the void of spirit.  If you rely completely on other people, food, drink, places, things, conquests for power, do things that garner negative attention etc. to fill you up inside, you will always be left wanting more.  Just like any addiction, it takes bigger and bigger “doses” to achieve the same results until you finally realize there will never be enough to fill you up.   Then will come the questions I think people we are seeing that have lost hope are asking, “Is this it?!  Is there nothing more than this?!  What else is there?!  What do I have to do to feel alive?!”

Röyksopp – What Else Is There? (HD)

Lyrics

It was me on that road
But you couldn`t see me
Too many lights out, but nowhere near here

It was me on that road
Still you couldn`t see me
And then flashlights and explosions

Roads ends getting nearer
We cover distance but not together
I am the storm and I am the wonder
And the flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

I don’t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

It’s about you and the sun
A morning run
The story of my maker
What have I and what I ache for

I`ve got a golden ear
I cut and I spear
And what else is there
Roads and getting nearer
We cover distance still not together

If I am the storm if I am the wonder
Will I have flashlights, nightmares
And sudden explosions

There is no room where I can go and
You`ve got secrets too

I don`t know what more to ask for
I was given just one wish

Songwriters: DANNY SHOSHAN,ROBERT HUXLEY,ROGER GREENAWAY,SVEIN BERGE,TOBJOR BRUNDTLAND,KARIN DREIGER,OLAF DREIGER,TONY MACAULEY
© Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.,Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC,Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
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Sometimes I will grasp around for something to energize me, to make me happy and often find there is nothing.  So I go outside with my music and just flop down on my cot and look up or take off my shoes and just stand still with my arms raised to the sky.  The “this” I am seeking most often finds me then.   In the eyes of my husband and my dogs, in the songs of the birds, the buzzing of the bees, the dirt between my toes, the petals of the flowers, the whispers of the trees, the blazing sun, the gentle breeze that caresses my arm and the billowing clouds overhead all is “this”…God.  

 

8 June 2018 – Drawing yesterday. The word “corners” came to mind after I was done with it.

 

the cure – more than this

 

Lyrics

For this second of your life,

Tell me that its true,

Waiting for a sign,

That’s all I want of you.

Your heart hides a secret

A promise of what is,

Something more than this.

 

Just a second of your time,

Any one will do,

Taste of any other,

Is all I want from you,

You offer me the world,

And how can I resist

Something more than this?

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible,

Nothing as it seems

To see touch taste smell hear

But never know if its real

 

For this second of your life

Tell me if its true

Anyway we are

Is all I want of you

Your lips lies a secret

A promise of a kiss

Something more than this

 

Just a second of your time

Any one will do

To know any other is all I want for you

Giving me the world

Now I can’t resist

Something more than this

 

Make believe in magic

Make believe in dreams

Make believe impossible

Nothing as it seems

Never really understand what anything means

 

Another second of my life

Not knowing if its true

Make believe in nothing

Is all I want of you

Whisper me your secret

Whisper me your ears

Always something other

Something more than this…

 

Songwriters: JAMES SMITH,NATHAN BARDEEN,RORY DOLAN,TODD EISENKERCH

© Universal Music Publishing Group

For non-commercial use only.

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