16 Nov 2018 Mother Earth

16 Nov 2018 Jackie painting outside with fabric paint Alvarado TX DSC_0257 – used up the last of the fabric paint I had. An abstract interpretation of the mother we all share….earth.

What follows here may or may not make any sense to you.  It’s just come to me to put this together and put it out into the blogosphere and hope it helps somehow.  What has been coming to me with these numbers and words is we are tasking nature to a breaking point and cannot delay or procrastinate change much longer.  The earth doesn’t understand delays and or excuses we might make to put off what is hard but must be done.

witch mother in Simple Gematria equals: 142 *52  – phrase that came up in my meditations recently and I was surprised it had the same value as earth only because I had never put the two together. 

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52*

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

mother earth in Simple Gematria equals: 131

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

human in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

soul in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

spirit of the earth in Simple Gematria equals: 197

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 646

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

*This phrase that came to me thinking about our relationship with the earth.  We have become estranged from whom all of what we are and shall ever be – the earth. 

who suffers the works of man in Simple Gematria equals: 308

who suffers the works of women in Simple Gematria equals: 350

those who cannot speak in Simple Gematria equals: 232

the language of the trees in Simple Gematria equals: 222

all men women and their children in Simple Gematria equals: 279

= 1391/491/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

http://www.thefinertimes.com/Middle-Ages/witches-and-witchcraft-in-the-middle-ages.html – interesting article about the history of what happened to people who were declared to be witches (wise women).

wise women in Simple Gematria equals: 126 (god in Simple Gematria equals: 26)

midwife in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

=195/69/15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

wise wom·an
[wīz ˈwo͝omən]

NOUN
wise women (plural noun)
  1. a woman considered to be knowledgeable in matters such as herbal healing, magic charms, or other traditional lore.
    synonyms:
    prophet · prophetess · seer · sibyl · augur · wise man · wise woman · sage · oracle · prognosticator · prophesier · forecaster of the future · diviner · fortune teller · ·

    [more]
    crystal gazer · clairvoyant · psychic · spiritualist · medium · palmist · palm reader · spaeman · spaewife · haruspex · vaticinator · oracler
    mother in Simple Gematria equals: 79
    father in Simple Gematria equals: 58
    brother in Simple Gematria equals: 86
    sister in Simple Gematria equals: 90
    stepmother in Simple Gematria equals: 139
    stepfather in Simple Gematria equals: 118
    children in Simple Gematria equals: 73
    grandfather in Simple Gematria equals: 102
    grandmother in Simple Gematria equals: 123
    aunt in Simple Gematria equals: 56
    uncle in Simple Gematria equals: 55
    relative in Simple Gematria equals: 92
    family in Simple Gematria equals: 66
    = 1137/12/6/3 cycle
    friend in Simple Gematria equals: 56
    neighbor in Simple Gematria equals: 78
    = 134/44/8/4/2/1
    city in Simple Gematria equals: 57
    state in Simple Gematria equals: 65
    country in Simple Gematria equals: 116
    home in Simple Gematria equals: 41
    house in Simple Gematria equals: 68
    world in Simple Gematria equals: 72
    planet in Simple Gematria equals: 68
    room in Simple Gematria equals: 61
    = 548/98/17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
    646 + 1391 + 195 + 1137 + 134 + 548 = 4051/91/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
    battle of the sexes in Simple Gematria equals: 186
    patriarch in Simple Gematria equals: 94
    matriarch in Simple Gematria equals: 91
    = 371/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

    4051 + 371 = 4422/84/12/6/3 cycle

we are using up all the space to run away from arguments in Simple Gematria equals: 569

move away in Simple Gematria equals: 105

urban sprawl in Simple Gematria equals: 145

= 819/99/18/9 cycle (9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9)

(thirteen in Simple Gematria equals: 99)

    4422 + 819 = 5241/75/12/6/3 cycle

cooperation in Simple Gematria equals: 131 (mother earth in Simple Gematria equals: 131)

  5241 + 131 = 5372/89/17/8/4/2/1  or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

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9 Nov 2018 Little Pieces

Phrase that came to me as I was thinking about posting today or not:

mind the little pieces for put together they are a planet in Simple Gematria equals: 553

9 Nov 2018 Jackie bead aluminum metal and hot glue window art Alvarado TX DSC_0248

This is a picture of a sun catcher I made today.  It was something else, I took it apart and made something new with the parts.  It’s not beautiful or fancy but it made me smile when I was done with it.  I like to fix broken things and repurpose things that were one thing to make something different.  This is what nature does with us through the cycles of life I think.

repurpose in Simple Gematria equals: 133

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

repair in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

fix in Simple Gematria equals: 39

12/3 cycle or 12/6/3 cycle  (human)

replace in Simple Gematria equals: 60

6/3 cycle

borrow in Simple Gematria equals: 91

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

brand new in Simple Gematria equals: 81

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

recycle in Simple Gematria equals: 71

8/4/2/1

= 542

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

it all goes back to the same place in Simple Gematria equals: 260*

8/4/2/1

*If you stop to think about it, no matter where we throw all of our various forms of personal and industrial wastes, it all ends up in the same place and affects us all.

energy in Simple Gematria equals: 74 *various forms but all animated beings need energy to operate

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

air in Simple Gematria equals: 28

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

water in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

food in Simple Gematria equals: 40

4/2/1

human in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/3 cycle or 12/6/3 cycle (fix)

insect in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

plant in Simple Gematria equals: 63

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

animal in Simple Gematria equals: 50

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 501

6/3 cycle

553 + 542 + 260 + 501 = 1856

20/2/1 or 20/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1856

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nikola_Tesla – looked up 1856 because it looked like a year to me.  Turns out it was the year Nikola was born.  What’s interesting is I was looking into a couple things about him just yesterday!

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Serbian American inventor
Nikola Tesla
Photograph of Nikola Tesla, a slender, moustachioed man with a thin face and pointed chin.

Nikola Tesla, c. 1896
Born (1856-07-10)10 July 1856
Smiljan, Austrian Empire (modern-day Croatia)
Died 7 January 1943(1943-01-07) (aged 86)
New York City, United States
Resting place Nikola Tesla Museum, Belgrade, Serbia
Citizenship Austrian (1856–1891)
American (1891–1943)
Education Graz University of Technology (abandoned)
Engineering career
Discipline Electrical engineering,
Mechanical engineering
Projects Alternating current,
high-voltage, high-frequency power experiments
Significant design Tesla Tower/World Wireless System/Wireless power transfer
Tesla Experimental Station
Tesla’s Egg of Columbus
Tesla coil/Resonant inductive coupling
Tesla turbine
Tesla valve
Tesla’s oscillator
Polyphase system
AC motor/Induction motor
Rotating magnetic field
Radio control
Plasma globe
Plasma lamp
Carbon button lamp
Teleforce/Death ray
Telegeodynamics
Teleoperation
Torpedo [1]
Vacuum variable capacitor
Violet ray
VTOL
Awards
Signature
Nikola Tesla signature 1900.svg

Nikola Tesla (/ˈtɛslə/;[2] Serbo-Croatian: [nǐkola têsla]; Serbian Cyrillic: Никола Тесла; 10 July 1856 – 7 January 1943) was a Serbian-American[3][4][5] inventor, electrical engineer, mechanical engineer, and futurist who is best known for his contributions to the design of the modern alternating current (AC) electricity supply system.[6]

Born and raised in the Austrian Empire, Tesla received an advanced education in engineering and physics in the 1870s and gained practical experience in the early 1880s working in telephony and at Continental Edison in the new electric power industry. He emigrated to the United States in 1884, where he would become a naturalized citizen. He worked for a short time at the Edison Machine Works in New York City before he struck out on his own. With the help of partners to finance and market his ideas, Tesla set up laboratories and companies in New York to develop a range of electrical and mechanical devices. His alternating current (AC) induction motor and related polyphase AC patents, licensed by Westinghouse Electric in 1888, earned him a considerable amount of money and became the cornerstone of the polyphase system which that company would eventually market.

8 Nov 2018 In the Dark Spaces

This morning, after processing yet another act of terror in this country, I kept my heart centered with love.  This doesn’t feel like a coincidence to be happening again so soon.  It feels like yet another very public distraction from other goings on in our country.  Instead of feeling anger and all the feelings I normally have felt, I choose love.  I choose truth.  I choose justice.  I pray for the greatest most loving good in all of this.  As a friend I once knew chose as his personal campaign, choose love not hate.  (choose love not hate in Simple Gematria equals: 202)

 

in the dark spaces of the unknown i will shine a light of love in Simple Gematria equals: 571

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

truth in Simple Gematria equals: 87

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

justice in Simple Gematria equals: 87

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

honor in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 815 (86)

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

respect in Simple Gematria equals: 86

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

american in Simple Gematria equals: 64

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

hero in Simple Gematria equals: 46

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(64 + 46 = 110)

earth angels in Simple Gematria equals: 110 (president in Simple Gematria equals: 110)

110/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

good in Simple Gematria equals: 41

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

evil in Simple Gematria equals: 48 (birth, cycle)

12/3 cycle or 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 =

mental illness in Simple Gematria equals: 155

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

disease in Simple Gematria equals: 62

8/4/2/1

impaired in Simple Gematria equals: 75

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

violence in Simple Gematria equals: 85 (same value as the phrase that came to me to share but different meaning)

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30

3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

life in Simple Gematria equals: 32

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

death in Simple Gematria equals: 38 (light)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

birth in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

cycle in Simple Gematria equals: 48

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

light in Simple Gematria equals: 56 (death)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

darkness in Simple Gematria equals: 91 (hero)

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

anger in Simple Gematria equals: 45

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

hate in Simple Gematria equals: 34 (honor)

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

possessed in Simple Gematria equals: 121

4/2/1

perception in Simple Gematria equals: 121

4/2/1

reality in Simple Gematria equals: 90 (love)

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

freedom of choice in Simple Gematria equals: 130 (choose love not hate in Simple Gematria equals: 202)

= 1633

76/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1633

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https://www.gunviolencearchive.org/“Is this what America is?”  “Is this what our world is?”

8 Nov 2018 Gun violence map 51fd6d40-2abd-4a58-9e24-7ac72fd4fbde

Quote

“Why empathy?” Silence. “Why compassion?” Silence. “Why should we care about each other?” No one answered. It wasn’t that we didn’t want to answer, we simply struggled to find the best reasoning for it. Perhaps we had never asked ourselves these existential questions before. Perhaps we couldn’t find an answer that wasn’t trite, naïve, or saturated […]

via The Pendulum of Empathy — A Light Circle

My thoughts:

What came to me, even before finishing reading this, “Fill the void with love.” This is something I am actively trying to do for myself. When there is a “space” a “gap” a lacking for an answer, put positive energy, love, whatever it is that generates warmth in your heart and makes you genuinely happy in that emptiness before hate, bigotry and all the “ism’s and “ists” go to fill it. When those who don’t know what love is go to fill the spaces, they will find love and may be we will finally start getting to where we want to go as a world. It doesn’t mean forget or denial that bad things are happening, wearing rose colored glasses and such. It’s transformation with love – alchemy of love.
anger in Simple Gematria equals: 45
love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

= 99 (thirteen)

(alchemy of love in Simple Gematria equals: 142)

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

99 + 142 = 241

5 Nov 2018 The Pendulum of Empathy — A Light Circle – (reblog)

Healer of the Broken Hearted (reblog Rachel Mankowitz post)

Personal stories about what violence like happened in Pittsburgh does to people and communities are not isolated to the point of impact but the radius that spreads from the point of impact. Violence of this magnitude is like the detonation of a bomb or any other form of violence against one, against oneself or the many….it spreads one way or another to us all.  When I read Rachel’s story and message, had to pass it on!  She is a beautiful example of courage and not letting fear determine the course of her life.

My comment to Rachel’s post best expresses how I see this:

“The phrase “staying in the warm space” came to mind reading this. “What do you love the most?” energy is what we were taught to tap into during my Quantum Touch Energy healing training. Pure, unconditional love, which our pet family often teaches us about the best, is what we need to take out into the world to help other see what love looks like. Many people in this world have no idea and so they turn to what they know and sadly that is often hate, bigotry and violence. They were taught this. I’m so sorry you and members of the spiritual world you are part of are having to endure this lesser aspect of human nature. Remember, they are broken. It’s easy to pray and love our family and friends, not so much the broken. I have to remind myself about this each day. Love and hugs to you sweet girl.”

(I’m currently reading A Wind In the Door by Madeline L’Engle and ironically loving your enemies is one of Margaret’s lessons.  When you love someone who seems unlovable, sometimes all that is unlovable ceases to exist to reveal who the person underneath all the hate and darkness truly is…worthy of love.  They always were lovable but their existence, for whatever reasons, made them forget.)

A question I have been asking myself a lot lately, “What brings you joy?”  Do I feel my heart in the center of me radiating warmth and light or has it fallen into my stomach or is it stuck in my throat?  The place of fear or obstruction being the throat most times!  You can consciously move where your heart, your fragment of the sun sits within you with your thoughts, feelings and actions.  You have a personal barometer placed right in the center of you to help you navigate this life.  As my Quantum Touch teacher Carol Lee taught me, “If it ain’t light, it ain’t right!”   

 

healer of the broken hearted in Simple Gematria equals: 229

49/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what brings you joy in Simple Gematria equals: 232 (the lovely part of this is my full maiden name comes to 223!)

52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 461/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

*I am learning that 13 has to do with the struggle between our natures whether it is in yourself or the world.   The push and pull, the tipping and rebalancing of the scales.

4 Nov 2018 Jackie first drawing new sketch book Alvarado TX DSC_0239

rachelmankowitz

We had a solidarity service at my synagogue last Sunday, in the aftermath of the shootings at the Tree of Life synagogue in Pittsburgh. Four synagogues came together in one building, and by the time Mom and I arrived, twenty minutes before the service started, there was no parking left. People had to stand along the sides of the sanctuary after all of the seats had been filled. The clergy of all four synagogues led the service, with readings by the rabbis and songs by the cantors. There was an enormous amount of crying, but I couldn’t cry. The music was beautiful. The presence of clergy from all of the local Christian denominations was meaningful (the local mosque was planning another service for the following day). But the words didn’t reach me. I just wanted to find comfort, and to feel something, but I couldn’t feel anything.

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28 Oct 2018 Stay in Love

28 Oct 2018 – message that came through for me today and I’m passing it along, “stay in love.”  The way it came to me was with sunshine at the end.  People close to me call me that sometimes.  A loving message to pass on in lieu of recent tragic events in our world. 

stay in love in Simple Gematria equals: 142

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

powerless in Simple Gematria equals: 132

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

powerful in Simple Gematria equals: 116

8/4/2/1

power in Simple Gematria equals: 77

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the power of love in Simple Gematria equals: 185

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

Power is a force exerted. Love is a power only when expressed. The power of love is potentially transformative and when expressed is kinetic; transformation occurs because of love’s movement; through the power of love, the universe is both effected and perfected. Love is infinitely available and infinitely created.

From what is coming to me through my own personal journey, it is unresolved differences that are at the root of my own personal problems.  It is when I have turned to love to face them, instead of resentment, anger, hate, fear and violence,  I have begun to find healing within myself.  I have found some semblance of inner peace.
When I look at our shared history it is riddled with unresolved differences and it is layers of this “unresolvedness” that is passed on generation to generation.
 unresolved differences in Simple Gematria equals: 229 (differences in Simple Gematria equals: 94*)
*49/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
the empire never ended in Simple Gematria equals: 195  (Philip K. Dick)
15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
(empire in Simple Gematria equals: 66)
transgenerational trauma in Simple Gematria equals: 267
15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

Transgenerational trauma is trauma that is transferred from the first generation of trauma survivors to the second and further generations of offspring of the survivors via complex post-traumatic stress disorder mechanisms.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transgenerational_trauma
forgive yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 203
5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
forgive others in Simple Gematria equals: 167
14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

25 Oct 2018 Blind Creator (Blade Runner 2049)

Yesterday it rained most of the day and I wasn’t feeling very well.  A good stay inside sort of day.  This morning we’ve had a slight break in things.  I got out back to visit our adorable neighbor Buster (a tiny Yorkie) through our shared fence.  He has peeked at me through the fence as long as we’ve known each other lol.  Now he has a gap wide enough so I can give him some attention and tell him how clever a boy he is.   He reminds me of Kyle’s parents much larger Yorkie and my Aunts little guy Tex.  Such sweet dogs!  His “Dad” is a very good neighbor.

23 Oct 2018 neighbor Yorkie Buster peeking through fence Alvarado TX DSC_0184

After time with Mr. Buster,  I had a thought I’ve had many times when I am listening to music and close my eyes, run my  hands through the air.  The thought was triggered by finally seeing Blade Runner 2049 the other night.  Kyle bought it along with Covenant (Aliens) and Beyond (Star Trek) at the Game XChange in Burleson (http://www.gogamexchange.com/stores/texas/burleson/).   I’ll be honest, we were disappointed with both Covenant and Blade Runner.  The original films are so ingrained into us that anything else just doesn’t have the same impact.  Blade Runner is my favorite science fiction film, one of Ridley Scott’s finest films in my opinion.  Kyle would say the original Alien is the best lol.  They are both really good lets just say!

There is a character, Niander Wallace  (Jared Leto) that as soon as I saw him made me think of Jesus.  He had the look of the Christ that has been painted and put before us through time.  Niander had to use technology as his eyes.  For those of you that have seen the movie, you know this character is a complete polar opposite to the Jesus of the Bible.   Niander was a Christ devoid of feeling or care for his creation.  They were a product.  They were expendable….a means to an end.

What has come to me many times is that what we see with our eyes is often a trick and deception.  Not quite a magic trick but close.  We focus on what we want to see and that is what we see even if their is tangible evidence that what we are seeing isn’t really there.  We just want it to be.   I think we are all guilty of this in one way or another be it politics, religion, sports, movies, music or other platforms where human beings are placed on the pedestal meant for God.

From what I’ve been able to figure out for myself, God doesn’t need eyes or a body to see….that’s what all of creation is for.   How else can God (energy) be everywhere at once?  This is why no one truly gets away with anything in the end.   You don’t have to have eyes (of your own) to “see” when you are God.

blind creator in Simple Gematria equals: 121 (God = 26/8)

(blind = 41  creator = 80)

4/2/1

god in the clouds in Simple Gematria equals: 156

(God = 26 in = 23  the = 33 = clouds = 74)

12/6/3 cycle

disillusionment in Simple Gematria equals: 195

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

unrealistic expectations are the seeds of all resentment in Simple Gematria equals: 570

12/6/3 cycle

false gods in Simple Gematria equals: 88

16/8/4/2/1

man pretending to be god in Simple Gematria equals: 208

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

omnipotent in Simple Gematria equals: 141

6/3 cycle

you dont have to have eyes to see in Simple Gematria equals: 339 (49)

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

23 Oct 2018 A Wrinkle In Time DSC_0170

Interesting excerpt from book I’ve been reading:

Page 160 A Wrinkle In Time – “Like and equal are two completely different things”

Like = 37

Equal = 56

like and equal are two completely different things in Simple Gematria equals: 484

16/8/4/2/1

 

23 Oct 2018 Being an Ant

The skies here were blue and then they started with the intense spraying.  It’s been going on for a couple of days now.  I don’t know if they are buffering things for Hurricane Willa that is attacking Mexico and will ultimately head this way or just spraying.

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/hurricane-willa-category-4-mexico-pacific-coast-latest-track-path-weather-forecast-today-2018-10-22-live-updates/ – I hope the folks in Mexico are prepared and will have what they need to deal with this.

This must be what it’s like to be an ant – like the ant I found in my book yesterday.  I just stand in my yard and look up at what they are doing and I am pretty much powerless.  I used to get really angry about it, but that only hurt me.

I have read information on web sites that track this stuff.  They have all sorts of videos, pictures, personal stories of illness etc., all sorts theories but still no definitive answers.  People have started and circulated countless petitions to the government to stop this activity and yet it continues.  Most still think this is a conspiracy theory.

This activity is so prevalent that it shows up in the sky scenes of movies, television shows and blog pictures from people all over the globe and yet it goes on.  Unless I were to pay to send samples to a lab for analysis, I don’t know what is going on up there.  Plenty of people do know, have had samples studied and even with the damning evidence they find, it still goes on.

Since we all breathe air, we are all breathing whatever it is that is in those x’s in the skies.   If the elite are trying to squish us I would expect them and their progeny to be in bubble suites, wearing air breathing devices or taking special immunizing pills all of the time.  I haven’t seen that so either they have some other defense mechanism or just don’t care.

I am not so much worried for myself as I am for everyone else to include the children that walk home from school here while they are doing this.  There are many other non-human lives affected by this activity like dogs and cats left outside, birds, insects, trees and all other plant life.  I have written about things I have noticed with the trees and insects these past couple of years since the spraying has become more frequent and more intense.

Are we, “the ants”, being fumigated or something else?  If something else?  What else?!  Don’t we have a right to know or is it a case of if we knew we couldn’t handle the answers we would get?  I don’t think we could probably  handle the answers we would get if they actually told all of us the truth of things.  I suspect it has to do with population control but like most of the others that are looking up in the sky and paying attention, I don’t know for sure what is going on.   If you haven’t read Dan Brown’s Inferno (http://danbrown.com/inferno/), you might want to.  The conclusion of the story  comes to my mind with this topic.

I would like to believe whatever is going on is for a good reason, something positive and or helpful.  We shall see.

 

what it is like to be an ant in Simple Gematria equals: 238

58/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 8/4/2/1

population control in Simple Gematria equals: 236

56/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 8/4/2/1

= 474

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/16/3 cycle

https://www.theobjectivestandard.com/2013/09/spocks-illogic-the-needs-of-the-many-outweigh-the-needs-of-the-few/

In The Wrath of Khan (1982), Spock says, “Logic clearly dictates that the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few.” Captain Kirk answers, “Or the one.”

logic clearly dictates that the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few in Simple Gematria equals: 715

85/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 8/4/2/1

the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the one in Simple Gematria equals: 463

76/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 8/4/2/1

the greater good in Simple Gematria equals: 148

49/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 8/4/2/1

= 1326
66/12/6/3 cycle

22 Oct 2018 In the darkness (A Wrinkle in Time)

22 Oct 2018 – This is kind of what the dream started as. A Gray room with abnormally dark black shadows that then took form.

I had a lot of dreams last night but the one that was the most vivid I think was triggered by watching the latest rendering of  A Wrinkle In Time….the “It” or Camazotz.  Kyle decided that was our movie for last night.  It wasn’t the best movie we’ve ever seen but there were many themes and messages within it that resonated with me very deeply.  Apparently strongly enough  to be a key to unlock a dream door.  This is pretty ironic given the subject matter of the film/story is traveling through dimensions with a thought!

The dream started out in an empty gray room like this picture with abnormally dark black shadows in the corners of it.  I heard  myself ask, “Mom?” and then this dark shadow was choking me like has happened before in my waking life when we lived in an apartment in Delaware!  I couldn’t yell at it because it was at my throat so I thought to it, “Fuck off” over and over and “Go away!”  Finally it let go and I woke up.

Like I said I think the movie was a key, I’m still healing from hitting my head a few weeks ago, been skirting around a sinus infection and have been dealing with anger and depression a lot lately.  We think the increased depression and anger was partially brought on by hitting my head like I did!  Kicking my own ass!  I am not thinking of this dream negatively.  If anything it was an important reminder to stay in balance and not allow myself to slip too deeply into anger and depression.   There are teachers in the light and the shadows.

The other dream that was interesting and I am not sure what brought this one on was about a man inviting some other men into a vault filled with paper money.  Then these men were at the entrance to the vault completely naked yelling with their mouths, along with other orifices, stuffed with the money, “Damn you Gotti!” I have no idea why the mobster Gotti would have slipped in to my dreams!  The closest thing to this I’ve seen was from American Horror Story Hotel.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Gotti – he died of throat cancer and I dreamt about being choked in an empty gray room like a prison!  Creepy!

 

a wrinkle in time in Simple Gematria equals: 163

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

shadow person in Simple Gematria equals: 157

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

camazotz in Simple Gematria equals: 105

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

it in Simple Gematria equals: 29

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 454

94/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

*As I’ve mentioned, 13 comes up a lot for me

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Wrinkle_in_Time – I am going to get a copy of this to read

A Wrinkle in Time

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A Wrinkle in Time
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First-edition dust jacket
Author Madeleine L’Engle
Illustrator Ellen Raskin (1960s editions)
Country United States
Language English
Series Time Quintet
Genre Young Adult, Science fantasy
Publisher Farrar, Straus & Giroux
Publication date
January 1, 1962
OCLC 22421788
LC Class PZ7.L5385 Wr 1962[1]
Followed by A Wind in the Door

A Wrinkle in Time is a science fantasy novel written by American writer Madeleine L’Engle, first published in 1962.[2] The book won the Newbery Medal, Sequoyah Book Award, and Lewis Carroll Shelf Award, and was runner-up for the Hans Christian Andersen Award.[3][a] It is the first book in L’Engle’s Time Quintet, which follows the Murrys and Calvin O’Keefe.

The book inspired two film adaptations, both by Disney: a 2003 television film directed by John Kent Harrison, and a 2018 theatrical film directed by Ava DuVernay.

 

11 October 2018 A Thirteen

10 Oct 2018 Jackie Wygant outdoor chalk drawing Alvarado TX DSC_0145

I was thinking about David yesterday as I sat in our spare room that has all our CD’s to include my copy of his Black Star album.  I got to thinking that if David was David, there might be something for me to find.  I wasn’t sure if I should look but I did.  It felt like a visit we never had.  When people become as famous as someone like David, people like me seldom if ever get to meet them in person.  I saw him in concert once and that’s all of a meeting we would ever have in this life.  I am glad for that moment!

 

black star in Simple Gematria equals: 87

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

tis a pity she was a whore in Simple Gematria equals: 264 (84) –

12/6/3 cycle

lazarus in Simple Gematria equals: 98

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

sue or in a season of crime in Simple Gematria equals: 244

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

girl loves in Simple Gematria equals: 119

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

dollar days in Simple Gematria equals: 111

3 cycle

i cant give everything away in Simple Gematria equals: 273

12/6/3 cycle

= 1109 (David died on 1/10)

1109 + 87 = 1196 (98) (he died at age 69 which is also the numeric value for people)

 

Black star (87) + Lazarus (98) = 185 “A thirteen”

Elvis (67) Presley (100) = 167 “A thirteen”

David (40) Bowie (54) = 94 “thirteen”

David (40) Robert (78)  Jones (63) = 181 “10”

cancer = 44 “8”

thirteen = 99

nine = 42 (6)

six = 52 (7)

seven = 65 (11)

eleven = 63……9

My full name as it is now comes to 313 and I was born on 2/13/1968.  My life has definitely been a 9 cycle for most of it, difficult = 90/9 cycle.  I wouldn’t change a thing….I can’t.  All we can do in life school is learn and move on to the next lesson.

lesson in Simple Gematria equals: 84

whore in Simple Gematria equals: 69

people in Simple Gematria equals: 69

film star in Simple Gematria equals: 98 *Lazarus#

the prestige in Simple Gematria equals: 132 *he was Nikola Tesla in this film,  a man I have admired for a long time

nikola tesla in Simple Gematria equals: 119 *Girl loves#

the holy bible in Simple Gematria equals: 123