5 May 2020 Uncomfortable Silence

Hello to you.  How are you doing today?  Hopefully you are doing well.

Something that comes to mind this morning is the phrase uncomfortable silence.  As I write, I’ve got an alternative station I found that I like, 103.7 fm on as background noise.  I’m getting to be one of those kind of people that has to have the sound on in my world.   That thing called comfortable silence is uncomfortable for me and it never used to be.

 

This radio used to belong to my brother-in-law Todd – still useful!

My mother-in-law used to follow ratings for television shows.  I seem to remember her talking about CSI was one that always had high ratings.  What was behind that a certain demographic, usually older Americans, put the show on as background noise even if they weren’t watching it.  I though that was funny at the time until this situation of having to stay home alone more!  I’m becoming one of those people!

So today I give thanks for local programming and the radio stations that keep the world interesting for me.  Right now I don’t have access to streaming services without paying for it.  I’m trying Amazon Prime video and took a look at Patrick Melrose yesterday.  I couldn’t get through the first episode.  It was hard to see Benedict Cumberbatch being such a convincing addict.  I much prefer seeing him as Sherlock Holmes (minus the addict part) and Dr. Strange!  There are some other interesting shows to check out whilst I work on my afghan.

I find myself going a bit stir crazy staying in the house so I’ll meander out for a walk.  This isn’t such a bad thing as I gained some weight during my hospital stay.  I’m starting to remember why one can lose your mind a bit being trapped in the house.  In the past, it was just because of extremes of weather.  I can remember being in a shelter in Mississippi  during a hurricane and how tough that was.  I was in a shelter with a bunch of other people and it was dark and even smelly at times.  We ate peanut butter and crackers in the dark.  As tough as that was,  there was an end in sight.  With this virus and containment,  there doesn’t seem to be a definitive end.  I understand better why there are protesters in different placing demanding things get opened back up.  We are social creatures and are made to do stuff besides staying at home.

I wonder if this is the plants way of healing itself?  For all the bad things that have happened and tragedy, good things have been happening for the planet.   The biggest thing is a reduction in air pollution!  I wonder how can we keep that going once life starts to resume it’s course?

https://nypost.com/2020/04/07/3-ways-the-coronavirus-is-a-boon-to-the-environment/

ITOE6561 4 May 2020 Breaking through marker picture Jackie Wygant Alvarado TX

First drawing with markers – thinking of breaking through barriers in my life.

a uncomfortable silence” in the English Ordinal system equals 213 – (ironically month and day I was born!)

 

 

30 April 2020 Finding balance

Hello to you – how are you in your day today?  I’m doing pretty good.  The world is pretty still for me right now after conquering some of the hurdles I had waiting for me when I got home.

What has come to mind this morning is finding balance when the world seems to be out of balance.  Every time I turn on the television.  Every page that comes up when I open the internet.  Almost every conversation with family and friends.  What is it all about right now?  That darn Corona virus!  What do I want to give my power to about it?  Not how many people are sick, not how many people have died, not all the ways we have failed in containing this thing.  What do I want to focus on?  How many people have lived?  What have we done right?  The countless HERO’S that I have personally encountered and know working in the the medical profession right now.   I have friends and family in nursing and all I want for them is their safety and outstanding health on this journey each day.

Coming from the experience I recently have come from with healthcare, even when things seem their worst, God, as I understand, finds a way to punch through the darkness with hope and light.

I believe that what you focus on gains power in the world.  The more we focus on the negatives, not to deny negatives exist, the more power we give to what we don’t want going on in the world!  I encourage everyone reading this to amplify their positive prayers, mediations and just energy signatures in the world….empowerment!

So as the scales skitter back and forth like trying to weigh ourselves on a scale, I hope a healthy balance, a healthy “weight” will be achieved.

finding balance” in the English Ordinal system equals 101 – system

one zero one” in the English Ordinal system equals 132 – life

one three two” in the English Ordinal system equals 148 – motive

one four eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 143 – choice

one four three” in the English Ordinal system equals 150 – Joy

one five zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 140 – food

one four zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 158 – feeling

one five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 125 – all

 

one two five” in the English Ordinal system equals 134 – one

 

18 Feb 2019 Flowers

flowers in Simple Gematria equals: 98

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 =

2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5= 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 comes back to 1

For some there is no question that they like flowers.  For some there is a question which flowers they like.  For some they like flowers but are allergic to them so they cannot enjoy flowers except from a great distance.  For some they know for certain they do not like flowers and avoid them at all cost.  For some it is not enough to dislike flowers.  They will go out of their way to destroy flowers for others so that no one may enjoy them.

What happens with the like or dislike of flowers could also cross over to people and anything else with a spirit, anything or anyone that comes from the God of my understanding.

A further look at how the sum for the flower breaks down:

nine eight in Simple Gematria equals: 91

nine one in Simple Gematria equals: 76

seven six in Simple Gematria equals: 117

one one seven in Simple Gematria equals: 133

one three three in Simple Gematria equals: 146

one four six in Simple Gematria equals: 146

(rose = 57/12/3 cycle)

DSC_0569 27 April 2018 rose in the morning sun Alvarado TX

Fluttershy’s Coronation Dress by Bethiebo on deviantART – I don’t have permission to use this image so I won’t.  For those unfamiliar, My Little Pony has a character named Fluttershy and she is one of my favorites.  When I was in a very dark depression it was at first the original MLP and then the current show that helped lift me out.  The show was like a life preserver from God to me and I’m very grateful for it.  The show is positive and tries to teach life lessons in a way many levels, many ages of people, can comprehend in a loving way.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lauren_Faust – never knew what she looked like until today.  She looks a lot like my husbands avatar for Monster Hunter Lol!  Thank you for your work Lauren and all those who work with you to try and make the entertainment world a better place for people like me.