9 Nov 2018 Little Pieces

Phrase that came to me as I was thinking about posting today or not:

mind the little pieces for put together they are a planet in Simple Gematria equals: 553

9 Nov 2018 Jackie bead aluminum metal and hot glue window art Alvarado TX DSC_0248

This is a picture of a sun catcher I made today.  It was something else, I took it apart and made something new with the parts.  It’s not beautiful or fancy but it made me smile when I was done with it.  I like to fix broken things and repurpose things that were one thing to make something different.  This is what nature does with us through the cycles of life I think.

repurpose in Simple Gematria equals: 133

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

repair in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

fix in Simple Gematria equals: 39

12/3 cycle or 12/6/3 cycle  (human)

replace in Simple Gematria equals: 60

6/3 cycle

borrow in Simple Gematria equals: 91

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

brand new in Simple Gematria equals: 81

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

recycle in Simple Gematria equals: 71

8/4/2/1

= 542

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

it all goes back to the same place in Simple Gematria equals: 260*

8/4/2/1

*If you stop to think about it, no matter where we throw all of our various forms of personal and industrial wastes, it all ends up in the same place and affects us all.

energy in Simple Gematria equals: 74 *various forms but all animated beings need energy to operate

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

air in Simple Gematria equals: 28

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

water in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

food in Simple Gematria equals: 40

4/2/1

human in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/3 cycle or 12/6/3 cycle (fix)

insect in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

plant in Simple Gematria equals: 63

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

animal in Simple Gematria equals: 50

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 501

6/3 cycle

553 + 542 + 260 + 501 = 1856

20/2/1 or 20/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1856

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nikola_Tesla – looked up 1856 because it looked like a year to me.  Turns out it was the year Nikola was born.  What’s interesting is I was looking into a couple things about him just yesterday!

to search

Serbian American inventor
Nikola Tesla
Photograph of Nikola Tesla, a slender, moustachioed man with a thin face and pointed chin.

Nikola Tesla, c. 1896
Born (1856-07-10)10 July 1856
Smiljan, Austrian Empire (modern-day Croatia)
Died 7 January 1943(1943-01-07) (aged 86)
New York City, United States
Resting place Nikola Tesla Museum, Belgrade, Serbia
Citizenship Austrian (1856–1891)
American (1891–1943)
Education Graz University of Technology (abandoned)
Engineering career
Discipline Electrical engineering,
Mechanical engineering
Projects Alternating current,
high-voltage, high-frequency power experiments
Significant design Tesla Tower/World Wireless System/Wireless power transfer
Tesla Experimental Station
Tesla’s Egg of Columbus
Tesla coil/Resonant inductive coupling
Tesla turbine
Tesla valve
Tesla’s oscillator
Polyphase system
AC motor/Induction motor
Rotating magnetic field
Radio control
Plasma globe
Plasma lamp
Carbon button lamp
Teleforce/Death ray
Telegeodynamics
Teleoperation
Torpedo [1]
Vacuum variable capacitor
Violet ray
VTOL
Awards
Signature
Nikola Tesla signature 1900.svg

Nikola Tesla (/ˈtɛslə/;[2] Serbo-Croatian: [nǐkola têsla]; Serbian Cyrillic: Никола Тесла; 10 July 1856 – 7 January 1943) was a Serbian-American[3][4][5] inventor, electrical engineer, mechanical engineer, and futurist who is best known for his contributions to the design of the modern alternating current (AC) electricity supply system.[6]

Born and raised in the Austrian Empire, Tesla received an advanced education in engineering and physics in the 1870s and gained practical experience in the early 1880s working in telephony and at Continental Edison in the new electric power industry. He emigrated to the United States in 1884, where he would become a naturalized citizen. He worked for a short time at the Edison Machine Works in New York City before he struck out on his own. With the help of partners to finance and market his ideas, Tesla set up laboratories and companies in New York to develop a range of electrical and mechanical devices. His alternating current (AC) induction motor and related polyphase AC patents, licensed by Westinghouse Electric in 1888, earned him a considerable amount of money and became the cornerstone of the polyphase system which that company would eventually market.

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30 Oct 2018 Who am I

Hello to you.  How are you?  I had a lot of dreams last night.  Probably triggered by the movie we watched, As Above So Below (2014) film and other happenings from yesterday.  The first batch of dreams had to do with people in their personal hell dimensions trying to leave them and it being worse for them in their new realities.  They ended up going back.

In between sleeping and waking, around 7:47 am I heard a woman’s voice in and outside of my head ask, “Who am I?”  There was only Link with me in the room at the time.  I was back in Florida in between sleeping and waking from a nap, only Amber cat with me at the time and I heard a voice inside and outside my head say, “It’s Time.”  All sorts of shit hit the fan after that!  The veil is thin again and as a porous person, must make sure I am vigilant!

The past couple of days have been so beautiful so I decided to take the CD player Kyle’s brother gave us a long time ago outside.  I wanted to hear David’s voice.  Well a tiny little jumping spider decided to get on the player and on me lool.  Adorable little being!  I perceived, and this is just me, intelligence to them.  It’s happened before.  I’m the kind of person who talks to anyone who will listen to include insects, trees, flowers….they are all energy beings too.  In light of David’s Ziggy Stardust character and the Spider’s from Mar’s phase he had, thought it was pretty wonderful.  Like a visit.

The following just a tiny train of thought with interesting results to include the last picture, DSC_226, matching the number values.  I am not doing it on purpose.  I don’t do “tricks”.  When a word or thought comes to my mind, I follow where it goes and wonderful things like this happen.  I try to remain open to the possibility of the impossible being possible even if I can’t tangibly see it.  Isn’t that what Faith is supposed to be?!  

who am i in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

link in Simple Gematria equals: 46

the spiders from mars in Simple Gematria equals: 226

david bowie the rise and fall of ziggy stardust and the spiders from mars in Simple Gematria equals: 690

wonderful things in Simple Gematria equals: 195 (variation of 69)

= 1226 (A 46)/56 = Three

faith in Simple Gematria equals: 44

brain in Simple Gematria equals: 44

as above so below in Simple Gematria equals: 156 (A Three)

= 244 (64)

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt2870612/ – information and trailer about the film we watched last night.  Definitely a nod to Dante’s Inferno.

https://www.biblehub.com/niv/matthew/8.htm – this passage of the Bible came to mind

Jesus Calms the Storm

23Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. 24Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. 25The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!”

26He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.

27The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”

you of little faith why are you so afraid in Simple Gematria equals: 418 (58/13) Matthew 8:23 (13)

26 Oct 2018 All Roads Lead to Rome

Hello to you.  How are you?!  I don’t know what the message is about but it’s what came to me when I was out drawing for a bit yesterday.  May it will make sense to someone else.  The sun peeked out as I had hoped!  Felt great.  The sky is clear this morning and it’s nice and cool.

We have been watching the reboot of the Star Trek films.  We watched Star Trek Into Darkness last night – awesome film.  In this reboot I was introduced to some talented actors for the first time.  This film was the first time I noticed Benedict Cumberbatch and took an interest in future work he was doing.  Sadly there are now ghosts walking within these films like Leonard Nimoy and Anton Yelchin  for example.  Both of their deaths were hard for me.  Like some hauntings, they are recordings that to come to life when we watch and rewatch their films.

Tonight we finally get to see the second season of Castlevania on Netflix.  One of the better works of animated film we’ve watched as of late.

I hope that wherever and whenever….however….this finds you that you are as well as you can be.  I know it’s hard some days to be authentic, to be yourself, to find anything that remotely resembles love or kindness in this world but it is there.

I know for myself that I have had to lower my expectations a bit to find any semblance of the life I want for myself.  I have had to accept isolation and  loneliness as my normal.  There are choices I could have made that would…could…. make my life now completely different.  Namely doing the things that I do for a profit.

I have talked about this subject many times before……….it’s just not how our world works so this message doesn’t resonate with fellow artists in whatever genre that are trying to survive in this world and still do what they enjoy.    I have other sources of income from when I worked and Kyle’s income when he is able to work.  Most people don’t have anything other than what they do to sustain them and their families.

A lot of people are doing what they think they should do for careers to make the most money and not what they have been called to do.   They are miserable people that spread a wave of their internal misery everywhere they go.  They have been unwilling or unable to heed the calling to a work that fulfills them and fulfills why they were born in the first place.   From what I’ve seen, there is a lot of systemic obstruction in place that keeps people from reaching their full potential.  It’s possible, but extremely difficult or comes at a great cost to a person as an individual to fight the system to be who they are meant to be.  To “heed the call.”

What I have been called to do in this life doesn’t seem to involve making a lot of money.

I have learned for myself is that most times I have done things for money things have been tainted by the money.  I would say the barter system or someone giving me money for supplies to make something for them has been the closet thing that has worked for me.  There is no tangible profit in this.  The profit is an exchange of energy.  Someone helping me do what I enjoy doing without expectation and their gratitude being an energetic currency that “pays” me in a way money cannot.

I am happiest making something, having someone appreciate it and “speak to them” and then giving it to them because inside I realize I didn’t make it for me, I made it for them and just didn’t know it at the time.  There is no tangible profit in this.

What are you willing to give to the world to get what you want?  Some people give everything…too much….and are left with an empty shell.  It’s important to leave some of you for yourself.  It’s important to find your balance.

 

https://saymber.com/2015/05/14/14-may-2015-man-for-himself-by-erich-fromm-and-message-for-today-related-to-book/

http://www.amazon.com/Man-Himself-Inquiry-Psychology-Ethics/dp/0805014039/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1431612723&sr=1-1&keywords=Man+for+Himself+Erich+Fromm – if you are curious to read this masterpiece for yourself

Some of the language/verbage is I want to say complicated but the truths rise up at you like a brilliant piece of sea glass revealed by the ocean tide.  Here is an excerpt that really illustrates my message today :  Pages 96 and 97

(b) Productive Love and Thinking

Human existence is characterized by the fact that man is alone and separated from the world; not being able to stand the separation, he is impelled to seek for relatedness and oneness.  There are many ways in which he can realize this need, but only one in which he, as a unique entity, remains intact; only one in which his own powers unfold in the very process of being related.  It is the paradox of human existence that man must simultaneously seek closeness and for independence; for oneness with others at the same time for the preservation of his uniqueness and particularity.  As we have shown, the answer to this paradox-and to the moral problem of man- is productiveness (In Chapter 3 Human Nature and Character, Part 2 Personality, he goes into great detail what productiveness means.)

One can be productively related to the world by acting and by comprehending.  Man produces things, and in the process of creation he exercises his powers over matter.  Man comprehends the world, mentally and emotionally, through love and through reason.  His power of reason enables him to penetrate through the surface and to grasp the essence of his object by getting into active relation with it.  His power of love enables him to break through the wall which separates him from another person and to comprehend him.  Although love and reason are only different forms of comprehending the world and although neither is possible without the other, they are expressions of different powers, that of emotion and that of thinking, and hence must be discussed separately.

Who was Erich Fromm?  http://www.erichfromm.net/ – link to his main website if your interest in learning more about him has spiked! 🙂

 

*Dreamt last night about how people can see like bats – pictures and images being in the brain instead of the eyes

25 Oct 2018 Blind Creator (Blade Runner 2049)

Yesterday it rained most of the day and I wasn’t feeling very well.  A good stay inside sort of day.  This morning we’ve had a slight break in things.  I got out back to visit our adorable neighbor Buster (a tiny Yorkie) through our shared fence.  He has peeked at me through the fence as long as we’ve known each other lol.  Now he has a gap wide enough so I can give him some attention and tell him how clever a boy he is.   He reminds me of Kyle’s parents much larger Yorkie and my Aunts little guy Tex.  Such sweet dogs!  His “Dad” is a very good neighbor.

23 Oct 2018 neighbor Yorkie Buster peeking through fence Alvarado TX DSC_0184

After time with Mr. Buster,  I had a thought I’ve had many times when I am listening to music and close my eyes, run my  hands through the air.  The thought was triggered by finally seeing Blade Runner 2049 the other night.  Kyle bought it along with Covenant (Aliens) and Beyond (Star Trek) at the Game XChange in Burleson (http://www.gogamexchange.com/stores/texas/burleson/).   I’ll be honest, we were disappointed with both Covenant and Blade Runner.  The original films are so ingrained into us that anything else just doesn’t have the same impact.  Blade Runner is my favorite science fiction film, one of Ridley Scott’s finest films in my opinion.  Kyle would say the original Alien is the best lol.  They are both really good lets just say!

There is a character, Niander Wallace  (Jared Leto) that as soon as I saw him made me think of Jesus.  He had the look of the Christ that has been painted and put before us through time.  Niander had to use technology as his eyes.  For those of you that have seen the movie, you know this character is a complete polar opposite to the Jesus of the Bible.   Niander was a Christ devoid of feeling or care for his creation.  They were a product.  They were expendable….a means to an end.

What has come to me many times is that what we see with our eyes is often a trick and deception.  Not quite a magic trick but close.  We focus on what we want to see and that is what we see even if their is tangible evidence that what we are seeing isn’t really there.  We just want it to be.   I think we are all guilty of this in one way or another be it politics, religion, sports, movies, music or other platforms where human beings are placed on the pedestal meant for God.

From what I’ve been able to figure out for myself, God doesn’t need eyes or a body to see….that’s what all of creation is for.   How else can God (energy) be everywhere at once?  This is why no one truly gets away with anything in the end.   You don’t have to have eyes (of your own) to “see” when you are God.

blind creator in Simple Gematria equals: 121 (God = 26/8)

(blind = 41  creator = 80)

4/2/1

god in the clouds in Simple Gematria equals: 156

(God = 26 in = 23  the = 33 = clouds = 74)

12/6/3 cycle

disillusionment in Simple Gematria equals: 195

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

unrealistic expectations are the seeds of all resentment in Simple Gematria equals: 570

12/6/3 cycle

false gods in Simple Gematria equals: 88

16/8/4/2/1

man pretending to be god in Simple Gematria equals: 208

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

omnipotent in Simple Gematria equals: 141

6/3 cycle

you dont have to have eyes to see in Simple Gematria equals: 339 (49)

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

23 Oct 2018 A Wrinkle In Time DSC_0170

Interesting excerpt from book I’ve been reading:

Page 160 A Wrinkle In Time – “Like and equal are two completely different things”

Like = 37

Equal = 56

like and equal are two completely different things in Simple Gematria equals: 484

16/8/4/2/1

 

23 Oct 2018 Drawings and Destiny

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well.  Kyle went to Half Price Books yesterday and found me a copy of A Wrinkle in Time and so far so good.  There was a dying ant in it when I opened it, that was weird lol!  With all the rains we’ve been having a lot of ant activity again here at the house and around the area.  Just weird one would be in a book I was about to read.

Anyhew, pages 67 and 68 of the book correlated with some words in the numbers stuff I had done on the 10th of October.   When I realized this, I had one of those moments where I thought, “This is an example of destiny.  I was supposed to see the movie.  I was supposed to  read this book.  I am where I am supposed to be right now.”  It’s a very healing, positive feeling to have a moment like that.

A Wrinkle in Time Madeleine L’Engle

23 Oct 2018 A Wrinkle In Time DSC_0170

“Sing unto the Lord a new song, and his praise from the end of the earth, ye that go down to the sea, and all that is therein; the isles, and the inhabitants thereof.  Let the wilderness and the cities thereof lift their voice; let the inhabitants of the rock sing, let them shout from the top of the mountains.  Let them give glory unto the Lord!”

(sing unto the lord a new song and his praise from the end of the earth ye that go down to the sea and all that is therein the isles and the inhabitants thereof let the wilderness and the cities thereof lift their voice let the inhabitants of the rock sing let them shout from the top of the mountains let them give glory unto the lord in Simple Gematria equals: 3156 (96)*

sing a new song unto the lord in Simple Gematria equals: 299  (this phrase that came to me on the 10th)

destiny in Simple Gematria equals: 96*

Each day is filled with moments that slip through our fingers unexplored and then a moment will come and for the first time in a long time you feel you are home.

(each day is filled with moments that slip through our fingers unexplored and then a moment will come and for the first time in a long time you feel you are home in Simple Gematria equals: 1533 (66)

happy in Simple Gematria equals: 66

 

 

22 Oct 2018 In the darkness (A Wrinkle in Time)

22 Oct 2018 – This is kind of what the dream started as. A Gray room with abnormally dark black shadows that then took form.

I had a lot of dreams last night but the one that was the most vivid I think was triggered by watching the latest rendering of  A Wrinkle In Time….the “It” or Camazotz.  Kyle decided that was our movie for last night.  It wasn’t the best movie we’ve ever seen but there were many themes and messages within it that resonated with me very deeply.  Apparently strongly enough  to be a key to unlock a dream door.  This is pretty ironic given the subject matter of the film/story is traveling through dimensions with a thought!

The dream started out in an empty gray room like this picture with abnormally dark black shadows in the corners of it.  I heard  myself ask, “Mom?” and then this dark shadow was choking me like has happened before in my waking life when we lived in an apartment in Delaware!  I couldn’t yell at it because it was at my throat so I thought to it, “Fuck off” over and over and “Go away!”  Finally it let go and I woke up.

Like I said I think the movie was a key, I’m still healing from hitting my head a few weeks ago, been skirting around a sinus infection and have been dealing with anger and depression a lot lately.  We think the increased depression and anger was partially brought on by hitting my head like I did!  Kicking my own ass!  I am not thinking of this dream negatively.  If anything it was an important reminder to stay in balance and not allow myself to slip too deeply into anger and depression.   There are teachers in the light and the shadows.

The other dream that was interesting and I am not sure what brought this one on was about a man inviting some other men into a vault filled with paper money.  Then these men were at the entrance to the vault completely naked yelling with their mouths, along with other orifices, stuffed with the money, “Damn you Gotti!” I have no idea why the mobster Gotti would have slipped in to my dreams!  The closest thing to this I’ve seen was from American Horror Story Hotel.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Gotti – he died of throat cancer and I dreamt about being choked in an empty gray room like a prison!  Creepy!

 

a wrinkle in time in Simple Gematria equals: 163

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

shadow person in Simple Gematria equals: 157

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

camazotz in Simple Gematria equals: 105

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

it in Simple Gematria equals: 29

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 454

94/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

*As I’ve mentioned, 13 comes up a lot for me

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Wrinkle_in_Time – I am going to get a copy of this to read

A Wrinkle in Time

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A Wrinkle in Time
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First-edition dust jacket
Author Madeleine L’Engle
Illustrator Ellen Raskin (1960s editions)
Country United States
Language English
Series Time Quintet
Genre Young Adult, Science fantasy
Publisher Farrar, Straus & Giroux
Publication date
January 1, 1962
OCLC 22421788
LC Class PZ7.L5385 Wr 1962[1]
Followed by A Wind in the Door

A Wrinkle in Time is a science fantasy novel written by American writer Madeleine L’Engle, first published in 1962.[2] The book won the Newbery Medal, Sequoyah Book Award, and Lewis Carroll Shelf Award, and was runner-up for the Hans Christian Andersen Award.[3][a] It is the first book in L’Engle’s Time Quintet, which follows the Murrys and Calvin O’Keefe.

The book inspired two film adaptations, both by Disney: a 2003 television film directed by John Kent Harrison, and a 2018 theatrical film directed by Ava DuVernay.

 

20 Oct 2018 A Salmon

https://www.gematrix.org/

turn it out in Simple Gematria equals: 158

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

turn it in in Simple Gematria equals: 125

8/4/2/1

turn away in Simple Gematria equals: 123

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

fight in Simple Gematria equals: 50

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

flight in Simple Gematria equals: 62

8/4/2/1

apathy in Simple Gematria equals: 71

8/4/2/1

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

hate in Simple Gematria equals: 34

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30

3 cycle

abandoned in Simple Gematria equals: 60

6/3 cycle

rebellion in Simple Gematria equals: 92

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 859  (13 and 9 are numbers that come up a lot for me personally)

22/4/2/1 or 22 divided by 2 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

What the numbers come to in this line of thinking describes me well.  I often feel like one of those salmon swimming upstream in this world.

 

Source Internet: Sometimes I feel like the salmon in this picture.

salmon swimming upstream in Simple Gematria equals: 294

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

 

Smoke Signals (12/12) Movie CLIP – To Forgive Our Fathers (1998) HD   – excerpt from one of my favorite movies of all time.  I’ve shared this before but felt it was time again to revisit this wisdom.  I love my Dad so much but I know some day he will have to move on to his next great adventure without me.  I am coming to terms these days with how I will manage to be here without him.  Will I be able to forgive him for leaving me here. 

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0120321/quotes

Thomas Builds-the-Fire: How do we forgive our fathers? Maybe in a dream. Do we forgive our fathers for leaving us too often, or forever, when we were little? Maybe for scaring us with unexpected rage, or making us nervous because there never seemed to be any rage there at all? Do we forgive our fathers for marrying, or not marrying, our mothers? Or divorcing, or not divorcing, our mothers? And shall we forgive them for their excesses of warmth or coldness? Shall we forgive them for pushing, or leaning? For shutting doors or speaking through walls? For never speaking, or never being silent? Do we forgive our fathers in our age, or in theirs? Or in their deaths, saying it to them or not saying it. If we forgive our fathers, what is left?

Source is internet: This says it all for me about the landscape of this world today.

20 Sept 2018 Purpose or Function

Hello to you.  I woke up with my Emmy’s “yellow” post on my mind this morning.  I got that tugging at my conscience and heart about it and decided to trash it.  If it ain’t light, it ain’t right.  It wasn’t light.  The last thing I would want to do is hurt someone’s feelings about these things.  Sometimes I can be so focused on one aspect of something that I don’t see the whole picture.

I decided to take another look at some aspects of my deleted post.  I am doing it with a question I have found for myself when converting words and phrases to numbers.   The phrase is “What is the purpose of……” and I seem to be getting some pretty direct answers.  I am building a document with these questions about various people, places and things and have a pretty good list so far.

Now you can word a question many different ways, you can use different words in place of others, the words I have used here are commonly used words in the form of a direct question.  Kind of like talking to a computer in a way.  If you think about it, when you are using an internet search engine, the more direct the question you ask, the more clear answer/results you get.

You could use “function of” instead of “purpose of”.   It looks like they both work well.  I’ve put together most of my personal list with purpose but may also start to include function as a comparison.

https://www.gematrix.org/ – I use this to help me calculate words and phrases faster but use my calculator, dictionary and numeric alphabet list offline

purpose in Simple Gematria equals: 110

function in Simple Gematria equals: 102

Hopefully this compilation I’ve done here will be interesting/useful to someone besides myself.   I didn’t include names of people this time.  If you are curious, you can use the calculator to satisfy your own curiosity.   Doing this letters to numbers conversion has really been stimulating for me – makes me use the rusty “math” parts of my brain lol!

what is the purpose of a entertainment in Simple Gematria equals: 403

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of entertainment in Simple Gematria equals: 394 – changed to a “16” value with switching out purpose

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of an apology in Simple Gematria equals: 350

8/4/2/1

what is the function of an apology in Simple Gematria equals: 342

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the purpose of honor in Simple Gematria equals: 314

8/4/2/1

what is the function of honor in Simple Gematria equals: 306

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the purpose of a television show in Simple Gematria equals: 440

8/4/2/1

what is the function of a television show in Simple Gematria equals: 432

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the purpose of an award in Simple Gematria equals: 306

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the function of an award in Simple Gematria equals: 298

19/10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 19 divided by 2 = 9.5 = 14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of flattery in Simple Gematria equals: 351

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the function of flattery in Simple Gematria equals: 343

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of an opinion in Simple Gematria equals: 351

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the function of an opinion in Simple Gematria equals: 343

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of an actor in Simple Gematria equals: 316

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of an actor in Simple Gematria equals: 308

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of color in Simple Gematria equals: 307

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of color in Simple Gematria equals: 299

20/2/1 or 20/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of money in Simple Gematria equals: 316

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of money in Simple Gematria equals: 308

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of an actress in Simple Gematria equals: 344

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of an actress in Simple Gematria equals: 336

12/3 cycle

happy in Simple Gematria equals: 66

12/3 cycle

what is the purpose of a movie in Simple Gematria equals: 309

12/3 cycle

what is the function of a movie in Simple Gematria equals: 301

4/2/1

what is the purpose of a producer in Simple Gematria equals: 345

12/3 cycle

what is the function of a producer in Simple Gematria equals: 337

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of a backhanded compliment in Simple Gematria equals: 418

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of a backhanded compliment in Simple Gematria equals: 410

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of saying im sorry in Simple Gematria equals: 436

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of saying im sorry in Simple Gematria equals: 428

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7

what is the purpose of a compliment in Simple Gematria equals: 365

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7

what is the function of a compliment in Simple Gematria equals: 357

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/3 cycle

what is the purpose of creation in Simple Gematria equals: 329

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7

what is the function of creation in Simple Gematria equals: 321

6/3 cycle

what is the purpose of a writer in Simple Gematria equals: 338

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7

what is the function of a writer in Simple Gematria equals: 330

6/3 cycle

what is the purpose of forgiveness in Simple Gematria equals: 383

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7

what is the function of forgiveness in Simple Gematria equals: 375

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/3 cycle

what is the purpose of a television in Simple Gematria equals: 375

15/6/3 or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/3 cycle

what is the function of a television in Simple Gematria equals: 367

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

television set in Simple Gematria equals: 174  (This was a wow when I saw it, kind of creepy too!)

12/3 cycle

new world order in Simple Gematria equals: 174 

12/3 cycle

what is the purpose of gratitude in Simple Gematria equals: 349

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

what is the function of gratitude in Simple Gematria equals: 341

8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of awards shows in Simple Gematria equals: 394

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

what is the function of award shows in Simple Gematria equals: 367

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

what is the purpose of fame in Simple Gematria equals: 269

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of fame in Simple Gematria equals: 261

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the purpose of a performer in Simple Gematria equals: 359

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of a performer in Simple Gematria equals: 351

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the purpose of pride in Simple Gematria equals: 296

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what is the function of pride in Simple Gematria equals: 288

18/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

 

what is the purpose of human life in Simple Gematria equals: 333

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

what is the function of human life in Simple Gematria equals: 325

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

human life in Simple Gematria equals: 89

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

The reason I divide things out is because of the duality of all things to include ourselves – we are basically two parts stitched together if you think about it.  Seldom if ever is anything clear, easy or straight forward in nature.  I am in the process of refining this for myself.  This is a way for me to look at things in a different way.  It is a tool for me.  This may not make sense to you initially.   This system is for me like what learning things from “dead guys” is.  People who have come and gone can’t change what they’ve said or done, only the living can.  The “jury rests” so to speak.   I am sharing what I’m doing for those who might be looking for a way to evaluate a person, place or thing in a direct manner because they don’t trust much going on in the world at time either.

what is the purpose of gematria in Simple Gematria equals: 318

12/3 cycle

what is the purpose of outdoor chalk in Simple Gematria equals: 387

18/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle – Kyle insisted on getting me some more chalk yesterday and I attempted to do some drawings but was thwarted by an invasion of army worms!  I have almost a phobia about them from childhood.  When these guys invade your yard,  they do not know about boundaries!

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Source Internet: Army Worm

what is the function of an army worm in Simple Gematria equals: 377

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1   (the 17 sequence was me out back with my spray bottle of vinegar and Dawn dish soap freaking out – I finally gave up lol)

 

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18 Sept 2018 Monument (Drawing), Numbers look and song by Röyksopp & Robyn

The name I gave the drawing was Monument.  The brainstorming here pretty much began with that.  This isn’t “all inclusive.”  It never is.  There are so many words in all the languages we speak for these sorts of things.  This is just my looking at what I’ve seen as an observer of the entertainment, “being famous” business.  People who embark on the famous business either rise, coast or fall just like statues.  What is the most important thing?  What we did in this life? How we are remembered after we die?  Follow this all the way to the bottom and you’ll see where I’m at it the question.

doing what you love to do in Simple Gematria equals: 270/9 cycle

monument in Simple Gematria equals: 115/7

statue in Simple Gematria equals: 86/14/7

award in Simple Gematria equals: 47/11

title in Simple Gematria equals: 66/12/6/3 cycle

idol in Simple Gematria equals: 40/4/2/1

role model in Simple Gematria equals: 99/18/9 cycle

example in Simple Gematria equals: 76/13

remembered in Simple Gematria equals: 88/16/8/4/2/1

legacy in Simple Gematria equals: 53/8/4/2/1

honored in Simple Gematria equals: 79/16/8/4/2/1

=1019

recorded in Simple Gematria equals: 72/9 cycle

photographed in Simple Gematria equals: 133/7

filmed in Simple Gematria equals: 49/13

written about in Simple Gematria equals: 168/15

talked about in Simple Gematria equals: 112/4

in a magazine in Simple Gematria equals: 100/1

in a movie in Simple Gematria equals: 88/16/8/4/2/1

in a television show in Simple Gematria equals: 219/16/6/3 cycle

vanity in Simple Gematria equals: 91/10

=1032

narcissist in Simple Gematria equals: 131/5

ego in Simple Gematria equals: 27/9 cycle

pride in Simple Gematria equals: 52/7

word of mouth in Simple Gematria equals: 158/14/7

press release in Simple Gematria equals: 142/7

in the news in Simple Gematria equals: 117/9 cycle

social media in Simple Gematria equals: 91/10

in the internet in Simple Gematria equals: 161/8/4/2/1

fans in Simple Gematria equals: 40/4/2/1

special treatment in Simple Gematria equals: 181/10

=1100

favor in Simple Gematria equals: 62/8/4/2/1

fame in Simple Gematria equals: 25/7

make a lot of money in Simple Gematria equals: 171/9 cycle (money=72)

live a rich lifestyle in Simple Gematria equals: 200/2/1

afford fancy clothes in Simple Gematria equals: 181/10

afford expensive cars in Simple Gematria equals: 210/3 cycle

eat at fancy restaurants in Simple Gematria equals: 252/9 cycle

elaborate vacations in Simple Gematria equals: 183/12/6/3 cycle

=1284

material wealth in Simple Gematria equals: 148/13

live in exclusive neighborhoods in Simple Gematria equals: 330/6/3 cycle

=478

= 4913/1313/44/8/4/2/1

control over your own life in Simple Gematria equals: 320

4913 + 320 = 5233/13/4/2/1

what is the most important thing in Simple Gematria equals: 364/13

what we did in this life in Simple Gematria equals: 208/10

how we are remembered after we die in Simple Gematria equals: 282/12

= 854/17/8  (one of the 8’s is the number for God #26/8  when all is said and done it’s time to return everything we’ve just been borrowing )

 

Röyksopp & Robyn “Monument” (Music Video)

Monument – The Inevitable End Version

Make a space
For my body
Dead or whole,
Push this side apart
This is what I’m controlling,
It’s a mole, the inside that I cart
This will be my monument
This will be a beacon when I’m gone, gone, gone
When I’m gone, gone, gone
When I’m gone!
Soon when that moment comes,
I can say I did it all with love, love, love
All with love, love, love
All with love!
Make a cast of my body
Pull back out,
So that I can see
Make a world
Are you ruling?
Make a world
That I used to be
I will let this monument,
Represent a moment of my life, life, life
Of my
I will let this monument,
Represent a moment of my life, life, life
Of my life, life, life
Of my life!
I will let this monument,
Represent a moment of my life, life, life
Of my life, life, life
Of my life!
Make a cast of my body
Pull back out,
So that I can see
Make a world
Are you ruling?
Make a world
That I used to be
Monument – The Inevitable End Version lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

9 Sept 2018 Thoughts in Spirals (drawing)

9 Sept 2018 – I did this earlier today.  Can you see on the left, the one holding on to their thoughts like a carefully guarded treasure?   “Thoughts in spirals” = 235/10/1

Is what we see what we think or is what we think what we see? (591/15/6/3 cycle) – phrase that came to my mind thinking about this drawing

Reality = 90/9  Fantasy = 86/14/5  Illusion = 111/3  Simulation = 133/7 Creation = 85/13/4  Hologram = 89/17/8/4/2/1

= 594/18/9 cycle

“Life as we know it” = 172/19/10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

594 + 172

= 766/19/10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

It’s interesting to see with just this  little sampling that it boils down to the same answer, in the numbers at least!

 

This stuff has been on my mind again.  Most everything has already been done in music, movies, books, games etc., so what is it that we are buying?  We are paying to read, to play, to see and or to hear someone’s personal interpretation or unique vision/version of what has already come before.  So while the concept of an original thought or idea may not exist, an original interpretation of an existing thought or idea can.  My riddling this out is helpful because it helps me understand some of what is going on with the creative industries these days.

original thought = 184/13/2/1  intellectual property = 267/15/6/3  copyright infringement = 255/12/6/3

= 706/13/4/2/1

copyright = 121/4/2/1  property = 133/7  original = 85/13/4/2/1 creative = 83/11/2/1 rights = 81/9  royalties =124/7  profits = 103/4

ownership = 127/10/1

= 857/20/2/1

“It’s all about making money” = 259/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

“Point of view” = 154/19/10/1

Perspective = 138/12/3

Perception = 121/4/2/1

= 672/15/6/3

706 + 857 + 672 = 2235/48/12/6/3  — seems to boil down to copyright infringement doesn’t it?!

(Thoughts in spirals = 235 showed up in here lol)

Personal interpretation = 284/14/5 very close to original thought = 184/13/2/1 

2235 + 284 = 2519/17/8/4/2/1 very close to “It’s all about making money” = 259/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

money = 72/9

2519 + 72 = 2591/17/8/4/2/1

https://www.copyright.gov/help/faq/faq-definitions.html

What is copyright infringement?

As a general matter, copyright infringement occurs when a copyrighted work is reproduced, distributed, performed, publicly displayed, or made into a derivative work without the permission of the copyright owner.

What is peer-to-peer (P2P) networking?

A type of network where computers communicate directly with each other, rather than through a central server. Often referred to simply as peer-to-peer, or abbreviated P2P, a type of network in which each workstation has equivalent capabilities and responsibilities in contrast to client/server architectures, in which some computers are dedicated to serving the other computers. A “network” is a group of two or more computer systems linked together by various methods. In recent usage, peer-to-peer has come to describe applications in which users can use the Internet to exchange files with each other directly or through a mediating server.

Where is the public domain?

The public domain is not a place. A work of authorship is in the “public domain” if it is no longer under copyright protection or if it failed to meet the requirements for copyright protection. Works in the public domain may be used freely without the permission of the former copyright owner.

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= 863/17/8/4/2/1