29 November 2022 Every Day

Hello to you. How are you today? I hope you are well. I am thinking about how we should try to live our faith everyday not just on holidays and special occasions. When I was married that is something we figured out. You shouldn’t have to wait til your anniversary to express your love for each other. There are so many things that we do for the holidays that we should be doing all year long. We have the opportunity to live our faith every day. Live generously each day as you can.

28 November 2022 A Quest For Answers

Hello to you. Today I had an appt with a doctor at the VA about my swaying situation. He wants to persue a quest for answers through checking my ears and neurology. We brought up the fact I had been tased and want to see if that would have any impact on what’s going on. So we shall see. He’s doing a referral for me through the Elks – I hope they can help me. What pleased both my Aunt and I is that he didn’t just think tapering off medication was the only answer. He is taking the physical into consideration.

It looks like my Aunt and Uncle are interested in going to see Season 3 of The Chosen in the theatre tomorrow. It’s such a good show! By going we would be showing our support.

23 November 2022 Taxes and Movement

Hello to you. How are you? Today I got my Idaho property tax bill – $672! Not exactly thrilled about that. The other thing today is my swaying issue. I can barely walk it was so bad today. So frustrating . I have an appt on Monday about it. There is a part of me that is skeptical that the medical establishment will be able to help me. We shall see what happens. There is a part of me wondering if this was brought on by the tasering I experienced back in August. They say brain damage can be a side effect.

22 November 2022 A Goal

Hello to you. How are you? I hope well. I just had a telephone consult with my psychologist through the VA and it was pretty intense. She is a short term therapist with goal orientated treatment. I don’t know if she and I will be a good fit or not but will give it a try. She wants me to come up with a goal for treatment. The goal I am thinking of involves leaving the house more. This means leaving Link alone more and that’s hard for me. I don’t like leaving him alone a lot. We shall see what comes up. I talked to her about my swaying sensation being a problem about me doing things. She is going to forward a note about it to my nurse.

Something I’m struggling with with volunteering is driving too. May be there is something I can do that doesn’t involve a lot of driving. I will lift this up to God. I will be useful some how.

20 November 2022 Not giving up the faith

Hello to you. How are you today? Today my message has to do with reconciling what happened to me during my episode and not giving up my faith about it. When the police tazzed me like they did I screamed out for Jesus to come and help me but he didn’t come. I ended up in the hospital again. Is that what the answer was? Working through other people to help me? This is what a lot of people have said to me. I have had a crisis of faith but realize without Jesus and his people I am so alone.

Church today

I am not giving up on my faith. May be in all that is happening is a humbling I needed – to realize I can’t do this life alone and have to ask for help.

17 November 2022 Changes

Hello to you. How are you today? I hope well. I’m still the same and so is Link – still limping but not coughing thank goodness. Have to force feed him the pill with cream cheese. What a pain lol.

I had been hearing some construction crew noises behind my house and it turns out they have completely leveled out what was my church along the canal. They removed all the plants and trees! Sigh! Changes are always happening aren’t they?

From this
To this

Thank you for your prayers – my dad is doing better.

15 November 2022 Trees

Hello to you. How are you? Today I’m having a tree trimming service come out and trim my neighbors tree back from my house. It’s amazing how much growth happened over the summer and early fall. It’s not cheap either but needs to be done.

My neighbors tree reaching over to my house

News about Dad is he’s dealing with a UTI (urinary tract infection). Please keep him in your prayers. His name is Larry.

later – think this might be what I’m dealing with for the swaying:

Mal de Debarquement
It literally means sickness of disembarkment. It refers to an illusion of movement felt as an aftereffect of travel on water most frequently. Most individuals will recover following exposure to motion within a few days. It becomes pathological if it persists more than a month. Most patients note a resolution of their symptoms within 12 months. Middle-aged women are most at risk, following exposure to an unfamiliar movement and removal of the stimulus. The pathophysiological process seems to arise from the brain rather than the inner ear. Functional MRI studies suggest that the brain is able to adapt to an unfamiliar movement but is unable to readapt once the movement has stopped. Most commonly, the patients describe their symptoms as rocking, swaying and disequilibrium and rarely a spinning vertigo. The symptoms are worsened when the subject is in an enclosed space or when they are motionless. They feel better when they are moving or driving. Diagnosis is made after taking an appropriate history and after ruling out other disorders that can cause dizziness. There is no single effective treatment for Mal de Débarquement Syndrome. Short-term use of benzodiazepines and may alleviate the symptoms. However, prolonged use may cause delay in the necessary compensation to recover. Vestibular rehabilitation is controversial. Early exposure to motion may exacerbate symptoms. After a variable wait time for spontaneous resolution it can be suggested. The rehabilitation will focus on readjusting the maladapted vestibulo-ocular reflex.

14 November 2022 Usefulness

Hello to you. Hope this finds you well. Found out last night my Dad is having some troubles with his health – so keeping him in my prayers. I am having some problems of my own. When I walk there is a swaying sensation in my head. Don’t know if it my equilibrium or something in my ears. I find because of this that I am having trouble feeling useful. I don’t think it’s vertigo.

My buddy Link this morning

My Aunt and Uncle helped me figure out how to get Link to take his pills – cream cheese! Seems to be working so far.

11 November 2022 Veterans Day

Not my best but have to get back into practice

Hello to you. Hope this finds you well. Today is Veterans Day. A day that exists because of great sacrifices of so many men and women living and dead. I always say the best way to thank me for my service is to try and make it so there are fewer veterans….more peace and less war. I don’t know if I will ever see that but that is my wish for the world!

When I was an AIC