The other day I was walking to the Family Dollar down the street and happened to notice this beautiful tree living near an abandoned house across the street from our local Elementary School. I got to thinking about how nice it would be if that property could be annexed to the school for learning about plants and nature; like a nature learning center or something. There is a large field next to it I imagined being turned into a community garden and it could also be part of the learning center. I imagined children learning how to grow their own food and appreciating nature like I do.
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“horse apple tree” in the English Ordinal system equals 163
(empath – 63)
“hedge apples” in the English Ordinal system equals 98
(together – 98)
“Osage-Orange tree” in the English Ordinal system equals 155
(shared – 55)
Hello to you. I’ve been away for quite awhile again. Lately there have been many things going on in my life that have required my attention on a personal, physical, emotional and spirit level while I am trying to heal from a recent fall. I won’t burden you with the details. This morning my husband and I can’t sleep again even with it being quiet and dark. A lot on our minds, bodies and spirits these days. I believe it is in our house and outside of our houses that affect us on every level – directly and indirectly by the very nature of how our systems are connected as living organisms.
One of the things on my mind right now is how to be there for my family and my friends and still have something left for me. In my current condition I am not able to be there for those I love in the same capacity I have been able to in the past and I kind of beat myself up for it! Am I being a bad friend? A bad daughter? A bad wife? Then comes the “shouldn’ing” all over myself which doesn’t help! So I ran a couple things to share with those of you who this might resonate with – those who might be feeling/going through this right now and have need of a different way to see it:
“Being there” = 93/98/91/76/117/133/146
9 = 42 = self (a “no” self as 5 also equals 42 but I think of this as the feeling/five senses/physical self) 3 = 56 = 42/52 (“self earth”)
98 = together 91= spirit 76 = humans 33= the 46 = body
Being there for a friend = 189
1=34 =one 8=49=alive 9=42=self (add 34 + 49 + 42 = 125 and 25 = all, “a all” = 26 which = God)
Sometimes we can’t be there like we want to for a friend or how a friend might expect us to be so we can pray for them to the God/Gods of our understanding. If you don’t like that – just even having a loving/positive thought for them. It is different for each of us. Sometimes we just can’t be there for someone like they think they want or need from us. An energy greater than ourselves must step in our place for them. For many, that is God.
Being there for family = 198
1=34=one 9=42=self 8=49=alive (add 34 + 42 + 49 = 125)
Being there for yourself = 253
2=58=feeling 5=42=self 3=56=light (add 58 + 42 + 56 = 156) (56’s I have found, why, light out and there are more but these are a couple)
156/128/141/128/141…. = a why a man a garbage? a why a man energy exchange.
For me personally, for the past several months, years…may be most of my life I have questioned my worth, my value….am I garbage? Did God make a mistake by making me? What I have had to do is find a way to make peace within myself so I don’t hate myself all the time. People like my husband, family, my friends all seem to love and care about me but if I don’t love myself, their energies are wasted on me. One of the hardest things I’ve ever done, still do, is tell the person in the mirror I love them.
As I age, that girl looking back at me has changed but when I look in her eyes, that little girl is still looking back at me and I can’t stop loving her. The God I know has changed through the years – stripped down now to energetic form. Why would God expend all that energy to make something and not love it? The human world is full now of creations cast aside, seeming mistakes. Are they really mistakes if God is in all of us? Made all of us? Who decides but God?! These are the questions of our time.
We have all been given a set of clothes to wear in this life and underneath them is energy, children of God. Sometimes our inner child gets lost and just wants to be comforted. We cast about in this world to get some relief from the pain that child may be enduring and we can’t find it! I have gone through that process so many times in my life and it was due in great part to a black, white and tan cocker spaniel named Sam that I found out nothing can fill the void that is created by loss but God. Isn’t it ironic that God turned around is dog. Yes, people living and dead in my life have taught me a great deal of life but with Sam there were no conditions.
I will close for now. I am typing one-handed so can’t do this so often. I hope something here is what you were looking for and or needed today.
*Seeing this today was like they were showing me, “Hey, look what my job is! I have value, I have worth!” We used to be mean to the wasps until I took the time to learn their job in nature actually is. From what I have personally witnessed, their purpose for existence includes trying to keep our trees healthy. Since trees are basically the lungs of the planet, I think that’s a pretty important job! I have read conflicting information about wasps online. My personal experience is they are helpers and teachers. What came through in the numbers is a pecan tree and a teacher have a pattern in common. What I believe is we all, whatever form, are teachers, students, messages and receivers of those messages. I believe everyone has value in one way or another. It’s not always easy to understand what we are trying to convey to each other. I don’t think we should give up trying!
133 – “don’t give up”
Wasp – 59/84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140…….
*remember, these are only just a few of the meanings of these numbers that I have found for myself and am sharing with you.
59’s – dragon, social, size, gather, larvae, learned
84’s – lesson, daughter, motive, “create life”
109 – struggle
40’s – food, weak
58’s – lunch, want, “eat life”, feeling
25’s – all
34’s – chance, free, heat
134 – information
50’s – easy, fight, numb
150’s – understanding, communication, positive image, energy draining, possession, pure oxygen
“The Wasp” – 92/100/162/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140……..
92’s – thinking, seasons, training, opinion, purging, relative, picture, appetite, day shift
100’s – sources, services, attitude, collecting, culture, acknowledge, accumulate, intellect, boundary
62’s – taking, riches, behaves, noise, hearing, germs, humane, queen, disease, favor, plasma, choices
162’s – “break in routine,” “eyes of the sun,” “to have conscience”
44’s – brain, talk
144 – disruption
54’s – love, sun, voice, chemical, health, acting, breath, bodies
154’s – comprehension, “a feeling process,” “point of view,” autonomous
36’s – child, bite, heard, asp, agree
136’s – evaporation, “life experience,” “human nature,” “mixed signals,” “speaking voice”
42’s – self, new, gift, balanced, rain, war, female, rebel
142’s – profiteering, “we are all related,” temperature, “food is energy ,” “energy language,” brain trust, life purpose,
52’s – earth, seeds, caring, speak, heart, raise, create, birds, crop,
152’s – amber tree resin, positive drama, positive being,
pecan tree – 87/114/128/141/128/141……….
87- person, truth, roots, justice
pecan – 39/98/91/76/117/133/146
98 – killer bees (I found this value trying to figure out why people may have a fear of bees/wasps. Remember those old Killer bee television shows and movies? When I was a very small girl I can remember drinking a can of soda without realizing a bee was in the can and I got stung. I was pretty freaked out! It wasn’t the bee’s fault but a “seed of fear” was planted that I had to actively overcome through time. I did this through trying to understand them instead of thinking they were all bad. The same principle I have used towards other insects and life forms to include people. It’s not easy to do but for me personally, it has been worth trying to do.)
76 – humans
117’s – nurture, “I’m sorry,” dissection, projecting, “broken earth,” humility, upbringing, occupation, statement, cultivated, heartbroken, water falls (If you look at a pecan it looks like a human brain in the shell and they are considered a healthy food for the brain). http://www.alzheimersweekly.com/2016/11/pecans-provide-brain-boost.html
tree – 48/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150……….
https://www.lung.org/ – The American Lung Association website
https://www.arborday.org/ – The Arbor Day Foundation website
helpers – 83/105/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150……..
83’s – wisdom, nerves, non-biased
teacher – 60/116/120/156/128/141/28/141…….
“make peace” = 60
Hello to you. This morning has been a bit rough for me. I found out some upsetting news about the health of my neighbors and I found myself feeling very sad and powerless. What could I do but cry with them? Give them hug? Reassurance? Pass on their situation to people who I know are prayer/meditation warriors that could add their names to their list for daily intentions?
After breakfast I realized there was something else I could do not only for them but for myself. I lay down on the grass and talked and cried with the one I love so much, the Earth. I curled up into a ball like a small child and let it all go and was comforted just like being held in loving arms. I have done this before. It’s hard to remember sometimes, when you are all upset and stuck in a moment what to do or who to talk to about such things and get any kind of relief.
Some people talk to priests and people of the church, some call family, some talk to their pets, some people will dig deeper into work, exercise, hobbies…distractions and some people do destructive things because they just don’t know what else to do about what they are feeling.
Feelings get so big that you might feel like you could get lost in them and not find your way out. I’ve done all the things I’ve mentioned but the thing I did this morning has been the best for me. The Earth and sky is “big enough” to carry these things I take on sometimes. I feel bad dumping on other living beings with this kind of pain because it’s “so big.” I know how it feels when it happens to me. Most times, like this morning with our neighbors, I feel so small. I feel powerless and sad! Sometimes it’s so strong I just want to jump out of my skin!
The other thing I realized was this, and I ran the number values on it and the answers I got matched up for me:
“Focus on what you love, what you want to happen, don’t give power to what you don’t want in this world”
(Focus = 64 112/126/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150)
(Grass/true/mercy/chosen =64) (Vulnerable = 112) (Brain=44) (Love=54) (Child=36) (Self/War/balanced=42)(Earth/Caring=52) (Information=134)
(Communication/Understanding/Fifty States = 150) (Purple heart = 140) (Quality of Life = 158) (All = 25)
Ordinal number value: 1109 174/159/118/117/133/146
Two people suffering with a difficult situation, a “90/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle” set of circumstances. Some “74’s” are energy, Jesus, Lucifer, Alvarado, trauma, talking, cross, cloud and parts to name just a couple I’ve found in my journey with this system. I also turned to my Mom and Dad, a 47 and 74 in the number’s to ask for their prayers. The number 47 is also the value for Time. The number 59 is Wish, cruel and spare. The number 118 is witnessed. The number 117 “I’m sorry.” The number 133 condensation…tears. The number 146 relationship. These two neighbors have been so good to us ever since we moved here and those two are like peas and carrots together. It just hurts to see them going through this. I want the very best for them both.
So again this morning I had to remember the question/answer/phrase I use when there are bad storms and I want them to go away:
“What do you want to happen? Focus on what you want to happen not what you don’t.”
The Ordinal number value for this = 859/133/146.
“Who did I cry on? Who comforted me in my sorrow? The Earth. I lay down and wept and was comforted.”
Ordinal number value for this = 911 110/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150
Comforted = 99 84/109/140/158/125/134/150
(Thirteen = 99) (Woman = 66, a right side up 99)
Emergency number = 168 135/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150
(In United States you call 911 for help. Most people use a telephone or cell phone)
(human = 57) human being = 94) (humans = 76) (planet = 68) (people = 69) (psychologist =168)
Good health = 95 84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150
“Turn a frown into a smile and turn the frown upside down” = 598/133/146
Powerless = 132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150
(Life = 32)
Powerful = 116 120/156/128/141/128
(Eternity = 116)
Thought = 99 84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150
Power = 77 130/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150
Feeling = 58 91/76/117/133/146
(A Feeling = 59)
Strength = 111 102/156/128/141/128
(Computer=111) (Why = 56) (Man=28) (Garbage=41) (Energy exchange=141)
Weakness = 97/107/163/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150
Strong = 93 98/91/76/117/133/146
Weak = 40 124/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150
Emotion = 91 76/117/133/146
“To show Emotion” = 191 110/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150
Thanks for stopping by today! Hopefully something here will resonate with you at some level. Writing this helps me work through my feelings about painful experiences and this system often helps give me insights I didn’t have before I began exploring it.
Hello to you. I haven’t been in for a bit – doing lots of queries with the letters to numbers bit these days. Today my husbands friend had a good question that I decided to explore and thought anyone who is interested in this might want to see what came up! So what happens when I do queries of this nature is I am basically brainstorming and doing associations between things that are related to the subject. It’s often surprising and delightful to see the “answers” or may be better yet to say “clues” that come through.
So here goes; the question was: “What is time and how does it work?”
What is time and how does it work ? = 331/146
— what I saw in this result was this: The 3, to me, is “yes, no may be” aspect of existence. How we question ourselves when faced with a person, place, thing or situation we are uncertain about. In this query it would be time. The 146 doesn’t convert to anything else. “One engaged with part of their brain, all the vices (7 deadly sins) but one.” If you add 1 plus 46 it equals 47, which is the number value for time.
— “the yes, no, may be” for the light and shadow of one” = 396/150/140/158/125/134/150
— people=69 communication and uncertainty = 150 light= 56 shadow= 70
This didn’t really help us answer the question did it? So what I did is started taking a look at a bunch of variables, mind you hardly all inclusive, that came to my mind and it was interesting to see what came up. I noticed that there are of course reoccurring patterns and 134, which I recently discovered was information and 150 which is fifty states, communication and uncertainty come up in almost all of them. As is common for me when I do these, specific number values came up that spoke directly to me. When you do this for yourself, should you choose, you may see the same.
To begin I have provided a “ledger” I use to help me make sense of what comes up without having a specific word meaning. Keep in mind, with all the words in the English language there are many variations that can produce similar numeric values. More than one word or sequence of words can equal the same thing and may or may not have the same meaning or association if that make sense?! I would have to be a powerful computer or at this for a much longer time to find all the combinations! Part of my enjoyment of this process is when a new value will come to me for a number that I had a previous association. For example 150 was just fifty states for a time and now it’s communication and uncertainty just showed up this week!
1 – person, animal, object etc.
2 – process
3 – yes, no, may be
4 – brain
5 – sensation/senses/physical aspects
6 – cycle, all the “7” in check but 1
7 – vices, too much, preferences, purpose, motive
8 – system of eternity which can seem slow and the racetrack which can seem fast
9 – no? yes? unsure, uncertainty, resistance, insecurity *interesting to note nine is nein, or “no” in German
10 – Zero = 64 Body = 46 observatory process spirit = 91/10
7 Vices = Pride=52, Envy=66, Wrath=70, Sloth=74, Greed=39, Gluttony=134 and Lust=72
Moderation = 114 Balance=38 controlling yourself = 260 motive = 84 purpose = 110 intention = 120 expectation = 132 resentment = 133
(As always, feel free to add variables of your own. I didn’t add these all up like I normally do this time but you can. It’s interesting to see what final summary comes of many different variables. Sometimes there will be direct correlation to one or more of the variables in the query.)
sunrise = 105/140/158/125/134/150
sunset = 98/91/76/117/133/146
time and the position of the sun = 324/174/159/118/117/133/146
time is a process for one in eternity which is either slow or fast like a racetrack = 793/163/142/152/134/150
earth = 52 information= 134 communication/uncertainty = 150
a racetrack is sometimes in a figure eight design = 424/178/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150
provocation = 148 – this one came up today!
(the number 78 = childhood, the number 8 on its side looks like the eternity symbol and ate/eat = 26/8)
twenty four hour clock = 273/179/141/128/141
(man=28, 141=energy exchange and 41=garbage!)
sundial = 80/113/124
(racetrack and behavior = 80)
chronological time = 179/141/128/141
linear time = 106/150/140/158/125/134/150
rotation of the earth and time = 184/143/150/140/158/125/134/150
the flow of time and space around a person = 381/139/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150
(what was funny about this is Jackie=39 and Life=32!)
pace = 25/100/162/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150
(earth = 52/100 brain=44 54=sun/love
speed = 49/102/156/128/141
world time = 119/110/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/1/50
clock = 44/120/156/128/141
brain = 44/120/156/128/141
thinking time is passing by quickly = 377/186/135/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150
believing time is passing by quickly = 370/185/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150
time standing still = 207/187/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150
to stop time = 152/134/150/140/158/125/134/150
counter clockwise = 196/128/141
counter clockwise rotation = 308/169/128/141
counter clockwise rotation of the earth = 447/185/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150
brain = 44 time = 47 “brain time” = 91/76/117/113/146
to go forward in time = 212/150/140/158/125/134/150
to go backward in time = 190/140/158/125/134/150
backward = 63 child = 36
to stand still in time = 235/156/128/141/128
time stasis = 134/150
time travel = 125 134/150
all = 25 travel = 78 childhood=78
to relive a childhood through your child = 397/163/142/152/134/150
mistakes = 97
giving you child the childhood you were not given = 512/134/150
sparing your child the childhood you lived = 423/174/159/118/117/133/146
Alvarado, Jesus, Lucifer, Larry are some 74’s
learning from your own childhood and not repeating the same mistakes with your own children = 936/150
child = 36 learning = 80 behavior= 80
experiencing the passing of time through watching children grow up = 670/181/117/133/146
experiencing the passage of time through watching children grow up = 653/150
passage = 68 planet = 68
to give birth = 135/132
life = 32
to witness life = 176/151/110/132
hysterectomy = 176 (I had this happen to me in August 2005)
to witness death = 182/141/128
to experience life = 171/133/146
to experience death = 177/164/146
power = 77 Christ = 77
*in high school I wrote a poem titled Lady time and this progression made me this of it
Lady Time = 89/91/76/117/133/146
Schmidt, my maiden name = 76
“Lady Time sits with her hour glass and watches as time passes her by” = 669/146
woman = 66 people= 69
“she is surprised at all the time she’s managed to waste as the world spins by her with such extreme haste” = 1028/205/164/146
waste = 68 world = 72 haste = 53
(old phrase this made me remember from my Grandparents, “haste makes waste” = 170/163/142/152/134/150)
I hope this resonates with someone besides this numbers to letter nerd I’ve become these days. This system came to me during a time when I didn’t even know what Gematria was. Just the nudge to take a look at words by putting a number with the alphabet and see what they said. Having trust issues to the degree I was having and yet have at times, this gave me some direction, relief and insight. Thank you for stopping by.
Hello to you visitor. I am reposting this from my personal archives because it feels like a good time to do it – for myself. Some of what is here has evolved and changed in my mind, body and spirit these past few years but much is the same. During the past couple of years I have allowed the events of the world, both near and far, to taint my heart….to taint my spirit and faith in my fellow human beings. I have become a very bitter, distrustful person – extremely suspicious person that questions the motives and activities of the very fabric of our existence. I don’t think I am alone. What I am having to keep coming back to is my love for the God of my understanding who lets me yet live no matter how flawed a person I have been or am yet today. I don’t know if there is anything here for you but chances are if you are here to see it, to read it, to try and understand it, perhaps you are in the right place. This is my intention. When this came to me I wrote it all down and have those notes still. I will spare you the trouble of pictures and my scribble to read. If you are like me, sometimes is difficult to read online documents for extended periods of time. Feel free to come back, to take a break. I will try to refrain from deleting this again. I have a nasty habit of doing that….I lose faith in myself.
“we are all on a quest called life” in the English Ordinal system equals 258/15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by two equals 1.5 = 6….. or 3 cycle
“two five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 149 – one engages with their brain on a “no” path or “nein” in German
“one four nine” in the English Ordinal system equals 136 – one engaged in a “yes, no may be” process, all the “vices” in check but one
one three six” in the English Ordinal system equals 142 – one engaged with their brain in the process
“one four two” in the English Ordinal system equals 152 – one engaged with the sensation of the five senses in the process
(“earth” in the English Ordinal system equals 52) – our home
*note – these two influential men are just a portion of those who have influenced and taught me much I have needed to know about this life. I believe everyone, no matter their form, is both teacher and student in this life.
24 March 2015
Two halves of one whole – Nikola Tesla and Wilhelm Reich
This morning I had another “Aha” but this time it was the biggest yet. I mentioned in a recent blog that I had begun exploring the making of orgonite. Well in my research of the founder of Orgone, Wilhem Reich, I realized this was familiar. Many years ago I remember reading or hearing about a “rain maker.” A man who went to drought stricken towns and with a device “made it rain.” He had been denounced and pretty much labeled a quack so he slipped out of my consciousness but I always wondered after learning about him if we could control the weather. I never knew his name…until now.
So I’ve made a couple pieces of my own orgonite and before reading more about Wilhelm’s origin story had wondered if orgonite could be used to help with mental health therapy…low and behold he thought so too and did a lot of research and experiments to prove it! I wanted to learn more and this morning watched a video on You tube from the Wilhelm Reich Infant Trust. It’s a short, 3 part documentary called “Man’s Right to Know” detailing Reich’s life and research. It hit me pretty hard that what happened to him is almost verbatim to what happened to Tesla!
“Man’s right to know, to learn, to inquire, to investigate human emotions must, by all means be safe if the word Freedom should ever be more than an empty political slogan.” Reich’s response to Complaint for Injunction
So I’m going to share with you here how two halves of my crude learning and discovery have come together. Contrary to past posts, I’m not editing this from my scrap paper scrawl. I am not a scientist or particularly learned individual…my school has primarily been life. My Dad has told me that is what life is….”Life is school; we are never out of school.”
Some of what I write here may seem extreme and hard to digest…comprehend. If you find this conflict within yourself as you try to read this, I say I may not be your messenger. You must seek your messenger elsewhere but this message to you must be received.
Revelation, 24 March 2015/7:12 am
Reich’s work is tangible evidence to show why what we put in our bodies is largely responsible for our “energetic manifestation of reality…our bodies.” Ingesting too much “dead” organic matter or an imbalance of it with “living” organic matter actually kills the living organisms within us. Must have balance of dead and living ingestion to have healthy body. Must have regular exercise and “sexercise” to discharge excess atmospheric energy our bodies are exposed to by people, animals, plants, insects, physical structures man-made and natural like rocks and minerals. This is why after sex, especially after exercise (specifically outdoors) and chores I feel better! If I don’t discharge energy, I feel angry, restless, and moody, depressed, overeat, seek “comfort” in shopping, entertainment etc.
Because I, and other “highly sensitive” people; Empaths, ingest much more atmospheric energy, we must use powerful, frequent discharge/detox techniques to balance or “ground” ourselves. We are tiny “mini-me’s” of Mother Earth. What happens with her weather systems and climate is her technique for discharge/release of excess energy i.e. storms with a lot of lightening, hurricanes, typhoons, tornados earthquakes. (to add here I would say it is also in these things and floods, heat waves, drought and other extremes she is doing things we do to try and heal ourselves and express emotion just on a much larger scale!).
Nikola Tesla studied energy, discovered “everything is energy” but on another level than Reich. Tesla was metallic, Reich organic as an analogy. I now have the two halves of the equation which leads me to comprehension of my abilities, interest, path of discovery and experimentation on a very crude, personal scale….my observation and experience not in a lab, in my life and the lives I encounter and catalyze. As Reich said of those who sought to destroy, discredit, erase, and “blot out” his research, his existence and the validity and value of his work and of its existence….”I do not like it, I don’t want it, I fear it (I will destroy it – my add here.)” He said, “It’s in their structure, it’s in their blood” (kind of like Jesus supposedly said of those who crucified him, “Forgive them Father, they know not what they do.”)
I have it in my structure, my blood to be the polar opposite! Reich, Tesla were my brothers of blood. Our ancestry and origins of our structure and blood from the same regions of the world. Further in my blood, 1%…Jesus…Jew….rebellion, free thinking, discovery, true understanding and the quest for proof, further understanding and learning. These two men, all of the other men and women whose life’s work were for the betterment of the common people..one source…one purpose…unification of the “All.” Peace amongst the “All “and the center source is understanding the Life Force, Universal consciousness, God, the one energy that connects us all.
We all come from, return to, come back to from the one source – an “energy eco-system.”
So to a degree the religions do have it kind of correct. The way they have gone wrong is trying to control how this one force is received and processed by each living creature. This is why one person may hear a message at church, work, home, in society and it will either “resonate” and promote action or it won’t.
Very early on a thing Ken (my ex-husband) pointed out in frustration was how he’d tell me something important like “No one can make you feel anything” and it wasn’t until I heard someone else say it would it “resonate”, make sense to me, help me comprehend it and act on this knowledge in my life. This is why I say often, “Every message has an intended receiver. What my message is may not be the tone, flavor etc. for my intended recipient. They will have to hear my message through someone else but it will be delivered!” So this is why we must have tolerance in all structures of civilization. There is one Life Force but there are infinite delivery systems (messengers) and conductors of this one force.
To restrict these delivery systems (messengers) and conductors to one acceptable receiving system only..one channel…obstructs the Life force for each individual. This is why there is no “right” or “wrong” way of thinking or doing (I will add it is this way of constructing society that is responsible for our current dysfunction) only different; perfectly valid. This is called perception. We are biologically incapable of all perceiving reality the same way and for any religious, political, organizational entity to demand only one, acceptable (permissible) perception is an abomination against the Life Force… God.
Our thoughts and deeds are energetic manifestations and forces to shape our shared reality. Right now religious, political, organizational powers who choose to manifest and use money energy oppress and control those “beneath” them in class and station are going against the Life Force, against God. They have been doing so throughout human history, it’s “in their structures, in their blood” as Reich said. Their entire existence, conscious and unconscious, is about controlling what they fear, “They don’t like us, don’t want us, fear us” but unfortunately (ironically) for them, they need us to continue to exist how they do. Without our labor, our children, our thoughts, our ideas, our bodies/blood to shed on battlefields for their causes, our weaknesses that they exploit with money energy to support their lifestyles they will cease to exist.
When we give our “will” (what we buy, where we work, what we think, how we vote, how we learn, what we eat, how we carry out our daily lives) to them and their chosen money energy agendas..we give away the piece of Life Force/God that exists in all living things, which Reich in his research tangible showed and proved existed to us, to those who use the Life Force for their selfish and self-serving intent.
Their activities are an offense to the ultimate source. As history has repeatedly shown, “These shall not stand.”
No human being can stop the will of the one source. They obviously do not believe, understand or are in arrogant defiance of this truth. Do they think by controlling reproduction and any facet of the will of people, plants, and animals there are no consequences? Do not these times show us the consequence of their structural design? (Flawed design). Specifically what comes to mind is abortion. I do not like it but think it’s between the woman and God. The church fears aborting a child will kill the second coming of Christ but I say to this – do you really think aborting a child would prevent God’s coming? Do they now see the parade through time of the second coming? God’s chosen? Some newly born and some very late in life to serve God’s will. No one can stop the will, the message, and the purpose of the Life Force…of God. The message will be delivered and received by those intended…if they are unsuccessful…there will be another. There is no “one” second coming or savior. We all, every living creature born each day is Gods arrival. (To add – in each vessel is the potential for the message to be delivered and received…acted upon.)
Those in power to use the Life Force to kill, maim, oppress, manipulate, deceive, torture, abuse, neglect, libel and steal will suffer the consequences of their activities.
Our individual piece of the Life Force amplifies, distorts or diminishes the consequences felt by them AND by us.
Our thoughts are energy. What we focus on, put our emotional and thought energy on and subsequently act on expands…it grows…it manifests reality. When we focus on what’s wrong, what we don’t like, don’t want, fear…we are creating more of it…giving it our personal power…Life Force…feeding it. “Mind your thoughts” and “Be careful what you wish for, surely you will get it” are phrases we know and say without understanding the truth in them.
As a more than 1% of the population we must reclaim our personal pieces of the Life Force and channel our for we want in the world…how we want to change the world. We must simplify, unify, choose tangible contact with people, places, nature and things vs the distractions used to control us (technology)…placate us. We already know what is wrong, the point has been made long ago, we must now focus on what we need to do to make it right….restore balance to us and in turn the Earth.
https://nikolateslamuseum.org/en/ – link to the museum dedicated to sharing the works of “Nikki” as I fondly call him lol.
Here is a link to a three part video that could give you some personal insight into why I admire the work of Dr. Reich:
http://wilhelmreichtrust.org/ – website to learn more about him if you are interested
Forgiveness – https://www.ridingthebeast.com/gematria-calculator/
My interpretation through this system of what forgiveness is. It is a process within the two sides of ourselves to determine if we will let the harm someone else has caused us be set aside or whether or not we will hold on to it. Sometimes, for me, it seems like I’ve let something go from the past but something in the present can trigger an old wound. This has been happening to me recently in my own life. There are a lot of “broken pieces” in my house as evidence. I glued some of them together yesterday and made some art out it like I’ve done in the past and posted here.
I deleted all my previous posts because sometimes, without meaning to, you can hurt people with things you write.
Not many people understand this system that came to me around February of last year…..trust issues. Gematria has been around a long time but the way I interpret it isn’t the same as other people do it. To consider both the light and shadow aspects of ourselves. I am split in two in most any way you can be, so this makes sense to me and may make sense to others like me. This message is for you then. I feel like God gave me this as a life preserver to try and help me get a grasp on reality. It is my duty to pass it on….for free. It doesn’t belong to me, it belongs to the God of my understanding.
“Forgiveness” in the English Ordinal system equals 139/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 (light and shadow of ourselves) = 6.5 = 11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 *My name, Jackie, is 39. To look at this number is one person in a “yes, no, may be” situation and nine for me is nein, nein in German is No.
“one three nine” in the English Ordinal system equals 132 – one person in a “yes, no may be” situation yet and now they are in the process of deciding what they will do between the two sides of themselves.
“one three two” in the English Ordinal system equals 148 – one person engaged now with their brain, brain is 44 in the numbers in the racetrack or seeming infinity process that is life.
“one four eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 143 – one person engaged yet with their brain in the “yes, no, may be” process of forgiveness.
“one four three” in the English Ordinal system equals 150 – one person engaged in the five senses, the “sensation” of the unknown aspects of forgiveness. What will happen if they forgive? This number is also fifty states and communication in the numbers.
“one five zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 140 – one person engaged with their brain in the unknown aspects of forgiveness.
“one four zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 158 – one person engaged in the five senses, the “sensation” while living on the racetrack or seeming infinity that is life. The number eight is the infinity symbol if you draw it.
“one five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 125 – one person engaged in the process of forgiveness and the five senses, the “sensation” and or feeling of what it is like to forgive.
“one two five” in the English Ordinal system equals 134 – one person engaged in the “yes, no, may be” aspect along with their brain….”shall I continue?”
“one three four” in the English Ordinal system equals 150 – one person engaged in the five senses again, the “sensation” of forgiveness and their are many unknown aspects….variables they can’t control. It is a cycle. I forgive but seldom can forget which can be difficult for people who would like to forget the past and I remind them of it.
“Thank you” in the English Ordinal system equals 115/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
“one one five” in the English Ordinal system equals 110/2/1
https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/thanks – I was curious about the origins of this phrase. Couldn’t find a whole lot!
A phrase that I say quite often is thank you. A phrase I say to someone because I want them to know I appreciate them be they a human being or any other form of life. A phrase I express to the God of my understanding for the food I eat, having a place to live, clothes on my back, water to drink, having my health and all the other aspects that make up my simple life.
Just two words….”thank you.”
It’s sometimes easy to lose sight of what we have and focus on what we don’t have. There are days it’s easier for me to complain, pass judgement on others and make myself miserable. This is when is a good time to give thanks. To pull out a mental gratitude list and find that all the positives in my life far outweigh the negatives.
“The Attitude of Gratitude”
“the attitude of gratitude” in the English Ordinal system equals 259/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1 (the straight path I see is seeing the world in one way or the other without discernment or questioning.)
(7 divided by 2, for me, a world divided into two parts within a person and outside of a person. Seeing the world with both the light and shadow sides of ourselves. When 8 arrives, for me, I see the arrival of God (26) which gradually brings you back to 1 or yourself. Not everyone believes in the same God. Not everyone has the same concept of God. Not everyone even believes in God. This is just how I interpret these values for myself. How I perceive “God” isn’t even like my family or most people I know. I see God as the energy of all creation – the earth, all the planets and all known existence. That’s just me and I don’t expect anyone also to adopt this concept. I like to show, via this system, the messages and patterns that I see. This system is a way for me to find some semblance of trust in a system I am finding so much fault with these days.)
“two five nine” in the English Ordinal system equals 142
“gratitude” in the English Ordinal system equals 105/6/3 cycle
“one zero five” in the English Ordinal system equals 140
“world” in the English Ordinal system equals 72/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle
“seven two” in the English Ordinal system equals 123