Hello to you, how are you? It’s hard to believe it’s already been a year since the last Memorial Day….how quickly does time go as I get older. I miss the family I spent the last Memorial Day with in Texas but God has provided me with loving family in my here and now. There is great symbolism in Memorial Day. It symbolizes for me both endings and beginnings. I am still mourning my losses and probably always will on some level or another. Do we ever truly forget those we love? Once a name has been etched on heart does it ever completely fade? I say no.
“memorial day ” in the English Ordinal system equals 116
Hello to you. How are you today? This morning I am still processing what happened yesterday. I went out and spent a few hours with husband and his family for Memorial Day. Kyle and I had the talk I been dreading for us to have but it was necessary. Spot sat between us. The past four years have just proven to be more than Kyle can take. He is also trying to progress in a career where he is going to be gone a lot. I may not be financially high maintenance but emotionally I can be. I’m kind of like a dog with separation anxiety to be honest. I don’t do well being by myself too long. So he’s doing what is best for himself and ultimately I think this will be good for me too I just can’t see it yet. I think things are going to be alright. With everything that has happened between us the past few years, our friendship remains intact and that means the world to me! I got to spend time with Spot too and she seemed much more relaxed than I’ve seen her in a long time which is a good thing.
At about 3 pm Tim played TAPS. It reminded me of when we had all gone to Arlington National Cemetery and he and his family played.
We played a few rounds of Yahtzee and of course I didn’t win! It was fun to spend some time together like that. I am blessed to have such understanding people as family.
How are you today? I’m doing pretty good. It’s a wet Memorial Day. They say it’s going to be like this all day. I guess it’s a fitting thing that it be raining on this somber holiday. In the past couple of years, my husband and honored this holiday by going to our local cemetery. Instead of doing that this year, I will be going to spend some time with my husband, his family and of course Spotty. Last night before bed I was imagining saying hello to her and being so excited!
Memorial Day” in the English Ordinal system equals 116
“a remembrance” in the English Ordinal system equals 98
“together” in the English Ordinal system equals 98
Remembering, like I mentioned in my post yesterday, is a mixed thing. It can be a helpful skill and as my husband used to day about his having a great memory, it can be a curse. I am struggling with the curse part right now. When I remember things it is such a visceral experience that it hurts. In our current times I’m sure I’m not alone. On this day I can guess there are many who wish they didn’t have to remember what today is about! My heart goes out to anyone reading this that can relate to that.
Goals for today:
Today I will rest in gratitude that I am here and yet able to remember. Today I will give thanks for what and who I have in my life. Today I will have hope that today and the tomorrows yet to come will be filled with great new memories.