16 Nov 2018 Mother Earth

16 Nov 2018 Jackie painting outside with fabric paint Alvarado TX DSC_0257 – used up the last of the fabric paint I had. An abstract interpretation of the mother we all share….earth.

What follows here may or may not make any sense to you.  It’s just come to me to put this together and put it out into the blogosphere and hope it helps somehow.  What has been coming to me with these numbers and words is we are tasking nature to a breaking point and cannot delay or procrastinate change much longer.  The earth doesn’t understand delays and or excuses we might make to put off what is hard but must be done.

witch mother in Simple Gematria equals: 142 *52  – phrase that came up in my meditations recently and I was surprised it had the same value as earth only because I had never put the two together. 

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52*

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

mother earth in Simple Gematria equals: 131

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

human in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

soul in Simple Gematria equals: 67

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

spirit of the earth in Simple Gematria equals: 197

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 646

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

*This phrase that came to me thinking about our relationship with the earth.  We have become estranged from whom all of what we are and shall ever be – the earth. 

who suffers the works of man in Simple Gematria equals: 308

who suffers the works of women in Simple Gematria equals: 350

those who cannot speak in Simple Gematria equals: 232

the language of the trees in Simple Gematria equals: 222

all men women and their children in Simple Gematria equals: 279

= 1391/491/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

http://www.thefinertimes.com/Middle-Ages/witches-and-witchcraft-in-the-middle-ages.html – interesting article about the history of what happened to people who were declared to be witches (wise women).

wise women in Simple Gematria equals: 126 (god in Simple Gematria equals: 26)

midwife in Simple Gematria equals: 69 (people in Simple Gematria equals: 69)

=195/69/15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

wise wom·an
[wīz ˈwo͝omən]

NOUN
wise women (plural noun)
  1. a woman considered to be knowledgeable in matters such as herbal healing, magic charms, or other traditional lore.
    synonyms:
    prophet · prophetess · seer · sibyl · augur · wise man · wise woman · sage · oracle · prognosticator · prophesier · forecaster of the future · diviner · fortune teller · ·

    [more]
    crystal gazer · clairvoyant · psychic · spiritualist · medium · palmist · palm reader · spaeman · spaewife · haruspex · vaticinator · oracler
    mother in Simple Gematria equals: 79
    father in Simple Gematria equals: 58
    brother in Simple Gematria equals: 86
    sister in Simple Gematria equals: 90
    stepmother in Simple Gematria equals: 139
    stepfather in Simple Gematria equals: 118
    children in Simple Gematria equals: 73
    grandfather in Simple Gematria equals: 102
    grandmother in Simple Gematria equals: 123
    aunt in Simple Gematria equals: 56
    uncle in Simple Gematria equals: 55
    relative in Simple Gematria equals: 92
    family in Simple Gematria equals: 66
    = 1137/12/6/3 cycle
    friend in Simple Gematria equals: 56
    neighbor in Simple Gematria equals: 78
    = 134/44/8/4/2/1
    city in Simple Gematria equals: 57
    state in Simple Gematria equals: 65
    country in Simple Gematria equals: 116
    home in Simple Gematria equals: 41
    house in Simple Gematria equals: 68
    world in Simple Gematria equals: 72
    planet in Simple Gematria equals: 68
    room in Simple Gematria equals: 61
    = 548/98/17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
    646 + 1391 + 195 + 1137 + 134 + 548 = 4051/91/10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
    battle of the sexes in Simple Gematria equals: 186
    patriarch in Simple Gematria equals: 94
    matriarch in Simple Gematria equals: 91
    = 371/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

    4051 + 371 = 4422/84/12/6/3 cycle

we are using up all the space to run away from arguments in Simple Gematria equals: 569

move away in Simple Gematria equals: 105

urban sprawl in Simple Gematria equals: 145

= 819/99/18/9 cycle (9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9)

(thirteen in Simple Gematria equals: 99)

    4422 + 819 = 5241/75/12/6/3 cycle

cooperation in Simple Gematria equals: 131 (mother earth in Simple Gematria equals: 131)

  5241 + 131 = 5372/89/17/8/4/2/1  or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

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“Why empathy?” Silence. “Why compassion?” Silence. “Why should we care about each other?” No one answered. It wasn’t that we didn’t want to answer, we simply struggled to find the best reasoning for it. Perhaps we had never asked ourselves these existential questions before. Perhaps we couldn’t find an answer that wasn’t trite, naïve, or saturated […]

via The Pendulum of Empathy — A Light Circle

My thoughts:

What came to me, even before finishing reading this, “Fill the void with love.” This is something I am actively trying to do for myself. When there is a “space” a “gap” a lacking for an answer, put positive energy, love, whatever it is that generates warmth in your heart and makes you genuinely happy in that emptiness before hate, bigotry and all the “ism’s and “ists” go to fill it. When those who don’t know what love is go to fill the spaces, they will find love and may be we will finally start getting to where we want to go as a world. It doesn’t mean forget or denial that bad things are happening, wearing rose colored glasses and such. It’s transformation with love – alchemy of love.
anger in Simple Gematria equals: 45
love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

= 99 (thirteen)

(alchemy of love in Simple Gematria equals: 142)

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

99 + 142 = 241

5 Nov 2018 The Pendulum of Empathy — A Light Circle – (reblog)

Healer of the Broken Hearted (reblog Rachel Mankowitz post)

Personal stories about what violence like happened in Pittsburgh does to people and communities are not isolated to the point of impact but the radius that spreads from the point of impact. Violence of this magnitude is like the detonation of a bomb or any other form of violence against one, against oneself or the many….it spreads one way or another to us all.  When I read Rachel’s story and message, had to pass it on!  She is a beautiful example of courage and not letting fear determine the course of her life.

My comment to Rachel’s post best expresses how I see this:

“The phrase “staying in the warm space” came to mind reading this. “What do you love the most?” energy is what we were taught to tap into during my Quantum Touch Energy healing training. Pure, unconditional love, which our pet family often teaches us about the best, is what we need to take out into the world to help other see what love looks like. Many people in this world have no idea and so they turn to what they know and sadly that is often hate, bigotry and violence. They were taught this. I’m so sorry you and members of the spiritual world you are part of are having to endure this lesser aspect of human nature. Remember, they are broken. It’s easy to pray and love our family and friends, not so much the broken. I have to remind myself about this each day. Love and hugs to you sweet girl.”

(I’m currently reading A Wind In the Door by Madeline L’Engle and ironically loving your enemies is one of Margaret’s lessons.  When you love someone who seems unlovable, sometimes all that is unlovable ceases to exist to reveal who the person underneath all the hate and darkness truly is…worthy of love.  They always were lovable but their existence, for whatever reasons, made them forget.)

A question I have been asking myself a lot lately, “What brings you joy?”  Do I feel my heart in the center of me radiating warmth and light or has it fallen into my stomach or is it stuck in my throat?  The place of fear or obstruction being the throat most times!  You can consciously move where your heart, your fragment of the sun sits within you with your thoughts, feelings and actions.  You have a personal barometer placed right in the center of you to help you navigate this life.  As my Quantum Touch teacher Carol Lee taught me, “If it ain’t light, it ain’t right!”   

 

healer of the broken hearted in Simple Gematria equals: 229

49/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

what brings you joy in Simple Gematria equals: 232 (the lovely part of this is my full maiden name comes to 223!)

52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 461/11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

*I am learning that 13 has to do with the struggle between our natures whether it is in yourself or the world.   The push and pull, the tipping and rebalancing of the scales.

4 Nov 2018 Jackie first drawing new sketch book Alvarado TX DSC_0239

rachelmankowitz

We had a solidarity service at my synagogue last Sunday, in the aftermath of the shootings at the Tree of Life synagogue in Pittsburgh. Four synagogues came together in one building, and by the time Mom and I arrived, twenty minutes before the service started, there was no parking left. People had to stand along the sides of the sanctuary after all of the seats had been filled. The clergy of all four synagogues led the service, with readings by the rabbis and songs by the cantors. There was an enormous amount of crying, but I couldn’t cry. The music was beautiful. The presence of clergy from all of the local Christian denominations was meaningful (the local mosque was planning another service for the following day). But the words didn’t reach me. I just wanted to find comfort, and to feel something, but I couldn’t feel anything.

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28 Oct 2018 Stay in Love

28 Oct 2018 – message that came through for me today and I’m passing it along, “stay in love.”  The way it came to me was with sunshine at the end.  People close to me call me that sometimes.  A loving message to pass on in lieu of recent tragic events in our world. 

stay in love in Simple Gematria equals: 142

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

powerless in Simple Gematria equals: 132

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

powerful in Simple Gematria equals: 116

8/4/2/1

power in Simple Gematria equals: 77

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the power of love in Simple Gematria equals: 185

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

Power is a force exerted. Love is a power only when expressed. The power of love is potentially transformative and when expressed is kinetic; transformation occurs because of love’s movement; through the power of love, the universe is both effected and perfected. Love is infinitely available and infinitely created.

From what is coming to me through my own personal journey, it is unresolved differences that are at the root of my own personal problems.  It is when I have turned to love to face them, instead of resentment, anger, hate, fear and violence,  I have begun to find healing within myself.  I have found some semblance of inner peace.
When I look at our shared history it is riddled with unresolved differences and it is layers of this “unresolvedness” that is passed on generation to generation.
 unresolved differences in Simple Gematria equals: 229 (differences in Simple Gematria equals: 94*)
*49/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
the empire never ended in Simple Gematria equals: 195  (Philip K. Dick)
15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
(empire in Simple Gematria equals: 66)
transgenerational trauma in Simple Gematria equals: 267
15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

Transgenerational trauma is trauma that is transferred from the first generation of trauma survivors to the second and further generations of offspring of the survivors via complex post-traumatic stress disorder mechanisms.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transgenerational_trauma
forgive yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 203
5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
forgive others in Simple Gematria equals: 167
14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

8 Oct 2018 Just for Us

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well as you visit here.  Thank you for stopping by.  I know the numbers bit may not make much sense sometimes but it’s my new normal.  I am trying to maintain balance and make sure it’s not the only thing I’m doing as you can see.  My earth bowls are still in the works and look pretty much the same as the last time I talked about them.  They just have a lot more layers of the coating I’ve been putting on them.  It feels good when I hold them.  I can feel their energy in my body, so I know they will be what I intended when I put them together.  The bowls I made in the past were helpful to those I gave them to.

Yesterday evening I was outside with my headphones and some pretty powerful clouds were rising up all around us.  So beautiful.  I listened to the music and just embraced the energy between my fingers.  In the clouds, for me, is one of the powerful, tangible and visible ways that God manifests for me.  The clouds shifted on and in their place the view was replaced by one of my favorite sights in all the world, a rainbow.  I was tempted to run inside and grab my camera to take a picture but inside I heard, “Just for us.”  This is a phrase Kyle and I use between us when we are out, see something amazing and don’t have the camera…..”Just for us to see.”

Some things, some moments aren’t meant to be shared with anyone.  They are a gift from God to you specifically.   It’s an opportunity to be still, to feel, to be mindful, to be in a moment….to be loved.

 

just for us in Simple Gematria equals: 149 (one 13 – I was born on the 13th)

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

two as one in Simple Gematria equals: 112 (two 1’s that become 2)

4/2/1

cosmic twins in Simple Gematria equals: 147 (complete and eternal)

12/6/3 cycle

rainbow in Simple Gematria equals: 82 (God and the two parts of me who saw it)

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (there are 7 recognized colors in the rainbow, I have seen 8, pink)

clouds in Simple Gematria equals: 74 (two eyes that see something that is many parts moving as one)

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

sky in Simple Gematria equals: 55 (like the rainbow, like a painters canvas in Simple Gematria equals: 162)

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 634/94/13/4/2/1  or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://www.gematrix.org/ – I use this when I’m online and for longer phrases

 

18 Sept 2018 Monument (Drawing), Numbers look and song by Röyksopp & Robyn

The name I gave the drawing was Monument.  The brainstorming here pretty much began with that.  This isn’t “all inclusive.”  It never is.  There are so many words in all the languages we speak for these sorts of things.  This is just my looking at what I’ve seen as an observer of the entertainment, “being famous” business.  People who embark on the famous business either rise, coast or fall just like statues.  What is the most important thing?  What we did in this life? How we are remembered after we die?  Follow this all the way to the bottom and you’ll see where I’m at it the question.

doing what you love to do in Simple Gematria equals: 270/9 cycle

monument in Simple Gematria equals: 115/7

statue in Simple Gematria equals: 86/14/7

award in Simple Gematria equals: 47/11

title in Simple Gematria equals: 66/12/6/3 cycle

idol in Simple Gematria equals: 40/4/2/1

role model in Simple Gematria equals: 99/18/9 cycle

example in Simple Gematria equals: 76/13

remembered in Simple Gematria equals: 88/16/8/4/2/1

legacy in Simple Gematria equals: 53/8/4/2/1

honored in Simple Gematria equals: 79/16/8/4/2/1

=1019

recorded in Simple Gematria equals: 72/9 cycle

photographed in Simple Gematria equals: 133/7

filmed in Simple Gematria equals: 49/13

written about in Simple Gematria equals: 168/15

talked about in Simple Gematria equals: 112/4

in a magazine in Simple Gematria equals: 100/1

in a movie in Simple Gematria equals: 88/16/8/4/2/1

in a television show in Simple Gematria equals: 219/16/6/3 cycle

vanity in Simple Gematria equals: 91/10

=1032

narcissist in Simple Gematria equals: 131/5

ego in Simple Gematria equals: 27/9 cycle

pride in Simple Gematria equals: 52/7

word of mouth in Simple Gematria equals: 158/14/7

press release in Simple Gematria equals: 142/7

in the news in Simple Gematria equals: 117/9 cycle

social media in Simple Gematria equals: 91/10

in the internet in Simple Gematria equals: 161/8/4/2/1

fans in Simple Gematria equals: 40/4/2/1

special treatment in Simple Gematria equals: 181/10

=1100

favor in Simple Gematria equals: 62/8/4/2/1

fame in Simple Gematria equals: 25/7

make a lot of money in Simple Gematria equals: 171/9 cycle (money=72)

live a rich lifestyle in Simple Gematria equals: 200/2/1

afford fancy clothes in Simple Gematria equals: 181/10

afford expensive cars in Simple Gematria equals: 210/3 cycle

eat at fancy restaurants in Simple Gematria equals: 252/9 cycle

elaborate vacations in Simple Gematria equals: 183/12/6/3 cycle

=1284

material wealth in Simple Gematria equals: 148/13

live in exclusive neighborhoods in Simple Gematria equals: 330/6/3 cycle

=478

= 4913/1313/44/8/4/2/1

control over your own life in Simple Gematria equals: 320

4913 + 320 = 5233/13/4/2/1

what is the most important thing in Simple Gematria equals: 364/13

what we did in this life in Simple Gematria equals: 208/10

how we are remembered after we die in Simple Gematria equals: 282/12

= 854/17/8  (one of the 8’s is the number for God #26/8  when all is said and done it’s time to return everything we’ve just been borrowing )

 

Röyksopp & Robyn “Monument” (Music Video)

Monument – The Inevitable End Version

Make a space
For my body
Dead or whole,
Push this side apart
This is what I’m controlling,
It’s a mole, the inside that I cart
This will be my monument
This will be a beacon when I’m gone, gone, gone
When I’m gone, gone, gone
When I’m gone!
Soon when that moment comes,
I can say I did it all with love, love, love
All with love, love, love
All with love!
Make a cast of my body
Pull back out,
So that I can see
Make a world
Are you ruling?
Make a world
That I used to be
I will let this monument,
Represent a moment of my life, life, life
Of my
I will let this monument,
Represent a moment of my life, life, life
Of my life, life, life
Of my life!
I will let this monument,
Represent a moment of my life, life, life
Of my life, life, life
Of my life!
Make a cast of my body
Pull back out,
So that I can see
Make a world
Are you ruling?
Make a world
That I used to be
Monument – The Inevitable End Version lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

2 Sept 2018 Hologram (Dream) and 149

Hello.  It’s Sunday morning as I write.  Laundry is chugging away and everybody is still in bed yet.  We have been struggling to get restful sleep for some time now.  I’m hoping as we get closer to fall and cooler days that this will change too.

Had a couple interesting dreams this morning.  One was one of those really brief flash dreams.  It looked a bit like a computer simulation of a black circle moving through space.  It made me think of a slinky.  A circle leaving an “after image” behind itself.  A slinky actually has a bunch of them tangibly connected to it.  Don’t know what that was about!

The other one was about walking into a dusty room and an Aaliyah like woman was standing there as a hologram….so I thought.  We started to sing together.  I did the harmonizing thing I do and walked closer to her.  I reached out to touch her because what we were doing seemed like something two real people would do not a hologram.  When I touched her she was warm.  I was surprised and said, “I didn’t think you were real!” and she said, “Neither did I!”  The song stuck in my head as I was writing down this dream was Aaliyah’s song “One in a Million.”

https://www.aaliyah.com/ – her official site

Aaliyah’s tragic death hit me really hard.  I used to sing and harmonize with her songs to try and comfort myself.

I’ve been thinking about these police involved shootings and thinking about reflexes.  I was thinking about survival instincts and what people do, no matter how much training they have had, when they are afraid.  People are typically afraid of what they cannot see.  When you encounter someone who is unstable, mentally ill or that you have a fear about, I suspect reflexes and survival instincts kick in.   You can’t see “what someone is going to do” in situations like what happened with Vanessa and so many others now.

Speaking as a person who has been through this,  I honestly don’t know how well you can prepare yourself.  Unless you can read minds or you are like a dog and can read even the slightest tick in body behavior and respond accordingly it seems like your screwed no matter what you do!  I think there is hope in sensitivity training and application of that training in various hands-on scenarios.  Reading about and or clicking buttons through a scenario simulator aren’t enough.  I think you actually need interactive training for this.

The way the police dealt with me to make sure I was ok came at many different levels.  One was they reminded me of my brother-in-laws I love so that helped.  Two they did not approach me in an aggressive or threatening manner – very kind.  Three they managed their energy with the tone of their voice and body language – the way they spoke to me was very soothing and enlisted my trust.   Four I am a white woman who speaks English.  I wonder if I were black, Hispanic or some other nationality if things would have gone the same?  When I think of our town police who I respect greatly, I’d like to think it would have gone just the same but I don’t know.

The internal clashes of culture, of all the labels we all wear,  do not end when someone puts on a badge.  We ask human beings to suppress so much of themselves to become police officers.  I think under duress, sometimes, all those normal safety catches get lifted and the bullets fly.  We get angry when the cops don’t respond quickly enough to our time of crisis and hate them when they do.  We ask human beings to be armed angels and are surprised when some of them fall.

I don’t know if this is an appropriate example but it’s what Kyle and I were talking about yesterday.  It’s like zombie movies.  The person looks like a human, acts like a human but behaves like something else completely.  Is this the person I knew or is it a zombie?!  You just don’t know what the zombie is going to do!  How can you prepare yourself to deal with this type of scenario?  Do you shut off any sort of human empathy you have and just shoot before finding out the zombie isn’t a zombie or do you use the empathy inside of you and risk being hurt, bitten or eaten?

To me, this is what many of our police are facing today.  They are having to deal with a lot of people who look human but under fear and duress become something completely different.  We are seeing the police survival instincts versus the survival instincts kicking in for a person who is having the worst day of their life.  In more cases than not, this is a lethal combination.

1006 am – Betrayed = 80 (Vanessa = 81 Rodriguez = 123 = 204)  204-149 = 55 (#value for cuffs) 204-80 = 124 

Aaliyah – Rock The Boat

Aaliyah = 57/12/6/3 cycle

1 Sept 2018 Rv’s, Woman in the mirror (dreams) and Vanessa Marquez (ER)

Hello to you.  It’s one of those weird mornings after having many dreams, some very vivid.  Dreaming about RV’s (mobile home) some of which were self-driving and that didn’t go well, a fancy replica sword in the RV, meeting a Valkyrie (cosplay) in a parking lot asking me to coffee and then her and two other people, Kyle the dogs and I ending up at some Comic-con and looking at “blobs of plastic” aka action figures and monster toys with big eyes.

I told Kyle I wonder if instead of a car I’m an RV.  He said, “As long as you aren’t carrying too many unwanted passengers!”

The one that woke me up was the woman in the mirror.  She looked familiar to me, almost like the woman I met awhile back with the 68 shirt and the dog in our neighborhood.  She also looked like the nice Valkyrie from the parking lot!  She had honey-blonde or light brown hair and dark green eyes.  She was talking to me and as she was talking I was saying what she was saying if that makes any sense.  I could almost hear my voice while I was asleep saying what she was saying.  She said, “Don’t forget about me Jackie, I’m not that old.”  Then her eyes turned red and I woke up with a warm sensation in the middle of my head at either side of my temples.  It was one of the strangest dream experiences I’ve had in awhile and if you have been following along, you know I’ve had several strange and wonderful experiences!

As I lay in bed reflecting on her eyes turning red, I remembered that when our eyes reflect light they flash red.  Like when someone takes our picture.  It doesn’t necessarily mean something evil.  It’s a phenomenon.

Has anyone else had anything like this happen?

This morning tears have been shed, yet again, for more tragic death in the news.  When I read what happened to Vanessa I felt my heart break.  This could have been me a few months ago!  Kyle called the police to come out to our house because he was afraid I was going to hurt myself.  They had guns too.  Thanks be to God our cops here know me for more than just this part of who I am and were very understanding and kind to me.  To me, this is another example of what’s gone wrong with the system.

As a person who has had several “altered states experiences” now, I’ve begun to wonder about these sorts of scenarios.  Sometimes I wonder how much say we really have once our spirit has decided it wants to leave the “car” it’s in.  I don’t know if that makes sense but that’s what I’ve begun to see.   How many of these scenarios have we seen now?

https://www.mercurynews.com/2018/05/11/report-mentally-ill-are-in-nearly-40-percent-of-south-bay-police-shootings/ – excerpt

“In the most definitive look yet at a growing public-safety problem facing South Bay police today, a new civil grand jury report reveals that nearly 40 percent of officer shootings in Santa Clara County involve someone who is mentally ill.

So the watchdog group is urging law enforcement agencies and public health officials to step up training and resources to combat the troublesome trend.

The grand jury found that nine of the 31 people killed in county officer-involved shootings between 2013 and 2017 suffered from a serious mental illness, and that 22 of the 56 total police shootings during that period — including those that were non-fatal — involved a mental-health crisis.”

9 out of 31….not good!   Why aren’t police officers just shooting someone in the leg, an arm or tackling them in these scenarios?  I think self-preservation probably plays a big part in these scenarios….”it’s them or me.”

I wonder if the “driver” of the body knows just what to do in such scenarios to make it possible to escape the car.  Are all accidents just accidents?  Are all murders just murder?  Is mercy somehow mingled in all of this?  I don’t truly know!  Could it be a hostile takeover by the organisms, bacteria, viruses etc. in the body?  Could it be a coup by the energy source within us, the soul?  Another mystery of the many mysteries of this life.

I truly hope Vanessa has found her heaven and that she has found happiness.

 

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Source is Internet

https://www.msn.com/en-us/tv/news/er-actress-shot-and-killed-by-south-pasadena-police-during-wellness-check-at-home/ar-BBMIbOL?OCID=ansmsnnews11

‘ER’ actress shot and killed by South Pasadena police during wellness check at home

Hannah Fry, Laura Newberry

19 hrs ago

Actress Vanessa Marquez was identified by authorities Friday as the 49-year-old woman shot and killed by police a day earlier during a welfare check at her apartment in South Pasadena.

Marquez was best known for her recurring role as nurse Wendy Goldman on the popular medical drama “ER,” which ran for 15 seasons until 2009. Marquez appeared on the show from 1994 to 1997.

More recently, Marquez used social media to reference her struggles with celiac disease and seizures. She wrote on Facebook in March that she was “terminally ill.”

She also grabbed headlines last year when she accused her “ER” co-star George Clooney of helping to blacklist her from the series. He denied the allegations. Marquez’s landlord called police Thursday to request a wellness check on her, Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Department Lt. Joe Mendoza said. She was having a seizure when authorities arrived at her apartment, in the 1100 block of Fremont Avenue, about noon.

Officers and a county mental health clinician spoke with Marquez for more than 90 minutes in an effort to persuade her to accept medical help. Police said she was “uncooperative,” may have been suffering from mental health issues and appeared to be unable to care for herself.

Then, while they were talking, Marquez grabbed what they thought was a semiautomatic handgun and pointed it at them, Mendoza said.

Two officers fired at her, striking her at least once in the torso, Mendoza said.

The officers retrieved a weapon after the shooting and determined it was a BB gun that resembled a pistol, Mendoza said.

Marquez was taken to a hospital, where she was pronounced dead.

The Sheriff’s Department is investigating, as is common in police shootings. The names of the officers involved have not been released.

A similar incident involving South Pasadena police occurred in June 2017, when authorities said 41-year-old Marco Cardoza pointed what appeared to be a handgun at officers who were attempting to serve a warrant at his Burbank home. Multiple officers fired their weapons at Cardoza, who was pronounced dead at the scene. Detectives later learned that the man’s pistol was a replica.

hannah.fry@latimes.com

 

“The devil made me do it” = 174/12/3 cycle  devil = 52/7  God = 26/8  Jesus Christ = 151/7

23 Aug 2018 Drawings (brain meditation) and Creed of Peace (Ralph M. Lewis)

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well wherever and whenever you are as you visit here.  The third photo has a drawing I wasn’t sure I wanted to share.  It’s what I was talking about yesterday (the 9/11 bit).  It’s what came to me when I was thinking about it.  We can’t change what has already been done, we can only move forward and try to avoid making the same mistakes.  It’s hard for me to stay in today sometimes.  My sweet Aunt called the other day and reminded me to do that.  I just wanted to give context to the drawing.  Thank you for the visit!

https://www.worldprayers.org/

Spin of the Prayer Wheel brought me this message; I’ve never seen it before today:

Creed of Peace – 35/21/30 = 86 (last two of year I was born in reverse)

I am guilty of war when I proudly exercise
my intelligence to the disadvantage of my fellow man.

I am guilty of war when I distort other’s opinions,
which differ from my own.

I am guilty of war when I show disregard
for the rights and properties of others.

I am guilty of war when I covet what another has honestly acquired.

I am guilty of war when I seek to maintain my superiority of position
by depriving others of their opportunity of advancement.

I am guilty of war if I imagine my kin and myself to be a privileged people.

I am guilty of war if I believe a heritage entitles me
to monopolize resources of nature.

I am guilty of war when I believe other people must think and live as I do.

I am guilty of war when I make success in life solely dependent
upon power, fame, and riches.

I am guilty of war when I think the minds of people should
be regulated by force, rather than by reason.

I am guilty of war when I believe the God I conceive is
the one others must accept.

I am guilty of war when I think that a land of a man’s birth
must necessarily be the place of his livelihood.

The true articles of peace cannot be legislated but are drawn up in the
personal aspirations and conduct of the millions of little people. When all
men will frankly perceive their common dependence, an understanding will
emerge that will transcend the barriers of time and space, creed and race.

rosicrucian order- creed of peace – ralph m. lewis – 1944  (Rosicrucian order = 190)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ancient_Mystical_Order_Rosae_Crucis – The Ancient and Mystical Order Rosae Crucis = 378

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Official Worldwide Emblem of the Rosicrucian Order

A Rosicrucian Master’s Cross, from the AMORC Rosicrucian Library in San Jose

The Ancient and Mystical Order Rosæ Crucis (AMORC), also known as the Rosicrucian Order, is the largest Rosicrucian organization in the world. It has various lodges, chapters and other affiliated bodies throughout the globe, operating in 19 different languages.

AMORC claims an association with a “perennial philosophy“, often referred to as “The Primordial Tradition“. The Order further states that it is heir and custodian of the “Rose-Croix” of the past, thereby making it the oldest existing Traditional Fraternity and a modern-day manifestation of the ‘Rosicrucian Fraternity’ of old, which is believed by some to have originated in the traditions of the Ancient Egyptian Mystery schools. The ancient Mysteries are said to have been preserved through the millennia by closed secret societies until the early years of 17th Century Europe. At that point, according to AMORC internal mythology, the time was right for the existence of this body of secret knowledge to become open, i.e. revealed, to the world, in the form of the Rosicrucian manifestos. Famous seventeenth century Rosicrucian Michael Maier described the origins of Rosicrucianism as “Egyptian, Brahmanic, derived from the Mysteries of Eleusis and Samothrace, the Magi of Persia, the Pythagoreans, and the Arabs.”[1] Several of his other works also allude to the mysterious origins of the Rosicrucians.[2]

Today, AMORC is regarded as representing an “open cycle” of the ancient Rosicrucian tradition, its existence being a “reactivation” of Rosicrucian teaching in the United States, with previous Rosicrucian colonies in the United States having become dormant.

AMORC presents itself as a worldwide philosophical and humanistic, non sectarian and apolitical fraternal order devoted to “the study of the elusive mysteries of life and the universe.”[3] It is also open to both men and women of legal adult age (18 years old in most countries) regardless of their various religious persuasions.

15 Aug 2018 “I’m Always Here” – We are not alone

Hello.  How are you in your present moment?  Me?  There are so many things I could say, but really I’m grateful.  Within the past couple of months people I care about have been going through some really rough stuff like divorce, the sickness of family and friends and the deaths of family and friends.  It feels like we are all just going through some serious shit right now and it’s hard but like I told my sweet friend last night, “I know it’s hard but it won’t always be this way.”  This is something life has taught me.  This is something losing our sweet dog Sammy taught me.  When hard times come, they only last as long as you allow them to and time is really the best healer.  The more of it that passes between you and what your going through, the less it hurts.  The pain won’t completely go away.  You won’t forget the pain, but it will hurt less.

I am not a materially rich person but in terms of meaningful wealth, there is no earthly equivalent.  Sometimes I forget, sometimes I whine, complain, I wallow, bitch and moan about trivial and frivolous things….most of which I cannot change.   Time passes, things get better.

These moments are so small in the scheme of all the moments.  As I often hear in my mind when I manage to get it quiet, “Let everything pass through.  Everything passes through.  Let the images and emotion that come into your mind just through.”

This morning I was laying in bed worrying about my friends and what they are going to do today and their fur kids.  I’ve been very sad and anxious for them.  In my head I asked  “Are you there?”  and the answer I heard was, “I’m always here.”  Who is this loving, comforting voice I am having a telepathic conversation with?  Is it God?  Is that just my mind manufacturing an answer of comfort for me?  Whatever the answer, that voice helped me get out of bed this morning to come and write this!

We are not abandoned, no matter how it may seem.  No matter how many negative headlines splash in front of our eyes, how many tragedies real or manufactured are put before or placed on us – we are not alone.  All you have to do is ask to be reassured.

 

Enya – Only Time (Official Music Video)