18 Sept 2018 Monument (Drawing), Numbers look and song by Röyksopp & Robyn

The name I gave the drawing was Monument.  The brainstorming here pretty much began with that.  This isn’t “all inclusive.”  It never is.  There are so many words in all the languages we speak for these sorts of things.  This is just my looking at what I’ve seen as an observer of the entertainment, “being famous” business.  People who embark on the famous business either rise, coast or fall just like statues.  What is the most important thing?  What we did in this life? How we are remembered after we die?  Follow this all the way to the bottom and you’ll see where I’m at it the question.

doing what you love to do in Simple Gematria equals: 270/9 cycle

monument in Simple Gematria equals: 115/7

statue in Simple Gematria equals: 86/14/7

award in Simple Gematria equals: 47/11

title in Simple Gematria equals: 66/12/6/3 cycle

idol in Simple Gematria equals: 40/4/2/1

role model in Simple Gematria equals: 99/18/9 cycle

example in Simple Gematria equals: 76/13

remembered in Simple Gematria equals: 88/16/8/4/2/1

legacy in Simple Gematria equals: 53/8/4/2/1

honored in Simple Gematria equals: 79/16/8/4/2/1


recorded in Simple Gematria equals: 72/9 cycle

photographed in Simple Gematria equals: 133/7

filmed in Simple Gematria equals: 49/13

written about in Simple Gematria equals: 168/15

talked about in Simple Gematria equals: 112/4

in a magazine in Simple Gematria equals: 100/1

in a movie in Simple Gematria equals: 88/16/8/4/2/1

in a television show in Simple Gematria equals: 219/16/6/3 cycle

vanity in Simple Gematria equals: 91/10


narcissist in Simple Gematria equals: 131/5

ego in Simple Gematria equals: 27/9 cycle

pride in Simple Gematria equals: 52/7

word of mouth in Simple Gematria equals: 158/14/7

press release in Simple Gematria equals: 142/7

in the news in Simple Gematria equals: 117/9 cycle

social media in Simple Gematria equals: 91/10

in the internet in Simple Gematria equals: 161/8/4/2/1

fans in Simple Gematria equals: 40/4/2/1

special treatment in Simple Gematria equals: 181/10


favor in Simple Gematria equals: 62/8/4/2/1

fame in Simple Gematria equals: 25/7

make a lot of money in Simple Gematria equals: 171/9 cycle (money=72)

live a rich lifestyle in Simple Gematria equals: 200/2/1

afford fancy clothes in Simple Gematria equals: 181/10

afford expensive cars in Simple Gematria equals: 210/3 cycle

eat at fancy restaurants in Simple Gematria equals: 252/9 cycle

elaborate vacations in Simple Gematria equals: 183/12/6/3 cycle


material wealth in Simple Gematria equals: 148/13

live in exclusive neighborhoods in Simple Gematria equals: 330/6/3 cycle


= 4913/1313/44/8/4/2/1

control over your own life in Simple Gematria equals: 320

4913 + 320 = 5233/13/4/2/1

what is the most important thing in Simple Gematria equals: 364/13

what we did in this life in Simple Gematria equals: 208/10

how we are remembered after we die in Simple Gematria equals: 282/12

= 854/17/8  (one of the 8’s is the number for God #26/8  when all is said and done it’s time to return everything we’ve just been borrowing )


Röyksopp & Robyn “Monument” (Music Video)

Monument – The Inevitable End Version

Make a space
For my body
Dead or whole,
Push this side apart
This is what I’m controlling,
It’s a mole, the inside that I cart
This will be my monument
This will be a beacon when I’m gone, gone, gone
When I’m gone, gone, gone
When I’m gone!
Soon when that moment comes,
I can say I did it all with love, love, love
All with love, love, love
All with love!
Make a cast of my body
Pull back out,
So that I can see
Make a world
Are you ruling?
Make a world
That I used to be
I will let this monument,
Represent a moment of my life, life, life
Of my
I will let this monument,
Represent a moment of my life, life, life
Of my life, life, life
Of my life!
I will let this monument,
Represent a moment of my life, life, life
Of my life, life, life
Of my life!
Make a cast of my body
Pull back out,
So that I can see
Make a world
Are you ruling?
Make a world
That I used to be
Monument – The Inevitable End Version lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

2 Sept 2018 Hologram (Dream) and 149

Hello.  It’s Sunday morning as I write.  Laundry is chugging away and everybody is still in bed yet.  We have been struggling to get restful sleep for some time now.  I’m hoping as we get closer to fall and cooler days that this will change too.

Had a couple interesting dreams this morning.  One was one of those really brief flash dreams.  It looked a bit like a computer simulation of a black circle moving through space.  It made me think of a slinky.  A circle leaving an “after image” behind itself.  A slinky actually has a bunch of them tangibly connected to it.  Don’t know what that was about!

The other one was about walking into a dusty room and an Aaliyah like woman was standing there as a hologram….so I thought.  We started to sing together.  I did the harmonizing thing I do and walked closer to her.  I reached out to touch her because what we were doing seemed like something two real people would do not a hologram.  When I touched her she was warm.  I was surprised and said, “I didn’t think you were real!” and she said, “Neither did I!”  The song stuck in my head as I was writing down this dream was Aaliyah’s song “One in a Million.”

https://www.aaliyah.com/ – her official site

Aaliyah’s tragic death hit me really hard.  I used to sing and harmonize with her songs to try and comfort myself.

I’ve been thinking about these police involved shootings and thinking about reflexes.  I was thinking about survival instincts and what people do, no matter how much training they have had, when they are afraid.  People are typically afraid of what they cannot see.  When you encounter someone who is unstable, mentally ill or that you have a fear about, I suspect reflexes and survival instincts kick in.   You can’t see “what someone is going to do” in situations like what happened with Vanessa and so many others now.

Speaking as a person who has been through this,  I honestly don’t know how well you can prepare yourself.  Unless you can read minds or you are like a dog and can read even the slightest tick in body behavior and respond accordingly it seems like your screwed no matter what you do!  I think there is hope in sensitivity training and application of that training in various hands-on scenarios.  Reading about and or clicking buttons through a scenario simulator aren’t enough.  I think you actually need interactive training for this.

The way the police dealt with me to make sure I was ok came at many different levels.  One was they reminded me of my brother-in-laws I love so that helped.  Two they did not approach me in an aggressive or threatening manner – very kind.  Three they managed their energy with the tone of their voice and body language – the way they spoke to me was very soothing and enlisted my trust.   Four I am a white woman who speaks English.  I wonder if I were black, Hispanic or some other nationality if things would have gone the same?  When I think of our town police who I respect greatly, I’d like to think it would have gone just the same but I don’t know.

The internal clashes of culture, of all the labels we all wear,  do not end when someone puts on a badge.  We ask human beings to suppress so much of themselves to become police officers.  I think under duress, sometimes, all those normal safety catches get lifted and the bullets fly.  We get angry when the cops don’t respond quickly enough to our time of crisis and hate them when they do.  We ask human beings to be armed angels and are surprised when some of them fall.

I don’t know if this is an appropriate example but it’s what Kyle and I were talking about yesterday.  It’s like zombie movies.  The person looks like a human, acts like a human but behaves like something else completely.  Is this the person I knew or is it a zombie?!  You just don’t know what the zombie is going to do!  How can you prepare yourself to deal with this type of scenario?  Do you shut off any sort of human empathy you have and just shoot before finding out the zombie isn’t a zombie or do you use the empathy inside of you and risk being hurt, bitten or eaten?

To me, this is what many of our police are facing today.  They are having to deal with a lot of people who look human but under fear and duress become something completely different.  We are seeing the police survival instincts versus the survival instincts kicking in for a person who is having the worst day of their life.  In more cases than not, this is a lethal combination.

1006 am – Betrayed = 80 (Vanessa = 81 Rodriguez = 123 = 204)  204-149 = 55 (#value for cuffs) 204-80 = 124 

Aaliyah – Rock The Boat

Aaliyah = 57/12/6/3 cycle

1 Sept 2018 Rv’s, Woman in the mirror (dreams) and Vanessa Marquez (ER)

Hello to you.  It’s one of those weird mornings after having many dreams, some very vivid.  Dreaming about RV’s (mobile home) some of which were self-driving and that didn’t go well, a fancy replica sword in the RV, meeting a Valkyrie (cosplay) in a parking lot asking me to coffee and then her and two other people, Kyle the dogs and I ending up at some Comic-con and looking at “blobs of plastic” aka action figures and monster toys with big eyes.

I told Kyle I wonder if instead of a car I’m an RV.  He said, “As long as you aren’t carrying too many unwanted passengers!”

The one that woke me up was the woman in the mirror.  She looked familiar to me, almost like the woman I met awhile back with the 68 shirt and the dog in our neighborhood.  She also looked like the nice Valkyrie from the parking lot!  She had honey-blonde or light brown hair and dark green eyes.  She was talking to me and as she was talking I was saying what she was saying if that makes any sense.  I could almost hear my voice while I was asleep saying what she was saying.  She said, “Don’t forget about me Jackie, I’m not that old.”  Then her eyes turned red and I woke up with a warm sensation in the middle of my head at either side of my temples.  It was one of the strangest dream experiences I’ve had in awhile and if you have been following along, you know I’ve had several strange and wonderful experiences!

As I lay in bed reflecting on her eyes turning red, I remembered that when our eyes reflect light they flash red.  Like when someone takes our picture.  It doesn’t necessarily mean something evil.  It’s a phenomenon.

Has anyone else had anything like this happen?

This morning tears have been shed, yet again, for more tragic death in the news.  When I read what happened to Vanessa I felt my heart break.  This could have been me a few months ago!  Kyle called the police to come out to our house because he was afraid I was going to hurt myself.  They had guns too.  Thanks be to God our cops here know me for more than just this part of who I am and were very understanding and kind to me.  To me, this is another example of what’s gone wrong with the system.

As a person who has had several “altered states experiences” now, I’ve begun to wonder about these sorts of scenarios.  Sometimes I wonder how much say we really have once our spirit has decided it wants to leave the “car” it’s in.  I don’t know if that makes sense but that’s what I’ve begun to see.   How many of these scenarios have we seen now?

https://www.mercurynews.com/2018/05/11/report-mentally-ill-are-in-nearly-40-percent-of-south-bay-police-shootings/ – excerpt

“In the most definitive look yet at a growing public-safety problem facing South Bay police today, a new civil grand jury report reveals that nearly 40 percent of officer shootings in Santa Clara County involve someone who is mentally ill.

So the watchdog group is urging law enforcement agencies and public health officials to step up training and resources to combat the troublesome trend.

The grand jury found that nine of the 31 people killed in county officer-involved shootings between 2013 and 2017 suffered from a serious mental illness, and that 22 of the 56 total police shootings during that period — including those that were non-fatal — involved a mental-health crisis.”

9 out of 31….not good!   Why aren’t police officers just shooting someone in the leg, an arm or tackling them in these scenarios?  I think self-preservation probably plays a big part in these scenarios….”it’s them or me.”

I wonder if the “driver” of the body knows just what to do in such scenarios to make it possible to escape the car.  Are all accidents just accidents?  Are all murders just murder?  Is mercy somehow mingled in all of this?  I don’t truly know!  Could it be a hostile takeover by the organisms, bacteria, viruses etc. in the body?  Could it be a coup by the energy source within us, the soul?  Another mystery of the many mysteries of this life.

I truly hope Vanessa has found her heaven and that she has found happiness.


Image result for vanessa marquez

Source is Internet


‘ER’ actress shot and killed by South Pasadena police during wellness check at home

Hannah Fry, Laura Newberry

19 hrs ago

Actress Vanessa Marquez was identified by authorities Friday as the 49-year-old woman shot and killed by police a day earlier during a welfare check at her apartment in South Pasadena.

Marquez was best known for her recurring role as nurse Wendy Goldman on the popular medical drama “ER,” which ran for 15 seasons until 2009. Marquez appeared on the show from 1994 to 1997.

More recently, Marquez used social media to reference her struggles with celiac disease and seizures. She wrote on Facebook in March that she was “terminally ill.”

She also grabbed headlines last year when she accused her “ER” co-star George Clooney of helping to blacklist her from the series. He denied the allegations. Marquez’s landlord called police Thursday to request a wellness check on her, Los Angeles County Sheriff’s Department Lt. Joe Mendoza said. She was having a seizure when authorities arrived at her apartment, in the 1100 block of Fremont Avenue, about noon.

Officers and a county mental health clinician spoke with Marquez for more than 90 minutes in an effort to persuade her to accept medical help. Police said she was “uncooperative,” may have been suffering from mental health issues and appeared to be unable to care for herself.

Then, while they were talking, Marquez grabbed what they thought was a semiautomatic handgun and pointed it at them, Mendoza said.

Two officers fired at her, striking her at least once in the torso, Mendoza said.

The officers retrieved a weapon after the shooting and determined it was a BB gun that resembled a pistol, Mendoza said.

Marquez was taken to a hospital, where she was pronounced dead.

The Sheriff’s Department is investigating, as is common in police shootings. The names of the officers involved have not been released.

A similar incident involving South Pasadena police occurred in June 2017, when authorities said 41-year-old Marco Cardoza pointed what appeared to be a handgun at officers who were attempting to serve a warrant at his Burbank home. Multiple officers fired their weapons at Cardoza, who was pronounced dead at the scene. Detectives later learned that the man’s pistol was a replica.



“The devil made me do it” = 174/12/3 cycle  devil = 52/7  God = 26/8  Jesus Christ = 151/7

23 Aug 2018 Drawings (brain meditation) and Creed of Peace (Ralph M. Lewis)

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you well wherever and whenever you are as you visit here.  The third photo has a drawing I wasn’t sure I wanted to share.  It’s what I was talking about yesterday (the 9/11 bit).  It’s what came to me when I was thinking about it.  We can’t change what has already been done, we can only move forward and try to avoid making the same mistakes.  It’s hard for me to stay in today sometimes.  My sweet Aunt called the other day and reminded me to do that.  I just wanted to give context to the drawing.  Thank you for the visit!


Spin of the Prayer Wheel brought me this message; I’ve never seen it before today:

Creed of Peace – 35/21/30 = 86 (last two of year I was born in reverse)

I am guilty of war when I proudly exercise
my intelligence to the disadvantage of my fellow man.

I am guilty of war when I distort other’s opinions,
which differ from my own.

I am guilty of war when I show disregard
for the rights and properties of others.

I am guilty of war when I covet what another has honestly acquired.

I am guilty of war when I seek to maintain my superiority of position
by depriving others of their opportunity of advancement.

I am guilty of war if I imagine my kin and myself to be a privileged people.

I am guilty of war if I believe a heritage entitles me
to monopolize resources of nature.

I am guilty of war when I believe other people must think and live as I do.

I am guilty of war when I make success in life solely dependent
upon power, fame, and riches.

I am guilty of war when I think the minds of people should
be regulated by force, rather than by reason.

I am guilty of war when I believe the God I conceive is
the one others must accept.

I am guilty of war when I think that a land of a man’s birth
must necessarily be the place of his livelihood.

The true articles of peace cannot be legislated but are drawn up in the
personal aspirations and conduct of the millions of little people. When all
men will frankly perceive their common dependence, an understanding will
emerge that will transcend the barriers of time and space, creed and race.

rosicrucian order- creed of peace – ralph m. lewis – 1944  (Rosicrucian order = 190)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ancient_Mystical_Order_Rosae_Crucis – The Ancient and Mystical Order Rosae Crucis = 378

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A Rosicrucian Master’s Cross, from the AMORC Rosicrucian Library in San Jose

The Ancient and Mystical Order Rosæ Crucis (AMORC), also known as the Rosicrucian Order, is the largest Rosicrucian organization in the world. It has various lodges, chapters and other affiliated bodies throughout the globe, operating in 19 different languages.

AMORC claims an association with a “perennial philosophy“, often referred to as “The Primordial Tradition“. The Order further states that it is heir and custodian of the “Rose-Croix” of the past, thereby making it the oldest existing Traditional Fraternity and a modern-day manifestation of the ‘Rosicrucian Fraternity’ of old, which is believed by some to have originated in the traditions of the Ancient Egyptian Mystery schools. The ancient Mysteries are said to have been preserved through the millennia by closed secret societies until the early years of 17th Century Europe. At that point, according to AMORC internal mythology, the time was right for the existence of this body of secret knowledge to become open, i.e. revealed, to the world, in the form of the Rosicrucian manifestos. Famous seventeenth century Rosicrucian Michael Maier described the origins of Rosicrucianism as “Egyptian, Brahmanic, derived from the Mysteries of Eleusis and Samothrace, the Magi of Persia, the Pythagoreans, and the Arabs.”[1] Several of his other works also allude to the mysterious origins of the Rosicrucians.[2]

Today, AMORC is regarded as representing an “open cycle” of the ancient Rosicrucian tradition, its existence being a “reactivation” of Rosicrucian teaching in the United States, with previous Rosicrucian colonies in the United States having become dormant.

AMORC presents itself as a worldwide philosophical and humanistic, non sectarian and apolitical fraternal order devoted to “the study of the elusive mysteries of life and the universe.”[3] It is also open to both men and women of legal adult age (18 years old in most countries) regardless of their various religious persuasions.

15 Aug 2018 “I’m Always Here” – We are not alone

Hello.  How are you in your present moment?  Me?  There are so many things I could say, but really I’m grateful.  Within the past couple of months people I care about have been going through some really rough stuff like divorce, the sickness of family and friends and the deaths of family and friends.  It feels like we are all just going through some serious shit right now and it’s hard but like I told my sweet friend last night, “I know it’s hard but it won’t always be this way.”  This is something life has taught me.  This is something losing our sweet dog Sammy taught me.  When hard times come, they only last as long as you allow them to and time is really the best healer.  The more of it that passes between you and what your going through, the less it hurts.  The pain won’t completely go away.  You won’t forget the pain, but it will hurt less.

I am not a materially rich person but in terms of meaningful wealth, there is no earthly equivalent.  Sometimes I forget, sometimes I whine, complain, I wallow, bitch and moan about trivial and frivolous things….most of which I cannot change.   Time passes, things get better.

These moments are so small in the scheme of all the moments.  As I often hear in my mind when I manage to get it quiet, “Let everything pass through.  Everything passes through.  Let the images and emotion that come into your mind just through.”

This morning I was laying in bed worrying about my friends and what they are going to do today and their fur kids.  I’ve been very sad and anxious for them.  In my head I asked  “Are you there?”  and the answer I heard was, “I’m always here.”  Who is this loving, comforting voice I am having a telepathic conversation with?  Is it God?  Is that just my mind manufacturing an answer of comfort for me?  Whatever the answer, that voice helped me get out of bed this morning to come and write this!

We are not abandoned, no matter how it may seem.  No matter how many negative headlines splash in front of our eyes, how many tragedies real or manufactured are put before or placed on us – we are not alone.  All you have to do is ask to be reassured.


Enya – Only Time (Official Music Video)


7 Aug 2018 We have to fix this – together

Hello.  Just a quick visit.  I did a bit of drawing this morning.  I seem to be on a theme of sorts with the “seats” of power.  The one I’m sharing was me imagining a being outside of our galaxy watching over this ol’ blue dot.  The other drawing is imagining the forces of light, shadow and the in between cradling our burning earth like a child while it screams for help.

These forces of energy are powerless to help fix what is happening all over the world right now.  We are literally burning!  The fix will have to come from all of us.  Unless I missed it, no one seems to be coming to save us from this mess we are currently in.  As much as I’d like a group of Superhero’s to come along and fix all of this, all that is just a big screen distraction from reality.  I think we are on our own!

Denial, obstruction, fear, greed and acting like nothing is happening will not make all this go away.  I feel like there are many who are playing “kick the can” with this.  What is happening to this planet is not “normal.”  I’ve been here 50 years and have watched the acceleration of this global climate change every year.  It feels like things are spiraling faster.  We don’t have time to keep putting this off to another generation.

http://www.globalincidentmap.com/beta/forest-fires-map – this site seems to have data from across the globe regarding active fires



Source is National Geographic/internet – I thought this was interesting. In all this time, so few have actually have seen the earth from a craft in space. I don’t know if there are words for such an awe inspiring experience!


Home 2018

Gun violence  and crime incidents are collected/validated from 2,500 sources daily – incidents and their source data are found at the gunviolencearchive.org website.

1: Actual number of deaths and injuries
2: Number of INCIDENTS reported and verified

22,000 Annual Suicides not included on Daily Summary Ledger

Numbers on this table reflect a subset of all information
collected and will not add to 100% of incidents.

http://www.gunviolencearchive.org  http://www.facebook.com/gunviolencearchive

Data Validated: August 07, 2018

Climate change consequences & other topics – Daily Briefing (11 July 2018)

Published on Jul 11, 2018

Daily Press Briefing: Japan, DSG, South Sudan, Thailand, DRC, DPRK, Syria, World Population Day, High-Level Political Forum, Global Goals Day, Noon Briefing Guest Today and Press Conferences Tomorrow

Briefing by Stephane Dujarric, Spokesperson for the Secretary-General.


Some words in numbers:

Metatrons Cube = 156/12/3 cycle

Climate Change = 101/2/1 (ironic 101 is dreaded room of Orson Welle’s book 1984)

Weather = 80/8/4/2/1

– The difference between weather and climate –

Latest three month average temperature and precipitation anomalies for the United States. The difference between weather and climate is a measure of time. Weather is what conditions of the atmosphere are over a short period of time, and climate is how the atmosphere “behaves” over relatively long periods of time. Feb 1, 2005

NASA – What’s the Difference Between Weather and Climate? | NASA

Fires = 57/12/3 cycle

Outer Space = 123/6/3 cycle

Astronaut = 129/12/3 cycle

NASA = 35/8/4/2/1

Denial = 45/9 cycle

Fear = 30/3 cycle

Obstruction = 156/12/3 cycle

Greed = 39/12/3 cycle

Material Wealth = 148/13/4/2/1

Possession = 150/6/3 cycle

Death = 38/11/2/1

1 Aug 2018 Excitement

Hello.  Hope this finds you well as you visit here.  Today has been a weird and tiring day.  We had excitement in both forms.  The kind you want and the kind you don’t.  The excitement we planned for was stopping by the Arlington Mall after my doctors appointment.  Just to do something different for a change.  We were quickly reminded why we don’t go to the mall very often.  We left without buying anything even from the food court!  It’s a great Mall, we are just not the same people we used to be I guess.  I think we were both just tired which can make any experience lack luster.

Anyhew – to the other excitement…..

The excitement we didn’t want came from finding out via our neighborhood Facebook called Next Door that two prisoners had escaped from the Prairieland Detention Center (ICE) – (https://www.ice.gov/detention-facility/prairieland-detention-center-pdc) a couple of miles from us!  Yesterday afternoon I had been sitting out back and all the sudden there were emergency vehicles racing in both directions.  I had that sinking feeling that something really bad had happened but didn’t know what.  There wasn’t anything on the news and no alert from the city to let us know what was going on.   We heard what sounded like a firework go off late in the afternoon which someone later mentioned might have actually been gunfire.   It wasn’t until I checked Next Door that I found out what had happened.  There was a very passionate thread on Next door – a lot of upset people!  It’s frustrating to have to find out about something like this from a social media site!

Most of us that have been here awhile and weren’t part of city government didn’t want the facility here.  A lot of people in town didn’t even know about it being built.  We didn’t even really have a say about it and any lack of resistance to it being built was because most people didn’t know about it!    I’m glad school wasn’t in session.  I always worry about all the families we have around here with children when this stuff happens.   This type of stuff doesn’t help the me with “labels” either!

When they were talking about getting the facility here a couple of years ago, which was during the time Kyle and I were still actively attending city council meetings and trying to stay involved, we all expressed concerns about many things to include escapee situations.  We were concerned with them putting this facility so close to where people live.  They seemed more concerned about bringing in people, jobs, houses and property tax dollars.  They got all the things they wanted but also a whole bunch of stuff none of us have been enjoying very much to include this escaping business.  I feel bad for our local cops and fire department folks who are getting pulled into this stuff while still trying to take care of our town.

This has happened before, JUST A FEW MONTHS AGO, and we weren’t told about this escape either!  I didn’t know about it until I looked it up: 


Man Caught After Escaping From North Texas ICE Detention Facility

Published at 4:07 PM CST on Mar 10, 2018 | Updated at 3:57 AM CDT on Mar 12, 2018 – excerpt

“North Texas authorities say a man who escaped from an Immigration and Customs Enforcement Detention Facility in Alvarado has been re-captured.

At about 5:30 a.m. Saturday, Jose Manzanares Montalavan, 23, was last seen in the line for breakfast at the Prairieland Detention Center in Alvarado, according to ICE spokesperson Carl Rusnok.

Officials said Manzanares Montalavan scaled a fence of the facility and fled near Gas Line Road where it is believed he could have been picked up from the area.”

Seems we have a theme with the fence because that’s how the two escapee’s yesterday got out!  Someone was saying this is like the 3rd or 4th time it’s happened and this is a brand new facility!  I only found the March article so if it’s happened before it may not have made the news.  The thread on Next Door got pretty passionate.  One person even said she was about to pack up and move because of this.   There is a city council meeting on 20 August 2018 that people were talking about attending and bringing all this up.  If it’s like anything else, I don’t know that it’s going to matter much.

https://www.cityofalvarado.org/index.asp?SEC=B5F952A8-387F-4888-9B9F-AF0A80F969FC – City Calendar


Inmates Scale Fence, Escape ICE Detention Center in Johnson County

Both inmates have been captured: ICE

Published at 10:04 AM CDT on Aug 1, 2018 | Updated at 10:45 AM CDT on Aug 1, 2018

Authorities in Johnson County say two inmates who escaped a U.S. Immigration and Customs Enforcement detention facility in Alvarado Tuesday have been captured.

An ICE spokesman said staff at the Prairieland Detention Center were notified at 2:15 p.m. that two men climbed the fence and escaped. One person was captured about two hours later. The second man remained at large overnight and was found Wednesday morning.

ICE said neither of the men had convictions for violent crimes.

Multiple police agencies are involved in the search.

Agents were investigating how the escape happened.

30 July 2018 What a World

Hello.  How are you doing in your present moment?  I hope you are doing well…..so many are not.  Lots of fires, earthquakes, flooding and other manners of calamity going on all around us these days.

What are you doing to help yourself navigate these times?  It’s been harder for me lately but I have it easy compared to most everyone else I know.

There are people all over wearing multiple hats.  People in my neighborhood and beyond that are working so hard for themselves and their families – trying to be good people in this world.  In our midst so many hero’s!  In the above, middle and below of the strata of our existence so many trying to do their best in spite of all the obstructions put before them!

My thoughts, prayers and love go out to all our flesh and blood hero’s of today.  The police and fire departments, the hospice workers, the nurses, the doctors, the first responders, our veterans and those leaders of the many positive walks of faith at work in their churches, temples and communities.   A few may fall short and disappoint us, but most all of them try so hard!  It takes very special people to answer the call of service before self.

Every person on this earth, trying to make the world a better place each day is a hero in my book!

7:58 am have to pause – as I’m writing I’m hearing the patter of rain!  Oh thank goodness!  Living here in North Texas you just don’t take rain in the summer for granted!  Imagining all those cracks in the yards getting filled!  The skin of the earth getting some healing balm!

This morning on my Facebook I was reminded that I had shared this post from a friend a year ago.  I have tried to find the source book it’s from and haven’t found it yet.  I want to read the rest of the book lool!   When I read this it made me think that no matter what your vision or path to the God of your understanding or in some cases no God at all, when you were manifested a seed was planted within you…..a seed planted with love.  I know some would say their origin story doesn’t feel anything like that.  Way too many have an origin story rooted in violence….but yet you are here….you have a purpose and there is a place for you.   You just have to find it and there are many to help with this quest!   I hope you choose a positive path.  Remember, life is all about choices!

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Drawings from yesterday:



Crews continue to fight to keep Ferguson Fire away from Yosemite and populated areas

The Ferguson Fire continues to grow– consuming more than 800 acres on Sunday. As of Monday morning, it is 56,659 acres and is 30-percent contained.

Firefighters are working to secure the southeast quadrant of the fire to keep it from spreading into Yosemite National Park and the more populated areas south of the park.

Residents can expect to see increased smoke during the next few days as these fire operations continue.

While the Ferguson Fire continues its slow growth, those working the fire lines are also in mourning. Another one of their own was killed while on the job fighting the flames in Mariposa County.

Brian Hughes, 33, lost his life when he and his crew were conducting a tactical firing operation on the east side of the fire. During that operation, he was struck by a tree. He was treated on scene, but died before he could make it to the hospital.

This comes just 16 days after Cal Fire Heavy Equipment Operator Braden Varney was killed on the job.

Dozens lined the streets of the town of Mariposa and Merced Sunday to pay their final respects to Hughes. A procession led the firefighter’s body from the Mariposa Airport to the Stanislaus County Coroners Office.

Fire personnel escorted his body through the city of Merced.

https://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/video/neil-diamond-firefighters-battling-wildfire-surprise-performance-56910229video at this link of him singing.  Sharing this for my Mom who has always loved the Jazz Singer! 
Neil Diamond thanks firefighters battling wildfire with surprise performance

26 July 2018 Drawings, soil erosion, Alvarado Animal Shelter losing ACO’s and Sneaking

Hello to you.  How are you?  I am trying to stay positive but it’s getting hard again.  We have a divet in the road behind our house and every single truck with a trailer that goes over it makes a crashing sound.  One actually caused the house to vibrate and shake this morning with makes me anxious about the other thing going on in our neighborhood – erosion.  They can’t fix the road right now because of the heat.  We have lost a lot of soil underneath the roads, driveways and our houses in our neighborhood over the past few years since we moved here.  I am trying not to think about it, but I am afraid of what could happen should we lose too much more soil – sinkhole comes to mind.   Your mind goes to those places when the road beneath your feet wobbles and it’s not an earthquake.

Yesterday I found out the two Animal Control Officers at our shelter here in Alvarado are “leaving to persue other opportunities” which I read as a polite way of saying, “we quit.”  I can’t blame them.  I’m very sad about this because these two ladies try to so hard – actually love and care all of the animals put in their care.  It seems like they have had very little support from the city but I can’t say for sure.  It just seems like they are always having to  beg the public for food and supplies to feed and care for the animals.  They have had to work so hard at trying to find homes for dogs they will otherwise have to euthanize because the shelter is overcrowded.  They keep getting dogs being dumped or that escape because they are in some cases being neglected.  Recently there have been lots of kittens and puppies that are products of animals not being spayed or neutered.  They are currently conducting a “clear the shelter” effort so there are few if no animals in the shelter before they leave.  I wish them the very best and truly hope the  person(s) that they find to replace them will be half as committed as they have been:


602 South Pkwy
Alvarado, Texas
Call (817) 239-4401

Our two Animal Control Officers are leaving to pursue new opportunities. With that being said, we would like to clear the shelter ASAP. Please visit the shelter page and see if there are any animals you may be interested in. Our goal is to leave the shelter empty.

The shelter is NOT closing down, and all animals will still receive care, but it will take the city time to hire someone new. This means they will not have someone devoted to them 100% of the time. That is why we are trying to get everyone out of the shelter before we leave. Please help us!!!! Thanks in advance!!!

What happens when dogs and cats are allowed to breed unchecked.

The other thing is getting my AT & T bill for wireless services (a phone we seldom if ever use) this morning and seeing they raised the price on us, without notification, by $5.35 – $91.78.  We are paying $72.83 (right now, guess that will be going up too) for Internet.   So we are paying $164.61 a month.  What really pisses me off is they don’t consider the Internet a utility but without it you can’t do shit!  It’s kind of what Wells Fargo did with our monthly mortgage payments.  They raised that too without letting us know.  This after we refinanced and were hoping to have lower payments.

This morning I read that in Michigan the Republican party is plotting some gerrymandering: https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/emails-show-michigan-republicans-scheming-to-gerrymander-garbage-dems/ar-BBL4MIg – Emails Show Michigan Republicans Scheming To Gerrymander ‘Garbage Dems’


In the process of setting electoral districts, gerrymandering is a practice that attempts to establish a political advantage for a particular party or group by manipulating district boundaries to create partisan-advantaged districts. The resulting district apportionment is known as a gerrymander; however, that word can also refer to the process.



Who else is “sneaking” around in business, medicine, religion and politics?!  It almost seems like a virus going around it is so prevalent!  Kyle came up with a visual to describe this phenomenon a couple of years ago.  Imagine a person flipping you off (giving you the middle finger) and then taking a dinner plate and slowly raising it so you can’t see them flipping you off anymore and saying to you, “Look at the plate.”  Meanwhile they are still insulting you right in front of your face…you just can’t see anything but the plate. 

Smeagol – Sneaking

Published on Sep 11, 2012

Samwise Gamgee suspects Smeagol/Gollum of sneaking…

Sam: What are you up to? Sneaking off, are we?

Smeagol: Sneaking? Sneaking? Fat Hobbit is always so polite. Smeagol shows them secret ways that nobody else could find and they say “sneak.” Sneak? Very nice friend. Oh, yes, my precious. Very nice, very nice.

Sam: All right. All right! You just startled me is all. What were you doing?

Smeagol: Sneaking.

Sam: Fine. Have it your own way.


23 July 2018 The stranger

Hello to you.  How are you in your here and now?  The present moment you are sitting in as you visit here?  What I’ve been seeing in my own life and in  our shared existence is a struggle.   People struggling with their personal demons, work, homes, families, communities, churches, governments and with the environment itself.  It is the cause and effect, the push and pull….the balancing act between the light and shadows of our  nature that we call life.

For the longest time I have had trouble with accepting life isn’t just about contentment, peace and happiness all the time.  Why can’t we just experience the “flow” of existence without any entanglements along the way?!  What I have come to understand for myself is without struggles of some sort in my life I become complacent and learn very little about myself or others.  I get stagnant, bored and apathy sets in. I begin to feel almost non-existent or transparent even.  It’s not that I want to have a lot of struggles and drama in my life.  I just know how I feel when some sort of struggle, challenge, or purpose is absent.  My life is reduced to existing….barely living at all.

A part of me becomes a stranger if I am not vigilant.

Is it our current ways of communicating with others and retrieving information?  Being able to click and have a steady stream of struggle and purpose fed into our senses.

I have found for myself that it is in the moments of my unplugging from the world, when the green flickering lights of the internet box is off, the stranger appears.   The one that takes me outside and sits with me under our little oak tree and we listen to and watch the birds, cicada’s, dragonflies, flies, wasps and other winged beings in their personal struggles of survival in this sometimes hostile place.  We feel the faint breeze still hot from the day flowing through our fingers.  We look up at the clouds and pray for rain.  We cry for a world there is little we can do anything about but pray and meditate for.

The stranger within responds with love to the stranger unseen.  All too soon our moment of getting reacquainted is over.  Our time ends as the sun finally goes to bed wrapping itself in a blanket of purple, blue, pink and gold.

We are not alone in the struggles of this life when worldly distractions are set aside.   It the middle of countless vibrating particles of energy, the “lines” of time,  is the “stranger.”


22 July 2018 – I was thinking of the collective mind/consciousness floating above the earth in the clouds. The mirror was to get more light on the drawing. What’s interesting to me is in my attempt to get more light there is a reflection – like the consciousness having to look at and “reflect” on itself!

Exploring the numbers of the Words, interesting today:

http://www.crystalinks.com/numerology2.html – Numbers and Their Meanings

https://www.gematrix.org/ – Gematria Calculator (found this just today – very handy!)


The most useful tool is a substitution cipher where each letter of the alphabet is represented by a number which corresponds to that letter’s position in the alphabet. In simplest terms, this can be written as A=1, B=2 … Z=26. Since A is the first letter of the alphabet, it is represented by the number 1. B, the second letter, is represented by 2. Z, the last of the 26 letters in the alphabet, is represented by 26.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

19 20 18 21 7 7 12 5

S T R U G G L E = 109/10/1

4 9 19 20 18 1 3 20 9 15 14  (ION – Eye on, like keep an eye on something)

D I S T R A C T I O N = 132/6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

19 20 18 1 14 7 5 18

S T R A N G E R = 102/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

19 5 12 6

S E L F = 42/6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle (life, death, rebirth)

18 5 6 12 5 3 20 9 15 14 – (ION – Eye on, like keep an eye on something)

R E F L E C T I O N = 107/8/4/2/1

3 15 14 19 3 9 15 21 19 14 5 19 19

C O N S C I O U S N E S S – 175/13/4/2/1

13 9 18 18 15 18

M I R R O R = 91/10/1 (your two eyes and two parts of yourself see and instantly recognize and accept the person in the mirror as self)  or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 (like looking back and forth at yourself and finally coming to accept the self in the mirror)

12 9 6 5

L I F E = 32/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

5 24 9 19 20

E X I S T = 77/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

3 1 21 19 5

C A U S E = 49/13/4/2/1

5 6 6 5 3 20

E F F E C T = 45/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

19 21 9 3 9 4 5

S U I C I D E = 70/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

13 21 19 4 5 18

M U R D E R = 80/8/4/2/1

12 9 5

L I E = 26/8/4/2/1

23 1 18

W A R = 42/6/3 cycle

1 3 9 4

A C I D = 17/8/4/2/1 (I have been sad at seeing the use of this to disfigure people lately)

20 18 21 20 8

T R U T H = 87/15/6/3 cycle

20 5 3 8 14 15 12 15 7 25

T E C H N O L O G Y = 124/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

20 15 15 12

T O O L = 62/8/4/2/1