5 Dec 2018 Bible Study…She fell in love with a ghost

Hello to you.  the past couple of days I have been riddling out a lot of personal things which include scripture.  For most of my life, pretty much ever since I found out the cause for my birth mother’s taking her own life, post partum depression,  I have been blaming myself.  Post Partum depression, or what they call “Baby Blues” is something that occurs after child birth.  If I hadn’t ever been born may be she wouldn’t have done what she did.  My Dad and I don’t talk much about my Mom and that’s because I know it would hurt him and it hurts me too.   I love my Dad so much.  I know if we embarked on those discussions it would be like opening Pandora’s Box.  He has found a way through this life without opening it.  I must open my own.  We all have one.  A place inside of us that we put things too horrible to face and we shut them away so we can almost forget they even exist.  It’s important to remember even the best of boxes don’t always seal completely shut and contents leak out.

One thing he did tell me about her was her devotion to God and religion.  Perhaps overly so.  Her father, Reverend Harold or Hal Becker, served the God of his understanding for many years.  His wife Carol, my Mom Jeanne, her sister Ruth and their brother Bill were part of that service.  After she took her life at the young age of 26 with the gun my Dad used in his work as a policeman, he put away that service, never got over my Mom’s death and neither have I.  There was much blaming and finger pointing after she died.  Mostly directed at my Dad for leaving his gun in the house with her after she came home from Yankton State Mental Hospital.   Ultimately who is to blame?  My Mom.  She chose to do what she did whatever her state of mind was at the time.  Who is to blame when we become overweight?  When we succumb to a night of drinking?  Texting while we are driving and get into an accident?  We want it to be someone or something else.  We would like to have someone or something else to blame besides ourselves.

Her death has been and still is a mystery, a cold-case file that there aren’t any answers to.  I have gained personal insight in my quest to know her.  She and I have much in common, if what I’ve been told about her and have read is true.  She loved God.  Loving God is a lot like being in love with a ghost.  You can’t see a tangible being but recently, within the past few years, that changed for me.  I started to understand why I was always fascinated with Dracula lore by reflecting on what I experienced trying to be a Roman Catholic.  I can remember one time as a child kneeling during mass and really thinking about what was being said about the blood of Christ and I nearly fainted!

With the help of my Dad and others like Cesar Millan, Maran Keshe, Nikola Tesla and Wilhelm Reich and so many others (animals, insects, the trees, plants, fish etc) living and dead I began to understand energy.  I began to look around and see God everywhere in everyone and everything….”everything is energy….everything is God.”  Just this past year or so the exploration of words as numbers came to me.  Now I dig even deeper and find truth in numbers and I am even closer to the God I have come to understand.

I don’t blame God for my misfortunes.  I don’t blame God for anything because my life has been a series of choices I made.  There might be some behind the scenes stuff going on I am not privy to but to look at my life for it’s face value – it’s my responsibility.  Loving the God of my understanding and seeking to know them better helps me make better choices.

 

she fell in love with a ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 274

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

holy spirit in Simple Gematria equals: 151

52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

jesus christ in Simple Gematria equals: 151*

52/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(Jesus = 74 Christ = 77) Energy = 74 Power = 77)

earth in Simple Gematria equals: 52*

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the bible in Simple Gematria equals: 63

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

a person in Simple Gematria equals: 88

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1

a human being in Simple Gematria equals: 95

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

a people in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

a ghost in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

third wheel in a relationship in Simple Gematria equals: 282

48 or 84/12/3 cycle or 12/6/12/3 cycle

my father�s house has many rooms in Simple Gematria equals: 344 (we are rooms for God)

a body in Simple Gematria equals: 47

= 1687/787/22/4/2/1  or 22 divided by 2 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

 

holy eucharist in Simple Gematria equals: 164

74/11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

flesh in Simple Gematria equals: 50

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

blood in Simple Gematria equals: 48

12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 3 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

red wine in Simple Gematria equals: 78

15/6/3 or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

the last supper in Simple Gematria equals: 180

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

animal sacrifice in Simple Gematria equals: 123

6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

human sacrifice in Simple Gematria equals: 130

4/2/1

people sacrifice in Simple Gematria equals: 142

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

war in Simple Gematria equals: 42

6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

gun in Simple Gematria equals: 42

6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

suicide in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

murder in Simple Gematria equals: 79

16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1 or 16/8/4/2/1

= 1148/68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

a soul in Simple Gematria equals: 68

= 1216/37/10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

 

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+14&version=NIV

John 14 New International Version (NIV)

Jesus Comforts His Disciples

14 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God[a]; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.”

Jesus Promises the Holy Spirit

15 “If you love me, keep my commands. 16 And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be[c] in you. 18 I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 19 Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 20 On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. 21 Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”

 

one bread one body in Simple Gematria equals: 144

54 or 45/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

omnipresence in Simple Gematria equals: 136 (A Nine – Nein…No)

10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

be everywhere at once in Simple Gematria equals: 199 (A Thirteen)

19/10/1 or 19 divided by 2 = 9.5 = 14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

difficult in Simple Gematria equals: 90

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

be all at once in Simple Gematria equals: 90

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

be everything to everyone in Simple Gematria equals: 284

68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

please everyone all of the time in Simple Gematria equals: 293

59/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

just be in Simple Gematria equals: 77

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  or 14/7

you are ultimately responsible for your behavior in Simple Gematria equals: 555*

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 3 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

blame in Simple Gematria equals: 33

6/3 cycle

responsibility in Simple Gematria equals: 192

39 or 93/12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 3 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

a choice in Simple Gematria equals: 44

8/4/2/1  (choice=43/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1)

everything is energy everything is god in Simple Gematria equals: 422

26/8/4/2/1

= 2423/65/11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

1687 + 1216 + 2423 = 5326/78

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 3 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle*

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7 June 2018 Why? (Suicide)

Hello to you.  How are you doing in the moment you are in visiting here?  I’m doing o.k.  Kyle and I aren’t feeling 100% today.  This too shall pass!  It always does.

We are having the suicide discussion as a country again after another public figure took her own life.   I didn’t know who Kate Spade was until hearing about her death on the news yesterday.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/health/medical/suicide-rate-us-saw-25percent-increase-since-1999-cdc-says/ar-AAylNWS?OCID=ansmsnnews11

Suicide rate: US saw 25% increase since 1999, CDC says
By Susan Scutti, CNN

Suicide rates increased by 25% across the United States over nearly two decades ending in 2016, according to research published Thursday by the US Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Twenty-five states experienced a rise in suicides by more than 30%, the government report finds.

More than half of those who died by suicide had not been diagnosed with a mental health condition, said Dr. Anne Schuchat, principal deputy director of the CDC.

“These findings are disturbing. Suicide is one of the top 10 causes of death in the US right now, and it’s one of three causes that is actually increasing recently, so we do consider it a public health problem — and something that is all around us,” Schuchat said. The other two top 10 causes of death that are on the rise are Alzheimer’s disease and drug overdoses, she noted.

In 2016 alone, about 45,000 lives were lost to suicide.

“Our data show that the problem is getting worse,” Schuchat said.

7 June 2018 – drawing I did this morning for my friend.

There are so many personal reasons for deciding to end it all.  My Mother, my Grandfather and my cousin actually went through with it.  I will tell you  their choosing to take their own lives was definitely a deterrent for me making the same choices.  It’s easier to leave than it is to be left after something like that.  The survivors are left with so many questions, the “what if I’d only’s,” blame, shame and overwhelming despair.  For many years I blamed myself for my Mom’s taking her own life.  They said she suffered from baby blues or post-partum depression and when I found out what that was, I blamed myself for her choosing to die.

I don’t have all the answers.  I’ve been in the mental health system since the 1990’s and it really hasn’t changed too much since then which is really sad.  I’m seeing way too much emphasis on drug therapy and too little on alternatives like talk, art, musical, spiritual and physical therapy.   I won’t say that the pills haven’t helped me at all, but I will say that there have been times that nothing of this earth could begin to contain what was going on inside of me.

What’s my opinion as someone who is in the risk group of this “crisis”?

A good start would be to work as a country to remove the stigmas attached to mental illness.  May be people would be more inclined to get the help they need.    Another, probably the most important thing,  would be to make reputable mental health care accessible and affordable to anyone who needs it.  I’m not talking just handing people a bunch more pills….obviously that is tipping the suicide tables.   I’m talking about integrated mental health care that deals with the entirety a human being is – their mind, body and spirit.   Troubled people need someone they can trust, someone with integrity who they can talk to about their problems on a regular basis.  They should be able to do this without having to choose between doing that and putting food on their table.  Sometimes that’s all somebody needs is just to talk and get things out of their own head!

It’s sad that it takes another famous person to die before this issue gets serious attention.  Mental health and suicide is a lot like the gun issue.  It surfaces, gets talked about for awhile, everybody throws up their hands because it’s too complicated and volatile to deal with and it gets pushed aside until the next time.  Unfortunately, there is always going to be a next time with this.

https://www.bustle.com/p/9-people-on-the-alternative-type-of-therapy-thats-working-for-them-9244860several of these suggestions are in my personal toolkit. 

9 People On The Alternative Type Of Therapy That’s Working For Them

While the jury is still out on why, it’s pretty clear that mental illness is on the rise in the United States in recent years. Titles like “The Meteoric Rise of Mental Illness in America and Implications for Other Countries” and “The Alarming Rise in Teen Mental Illness” blare at us from social media and news outlets. Mass shooting after mass shooting is attributed to individual mental health problems, rather than structural societal ones. The opioid epidemic barrels forward, with no sign of stopping. And, at the same time, a recent CDC study found that despite increases in serious mental distress, access to mental health services are on the decline.

“Alternative” therapy just refers to anything that isn’t traditional talk therapy or cognitive behavioral therapy. (You, know — the image of sitting down in a room with a therapist and talking about your feelings.) It can include working with a professional or can simply be an activity that helps people manage their minds, feelings, and symptoms. While traditional therapy has been and continues to be a great resource for people dealing with mental health issues and trauma, it’s not available to or not the right fit for plenty of people.

With that in mind, here are nine people who use different types of alternative therapy, and why they love it.

1Arielle, 27: Dance

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“I suffer from pretty intense derealization and dissociation and find that dance is one of the only modalities to really help get me back into my body. When I stay consistent, I find it’s really helpful. I’ve been off the wagon for a bit and notice my symptoms intensify when I haven’t danced in a while. By just having a few moments of tapping back into my body and myself, I find that I don’t get as anxious or nervous when I’m floating above myself the rest of the day, because I have a point of reference to come back to.

I just recently started getting back into traditional therapy, which is definitely helpful but doesn’t alleviate any symptoms. It’s been a great way to focus on the specific issues I want to work on and make me feel like I’m doing everything I can to get better, but it doesn’t necessarily help me get better.”

2Anonymous: Trauma Sensitive Yoga

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“[I use] trauma sensitive yoga to incorporate therapy and healing into my physical body once I had gotten to that stage in my recovery. Yes, I am still doing both [traditional and alternative therapy]. I find the combination of “traditional” and “alternative” to be the most effective, rather than one or the other.”

3Irene, 40: Somatic Experiencing Therapy

Andrew Zaeh/Bustle

“[I chose this form of therapy] because trauma is stored in the body and cannot be released by talking about it. Somatic Experiencing works with the nervous system to release stuck energy from a past nervous system activation (when we were unable to fight/flee or froze) that did not get discharged (nervous system was not allowed to calm down), thereby creating a new balanced, relaxed and calm normal.

Somatic Experiencing helped me release pent up anger and regulate my nervous system, releasing most triggers that would have created anxiety in the past. I have done traditional therapy and coaching before and it helped to a point — but it did not go deep enough within the body, so I had outbursts of anger and anxiety that I did not know were coming from or how to manage them.”

4Genya: Reiki

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“I found a therapist who is also a reiki practitioner, so she offers both talk therapy and reiki for my anxiety. And since she’s an LMHC my insurance covers our visits. I love it! It’s an amazing option for dealing with stress and anxiety. When I’m having trouble slowing down to process complex emotions, it’s a great tool.”

5Emma, 31: Acupuncture

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“I actually started acupuncture as treatment for a hormone imbalance, but I found that talking about the different things that are affecting my energy each week has been as therapeutic as — if not more than — the needles themselves. I’ve done traditional therapy in the past but the thought of finding a therapist right now exhausts me. Starting acupuncture felt like a much lower barrier to entry.”

6Chris, 45: Biking

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“I hate all people. You know, pretty much. [I chose biking because] it’s biking. Ipso facto, it is awesome. Did couples counseling once. Meh. People are really really really stupid and there’s just no substitute for good ol’ introspection.”

7Michael, 43: 5 Rhythms And Ecstatic Dance

Andrew Zaeh for Bustle

“Check out Maps to Ecstasy by Gabrielle Roth. It’s an effective and fun way to process through emotions via movement. And the community is amazing, all over the world. I have not done traditional therapy, but am familiar with it. The model isn’t my style.”

8Alex, 30: Meditation, Self-Help Books

Andrew Zaeh/Bustle

“[I chose this type of therapy because] I feel like it is more on my time. I like that I’m not expecting anything of anyone else, even a therapist… I know from the outside it looks great. I’m positive that I’m checking lots of societal boxes, but I’m not sure I’m doing all I want to. No, I know I’m not. I want a lot.”

9D, 31: Meditation Community

Andrew Zaeh for Bustle

“[I found this type of therapy] through my family. It is a beautiful and supportive community that encourages me to change how I view, react to, and accept circumstances instead of constantly thinking something is ‘wrong’ with me. I still do [traditional therapy]. But meds weren’t doing it. I needed to change how I saw the world instead of hoping a pill a day might completely save me from traumatic past”.

There you have it — nine people and the type of alternative therapy that they use. When it comes to treating a mental health issue, there’s clearly no one-size-fits-all answer. The most important thing is that you find something that works for you.

 

25 May 2017 Streams in the Desert messages – Mother Jeanne 75th birthday

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Good morning to you. It’s 1:15 am as I write to you….couldn’t sleep. The “Hum” came back and even though I tried, I couldn’t sleep through it. Today marks what would have been my birth mother Jeanne’s 75th birthday (my Dad’s is the 31st of May). In the meditations, spirit walks and many chalk drawings that I’ve been doing lately, I think it’s all been leading up to this day. It feels like a “graduation” of sorts, probably because the kids in the schools around us are almost wrapping up their school year. It’s an exciting time!

For those who know me, who know my story from what I’ve shared here in this blog and just being family and or a friend, if you read these three days of messages from the Streams in the Desert Devotional (1925), you will see why they would resonate with me so much. Once again, it feels like being talked to directly by a source…the God of my understanding. This time a book. The God of my understanding is in all things so why not in a book, in a song, in a picture album etc.? Last night before bed, I looked at the photo album I had put together of childhood pictures my Grandma Carol had given to me of Mom. The album also has baby pictures etc of me. There are many mysteries for which I will probably never have answers in these pictures and there was a lot of snow the Christmas Even she took her life. Her suicide, with a firearm, is an act that even after 49 years still affects me and all those who remain that knew and loved her.

I do not think of attaining Peace for myself anymore about this rough start to my life, I think Acceptance is more to my personal truth. I accept her death and how she chose to die – it was between her and the God of her understanding. This is the nature of life and death. We only have dominion over ourselves and our choices – it is there we must examine first before judging and condemning the lives of others. We must ACCEPT ourselves first and foremost for in self reflection we will see we are imperfect but yet worthy of unconditional love and acceptance from others whether these choose to accept us or not.

Anyhew….I hope something in my message here or these words to follow will be for you:

May 24

“Sarah bare Abraham a son in his old age, at the set time which God had spoken to him.” (Gen. 21.2.)

The counsel of the Lord standeth forever, the thoughts of His heart to all generations” (Psalm 33:11). But we must be prepared to wait God’s time. God has His set times. It is not for us to know them; indeed, we cannot know them; we must wait for them.

If God had told Abraham in Haran that he must wait for thirty years until he pressed the promised child to his bosom, his heart would have failed him. So, in gracious love, the length of the weary years was hidden, and only as they were nearly spent, and there were only a few more months to wait, God told him that “according to the time of life, Sarah shall have a son.” (Gen. 18:14.)

The set time came at last; and then the laughter that filled the patriarch’s home made the aged pair forget the long and weary vigil.

Take heart; waiting one, thou waitest for One who cannot dissapoint thee; and who will not be five minutes behind the appointed time; ere long “your sorrow will be turned into joy.”

Ah, happy soul, when God makes thee laugh! Then sorrow and crying shall flee away forever, as darkness before the dawn. – Selected.

It is not for us who are passengers, to meddle with the chart and with the compass. Let that all-skilled Pilot alone with His own work. — Hall.

“Some things cannot be done in a day. God does not make a sunset glory in a moment, but for days may be massing the mist out of which He builds His palaces beautiful in the west.”

“Some glorious morn – but when? Ah, who shall say?

The steepest mountain will become a plain

And the parched land be satisfied with rain.

The gates of brass all broken; iron bars,

Transfigured, form a ladder to the stars.

Rough places plain, and crooked ways all straight,

For him who with a patient heart can wait.

These things shall be on God’s appointed day:

It may not be tomorrow – yet it may.”

May 25

“I endure all things for the sake of God’s own people; so that they also may obtain salvation…and with it eternal glory.” (2 Tim. 2:10.) (Weymouth.)

If Job could have know as he sat there in the ashes, bruising his heart on this problem of Providence- that in the trouble that had come upon him he was doing what one man may do to work out the problem for the world, he might again have taken courage. No man lives to himself. Job’s life is but your life and mine written in larger text….So, then, though we may not know what trials wait on any of us, we can believe that, as the days in which Job wrestled with his dark maladies are the only days that make him worth remembrance, and but for which his name had never written in the book of life, so the days through which we struggle, finding no way, but never losing the light, will be the most significant we are called to live. –Robert Collyer.

Who does not know that our most sorrowful days have been amongst our best? When the face is wreathed in smiles and we trip lightly over meadows bespangled with spring flowers, the heart is often running to waste.

The soul which is always blithe and gay misses the deepest life. It has its reward, and it is satisfied to its measure, though that measure is a very scanty one. But the heart is dwarfed; and the nature, which is capable of the highest burns down to its socket without having known the resonance of the deepest chords of joy.

“Blessed are they that mourn.” Stars shine brightest in the long dark night of winter. The gentians show their fairest bloom amid almost inaccessible heights of snow and ice.

God’s promises seem to wait for the pressure of pain to trample out their richest juice as in a wine-press. Only those who have sorrowed know how tender is the “Man of Sorrows.” – Selected.

Thou has but little sunshine, but they long glooms are wisely appointed thee; for perhaps a stretch of summer weather would have made thee as a parched land and barren wilderness. They Lord knows best, and He has the clouds and the sun at His disposal. — Selected

“It is a gray day.” “Yes, but dinna ye see the patch of blue?” Scotch Shoemaker 

*2015 Mom Jeanne Faith Becker would have been 73!

26 May

“Spring up, O well; sing ye unto it.” (Num. 21:17.)

This was a strange song and a strange well. They had been traveling over the desert’s barren sands, no water was in sigh and they were famishing with thirst Then God spake to Moses and said:

“Gather the people together, and I will give them water,” and this is how it came.

They gathered in circles on the sands. They took their staves and dug deep down into the burning earth and as they dug, they sang,

“Spring up, O well, sing ye unto it,” and o, there came a gurgling sound, a rush of water and a flowing stream which filled the well and ran along the ground.

When they dug this well in the desert, they touched the stream that was running beneath, and reached the flowing tides that had long been out of sight.

How beautiful the picture given, telling us of the river of blessing that flows all through our lives , and we have only to reach by faith and praise to find our wants supplied in the most barren desert.

How did they reach the waters of this well? It was by praise. They sang upon the sand their song of faith, while with their staff of promise they dug the well.

Our praise will still open fountains in the desert, when murmuring will only bring us judgement, and even prayer may fail to reach the fountains of blessing.

There is nothing that pleases the Lord so much as praise. There is no test of faith so true as the grace of thanksgiving. Are you praising God enough? Are you thanking Him for your actual blessings that are more than can be numbered, and are you daring to praise Him even for those trials which are but blessings in disguise? Have you learned to praise Him in advance for the things that have not yet come? — Selected

“Thou waitest for deliverance!

Oh soul, thou waitest long!

Believe that no deliverance

Doth wait for thee in song!

“Sigh not until deliverance

Thy fettered feet doth free:

With songs of glad deliverance

God now doth compass thee.”