Hello to you. How are you doing today? I’m finding myself in a better place this morning. I feel grateful to be making it to another day in the circumstances I find myself in. I am trying to remain grateful.
Last night I had another battle with anxiety. What happens is I start thinking too far ahead or ruminating on all the uncertainties in front of me and things I can’t control. Then I start to get that extremely uncomfortable anxious feeling in my gut. Relief has come from physical exertion and doing normal things. I am having to relearn what normal things are for myself right now. I find there are a lot of things I used to do that I just can’t bring myself to do right now.
I really feel like I am really having a test in my life right now with the concept of mindfulness. That concept of staying in the present moment.
I am having to ask myself internally a lot, “what can you do about it and if the answer is nothing right now why are you dwelling on it?” Something my husband used to do for me and now I’m having to do for myself is to remind myself that worrying about things doesn’t do any good. It’s usually easier said than done he’s right.
The pandemic is still here in Texas but they have really started to lift restrictions so places can open back up. I went to get groceries yesterday at our local Brookshire’s and some of the shelves were cleared out! One of the biggest areas that was cleared was the aisle with cleaning supplies – nothing but concentrated Clorox for example. I can tell they are having trouble keeping some things stocked up right now. I’m just grateful to be able to get the basics right now.
Well I hope however this blog finds you that you are well. Everybody is telling me that I’m strong and that I will get through all that’s going on. I’m just learning to take a few steps at a time and having a lot of faith.
Hello to you in your today. It’s Sunday as I write to you and I am blessed to have a cup of coffee beside me, power to run this computer, Link asleep yet in the bed and my health. My mini gratitude list! The little things are mostly what makes up the average life if you really take a look. All those minor things that when you are in a different situation, you find yourself missing and when they are back in your life you find yourself so grateful.
When I was at JPS, they had morning coffee and what a spectacle that was! Talk about a reason to get out of bed! We practically ran down to the coffee cart and then each person had their, what I refer to as, the “dark morning ritual.” I call it a dark ritual not just because coffee is dark but if you mess with people, sometimes even speak to them, before they have completed their individual process, they can get so fussy! Each person had their own process and it usually meant quite a mess for the cleaning people or one of us. Powdered creamer and the variations of sugar got all over the place as each person frantically, in some cases, opened the packages of creamer and sugars. Some people used ALOT of artificial sugars for their mix!
My thanks to the coffee maker, which changed from morning to morning, was often profuse. One morning I even had tears in my eyes when I said it to Cole. Cole was one of those who actually had the formula down to perfection on making the coffee lol! It’s the little things that can make a time that seems almost unbearable….well bearable. Sometimes routines are not just routines to those on the receiving end.
When you look at your life as it is, what is it that you are grateful for? There has to be at least one thing. When I find my life has taken a turn I’m not comfortable with, asking myself that question helps bring me back around.
“morning coffee” in the English Ordinal system equals 130 – a peace
“one three zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 154 – a love
“one five four” in the English Ordinal system equals 136 – a child
“one three six” in the English Ordinal system equals 142 – a self
“one four two” in the English Ordinal system equals 152 – a earth
“one five two” in the English Ordinal system equals 134 – a one
I requested to listen to this song a lot when we had recreation time. I like the video attached to it for a time called The Adventures of Jasper Morello.
I hope you have a wonderful Sunday and that you find yourself grateful for at least one thing – even if it’s just waking up today.
Hello to you. It’s been awhile since I posted anything. I am currently going through some challenging times in my life and haven’t been feeling like doing much. I hope something in what I will share here will help you if you find yourself visiting my blog today.
What I am currently facing is something similar to what I went through in my previous marriage. The experience of living with someone but feeling like you are just sharing a space but not truly connected like you once were. I call it, living alone together. It’s not a condition I want to exist but it currently does.
I am the sort of person who can get carried away into many different directions at once and find it difficult to be in the present moment all the time. To be in a healthy relationship with someone, I think you have to communicate and sometimes even that breaks down. For my husband and I, we have had the same conversations so many times, our own personal echo chamber if you will. After a time, things just get stale. We used to share a lot of the same interests but over time, things have changed for both of us. I think this world has changed and not necessarily for the better.
I am currently trying to find a way to navigate through my current circumstances and maintain a positive attitude. I have been writing letters, writing in a journal, taking pictures, cleaning and organizing the house, doing yard work, going for walks, doing crafts, trying to eat better and get enough sleep, trying to communicate more with loved ones as coping mechanisms. Our two dogs are affected by what is going on as much as we are. I think it must be very confusing to them.
I ran a couple of words-numbers phrases in line with this topic. As I have mentioned before in previous posts, I want to emphasize my interpretation of these numbers isn’t the only interpretation. You may see something else. You may be experiencing something else. It’s interesting to me to see the patterns. May be for your own experience there are other things you would add:
(shared/wages=55 true love/modification/scent glands/wonderful/concentrate=118 I’m sorry/nurture/humility/upbringing=117 temptation/community/don’t give up = 133 (the=33) people matter/brain function/peace for the brain = 146 (body=46)
metabolism = 109/140
“to have a healthy metabolism” = 260 174/159/118/117/133/146
(energy=74 five = 42 nine= 42 self=42 (the five senses of the body and nine (nein) or no self)
living alone = 120 156/128/141/128/141…..
living by yourself = 221 150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125
The other day I was walking to the Family Dollar down the street and happened to notice this beautiful tree living near an abandoned house across the street from our local Elementary School. I got to thinking about how nice it would be if that property could be annexed to the school for learning about plants and nature; like a nature learning center or something. There is a large field next to it I imagined being turned into a community garden and it could also be part of the learning center. I imagined children learning how to grow their own food and appreciating nature like I do.
Facts and Myths of Hedge Apples by Dr. Barbara Ogg, Extension Educator
This article appeared in the October 2001 NEBLINE Newsletter
This time of year, hedge apples – the fruit from the Osage-orange tree – are being sold at farmer’s markets, garden centers, and other locations. Many people have heard that these fruits can be used as an insect repellent, but the truth is that many people don’t know much else about this unusual tree and its fruit.
The Tree and Its Fruit:
The Osage-orange is a small to medium-sized tree, having a short trunk and a rounded or irregular crown. The twigs are buff to orange-brown and are armed with one-half inch long spines. The stems exude a milky sap when cut. The Osage-orange is dioecious, meaning that male and female flowers are produced on separate trees. The small, green flowers appear in May or June. Female trees produce 3-to 5-inch diameter fruit which ripen in September or October and fall to the ground.
Native Habitat and Current Distribution:
The Osage-orange is native to a small area in eastern Texas, southeastern Oklahoma, and southwestern Arkansas. This region is the home of the Osage Indians which gives the tree its common name. Settlers found that the Osage-orange transplanted easily, tolerated poor soils, extreme heat, and strong winds and had no serious insect or disease problems. It was widely planted in the Midwest as a living fence because, when pruned into a hedge, it provided an impenetrable barrier to livestock. The development of barbed wire curtailed its widespread planting, but many Osage-orange trees can still be found in fence rows.
Uses of the Osage-Orange:
The wood is extremely hard, heavy, durable and shrinks or swells little compared to the wood of other trees. The wood is used for fence posts, treenails, furniture, and archery bows. In fact, many archers consider the wood of the Osage-orange to be the world’s finest wood for bows. Another common name for this tree, bodark, is from the French bios d’arc meaning “bow wood.” This tree also produces a bright yellow dye which can be extracted from the wood.
The fruit of the Osage-orange is a nuisance in the home landscape and has little value. Hedge apples are not an important source of food for wildlife as most birds and animals find the fruit unpalatable. The thorny trees do provide nesting and cover for wildlife.
The belief about the use of hedge apples for insect control is widespread and persistent. it is claimed that placing hedge apples around the foundation or inside the basement will repel or control insects. A few years ago, Iowa State University toxicologists extracted compounds from hedge apples. When concentrated, these compounds were found to repel insects.
Scientists also found that natural concentrations of these compounds in the fruit were too low to be an effective repellent. So, don’t be fooled into spending much to use hedge apples as an insect repellent.
If you decide to pick hedge apples to check out the repellency yourself or to use the fruit as a fall decoration, it would be wise to wear gloves. The milky juice present in the stems and fruit of the Osage-orange can irritate the skin.
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*Seeing this today was like they were showing me, “Hey, look what my job is! I have value, I have worth!” We used to be mean to the wasps until I took the time to learn their job in nature actually is. From what I have personally witnessed, their purpose for existence includes trying to keep our trees healthy. Since trees are basically the lungs of the planet, I think that’s a pretty important job! I have read conflicting information about wasps online. My personal experience is they are helpers and teachers. What came through in the numbers is a pecan tree and a teacher have a pattern in common. What I believe is we all, whatever form, are teachers, students, messages and receivers of those messages. I believe everyone has value in one way or another. It’s not always easy to understand what we are trying to convey to each other. I don’t think we should give up trying!
133 – “don’t give up”
Wasp – 59/84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140…….
*remember, these are only just a few of the meanings of these numbers that I have found for myself and am sharing with you.
152’s – amber tree resin, positive drama, positive being,
pecan tree – 87/114/128/141/128/141……….
87- person, truth, roots, justice
pecan – 39/98/91/76/117/133/146
98 – killer bees (I found this value trying to figure out why people may have a fear of bees/wasps. Remember those old Killer bee television shows and movies? When I was a very small girl I can remember drinking a can of soda without realizing a bee was in the can and I got stung. I was pretty freaked out! It wasn’t the bee’s fault but a “seed of fear” was planted that I had to actively overcome through time. I did this through trying to understand them instead of thinking they were all bad. The same principle I have used towards other insects and life forms to include people. It’s not easy to do but for me personally, it has been worth trying to do.)