Hello to you. Hope this finds you well today wherever and whenever you are tuning in from. Feeling gratitude today. I had a weird dream last night/this morning. It was about some hotel/hospital where people were going to get plastic surgery. I saw Prince there and it was like his face was stitched on and it was a white version of himself. This was the case of many of the people I saw there. I think this dream was triggered by the CNN show we watched last night, “Video Killed The Radio Star.” Since it was from the 80’s, they of course mentioned artists like Prince, Michael Jackson and Whitney Houston. They talked about how difficult it had been for musical artists of color to break through on MTV. They have a clip of an interview where David Bowie asked one of the MTV VJ’s why there were so few videos with black artists and he got a bullshit answer. You could tell by how David responded that he wasn’t falling for it!
David Bowie Criticizes MTV for Not Playing Videos by Black Artists | MTV News
It made my heart ache to think on how many artists I knew and loved from the 80’s like Prince that are no longer here with us! It’s a tough gig to choose to be a performing artist! I miss them and am grateful for their contributions to such a big part of my developmental years.
17 May 2018 – Drawing I did this morning. A lot of going on. Lots of cats lol. I miss our cats but we do not plan to have another cat any time soon. Having an indoor cat is a lot of work and from experience, without a catory or some kind of sun porch, was unfair to our cats.
17 May 2018 – In memory of Prince – he was a genius and I miss him.
16 18 9 14 3 5
P R I N C E = 65
3 1 20
C A T = 24 (3 cycle)
16 21 18 16 12 5
P U R P L E = 88
5 25 5
E Y E = 35
2 9 18 4
B I R D = 33 (3 cycle)
16 12 1 19 20 9 3 19 21 18 7 5 18 25
P L A S T I C (80) S U R G E R Y (113) = 193
Prince – When Doves Cry (Official Music Video)
Prince – Thieves In The Temple (Official Music Video)
Hello to you. It is Wednesday in my timeline but it feels like Friday already! Had a fun dream this morning. I was with an old co-worker from when I was working in Personnel Systems Management for the Air Force. I bent a piece of metal with my mind and levitated a rose quartz crystal – apparently my right hand was stronger in the dream for such things lol! My friend was in disbelief at what he had seen, so I repeated it. I told Kyle this is why I enjoy the dream world so much. In the dream realm I fly invisible ships, have wings, can just jump and fly out of a tree. In my dreams I can visit other worlds and as of last night, bend metal and levitate crystals with my mind! Way cool!
Speaking of dreams. Yesterday we “publicked” and went and got the tires on our car rotated and did a Target run for our favorite liquid soap, Dr. Bronners: (https://www.drbronner.com/). Exciting right?! Well when we checked out at Target, the clerk named Robbin seemed to be having a day like I mentioned to you, that surreal feeling like nothing is real…like everything is just a dream. I took her hands in mind to try to reassure her we were all real. She still was left wondering about reality but a little more grounded I think! I guess working in a place like Target could put you in that state of mind! So many nice things that most of us can’t really afford. We wandered around in there and talked ourselves out everything but absolute essentials. Not easy! I’m pretty sure Robbin’s wages don’t allow her to buy much where she works.
15 May 2018 – drawing I did yesterday trying to work through the stuff that happened during this last cycle Kyle and I went through. I get what Kyle and I call “hitcher’s” and many times they are very angry.
15 May 2018 – drawing about my interaction with the gal from Target yesterday, Robbin.
15 May 2018 – chalk drawing. Don’t have a clue who the woman is. The other part is more about the hitcher’s.
19 15 21 12
S O U L = 67
18 5 1 12 9 20 25
R E A L I T Y = 90 (9 cycle)
5 18 5 1 13
D R E A M = 41
20 9 18 5
T I R E = 52 (funny that tire and door have the same numeric value!)
4 15 15 18
D O O R = 52
23 1 6 6 12 5
W A F F L E = 53 (it cracks me up with words like this – essentially a waffle is a kind of wafer and they have the same numeric value)
23 1 6 5 18
W A F E R = 53
13 21 19 9 3
M U S I C = 65
Dreamt about some men this morning who looked like they may be from Hawaii or Samoa (been praying for Hawaii a lot lately!). One of them was playing an instrument that I have come to find out today actually exists! The Coconut Thumb Piano, Kalimba or a Mbira which actually has origins in Africa:
(Redirected from Thumb piano) The mbira is an African musical instrument consisting of a wooden board (often fitted with a resonator) with attached staggered metal tines, played by holding the instrument in the hands and plucking the tines with the thumbs.
It is said that before globalisation, these instruments could only be found in Africa and where African descendants lived. Therefore, the thumb piano we know in the West, called kalimba, is a modernized version of its African ancestors.
Many tribes, all across the continent, have developed their own unique thumb pianos over the centuries. Because the languages and cultures of these tribes vary so much, so do the names and traditions of their instruments.
Thumb Piano Coconut Natural
Program we started watching, kind gives me an “ache” inside…man I’m getting so old!
Hello to you. Hope you are well today. I am a little tired and not feeling real rested. I had another traveling dream this morning. There were small lime green cars and traveling to Sophie, my niece I think. I was in one of the cars and as I was getting ready to drive away, a couple other versions of the same car I was driving got in my way. Then I drove down a hill through what seemed to be like a bunch of shopping carts and the car I was driving was all beat up at the bottom of the hill. Then there was a blurry image of a blonde girl at the end of the dream just before I woke up. Anyways….those kinds of dreams aren’t very restful lol!
During my last “cycle” I went through, things got pretty wild here at the house. I was literally not myself and things got broken. For some reason, this time more than others, specific objects had a strong association with unpleasant feelings I had about certain people and or situations and there was bloodshed and they got broken. The blue and red blown glass dragons I had kept fixing were irretrievably broken. Kyle, out of frustration, even got into the act this time. I am happy to say, out of the wreckage, there was beauty. Sometimes it feels like I am under siege by unseen forces and thankfully it’s just material “things” that get broken! Being an empathic, highly sensitive person, I am very porous and if I’m not careful, can be an easy mark for spiritual mischief makers. I am so grateful for Kyle, Link, Spot and my family and friends that know to just “stand-by” until the channel changes.
15 May 2018 – Front view of sculpture and angel that Kyle broke that I added a dragon fly to.
15 May 2018 – back view of sculpture I made with broken glass etc.
Hello to you. Today has been a really nice day. My sweetheart cooked us dinner while I was outside drawing and sweating – really warm and humid today.
13 May 2018 – this drawing is me thinking of myself as a baby blue dragon clutching my labradorite ball last night. I had like 2 or 3 lucid dreams in a row! One of them is represented by the little black girl holding a pink crystal necklace. She wanted to take it and I told her no. There is also a box represented by the realtor like lady from one of the dreams last night. There is a box with two people with huge dogs – these special beautiful beings seem to show up and just disappear for me. The dogs they are with are almost like spirits more than dogs.
Hope all the folks that nurture others are having a special day. The term “Mom” isn’t just for women in my book. I called my Mom today and it was hard because there was so much I wanted to say but tears got to me first. For all my Mom and I have been through, I just dearly love her and am so grateful for all the important things she managed to get through my thick skull. This is her first Mother’s Day without her Mom and I can only imagine how surreal that would be if I were in her shoes. We lost Grandma a couple of months ago. We had all been praying for her to “be free” but as we all know, it’s not all up to us with these sort of things.
13 May 2018 – drawing I did after I talked to Mom
As I mentioned in my notes with the drawing, last night I decided to sleep with my Labradorite crystal ball and it was like one lucid dream after another. This hasn’t happened to me in a long time. Both of the orbs I have are in the picture. Do you have a favorite crystal for dream travels?
Labradorite is a gemstone that was named after Labrador in Canada, where it was found on the Isle of Paul, near Nain in 1770. It has since been found in other places, including Finland, Madagascar, and Australia. After its discovery, labradorite became popular with the missionaries. Labradorite is a plagioclase feldspar which shows adularescence (a white or bluish light seen when turned). This optical effect is so unique to labradorite that it has been termed “labradorescence”. It is the result of diffraction of light in the layers of rock. When viewed at certain angles, labradorite exhibits such captivating color that has led to Inuit legends stating that the Northern Lights shone down on the shores of Labrador and were captured inside these colorful stones. The most highly valued labradorite is material that shows the full spectrum of color in its labradorescence. Labradorite that does not exhibit labradorescence can still make beautiful gemstones because of aventurescence, which is a glitter caused by diffraction of light from mineral platelets.
There are three further types of labradorite; spectrolite, andesine-labradorite and rainbow moonstone (which is sometimes referred to by the trade name, “Madagascar moonstone”). As the trade name indicates, rainbow moonstone comes from Madagascar and it has an intense blue schiller. Spectrolite is a rare labradorite from Finland. It is known for displaying a beautiful spectral play of color, hence the name, “spectrolite”. Andesine-labradorite is created by enhancing the color of labradorite.
Labradorite Gemstone Mythology, Metaphysical and Alternative Crystal Healing Powers Back to Top
According to an Inuit legend, the Northern Lights are captured in the minerals on the coast of Labrador. This is not surprising considering the magical, iridescent color of labradorite. Labradorite is thought to be a magical stone that possesses powerful protective properties and helps its wearer to find their true path in life. It is thought to “bring light” to the otherwise unknown, and thus provide its wearer with insight. Additionally, labradorite is credited with having the ability to bring out the positive in people and calm overactive minds, bringing peace to its wearer. Labradorite is also thought to soothe menstrual problems, aid disorders of the lungs, prevent colds, help with digestion and regulate both metabolism and blood pressure. In traditional Hindu belief systems, labradorite is associated with the throat chakra, or vishuddha, which is the center of purification. The throat chakra is associated with hearing, speech and self-expression. Wearing labradorite is thought to contribute to true and honest expression. Labradorite is said to facilitate communication between the spiritual and physical world, helping its wearer to recall dreams and experiences from past lives. It is therefore thought to help bring out psychic abilities.
I made a little video this morning to make a point about something. The funny things is, the point didn’t come to me right as I was doing this! I came to the realization when I went to share the video with family and friends on Facebook that my options for acknowledging the content of the video didn’t seem appropriate – namely the “Like” button. It hit me that when I click Like on things that I don’t, that I’m giving my personal power and energy to manifest more of what I would actually like to see, hear and feel less of in this world! So if you decide to watch this, and what I have to say resonates with what you feel about the subject, please feel free to give it a thumbs down! I am hoping you will. I noticed the view counter for You Tube is counting every time I look at the video from another location so the current number of 8 is just me.
I do not collect an income or royalties from blogging, I do it for me, so I do not consider myself “working” at the moment.
Hello to you. Just a short note to help me process a couple of dreams that woke me from my sleep. The first one was scary until after I processed it and went back to bed.
What happened is I dreamt I was in bed and Link was next to me and kept growling like he really does. Then he was on top of my legs like he was protecting me from something in the room. There was someone there but I couldn’t see them but Link could. I got up out of bed and was able to see in the dark. I was slapping my hands together in front of my face like someone was there trying to get inside me. I was yelling at “them” to “get out!” over and over again. I chased them to the living room and I saw a blue television screen in the darkness and whoever, whatever was in front of it and just disappeared and the tv shut off. I woke up yelling and screaming which of course upset Kyle. The living room the dream was in, was like mine but in a different “configuration.”
What came to me, trying to process this dream and calm myself down, was it was not meant to scare me, it was information. Recordings are like the Horcruxes in Harry Potter. We “choose” who had immortality in this process (tv, movies, books and music). The energy of our attention (adoration) and the emotions attached to what we watch determines what kind of immortal those recorded will be. Often conflicted. This brought forth E=Mc2 from my reading about Albert Einstein’s life. About how yesterday I came to understand Hiroshima was like splitting God into two parts – turning energy against energy….God against themselves! What came to me this morning also was remembering about God being a jealous God in the Old Testament, isn’t jealousy a human emotion? What I have come to wonder is if Time is God’s way of both punishing and loving us for making mistakes like Hiroshima. Like them saying to us, “I will give you “time” to make amends.” I visualized us, this whole earth being like one of God’s snowglobes. Who else but a God could make Time? I know….out there to think such things but that’s how I think – how things are “alike” more than “unalike” which is a phrase I have heard from poet Maya Angelou. It is in this way of thinking I have come to this God of my understanding.
The second dream was very short but woke me up also because it was so vivid. It was about being in church or somewhere like it and reading a passage and it being the same frequency as someone else reading it. Then for the second time I go back and there is a young man with dark hair and eyes with those black horned rimmed glasses who is like a “substitute” for someone else when I come again. He wants to read with me and just before I begin to read I can hear him whisper “I love you.” Then I woke up. There are a lot of people I admire, of many different walks of life, that wear those sort of glasses so it could have been anyone.
Recently I bought a book about the life of Albert Einstein written by Elma Ehrlich Levinger from Half Price Books in Burleson TX. I haven’t quite finished it, but what I have read so far has been very interesting. I remember hearing or reading something about him saying that he hoped when he closed his eyes after looking at the moon that it would still be there when he opened his eyes. He would have been an interesting person that I would have liked to meet to talk to him about my perception of God as energy. I have had many people teach me about energy. One recent person was Cesar Millan, The Dog Whisperer. I really enjoyed season 1 of his show and learned a lot from it and also his web site. He taught me about better ways to walk our dogs by understanding that our state of mind when we walk our dogs can literally be sent through the leash to the dog we are walking. I had at one time expressed a hope that he could come to Alvarado TX and help our Animal Control folks with all the large dogs they are having to find homes for.
Before Cesar was a man named Nikola Tesla. Nikola is a man from history that I feel is so important and I am so grateful he existed. Many years ago, I lived in Colorado Springs Colorado where they had a museum dedicated to his work there. I regret never having made the time to go and see it. He is a man from history, along with several others, that I kind of had a crush on lol. I think this is because they remind me of my Dad when he was a young man. My Dad was very handsome when he was younger and like me, didn’t really get a chance to enjoy the person he was then. My Dad did his very best to make sure I had food, clothing and shelter all by himself and this was very difficult.
I’m not very close with the family of my past for many reasons. Since moving here to Texas, I have had several problems that were similar in nature to what my Mom Jeanne went through. I think, but do not know for certain, that this might be a contributing factor to our distance. When I am around family and people from my past, old baggage gets unpacked in my head and this is very difficult for me. I am hoping that for my future, I can get a fresh start.
To close, something really important about what I’ve shared here is principles I learned from attending Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) meetings. In AA we learned about the 12 steps and also about making amends to those we have harmed. Sometimes, I have found from my own experience, it can do more harm than good to make amends with some people. Sometimes it’s better if you just go your own separate ways. I have had to do a lot of healing on my own, away from the people of my past. Having those same people back into my life would possibly cause me more personal harm than good. It’s not to say I don’t want that the people from my past to exist and have their own lives, they just don’t have to be part of my current life. It is my right as a human being to decide who is and who isn’t part of my life.
There are people in the world I haven’t met yet that I would like to meet. I will turn this over to the care of the God of my understanding, energy. I hope something here has resonated with you. This edit, 17 April 2018, is me revisiting past blogs that I have here and providing more details or context. I am not a healthcare professional, a doctor, a scientist or anyone like that. Please, as you read what I write here, use discernment and or critical thinking. Read and then decide for yourself if this resonates with you. If it does not, please keep searching for your messenger. Whatever I share here comes from one place, my heart and love energy.
My husband and I go over these blogs before I write them and he sometimes reads them on his own. I hope reader that you have a good support system to help you today.
(A personal request I have is if you choose to use any of the material here, any of my pictures or art that you do so with the same intention with which I intended, not for profit. There are people in this world who can’t afford to buy books or attend self-help workshops and might benefit from what I share here. My intention at making this blog was never to profit from it, just to try and help anyone who might stumble into it.)
2 Feb 2018 – Added a couple more elements to my painting last night. A message before I fell asleep last night was to “stay in the light and love.”
Hello to you. How are you doing? I’m waking up with some coffee that I am grateful for. I am grateful to the workers and the earth that makes coffee a reality. I am wearing my gold ruby heart necklace from my parents this morning and am grateful to those who make “gold happen.” I was worried about the people in this story out of South Africa. No one should have to die for vanity items, computers, trinkets, coins and bars:
UPDATE 2-Workers trapped underground in South Africa gold mine rescued
JOHANNESBURG, Feb 2 (Reuters) – All the miners who were trapped underground for more than 24 hours after a storm knocked out powerlines supplying electricity to the Beatrix gold mine in South Africa have been rescued, operator Sibanye-Stillwater said on Friday.
In a painstaking rescue mission, the exhausted miners were hoisted up one by one after temporary power pylons were installed. None sustained major injuries.
Although the company had said the more than 1,000 mineworkers stuck underground were never in danger, the incident highlights safety concerns in an industry that is home to the world’s deepest mines, with workers at some sites operating at depths of up to 4 km.
“Everyone is fine, there were minor injuries and a bit of dehydration but that’s all,” company spokesman James Wellsted said.
Some workers were rescued on Thursday after emergency power supply from backup generators, but damage to the winder control systems and generators at one of the Beatrix shafts caused by a power surge forced 955 employees to remain underground.
They were hoisted to surface on Friday after temporary power line pylons were installed by Sibanye-Stillwater and Eskom, the country’s power utility.
The effort to get the mineworkers to the surface was slow, as they were coming up one at a time, union officials said.
“We can also confirm that all workers did not sustain any injuries … they are just exhausted,” spokesperson Livhuwani Mammburu, the National Union of Mineworkers (NUM) said.
“The NUM is extremely worried about health and safety measures in all mining companies in South Africa.”
The parliamentary committee on mineral resources asked the Department of Mineral Resources (DMR) to explain why its safety inspectors failed to detect that the Beatrix mine did not have a reliable backup power system.
Officials at the DMR were not available to comment.
By November, the 2017 death toll of 76 in South Africas mines had already surpassed the 2016 figure of 73, ending nine straight years of falling fatalities and raising red flags for the industry.
The trend reversal is likely to reignite investor concern over mine safety and could prompt regulators to step up shaft inspections, which often result in costly production stoppages. (Reporting by Tanisha Heiberg; Writing by James Macharia; Editing by Alison Williams)
Imagine if you were a super-villain who had taken control of all the world’s gold, and had decided to melt it down to make a cube. How long would the sides be? Hundreds of metres, thousands even?
Actually, it’s unlikely to be anything like that size.
Warren Buffett, one of the world’s richest investors, says the total amount of gold in the world – the gold above ground, that is – could fit into a cube with sides of just 20m (67ft).
But is that all there is? And if so, how do we know?
A figure that is widely used by investors comes from Thomson Reuters GFMS, which produces an annual gold survey.
Their latest figure for all the gold in the world is 171,300 tonnes – which is almost exactly the same as the amount in our super-villain’s imaginary cube.
A cube made of 171,300 tonnes would be about 20.7m (68ft) on each side. Or to put it another way, it would reach to 9.8m above ground level if exactly covering Wimbledon Centre Court.
But not everyone agrees with the GFMS figures.
Estimates range from 155,244 tonnes, marginally less than the GFMS figure, to about 16 times that amount – 2.5 million tonnes.
That bigger figure would make a cube of sides 50m (166ft) long, or a column of gold towering 143m above Wimbledon centre court.
So why are the figures so different?
Part of the reason is that gold has been mined for a very long time – more than 6,000 years, according to gold historian Timothy Green.
The first gold coins were minted in about 550 BC under King Croesus of Lydia – a province in modern-day Turkey – and quickly became accepted payment for merchants and mercenary soldiers around the Mediterranean.
Up until 1492, the year Columbus sailed to America, GFMS estimates that 12,780 tonnes had been extracted.
But one investor who looked at the research done in this area, James Turk, the founder of Gold Money, discovered what he regarded as a series of over-estimates.
He believes that the primitive mining techniques used up to the Middle Ages mean that this figure is much too high, and that a more realistic total is just 297 tonnes.
His figure for the overall amount of gold in the world is 155,244 tonnes – 16,056 tonnes, or 10% less, than the assessment by Thompson Reuters GFMS. A relatively small disparity, perhaps, but one that at today’s prices comes to more than $950bn.
His conclusions are accepted by some investors but such is the feeling between rival analysts that one competitor described Turk’s figures as an alternative to the GFMS’s “in the same way that Jedi is an alternative to Christianity”.
But there are others who think both sets of figures are too low.
“In Tutankhamen’s tomb alone they found that his coffin was made from 1.5 tonnes of gold, so imagine the gold that was found in the other tombs that were ransacked before records were taken of them,” says Jan Skoyles of gold investment firm The Real Asset Company.
While James Turk makes only minor adjustments to the GFMS figure for the amount of gold mined after 1492, Skoyles points out that even today China is “not particularly open” about how much gold it is mining.
And in some countries, such as Colombia, “there’s a lot of illegal mining going on”, she says.
She doesn’t have an exact figure to offer, but one organisation that has tried to do some maths is the Gold Standard Institute.
Its experts believe that if we emptied our bank vaults and jewellery boxes, we’d find no less than 2.5 million tonnes of gold – though they admit that the evidence is somewhat sparse and the figure is a bit speculative.
So who’s right?
Well, we don’t know.
In the end, all these numbers are made up of estimates added to estimates added to yet more estimates. Maybe they’re all way off.
The good news is that we are not likely to run out of gold any time soon. The US Geological Survey estimates there are 52,000 tonnes of minable gold still in the ground and more is likely to be discovered.
The bad news is that the way we use gold is starting to change.
Up to now it has never gone away. It has always been recycled.
“All the gold that has been mined throughout history is still in existence in the above-ground stock. That means that if you have a gold watch, some of the gold in that watch could have been mined by the Romans 2,000 years ago,” says James Turk.
The way gold is being used in the technology industry, however, is different.
The British Geological Survey states that about 12% of current world gold production finds its way to this sector, where it is often used in such small quantities, in each individual product, that it may no longer be economical to recycle it.
In short, gold may be being “consumed” for the first time.
So I had some interesting dreams. I woke up this morning thinking I had forgotten and then I was reminded. There were four dream segments.
The first segment was about being in two places at once. I know that doesn’t make sense but I was in the dream but I was aware I wasn’t there. I can remember singing in the dream in a foreign language. I was walking with a man near water in the dark and we were in Germany. I can remember my singing in the dream but trying to hear myself singing in “this world”. It’s like when you scream in a dream but it comes out silent in the “waking world.” It was like that only singing instead (I’ve done the screaming in a dream part..scary!) One word I remember from the song was “Zapore.”
The next segment was of being in a bath house like in Baden, Baden Germany. I actually visited Baden, Baden when I was stationed in Germany. There was a young woman and and old man and me. We were all naked. The attitude was we were all just sharing a bath, nothing sexual. (The Europeans are very different about nudity and shame than Americans. It was refreshing to experience a healthier attitude about the body while I was there.)
Then there was a segment about choosing between two men. There was the angry man in the pickup who I was in relationship with, or Darren Criss (Blaine from Glee – guess my dream factory decided to cast him). I can remember giving Darren my phone number and we were going to get together.
The last part was about walking through a tunnel of dark trees with low hanging branches like Willow trees branches. The trees had eyes and so did the shadows.
All of these dreams needed keys from my conscious world – memories and experiences to unlock them. Not sure why my dream factory came up with these particular dreams. I don’t question the dreams, I just try to remember and record them.
The dream about walking with a man around the water makes me think of King Ludvig II:
Source Internet – King Ludwig II of Bavaria…the Swan King
8 Oct 2017 – Man I drew yesterday. I was thinking of King Ludwig when I was drawing it.
On 13 June at 6pm, Ludwig II asked to go for a walk around the lake. He set off along with one of the psychiatrists who had declared him insane, Dr Bernard Van Gudden. The men never returned, and were eventually found dead. Ludwig’s death was officially declared to be suicide by drowning, yet there are inconsistencies in the story. The autopsy said that there was no water in Ludwig’s lungs making drowning as a cause of death seem unlikely. There was also evidence that Dr Van Gudden had been strangled and hit on the head. Notes found on the death bed of a local fisherman who died in 1933 claimed that Ludwig had been shot. The fisherman, Jacob Lidl said he had witnessed this while hiding behind a bush waiting to help Ludwig II escape, and that he had been forced to sign a statement swearing he would never tell this to anyone
Hello there. It’s 7:50 am on this Thursday morning as I write to you. I hope you are well. I had a frustrating time last night trying to get good pictures of the rare moon lol. This drawing about sums it up:
31 Jan 2018 – drawing I did yesterday afternoon. Well later in the evening, when I was fighting with my Nikon to get pictures of the lovely moon, the figure in this drawing makes me think of how frustrated I was lol. People kept driving by each time I was trying to concentrate and it wasn’t their fault, just frustrating living behind a busy road!
Anyhew, we then tried to watch Pirates of the Caribbean Dead Men Tell No Tales and that didn’t help my mood either. Kyle will probably be finishing it by himself. He’s more of a fan of the Pirates theme then I am. I showed Kyle the drawing I had done earlier. Many of the themes in it were like what we were watching in the movie that ironically had the Blood Moon as part of the story, “the compass in the eye”:
The dream I had before waking was interesting. There was something about a pretty girl in a library who could sing. I wanted to get to know her and get closer, but another guy was in the way blocking me. He even put his feet in my face saying in an irritated voice, “Do you mind?!” Then there was the part with other kids in the library and my telling them everything is energy, everything is alive, “Just look at the core of the earth! All living things have souls!”
This dream calls to mind the stories from the show Glee. There were many relationship rivalries to include what was going on with Corey Monteith and Mark Salling and their characters in the show. How difficult it must be for actors and actresses to just turn on and turn off their emotions. What if something real evolves but it is not reciprocated or too many would be harmed to go any further? This problem resonates with me and my own experience playing FFXI. I was married when I met Kyle online and initially we were just role playing and then it evolved. A lot of damage was done to make our relationship happen. We both have paid for our choice but do I regret it? No. That’s my honest answer. The only thing I regret, is hurting my ex-husband.
I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life and have had to pay for them in one way or another – my conscience, my heart and the God of my understanding won’t allow for anything else. When you do something wrong, you have to own it and do the best you can to make amends to those you have harmed in doing that wrong. You don’t pile new wrongs on top and bury things. Burying your poor choices just makes it worse.
31 Jan 2018 – Only picture that turned out from last night and ironically the background is bluer than the actual moon lol.
Hello to you. Just stopping in to share what I’ve been up to the past couple of days – painting.
23 Jan 2018 – The one on the left I’m called Emergence. I’ve shared a chalk drawing of it before. The one on the right I did today. I’m calling it Apart. The reason is when I did this, I was thinking of an origin story of the sun. How the sun just wanting to be alive so it set part of itself free and creation began. They say the earth was purple once.
I had an interesting dream image last night. It was of beings drawn in like a white outline on a wall. They had big heads and big eyes and looked like stereotypical aliens. The dream was like on “repeat.” I kept seeing them going from the wall to being solid over and over again. The wall was like a doorway. There was something like this in Dr. Who in the episode called Flatline: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flatline_(Doctor_Who)
The Doctor discovers something draining energy from the TARDIS and materialises in Bristol. While Clara steps out to look around, by the time the Doctor tries to leave, the exterior dimensions of the TARDIS have shrunk too small to leave. The Doctor passes Clara his sonic screwdriver, psychic paper, and an earpiece to let him see, hear, and communicate with her, and she carries the TARDIS in her bag, acting as “Doctor” Clara.
Clara befriends Rigsy, a graffiti artist assigned community duty with a crew to paint over graffiti in a pedestrian tunnel. Rigsy explains the art appears to be of people that have gone missing over the last several days. The Doctor directs Clara and Rigsy to search the flat of the latest disappearance, and Clara convinces PC Forrest to let them in. Outside of a strange mural in one room, nothing seems amiss, but they hear Forrest scream from the next room. When they get there, there is no sign of Forrest, but there is another strange mural on the floor. The Doctor recognises it as a human nervous system, and suspects it is Forrest’s. He warns Clara and Rigsy that there are two-dimensional creatures, the Boneless, that appear to be trying to understand the third dimension and have been the cause of the missing persons, flatting them into two dimensions. Clara and Rigsy escape before they are attacked.
The 2dis, the device that restores dimensions, as shown at the Doctor Who Experience.
They race back to the crew to warn them, the Doctor suspecting the paintings in the tunnel are additional Boneless. Some crewmen are killed while Clara leads the rest through a train yard into underground tunnels, followed by shambling forms of the paintings, which the Doctor surmises is the Boneless learning how to use the third dimension. The Boneless surround them, blocking their escape by flattening the doors into two dimensions. The Doctor jury-rigs a device and passes it to Clara to let them undo this flattening to give them time to escape. Clara and Rigsy try to run down the Boneless with an out-of-service train, but the creatures simply flatten it to two dimensions. In their haste, Clara drops the TARDIS into the path of an oncoming train, and the Doctor activates its Siege Mode, preventing any physical damage but leaving him unable to communicate with Clara or return it to normal with the Boneless’s power drain.
After recovering the TARDIS, Clara, Rigsy, and the other crew take shelter in a disused office. Clara gets a plan, and has Rigsy paint a realistic door on a large poster. They hang the poster over an access tunnel, and lure the Boneless to it. The Boneless, thinking it is a flattened door, funnel their energy into it to restore it, but instead this is helping to power the TARDIS that Clara placed right behind the poster. The TARDIS reverts to its normal size and form, and the Doctor erects a barrier to hold the Boneless in place. Realising the Boneless have no peaceful intentions, he returns them to their normal dimension. After saying their goodbyes, the Doctor asks Clara how she enjoyed being the Doctor for the day. Elsewhere, Missy watches Clara’s adventure, muttering to herself that she has “chosen well”.
Overnight viewing figures were estimated at 4.6 million, the lowest overnight rating for the show since “The Hungry Earth” in 2010 and the second lowest rating since the show returned in 2005. The episode was watched by a total of 6.71 million viewers. In the US, this episode was seen by 0.75 million viewers, being also the lowest rating for the series.
The episode received critical acclaim, with many praising Mathieson’s script, Coleman’s performance and the uniquely designed monsters. The episode also received an AI of 85, considered excellent. Neela Debnath of The Independent praised Capaldi and Coleman’s performances and believed this episode to be the stronger of Mathieson’s two episodes, although she was critical of the CGI effects. Matt Risley of IGN gave the episode 8.3 out of 10, praising the concept of the episode and the performance of Coleman, but criticising the guest cast. Morgan Jeffery of Digital Spy gave a mixed review of the episode, calling it “a bumpy ride.” He too was critical of the supporting cast, citing lack of depth to their personalities. He was however, positive of the CGI, calling it “the most impressive and distinctive this show has featured in recent memory.” Overall he gave the episode 3 stars out of five.
Reviewing the episode for The Daily Telegraph, Michael Hogan noted that Christopher Fairbank was billed as the guest star but Joivan Wade outshone him. He stated that the episode had “outlandishly original ideas, smartly executed. It was thrillingly unsettling and ultimately satisfying.” Dan Martin, for The Guardian, wrote that Jamie Mathieson’s script “is one of the more effective demonstrations of how to do the ‘cheap one’.” Martin also stated that Clara is “becoming more and more like the Doctor”. Alasdair Wilkins of The A.V. Club awarded the episode a B+, stating that “the show is on a hot streak we haven’t seen in a long, long time”. Wilkins closed his review by saying “‘Flatline’ isn’t perfect, but it underlines just how great the 12th Doctor and Clara have been for each other, and how great their pairing has been for the show, if for no other reason than their complex relationship has forced the show to be thoughtful in a way it hasn’t in quite some time”.
Anyhew….time to get dinner prepared. I hope this finds you loved and loving.
Fun song I found recently. Depeche Mode is one of my all-time favorite bands and VNV Nation is quite a favorite for me too. Bought the closest version I could get on Itunes, the Cicada mix:
Depeche Mode versus VNV Nation – Epicentre In Your Eyes
*I realized that in the context of how I have come to view the human body, as a car, many of us are “driving” distracted. It doesn’t just apply to moving vehicles external. The dream I had the other night, I realize wasn’t necessarily about cars. Sometimes I think, from what I’ve seen and experienced, distracted/vacant human beings can be like a used car lot for disembodied energy looking for a new ride to hop in. Sentient energy needs a body is what keeps coming to me. It’s a foreign way to think I guess, but just how I think. I don’t think about life, death, rebirth and the “in between” that the Catholics call purgatory like most people do.
This blog is to encourage others that is being victimize, been a victm, or were a victim that they no longer have to live in hidden. I want to share words of encouragement to them and let them know they can come out of their situtaion alive no matter what there abuser is telling or has told them over the years. Some individuals have left their abuser but they are still living in afraid or living in in jail mental; the victim have to get his or her life back. Living behind the wall in public isn't well for them. They have to make a stand for themselves and regain what they lost in that relationship. It will not happen within a week or probably a month. First of all its a learning process, admit to what they lost, and let go of the shame, pride, and bitter. Its up to the victim to want to be a Survior not the abuser.