10 Aug 2017 Evacuation Dream (A.I)

Good morning to you.  It’s 7:46 am here as I write to you wherever and whenever you are as you visit me here.    I hope this finds you well today.  My prayers/positive vibes go out to you for whatever your current situation and conditions.  I hope you will choose love over hate as you go through your day.  I want to give a shout out to friend Paul David Ridley who recently had surgery to restore mobility to his body (especially his hands) and is in the process of a great recovery – Yay!

Paul David Ridley

The dream I want to share was one of those thought provoking dreams.  If it was the end of the world and we had to evacuate and we had sentient A.I beings and they asked to go along, would we make room for them?

So the dream was about what seemed to be an evacuation from a world and all the “places” had been set.  There was a woman who watched her lover who apparently had been betrayed incinerated with other prisoners in an enclosed room.  I’m not sure if the man was human, because afterwards there seemed to be like mannequin heads in their places.  She was desperately trying to collect his ashes/DNA to take to the new world.  She had laid down a long strip of orange sticky stuff.  There were odd A.I lifeforms that started to show up last minute for a place.  I was carrying an artificial seal that was very heavy before I woke up.  I remember seeing what appeared to be pilots.  One had on a long powder blue coat with a black collar and he was wearing a flying cross.  He was tall with black hair.

Man in the dream looked a lot like King Ludwig only the coat was the lightest blue color in this painting and he didn’t have facial hair.

Source Internet – painting of King Ludwig II on one of his night time sleigh rides

9 Aug 2017 Dream about Vitimite and working through addictions in dreams

Good morning to you.  It’s 8:41 am as I write and I hope this finds you well wherever and whenever you are.  Kyle and I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping as of late but he left the room around 3:30 or so and I ended up having one of those detailed dreams I have.  There were several but this one was the most specific.

The dream was about something to do with a Native American woman who had a major disclosure to make to help some high profile case, not sure what, but she had a 1 million ton piece of “Vitimite.”  I saw the small piece she had that she could show us as a bunch of agencies had shown up to collect the large piece – very secretive.  The Vitimite was a crystal formation, dark red.  I was examining it and can remember commenting that it looked like it could have fallen from the sky as it was porous in nature but also could be from earth with all the stalactite forms on it.  The woman was making enough to go anywhere she wanted.  She could go to Europe but was talking about going to Santa Fé NM.  She owned a jewelry store and let us pick something out.  I couldn’t find anything in the parameters she let us choose from.  I was still trying to find something when I woke up.  all the pieces I wanted weren’t the ones we got to choose from.  The last one I was looking at was an adjustable ring with a green crystal shaped in the head of a cat!

The waking world keys that unlocked this dream, I suspect, had to do with me recently finding an interesting geology page and I think my subconscious is doing for me with ring shopping (used to be a problem) like it did after I quit smoking.    After I quiet smoking I would have dreams about smoking and wake up feeling guilty lol!  So I’m having unsatisfying jewelry shopping dreams after giving up shopping for jewelry in the real world.  It’s almost like an aversion therapy, but in my dreams versus reality.

So I did some looking to see if Vitimite was a real mineral or gemstone and turns out it is but it’s not how it was in the dream.  Vitimite is clear and white and the one specimen I could find anything about came from the Eastern Siberian region of Russia.  Minerals like Scoria rock, Vanadite and Agatized Dinosaur Bone are more like what the woman was holding in the dream looked like to me.  I did a lot of searching to see if I could find a mineral/stone that looked like what was in the dream and couldn’t find the exact thing but what I’m sharing here, imagine these all combined into one piece – porous bottom and think wall of spiny dark red crystals on top.

8 Aug 2017 Finding a way to kinship with all and Pentagon commissioned report on PTSD in US military

Good morning to you.  It’s 9:16 am as I begin to write to you on this cooler, pleasant day.  I perused the news headlines and this made me think of the snippet of the dream I remember before waking up.  It was the oddest thing to dream about too!  I was standing with Brian Williams of MSNBC and he had a bunch of awards around his neck.  He seemed so happy to see me and like he knew me.  As we were talking, I saw actor Chris Pratt and some other man walking through a door and they seemed to be avoiding me lol.  I don’t know why they popped into my dreams but I hope they are doing well!

 

My thoughts about what I’ve been seeing in the headlines brought me to one of my favorite web pages.  With the second spin of their prayer wheel, this message came up.  I feel this message in my heart…..the age old questions we just need to ask ourselves to bring people and nations together instead of pushing ourselves further apart.  How are we the same?  What are all the things we have in common?  What good things do we share and how do we make the world full of more of those good things?  My dream for this world is that all of us might find a way to focus on how we are the same and less on how we are different.  Build more bridges so that we can meet one another.  Break down (and never waste the money to build) the tangible and intangible walls that keep us apart.

http://www.worldprayers.org/prayerwheel/index.html

In striving to recognize the primacy of Fire and Light,
I feel kinship with my Zoroastrian brothers and sisters.
In striving to obey the Ten Commandments,
I feel kinship with my Jewish brothers and sisters.
In striving to be kind to neighbor and the needy,
I feel kinship with my Christian brothers and sisters.
In striving to be compassionate to creatures great and small,
I feel kinship with my Buddhist-Jaina brothers and sisters.
In striving to surrender myself completely to God Almighty,
I feel kinship with my Muslim brothers and sisters.
In the recognition that wisdom flows from enlightened masters,
I feel kinship with my Sikh brothers and sisters.
In remembering that serving people should be the goal of religion,
I feel kinship with my Baha’i brothers and sisters.
In my respect and reverence for Nature that sustains us,
I feel kinship with my Native American brothers and sisters.
In feeling that these and more are all paths to the same Divinity,
I feel kinship with my Hindu brothers and sisters.
In my love and laughter, joy and pain,
I feel kinship with all my fellow humans.
In my need for nourishment and instinct to live on,
I feel kinship with all beings on the planet.
In my spiritual ecstasy with this wondrous world,
I feel kinship with the Cosmic Whole.

universal reflection – v. v. raman – cape of good hope – 1999
The report about the Pentagon commissioned study regarding PTSD in the United States military of course caught my eye yesterday.  The aversion to the taking and or loss of another living being’s life  is something most of us have in common.  Suicide is personal for me and as a medically retired veteran who falls into the category of the study, it’s even more personal!  It’s important to note the study found that the use of firearms is the most common way veterans are committing suicide.   It’s also interesting to note how old this study is 2014!  Why isn’t it a 2017 report?!  Doesn’t seem like they are really staying current on this issue to me. 

Troops at risk for suicide not getting needed care, report finds

Tom Vanden Brook, USA TODAY , TEGNA 4:23 PM. EDT August 07, 2017

WASHINGTON – Pentagon health care providers failed to perform critical follow-up for many troops diagnosed with depression and post-traumatic stress syndrome who also were at high risk for suicide, according to a new study released Monday by the RAND Corp.

Just 30% of troops with depression and 54% with PTSD received appropriate care after they were deemed at risk of harming themselves. The report, commissioned by the Pentagon, looked at the cases of 39,000 troops who had been diagnosed in 2013 with depression, PTSD or both conditions. USA TODAY received an advance copy of the report.

“We want to ensure that they get connected with behavioral health care,” said Kimberly Hepner, the report’s lead author and a senior behavioral scientist at RAND, a non-partisan, non-profit research organization. “The most immediate action — removal of firearms — can help to reduce risk of suicide attempts.”

The report, titled Quality of Care for PTSD and Depression in the Military Health System, also found that one third of troops with PTSD were prescribed with a medication harmful to their condition.

From 2001 to 2014, about 2.6 million troops have deployed to combat zones in Afghanistan and Iraq. Estimates on how many have been affected by post-traumatic stress vary widely — from 4% to 20%, according to the report. Meanwhile, suicide among troops spiked crisis proportions. The rate of suicide doubled between 2005 and 2012, according to the Pentagon. It has stabilized but has not diminished; the rate remains about the same for the part of the American public that it compares with, about 20 per 100,000 people.

The key intervention to prevent suicide involves talking to the service member about their access to firearms, Hepner said. It’s also one of the most sensitive, given the nature of their work and that many troops own their own guns.

“This is important for service members because suicide death by firearms is the most common method,” Hepner said. “So the provider needs to have that discussion about access to firearms. Not only their service weapon but their access to personal weapons.”

Guns accounted for 68% of suicides by active-duty troops in 2014, according to the Pentagon.

Commanders can be enlisted to put weapons out of troops’ reach, and family members may be asked to do so at home, she said. One reason that doesn’t happen more often, she said, is the stigma attached to mental health issues, and the effect notifying superiors may have on careers.

“These can be quite difficult conversations to have with service members,” Hepner sid. “Certainly limiting access to their service weapon would involve notifying their command.”

Researchers also found that one-third of troops with depression had received a prescription for benzodiazepine, an anti-anxiety medication.

“It is explicitly mentioned in guidelines for treatment of PTSD that benzodiazepines are contraindicated,” Hepner said. “We continue to see a relatively high rate of prescription for a medication we would hope would not be prescribed.”


Link to blog I wrote about subject:  https://saymber.com/2017/03/17/17-march-2017-more-distractions-from-the-affordable-care-act-fiasco-the-us-governments-latest-solution-for-paying-for-the-true-cost-of-war-and-bernie-sanders-repeated-warnings-going-unheard/

Back in March of this year, the House voted to approve a bill that would allow these same veterans easier access to firearms!  Very sad.   What their doing that said to me was they’d rather make it easier for veterans to die than to do the hard part, the funding, taking responsibility for restoring them to meaningful and productive lives!  It’s easy to pluck a 18 year old from a small town, dress them up in a uniform, put a gun in their hands and send them off to war than it is to put together that same person who is now half or less the person physically and or psychologically they were after they come back from the war zone. 

Source Internet: Quote from a past Governor of my home State SD, George McGovern,

America

House OKs Bill Making It Tougher To Keep ‘Mentally Incompetent’ Vets From Buying Guns

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A House-approved bill would require a court hearing before a U.S. veteran is deemed mentally unfit to own a gun. Here, rifles are seen at a gun shop in Merrimack, N.H., last year. Dominick Reuter/AFP/Getty Images hide caption

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A House-approved bill would require a court hearing before a U.S. veteran is deemed mentally unfit to own a gun. Here, rifles are seen at a gun shop in Merrimack, N.H., last year.

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Updated at 1:55 p.m. ET

The House has approved legislation that would make it harder to keep veterans who are “mentally incapacitated, deemed mentally incompetent” or prone to blackouts from buying guns. Critics of the bill say it could raise the suicide rate among veterans — a rate that has risen in the past decade.

At least a dozen Democrats joined Republicans to support the bill, which was approved by a 240-175 vote.

The legislation would add a new hurdle to the process of blocking a veteran whose mental competence is in question from owning a gun. While the Department of Veterans Affairs currently adds the names of veterans it deems unfit to own a deadly weapon to a federal background check system, the bill would require a court hearing before that determination is made.

“About 170,000 disabled veterans are deemed mentally incompetent by the VA,” NPR’s Quil Lawrence reports. “A VA-approved guardian makes some medical and financial decisions for them. Their names go on an FBI list so they can’t purchase guns — House Republicans sponsored the Veterans’ Second Amendment Protection Act to change that.”

Backers of the bill, such as Rep. Phil Roe, R-Tenn., the chair of the Veterans’ Affairs Committee, say it would help veterans avoid being caught up in a bureaucracy that can make it tough to remove a negative label. Roe also cited the importance of “removing the stigma of mentally ill people — that because someone is mentally ill, they’re a danger to themselves or others.”

On the other side of the issue, Rep. Anthony Brown, D-Md., said, “When a determination is made that a veteran is mentally incompetent or incapacitated — for whatever reason — that determination is made to protect them, not to punish or deprive them.”

Critics of the bill include retired Gen. Peter Chiarelli, the former vice chief of staff of the U.S. Army. Speaking to Quil about why he opposed the bill, Chiarelli said, “Every single study you can read on this shows you that people in crisis — because suicide is such a spontaneous event — when they separate themselves from personal weapons the incidence of suicide goes down tremendously.”

The House legislation will now go to the Senate. It would change U.S. law by adding this section to sections governing veterans’ benefits:

Conditions for treatment of certain persons as adjudicated mentally incompetent for certain purposes

“In any case arising out of the administration by the Secretary of laws and benefits under this title, a person who is mentally incapacitated, deemed mentally incompetent, or experiencing an extended loss of consciousness shall not be considered adjudicated as a mental defective under subsection (d)(4) or (g)(4) of section 922 of title 18 without the order or finding of a judge, magistrate, or other judicial authority of competent jurisdiction that such person is a danger to himself or herself or others.”.

7 Aug 2017 Dream and the act of “Adulting” (Abandoning Adulthood My Official Letter of Resignation piece by Maureen)

4 Aug 2017 – we are so grateful for Spot. She is an active dog and because of that she helps keep us more active. She’s our family athletics coordinator! 🙂

Good morning, it’s 8:16 am as I start to write.  We had a storm come through last night and by the looks of things, we got a bit of rain.  Very grateful for that and grateful that the severe thunderstorm warning we got before bed ended up only being a warning!  It’s so funny with thunder.  I was almost asleep and then it was like, “We now interrupt your sleep for these 30 seconds of thunder.”  (Kyle’s words there). Sleep all through the night remains elusive for both Kyle and I.

I had some interesting dreams last night, I remember snippets of them.  I dreamt about being with some old men and one of them telling/saying to me, “Do you want me to tell you how old you are?” I said something like, “3,000” and the man said, “try 5,000.” Other dreams were of being in an old parlor or Victorian type of settings.  I remember men sitting on the deck of a ship.  My mind must be sorting through a bunch of stuff I’ve been looking at in my waking world like the Victorian Trading Company catalog, the Aspern Papers film set posts from Jonathan Rhys Meyers and other stuff.

Jonathan Rhys Meyers To Star In ‘The Aspern Papers’

I don’t believe the person I am is that old but what do we know of our souls?  The energy our flesh encapsulates?  The flesh is just a suite, a covering for the soul.  The soul can be as old as time itself because there is no such thing as time in the unseen realms….for any other beings but humans is there such a thing as time!  The dream realm in me obviously knows that.

Another conscious Key that may have unlocked last nights travels could have been this awesome post, Abandoning Adulthood, from my friend Ally.  I have been thinking about this topic a lot lately!

Source: Internet/aka friend FB post: Abandoning Adulthood by Maureen

She was looking for something about adulthood, and found it.  Ironically, just yesterday morning Kyle and I were trying to figure out why we were so crabby and irritable and realized it was because we were having to be adults or what we call “Adulting.” We had made an appointment for Link to have his back left leg looked at and didn’t want to take him even though it was the right thing to do.  We had barely dropped him off and were getting groceries when the vet called to come back for him! Yay!  We dodged the almost $200 x-ray expense that is conveniently not covered under the Wellness plan we have both the dogs on….sigh.  What the hell is insurance of any kind really good for?!  It never covers what you need it to even though you are paying enough for it to cover everything!  Anyhew…we didn’t get away without spending money on an anti-inflammatory and in a couple of weeks we’ll see what’s going on oh yeah, he’s “obese”….sounds like he’s a little old man not a dog right?!

6 Aug 2017 – Link relaxing before Vet visit. He doesn’t look obese to us but apparently he is.

On the way to the grocery store after we initially dropped him off, we were in the car bitching about EVERYTHING!  I realized we were doing the thing we try very hard to avoid doing and that’s focusing on what’s wrong and not what we want to be going on instead.  While President Trump it seems like  like he’d rather be golfing instead of dealing with world issues and appears to be throwing away every opportunity put in front of him to make the world a better place,  it’s not entirely his fault America is the mess it seems to be.  A secret part of me thinks, is hoping, his being President and what he’s been doing is just some sort of epic reverse psychology experiment!  I wouldn’t want to be President or any form of government official these days!  It’s so easy to solve the worlds problems from the seat of our cars, kitchen tables, video game chat and social media forums but quite another to actually be the ones who have to sort it all out!  Anyways, Kyle and I finally talked ourselves to where the source of the anger was and it came back to us.  We decided we would rather be doing anything else but what we had to do….goofing off!  This process we went through is something I learned to do in AA with the acronym HALT (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired) and doing a self examination before blaming others through the day and just before bed for things when your angry or upset….making amends.

Anyhew…..it’s Monday again….time to get on with it.  I hope that wherever and whenever this finds you, you have everything you need inside and out to be fulfilled.  I hope you know that even if it seems like nobody cares about you, there are people all over the world, myself included, that say a prayer of love and thanksgiving for you every day.    

 

3 August 2017 Spider webs in the trees, ritual dream and markers to our animal selves

Good morning to you. It’s 8:22 am as I begin to write to you. Just back from the morning dog walk. The fog is clearing and as we walked I noticed the amazing handiwork of some of natures finest craftbeings spiders.  Spiderwebs….lots and lots of them and they were lit up by the morning dew and sunlight. I feel it’s important to notice and appreciate such works. It is these “little things” that make living on this earth such a miracle.

Kyle and I have not been sleeping well at all for what seems like two weeks. This time it is mostly Kyle that is waking up in the middle of the night and unable to go back to sleep. The month prior it was me….it goes in phases. Well when he leaves the bed and so do the dogs is when I have some pretty epic dreams. Is it the energy levels are too high in the room? Who knows right?!

Anyhew. The dream I want to share with you I had just before really getting up this morning and it was pretty wild. It never ceases to amaze me what snippets of my life my brain decides to splice together!

So the dream was about some church ritual that involved three people. It was me and two men . There was something about angels and I saw names written in an ancient book. I’m not sure if we were the angels or the blood in the vials we were each wearing was of angels. Each of us were wearing these vials of blood and a bunch of other amulets. One of the men, a blonde who kind of looked like my Uncle Lauren and David Bowie said about us wearing all these necklaces, “I never wear this much stuff. I always just wear….(can’t remember what he said).” The three of us were rebelling against this ritual we were forced to be performing. The two men managed to crush the vials of blood they were wearing and throw them into a swirling red vortex that was at the altar. As I was beginning to wake from the dream, I can remember trying to crush my vial against the stone floor of the church but it wouldn’t break. Then I saw the other two men, like ghosts, outside the church and then I woke up.

13 Aug 2012 Jackie Drawing – lots of symbolism here (3 August – looking at this again today, there are elements of my dream there)

I’ve mentioned in my blogs here before that I believe the waking world will give us a certain key combinations in our conscious world that will then unlock a dream in the subconscious realms. It works like that for me anyways. I’m thinking the vials of blood in the dream come from me seeing posts about people selling vials of GANS on the Golden Age of Gans Facebook page. Like I said, my mind puts together some pretty wild movies and I don’t mind sharing them. May be somebody will find them interesting fodder for a science fiction movie lol.

Source: https://www.facebook.com/groups/GoldenAgeofGans/ – Ihno Y Papendick Golden Age of Gans pendants (just one of many examples people have made)

Source Internet – http://www.nick.com/legend-of-korra/ – Korra on her spirit dragon.

During my meditation after I started to wake up, I started to think about how it seems like each of us has markers that probably can trace back to beings in nature we have the strongest in us. I’ve noticed certain characteristics in different people that seem to correspond to say reptiles, wolves, deer, cows, ocean mammals etc. What came forth from my inner voice for me was “dragon-bird.” The dragon/reptile comes from me and my really dry skin! I have found using lava rocks is useful in exfoliating. We all shed our skin, so it’s something we all have in common. Just seems like in my family we have an extreme case of it. The bird part comes from how I get when I’m outside and so many dreams I’ve had of flying. When I get my headphones on and spend time with the clouds, I just fly lol. Lately I’ve had several birds, mainly a large swarm of swallows and a few other larger “watcher” birds, start to appear when I’m out doing that. I’m probably stirring up a bunch of food for them in my movements and sounds! A magical and symbiotic relationship of sorts! It’s special to me that they are swallows. Kyle’s Grandpa Edward who left this world on 18 April 2013 had swallow tattoos. Whenever I see swallows I always say, “Hello Ed!”

2 Aug 2009 – Kyle’s Grandpa Edward Wygant, when we celebrated his 75th birthday together at his home in the Poconos of Pennsylvania!

Anyhew…will close. Thank you Mom and Les for the letters – got another one from you just this morning Les. Real letter writing for me this weekend!

 

 

 

29 July 2017 FFXIV wedding today, chalk drawing and dreams

Good morning to you – it’s Saturday here at 9:09 am as I write to you.  Hoping for rain but our chances are pretty slim for today.  The trees in our backyard are shedding leaves and the cottonwood next door dumped a huge branch in our yard.  This climate change is the hardest on the beings that are stuck outside in it – especially the trees.  I watered everybody this morning before the sun was fully awake…..not sure if it helps but I do put loving intention into the effort.  I suspect I would have to leave an open tap and almost flood out the yard to really get the trees the amount of water they really need.

We have a double wedding to attend this afternoon — online lol.  Some friends of ours are taking advantage of some bennies (special stuff) that comes with getting married in FFXIV (online MMORPG) we play.  If we get some pictures I’ll try to share them.   If you get married in-game and pay $10 real money per person, you get a special duel passenger mount, a ring that allows you to teleport to wherever your partner is (wouldn’t that be SO COOL to have in real life?!), special wedding gown and or tuxedo and special haircuts.  We’ve been teasing our friends about them about only getting married to get a double mount…..yeah we can be perverts sometimes LOL!  Unlike in much of our current world, it doesn’t matter “what” you are, people are just happy for you when you get married.   http://www.finalfantasyxiv.com/ – link to website for game.

This chalk drawing managed to happen in spite of all the mosquitos and gnatsies that were trying to bite me and the ants who for some reason just have to be on our patio instead out in the yard.  I got to thinking as I was flinging errant ants away with my broom that this must be what’s it like to be famous.  Your trying to do your job and people (ants) just keep interrupting you for selfies!  “Fuck off you ants I’m working here!!!” Lol….yeah that’s why I’ll never be famous.  Anyhew….I like her hairstyle and color.  Kind of like Rachel from Blade Runner but neon colors instead.

 

 

I’ve started keeping a dream journal and have been doing better about remembering my dreams again:

The first one was the coolest as I got to go jewelry shopping without spending any real money lol.  I found this gold ring with a large round bezel set diamond in it.  I couldn’t decide on what facet style I like the best and to my amazement I didn’t have to choose!  The stone changed facets (diamond cuts) as I held it!  I jumped in and out of the dream it startled me so much lol.  I shopped around and saw other more inferior colored gemstone rings etc. but came back to the first one even with it probably being so expensive.  Can you imagine how cool that would be?  A sentient diamond?!  This dream may have been triggered by my admiration of the crystal work of Jack Storms.  He recently had a new sphere on his Facebook page: https://jackstorms.com/

Source Internet: jack-storms-glass-cube

The next dream was creepy.  I dreamt I was cleaning a house and there was so much dust everywhere – especially up the walls.  Pretty realistic to our house with two humans and three furry pets.  Anyways, the creepy part was when there was a skeleton of an old lady in a bed and I dusted over her too!  My Mom’s brother, Butch, was there for some reason too!  No idea what was going on there.

The last dream I remember was something out of a horror movie.   I am wondering if it was my minds way of putting together thoughts I have about each of us being fragments of each other.  I was in like this hotel or something and there were these chefs that were in separate pieces and then came together for the day – their parts slid together and stacked on top of each other.  At night they were in separate body pieces again and packed away in a closet….like zombies I guess?!  One of them yelled at me and was very disgruntled.  They said it was hard to have pieces of others that were billions of years old!  Yeah…very bizarre.

*ran out of picture space again….have to delete some stuff I guess.

28 July 2017 Space plane with glass bottom dream

Good Friday morning….it’s been quite some time since I’ve written.  Hope everybody out there is doing well today.  It’s been really hot and dry again here in North Texas but it is summer so not too big of a surprise.  I’m ready for summer to be over for sure!  I’ve always been more of a cool weather person – favorite seasons being fall and winter…neither of which occur here lol.  Sigh.  I live vicariously through my family and friends who live in places that still get four seasons.

Anyhew.  What has been going on with us? Absolutely nothing and no complaints from here!  Nothing happening is definitely a good thing in the days we currently share as a world.  I’m trying to really work on just staying in a gratitude space and focus on what is within my power.  Yesterday I posted a message on Facebook about if someone is trying to troll you somehow do something unexpected — be kind to them.  Nothing freaks a troll out more than kindness lol!  “What do I do with this?!!!”

I had a really cool dream last night/this morning.  I was on a space ship and it was so vivid.  We were going through all the preparations and our pets were even on board.  I even got to watch my old cat May get in a fight with another passengers cat that was on board lol.  The ship took off and at first we were flying through winter like conditions but the ship had a glass bottom and I could see mountains and beautiful blue lakes below.  It was over too quick!  At the end actor Zachary Quinto (new Star Trek’s Spock) popped in and introduced himself!  What  a fun dream!

source internet: actor Zachary Quinto as Spock *kind of lol

This morning when I was sharing about the dream on Facebook, I saw a headline about Richard Branson and his ceding part of his Virgin Airline stock.  Then when I went to look to see if a space plane with a glass bottom existed, I found out that Virgin airlines is exploring planes with glass bottoms!  Too funny and typical for me when I follow something.   I think it would be cool to fly in such a plane even though I haven’t been up in a commercial airline since I think 2005?!  Many years ago I can remember dreaming about flying in a transparent plane like Wonder Woman….almost there right?!

 

Source Internet – Virgin Airlines glass bottomed plane!

Source Internet: Linda Carter as Wonder Woman in her plane….just like in one of my dreams! I was so excited to see Linda Carter portraying the US President on Super Girl!

28 July 2017 – pink spirit book drawing yesterday. I was thinking about even after our bodies are gone how we live on through nature’s beings – fragments of us are even everywhere as we are alive. Think about all the skin cells we spread every where we go!

 

 

 

27 May 2017 No more pictures, cell phones and todays message from Streams in the Desert (letting go and letting God – true faith)

Good morning to you – it’s 5:59 am as I write.  I have come to an impasse with this blog – my picture allowance is maxed so just words and existing images.  I will say that I was going to share a picture from Gateway to the heavens – pages 104 and 105 and the meditation I did last night 1007pm that involved a drawing I had done earlier with the fragment of purple chalk….a Goddess and the Prussian iron cross.  What happened is I was burning a red cinnamon candle in the darkness and it kept going out so I thought to pour the wax out and was lead to pour it on the drawing in the lower abdomen part – this happened twice which matches the number of times I was operated on for fibroid cyst removal by two separate doctors, two years in a row.  I was pretty upset after I realized this is what I was seeing was about and tried to turn off my phone.  Well as I did a voice activation feature for the phone came on and for some reason it wanted to call my broker of several years, Seth Peritzman!  I thought that was very strange.  When that happened a very small flying insect flew itself into the hot wax of the candle I was burning and died.  Why couldn’t I just turn off my phone?  Then I started looking at the features of the phone and realized all kinds of tracking elements had been activated on it and that was interesting.  I realized if something were to happen to me, if someone were trying to find me, a tracking feature would be useful.   Cell phones can be very useful but as with any tool, only if used for good reasons.

The message from Streams in the Desert resonates with me on many levels and it puts to words beautifully a message I have tried to share in so many ways, through the years.  People like me don’t always get listened to.  People like me – middle-aged house wife with “labels” and no children who live in the lower middle-class income bracket.  I have been speaking, writing, drawing and attempting through my crafts to share so many things that if only had been acknowledged long ago could have helped so much.  I do not expect today will be any different than any other day in this regard but I have faith in the God who has walked with me thus far, through all things, that may today will be different.  I also have Hope – not the child….the daughter….the vision and spirit of the future I want for all creation.   Much love to you today wherever and whenever this message finds you.

9 years and going strong! Happy snap to note the special occasion 🙂

Streams in the Desert message for the today that is also tomorrow:

May 28

“I will not let thee go, except thou bless me…and he blessed him there.” (Gen. 32:26, 29.)

Jacob got the victory and the blessing not by wrestling, but by clinging. His limb out of joint and he could struggle no longer, but he would not let go. Unable to wrestle, he wound his arms around the neck of his mysterious antagonist and hung all his helpless weight upon him, until at last he conquered.

We will not get victory in prayer until we too cease our struggling, giving up our own will and throw our arms about our Father’s neck in clinging faith.

What can puny human strength take by force out of the hand of Omnipotence? Can we wrest blessings by force from God? It is never the violence of willfulness that prevails with god. It si the might of clinging faith, that gets the blessing and the victories. It is not when we press and urge our own will, but when humility and trust unite in saying, “Not my will, but Thine.” We are strong with God only in the degrees that self is conquered and is dead. Not by wrestling, but by clinging can we can the blessing. – J.R. Miller

An incident from the prayer life of Charles H. Usher (illustrating “soul-cling” as a hindrance to prevailing prayer): “My little boy was very ill. The doctors held out little hope of his recovery. I had used all the knowledge of prayer which I possessed on his behalf, but he got worse and worse. This went on for several weeks.

“One day I stood watching him as he lay in nhis cot, and I saw that he could not live long unless he had a turn for the better. I said to God, “O God, I have given much time in prayher for my boy and he gets no better; I must now leave him to Thee, and I will give myself to prayer for others. If it is Thy will to take him I choose Thy will–I surrender him entirely to Thee.’

“I called my dear wife, and told her what I had done. She shed some tears, but handed him over to God. Two days afterwards a man of God came to see us. He had been very interested in our boy Frank, and had been much in prayer for him.

“He said, “God has given me faith to believe that he will recover–have you faith?”

“I said, ‘I have surrendered him to God, but I will go again to God regarding him.’ I did; and in prayer I discovered that I had faith for his recovery. From that time he began to get better. It was the ‘soul-cling’ in my pyrers which had hindered God answering; and if I had continued to cling and had been unwilling to surrender him, I doubt if my boy wold be with me today.

“Child of God! If you want God to answer your prayers, you must be prepared to follow the footsteps of ‘our father Abraham,’ even to the Mount of Sacrifice.” (See Rom. 4:12.)

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This Kyle and I did on 27 April 2011 with our cocker spaniel Samuel and God’s answer was to let him go to God. God didn’t abandon us in our grief…..we surely thought so! But we waited and through love, patience and friendship we were blessed with Link who came to us along with two brothers on 9 Dec 2015. When Sam died, it was like Kyle and I had lost a child. I went looking everywhere to get him back – screaming in the field down the street that was my sanctuary, my church that has been turned over and made into houses for profit. In 100 degree temperatures I walked that blooming field and stood by it’s waters begging for Sam to come back….screaming at the air….the God of my understanding in all things and all it seemed I got was more searching. Then came the day I found the first part of a Christmas ornament in that field and the other at the entrance to the neighborhood. I thought it was to tell me my friend Erin was going to have a son as she is part Choctaw because the ornament was from a Choctaw Casino.  But  no…..she and I were to be blessed with Link and his two brothers. Two women not able to have human children but having maternal instincts to care for all God’s children whatever their form.

God answers your prayers, God is always listening, God never fails – it’s just that you must let go of YOUR plans, YOUR timing, YOUR expectations of how those prayers will be answered. As I have learned to pray and have shared many, many times all through this blog:

“Whatever is for the greatest, most loving good for this (person, place or situation) – not as I would have it but as you would have it. I do not know what is best for my sight is limited to this moment and what has already been and you see all directions of time and space….all possible outcomes and you know what is best….you see the big picture.”

Then LET GO! Stop holding on, “clinging” to your prayers because when you do that is not faith….that is using God like a wishing well. God doesn’t require your monetary homage to answer your prayers, God needs your faith, hope, praise and trust. Let go, Let God – learn acceptance as a path to peace.

 

21 May 2017 Dreams, Drawings , Dr. Strange revisited and Streams in the Desert message for today

Hello to you – it’s Sunday morning and we just had a nice bit of rain, lightning and thunder pass through….yay!  Clean canvas!

Link woke me up again this morning with his scratching and I yelled out loud, “God damn it!!!” really loud and went to the spare bedroom to try to go back to sleep.  When I got up this morning, I got to clean up Link’s “panic poop” he did trying to find me after I left the bedroom. I deserved that! It’s not Link’s fault he’s got bug bites that wake him up in the night!  Not God’s fault either!

ANYWAYS! I ended up dreaming about my mother-in-law Beth and her son Cole coming home to yet another house I didn’t recognize (this happens a lot when I dream about Beth and Cole) while Kyle and I were there. Kyle and I were upstairs and I could see her and Cole walk in the door, it was light out. She had bought candles.  One I remember had a Halloween theme to it and I said, “How did you know I needed to buy another candle?” (in real life I do lol!). There had been a child there with us before the came in, he had dark hair, that slipped out before they came home like a ghost.  I can’t remember his face and something about dirty dishes in the dishwasher.

Did some drawings yesterday and one of them seems to coincide with the Doomsday vault getting flooded in Svalbard Norway. I drew the picture and then when I got on my computer, saw the headline. A lot of what I’ve been experiencing, thinking about and drawing is coinciding with what we saw again in Dr. Strange as we started watching it last night. Just going with it.  I hope my sharing this with you can provide an insight into your own spiritual journey.  Every day is a chance to begin it, that is if you haven’t already!

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2017/05/20/norway-boost-doomsday-vault-entrance-tunnel-breached/

Norway to boost Doomsday vault after entrance tunnel was breached

Credit: Ralph Lee Hopkins /National Geographic

By David Millward

20 May 2017 • 11:02pm

Defenses at Norway’s “Doomsday vault” where thousands of varieties of crop seeds are stored in case of natural disaster are to be reinforced.

The move follows water gushing into the tunnel entrance after the permafrost melted last year.

Although no seeds were damaged there is concern that the vault, which is buried deep inside a mountain near the Norwegian island of Spitsbergen, could be vulnerable.

In watching Dr. Strange again, I’ve noticed a couple of things that I also felt after the first time we saw it — the special effects overshadow the movie. The scenes with special effects are just too long and I would have liked to have seen more story and dialogue. I feel they should have let Ben “be British” because I could tell from watching him that it was awkward not to be – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doctor_Strange. Ben is an amazing British actor – he IS Sherlock Holmes to me like Christopher Reeves will always be my Superman, Chris Hemsworth Thor, Tom Hiddleston Loki, Heath Ledger The Joker and Jonathan Rhys Meyers Alexander Grayson (Dracula) – you get the idea. Sometimes the casting of an actor/actress to a role is like it was made just for them and other times it seems like watching someone wear very uncomfortable clothes and shoes….just doesn’t fit. I can see why they cast him for the part – he looks the part! Could have stepped right out of the comic book renditions of Dr. Strange. It’s important to remember that it’s more than a “look” that brings a character to life.

May 21

“I call to remembrance my song in the night.” (Psalm 77:6)

I have read somewhere of a little bird that will never sing the melody his master wishes while his cage is full of light. He learns a snatch of this, a bar of that, but never an entire song of its own until the cage is covered and the morning beams shut out.

A good many people never learn to sing until the darkling shadows fall. the fabled nightingale carols with his breast against a thorn. It was in the night that the song of the angels was heard. It was at midnight that the cry came, “Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him.”

Indeed it is extremely doubtful if a soul can really know the love of God in its richness and its comforting, satisfying completeness until the skies are black and lowering.

Light comes out of darkness, morning out of the womb of the night.

James Creelman, in one of his letters, describes his trip through the Balkan States in search of Natalie, the exiled queen of Serbia.

“In that memorable journey,” he says, “I learned for the first time that the world’s supply of attar of roses comes from the Balkan Mountains. And the thing that interested me most,” he goes on, “is that the roses must be gathered in the darkest hours. The pickers start out at one o’clock and finish picking them at two.

“At first it seemed to me a relic of superstition; but I investigated the picturesque mystery, and learned that actual scientific tests had proven that fully forty percent of the fragrance of roses disappeared in the light of day.”

And in human life and human culture that is not a playful fanciful conceit; it is a real veritable fact. – Malcom J. McLeod.

 

 

 

 

14 May 2017 Mother’s Day, Birthday wishes, Pergola demolition, Dream about traveling in space and drawings

Good morning to you – for those of you that are “Mom’s” of any sort,  to include my own – Happy Mother’s Day!  I hope all my Mom’s know it’s not just today that I love and appreciate you!  Today is also our friend Billy’s birthday!  So Happy birthday Billy!   Much love, hugs and light to all of you today!

Mother’s Day Poem

Kyle Wygant May 20 2003

Hope and dreams she helps me with

An audience when needed

Plans things out for the help to need

Pays with stress to teach us right

Yet loves us no matter what

Moment’s times she appears when need most

Only the one I choose to always love

The bearer of my favorite gift, life

Helps when needed

Everyday full of something new

Relentless of trying to get things right

Special to everyone she meets

Determined to have turn out all right

At the time to help she does

Yearning, I say Happy Mother’s Day

 

Yesterday was pergola demolition day!  We were so grateful to have had help from  Kyle’s Dad and two brothers to do it!  More than a two-person job to do safely.  Together we were able to make pretty short work of it.  I must say there is some truth to demolition being therapeutic!  Kyle tells me people in demolition are pretty happy people and I could see and feel why yesterday lol.  There were things about the pergola I liked but now I have a clear view of the sky and lots more drawing space lol!  We are ready for the new siding to be installed!

So the dream that woke me up this morning was pretty cool.  I guess my mind’s way of processing all these thoughts I’ve been having about particles and life.  Well in the dream I was traveling in space and it was like a black and white grid.  We actually “went off grid” and beyond what was charted or known.  Something about a ship “picking me up” (the round cell shaped ship) that was free-floating and if you passed through it, you were on a new ship.  I encountered life forms that were just light and colors.  To the person in the dream they were kind of annoying as they “poured in” through rainbow light and had voices but it was hard to understand them.  There was a blonde woman who was very mature but wasn’t very old that was a “life-form.”  I can remember seeing her talking, she was shy but don’t know what she said.