Sometimes loss, suffering, pain can turn us inside out. From my own experience, huge voids, organic black holes created and nothing of this tangible world can fill us up. What I have had to learn is to be careful what I put into those voids once they happen. Everything is an energetic process. Our bodies, our world, what we eat and drink with a fork and spoon and the food we eat that you can’t chew and swallow (energy) is energy. Everything is some form of energetic process. If you experience something that you suffer about, be careful, be mindful of what you “ingest” in its place. For me – Jesus Christ and music. I love you – in case no one has told you that today. Get out there and do amazing things. You got this!
Good morning to you. It’s morning yet in my here and now. Hope this finds you doing well. I have my probably too sweet cup of coffee and my writing buddy Link. I’ve been thinking about something the past couple of days. It has to do with energy.
So you are sitting in a theater watching a movie with a bunch of of other people. The movie has really strong characters. You feel intently about these characters. You cry, you laugh, you get angry and may be even find yourself imagining being in the circumstances of the characters. Then it’s over. Roll credits. After the movie you talk about it. You might read about it in a magazine or on a news feed on your phone. Later comes the award shows and red carpet premiers of the people in the movie. The movie is released to the public and you buy a copy of the film. You watch it again at home . Sometimes you will think of specific lines from the movie and use them in your own life. Eventually comes the day the movie goes on a shelf and it’s not forgotten but superseded by another film. This process I’m talking about applies to television shows too.
What I’ve just described is a life.
There is a tremendous amount of energy focused on these characters born out of imagination. Where does all that energy go when we are done with it? Many of these characters become part of an actor or actress’s identity. They become known for the characters they play and some of those characters are so dark in their nature. I’m thinking of Heath Ledgers Joker and Aaliyahs Akashi. The darkness they bring is often lauded and emulated. It’s not contained on the screen. There is a sort of life lived through our living eyes… our bodies. Whether the character is good or bad they have achieved immortality. There is proof they existed.
It’s not just fictional characters that attain immortality. As I sit here I think of the trillions of “avatars” God has used through time. Some flashing for a mere second and others hours. Think about all the social media posts and YouTube. All those people and these days animals all immortalized. How about books ? Magazines, newspapers and photographs ?
All of us saying in numerous ways “Remember me!” “ I existed!” It kind of makes me ache inside. So much of what we are now is electronic. I have a hard drive full of important stuff and all it took was a couple drops on the tile and I can’t access that stuff anymore! All it takes is a cell phone to stop working and thousands of pictures are lost. The movie, television and book industry is a little more secure by making and selling millions of copies of their merchandise but even that is fading to live stream and online streaming . Existence is fragile in the electronic world. All it takes now is a power outage and tangible immortality is gone.
Where are we headed with all that we have created? I know it’s meant to be entertainment but sometimes it feels like I’m living in a world filled with golden calves. So much energy…so much adoration lavished on these imagined people and worlds. Giants on the big screen so we won’t be bored on our long journey to other worlds together.
To be “saved” usually means to accept Jesus Christ as your savior but what I see in our world is your image being saved on some device. If we didn’t have written copies of the Bible even Jesus would be lost in time. He said he would come back but didn’t say how. How many versions of his life have been made in television and movies?
A lot to think about here. Time keeps marching on. Technology keeps evolving. Where are we headed in out quest to survive? To not be lost in time? To not be bored?
Hello to you visitor. I am reposting this from my personal archives because it feels like a good time to do it – for myself. Some of what is here has evolved and changed in my mind, body and spirit these past few years but much is the same. During the past couple of years I have allowed the events of the world, both near and far, to taint my heart….to taint my spirit and faith in my fellow human beings. I have become a very bitter, distrustful person – extremely suspicious person that questions the motives and activities of the very fabric of our existence. I don’t think I am alone. What I am having to keep coming back to is my love for the God of my understanding who lets me yet live no matter how flawed a person I have been or am yet today. I don’t know if there is anything here for you but chances are if you are here to see it, to read it, to try and understand it, perhaps you are in the right place. This is my intention. When this came to me I wrote it all down and have those notes still. I will spare you the trouble of pictures and my scribble to read. If you are like me, sometimes is difficult to read online documents for extended periods of time. Feel free to come back, to take a break. I will try to refrain from deleting this again. I have a nasty habit of doing that….I lose faith in myself.
“we are all on a quest called life” in the English Ordinal system equals 258/15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by two equals 1.5 = 6….. or 3 cycle
“two five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 149 – one engages with their brain on a “no” path or “nein” in German
“one four nine” in the English Ordinal system equals 136 – one engaged in a “yes, no may be” process, all the “vices” in check but one
one three six” in the English Ordinal system equals 142 – one engaged with their brain in the process
“one four two” in the English Ordinal system equals 152 – one engaged with the sensation of the five senses in the process
(“earth” in the English Ordinal system equals 52) – our home
*note – these two influential men are just a portion of those who have influenced and taught me much I have needed to know about this life. I believe everyone, no matter their form, is both teacher and student in this life.
24 March 2015
Two halves of one whole – Nikola Tesla and Wilhelm Reich
This morning I had another “Aha” but this time it was the biggest yet. I mentioned in a recent blog that I had begun exploring the making of orgonite. Well in my research of the founder of Orgone, Wilhem Reich, I realized this was familiar. Many years ago I remember reading or hearing about a “rain maker.” A man who went to drought stricken towns and with a device “made it rain.” He had been denounced and pretty much labeled a quack so he slipped out of my consciousness but I always wondered after learning about him if we could control the weather. I never knew his name…until now.
So I’ve made a couple pieces of my own orgonite and before reading more about Wilhelm’s origin story had wondered if orgonite could be used to help with mental health therapy…low and behold he thought so too and did a lot of research and experiments to prove it! I wanted to learn more and this morning watched a video on You tube from the Wilhelm Reich Infant Trust. It’s a short, 3 part documentary called “Man’s Right to Know” detailing Reich’s life and research. It hit me pretty hard that what happened to him is almost verbatim to what happened to Tesla!
“Man’s right to know, to learn, to inquire, to investigate human emotions must, by all means be safe if the word Freedom should ever be more than an empty political slogan.”Reich’s response to Complaint for Injunction
So I’m going to share with you here how two halves of my crude learning and discovery have come together. Contrary to past posts, I’m not editing this from my scrap paper scrawl. I am not a scientist or particularly learned individual…my school has primarily been life. My Dad has told me that is what life is….”Life is school; we are never out of school.”
Some of what I write here may seem extreme and hard to digest…comprehend. If you find this conflict within yourself as you try to read this, I say I may not be your messenger. You must seek your messenger elsewhere but this message to you must be received.
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Reich’s work is tangible evidence to show why what we put in our bodies is largely responsible for our “energetic manifestation of reality…our bodies.” Ingesting too much “dead” organic matter or an imbalance of it with “living” organic matter actually kills the living organisms within us. Must have balance of dead and living ingestion to have healthy body. Must have regular exercise and “sexercise” to discharge excess atmospheric energy our bodies are exposed to by people, animals, plants, insects, physical structures man-made and natural like rocks and minerals. This is why after sex, especially after exercise (specifically outdoors) and chores I feel better! If I don’t discharge energy, I feel angry, restless, and moody, depressed, overeat, seek “comfort” in shopping, entertainment etc.
Because I, and other “highly sensitive” people; Empaths, ingest much more atmospheric energy, we must use powerful, frequent discharge/detox techniques to balance or “ground” ourselves. We are tiny “mini-me’s” of Mother Earth. What happens with her weather systems and climate is her technique for discharge/release of excess energy i.e. storms with a lot of lightening, hurricanes, typhoons, tornados earthquakes. (to add here I would say it is also in these things and floods, heat waves, drought and other extremes she is doing things we do to try and heal ourselves and express emotion just on a much larger scale!).
Nikola Tesla studied energy, discovered “everything is energy” but on another level than Reich. Tesla was metallic, Reich organic as an analogy. I now have the two halves of the equation which leads me to comprehension of my abilities, interest, path of discovery and experimentation on a very crude, personal scale….my observation and experience not in a lab, in my life and the lives I encounter and catalyze. As Reich said of those who sought to destroy, discredit, erase, and “blot out” his research, his existence and the validity and value of his work and of its existence….”I do not like it, I don’t want it, I fear it (I will destroy it – my add here.)” He said, “It’s in their structure, it’s in their blood” (kind of like Jesus supposedly said of those who crucified him, “Forgive them Father, they know not what they do.”)
I have it in my structure, my blood to be the polar opposite! Reich, Tesla were my brothers of blood. Our ancestry and origins of our structure and blood from the same regions of the world. Further in my blood, 1%…Jesus…Jew….rebellion, free thinking, discovery, true understanding and the quest for proof, further understanding and learning. These two men, all of the other men and women whose life’s work were for the betterment of the common people..one source…one purpose…unification of the “All.” Peace amongst the “All “and the center source is understanding the Life Force, Universal consciousness, God, the one energy that connects us all. Hi
We all come from, return to, come back to from the one source – an “energy eco-system.”
So to a degree the religions do have it kind of correct. The way they have gone wrong is trying to control how this one force is received and processed by each living creature. This is why one person may hear a message at church, work, home, in society and it will either “resonate” and promote action or it won’t.
Very early on a thing Ken (my ex-husband) pointed out in frustration was how he’d tell me something important like “No one can make you feel anything” and it wasn’t until I heard someone else say it would it “resonate”, make sense to me, help me comprehend it and act on this knowledge in my life. This is why I say often, “Every message has an intended receiver. What my message is may not be the tone, flavor etc. for my intended recipient. They will have to hear my message through someone else but it will be delivered!” So this is why we must have tolerance in all structures of civilization. There is one Life Force but there are infinite delivery systems (messengers) and conductors of this one force.
To restrict these delivery systems (messengers) and conductors to one acceptable receiving system only..one channel…obstructs the Life force for each individual. This is why there is no “right” or “wrong” way of thinking or doing (I will add it is this way of constructing society that is responsible for our current dysfunction) only different; perfectly valid. This is called perception. We are biologically incapable of all perceiving reality the same way and for any religious, political, organizational entity to demand only one, acceptable (permissible) perception is an abomination against the Life Force… God.
Our thoughts and deeds are energetic manifestations and forces to shape our shared reality. Right now religious, political, organizational powers who choose to manifest and use money energy oppress and control those “beneath” them in class and station are going against the Life Force, against God. They have been doing so throughout human history, it’s “in their structures, in their blood” as Reich said. Their entire existence, conscious and unconscious, is about controlling what they fear, “They don’t like us, don’t want us, fear us” but unfortunately (ironically) for them, they need us to continue to exist how they do. Without our labor, our children, our thoughts, our ideas, our bodies/blood to shed on battlefields for their causes, our weaknesses that they exploit with money energy to support their lifestyles they will cease to exist.
When we give our “will” (what we buy, where we work, what we think, how we vote, how we learn, what we eat, how we carry out our daily lives) to them and their chosen money energy agendas..we give away the piece of Life Force/God that exists in all living things, which Reich in his research tangible showed and proved existed to us, to those who use the Life Force for their selfish and self-serving intent.
Their activities are an offense to the ultimate source. As history has repeatedly shown, “These shall not stand.”
No human being can stop the will of the one source. They obviously do not believe, understand or are in arrogant defiance of this truth. Do they think by controlling reproduction and any facet of the will of people, plants, and animals there are no consequences? Do not these times show us the consequence of their structural design? (Flawed design). Specifically what comes to mind is abortion. I do not like it but think it’s between the woman and God. The church fears aborting a child will kill the second coming of Christ but I say to this – do you really think aborting a child would prevent God’s coming? Do they now see the parade through time of the second coming? God’s chosen? Some newly born and some very late in life to serve God’s will. No one can stop the will, the message, and the purpose of the Life Force…of God. The message will be delivered and received by those intended…if they are unsuccessful…there will be another. There is no “one” second coming or savior. We all, every living creature born each day is Gods arrival. (To add – in each vessel is the potential for the message to be delivered and received…acted upon.)
Those in power to use the Life Force to kill, maim, oppress, manipulate, deceive, torture, abuse, neglect, libel and steal will suffer the consequences of their activities.
Our individual piece of the Life Force amplifies, distorts or diminishes the consequences felt by them AND by us.
Our thoughts are energy. What we focus on, put our emotional and thought energy on and subsequently act on expands…it grows…it manifests reality. When we focus on what’s wrong, what we don’t like, don’t want, fear…we are creating more of it…giving it our personal power…Life Force…feeding it. “Mind your thoughts” and “Be careful what you wish for, surely you will get it” are phrases we know and say without understanding the truth in them.
As a more than 1% of the population we must reclaim our personal pieces of the Life Force and channel our for we want in the world…how we want to change the world. We must simplify, unify, choose tangible contact with people, places, nature and things vs the distractions used to control us (technology)…placate us. We already know what is wrong, the point has been made long ago, we must now focus on what we need to do to make it right….restore balance to us and in turn the Earth.
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