1 Dec 2018 My Family Table

family table in Simple Gematria equals: 106

what do you want in this life focus on that in Simple Gematria equals: 443

= 549/99/18/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

doing what is right is seldom easy but always necessary in Simple Gematria equals: 570

= 12/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

follow your heart in Simple Gematria equals: 214

if it doesnt sit in the middle of your chest it isnt right in Simple Gematria equals: 580

if it aint light it aint right in Simple Gematria equals: 279

let your conscience be your guide in Simple Gematria equals: 338

=1465

when your heart falls into your gut in Simple Gematria equals: 416

= 2442/66/12/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

family in Simple Gematria equals: 66

intuition in Simple Gematria equals: 131

= 2639/20/2/1 or 20 divided by 2 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 = 1

(26 is God number and 39, on a personal level, is my first name Jackie.  26 and 39 numbers can mean other things to other people, in the context of this conversation, it speaks to me.  My relationship with the God of my understanding, ultimately comes back to me.)

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30 Nov 2018 Cohabitation

Hello again.  I am doing a double post today as this subject is very near and dear to my heart – “Pets.”   Two names:  Sam.  Species:  Dog  Amber. Species Cat.  There is also May a cat, Blondie a dog, Spot and Link both dogs.  I have had birds as well.  I don’t think of them as merely pets.  They are and were family and friends….teachers.

The short time we had with Sam was some of the most important time of my life.  He taught me so much.  He showed me how great the God of my understanding is.  In all the many forms of life we share this plane with, the closest ambassadors the God of my understanding sends are dogs and cats.  Sam was one of the finest of them all.   When we had to help him travel on it about destroyed me.  I have grieved for family and other humans I have loved and lost before but it was different with Sam.   It hurt much more deeply.  You say good-bye but it never feels like there is closure.  Losing him  was like losing my son, my best friend and teacher.

If you decide to adopt or breed a dog, cat, bird or any other species of animal you are making an oath to them.  It’s a commitment for life.  They are not toys.  They are not status symbols.  They are not “just” dogs, cats….animals.  As I look at the world right now, many of these beings caged love slaves trapped in yards, basements, apartments…prisons.  They don’t get daily walks.  They don’t get social interaction.  Many don’t ever get to see anything beyond a space between a backyard fence.  I have heard many horror stories like puppies being left to die with no food or water.  Being found dead with their heads in dry water bowls.

People say it’s better than them being in an animal shelter or out on the streets starving or dead.  Is it?  I understand they don’t feel or think like we do but they do think, they do feel we just can’t always understand what they are saying.  We are often too preoccupied with our own lives to truly try to understand or it’s just one thing too many to even try.

cohabitation in Simple Gematria equals: 117

*549 pm

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/technology/51-pilot-whales-die-in-another-mass-stranding-in-new-zealand/ar-BBQhkqI?OCID=ansmsnnews11

30 Nov 2018 Jackie numbers New Zealand pilot whale deaths IMG_4982 – just a few variables tell a story within this story. The variable not highlighted, value 205, “lost the will to live.” This is incredibly tragic. I am seeing this behavior in other beings also. Dolphins are some of the most intelligent mammals on the planet. The “thanks for the fish” phrase came to mind from Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy when I saw this. It’s another warning.

29 Oct 2018 Wonderful stars on the lawn

 

Hello to you.  I hope this finds you in a positive energy space wherever and whenever you are as you read this.

My inspiration this morning comes from our Link and how he responds lately to the word “Wonderful.”  His eyes light up, his ears perk up and sometimes he starts playing enthusiastically.  It’s absolutely….well…wonderful!  It sparks in me the wonder that comes from still having a child living inside this aging suite of flesh I am wearing that is named Jackie.   So he inspired me.  I went outside and inside I heard a nudging to think about what is wonderful to me.  There are many, many wonderful things on my list but near the top has always been dewdrops shining in the sunshine.  I even made a little phrase for it.  It’s changed over the years but basically this:

“Stars on the lawn shimmer in the morning sun and then their gone.”  (number value = 641)

I would ask you to consider talking to the child within yourself and ask, “What do you think is wonderful?”  What brings you a sense of wonder in this world?  When is the last time you took time with what wonderful is for you?

 Wonderful = 118

Wonder = 79  Full = 51 = 130

Shiny = 75 Shine = 55 = 130 (A little two word song I used to sing to our Sammy…..often crying as I did because I knew he had to leave me some day.)

Three= 56  Years = 68 = 124 (The length of time Kyle and I had to wait for Link to come to us)

A Miracle = 62

= 564

Sam = 33

Link = 46

= 79 + 564 = 643

 

god is in everything and everyone in Simple Gematria equals: 338

 68/14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

21 Oct 2018 Drawing Meditations in Numbers and Being Real (Smooth McGroove)

(the numbers in the first drawing, this is just stuff that came to me yesterday in thinking about my life and also current events)

27 = Red 104 = Versus 40 = Blue = 171

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Nothing = 87 Ever = 50 Changes = 57 = 194

(The faces, places and specific circumstances may appear different, may give us the illusion of change and the passage of time,  but the underlying stories remain the same all the way back to our beginning.  I feel like that is because much is unresolved and just keeps on rolling forward into each new generation of life.)

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

Cycle = 48

12/6/3 cycle

Dad = 414

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

Sun = 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

= 881

17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

We found Smooth McGroove on our morning journey through You Tube and really enjoyed what we found.  He does these types of videos for video game music as well.  I enjoyed one of his latest videos talking about “being real” on You tube and in whatever you do.  A message I needed today.  Thank you Smooth McGroove!

Everytime – A Failed Kitty Romance 😿 Acapella by Smooth McGroove (Boy Pablo cover)

Published on Feb 10, 2018

After hearing this song, I decided it was actually about my cat Charl and Dahli, my parents’ cat 😺 They’ve never met, so she literally doesn’t know who he is.

It’s been quite a while since I’ve done anything besides video game music, and almost five years to the day that “My Cat Knows What You Do in the Dark” came out. Hope you guys enjoy!

Being real on YouTube

Published on Mar 3, 2018

Over the years I’ve seen people starting YouTube channels for the wrong reasons and, because of that, they have a hard time. This video is me trying to explain why I think being yourself, being real, is the most important foundation to start any creative project.

I hope this video helps anyone who has hit blocks with their own channel or in their creative life. Being on YouTube these past five-plus years has taught me a few things so I thought I’d try and share these lessons as best as I could.

I really appreciate all the people who shared their stories after the previous video. I can’t respond to them all but I’ve read most of them and I’m glad that the video could help in any way!

Being comfortable in your own skin and being your own best friend isn’t easy to do.  From what I’ve seen of even those the most comfortable in who and what they are, the forces of the external world don’t allow them to be that without interruption:

being real in Simple Gematria equals: 73

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

be yourself in Simple Gematria equals: 128

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

to thine own self be true in Simple Gematria equals: 256

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2= 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

inner critic in Simple Gematria equals: 122

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

criticism in Simple Gematria equals: 103

4/2/1

being your own worst enemy in Simple Gematria equals: 325

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

finding balance in Simple Gematria equals: 101

2/1

=1108

10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

5 Sept 2018 Sentient or Food

Hello.   I hope this finds you well.  I saw this morning that Japan is making a proposal to resume commercial whaling and at first I got really upset.  Then I decided to look at things a little more closely and of course found myself in the hypocrite box.  I eat meat and meat comes from cows which are sentient beings.  I don’t know to what degree they rank up with whales but nevertheless, before I can point a finger at others, I have to remove “the plank in my own eye” on this.    It’s so hard to resist passing judgement on others who don’t believe what we believe and live the way we choose to live.  It’s almost like a reflex, an instinct to do so.  At least it can be that way for me.  It’s when I take a minute to reflect and step back from something and or someone I’m upset about that I realize my part in it.  I realize that I’ve either done something or been someone just like that at some point in my life.  I eventually set aside my anger to find understanding, compassion and even forgiveness.

Matthew 7 New International Version (NIV)

Judging Others

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

“Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

 

As I’ve mentioned before, sometimes when you look at the words we’ve come up with through time to describe certain things, you find some interesting things numerically.  It’s become important to  me to start looking at this because words are what I use to communicate the most, not numbers and yet, if you think about it, numbers are behind a great deal of what we say and do in this world.  The numeric value of a word, I’ve been finding, doesn’t always match what it means by definition.  Since I’ve discovered Gematria, it’s really opened my eyes about the foundations of language and communication.  Take a look at what I’ve put together, what do you see?  Do you see patterns?

https://www.gematrix.org

“What’s your bottom line?” = 275/14/5  “Bottom Line” = 125/8  Money = 72/9 cycle  Survival = 124/Existence = 104/5

Alive = 49/13/4  Sentient = 106/7  self-aware = 90/9 cycle consciousness = 175/13/4  conscience = 90/9 cycle God = 26/8 Soul = 67/13/4

Food = 46/10/5  Body = 46/10/5  Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle  Animal = 50/5  Animals = 69/15/6/3 cycle  People = 69/15/6/3 cycle

Domestic animal = 138

Wild animal = 98

Pet animal = 91/10/5

Food animal = 96/15/6/3 cycle

Some of the beings we farm and or hunt for food:   

whale = 41/5  dolphin = 78/15/6/3 cycle  fish = 42/6/3 cycle  chicken = 53/8  duck = 39/12/3 cycle goose = 61 pig = 32/5  cow = 41/5  goat = 43/7 sheep = 53/8  deer = 32/5  bear = 26/8  wolf = 56/11 dog = 26/8  cat = 24/6/3 cycle = 647/17/8  647-26 = 621/9 cycle

Life = 32 Death = 38  Birth = 57  Rebirth = 80 = 207/ 9 cycle (interesting that same numbers values here are above, 621).   

Hunting = 93/12/3 cycle  Fishing = 72/9 cycle  Whaling = 74/11/2/1  Trapping = 83/11/2/1  Ranching = 74/11/2/1  Breeding = 64/10/1

Farming = 68/14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  = 528/15/6/3 cycle

Links:

http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/msn/japan%e2%80%99s-bid-to-resume-commercial-whaling-sets-stage-for-fierce-debate/ar-BBMS2pa – Japan’s bid to resume commercial whaling sets stage for fierce debate – Simon Denyer

“Moronuki said the United States is guilty of a double standard by allowing native communities in Alaska to continue whaling while not wanting Japan to do so, even though whaling is a tradition in some communities in Japan.

“All animals are equal,” he added. “Some say whales are intelligent, but I hear that some scientists found that other animals like cows and horses, they are as intelligent as whales. So you must be aware that we cannot draw the line between animals: ‘They should not be killed because they are intelligent, but others, they are not so intelligent, they should be killed.’ ”

Perry rejected that argument.

“Whether whales are sentient or not, they are very difficult to count. They are long-lived, slow-breeding animals. It’s very hard to know if you are depleting the population, and if you do deplete the population, it takes a long time to recover.”

https://www.livescience.com/39481-time-to-declare-animal-sentience.html – After 2,500 Studies, It’s Time to Declare Animal Sentience Proven (Op-Ed)

https://us.whales.org/issues/sentient-and-sapient-whales-and-dolphins – Sentient and sapient whales and dolphins

WDC believes that whales and dolphins are both sentient and sapient individuals, and that they deserve to have both their individual welfare protected and also for their moral and legal rights recognised.

https://science.howstuffworks.com/environmental/conservation/issues/whaling.htm – How Whaling Works

https://www.meatinstitute.org/index.php?ht=d/sp/i/47465/pid/47465 – The United States Meat Industry at a Glance (as of 2013)

https://www.plantbasednews.org/post/are-farm-animals-sentient – Are Farm Animals Sentient?

https://news.vice.com/article/mexican-laborers-want-americans-to-know-who-picks-their-fruits-and-vegetables – Mexican Laborers Want Americans to Know Who Picks Their Fruits and Vegetables

“Day laborers in at least 19 other states in Mexico endure similarly poor working conditions. Some of these workers are among the quarter million people who live under modern-slavery conditions, according to the Walk Free Foundation’s 2014 Global Slavery Index.”

https://www.dirt-to-dinner.com/where-do-our-fruits-and-vegetables-come-from/ – Where Do Our Fruits and Vegetables Come From?

The Bottom Line:

Our fruits and vegetables come from all over the United States, but California leads production by a huge margin. When the season ends in the United States, production shifts to Mexico, Central and South American countries allowing Americans to enjoy many fresh produce items year-round.

 

28 Aug 2018 Zero

https://www.gematrix.org/?word=

Beginning = 81/9 cycle

Sun = 54/9 cycle

Word = 60/6/3 cycle

Speak = 52/7

Speech = 56/11/2/1

Poor Teacher = 124/7

Son = 48/12/6/3 cycle

The Poor = 97/16/7

Learn to do without = 220/4/2/1

The Have’s and the Have Not’s = 244 (64)/10/1

Tithe = 62/8/4/2/1

Share=51/6/3 cycle

Charity = 84/12/3 cycle

Give and Take = 99/18/9 cycle

Sustainability =181/10/1

Consumption = 159/15/6/3 cycle

Population Control = 236/11/2/1

Birth Control = 154/10/1

Resources = 123/6/3 cycle (ABC, 123)

Poverty = 121/4/2/1

Cat = 24/6/3 cycle

Dog = 26/8/4/2/1

Tree = 48/12/6/3 cycle

Human = 57/12/6/3 cycle

Life = 32/5

Human Life = 89/17/8/4/2/1

Nobody = 75/12/6/3 cycle

Nothing = 87/15/6/3 cycle

Alone = 47/11/2/1

Who’s Dream Am I In? (I ask myself this sometimes) = 152/8  (If I were to take this result literally, it would be God’s)

David Bowie – Zeroes, 2018 (Official Audio)

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah

You’ve arrived in the land of a thousand different names
And the fabulous sons have crashed their planes in flames
Now tomorrow is back claiming redemption is on your heels
And a toothless past is asking you how it feels

And me, my little red corvette has driven by
Fair weather heart has fallen in
My rainyday girl is feeling down
And she tells me that the world is spinning round

I say the dream was all for you
You’re nobody else
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
Yeah

Hi! Can I walk you home again today?
Gotta get forgive and forget hey hey
Something good is happening and I don’t know what it is
Don’t you know we’re back on trial again today

And it’s breaking wine for you
Hell!, it’s only ’cause you’re true
Someone outtimed my heart
Stopping and preaching and letting love in

You are my moon, you are my sun
Heaven knows what you are
Tonight the zeroes are singing for you
Yes, they were

Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You
Tonight the zeroes were singing for you
You

It doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter what you try to do
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter where you try to go
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter who we really are
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)

Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter
(Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter)
Doesn’t matter

Songwriters: DAVID BOWIE
© TINTORETTO MUSIC
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

 

9 July 2018 Sleep, Bird in the Water (missions) and Buy the Milk (story)

Hello – how are you doing in your here and now?  I hope this finds you well.  I’m tired again but getting better.  Think I’m getting closer to figuring out what the problem is – being too warm at night.  Link likes to cuddle right up next to me and he runs really warm.  Last night I went out to the couch and it was nice and cool and I actually slept some until he figured out I had left the bed and came looking for me lol.  Then we went back to the main bed and it had cooled down and I slept some more until things heated back up.   I’ve always slept better when it is cooler and ever since we adjusted the thermostat in the house, by just 1 degree higher, I haven’t been sleeping as well!

https://sports.yahoo.com/science-says-sleeping-cold-room-174708555.html

Science Says Sleeping In a Cold Room Is Better for Your Health

Courtney Campbell

Those who prefer to keep bedroom temperatures chilly while catching some shut eye may be on to something. According to an article written by Dr. Christopher Winter, Medical Director at Charlottesville Neurology & Sleep Medicine, and published by the Huffington Post, our bedroom temperatures can make a big difference when it comes to getting a good night of sleep.

Although most of us might not give a second thought to the temperature of our bedroom at night (unless you’re trying to save money), Winter says our rooms should be 60 to 67 degrees Fahrenheit for the best sleep. If the temperature goes above 75 degrees or below 54 degrees, it can cause people to toss and turn all night.

Why does the number on the thermostat matter? Our body temperatures naturally peak and decline during a 24-hour period, with the highest numbers occurring in the late afternoon and the lowest ones around 5 a.m. Sleep usually begins when our body temperature drops, so a colder room can encourage us to fall asleep faster.

If the promise of more sleep isn’t enough, there are plenty of other reasons to keep the air on cool:

You’ll have a more restful sleep.

Research done at the University of South Australia found that certain forms of insomnia occur with poor body temperature regulation. If you’re having trouble falling asleep at night, a colder room could help your body cool down enough to reach a level of deeper, restorative sleep.

It’ll keep you looking young.

Sleeping in a room warmer than 70 degrees will stop your body from releasing melatonin, one of the body’s best anti-aging hormones. Once we’re asleep in total darkness and our body temperature drops, it releases melatonin and triggers a slight cool-down in the body.

It can help you lose weight.

According to the Huffington Post, naturopathic doctor Natasha Turner says that as your body temperature drops and growth hormone is released, the stress hormone cortisol will also decrease with healthy sleep patterns. When you aren’t able to sleep enough, you’ll wake up with high levels of cortisol-meaning you’re more likely to reach for a box of cookies and have increased anxiety.

You lower your risk for metabolic disease.

One study found that sleeping in a room set to 66 degrees can help prevent certain metabolic diseases, like diabetes. Participants not only burned more calories when they were awake, but also nearly doubled their amount of brown fat, or good fat, which allows the body store fewer calories. Over time, this can lower the risk of metabolic diseases.

So, put on your favorite PJs, turn the A/C down to 65 degrees, and get ready to catch some zzz’s. ]]>😴

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Ugh…..yesterday was an emotional day for me.   It started with watching a video of a man saving an otter from killer whales.  Alas he couldn’t rescue the baby that was with her.  Hearing her scream for her baby just tore me up!  Little did I know this was going to be the tempo of my day!

As Temple Grandin says:

Temple Grandin

“Nature is cruel but we don’t have to be”

Temple Grandin, The Way I See It: A Personal Look at Autism & Asperger’s

8 July 2018 – Simple drawing I did before the sequence of events that would unfold

So yesterday Kyle and I decided to take the dogs on a walk in the evening and came across a loose dog.  He looked like Spot, probably even the same age, but was a Chihuahua.  He had tags and seemed to be a nice dog but we just couldn’t get close enough to him to read his tags.  Having Link and Spot along with us didn’t help either.  So we finished the walk and I went home.  I put a note about him and his whereabouts on our neighborhood Next Door page to let folks know about him in case they were looking.  Then I grabbed my phone and went out to see if I could get a picture to help identify him.

I didn’t find the sweet boy but I did find something quite tragic in front of my neighbor Fred’s place.  There was a bird in a puddle of water in his front yard.  At first glance I wasn’t sure if it was dead or alive.  When I stopped to really look, I saw labored breathing.  I chose to stop and sit down next to the dying being.  Their wings were all messed up.  I sat and talked to them in soothing tones and stroked their head which they seemed to respond to.  There were tears on my part because I knew there wasn’t much else I could do for the poor thing.  Fred’s cats were out and I knew it was either they were going to get the bird or it was going to be the ants we have around here.  We have ants that wait for Cicada’s to molt and eat them before they even fully get out of their casing!

So I was sitting there and Fred came home and asked me if everything was ok.  I told him about the bird.  He is a hospice nurse and was just home from work.  He was very tired and said, “Why always in my front yard?  The last time it was you telling me about my favorite cat!”  A year or so ago I had been walking and found his favorite cat with it’s throat torn on his front yard.  I had taken the time to tell him instead of just ignoring it.  He told me he had just been on vacation to California and it’s been 8 months since his wife died.  I said that I bet Cindy would be happy that he’s moving on, that she would want him to be happy…he deserved to be happy.  His wife had been sick for a very long time and they both suffered so much with it.   The dying bird I was sitting with was almost symbolic of what they had been through.

He went inside and grabbed some paper towels for me so I could remove the bird to what I hoped would be a safer dying place in my yard.  The bird seemed to find peace in being wrapped and closed it’s eyes as I carried it home.  One last effortless flight.  Alas the space I chose to give this poor thing rest in my yard was later found by the ants.  I think, I HOPE,  the bird had already passed on.  There just was no winning with this case.  I am praying that the bird found a moment of peace with how I chose to handle things.

Remember the message about life is about choices?  What I’ve shared with you illustrates this.  It’s probably happened so many times in your own life and you may not even have been conscious of it!

1) Kyle and I chose to take the dogs for a second walk which we don’t normally do in the summer here.  2) This lead us to the loose dog we wanted to help.  3) This lead me to going back out for a longer walk.   4) This lead me to finding and trying to console a dying bird.  5) This lead me to a loving conversation with Fred about his wife who died after suffering a long illness.

All of this felt like a mission.  I don’t believe that it was “just a coincidence.”  There is the hidden director at work!  Do you heed the direction or do you ignore it?

A long time friend shared a story with me recently.  I don’t know if it’s true story but it was a great example of what I have experienced in my own life when I heed direction from the unseen director….God of energy, the Source….the Universe.

http://www.gospelweb.net/Illustrations/BuyTheMilk.htm

Buy The MilkOr Are You An Angel?
Author Unknown
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A young man had been to Wednesday night Bible Study. The Pastor had spoken about “listening to God and obeying the Lord’s voice.”

The young man couldn’t help but wonder, “Does God still speak to people?” After service he went out with some friends for coffee and pie and they discussed the message. Several different ones talked about how God had led them in different ways. It was about ten o’clock when the young man started driving home. Sitting in his car, he just began to pray, “God, if you still speak to people, speak to me. I will listen. I will do my best to obey.”

As he drove down the main street of his town, he had the strangest thought to stop and buy a gallon of milk. He shook his head and said out loud, “God is that you?” He didn’t get a reply, so he started on toward home. But again, the thought came to him… buy a gallon of milk.

The young man thought about Samuel, and how he didn’t recognize the voice of God, and how little Samuel ran to Eli. “Okay, God, in case that is you, I will buy the milk.” It didn’t seem like too hard a test of obedience. He could always use the milk. So, he stopped and purchased the gallon of milk and started toward home.

As he passed Seventh Street, he again felt the urge, “Turn down that street.” This is crazy, he thought, and drove on past the intersection. Again, he felt that he should turn down Seventh Street. At the next intersection, he turned back and headed down Seventh. Half jokingly, he said out loud, “Okay, God, I will”.

He drove several blocks, when suddenly, he felt like he should stop. He pulled over to the curb and looked around. He was in a semi-commercial area of town. It wasn’t the best, but it wasn’t the worst of neighborhoods either. The businesses were closed and most of the houses looked dark, like people were already in bed.

Again, he sensed something, “Go and give the milk to the people in the house across the street.” The young man looked at the house. It was dark and it looked like the people were either gone or they were already asleep. He started to open the door and then sat back in the car seat. “Lord, this is insane. Those people are asleep and if I wake them up, they are going to be mad and I will look stupid.”

Again, he felt like he should go and give the milk. Finally, he opened the door and said, “Okay God, if this is you, I will go to the door and I will give them the milk. If you want me to look like a crazy person, okay. I want to be obedient. I guess that will count for something but, if they don’t answer right away, I am out of here.”

He walked across the street and rang the bell. He could hear some noise inside. A man’s voice yelled out, “Who is it? What do you want?”

Then the door opened before the young man could get away. The man was standing there in his jeans and T-shirt. He looked like he just got out of bed. He had a strange look on his face and he didn’t seem too happy to have some stranger standing on his doorstep.

The man asked, “What is it?”

The young man thrust out the gallon of milk and said, “Here, I brought this to you,” he said.

The man took the milk and rushed down a hallway speaking loudly in Spanish. Then from down the hall came a woman carrying the milk toward the kitchen. The man was following her holding a baby. The baby was crying. The man had tears streaming down his face.

The man began speaking and half crying, “We were just praying. We had some big bills this month and we ran out of money. We didn’t have any milk for our baby. I was just praying and asking God to show me how to get some milk.”

His wife in the kitchen yelled out,”I ask him to send an angel with some. Are you an Angel?”

The young man reached into his wallet and pulled out all the money he had on him and put it in the man’s hand. Then he turned and walked back toward his car and tears were streaming down his face. He knew then that God does still speak to people… and answer prayers.

 

8 July 2018 – Simple drawing I did before the sequence of events that would unfold – looks like a man in a box looking for a way out to me. 

 

3 July 2018 Repurposing

Hello to you this HOT Texas afternoon.  Oh my goodness it’s summer lol.  I can’t believe I could forget how toasty and crunchy this time of the year can be.  At least the Cicada’s sing to me all day 🙂

As you may or may not remember, earlier this year I was not myself.  During this time Kyle was tested sorely and one of my precious crystals got tossed really hard on the pavement.  It was just one of the many things that were nearly destroyed when time in the Anger Room in Dallas (https://www.angerroom.com/) would have served us better!  Well we’ve managed to mend our relationship as we always do.  In celebration of our progress, today I decided to try and repurpose or fix the crystal he tossed.  I had saved some of the main pieces and thought it would be neat to soften the rough edges with shells we collected on our wedding cruise to Puerto Rico, to St. Martin in particular.  I know some would cringe at the thought of doing this to a quartz crystal ball but I am very pleased with her new look.  She looks like a queen now and is a fusion of land and sea!

I’m so grateful Kyle has stuck around despite the stormy times we’ve had together.  I’m so grateful he about as unconditionally as is humanly possible loves me and the person I am….as changeable as that can be sometimes!

For those who celebrate the 4th of July, hope you have a great day.  Remember if you have furry loved ones to make sure they are secure before the firework displays start.  They have much better hearing than we do!  We’ve already had a lot of dogs and cats running away around here because of the loud noises.

http://www.wafb.com/story/38566600/vets-warn-pet-owners-about-fireworks-shows-4th-of-july

BATON ROUGE, LA (WAFB) –

Before you shoot off fireworks over the Independence Day holiday, think about your pets.

RELATED: Where you can and can’t shoot off fireworks

Doctors with the LSU Veterinary School of Medicine are warning owners about the dangers of fireworks shows. They say pets like dogs, cats, and livestock have enhanced hearing and are easily startled by the loud noises.

“They have very sensitive hearing, so it’s a lot harder for them to hear and see that than it is for us,” said Dr. Nancy Welborn. “And they don’t know it’s coming, so it’s scary. So the best thing, one, is never take pets to a fireworks show.”

Dr. Welborn says pets will run off and can get lost. She says it’s best to let your pet find a safe spot inside and stay there until the show is over.

“My dog, my personal dog, he hides in a closet, and it’s dark in there. I kind of close the door and he’s fine,” Dr. Welborn said. “They can pick their spot where they want to be.”

Dr. Welborn recommends that if you pet is overly anxious, you consider medication to relieve stress. But you must consult your veterinarian before administering any kind of drug.

Also, make sure your pet has a collar. Microchips are even better, because then you can easily track your pet if they get scared and run off.

Doctors also say you need to keep livestock in mind. Horses and cattle are easily startled, so if you are about to start a fireworks show, make sure it’s a safe distance away from any livestock.

Copyright 2018 WAFB. All rights reserved.

28 June 2018 For You

Hello to you.  Just a quick note.  I hope you can make out the picture from this morning.  I like to draw when there is shade on that side of the house so my pictures don’t come out as bright as I’d like.  I tried doing a trick with a metal tray like in The Fifth Element movie – “Aziz Light!”  – but it didn’t work lool.

The Fifth Element – Aziz Light!

An important thing I keep having to remember is when I do things like my drawings, this blog or whatever to do it for myself first.  I have to check my motivation for doing things.  There have been times in my life when I have done things for others expecting something in return and all I got out of the deal was a resentment!  My husband has taught me during the course of our marriage the important lesson of living without expectations.   If you are going to do something, make sure you are doing it for the right reasons.

 

Life is short and we have not too much time
for gladdening the hearts of those
who are traveling the dark way with us.
Oh, be swift to love! Make haste to be kind.

henri-frederic amiel – 1885

 

My Aunt shared this video on Facebook and I loved it so much I shared it too!  Sharing it here for my animal lovers in case you haven’t seen it.  This video is good for your heart!

Therapy Pets

21 May 2018 Breaking down walls

20 May 2018 – we had some wonderful rain. God cleaned off my canvas 🙂

Reading this first thing this morning helped me a lot.   What if this message could transcend all the barriers we put up to separate ourselves from each other?!  What if this message could transcend and eventually melt tools people use to harm one another into playgrounds and places that would bring us together in peace?  May be some day.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/pope-francis-tells-gay-man-god-made-you-like-that/ar-AAxzTp8

Describing his encounter with the Pope to CNN, Cruz said: “You know Juan Carlos, that does not matter. God made you like this. God loves you like this. The Pope loves you like this and you should love yourself and not worry about what people say.”

19 May 2018 – what happens when you don’t go to a professional to go blonde LOL!  I am working on finding my way through the darkness I’ve been in.  I’m so grateful for my family (two and four legged) and dear friends who love me no matter how wild it gets. 

 

6 18 9 5 14 4 19

F R I E N D S = 75 (3 cycle)

6 1 13 9 12 25

F A M I L Y = 66 (3 cycle)

2 5 12 15 22 5 4

7 18 1 20 5 6 21 12

G R A T E F U L = 90 (9 cycle)

B E L O V E D = 65

19 16 9 18 9 20 21 1 12 9 20 25

S P I R I T U A L I T Y = 179

2 12 15 14 4 5

B L O N D E = 52

Yesterday I got a little teary thinking about my dogs and cats.  It’s because I was feeling overwhelmed by all the art and writings I have through the house.  Dogs and cats are so simple.  What do they leave behind by way of material things but a collar, a leash and a few toys?  What matters the most is what they leave in my heart….so much love and gratitude!  Intangible things you can’t hold on to with your hands!   I found the actual story where a vet shares a beautiful story and explanation from a little boy about why dogs don’t live as long as humans.

http://blog.nilesanimalhospital.com/2011/10/normal-0-false-false-false.html

Why Dogs Don’t Live as Long as Humans

A four year old child’s wisdom

(From the internet….author unknown)

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten year old Irish wolfhound, named Belker. The dog’s owners, Ron, his wife Lisa and their little boy Shane were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer.

I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog. Ron and Lisa told me that they thought it would be good for the four year old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker’s family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few moments, Belker slipped away peacefully. The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker’s death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives. Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, “I know why.” Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I never had heard a more comforting explanation.

He said, “People are born so that they learn how to live a good life – like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?” The four year old continued, “Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.”

Posted by Peter Sakas at 7:57 AM