8 Dec 2017 Old town visit, Jan Ingenhousz (Photosynthesis), Attorney General Jeff Sessions and his interns, CRISPR-Cas9 (Gene editing) and Our Father (prayer)

Hello to you. How are you this morning? I am on my second cup of coffee as I write to you….another night of poor sleep. Kyle says that after the Vet’s office calls us to collect May’s ashes and we bring them home, may be I’ll be able to rest. I’ll admit I do keep listening for her voice. Last night before bed I did a drawing and she was definitely there in my thoughts as I did it:

7 Dec 2017 – Drawing I did before bed last night. Missing our May kitty.

Yesterday afternoon I went to our town square to see if one of the shops, Indians and Outlaws (https://www.facebook.com/Indiansandoutlaws) in particular, still had some of the home-made soaps I bought last year.  Kyle’s youngest brother just loved the lemon soaps.  The shop owner, Brian and I had another one of our far-reaching spiritual talks.  He told me he loves it when I come in there because of the discussions we get into.  As we talked he was saying it was funny how many things we were talking about overlapped with conversations he had just had with other people.  I love it when that happens!  He reminds me of my Dad’s brother Uncle John when he was younger.  He could be family!  Part of our conversation before I bought the soaps, was about our physical bodies just being earthly vessels – Brian’s words and I really liked that way of saying what we both believe.  These bodies are just earthly vessels.  We both also feel like Jesus never left us – just became part of us all.

7 Dec 2017 – it was cold after I got back from talking to Brian but I was so inspired I did this drawing.

After spending time with Brian, I walked down to Alvarado Crafts, Gifts and Collectibles to see how everyone was doing in there: (https://www.facebook.com/Alvarado-Gifts-and-Collectibles-147253735447257/ or  http://lloop27.wixsite.com/alvarado-gifts)

Snowflakes had started to fall, which was surprising to us all!  Apparently Brian and Mr. Davis had a friendly wager going on between them about that the day before!  I was sad to find out that the owner’s mother-in-law Darlene son Michael wasn’t doing very well.  It sounded like they weren’t sure if he would be with us much longer.  Michael suffers from muscular dystrophy.  They lost his brother recently from the same condition.  The two boys had shared the same room for 12 years.  I can only imagine how lonely it must be for Michael without his brother who probably understood him better than anyone on this earth.  My prayers are with these folks.  It’s tough to face such things, especially during a time of year that is supposed to be happy.

So this mornings post title and subject matter may seem oddly patched together. It started with my seeing Google celebrating the 287th birthday of the Dutch physiologist, biologist and chemist named Jan Ingenhousz. I didn’t remember hearing about him so when I looked and saw he was responsibly for the discovery of photosynthesis in plants, I had to know more!

http://time.com/5055533/jan-ingenhousz-google-doodle-photosynthesis-plants/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jan_Ingenhousz

Jan Ingenhousz or Ingen-Housz FRS (8 December 1730 – 7 September 1799) was a Dutch physiologist, biologist and chemist. He is best known for discovering photosynthesis by showing that light is essential to the process by which green plants absorb carbon dioxide and release oxygen.[1][2][3] He also discovered that plants, like animals, have cellular respiration.[4] In his lifetime he was best known for successfully inoculating the members of the Habsburg family in Vienna against smallpox in 1768 and subsequently being the private counsellor and personal physician to the Austrian Empress Maria Theresa.[5]

As I perused the news headlines, I was curious to see what happened with Attorney General Jeff Sessions and his interns. It turned out there was “plant-related” discussion, about cannabis (Marijuana) in particular (see the actual video by using the link):

http://www.businessinsider.com/interns-confront-jeff-sessions-on-police-brutality-gun-control-marijuana-2017-12

Justice Department interns confronted Jeff Sessions over police brutality, gun control, and marijuana

Michelle Mark

Justice Department interns posed tough questions to Attorney General Jeff Sessions during an event over the summer, newly published video shows.

Sessions told one intern that “other places in the country” have different views regarding excessive use-of-force from police officers.

He told another that marijuana is not a healthy substance.

Attorney General Jeff Sessions was grilled by Justice Department interns over the summer about contentious issues like police violence and marijuana legalization, an internal video obtained by ABC News shows.

During the private event, one intern asked Sessions about Philando Castile and Michael Brown, two black men killed in recent years by police officers who were not convicted for the fatal shootings.

“I grew up in one of these communities,” the intern said. “I grew up in the projects to a single mother. And the people who we are afraid of are not necessarily our neighbors but the police.”

Sessions, appearing frustrated, replied, “Well, that may be the view in Berkeley, but it’s not the view in other places in the country.”

“I hear you, I hear you,” Sessions continued. “We’ve got a situation where we need to confront violent crime in America in cities that have abandoned traditional police activities, like Baltimore and Chicago. Murder rates have surged, particularly in poor neighborhoods.”

Sessions went on to say that the Justice Department is committed to defending Americans’ civil rights and would prosecute police officers who violate them.

Coincidentally, the video’s release occurred on the same day as the sentencing of former South Carolina police officer Michael Slager, who will serve 20 years in prison for fatally shooting Walter Scott in the back as he fled a traffic stop in April 2015. Slager pleaded guilty in May to federal civil rights violations.

A Justice Department spokeswoman said Thursday that Sessions’ discussion with the interns was intended to give students the opportunity “to have robust conversation — even debates — about the challenges facing our country with the attorney general.”

‘Marijuana is not a healthy substance’

Another intern posed a fiery question comparing marijuana deaths to gun deaths, remarking that the latter was more statistically significant.

“Since guns kill more people than marijuana, why lax laws on one and harsh laws on the other?” she said.

Sessions responded that the question was one of “apples and oranges” and asked whether she was aware of the Second Amendment.

“I intend to defend that Second Amendment. It’s as valid as the First Amendment. So that’s my basic philosophical view about it,” he said. “Look, there’s this view that marijuana is harmless and it does no damage. I believe last year was the first year that automobile accidents that occurred were found to have been caused more by drugs than by alcohol.”

He went on to say that “marijuana is not a healthy substance, in my opinion,” arguing that the American Medical Association is “crystal clear on that.” When Sessions asked the intern whether she believed that point, the intern responded, “I don’t.”

“Okay, so Dr. Whatever Your Name Is, you can write to AMA to see why they think otherwise,” Sessions said.

I don’t entirely agree with the Attorney General either and found his reply to the intern rather rude. A few pro’s and con’s about Marijuana:

http://www.cannabissearch.com/articles/pros-vs-cons-of-marijuana/

Pros vs. Cons of Cannabis

There are many great things that cannabis has to offer, both as a medicine and a potentially legal drug in the future. On the other end of the spectrum, there are a few negative aspects about this medication. Under current federal law, the Controlled Substances Act classifies marijuana is classified as a Schedule I substance. This is means that the U.S. government feels that there are no accepted medical benefits, it has a high potential for abuse and is unsafe for use even under medical supervision. As of now, 16 states and territories currently permit medical marijuana use for patients with legitimate prescriptions for the substance. The following will chronicle both the pros and cons of medical marijuana use, as well as legalization.

Pros

Despite the fact that the government has classified cannabis as a Schedule I substance, it has been proven that marijuana is helpful in the treatment of many medical ailments, ranging from cancer to anxiety. One of the main reasons many feel that marijuana is still illegal is because of the minimal amount of effort the government has put into testing its medicinal value. Were cannabis to be legalized, it would be easier for scientists to conduct tests proving marijuana’s effectiveness as a medication. Another positive outcome of legalization would be the immense amount of jobs it would generate for people such as Oaksterdam graduates. Taxing marijuana (like we now do with alcohol) would also assist in maintaining a steadier economy. In California, medical marijuana generates over $14 billion per year. Ironically, the United States government spends an estimated $10 billion per year trying to rid the streets and dispensaries of marijuana. Imagine how much more revenue would be generated if you could purchase it at a convenience store.

Cancer patients and/or those undergoing chemotherapy find medical marijuana extremely helpful in reducing vomiting, nausea and increasing appetite. Most of these patients are taking enough heavy-duty medications as it is, and rather than take one more for appetite increase (that often doesn’t work), they turn to medicinal marijuana. Also, prior to undergoing potentially worrisome treatments or doctor visits, these patients will find that using medical marijuana prior to these trips can relieve much stress, tension and anxiety. AIDS patients also find this medication helpful in increasing appetite and maintaining some muscle mass.

Shown to provide relief for those suffering from pain and muscle spasms associated with epilepsy and multiple sclerosis (MS), cannabis also helps with chronic pain and depression. Many patients with severe and chronic pain are prescribed medical marijuana, especially those who do not wish to take such “hard” drugs as Oxycontin or Vicodin. There are many more medical ailments that cannabis is capable of treating, including migraines, glaucoma, insomnia, asthma, anorexia, as an alcohol substitute and even ADHD/ADD.

Cons

While exceptionally helpful in treating a wide array of medical problems, as with an medication, is has side-effects. Ingesting cannabis slows the motor skills and reaction time, can sometimes cause paranoia and mood swings, fatigue and increased appetite, while under its effect. Long-term effects of marijuana use include memory loss, confusion and/or a delayed thought-process, blockage of blood vessels and can lead to lung cancer if continuously smoked (not vaporized or eaten). It can also cause loss of motivation, cramps and rarely diarrhea.

Then the path I’m on this morning lead to an article about how Scientists are playing with DNA again. In my mind, this next leading connects back to plants, to the “first” creations of the force, the “God” that created all of existence.  This article is yet another, of too many examples of  how humans insist on continuing to muck around in creation.  Sometimes it seems to me they do it more for  personal glory and profit than for humanitarian aims:

http://www.latimes.com/science/sciencenow/la-sci-sn-crispr-gene-expression-20171207-story.html

Scientists use CRISPR to turn genes on without editing their DNA

The revolutionary gene editing tool CRISPR-Cas9 is best-known for helping scientists edit a strand of DNA more precisely and efficiently than ever before.

Now, researchers have demonstrated another use for the CRISPR complex: changing what genes are expressed without altering the genome itself.

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What this looks like is yet another money-making scheme. Rather than a cure we get another, more expensive treatment option. There will more than likely be the Elysium movie version of such a treatment (for the wealthy) and the rest of us will most likely only have the repeated treatments option like we currently do to “treat” cancer, diabetes, heart disease and other common ailments:

“Our final goal is treatment of disease, so we want to make sure this technique is really working,” Hatanaka said.

Komor said the work is exciting, but she noted that the end result would be a disease treatment, rather than a cure.

“So a patient would likely require repeated treatments depending on the particular disease,” she said.

For example (lead to this article next); could this CRISPR “treatment” potentially cure the incurable Alzheimers disease? Or would it ultimately just be like what is going on in the realms of cancer, diabetes, heart disease and other chronic diseases? Kyle and I suspect one of the reasons Bernie Sander’s proposal for healthcare for all Americans (https://berniesanders.com/issues/medicare-for-all/) hasn’t taken hold and been approved is because it would not be in the financial interests of the pharmaceutical industry.   Would we see more cures if there was no profit to be made from long-term “treatments?”

https://www.nbcnews.com/health/health-news/new-estimate-says-46-million-americans-headed-alzheimer-s-n827456

New estimate says 46 million Americans headed to Alzheimer’s

by Maggie Fox

Close to 50 million Americans could be in the early stages leading to Alzheimer’s disease right now, according to a new forecast.

And 6 million people likely have it now, the team at the University of California Los Angeles calculated.

The forecast is based on a lot of supposition as well as some hard data, but it’s the best estimate of how badly Alzheimer’s will affect the country in the coming years, said Keith Fargo of the Alzheimer’s Association, who was not involved in the research.

Finally lead to prayer. I know from my own personal experience that when people I love and care about are sick or dying I pray to the God of my understanding. There was this headline today:

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/pope-francis-wants-to-change-line-of-our-father/ar-BBGnr4G?OCID=ansmsnnews11

Pope Francis wants to change line of ‘Our Father’

Pope Francis has suggested he wants to make a change to The Lord’s Prayer, widely known among the faithful as the “Our Father.”

Specifically, the Catholic leader said in an interview Wednesday he would prefer to adjust the phrase “lead us not into temptation,” saying that it too strongly suggested that God leads people to sin.

“That is not a good translation,” the pope said, according to Reuters.

The phrase “do not let us fall into temptation,” which the Catholic Church in France has previously decided to use, would be a more appropriate alternative, Francis said.

He added that the phrase used by the French, or similar wording, should then be implemented around the globe.

The prayer originated from Jesus’s language of Aramaic. It was then translated to ancient Greek, and later to Latin.

The pope earlier this week weighed in on President Trump’s announcement that the U.S. recognized Jerusalem as the capital of Israel and would aim to move its embassy there from Tel Aviv.

Francis said he was “profoundly concerned” and appealed that “everyone respects the status quo of the city.”

The Associated Press contributed to this report.

In my curiosity to see if there was something official on the Vatican site, I found this which coincides in the date timeframe of the final article I’m linking:

http://w2.vatican.va/content/francesco/en/cotidie/2013/documents/papa-francesco-cotidie_20130620_our-father.html

POPE FRANCIS

MORNING MEDITATION IN THE CHAPEL OF THE
DOMUS SANCTAE MARTHAE

Pray Our Father

Thursday, 20 June 2013

(by L’Osservatore Romano, Weekly ed. in English, n. 26, 26 June 2013)

There is no need to fritter away words in order to pray: the Lord knows what we want to say to him. The important thing is that our first word be “Father”. Jesus’ advice to the Apostles was what Pope Francis, in turn, offered during the homily at Mass on Thursday morning, 20 June, in the Chapel of the Domus Sanctae Marthae. Concelebrating, among others, was Cardinal Zenon Grocholewski, Prefect of the Congregation for Catholic Education, who was accompanied by some staff from the dicastery.

Thus the Pontiff repeated Jesus’ advice to the Apostles when he gave them the Our Father, according the Evangelist Matthew’s account (6:7-15). In order to pray, there is no need to make noise or believe that that it is better to use more words. There is no need to trust in noise, the noise of worldliness which Jesus pointed out, “to sound the trumpet” or “making oneself seen while fasting”. To pray, the Holy Father repeated, there is no need to heap up empty phrases: Jesus called this a characteristic of pagans.

Pope Francis went further, confirming that prayer must not be considered a magic formula: “Praying is not something magic; one doesn’t practice magic with prayer”. As he often does, he recounted his personal experience. He said that he never turned to sorcerers who promise magic; rather he knew what happened in meetings of this sort: many words are used to obtain “healing one time and at another time something else” with the help of magic. However, he warned, “this is pagan”.

So how should we pray? Jesus has taught us: “he says that the Father who is in heaven ‘knows what you need before you ask him”. Therefore, let our first word be “’Father’. This is the key to prayer. Without speaking, without feeling this word, praying is not possible”, the Bishop of Rome explained. Then he asked: “To whom do I pray? The almighty God? He is too far away. I don’t feel him; neither did Jesus feel him. To whom do I pray? The God of the cosmos? This is quite frequent nowadays, isn’t it? Praying to the cosmic God. This polytheistic model comes with a superficial culture”.

Rather, we must “pray to the Father”, who begot us. But this is not all: we must pray “our” Father, that is, not the Father of a generic and too anonymous “all”, but the One “who begot you, who gave you life, who gave life to you and me”.

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I don’t agree with everything here, to me the term Father is exclusive and paternalistic. I have a loving Father AND Mother and that is not the case for many people on this planet. There are many people who hate their parents and to inject these terms into their prayers often keeps them off prayer altogether. Turns them away from any concept of God altogether.

I believe masculine and feminine energy of creation applies in “heaven” as on earth. I have learned to pray like supposedly Jesus did when he talked to the God of his understanding which it is written was his Father, “Not as I would have it, but as you would have it. Whatever is for the greatest, most loving good for this (person, place or situation.” Then I let it go. I agree with the Pope that when you use too many words or place too many conditions in your prayers you seldom if ever get an discernable answer.

I was curious to see if there would be any articles like this to back up my theories here as to why so many people have turned away from organized religions and was lead to this article:

https://www.npr.org/2013/01/15/169342349/more-young-people-are-moving-away-from-religion-but-why

More Young People Are Moving Away From Religion, But Why?

January 15, 20133:21 AM ET

Heard on Morning Edition

NPR Staff

Rigoberto Perez (from left), Kyle Simpson and Miriam Nissly participated in a roundtable discussion about religion with NPR’s David Greene at the Sixth & I Historic Synagogue.

Coburn Dukehart/NPR

One-fifth of Americans are religiously unaffiliated — higher than at any time in recent U.S. history — and those younger than 30 especially seem to be drifting from organized religion. A third of young Americans say they don’t belong to any religion.

NPR’s David Greene wanted to understand why, so he gathered a roundtable of young people at a synagogue in Washington, D.C. The 6th & I Historic Synagogue seemed like the right venue: It’s both a holy and secular place that has everything from religious services to rock concerts. Greene speaks with six people — three young women and three young men — all struggling with the role of faith and religion in their lives.

Interview Highlights

Miriam Nissly, 29, was raised Jewish and considers herself Jewish with an “agnostic bent.” She loves going to synagogue.

“I realize maybe there’s a disconnect there — why are you doing it if you don’t necessarily have a belief in God? But I think there’s a cultural aspect, there’s a spiritual aspect, I suppose. I find the practice of sitting and being quiet and being alone with your thoughts to be helpful, but I don’t think I need to answer that question [about God] in order to participate in the traditions I was brought up with.”

Yusuf Ahmad, 33, raised Muslim, is now an atheist. His doubts set in as a child with sacred stories he just didn’t believe.

“Like the story of Abraham — his God tells him to sacrifice his son. Then he takes his son to sacrifice him, and he turns into a goat. I remember growing up, in like fifth [or] sixth grade I’d hear these stories and be like, ‘That’s crazy! Why would this guy do this? Just because he heard a voice in his head, he went to sacrifice his son and it turned into a goat?’ There’s no way that this happened. I wasn’t buying it.

“Today if some guy told you that ‘I need to sacrifice my son because God told me to do it,’ he’d be locked up in a crazy institution.”

Kyle Simpson, 27, raised Christian. He has a tattoo on the inside of his wrist that says “Salvation from the cross” in Latin.

“It’s a little troublesome now when people ask me. I tell them and they go, ‘Oh, you’re a Christian,’ and I try to skirt the issue now. They go, ‘What does that mean?’ and it’s like, “It’s Latin for ‘I made a mistake when I was 18.’

“When I first got the tattoo I remember thinking, ‘Oh, this will be great because when I’m having troubles in my faith I will be able to look at it, and I can’t run away from it.’ And that is exactly what is happening.

“I don’t [believe in God] but I really want to. That’s the problem with questions like these is you don’t have anything that clearly states, ‘Yes, this is fact,’ so I’m constantly struggling. But looking right at the facts — evolution and science — they’re saying, no there is none. But what about love? What about the ideas of forgiveness? I like to believe they are true and they are meaningful.

“I think having a God would create a meaning for our lives, like we’re working toward a purpose — and it’s all worthwhile because at the end of the day we will maybe move on to another life where everything is beautiful. I love that idea.”

Melissa Adelman, 30, raised Catholic

“Starting in middle school we got the lessons about why premarital sex was not OK, why active homosexuality was not OK, and growing up in American culture, kids automatically pushed back on those things, and so we had some of those conversations in school with our theology teachers. The thing for me — a large part of the reason I moved away from Catholicism was because without accepting a lot of these core beliefs, I just didn’t think that I could still be part of that community.

“I remember a theology test in eighth grade where there was a question about homosexuality, and the right answer was that if you are homosexual, then that is not a sin because that’s how God made you, but acting upon it would be a sin. That’s what I put down as the answer, but I vividly remember thinking to myself that that was not the right answer.”

Rigoberto Perez, 30, raised as Seventh-day Adventist

“It was a fairly important part of our lives. It was something we did every Saturday morning. We celebrate the Sabbath on Saturday. It was pretty hard growing up in a lot of ways. We didn’t have a lot of money, the household wasn’t very stable a lot of the time, so when something bad would happen, say a prayer, go to church. When my mom got cancer the first time, it was something that was useful at the time for me as a coping mechanism.

“While I was younger, my father drank a lot. There was abuse in the home. My brother committed suicide in 2001. So at some point you start to say, ‘Why does all this stuff happen to people?’ And if I pray and nothing good happens, is that supposed to be I’m being tried? I find that almost kind of cruel in some ways. It’s like burning ants with a magnifying glass. Eventually that gets just too hard to believe anymore.”

Lizz Reeves, 23, raised by a Jewish mother and a Christian father. She lost a brother to cancer.

“I wanted so badly to believe in God and in heaven, and that’s where he was going. I wanted to have some sort of purpose and meaning associated with his passing. And ultimately the more time I spent thinking about it, I realized the purpose and meaning of his life had nothing to do with heaven, but it had to do with how I could make choices in my life that give his life meaning. And that had a lot more weight with me than any kind of faith in anything else.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

6 Dec 2017 Link, Map like a blanket (dream) and I-7 (Genesis)

Hello to you in your here and now.  It’s 3:36 am on this cold Wednesday morning here as I start to write to you.  How are you?  Kyle and I are all off schedule lately.  We’ve been going to bed at like 7 and getting up at 1 or 2 in the morning.  I know some of it has to do with May’s passing and our processing grief over that but also it’s probably the season’s change in lightness and darkness, the weather and things like that.  We have learned to just go with it and get rest when we can!  Since a  young age I’ve been a person who takes naps.  When I was younger,  it was usually after I ate and the carb crash thing but now it’s that, side effects to my medication and just getting older.  My battery needs more frequent recharges lol.

I am blessed to have a Link who is always up for a nap!

6 Dec 2017 – Link this morning snuggling in a small version of one of my fleece blankets. I like making blankets for our “kids” – they just love them as much as people do.

In a couple of days he is going to be 3 years old!  I will never forget the joy Kyle and I shared meeting him and his brothers Dutch and TJ the first time.  He was so tiny he fit into the palms of our hands.  Holding him them,  I would have never guessed he would grow to be as big as Spot is!

23 Dec 2014 Jackie Spot and Baby Link for his first Christmas Alvarado TX

He was both a Christmas AND Birthday present to me.  We went to Norman Oklahoma for my 47th birthday in 2015 to bring him home.

13 Feb 2015 Kyle and Link after we arrived Tippie in back and his first toy blue monkey in his pocket Norman OK

The past few days I’ve been dreaming a lot but I have been lax about writing them down or trying to remember all of them.  The dream I had last night is just fragments but poignant ones.  There was something about a map being like a blanket and two women, one being me, crying and being/feeling very small like children.  I remember a man thanking me for something.  He was looking at me like a parent looks at their child when they are hurting.  It was very comforting.

In their way, May, Amber, Sam and Blondie have been some of the finest teachers I could ever hope for in this Earth School.

Imagining May enjoying sunshine wherever she is now. 12 Feb 2015 May in the sunshine Alvarado TX 1

5-march-2015-my-sunbeam-kitty-amber-alvarado-tx

22 July 2010 our Sammy smiling.

25 Nov 2010 Blondie and Sam at the kiddie table. Blondie was only with us about a year.

Now Spot and Link continue on with the teachings Kyle and I must learn.  Lessons that only can be learned from beings so close to the source of all things….God.

22-oct-2016-my-two-teachers-and-guides-this-morning-link-and-spot-alvarado-tx

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5 Dec 2017 – I did this drawing yesterday. What came to me was I-7 at first then the number 5982 which I broke down to 3. I was curious to see if there was any correlation to the Bible and I was lead to Genesis. When I look at this I think of a director, a captain of a ship or an engineer. I think of the life force inside of the earth and all it’s manifestations on this earth.

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Genesis+1+&version=NIV

Genesis 1New International Version (NIV)

The Beginning

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness. God called the light “day,” and the darkness he called “night.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day.

And God said, “Let there be a vault between the waters to separate water from water.” So God made the vault and separated the water under the vault from the water above it. And it was so. God called the vault “sky.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the second day.

And God said, “Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place, and let dry ground appear.” And it was so. 10 God called the dry ground “land,” and the gathered waters he called “seas.” And God saw that it was good.

11 Then God said, “Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds.” And it was so. 12 The land produced vegetation: plants bearing seed according to their kinds and trees bearing fruit with seed in it according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good. 13 And there was evening, and there was morning—the third day.

14 And God said, “Let there be lights in the vault of the sky to separate the day from the night, and let them serve as signs to mark sacred times, and days and years, 15 and let them be lights in the vault of the sky to give light on the earth.” And it was so. 16 God made two great lights—the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made the stars. 17 God set them in the vault of the sky to give light on the earth, 18 to govern the day and the night, and to separate light from darkness. And God saw that it was good. 19 And there was evening, and there was morning—the fourth day.

20 And God said, “Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the vault of the sky.” 21 So God created the great creatures of the sea and every living thing with which the water teems and that moves about in it, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to its kind. And God saw that it was good. 22 God blessed them and said, “Be fruitful and increase in number and fill the water in the seas, and let the birds increase on the earth.” 23 And there was evening, and there was morning—the fifth day.

24 And God said, “Let the land produce living creatures according to their kinds: the livestock, the creatures that move along the ground, and the wild animals, each according to its kind.” And it was so. 25 God made the wild animals according to their kinds, the livestock according to their kinds, and all the creatures that move along the ground according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good.

26 Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals,[a] and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”

27 So God created mankind in his own image,
    in the image of God he created them;
    male and female he created them.

28 God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground.”

29 Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food. 30 And to all the beasts of the earth and all the birds in the sky and all the creatures that move along the ground—everything that has the breath of life in it—I give every green plant for food.” And it was so.

31 God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day.

Footnotes:

  1. Genesis 1:26 Probable reading of the original Hebrew text (see Syriac); Masoretic Text the earth

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5 Dec 2017 Blue violin and Crystal Cathedral (drawing), Out of the Blue (Ferry Corsten Classique version Orchestre Cyber France De Paris) and Take on Me (Aha cover by Brooklyn Duo and Ensemble Connect)

Hello to you.  It’s 11:07 am on this very cold and gray North Texas Tuesday morning.  My cold weather tolerance has definitely changed after living here in Texas for going on 9 years!  We finally got some much needed rain overnight and all the drawings of the past few days were washed away…..fresh canvas!  In my continuing journey to process my grief at the departure of our May kitty (a Russian blue) yesterday, what came to me was a blue violin.  May’s favorite color was blue and it’s one of my favorite colors too.  I especially like blue guitars and other instruments.  Some day I may finally purchase a blue guitar but for now my lap harp works!   I was thinking of music from such an instrument being played in between two huge perfectly clear quartz crystals…..like a cathedral.   I had the Lindsey Stirling concert Rhonda and I attended last Friday in my mind too.

I was also thinking of the day before we said good-bye to May.  Kyle and I were taking Spot and Link for the afternoon walk and I finally got the courage and the opportunity to approach my friend Michelle Sullivan’s son Logan.  For quite some time I had it on my heart to ask him if he would like to have some things Michelle and his Dad had given to me before she died but was afraid to do so.  I’m so glad I did!  He and his wife were so happy I asked them!  So the large cobalt blue vase Michelle had given me, a cobalt blue baking dish (one complete and one only a lid – the other dish had exploded in my hands just before Michelle died in Oct 2014), a little blue vase and the Asian woman statue with the broken fingers.  Michelle loved the color blue too, she loved Christmas and she absolutely adored her children and grandchildren.  She and Logan were very close.  I was able to tell Logan how special his Mom was to us.  We loved her and have never stopped missing her!  As I’ve mentioned before.  I feel like I was being gently prepared for May’s departure with all this “blue” going on!

Michelle at Christmas, her favorite holiday

I was also, of course, thinking of “Mr. Blue” aka God (represented by the blue violin here) speaks through music and is carried to all corners of the world to heal broken hearts and bring all different walks of peoples together.

5 Dec 2017 – my blue violin drawing this morning. Thinking of Lindsey Stirling concert Rhonda and I went to, the Red Violin, God, the messengers of music reaching out to all of the world with crystal clarity.

I know there is an actual Crystal Cathedral in existence; I’ve never visited it but it looks like a beautiful structure:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crystal_Cathedral

 Crystal Cathedral
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Crystal Cathedral
Christ Cathedral
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(2007)
Country United States
Denomination Roman Catholic
Previous denomination Reformed Church in America (1980–2012)
Website christcathedralcalifornia.org
History
Founded 1955
Founder(s) Robert H. Schuller
Dedicated 1980
Architecture
Architect(s) Philip Johnson
Style Postmodern architecture
Administration
Diocese Orange

Church interior in 2005

The Crystal Cathedral is a church building of the Roman Catholic Diocese of Orange in Garden Grove, Orange County, California, in the United States. The reflective glass building, designed by postmodern American architect Philip Johnson, seats 2,736 people.[1] The church was “touted as the largest glass building in the world when it was completed in 1981.”[2] The building has one of the largest musical instruments in the world, the Hazel Wright Memorial organ.[3][4][5]

Until 2013, the building had been the principal place of worship for Crystal Cathedral Ministries (now Shepherd’s Grove), a congregation of the Reformed Church in America, founded in 1955 by Robert H. Schuller. Crystal Cathedral Ministries filed for bankruptcy in October 2010 and in February 2012 sold the building and its adjacent campus to the Roman Catholic Diocese of Orange for use as the diocese’s new cathedral. The building, especially the interior, is currently being renovated to accommodate the Roman Catholic liturgy and is due to re-open in early 2019,[6] at which time it is expected to be consecrated and formally renamed Christ Cathedral and become the seat of the Diocese of Orange.[7][8]

History[edit]

Origins and construction[edit]

The Garden Grove Community Church was founded in 1955 by Robert H. Schuller and his wife Arvella.[9] An affiliate of the Reformed Church in America, the church first held services in space rented from the Orange Drive-In Theatre.

In 1961, the congregation moved to a new sanctuary designed by architect Richard Neutra. In 1968, the congregation completed the Tower of Hope to provide office and classroom space but continued growth led to the need for a new facility.[citation needed] Schuller envisioned a unique facility with walls made of glass and commissioned architect Philip Johnson. The design was an outgrowth of Johnson’s reexamination of German expressionist architect Hermann Finsterlin.[10] Construction of the Crystal Cathedral began in 1977 and was completed in 1980, built at a cost of $18 million.[11] The signature rectangular panes of glass comprising the building are not bolted to the structure; they are glued to it using a silicone-based glue. This and other measures are intended to allow the building to withstand an earthquake of magnitude 8.0. The building was constructed using over 10,000 rectangular panes of glass.[12]

Upon moving from the old Neutra sanctuary to the new Johnson sanctuary in 1981, the congregation changed its name to the “Crystal Cathedral” – an alliteration derived from the appearance of the building. In fact, the building was neither made of crystal nor intended to be a true cathedral – that is, a church that houses a bishop‘s official seat (cathedra) – by that congregation. The congregation added the Prayer Spire in 1990.[13]

2010 bankruptcy[edit]

Beginning in 2010, creditors of Crystal Cathedral Ministries filed lawsuits to collect money due to them for providing goods, services and broadcasting The Hour of Power weekly TV show. A board member said that the total debt was $55 million.[14][15]

Prayer Spire in 2009

The church’s board filed for bankruptcy October 18, 2010, citing $43 million in debt including a $36 million mortgage and $7.5 million in other debt. Church officials said that they had been trying to negotiate payments but after several suits were filed and writs of attachment were granted the church had to declare bankruptcy.[16]

The church received offers from a real estate investment group and nearby Chapman University.[17]

Purchase by the Diocese of Orange[edit]

On July 7, 2011, the Roman Catholic Diocese of Orange, which had long been seeking to build a new and larger cathedral in or around Santa Ana, announced that it was “potentially interested” in buying the church campus for future use as its diocesan cathedral.[18] Two weeks later, the diocese increased its initial offer of $50 million to $53.6 million which included a lease-back provision at below market rates for a period of time.[19] On November 17, 2011, a federal judge approved selling the Crystal Cathedral to the Diocese of Orange for $57.5 million.[20]

Days after the judge’s ruling, Italian newspaper La Stampa used a picture of the Crystal Cathedral to illustrate an article reporting on the establishment of a Vatican commission “to put a stop to garage style churches, boldly shaped structures that risk denaturing modern places for Catholic worship.”[21][22] The Vatican approved the use of the building two weeks after the judge’s ruling.[23]

The sale to the diocese was finalized on February 3, 2012. Under the terms, Crystal Cathedral Ministries was allowed to lease most of the campus including the church for up to three years; the diocese offered Crystal Cathedral Ministries a longer-term lease at nearby St. Callistus Church, a parish the diocese later transferred to the Crystal Cathedral campus.[24][25] The transfer of the cemetery located on the campus was immediate, and the diocese established offices on the campus soon after.[25] Tod Brown, Bishop of Orange at the time, stated that the diocese would hire an architect to renovate the interior of the facility “so it will be suitable for a Catholic place of worship”, but does not intend to substantially change the exterior.[26]

The church in 2011

On June 9, 2012, the diocese announced that the new parish would be known as “Christ Cathedral” when it becomes the diocese’s new cathedral,[27] and that Fr. Christopher Smith will be its episcopal vicar.[28] The parish’s new patronal name was designated by the Holy See, while suggestions were also taken from the diocese and its members.[29]

Crystal Cathedral Ministries held its final worship service at the building on June 30, 2013.[30] Thereafter, the congregation held its first service at the nearby Shepherd’s Grove, the campus of the former St. Callistus Church, on July 7, 2013. The new location is 12921 Lewis Street at Garden Grove Boulevard, one mile south of the Crystal Cathedral building. At the same time, St. Callistus Parish was transferred to the Crystal Cathedral campus and began holding Masses there. St. Callistus Catholic school was renamed Christ Cathedral Academy and transferred to the former Crystal Cathedral Academy facility in September 2013.[31] St. Callistus Parish currently holds Masses in the arboretum on the Crystal Cathedral campus until renovation of the main church building is complete. Construction began on June 1, 2017 and is expected to be completed in early 2019.[6] At that time its bishop will solemnly dedicate the former Crystal Cathedral building as Christ Cathedral and St. Callistus parish will assume that name.[32][8]

On September 24, 2014, the diocese released its proposed redesign plans for the building, including extensive changes to the interior intended to make the building more suitable for the “altar-centered” Catholic ritual while retaining some qualities of the original design. Among the changes, the glass walls will be lined with angled “petals” that will reduce the amount of outside light, deemed as being distracting from the altar.[33] At the same time, the petals will include exterior lights to enhance the building’s visibility at night, producing an effect described as a “box of stars”. The route from the parking lot to the plaza will be lined with crape myrtle trees, symbolizing the “beginning” of holiness in progression to the altar. Along with its restoration, the Hazel Wright Organ is expected to be repainted white so that the altar remains the most prominent element of the room.[8][34]

Organ[edit]

The church’s 273 rank, five manual pipe organ is the fifth largest in the world.[5] Constructed by Fratelli Ruffatti and based on specifications by Virgil Fox and expanded by Frederick Swann, the instrument incorporates the large Aeolian-Skinner pipe organ built in 1962 for New York’s Philharmonic Hall (now David Geffen Hall), and the Ruffatti organ which had been installed in the church’s previous sanctuary. Swann was organist at the Crystal Cathedral from 1982 to 1998. Following the Crystal Cathedral’s final Hour of Power in June 2013, the organ was dismantled for a $2 million refurbishing led by Ruffatti;[35][8] it will be re-installed for the building’s planned re-opening as Christ Cathedral in 2019.[6]

See also[edit]

References[edit]

  1. Jump up ^ Rojas, Rick (November 26, 2013). “Catholic Renovation of Crystal Cathedral to Begin”. Los Angeles Times. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  2. Jump up ^ David Ferrell (April 6, 2015). “Crystal Cathedral founder Robert Schuller achieved his vision, but couldn’t sustain it”. Orange County Register. 
  3. Jump up ^ “The World’s Largest Pipe Organs”. TheatreOrgans.com. Archived from the original on December 3, 2013. Retrieved September 15, 2012. 
  4. Jump up ^ Epstein, Benjamin (May 15, 1996). “Crystal Clear Devotion: Cathedral’s Organist Will Be Happy to Solo With Four Seasons Symphony on Home Turf”. Los Angeles Times. 
  5. ^ Jump up to: a b “The Top 20 – The World’s Largest Pipe Organs”. Sacred Classics. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  6. ^ Jump up to: a b c Baharath, Deepa (May 19, 2017). “Diocese picks contractor for Christ Cathedral’s $72 million reconstruction project”. Orange County Register. Retrieved 1 June 2017. 
  7. Jump up ^ Desmond, Joan Frawley (August 19, 2013). “The Crystal Cathedral Becomes Christ Cathedral”. National Catholic Register. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  8. ^ Jump up to: a b c d Esquivel, Paloma (September 24, 2014). “Diocese of Orange unveils planned alterations for former Crystal Cathedral”. Los Angeles Times. Retrieved September 25, 2014. 
  9. Jump up ^ Taxin, Amy (October 18, 2010). “Crystal Cathedral Bankruptcy: Megachurch Files For Chapter 11”. Huffington Post. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  10. Jump up ^ “Da Monsta”. The Glass House. Retrieved 2014-10-03. 
  11. Jump up ^ Lindsey, Robert (May 15, 1980). “Opening of Glass Cathedral Is a Feast for Eyes and Ears”. The New York Times. p. A20. Retrieved March 5, 2010. (Subscription required (help)). 
  12. Jump up ^ “Garden Grove Church”. GreatBuildings.com. 1979. Retrieved April 1, 2015. 
  13. Jump up ^ Smith, Lynn (September 18, 1990). “Garden Grove : Architects Praise Spire at Cathedral”. Los Angeles Times. Retrieved April 1, 2015. 
  14. Jump up ^ “Crystal Cathedral Owes $7.5M To Small Business Owners”. KCBS-TV News. October 16, 2010. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  15. Jump up ^ Bharath, Deepa (May 15, 2014). “Crystal Cathedral, creditors at $7.5 million impasse”. The Orange County Register. Retrieved November 18, 2011. 
  16. Jump up ^ Cathcart, Rebecca (October 18, 2010). “California’s Crystal Cathedral Files for Bankruptcy”. The New York Times. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  17. Jump up ^ Bharath, Deepa (May 26, 2011). “Crystal Cathedral to be sold to pay millions in debt”. The Orange County Register. Retrieved May 27, 2011. 
  18. Jump up ^ Medlin, Marianne (July 8, 2011). “Southern California diocese considers buying Crystal Cathedral”. Catholic News Agency. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  19. Jump up ^ “Orange diocese increases bid for Crystal Cathedral”. National Catholic Reporter. Catholic News Agency. August 15, 2011. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  20. Jump up ^ Taxin, Amy (November 17, 2011). “Judge approves Crystal Cathedral sale to diocese”. The Seattle Times. Associated Press. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  21. Jump up ^ Tornielli, Andrea (November 21, 2011). “New Vatican commission cracks down on church architecture”. La Stampa. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  22. Jump up ^ “Cement cubes, glass boxes, crazy shapes”. California Catholic Daily. November 22, 2011. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  23. Jump up ^ Gibson, David (January 6, 2012). “Some see Crystal Cathedral’s purchase by Catholic diocese as calculated risk”. Baptist Standard. Religion News Service. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  24. Jump up ^ Campbell, Ronald (February 4, 2012). “Crystal Cathedral is sold”. The Orange County Register. p. Local 1. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  25. ^ Jump up to: a b “Diocese of Orange Formally Acquires Crystal Cathedral and Adjacent Campus”. Diocese of Orange. February 3, 2012. Archived from the original on February 4, 2012. 
  26. Jump up ^ Medlin, Marianne (November 30, 2011). “A true miracle!”. California Catholic Daily. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  27. Jump up ^ Palmer, Melissa (June 9, 2012). “Landmark Crystal Cathedral gets a new name – Christ Cathedral”. NBC News. Archived from the original on June 15, 2012. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  28. Jump up ^ “Catholic Diocese of Orange Announces Cathedral Name” (Press release). Diocese of Orange. June 9, 2012. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  29. Jump up ^ Cruz, Nicole Santa (February 3, 2012). “Diocese of Orange officially takes over Crystal Cathedral”. Los Angeles Times. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  30. Jump up ^ Rokhy, Ron (June 30, 2014). “Crystal Cathedral Holds Last Service Before Relocating”. NBC Los Angeles. NBCUnviersal Media, LLC. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  31. Jump up ^ Morino, Douglas (September 9, 2013). “Catholic schoolchildren move into former Crystal Cathedral”. Orange County Register. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  32. Jump up ^ Do, Anh (June 29, 2013). “St. Callistus Catholic Church moves to Crystal Cathedral site”. Los Angeles Times. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
  33. Jump up ^ Hawthorne, Christopher (November 17, 2016). “The Crystal Cathedral redesign: Why tasteful updates add up to architectural disappointment”. Los Angeles Times. Retrieved 21 November 2016. 
  34. Jump up ^ “Redesigned Christ Cathedral: ‘You’ll be able to see it from a long, long way'”. Orange County Register. Retrieved 28 March 2016. 
  35. Jump up ^ Berg, Tom (May 17, 2013). “How will church fix Cathedral’s organ?”. Orange County Register. Retrieved May 15, 2014. 
 A song I found this morning that resonated with the blue violin train of thought:

System F – Out Of The Blue (Classique Version) – System F meets Orchestre Cyber France De Paris

Published on Nov 23, 2009

Out Of The Blue, composed by Ferry Corsten (System F), is one of the most beautiful and representative trance tunes of all the time. The “Classique Version” it’s so different and special, performed by the Orchestre Cyber France De Paris.

 

Take On Me – a-ha – Brooklyn Duo at Carnegie Hall – this interpretation of one of my all time favorite songs made me so happy to hear this morning!

Published on Feb 5, 2017

Take On Me by a-ha, arranged and performed LIVE on cello, piano, and with chamber ensemble by Brooklyn Duo and Ensemble Connect.
WATCH Ensemble Connect musicians play the Brahms Clarinet Trio: http://bit.ly/2kvEqDz —EXPAND for more info!—

I  hope this finds you loving and being loved today. 

4 Dec 2017 Journey in my mind using pieces of glass about May cat’s rainbow bridge crossing

Hello to you.  I wanted to share the meditation/grief and therapy session I had this afternoon about our May transitioning beyond us.  I hope something in what you see here will resonate with your heart somehow.  There is no definitive proof of what happens to what was “us” after we die but I like to think we return to the light….the One..to God.  The actual place, if there is such a thing, where the energy comes from for all of what life on earth is.  Back to what “animates” us so we can begin anew.  For those who have lost loved ones of any kind,  I hope this train of thought here helps you heal.  Much love and light to you.

 

4 Dec 2017 – May’s 2nd birthday was today

Rainbow Bridge Michael Bittick Deviantart.com When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.

Sigh….heavy hearts in our time and space as I write to you.  This morning at about 9:30 am  May had her second birthday and has returned to the God of my understanding.  Where once there was a little skinny gray cat there is now only memories and ether…..our love and gratitude is with her essence.

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Last night I noticed she had blood on her left ear, had been unusually quiet all day and hadn’t eaten anything all day either.  Very concerning.  We decided that we would take her to the Alvarado Veterinary Hospital in the morning and ask for an honest assessment of her condition.  It was a very difficult night for me.  I had a nightmare like I haven’t had in a long time.  I remember my friend Rhonda was in it and something about being dragged away in the dark.  I started screaming in my dream for help which then made it to the real world and woke up Kyle.  I realize it may have been about Amber.  She lost all movement just before she died and I had to carry her to bed in the dark that night.  All she could do was purr.  It was a scary dream.

Morning came early.  I spent some quality time with May.  I talked and sang to her and brushed her very dry, matted hair.  She just loved on me like she always did and purred with gratitude.

The clinic opened around 8:00 am and was hopping when we got there.  The Vet who examined May was Dr. Jeremy R. Mitchell.  Kyle and I really appreciated his being straight-forward and honest about May’s condition…..it was time.  He could tell from his examination that she was suffering renal/kidney failure and was severely dehydrated.  He said he could run some blood tests for her but it wouldn’t really change the outcome.  I had to shake his hand because we both appreciated, more than words can express, his honesty and strength in helping us with this most difficult of all decisions a pet owner has to make.   We are grateful to the entire staff at Alvarado Veterinary that helped us today!  We were so impressed today, we may consider  returning to them once the health plans for Banfield expire.

22 Oct 2016 Our May kitty ruling the cat room now since Amber isn’t there

I won’t go into much else right now…still processing and I need to stay focused on the good of all this….the good that was our May.  I will write more as it comes.

Sweet May….who could purr her way out of just about anything.  The cat who loved to play ball….I would day “ready?” and toss a little ball at her and she’d swat it like a champ.  She was always a very heavy cat until this past year…from nearly 20 lbs to just 7.  We have a funny memory of Kyle trying to get her to lose weight in Delaware by chasing her around the apartment.  Oh she hated that!  She even stopped and hissed at him for that lol!  So many memories stretching all the way back to 1999!  We were together all that time and went through so much!

Even with how poorly she was feeling in that office, she loved on both Kyle and I before it was time to go.  She, like every animal I have had the honor to share a life with, teaching me…modeling for me….grace all the way to the end of her story.

I feel like the days leading up to this were God’s way of preparing me….May’s favorite color was Blue.   “Mr. Blue” aka God was very much in my recent drawings and thoughts.

May in 2007 when we lived in Newark DE.

3 Dec 2017 – this picture holds even more meaning for me. We had to make a very difficult choice today.

https://pets.webmd.com/cats/kidney-failure-uremia-symptoms-cats#1 – 

Kidney Failure in Cats – some information about what May was experiencing.  Every cat I’ve had has gone through problems with their kidneys.  My first cat, Kiki, actually died from kidney failure.

This is the song I sang to May as she transitioned on.  I think of it as her , Amber, Blondie and Sam’s message of comfort to Kyle and I about the most difficult part of our shared journey here on earth….being tangibly parted by death.  It’s comforting to think that it’s only temporary….”til we see each other again.  A little different but much the same.”

Marilla Ness – Be not afraid.

A song my friend Cindy shared with me after we lost Amber last year.

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amber-and-may-when-i-lived-in-base-housing-at-peterson-afb-they-were-probably-a-year-old

Old Black Cat – Ian Anderson

25 Oct 2017 Sunlamp drawing at night and David (dream)

Hello to you.  It’s Wednesday morning and nice and cool outside.  Think I heard there might even be a possible freeze?!  There are any number of things going on in my head thinking about that, chuckling a bit, considering Trump Jr. was here yesterday (https://www.texasobserver.org/donald-trump-jr-university-of-north-texas/) yesterday.  I’ll keep the quips to myself.

So I decided to go out back with my sunlamp last night and draw a bit.  I was rewarded.  A couple of inquisitive winged visitors came and posed for me.  I imagine it’s quite curious to them that a fragment of sunlight should be shining in the darkness!  They didn’t act like they do when the regular outdoor lights are on….they were calm.  It was fun for me to get some practice sketching of live subjects.  One moth came to see what I was doing and did a little posing.  Landed on my leg for a bit then flew away for awhile.  They came back a bit later to inspect my rather shoddy rendering of them lol.  They walked around on the drawing like Link and Spot do or when Amber used to inspect my work and they seemed to say to me, “You need ALOT more practice” before disappearing back into the night.  If you pay attention and mind your energy, you can have such interactions with insects.

Communication is more than just what you can see, it’s your internal energy fluctuations as well.  This is something I’ve learned from trying to understand insects and other life forms I share the planet with.   The first person who really helped me understand this concept with regards to communicating with dogs was Cesar Millan, The Dog Whisperer.

I had a really fun dream last night.  I dreamt I got to be with and talk to David Bowie again.  It was like I was a time traveler.  When I was first with him he was looking like Ziggy Stardust.  I was telling him there was something that could be done for a skin condition he had.  He was really pale.  I told him there were things I couldn’t tell him (I guess this was almost having a lucid moment in the dream realizing the responsibility of time travelers not to mess with the time line) but I told him he would be handsome.  As I said that, he morphed from looking like Ziggy to how he looked in the 1990’s but more of a beefcake version of himself then.  He put on a silly face and said, “I’ll look like this?”

Dreams like this help me.  Sometimes I’ll be outside and look up at the sky and ask where David and everyone I’ve ever loved and lost go.  Kind of like in the movie about Temple Grandin and she has witnesses the euthanasia of a horse and asks, “Where did it go?!”  Everywhere…..they go anywhere and everywhere.  I believe when the spark of God, the energy within us can no longer survive in our body, this energy we were rejoins the God of my understanding, energy, until taking on a new form.

https://pamboyd.wordpress.com/tag/temple-grandin/

Temple Grandin

Where Did It Go?

Right before my sister’s body convulsed in the terrible grip of death, I received a gift from her learning-challenged son. He had been with me at her hospice bedside saying goodbye. After asking his mother to say hello to Elvis for him in heaven (which even garnered a wisp of a smile from her solemn, sedated face), he gave me his mother’s hand and said, “She’s gone. God took her with Him. Couldn’t you feel God here in the room?”

His confidence that she was no longer in that body has saved me from reliving the strange savagery of her end…over and over again.

I was reminded of this mystery of our souls’ departure by Temple Grandin’s story of Autism and her sensitivity to the death of animals. When the body of a euthanized horse collapsed, limp and empty, she asked about the spirit, “Where did it go?” 

Also in Elizabeth J. Church’s words about the heroin’s father’s death in The Atomic Weight of Love: “Where did all of that energy go? What happened to the bounty of his being, his love for us, for me?”

It’s an important observance and question. Those who see a bit differently often see more than the rest of us.

 

 

 

 

 

9 Oct 2017 In the moment, Poem (California on fire again) and revisiting the past (can be painful!)

9 Oct 2017 – drawing I did today…The Amnesiac’s. I was thinking about how it seems like we keep forgetting things that are important.

Hello to you.  It’s Monday evening as I start to write to you.  How was the day you just lived today?  How are you doing in this moment?  What is everything in your “now?”  For me it’s drinking coffee that is a tad bitter but I’ll keep drinking it because I don’t want to waste it.  Link and Spot are on edge because I was just outside and rang the doorbell like an asshole after walking Kyle out and looking for gecko’s….only found one.  Ever since we put up the new siding…less gecko’s.  May is meowling again about who knows what and it drives me crazy….sounds like a baby crying.  Almost impossible for me to ignore her even if I try.  I am in no physical pain, comfortable temperature and there is an annoying smudge on my glasses again.  I hear the random pinging of raindrops on our metal siding which is a good thing.  I’m grateful for this moment I am in and grateful to have this cyber place in which to express my random “stuff.”  I’m grateful for whoever you are reading this, for your taking a moment from your busy world to visit me.

I have some quiet time to myself so this is going to be long lol.  I’ve finally resolved to myself that brevity is never going to be my thing lol!  If you don’t have time right now, please come back when you can.  There is something for you here. 

Yeah…..so I wrote this little poem today.  It’s not positive, complicated or even very eloquent….just one of those poems that started to come in while I was doing something else and I jotted it down.  Then I saw on the news later that California is burning even more so than normal…..sigh.  (http://www.cnn.com/2017/10/09/us/california-fires/index.htmlFast-moving wildfires kill 10, spur evacuations in Northern California By Ralph Ellis, Joe Sterling, Paul P. Murphy and Eliott C. McLaughlin, CNN Updated 7:48 PM ET, Mon October 9, 2017)

9 Oct 2017 – Jackie Wygant poem

I hate you

You hate me

I hate me

So it goes

Through our family tree

Barren seed in fallow soil

A life

Of blood, sweat and toil

Where is the love we once knew?

Is it only ember and ash now

Against the darkening red, white and blue?

It’s weird sometimes the random things that I will pick up and they end up in poems, writings and my art.  Guess that’s the way it’s always worked for me.

Today I found something out about myself.  It’s now not an easy thing for me to look at pictures from the past….just as bad as reading my old journals.

Kyle was sleeping and the internet was off so I decided to take a trip down memory lane and look at some old photos from 2009 when we still lived in Newark DE and some since we’ve been here.  This turned me into a mass of sobbing wet tears.  What happened that really set me off was I saw video I had taken of our kitty Amber when she was still here and our Spot during one of the visits from the squirrel.  The furniture in our house was different.  We still had the pergola which the squirrel has sorely missed since its removal.  We still had our old back fence!  In just a short little video I saw how much time had gone by and all that was changed….missing.

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Part of my current resentment at our remaining cat May is May has never loved me like Amber did and she’s still alive and Amber isn’t!  It’s so hard for me to get over that!  Amber was the kind of cat that was more like a dog than a cat in her personality and behavior.  She got that way after we got our cocker spaniel Sam.  She was smart enough to figure out that if she was going to get any time with me she had to become more like a dog.  So she did!  Amber was a big part of my heart.  I used to hold her when she’d come visit me on the toilet and just hold her and start crying I loved her so much.

Yeah…..but I think Amber has found her ways, through perhaps the ashes we spread about the yard, to find her way back to me.  Whether it be a positive or negative insect interaction…..sometimes it seems very personal lol.  Like a fragment of Amber making herself known to me whether it be a fire ant bite or a butterfly randomly flittering through my hair.  Amber isn’t the Amber I knew….she’s much more and that comforts me some.  It’s just when I go back looking for what she was and isn’t anymore that hurts so bad.

What happened to me today reminds me that we must be careful going back for what we have lost.  We can be reminded how much it hurts that we can never get any of it back.  Even if we can get something back from our past,  it can never be exactly as it was.  Kind of like it was for me after joining the military and going home to visit.  I wasn’t the same person even if the people and places I left behind were much the same.  Going backwards on anything can sometimes open wounds that had finally closed.  I am reminded of this today.  Sometimes I go back to things better left in the past.

I don’t want to forget the past ever happened.  I don’t want to forget the people, animals, places and things that made me the me I am now.  I just really had it hit me today looking at those old pictures and videos that I don’t want to emotionally torture myself in my present with facts  and parts of history that are fixed….set….unchangeable.

There will never be another cat exactly like Amber in my life.  There will never be the exact version of any other person, animal, place or thing that I loved after they have left this physical world or been destroyed.  For as long as I live and can retain my memory, they will exist in my mind, heart and even my soul.  Even fragments of their existence, rejoined with the energy God of my understanding, will remain in the air, the water, the food, my sleeping and waking world …but they will never be them again.  They are part of my past and I cannot get them back again!

This was taken during a visit to the San Francisco CA Zoo in *cough* Nov 1987! The note on the wall behind me, “This bench is reserved for primates only” is appropriate lol!

https://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/William_Beebe – the first time I saw this was when I visited the San Francisco Zoo:

The beauty and genius of a work of art may be reconceived, though its first material expression be destroyed; a vanished harmony may yet again inspire the composer; but when the last individual of a race of living beings breathes no more, another heaven and another earth must pass before such a one can be again.

  • The Bird (1906)

I feel like my little blurp here could be a bit of a cautionary tale of the direction I see us going in this country….in this world.  I see a fading mass of people trying to take those newer on the scene kicking and screaming back to the caves by the hair without Wi-Fi.  Why?  I think, speaking as someone who can be averse to change, because it’s comfortable, it’s safe, it’s familiar, it makes them feel like they have control over something and it means not having to change.  This world is changing so fast!

This is an ironic observation as I live in a world of people who seem to thrive on change and new external stimulation!  Kyle and I notice this especially with video games and how the industry seems to have such a hard time “feeding” gamers with new content.  As soon as new content is released, people eat through it like a bag of chocolate and get pissed and act like addicts going through withdrawal waiting for their next “hit.”

We want change but we want to control the how, where, when, why and what of it happening.   For many, and this is the case for myself, not having any sort of input or control over changes like those coming from our government,  that affect me and those I love,  has left me feeling quite powerless and angry.

I  cannot really get to mad at my parents, teachers and other role models in my life for all the dirty secrets I’ve found out about my country and the world since my growing up years.  I’m finding out from personal experience that history is a contextual thing.  It’s also a matter of perception…your experiences, your background, your family, your education shape your perception of the world and how you live in it.

Depending on where you are in time and what you know at that time, determines how you live in that segment of history.  What was acceptable behavior for white people in the context of history going on during the time of slavery isn’t what should be going on in our current times in the context of modern history….why? Because we know better!  My parents and all the teachers through my life probably didn’t know or realize half the things that have come to light in our current times.  Now we do know what was and is still yet going on.  Are we as a world going to just keep revisiting and repeating the past or finally let go, let God and move the fuck on?!!

I think we have a lot of people in this world who feel powerless in our times.  So they are clinging on to whatever they can to give them some sense of stability…certainty.  Many are choosing to hold on to history, be it positive or negative, to have some sort of certainty, identity, purpose and meaning .  I am living in a country that makes it seem like you have to go on America’s Got Talent or something to be worth a shit…to have value.  If you have ever watched that show, you have seen the lengths people will go to be worth something.  They will nearly kill themselves!  It feels like you have to “be something, someone or connected to something or someone” in order to have any sort of self-esteem.

People are still not being taught how to light their own fire inside.  They are still being taught in every conceivable way that they must seek their value and worth outside of themselves – other people, places and especially things.  It’s a lie perpetuated all the way back to the first real fire I think!

Anyhew….

Kyle and I watched this tonight and I thought John did a really good job on this very sensitive subject in our country – confederate monuments.  I didn’t know that a large majority of monuments in our country that depict Confederate themes were erected decades after the Civil War was over, meant to be the middle finger of sorts towards minorities and many were dedicated by members of the KKK!  I think these statues should be put preserved, as John suggests here.  I think they should definitely be put in museums with background information and historical context provided.  I think destroying the statues would be not much better than what everyone has gotten upset about ISIS doing.  It isn’t a good idea to erase history…especially history we really shouldn’t repeat!  I feel like people should be able to choose to go to a museum and view them versus not having a choice about being subjected to them in sometimes unavoidable public places.

Confederacy: Last Week Tonight with John Oliver (HBO)

 

We can only go forward and through….that’s the only way to survive the callous master that is Time.

 

14 Sept 2017 Bluebirds on the brain (drawings today) and revisiting cartooning

“The bluebird carries the sky on his back.” – Henry David Thoreau

10 Sept 2017 Angels Everywhere and Dream within a Dream – Edgar Allen Poe

Good morning to you.  We are having a kind of “shitty” morning.  Poor Link is still having bowel troubles.  We are going to have to take him to the vet if this doesn’t get better today.  We had to kick May kitty out of the garage last night….ant invasion happened.  The food she doesn’t always eat just sitting around was too great a temptation to pass up on I guess.  She’s not happy with us for taking the garage away but I can’t have ants invading the house.  It feels like if we give one inch they would just take over the whole place!  Can I get an UGGGGGGHHH?!!!!!   Being an adult…through with it!!!

Source: Internet/aka friend FB post: Abandoning Adulthood by Maureen

Last night I was feeling the restlessness and discontent of these above personal happenings and just all the stuff going on in our world…feels like I’ve just been churning inside for months now.   I decided to visit a book that was given to me many years ago called Angels Everywhere Miracles & Messages by Lynn Valentine.  There’s something comforting about reading stories of divine interventions in these times:

10 Sept 2017 – cover of Angels Everywhere Miracles & Messages by Lynn Valentine

Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience. – Ralph Waldo Emerson (personal message for J, M and W today)

I have been rediscovering my love of poetry.  This poem resonated with the tone and pitch of our current times.  Sometimes it does feel like the tighter we hold on to the “grains of sand” of our lives the quicker they seem to slip through our fingers.  I am having to learn, as all eventually do, that there is no holding on to time.   

https://www.poemhunter.com/poem/a-dream-within-a-dream/if you go to this link you can hear the poem read out loud, great poetry page!

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

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