7 January 2021 Life Purpose

Hello to you out there as you visit me here. How are you? I am trying to recover from what life has been throwing at me. I still haven’t heard from my insurance company as to whether or not they plan to total my car or repair it.

Today I had a telephone appointment with my therapist and she has given me a grand assignment. The assignment is to find my life’s purpose and I have no clue how to persue that! It feels like each time I have felt like I have found my life’s purpose, something has happened and or not happened and I am left searching again. I mean I’ve done drawing, writing, painting , photography, experiments, volunteer work . I have really tried a bunch of stuff. I feel like a blank slate now and totally clueless as to what I should be doing now. So to get such an assignment, I feel overwhelmed. Something from my past I have considered going back to is painting. How that worked best was an almost commission type arrangement. Someone would approach me to paint and the money paid would go towards supplies to make the painting.

I wonder what the numbers say about some of this:

finding a life purpose ” in the English Ordinal system equals 206 (ironically 26 is God, game, lie in the numbers. Also process of light and shadow self with unknown all vices in check but one)

painting ” in the English Ordinal system equals 90 (ironically spirit is also 90)

blank slate” in the English Ordinal system equals 97 (weakness is also 97)

reclaiming your life” in the English Ordinal system equals 202

I’m sure God has some kind of purpose for me I just don’t know what it is right now. I am hoping more human companionship will be part of it. I have found myself chronically lonely!

29 October 2020 Changing with the changes

Hello and good morning to you. How are you today as you visit me here? I am gradually adjusting to all the changes going on in my life. Sometimes it is difficult to adjust to a bunch of change all at once which has been the case for me. I have moved to another part of the country, am living without my husband and have been living with family I have never lived with before. I am having to do a lot of “letting go and letting God.”

Once again my chameleon tattoo comes into into play. A chameleon has to adapt to their surroundings. I am having to do a lot of changing with the changes. Lets see what it comes to in the numbers:

changing with the changes” in the English Ordinal system equals 213 (ironically my birth month and date! Light and shadow process for one in a yes, no, may be existence. If you add everything up the number is cyclic in nature.

Letting go and Let God” in the English Ordinal system equals 191 (one divided by “No”)

spirit” in the English Ordinal system equals 91