7 January 2021 Life Purpose

Hello to you out there as you visit me here. How are you? I am trying to recover from what life has been throwing at me. I still haven’t heard from my insurance company as to whether or not they plan to total my car or repair it.

Today I had a telephone appointment with my therapist and she has given me a grand assignment. The assignment is to find my life’s purpose and I have no clue how to persue that! It feels like each time I have felt like I have found my life’s purpose, something has happened and or not happened and I am left searching again. I mean I’ve done drawing, writing, painting , photography, experiments, volunteer work . I have really tried a bunch of stuff. I feel like a blank slate now and totally clueless as to what I should be doing now. So to get such an assignment, I feel overwhelmed. Something from my past I have considered going back to is painting. How that worked best was an almost commission type arrangement. Someone would approach me to paint and the money paid would go towards supplies to make the painting.

I wonder what the numbers say about some of this:

finding a life purpose ” in the English Ordinal system equals 206 (ironically 26 is God, game, lie in the numbers. Also process of light and shadow self with unknown all vices in check but one)

painting ” in the English Ordinal system equals 90 (ironically spirit is also 90)

blank slate” in the English Ordinal system equals 97 (weakness is also 97)

reclaiming your life” in the English Ordinal system equals 202

I’m sure God has some kind of purpose for me I just don’t know what it is right now. I am hoping more human companionship will be part of it. I have found myself chronically lonely!

1 May 2020 Feng Shui

This morning pieces of our old couch have been hauled away and the living room has more space in it.  It’s a tangible thing for me.  I can actually feel a change in the energy pattern in our living area now and it’s a pleasant sensation.  It was a sectional but I was able to get rid of the broken parts and save a part yet worked.  Now I have a recliner instead.

IMG_0008 30 April 2020 Brown couch Alvarado TX



I know it’s weird, but it’s an empowering thing to make changes like this to a living space.  It’s interesting that Feng Shui in the numbers reflects something like religion!  For me it’s a spiritual/energy thing.  When my living space is “clogged” or in an unhealthy pattern, I can sense it, can you?

I hope today brings you joy.  TGIF!  (Thank God it’s Friday!)

Feng Shui” in the English Ordinal system equals 89 – religion, insects, memory, location, well-being

eight nine” in the English Ordinal system equals 91 – spirit, content, emotion

nine one” in the English Ordinal system equals 76 – humans, species

seven six” in the English Ordinal system equals 117 – nurture, earth, humility, upbringing, statement

one one seven” in the English Ordinal system equals 133 – community, invitation 33 – “the”

one three three” in the English Ordinal system equals 146 – people matter, peace for the brain, 46 – body

clearing a space” in the English Ordinal system equals 114 – history

Feng shui – wikipedia

Feng shui
Feng shui, also known as Chinese geomancy, is a traditional practice originating from ancient China, which claims to use energy forces to harmonize individuals with their surrounding environment. The term feng shui literally translates as “wind-water” in English. This is a cultural shorthand taken from the passage of the now-lost Book of Burial recorded in Guo Pu’s commentary. Feng shui is considered pseudoscientific.


wind water” in the English Ordinal system equals 117

one one seven” in the English Ordinal system equals 133

one three three” in the English Ordinal system equals 146

A couple of paintings I’ve done recently:

IMG_0007 30 April 2020 Jackie Wygant painting Alvarado TXIMG_0009 30 April 2020 Jackie Wygant painting Alvarado TX