Category: Social media

6 December 2021 Dream Kiss

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, dreams, Mental Health, Social media, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Good morning from here. I’m writing from bed where it’s warm and cozy! Link and and I haven’t decided to get up and face today yet.

Have you ever had a vivid and really happy dream that ended abruptly and you find yourself trying to go back but you can’t? That’s what happened to me last night. I dreamt I was with this blonde man and we kissed – it felt so real! I woke up disappointed to leave him! Sometimes my dreams feel like real experiences. Sometimes it feels like the only difference between dreams and reality is whether or not my eyes are open.

I am not sure if I’m going to to a video or not today for Twitch. I’m having trouble with content. I’m starting to remember how I used to do my YouTube videos. I would actually write out what I wanted to say – like a script. I don’t know if I want to do that or not. It doesn’t feel as natural if there is a script. I will have to think on this – may be not do a video everyday?

“Do you see me through all the words? Can you hear me when there is no sound? Can you feel me when no one is around? Through the wires and cables from me to you one way or another I’m going to get to you.”

I hope you have a great day! Love and be loved!

1 December 2021 Evening

by saymber, posted in animals, Bipolar life, Music, Social media, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hi. It’s 805 pm as I write to you. Are you a night owl? How has your day been? My day has been uneventful. I was excited to get 13 views on my Twitch post this morning. Anything beyond me looking at the posts is great! If you reader were one of the views – thank you! It’s pretty bare bones how I’m doing it. I don’t have a separate camera or microphone. Who knows may be that could be a future investment if things go well.

I was talking with a friend tonight and broke out my lap harp……it’s horribly out of tune. The more I tried to tune it the worse it got. I’ll try again when I have more patience. I also spent some time with my Yamaha and Tudor recorders (if your not familiar with what a recorder is it’s like a flute made out of hard plastic that school children typically play). Watching people making improv music is so inspiring! I use to love playing on electronic keyboards and pianos just by ear. I don’t read music.

Tonight I’m thinking of a memory with our senior dog Blondie. Blondie was a buff (almost white) 13 yr old cocker spaniel we rescued from an animal shelter. It was really rough adopting her because she had a lot of bowel/bladder issues. One day we had to take her to the vet and while we were sitting in the waiting room there was an older man there with his dog. He talked to us and we told him it was getting financially more difficult to take care of Blondie. He had glowing blue eyes. He was there when we finished the exam with Blondie and when they said how much it was going to be the man said he would pay the bill! Kyle and I were in shock! I asked him how we could repay him and all he said was, “Take care of your dog that’s payment enough.” I swear he must have been an angel. Who knew dogs could have angels too!

Guess I’ll quit blabbing and wrap this up. Thank you for reading this stuff I put out here. Writing really helps me a lot.

30 November 2021 Good morning

by saymber, posted in animals, Bipolar life, Mental Health, Social media, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Check out this video Morning coffee with Jackie 30 November 2021 https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1220155075

Good morning to you! How are you? This morning the psalm 49 really resonated with me. I tried to copy and paste it here but I can’t for some reason. Here is Link if you would like to read it:

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+49&version=NIV&interface=amp

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In today’s world it seems like so many aspire for wealth and fame. The fundamental truth is you can’t take it with you and from watching the mainstream wealthy, it seems like enough is never enough. I wonder if many of the ultra wealthy have God in their lives….I hope so. For me personally, I just want to be able to pay my bills, bless my family and be comfortable. I don’t need much. If I was ever to become famous and wealthy I would have to have ways to give it back … pay it forward. I would hire people that would make sure I was doing that! Honoring Gods blessing of my life would have to be at the top of the list….leave a legacy to be blessed by!

My life with money right now is a weird one. Since I am on my own and am on a fixed income I am kind of afraid to spend money sometimes. With the sale of our home in Texas I got a nice chunk of change but I feel like I have to hold on to that money “just in case.” I used to be really generous but these past couple of years I’ve been stingy. The world feels so uncertain at times! Ugh!!! Lol.

I hope something resonated here today. I hope you have a great day.

26 November 2021 Learning About Going Live On Twitch

by saymber, posted in Social media, technology, Uncategorized, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

I’m live on Twitch – Watch me at https://twitch.tv/jwygant

Good morning from here how are you? It’s the day after Thanksgiving and I’m guessing a lot of you are taking advantage of Black Friday deals….not my thing lol!

So I’m sipping on some coffee and thinking about what I want to do with my Twitch channel. I’m not entirely sure who my audience is as no one has left a comment in chat yet. I don’t even know how someone would leave a comment. I am working with what I have which is my phone. Most streamers I’ve spent time with have pretty elaborate setups with microphones and multiple cameras. The other thing is content – actually having something new to say each stream. I think with the pros the chat feedback helps them with that.

Today I’m thinking about talking about my dog Links origin story. I can’t believe he’s going to be 7 on the 9th of December! Thankfully he’s in good health. Anyways his story is pretty special – especially how God let me know he was coming! Unfortunately his baby pictures are trapped on an external hard drive I can’t use – it got dropped one too many times!

Looking forward to going with my friend and her grandson to see the holiday lights in Caldwell tonight! Hope you have a good day!

6 November 2021 Where Does Energy Go

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, books, drawing, history, In the News, Movies, Music, photography, Social media, Spirituality and Religion, Television, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Good morning to you. It’s morning yet in my here and now. Hope this finds you doing well. I have my probably too sweet cup of coffee and my writing buddy Link. I’ve been thinking about something the past couple of days. It has to do with energy.

So you are sitting in a theater watching a movie with a bunch of of other people. The movie has really strong characters. You feel intently about these characters. You cry, you laugh, you get angry and may be even find yourself imagining being in the circumstances of the characters. Then it’s over. Roll credits. After the movie you talk about it. You might read about it in a magazine or on a news feed on your phone. Later comes the award shows and red carpet premiers of the people in the movie. The movie is released to the public and you buy a copy of the film. You watch it again at home . Sometimes you will think of specific lines from the movie and use them in your own life. Eventually comes the day the movie goes on a shelf and it’s not forgotten but superseded by another film. This process I’m talking about applies to television shows too.

What I’ve just described is a life.

There is a tremendous amount of energy focused on these characters born out of imagination. Where does all that energy go when we are done with it? Many of these characters become part of an actor or actress’s identity. They become known for the characters they play and some of those characters are so dark in their nature. I’m thinking of Heath Ledgers Joker and Aaliyahs Akashi. The darkness they bring is often lauded and emulated. It’s not contained on the screen. There is a sort of life lived through our living eyes… our bodies. Whether the character is good or bad they have achieved immortality. There is proof they existed.

It’s not just fictional characters that attain immortality. As I sit here I think of the trillions of “avatars” God has used through time. Some flashing for a mere second and others hours. Think about all the social media posts and YouTube. All those people and these days animals all immortalized. How about books ? Magazines, newspapers and photographs ?

All of us saying in numerous ways “Remember me!” “ I existed!” It kind of makes me ache inside. So much of what we are now is electronic. I have a hard drive full of important stuff and all it took was a couple drops on the tile and I can’t access that stuff anymore! All it takes is a cell phone to stop working and thousands of pictures are lost. The movie, television and book industry is a little more secure by making and selling millions of copies of their merchandise but even that is fading to live stream and online streaming . Existence is fragile in the electronic world. All it takes now is a power outage and tangible immortality is gone.

Where are we headed with all that we have created? I know it’s meant to be entertainment but sometimes it feels like I’m living in a world filled with golden calves. So much energy…so much adoration lavished on these imagined people and worlds. Giants on the big screen so we won’t be bored on our long journey to other worlds together.

To be “saved” usually means to accept Jesus Christ as your savior but what I see in our world is your image being saved on some device. If we didn’t have written copies of the Bible even Jesus would be lost in time. He said he would come back but didn’t say how. How many versions of his life have been made in television and movies?

A lot to think about here. Time keeps marching on. Technology keeps evolving. Where are we headed in out quest to survive? To not be lost in time? To not be bored?

19 October 2021 Immortality

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, books, history, Money, Movies, Music, photography, Social media, Spirituality and Religion, technology, Television, Writing and blogging

Hello to you. How is your day going? I got out and did a lap around the neighborhood. I’ll probably need to go a little later to get a mile in. It’s so pretty out!

The past couple of days I’ve been watching AI interpretations of what people from old times would look like today. The reference material used is photographs, paintings, statues and even mummies. Yesterday as I watched a female mummy resurrected for a moment, I found myself asking was this what she had in mind being mummified? Did she and the people of her time know they would become immortals?

In our modern world there are so many ways for even the most poor to become immortal. In addition to all the traditional ways there are so many more now that we have AI. The problem that I see however is a lot of the new ways rely on systems that can fail. What if YouTube or Facebooks servers went down and data couldn’t be retrieved? I had an external hard drive that hit the tile one too many times. I can’t get the pictures, videos and documents unless I pay someone! What happens when you drop your cell phone and all your pictures were on it? Immortality of this age is so fragile!

As a child I wanted to be immortal. I wanted to be a famous singer, writer, dancer and artist. My stepmom said something profound about that though, she said “ Jackie you don’t have to be famous to be somebody.” Back then I was going to Catholic Church. There is a part of me that still longs for the immortality I wanted as a child. My grown up self knows those ships have sailed. The modern world of immortals is for the young even though those who are older have most of the money !

Something interesting in the world of AI and spirituality is the word SAVED. This word and concept is equally important in both worlds. It means immortality. For example there is an 8mm film I have of my family, all of them except my dad are deceased. When I watch it they live again. Through my living eyes they have life. They all believed in Jesus Christ. Without that video and other pictures of them that have been “saved” they would just be names on tombstones…..names written in bibles.

I’m at the time in my life when one starts to think of things like this. I have a trunk full of journals and drawings will they stand the test of time? Have I secured my immortality? Much of my hand written stuff is in cursive writing. In many schools they have stopped teaching cursive writing! I have no children to pass “myself” on to. Will my life just end up being a time capsule in a landfill?

What does immortality mean to you? Why do you do what you do in this life? Lately I have been questioning that a lot. It seems like our world is going through an identity crisis. Are we doing things that have meaning or just to survive? If we were able to do what we truly enjoy doing would we have so much consumerism? For some their immortality is in how many possessions they have.

“Through the veil comes a whisper,”remember me.”

22 May 2020 Good Morning and Communication (Discord program)

by saymber, posted in animals, Home, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Social media, technology, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you.  How are you doing today?  It’s a new day.  I started my day today trying to coax Link to go outside and do his business after the rains we had last night.  I’m probably going to have to take him for a walk to do it.

I began my day with sending my husband a good morning text and a picture of our “son” being cute as he resists me.  Even though we are not together right now, in my heart we are.  Link is not just a dog but a Link to my husband and to Link’s family of origin.  No matter how far apart we are inside or out.

What dogs teach us is every morning is a good morning.  Every moment is precious.

22 May 2020 – GOOD MORNING!

I found another way to communicate with people and that is through a an computer program called Discord (https://discord.com/).  My husband uses it to communicate with his gaming friends or he did.  I play an MMORPG Rift from time to time and joined a guild that has a Discord Channel.  They are really nice people and there are a couple ladies that use it that are my age.  They aren’t on all the time, but when they are it’s really nice to have people to talk to about something besides my problems.  I’m just trying to find various ways to help fill the void for daily human contact and communication I’m living in right now.

I’m grateful to my family and friends that have been sending texts almost daily.  It’s amazing how just a few words on the phone can help make a day start off right!  If anything all of what I’m going through has made communicating with people outside of the home even more important.

 

 

30 April 2020 Finding balance

by saymber, posted in Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Health, history, Home, human rights, In the News, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Politics and Government, Science (Keshe Foundation and other innovations), Social media, Spirituality and Religion, Television, trust, Veteran Affairs

Hello to you – how are you in your day today?  I’m doing pretty good.  The world is pretty still for me right now after conquering some of the hurdles I had waiting for me when I got home.

What has come to mind this morning is finding balance when the world seems to be out of balance.  Every time I turn on the television.  Every page that comes up when I open the internet.  Almost every conversation with family and friends.  What is it all about right now?  That darn Corona virus!  What do I want to give my power to about it?  Not how many people are sick, not how many people have died, not all the ways we have failed in containing this thing.  What do I want to focus on?  How many people have lived?  What have we done right?  The countless HERO’S that I have personally encountered and know working in the the medical profession right now.   I have friends and family in nursing and all I want for them is their safety and outstanding health on this journey each day.

Coming from the experience I recently have come from with healthcare, even when things seem their worst, God, as I understand, finds a way to punch through the darkness with hope and light.

I believe that what you focus on gains power in the world.  The more we focus on the negatives, not to deny negatives exist, the more power we give to what we don’t want going on in the world!  I encourage everyone reading this to amplify their positive prayers, mediations and just energy signatures in the world….empowerment!

So as the scales skitter back and forth like trying to weigh ourselves on a scale, I hope a healthy balance, a healthy “weight” will be achieved.

“finding balance” in the English Ordinal system equals 101 – system

“one zero one” in the English Ordinal system equals 132 – life

“one three two” in the English Ordinal system equals 148 – motive

“one four eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 143 – choice

“one four three” in the English Ordinal system equals 150 – Joy

“one five zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 140 – food

“one four zero” in the English Ordinal system equals 158 – feeling

one five eight” in the English Ordinal system equals 125 – all

 

“one two five” in the English Ordinal system equals 134 – one

 

5 Feb 2020 Tangible or Intangible experiences

by saymber, posted in Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Health, Home, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Science (Keshe Foundation and other innovations), Social media, Spirituality and Religion, technology, trust, Veteran Affairs

Where will my feet be taking me next?

Hello to you.  It’s a gray and cold afternoon as I write.  Hope this finds you doing well in your where and when as you visit me here.

I was trying to think of something to write about and the subject of tangible and intangible experiences came to my mind.  It’s one thing to imagine the things you would like to do in life but quite another to actually do them.  I’m at a cross roads point in my life right now.  There is a part of me that longs for an adventure and part of me that is hesitant to even step my feet too far out of my own neighborhood!  Can you relate?

I ran these numbers in the gematria calculator with interesting results:

https://www.ridingthebeast.com/gematria-calculator/

(Remember the word values I’ve listed aren’t the only ones that exist.  I encourage you to explore this for yourself and see what shows up for you personally)

Tangible or Intangible Experiences = 319 132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150/140…..(pattern repeats)

(ironically my name, Jackie = 39 and life = 32) (148 – human emotion) (some 143’s-resourceful, contentment, rehabilitation)(some 150’s – understanding, communication, divine planning, positive image) (some 140’s – interesting, observation) food-40) (some 158’s – quality of life, being yourself) feeling-58)

(some 125’s – courageous, surprise, solution, spiritual) all-25) (some 134’s – intellectual, information, combinations, responsible) one-34)

Tangible = 70 129/134/150/140/158/125/134/150….(pattern repeats)

(some 70’s – effort, tasks, seeking affordable)(some 129’s – experiment, experiencing, stimulant)

Intangible = 93 98/91/76/117/133/146

(some 93’s – management, growing, outside, internal, trying, physical, writer)  (together – 98, spirit-91, value for my last name/humans-76) (some 117’s -humility, upbringing, occupation) (some 118’s – conscious, true love, wonderful, concentrate, attention)(some 133’s – community, intentional, system life, property) and (some 146’s – brain function, peace for the brain).

31 January 2020 – Living alone together

by saymber, posted in Animal Rights, Art and Poetry, drawing, Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Food, Health, history, Home, human rights, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Money, Science (Keshe Foundation and other innovations), Social media, Spirituality and Religion, technology, trust, Veteran Affairs

Hello to you.  It’s been awhile since I posted anything.  I am currently going through some challenging times in my life and haven’t been feeling like doing much.  I hope something in what I will share here will help you if you find yourself visiting my blog today.

What I am currently facing is something similar to what I went through in my previous marriage.  The experience of living with someone but feeling like you are just sharing a space but not truly connected like you once were.  I call it, living alone together.  It’s not a condition I want to exist but it currently does.

I am the sort of person who can get carried away into many different directions at once and find it difficult to be in the present moment all the time.  To be in a healthy relationship with someone, I think you have to communicate and sometimes even that breaks down.  For my husband and I, we have had the same conversations so many times, our own personal echo chamber if you will.  After a time, things just get stale.  We used to share a lot of the same interests but over time, things have changed for both of us.  I think this world has changed and not necessarily for the better.

I am currently trying to find a way to navigate through my current circumstances and maintain a positive attitude.  I have been writing letters, writing in a journal, taking pictures, cleaning and organizing the house, doing yard work, going for walks, doing crafts, trying to eat better and get enough sleep, trying to communicate more with loved ones as coping mechanisms. Our two dogs are affected by what is going on as much as we are.  I think it must be very confusing to them.

I ran a couple of words-numbers phrases in line with this topic.  As I have mentioned before in previous posts,  I want to emphasize my interpretation of these numbers isn’t the only interpretation.  You may see something else.  You may be experiencing something else.  It’s interesting to me to see the patterns.  May be for your own experience there are other things you would add:

https://www.ridingthebeast.com/gematria-calculator/ (online calculator I use for this but I have a personal offline system also)

Energy fields emitted from a life form = 342 174/159/118/117/133/146

(one = 34, self= 42)

resonance = 94 102/156/128/141/128/141……

(why=56 141=energy exchange 28=man)

fluctuating energy levels in the types of energy consumed=575 149/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134…..

(human=57 spiral/eternal=75 way/cause=49 child=36 self=42 earth=52 one=34 animal/easy/fight/Joy/role=50 food=40 all=25)

a balanced energy diet = 155 118/117/133/146

(shared/wages=55 true love/modification/scent glands/wonderful/concentrate=118 I’m sorry/nurture/humility/upbringing=117 temptation/community/don’t give up = 133 (the=33) people matter/brain function/peace for the brain = 146 (body=46)

metabolism = 109/140

“to have a healthy metabolism” = 260 174/159/118/117/133/146

(energy=74 five = 42 nine= 42 self=42 (the five senses of the body and nine (nein) or no self)

living alone = 120 156/128/141/128/141…..

living by yourself = 221 150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125

(understanding/communication/fifty states/uncertainty/divine planning/possession = 150 feeling=58)

living with someone you are married to but feeling alone = 555 126/144/154/136/142/152/134/150/140/158/125/134……

(God/dog/game = 26 brain/faith=44 sun/love/play/voice=54 child=36 self=42)

alone = 152

together = 98 91/76/117/133/146

(spirit=91 sharing/fiction/divorce/revenge/humans/master/species/draining/contact/example/crying/mixing/concept/losing/a cat’s life = 76)

positive attitude = 215/134

negative attitude = 183 139/132/148/143/150/140/158/125/134/150……..

(positive = 115 negative=83 attitude=100 culture=100)