22 May 2018 Dust, Purple and Blue Cars, Alaskan Hunting and Flowers

Hello to you.  It’s a beautiful, yet very dusty Tuesday morning.   We have metal and glass furniture with electronics on top and near them.  The effort of dusting is pretty much a futile activity at our house lol.  The sun is shining on my desk exposing all the dust particles and I look at it thinking, “have I ever cleaned this house?!”

Funny Facebook Meme from We are Moms Club yesterday:

When life gets you down and you feel you can’t go on, just remember who will always
be there for you, Dishes,  they will literally always be there.

@Adventuresinbliss

I don’t feel very rested this morning.  More busy dreaming.  I only remember a fragment about really fast purple and blue cars that looked like those old El Camino’s but they had closed cabs on the back and were a bit more modernized.  I don’t know why literal cars are popping up in my dreams but they are.  I am thinking these are analogies for what I’m seeing on the political front lately with “people cars.”  I saw Bernie Sanders is talking about a re-election bid yesterday.  Are we talking about this already?!  I saw something that made me sick and I don’t even want to believe they are considering doing this:  https://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2018/may/21/trump-administration-moves-reverse-obama-era-hunti/Trump administration moves to reverse Obama-era hunting restrictions in Alaska.  Is it me, or does it seem like when things aren’t going his way he starts attacking the environment?  Just something I’ve noticed.  I am trying so hard to find the good in this administration and I am coming up bankrupt again after seeing this.  I felt physically ill last night reading about this.  If I lived in Alaska I would be standing in front of the hibernating bears and their cubs.  This seems like such a dishonorable and senseless style of hunting to me.  Is Alaska really that hard up for revenue to consider allowing this?!  There seems to be something wrong with the moral compass in this world unless there are things I just don’t know that make this seem necessary.  Don’t these beings have it hard enough to have to endure even more cruelty from humanity?

8 21 14 20 9 14 7

H U N T I N G = 93 (3 cycle)

21 May 2018 – flowers and spirits of gratitude and thanks for all the beings that have been helping me get restored back to center.

6 12 15 23 5 18 19

F L O W E R S = 98

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21 May 2018 Breaking down walls

20 May 2018 – we had some wonderful rain. God cleaned off my canvas 🙂

Reading this first thing this morning helped me a lot.   What if this message could transcend all the barriers we put up to separate ourselves from each other?!  What if this message could transcend and eventually melt tools people use to harm one another into playgrounds and places that would bring us together in peace?  May be some day.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/pope-francis-tells-gay-man-god-made-you-like-that/ar-AAxzTp8

Describing his encounter with the Pope to CNN, Cruz said: “You know Juan Carlos, that does not matter. God made you like this. God loves you like this. The Pope loves you like this and you should love yourself and not worry about what people say.”

19 May 2018 – what happens when you don’t go to a professional to go blonde LOL!  I am working on finding my way through the darkness I’ve been in.  I’m so grateful for my family (two and four legged) and dear friends who love me no matter how wild it gets. 

 

6 18 9 5 14 4 19

F R I E N D S = 75 (3 cycle)

6 1 13 9 12 25

F A M I L Y = 66 (3 cycle)

2 5 12 15 22 5 4

7 18 1 20 5 6 21 12

G R A T E F U L = 90 (9 cycle)

B E L O V E D = 65

19 16 9 18 9 20 21 1 12 9 20 25

S P I R I T U A L I T Y = 179

2 12 15 14 4 5

B L O N D E = 52

Yesterday I got a little teary thinking about my dogs and cats.  It’s because I was feeling overwhelmed by all the art and writings I have through the house.  Dogs and cats are so simple.  What do they leave behind by way of material things but a collar, a leash and a few toys?  What matters the most is what they leave in my heart….so much love and gratitude!  Intangible things you can’t hold on to with your hands!   I found the actual story where a vet shares a beautiful story and explanation from a little boy about why dogs don’t live as long as humans.

http://blog.nilesanimalhospital.com/2011/10/normal-0-false-false-false.html

Why Dogs Don’t Live as Long as Humans

A four year old child’s wisdom

(From the internet….author unknown)

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten year old Irish wolfhound, named Belker. The dog’s owners, Ron, his wife Lisa and their little boy Shane were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer.

I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog. Ron and Lisa told me that they thought it would be good for the four year old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker’s family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few moments, Belker slipped away peacefully. The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker’s death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives. Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, “I know why.” Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I never had heard a more comforting explanation.

He said, “People are born so that they learn how to live a good life – like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?” The four year old continued, “Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.”

Posted by Peter Sakas at 7:57 AM

16 May 2018 Is this all just a dream?

Hello to you.  It is Wednesday in my timeline but it feels like Friday already!  Had a fun dream this morning.  I was with an old co-worker from when I was working in Personnel Systems Management for the Air Force.  I bent a piece of metal with my mind and levitated a rose quartz crystal – apparently my right hand was stronger in the dream for such things lol!  My friend was in disbelief at what he had seen, so I repeated it.  I told Kyle this is why I enjoy the dream world so much.  In the dream realm I fly invisible ships, have wings, can just jump and fly out of a tree.  In my dreams I can visit other worlds and as of last night,  bend metal and levitate crystals with my mind!  Way cool!

Speaking of dreams.  Yesterday we “publicked” and went and got the tires on our car rotated and did a Target run for our favorite liquid soap, Dr. Bronners: (https://www.drbronner.com/).  Exciting right?!  Well when we checked out at Target, the clerk named Robbin seemed to be having a day like I mentioned to you, that surreal feeling like nothing is real…like everything is just a dream.  I took her hands in mind to try to reassure her we were all real.  She still was left wondering about reality but a little more grounded I think!  I guess working in a place like Target could put you in that state of mind!  So many nice things that most of us can’t really afford.  We wandered around in there and talked ourselves out everything but absolute essentials.  Not easy!  I’m pretty sure Robbin’s wages don’t allow her to buy much where she works.

19 15 21 12

S O U L = 67

18 5 1 12 9 20 25

R E A L I T Y = 90 (9 cycle)

5 18 5 1 13

D R E A M = 41

20 9 18 5

T I R E = 52  (funny that tire and door have the same numeric value!)

4 15 15 18

D O O R = 52

23 1 6 6 12 5

W A F F L E = 53 (it cracks me up with words like this – essentially a waffle is a kind of wafer and they have the same numeric value)

23 1 6 5 18

W A F E R = 53

13 21 19 9 3

M U S I C = 65

Dreamt about some men this morning who looked like they may be from Hawaii or Samoa (been praying for Hawaii a lot lately!).  One of them was playing an instrument that I have come to find out today actually exists!  The Coconut Thumb Piano, Kalimba or a Mbira which actually has origins in Africa:

(Redirected from Thumb piano) The mbira is an African musical instrument consisting of a wooden board (often fitted with a resonator) with attached staggered metal tines, played by holding the instrument in the hands and plucking the tines with the thumbs.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thumb_piano

Origin

It is said that before globalisation, these instruments could only be found in Africa and where African descendants lived. Therefore, the thumb piano we know in the West, called kalimba, is a modernized version of its African ancestors.

Many tribes, all across the continent, have developed their own unique thumb pianos over the centuries. Because the languages and cultures of these tribes vary so much, so do the names and traditions of their instruments.

Thumb Piano Coconut Natural

Program we started watching, kind gives me an “ache” inside…man I’m getting so old!

https://www.rediscoverthe80s.com/2017/02/recap-of-cnns-the-eighties-miniseries.html

The Sixties, The Seventies, and The Eighties Intros- CNN ***HD QUALITY***

 

15 May 2018 Fixing broken things

Hello to you.  Hope you are well today.  I am a little tired and not feeling real rested.  I had another traveling dream this morning.  There were small lime green cars and traveling to Sophie, my niece I think.  I was in one of the cars and as I was getting ready to drive away, a couple other versions of the same car I was driving got in my way.  Then I drove down a hill through what seemed to be like a bunch of shopping carts and the car I was driving was all beat up at the bottom of the hill.  Then there was a blurry image of a blonde girl at the end of the dream just before I woke up.  Anyways….those kinds of dreams aren’t very restful lol!

During my last “cycle” I went through, things got pretty wild here at the house.  I was literally not myself and things got broken.  For some reason, this time more than others, specific objects had a strong association with unpleasant feelings I had about certain people and or situations and there was bloodshed and they got broken.  The blue and red blown glass dragons I had kept fixing were irretrievably broken.  Kyle, out of frustration,  even got into the act this time.  I am happy to say, out of the wreckage, there was beauty.  Sometimes it feels like I am under siege by unseen forces and thankfully it’s just material “things” that get broken!  Being an empathic, highly sensitive person, I am very porous and if I’m not careful, can be an easy mark for spiritual mischief makers.  I am so grateful for Kyle, Link, Spot and my family and friends that know to just “stand-by” until the channel changes.

2 18 15 11 5 14

B R O K E N = 65

 

6 May 2018 Drawing and more fun with words and their numeric values

6 May 2018 – drawing I did this morning.

Just stopping in to say hello.  I’ve really been having an adventure with the numeric value of English words.  It’s been interesting to find that the values of different words, meaning the same thing, like Pyramid and Triangle, could come out to the same exact value!

Words that I explored the numeric value of this weekend and got some surprises:

4 May 2018 – I was having “trust issues” recently and it came to me to look at things from a numeric perspective. I decided to look at words, break them down into numeric values and see what the word meant after that. It helped me.

19 25 18 21 16

S Y R U P  = 99/18/9/2=4.5=9 (cycle)

19 21 7 1 18

S U G A R = 66/12/3/2=1.5 =6/2= 3  (cycle)

It’s interesting that both words, both addictive substances, have a “cycle” aspect.  If you flip either 99 or 66 over and they are the same number too!

16 25 18 1 13 9 4

P Y R A M I D = 86/14/5

20 18 9 1 14 7 12 5

T R I A N G L E = 86/14/5

8 21 13 1 14

H U M A N= 57/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

20 18 5 5

T R E E= 48/12/3/2=1.5=6/2=3 (cycle)

*3 I think of cycle as life, death and rebirth or a number that keeps coming back to itself even after you divide it in half.

 

 

1 May 2018 Michael The General

Hello to you.   Yesterday I was drawing with my compass and this message came forth with it about the angel Michael.  As I thought about him,  he came across as a sort of General.  Can you imagine what it would be like to be God’s literal “wing man?!”

30 April 2018 – I started by using the compass and this is what came forth for me about the angel Michael, a sort of General.

The reason Michael often comes to my mind is my spiritual background.  I grew up Lutheran and then Roman Catholic for many years.   These days I don’t go to traditional church services etc. but there are aspects of my spiritual journey I have held on to.  The concept of angels is definitely one of them!   I have had experiences in my life where I believe angels have definitely been watching out for me!   There is great power in personal belief.

“In late medieval Christianity, Michael, together with Saint George, became the patron saint of chivalry and is now also considered the patron saint of police officers, paramedics, firefighters and the military.[33][84]

My Dad was a policeman when he was a young man and I’d like to think he was being watched over by Michael all those years!  That’s probably why Michael comes to mind a lot when I hear a siren go off nearby.  I am always worried about all those connected to that sound!  In many cases it’s a policeman or woman, a fire fighter or an ambulance driver….first responders to the scene of usually some persons worst day.  When I hear a siren go off, I try to just say a quick prayer that everything will be ok.

Divine beings, or angels like Michael transcend Christianity.  When you take the time to look, it’s interesting to find how many different walks of faith have angels or divine beings within them.  I am sharing some links to other information if your interested to learn more:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deva_(Buddhism)beings from Buddhism that are like angels in other walks of faith.

http://www.paganspath.com/meta/angels.htminteresting article about how angels are not unique to just Christianity

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michael_(archangel)a lot of information about Michael here.  This angel seems to cross boundaries between different walks of faith.  When I did the “numbers” for this name, it came to a total of 51, which becomes 6, which divided into 2 becomes 3 which then becomes the trinity or a cycle.  The word angel comes to a numeric value of 39, which is 12 which is also 3! 

http://moonatnoon.com/puzzles/reference/a1b2z26.html (something I initially looked at when I decided to start using the numeric value of the alphabet to examine words and their meanings.  I use this system a lot now.  It’s amazing to see a more logical view of words we use in the English language.  This system, for me, helps bridge the gaps I sometimes have between my faith and reality.  Unlike people and words can do sometimes, numbers don’t lie!  I don’t know if this would work for other languages but it would be interesting if it did!)

A cycle is a  repeating pattern.  It makes sense to me that angels and a being like Michael,  created by human beings, would end up in this pattern.  Sometimes our faith is tested or we have doubt.  We will literally “cycle” around on a journey to either come back to believing or discarding our faith all together.     

Have you ever had an encounter with someone who seemed like an angel or divine being?  In the realm of the God of my understanding, energy, pretty much anything goes I think!

Matthew 7:7

Ask, Seek, Knock

7“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

 

29 April 2018 Who should get the “credit” for creation?

Hello to you.  I’m up early this morning and was thinking about something that has come to me before.  Who gets the “credit” for what we create in this world?  Credit can be in the context of just pats on the back or accolades.  Credit can also mean, in our modern world,  financial support.  When I create, I’m not really looking for either, it used to, but not anymore.  The reason this came up in my thoughts?  I was I was going to try to put my initials and date on the drawings I’m sharing today and realized that it really doesn’t matter all that much!  They don’t belong to me really, they belong to a power greater than myself.  They belong to the God of my understanding, energy and energy is everyone and everything….the collective consciousness.

When I do something creative, I feel like I’m tapping into the collective consciousness.  After all, I my opinion, there really isn’t such a thing as an original idea just a reinterpretation of one that has already come before.  Even what I am writing at this moment doesn’t really belong to me in a sense.  Only when my ego needs a stroke do I really care about such things!  Sometimes I can be pretty hard on myself.  When I get like that, my self-esteem plummets pretty low.  I will sometimes look for a source outside of myself to somehow lift myself up.  Ironically, this was the driving force behind me using Facebook to share my drawings and stuff!

Since I seldom turn a profit for what I channel aka “create”, I think that’s about as pure as it gets.  Why should I get hung up on labeling my work?  The only reason that comes to mind, is kind of like from that Big Eyes movie when the husband tried to take credit and actually profit from his wife’s work.  The karmic resolution to that took place in a courtroom.  The judge put the husband and wife to work at blank canvas painting and the husband was unable to recreate his wife’s paintings.

Amy Adams and Margaret Keane tell Big Eyes Movie Story (I wonder if all the folks involved with this film, to include Margaret, receive money for sales of this film?  Not quite sure how that works.)

So should I consider copywriting everything I do?  I guess if I decided that I was going to try and make a living doing what I do but what a struggle that would be!  Whenever I have tried to make money doing something it has often turned into a negative thing.  I have very few positive experiences with making money for what I have made.  The only ways  it has been positive is when I do something for a gift or someone has asked me to make something and they provided the financial support and or materials for me to do it.  I think making things and churning them out for profit would be very pretty empty for me.  Something else I’ve realized, like blogging here for example, as soon as I upload anything into this artificial collective consciousness, the internet, I give away any all the relevance of ownership in my opinion.  Anyone can save my pictures to their hard drive and “make them their own” as I’ve done with other artists work.

Why do I create?  What is my motivation?  My motivation is most often having the feeling I get by being close to God.  It feels good!  It’s like having a conversation without words and it makes me feel complete inside.  Then, out of gratitude, I feel I have to pass it all on to help somebody else like I do here in this blog.   Isn’t this the way God, divinity….whatever your word for the energy that propels you through this life supposed to be?  A power greater than ourselves that unconditionally loves and accepts us even if we make a drawing that looks like a child may have done it? 

Matthew 19:14 14Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”

No one, no matter how hard they try can exactly replicate what I do.  Kind of like forgeries and copies….they will always be forgeries and copies but never the original work as it was first channeled through me.  So I’m not very worried about it anymore.   I feel bad for people in this world who do get so hung up on ownership versus staying in the flow of creation.  It must be such a fight everyday to keep what they perceive belongs to them!  I would say this is especially true for anyone who makes a living on their image and creative endeavors in any profession.  I wonder what would happen if they just let go of that?

What has come to me in meditations with the God of my understanding (I use the word God because it’s simpler) many times is nothing belongs to us but perhaps one thing, the essence of who we are inside.  The energy ball, the soul, part of our being that makes us uniquely “us” no matter what outside forces may try to change it.  I imagine that when our bodies are tired and must be returned back to the earth, we just move on and become something or someone else but we are not lost.  The unconditional, loving energy of existence makes sure we are never truly lost.   We just become something a little different but just the same.

These drawings I did yesterday were made for me and for someone else to enjoy and I hope you do:

U2 – Song For Someone (Directed by Matt Mahurin)

See more songs by U2

Lyrics

 Song for Someone

You got a face not spoiled by beauty
I have some scars from where I’ve been
You’ve got eyes that can see right through me
You’re not afraid of anything they’ve seen
I was told that I would feel nothing the first time
I don’t know how these cuts heal
But in you I found a rhyme

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Now we shouldn’t doubt
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
A song for someone

You let me into a conversation
A conversation only we could make
You break and enter my imagination
Whatever’s in there
It’s yours to take
I was told I’d feel nothing the first time
You were slow to heal
But this could be the night

If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a dark
Within and without
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

And this is a song
A song for someone
This is a song
This is a song for someone

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

And I’m a long way
From your hill of Calvary
And I’m a long way
From where I was, where I need to be
If there is a light
You can’t always see
And there is a world
We can’t always be
If there is a kiss
I stole from your mouth
And there is a light
Don’t let it go out

 Songwriters: ADAM CLAYTON, DAVE EVANS, LARRY MULLEN, PAUL DAVID HEWSON
© Universal Music Publishing Group
For non-commercial use only.
Data From: LyricFind

28 April 2018 Drawings – The Air Is Alive

“I walked through the sky with my hands today.  Little whispers and eyes the whole journey through.  All around me blurring, whirring, buzzing and fluttering sounds of life.  A gentle waltz of nature in figure 8’s around my soul.”  – Jackie

(I live next to a busy road where the sounds of loud vehicles and stuff make meditation and connection with nature more difficult.  I am working on trying to tune the noises I don’t want to hear out.  It can be difficult sometimes even with headphones on and music playing.  I try to remember that we are all different sorts of people trying to coexist on the same plane of existence.  Many individual dimensions (people and their personal way of living) overlaying each other.  For some people peace is having their music blasting loud while others, like myself, sometimes prefer complete silence.)

27 April 2018 Quest For Peace

Hello to you this morning. Time for some therapeutic writing! I am, as we used to call our dog Sam, “Grumpicus” again this morning.  Seems to be the way things are going for Kyle and I lately lol!

I don’t about you, but sometimes it just feels like I can’t take “one more thing.” Somehow, by the grace of a power greater than us, we manage! Thank goodness my husband and I don’t have many of the other issues that many American households face each day! Lately it seems life is so complicated and much more stressful than it should have to be!  For example just trying to track down my blood tests for my doctor to make sure I don’t have toxic levels of Lithium in my blood. Everything got sorted out this morning but this is the third time we’ve been through this.  This morning I went to put a new bottle of Windex in the car so we can keep our windows clean.  Well I noticed the back window, which has a tint sheet on it, was bubbling even more than the last time I looked.  It can make it unsafe for backing out when it’s like that.  Anyhew, I said f-it and pulled all the tinting out and boy did that stink!  Just one more thing!  Our 2014 Ford Fiesta has been a challenge ever since we bought it.  We probably won’t buy another vehicle from Ford and can’t really afford to invest in another car at the moment.  We found out this morning they are going to be discontinuing their smaller car lines anyways: https://www.msn.com/en-ca/autos/news/ford-to-discontinue-almost-all-its-cars-in-north-america/ar-AAwp0FY.

Wouldn’t it be nice if we had less bills to keep track of? One bill for the house, medical (to include pets), telephone/internet and car?   I really wish there was a way to simplify my household finances.  There are days I just feel so overwhelmed I don’t want to do anything!  Missing one thing can mean having to pay a penalty.  I haven’t been in the best frame of mind lately and neglected to check my email.  Because I didn’t check it, I missed a couple of credit card bill notices and ended up getting charged a fine for it!

Sometimes I want to just go back to renting versus owning a home and car.   Kind of like what they used to do for military housing or whenever I rented an apartment.  It would make it so much easier for people who are in job professions that require them to be away a lot and move frequently.  In my opinion it would be helpful for the handicapped, disabled and elderly to be able to keep up with their home maintenance responsibilities.  When we first bought this house, there was a warranty with it.  If anything went wrong, we just had to call a number and a company checked out by the warranty company would be sent out to do repairs etc.  Having this sort of system could potentially create jobs and help bring some accountability back into businesses that are typically contracted for home repair etc.  Speaking from personal experience, it feels like you can’t even really count on the Better Business Bureau (BBB) when trying to find reputable companies to do work at our house.  We’ve used the BBB several times since moving here to Texas and we still had problems.  We don’t feel like paying a service fee for a similar company, say Angie’s List,  and probably run into the same problems!

In the car arena, I saw on the news this morning that there is something some companies are doing. They are charging a subscription fee for cars.  You pay a fee and don’t have to actually have to own the car. In this article the vehicles are pretty high end, $1,000 a month and a one time $500 activation is a bit steep but if you consider how much you pay in total to maintain a car and keep it insured, definitely an interesting idea! https://www.bizjournals.com/columbus/news/2018/04/25/dealer-adding-porsche-range-rover-more-luxury-to.html.

There was heart-warming news this morning from Korea.  They are really moving towards making peace between the two countries.  Speaking as a veteran, this is what I want to see more of in this world!  I watched some of Mr. Kim’s speech and got a really good feeling about things.  I want to believe this is a genuine move by both countries.  By their doing this, they are definitely leading by their example.  Some may call me naïve, but I am so proud of North and South Korea right now! I said a prayer for these countries today and hope that this can be an example for the rest of the world – peace is possible!

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/koreas-set-bold-goals-peace-by-year%E2%80%99s-end-and-no-nuclear-arms/ar-AAwpo0G?OCID=ansmsnnews11

North and South Korea Set Bold Goals: A Final Peace and No Nuclear Arms

Watching these two world leaders was just what I needed to see this morning. They are “being the change they want to see”, to paraphrase a quote Mahatma Gandhi said long ago. For the past couple of years, I am having trouble finding peace within myself and my immediate world.  Seeing these two men today is inspiration for me to not give up trying! We are talking peace between two entire countries which is epic when you consider how hard it can be to attain peace within your very own skin!   If I can find a way to bring that sort of peace between the two “countries” within myself, I think things will get better at my house.

I think as a way to help myself get into a better frame of mind, I will be making some dog beds today out of old shower curtains and old pillows we have that the cats used to use. Not sure if I’ll sew things by hand or get out the sewing machine.

27 April 2018 – I am contemplating a sewing project today. My allergies have been acting up so it’s something I can do inside. I am going to use old cloth shower curtains.