2 April 2024 Switch

Hello to you. I’m experiencing a little frustration about my experience with the VA. I just found out I’m losing my counselor in a couple months- same thing happened with my psychiatrist! It keeps happening! They are interns that graduate and move on and then a new doctor switches in. It’s frustrating because I have to keep starting over! The positive thing is may be a new perspective will be helpful – I will just have to see.

2 Corinthians 5:17New International Version

17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:[a] The old has gone, the new is here!

27 March 2024 Understand

What is hard for people to understand? I would say mental illness. When someone has a broken bone you see a cast and know what’s going on that isn’t the case with a broken mind. A person can look and seem perfectly “normal” and then out of the blue due something erratic and out of character. This is the way of suicides and murder. The “why” question is so prevalent in these cases.

Proverbs 2:3-6New International Version

indeed, if you call out for insight
    and cry aloud for understanding,
and if you look for it as for silver
    and search for it as for hidden treasure,
then you will understand the fear of the Lord
    and find the knowledge of God.
For the Lord gives wisdom;
    from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

22 Feb 2024 Boredom

What bores you?

I would have to say nothing really bores me right now. I am in a in between time in my life and gradually my days are beginning to fill up with interesting moments. Being medically retired at such an early age I am learning from my Aunts age group about retirement (70’s).

He will renew your life and sustain you in your old age” (Ruth 4:15 NIV).

“Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you” (Isaiah 46:4 NIV).

4 Feb 2024 Time

How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?

In my experience the best healer of the wounds of life is time. The further I get along beyond a significant event that has happened the less it hurts. There is no cure for grief but time. My cocker spaniel Sam taught me this after his passing. It took 3 years and getting another dog to get some relief from my grief over Sam’s passing. When we lost Sam we realized nothing of this world could fill the void inside- no food, no drink, no material possessions could heal the pain.

James 4:14New International Version

14 Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.

7 Dec 2023 Positive

What positive events have taken place in your life over the past year?

I would have to say the most positive event that has happened this past year is joining a prayer team at church. We have built a wonderful support system that we pray over the church and pray over eachother. Having this support system has been helping me get through some challenges I have been facing this year. Having this group has encouraged me to get more into the Bible.

The other positive events were spending the holidays with family like my first Thanksgiving with my cousin. There is a lot of family here!

Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

27 Nov 2023 Dream

This morning I had a dream with my Aunt and my Dad in it. It’s the first dream I’ve had with my Dad since his passing. I was so happy to see him. From what I’ve learned from watching mediums like Matt Fraser, our loved ones reach us through dreams. I don’t remember specifically what the dream was about as it happened just for a few seconds before my alarm went off that I forgot I set. I hope there will be more dreams like that in the future. Love seeing my Dad healthy and strong!

Acts 2:17New International Version

17 “‘In the last days, God says,
I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
your young men will see visions,
your old men will dream dreams.

25 Nov 2023 Mountains

Beach or mountains? Which do you prefer? Why?

I have lived near and visited mountains and they are so beautiful. My memories of living in Colorado Springs and going hiking and fishing on lakes on Pikes Peak are some of my fondest memories. I can remember falling asleep there too. One time I woke up to a hummingbird flittering around a red hat I was wearing. I liked the sound of Aspen tree leaves blowing in the wind. When we were in Europe there were mountains too – in Austria in particular. Gorgeous! Where I live now there are mountains – they look pretty when it snows.

Psalms 121:1-8 NIV

I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

22 Nov 2023 Instincts

Do you trust your instincts?

Hello to you. How are you? I’m doing ok. Yesterday was nice. My Aunt and I went out for her birthday dinner at the Rustic Kitchen in Star. She got her favorite fish dinner Halibut. They gave her a big piece of chocolate cream pie we shared for her birthday dessert.

Pie to share – Rustic Kitchen

Trusting my instincts yes or no – kind of a mixed bag with that. Sometimes my instincts are right on – in the flow of things but sometimes they are not. My instincts with as far as money is concerned aren’t the best. Sometimes I make hasty decisions and regret it later.

Proverbs 3:5-6

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

15 Nov 2023 When it Rains it Pours

Hello to you. How are you? It feels like we are in a time of raining. A generation of people are passing on and also a generation of pets are getting old dog issues. I just had a friend lose her mom. I’m still coming to terms with losing my Dad. Our family dog Spot is having health issues. When it rains it pours.

In all this is finding reasons to be grateful and reasons to be positive. We need to turn to our faith and lean on Jesus more than ever before. All of this is part of life as my Dad used to say to me all the time. My Dad didn’t talk much but when he did he had wise things to say. I’ll never forget the day he and I were sitting on my back porch in Texas and we were talking about God. We agreed God is in everything. This is is so true!

Psalm 37:3-7New International Version

Trust in the Lord and do good;
    dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord;
    trust in him and he will do this:
He will make your righteous rewardshine like the dawn,
    your vindication like the noonday sun.

7 Be still before the Lord
and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.

14 Nov 2023 Meeting

Who is the most famous or infamous person you have ever met?

Hello to you. I’m trying to get help with my medication. I’ve been taking more than I have been prescribed and am almost out again. I have just been so anxious and the olanzapine is the only thing that works to help calm me. I might have to go back in to the walk in clinic which sucks as I have to get someone to take me.

The most famous person I have had contact with is Jonathan Rhys Meyers and his wife Mara Lane. I sent him a fan letter and they responded. Which is very rare. The other famous person I saw at an airport was Lyle Alzado of the Oakland Raiders. The team came and sat in the restaurant my ex and I were sitting in. They were so big! Lyle was at his best – before he was sick from steroids. I knew as soon as he was walking by that “he was somebody!”

I need to get better about this!

Philippians 4:6-7 NIV

6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.