6 December 2021 Dream Kiss

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, dreams, Mental Health, Social media, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Good morning from here. I’m writing from bed where it’s warm and cozy! Link and and I haven’t decided to get up and face today yet.

Have you ever had a vivid and really happy dream that ended abruptly and you find yourself trying to go back but you can’t? That’s what happened to me last night. I dreamt I was with this blonde man and we kissed – it felt so real! I woke up disappointed to leave him! Sometimes my dreams feel like real experiences. Sometimes it feels like the only difference between dreams and reality is whether or not my eyes are open.

I am not sure if I’m going to to a video or not today for Twitch. I’m having trouble with content. I’m starting to remember how I used to do my YouTube videos. I would actually write out what I wanted to say – like a script. I don’t know if I want to do that or not. It doesn’t feel as natural if there is a script. I will have to think on this – may be not do a video everyday?

“Do you see me through all the words? Can you hear me when there is no sound? Can you feel me when no one is around? Through the wires and cables from me to you one way or another I’m going to get to you.”

I hope you have a great day! Love and be loved!

5 December 2021 Sunday

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you! How are you? I’m doing ok. I decided to take a break from the videos this morning and just write and draw. We have sunshine! So happy about that! I will have to get Link out for a walk later.

The drawing today is a combination of a bunch of things! I’m being told intuitively that the man isn’t Deegan this time. I have always thought of Jesus as having a skeleton key to all doors to include those within peoples hearts. What do you see in this drawing?

I was curious to see if keys are mentioned in the Bible and there are a couple references one of which is Matthew 16:19 “I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven;” and then the other is in Revelations 20:1 And I saw an Angel coming down out of heaven, having the key to the Abyss and holding in his hand a great chain.

A lot to think about.

It’s almost time to get another sketchbook or try color again. I have a sketchbook my Aunt bought for me awhile ago that you use colored markers with. Things don’t flow as confidentially when I use color. I’m always afraid I will make a mistake !

I raked a little more this morning. The leaves are all wet and heavy and there is Link “presents.” I don’t have any work gloves to pick the stuff up. I’ll get it figured out. I miss the Alvarado house sometimes – having a garage and all the tools I needed.

Not much else from here. I hope your having a nice day.

4 December 2021 The Beatitudes

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you. How are you ? It’s a gray, foggy and overcast day. I’m trying to keep my spirits up. This morning the message comes from Matthew 5 – the beatitudes. One of my favorite passages in the Bible :

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+5&version=NIV&interface=amp

I like to read things out loud but most everything is copywrited! I don’t have to worry about getting in trouble for that with the Bible! To me this passage is a power ballad. It’s one of those things you read to right yourself when everything seems to be going wrong!

I know not everyone who visits me here is a Christian. I would ask you to focus on the message not religion. I myself do that. There is something for you if you need it today. Are you mourning? Are you meek? Have you been insulted because of your beliefs?

Thank you for time out of your busy day to visit my blog. Writing really helps me with where I’m at in my life right now .

3 December 2021 Crap House (Gingerbread House Kit)

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Home, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello! How are you doing tonight? Today was a good day – made much brighter by my friend who came over and spent some time with Link and I. She is one of Links favorite special friends! We love her so much!

She brought over a gingerbread house kit for us to put together. We listened to Christmas music and did our best lol! The kit looked like this:

They make it look so easy

Well we both agreed we ended up with a house that was crap lol! The kit didn’t even have all the materials in the picture. There was supposed to be a box of Dots candy and all we got was an empty box! We did the best we could with the inferior materials provided. “T” said its like making mud pies but for adults! Our house came out like this:

For those familiar with the baking show Nailed It – we definitely nailed it on this house !

She left the house with us so now I officially have one Christmas decoration out AND I wrote out 4 Christmas cards today! Omg I’m doing Christmacy stuff!! God has it figured out for me! Just keep doing the next right things!

3 December 2021 Good Morning

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Home, Mental Health, Music, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Check out Morning coffee with Jackie 3 December 2021 https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1222885645

Good morning how are you? If you woke up on the wrong side of the bed I would ask you one question: what are you grateful for today? Just one thing! I have a long list!

Last night I tried to tune my lap harp and busted one of the strings! I saw how to fix it with my mind but when I actually tried to do it – nope! On the video today I played Brahms Lullaby – had all the strings to do that one. Do you play an instrument? I know for some, their voice is their instrument!

Looking forward to seeing my friend today and putting a gingerbread house together. More things to help me get into the spirit of things! How are things going for you with the holidays?

2 December 2021 Evening

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hi there! How has your day been? Good I hope! I’m starting to get in the habit of writing in the evening. It’s helping me get through these long nights. It’s starting to get darker like at 5 pm and that’s a long time til bed time! Do you have trouble with this time of the year?

I got my first Christmas card today! Glad I bought a couple cards last grocery trip. It was from my friend all the way back to my first duty station at Travis AFB CA. It’s so wonderful that he has stayed in touch all this time. There are so many people I miss that I worked with.

Today was an uneventful day…..what’s new right?! We did manage to push through and get out for a walk. My body sometimes puts up so much resistance to doing things. Lately my upper legs really have been hurting when I stand up…..getting older sucks!! The body aches in places it never used to, skin tags and other bumps on the skin, dry skin, dry mouth and brain fog. I can remember stuff but it comes out of my mouth wrong – not as sharp and clear as things once were! I’m at a weird time in my life ! No use in complaining though ….just makes it worse!

“Remember the blessings more than just a few….praise for the sunrise each day born anew. Praise for waking two feet to reach the floor….praise to embrace the adventures just beyond the front door.”

2 December 2021 Good Morning

by saymber, posted in animals, Bipolar life, Health, Mental Health, Music, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Check out this video Morning coffee with Jackie 2 December 2021 https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1221968873

Good morning from here how are you? In the video today I’m talking about being an empath and the Quantum Touch healing modality. I am wearing the rainbow tye dye shirt I got from the Glen Rose dinosaur park…..one of my favorite memories with Kyle!

It’s a foggy overcast day….. no plans. Tomorrow my friend is planning on coming over and we are going to put a gingerbread house together while we visit! I haven’t done that since Kyle and I put a kit together with his brother.

“Gradually pieces of my past are part of my now. They all fit together I just don’t know how. ”

A power ballad of a psalm for today was 121: https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+121&version=NIV&interface=amp

I’ll be back later. I wanted to tell you my process lately is to do the video and share it here first. I tried to write my post but it times out. So if you just see the Twitch link that’s why . Thanks for your understanding !

1 December 2021 Evening

by saymber, posted in animals, Bipolar life, Music, Social media, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hi. It’s 805 pm as I write to you. Are you a night owl? How has your day been? My day has been uneventful. I was excited to get 13 views on my Twitch post this morning. Anything beyond me looking at the posts is great! If you reader were one of the views – thank you! It’s pretty bare bones how I’m doing it. I don’t have a separate camera or microphone. Who knows may be that could be a future investment if things go well.

I was talking with a friend tonight and broke out my lap harp……it’s horribly out of tune. The more I tried to tune it the worse it got. I’ll try again when I have more patience. I also spent some time with my Yamaha and Tudor recorders (if your not familiar with what a recorder is it’s like a flute made out of hard plastic that school children typically play). Watching people making improv music is so inspiring! I use to love playing on electronic keyboards and pianos just by ear. I don’t read music.

Tonight I’m thinking of a memory with our senior dog Blondie. Blondie was a buff (almost white) 13 yr old cocker spaniel we rescued from an animal shelter. It was really rough adopting her because she had a lot of bowel/bladder issues. One day we had to take her to the vet and while we were sitting in the waiting room there was an older man there with his dog. He talked to us and we told him it was getting financially more difficult to take care of Blondie. He had glowing blue eyes. He was there when we finished the exam with Blondie and when they said how much it was going to be the man said he would pay the bill! Kyle and I were in shock! I asked him how we could repay him and all he said was, “Take care of your dog that’s payment enough.” I swear he must have been an angel. Who knew dogs could have angels too!

Guess I’ll quit blabbing and wrap this up. Thank you for reading this stuff I put out here. Writing really helps me a lot.

1 December 2021 Morning

by saymber, posted in animals, Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing, Health, Home, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Check out Morning coffee with Jackie 1 December 2021 https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1221118106

Good morning to you from here I hope this finds you well. How are you?

A lot going on in my drawing today. There is a plan unfolding I just have to keep taking the next steps! Metatron’s cube is large and in charge.

Not sure what the plan is for today. I managed to navigate my way through Ridleys this morning and got groceries. I miss having Kyle go and get them. He was such a great shopper. I picked up some Christmas cards so I could work on those we shall see!

“Everywhere I go I hope to see you. So many faces in new places. I look at each one and find only pieces of you.”

I had to do a couple takes on the video today. It’s all impromptu….hopefully if you can watch it there will be something for you. Sometimes it’s nice to have company.

30 November 2021 Evening

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Health, Home, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging
Evening here in Middleton ID

Hi there! How are you? It’s 6:23 pm here as I write to you. It’s dark and Link and I are cuddling on the couch. I’m watching streams on Twitch – Infoxczar is a magic channel pretty cool. I don’t do magic on my channel May be I should learn lol! It’s fun to see live entertainment….Jack is fun.

Today my Aunt talked to me about her friends daughter who is bipolar. She apparently is refusing medication and is paranoid as hell. Her parents are living in a 55 plus community and they have been letting her live with them . Neither she or them have anyplace to go if the property owner decided to evict them. Apparently the girl keeps calling the cops. Speaking as a bipolar, what this family is going through is so tough! One of the hardest aspects of loving someone with this condition is keeping them on their medications.

Just found out my cousins daughter is going in for an emergency hysterectomy tomorrow ! I can remember getting mine and it took some time to heal. I was stupid. Your not supposed to do any heavy lifting and my ex and I tried carrying a small couch home from a furniture store up the street from where we were living. I pray everything goes well for her. She has diabetes so there is that to consider with the surgery.

The friend I just reconnected with recently lost her mom to Alzheimer’s and dementia in October. She’s really struggling with it while being a wonderful mom, wife and student. The holidays will be rough for her. She is strong in her faith in God and that is helping her walk through her grief.

People have stuff going on!! It seems like as soon as one hurdle is put in front of us another equal or more challenging hurdle is put in its place! I’m kind of in the in between place right now. I had a lot of “stuff” happen all within a short period of time. Love conquers the deepest darkness. I am so grateful to love and be loved. The fall I took could have been so much harder.

If you pray could you pray for the people I have mentioned here? For privacy reasons I don’t want to put their names here. I hope everything goes ok for all of them !

Thank you for spending some time with me here.