Hello to you, how are you doing? I hope from whenever and wherever you are you are having a good today,
I had a couple of interesting dreams last night. One of them was of seeing Princess Diana in a wedding veil and telling her she could stay, whatever that meant. The other dream had to do with former President Ronald Reagan and getting car keys from him but instead of getting a car there were beds with numbers on them.
Today is my cousins’ sons wedding and we are having an orange level air quality day. I hope it clears up for them. The sky is gray, like clouds are in the sky, but it smells like burning! I made my final decision about whether I was going to the wedding or not and I have decided not to go. I just want the day to be about them and their happiness. I can’t stop thinking about my own stuff and how I feel about it. In my minds eye, I keep seeing myself in black dress looking like I did when I married my ex but alone. I miss my ex-husband very much and am having trouble moving on without him. When I think about things I feel like I am being pulled apart !
“today” in the English Ordinal system equals 65 (all vices in check but one for all the 5 senses)
(“white” in the English Ordinal system equals 65)
“one two September two zero two zero ” in the English Ordinal system equals 439 (left side of brain yes, no, may be, no existence” and ironically my name 39 is in here)
these values above made me think of yin and yang :
Yin and Yang
In Ancient Chinese philosophy, yin and yang (/jɪn/ and; Chinese: 陰陽 yīnyáng, lit. “dark-bright”, “negative-positive”) is a concept of dualism, describing how seemingly opposite or contrary forces may actually be complementary, interconnected, and interdependent in the natural world, and how they may give rise to each other as they interrelate to one another. In Chinese cosmology, the universe creates itself out of a primary chaos of material energy, organized into the cycles of Yin and Yang and formed into objects and lives. Yin is the receptive and Yang the active principle, seen in all forms of change and difference such as the annual cycle (winter and summer), the landscape (north-facing shade and south-facing brightness), sexual coupling (female and male), the formation of both women and men as characters and sociopolitical history (disorder and order).
To be 