Category: Bipolar life

10 December 2021 To Friend

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Home, Leading Life by Example, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging
“To friend” – I found this under my cars windshield wiper today! It made my whole day !

Sometimes God winks at you when you least expect it. I was doing a live stream today and went out to the front porch. I looked at my car and noticed this envelope under my cars windshield wiper! I had just kind of said I didn’t really know my neighbors here! Marlene is one of the first people I met moving in here. She walks her sweet dog everyday and always stops and says hello. She is the kind of person that doesn’t know a stranger. Her simple gesture, this act of kindness reminded me that I am not without friends here in Middleton.

This passage came to mind :

Matthew 25:40-45New International Version

40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’(A)

Twitch channel: jwygant

10 December 2021 Progress Not Perfection

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Home, Mental Health, Social media, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging
No plans today

Hello to you. How are you doing today? Link and I got out of bed late today. I just didn’t want to get up. My sleep patterns are all messed up for some reason. I was up til after 12 last night . I wonder if it’s because I watch stuff on my phone so late .

Last night I was on Twitch doing some self therapy and actually got a viewer that wasn’t my family or a friend! He was a young man from the desert and he was just needing someone to talk to about loss. He expressed feeling trapped in his life. So young to have these feelings but I truly understand it. What happened last night is exactly why I’m continuing on with the channel. Even to reach one or two people and help them not feel alone with what they are going through is reason enough. I asked him how he found my channel and he said he searched under the word depression. I’m up to 4 followers now! Progress!

I don’t have any plans today. I need to do some adulting like getting groceries but I don’t want to. I think I will go tomorrow. The leaves I raked up are covered with snow from last night – so much for that project !! The sun through my front windows feels good. May be later Link and I will get a walk in.

“I hope you know that you are one of a kind, cast in flesh with love in mind. In all creation there is just one precious you…..with this knowledge I wonder what will you do?”

Twitch channel: jwygant

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9 December 2021 Links Birthday

by saymber, posted in animals, Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Home, Mental Health, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging
“Today is my birthday I’m 7!”

Hello to you from here…how are you?! Today we are celebrating Links 7th birthday. There is even sunshine which feels so nice ! He likes sunning himself by the front door.

“Little sun beam thank you for your light. Your loving presence shines in my heart both day and night. Today we celebrate everything that is you……my precious little baby boo.”

Hello !

I can feel today is one of those “push” days. I didn’t get to sleep til after 2 am. Just not firing on all cylinders. Thank God for Link. He gives me a reason to get up each day!

8 December 2021 Wednesday In The Clouds

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Home, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you. How are you? The sun is trying to peek through the clouds- even a little bit of sunlight helps.

The sun is trying to peek through the clouds!

No plans for today. My mind is drifting like the clouds in sky….. not sure where to land. I’ve been thinking about painting again. Just have to make the commitment and buy the stuff! What I’m worried about is that I will rush things and be left with a bunch of shitty paintings not even I want lol! That has happened before! I will see how things go with the colored pens first I think.

Not sure what’s going on in this one

“We are all just travelers riding the waves of time.”

7 December 2021 Focus On What You Want

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you! How are you? I’m having a late start to the day. I just didn’t want to get up! I’m experiencing minor depression – just part of being bipolar and also the weather…SAD. Bad combo!

This morning I’m reminded of something I learned a long time ago. Focus on what you want not what you don’t. What you focus on gains power. For example I have started and restarted this very blog post like 3 or 4 times today. The previous attempts were all focusing and giving power to what I don’t want in my life. My complaints. My aches and pains. Getting old. I don’t want to give power to what ails me…..I want to give thanks for what doesn’t cause me to suffer. That’s not to say I want to lie to myself and not acknowledge that negatives exist, they do. I just don’t want them to rule my life!

Pulls out the mental gratitude list:

God, Link, home, food, clothing, working washer and dryer, good phone, internet, reliable power, water, working car, family, friends, quiet neighborhood, healthy body and healthy spirit.

The list usually grows when you start with one thing! If you can get to gratitude your on your way . Yesterday Soul Angel and Energy Healing shared this on their post and I want to pass it along to you. I am always asking God about my purpose in life! According to this I am living my purpose each time I follow my heart:

Fb post Soul Angel and Energy Healing

6 December 2021 Dream Kiss

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, dreams, Mental Health, Social media, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Good morning from here. I’m writing from bed where it’s warm and cozy! Link and and I haven’t decided to get up and face today yet.

Have you ever had a vivid and really happy dream that ended abruptly and you find yourself trying to go back but you can’t? That’s what happened to me last night. I dreamt I was with this blonde man and we kissed – it felt so real! I woke up disappointed to leave him! Sometimes my dreams feel like real experiences. Sometimes it feels like the only difference between dreams and reality is whether or not my eyes are open.

I am not sure if I’m going to to a video or not today for Twitch. I’m having trouble with content. I’m starting to remember how I used to do my YouTube videos. I would actually write out what I wanted to say – like a script. I don’t know if I want to do that or not. It doesn’t feel as natural if there is a script. I will have to think on this – may be not do a video everyday?

“Do you see me through all the words? Can you hear me when there is no sound? Can you feel me when no one is around? Through the wires and cables from me to you one way or another I’m going to get to you.”

I hope you have a great day! Love and be loved!

5 December 2021 Sunday

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you! How are you? I’m doing ok. I decided to take a break from the videos this morning and just write and draw. We have sunshine! So happy about that! I will have to get Link out for a walk later.

The drawing today is a combination of a bunch of things! I’m being told intuitively that the man isn’t Deegan this time. I have always thought of Jesus as having a skeleton key to all doors to include those within peoples hearts. What do you see in this drawing?

I was curious to see if keys are mentioned in the Bible and there are a couple references one of which is Matthew 16:19 “I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven;” and then the other is in Revelations 20:1 And I saw an Angel coming down out of heaven, having the key to the Abyss and holding in his hand a great chain.

A lot to think about.

It’s almost time to get another sketchbook or try color again. I have a sketchbook my Aunt bought for me awhile ago that you use colored markers with. Things don’t flow as confidentially when I use color. I’m always afraid I will make a mistake !

I raked a little more this morning. The leaves are all wet and heavy and there is Link “presents.” I don’t have any work gloves to pick the stuff up. I’ll get it figured out. I miss the Alvarado house sometimes – having a garage and all the tools I needed.

Not much else from here. I hope your having a nice day.

4 December 2021 The Beatitudes

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you. How are you ? It’s a gray, foggy and overcast day. I’m trying to keep my spirits up. This morning the message comes from Matthew 5 – the beatitudes. One of my favorite passages in the Bible :

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+5&version=NIV&interface=amp

I like to read things out loud but most everything is copywrited! I don’t have to worry about getting in trouble for that with the Bible! To me this passage is a power ballad. It’s one of those things you read to right yourself when everything seems to be going wrong!

I know not everyone who visits me here is a Christian. I would ask you to focus on the message not religion. I myself do that. There is something for you if you need it today. Are you mourning? Are you meek? Have you been insulted because of your beliefs?

Thank you for time out of your busy day to visit my blog. Writing really helps me with where I’m at in my life right now .

3 December 2021 Crap House (Gingerbread House Kit)

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Home, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello! How are you doing tonight? Today was a good day – made much brighter by my friend who came over and spent some time with Link and I. She is one of Links favorite special friends! We love her so much!

She brought over a gingerbread house kit for us to put together. We listened to Christmas music and did our best lol! The kit looked like this:

They make it look so easy

Well we both agreed we ended up with a house that was crap lol! The kit didn’t even have all the materials in the picture. There was supposed to be a box of Dots candy and all we got was an empty box! We did the best we could with the inferior materials provided. “T” said its like making mud pies but for adults! Our house came out like this:

For those familiar with the baking show Nailed It – we definitely nailed it on this house !

She left the house with us so now I officially have one Christmas decoration out AND I wrote out 4 Christmas cards today! Omg I’m doing Christmacy stuff!! God has it figured out for me! Just keep doing the next right things!

3 December 2021 Good Morning

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Home, Mental Health, Music, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Check out Morning coffee with Jackie 3 December 2021 https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1222885645

Good morning how are you? If you woke up on the wrong side of the bed I would ask you one question: what are you grateful for today? Just one thing! I have a long list!

Last night I tried to tune my lap harp and busted one of the strings! I saw how to fix it with my mind but when I actually tried to do it – nope! On the video today I played Brahms Lullaby – had all the strings to do that one. Do you play an instrument? I know for some, their voice is their instrument!

Looking forward to seeing my friend today and putting a gingerbread house together. More things to help me get into the spirit of things! How are things going for you with the holidays?