Hello to you. How are you today? This morning I am still processing what happened yesterday. I went out and spent a few hours with husband and his family for Memorial Day. Kyle and I had the talk I been dreading for us to have but it was necessary. Spot sat between us. The past four years have just proven to be more than Kyle can take. He is also trying to progress in a career where he is going to be gone a lot. I may not be financially high maintenance but emotionally I can be. I’m kind of like a dog with separation anxiety to be honest. I don’t do well being by myself too long. So he’s doing what is best for himself and ultimately I think this will be good for me too I just can’t see it yet. I think things are going to be alright. With everything that has happened between us the past few years, our friendship remains intact and that means the world to me! I got to spend time with Spot too and she seemed much more relaxed than I’ve seen her in a long time which is a good thing.
25 May 2020 – beautiful Spotty in her first bed
At about 3 pm Tim played TAPS. It reminded me of when we had all gone to Arlington National Cemetery and he and his family played.
25 May 2020 Tim Played TAPS in honor of Memorial Day25 May 2020 Beth Tim Kyle and Cole
We played a few rounds of Yahtzee and of course I didn’t win! It was fun to spend some time together like that. I am blessed to have such understanding people as family.
25 May 2020 – Yahtzee!25 May 2020 – handsome Henry. He and Link are always fighting over Kyle’s Mom Beth!
Hello again. It’s a gray and windy afternoon and I’m lonesome. To help fill the void what seems to be working for me right now is walking and writing. I’ve taken a couple of long walks already today so I figured I’d spend some more time writing. I’ve been seeing a lot of other folks in our neighborhoods out walking too so I don’t think I’m alone with what I’m going through.
I decided to try my hand at a short story with a tree theme in honor or my husband and my wedding anniversary today:
A long time ago there was a little seed that was born on the branch of a great oak tree. When that seed was first formed it didn’t know how long it would be part of the oak tree that formed it. The seed didn’t know where it would go should it have to leave the oak tree. The rains came. The sun shown. The breath of morning, noon and night came and went. The moon glowed and the stars shown. The seed got bigger and bigger until one day the winds blew just right and the seed was forced from it’s branch on the parent oak. The seed was large and plummeted noisely to the ground. Once making purchase with the grass, it rattled a little bit inside it’s shell then lay still. Now came the waiting time. Waiting to be chosen.
8 May 2020 an oak seed
The seed lay still on the spot to which it’s parent had dropped it for many days. The rains came. The sun shown, The breath of morning, noon and night came and went. The moon glowed and the stars shown. The seed lay very still and waited to be chosen by one of the great Arborists also known as squirrel. It was the dream all oak seeds to be chosen for planting so they could create brand new great oak of their own!
Many other seeds lay on the ground all around this one seed. Then the day came when the great Arborist started to examine the seeds to see which ones would be worthy for planting. It was getting to be fall and the Arborist was planning ahead to colder times. The Arborist picked up each seed and examined them very closely. Occasionally they would shake a seed and listen carefully for just the right sound. One by one, each seed was carefully examined until finally the great Arborist came to that one lone seed that had fallen seemingly so long ago.
At first it looked like the Arborist was going to reject the lonely seed. They picked up and dropped the seed more than once. They shook the seed and examined it in great detail before taking it into it’s mouth to nice patch of dirt and burying it. Now the sleep slumbered. The rains came. The sun shown. The breath of morning, noon and night came and went. The moon glowed and the stars shown. Then something magical happened, a sprout shot through the hard seed shell and dark soil. The sprout reached up to the sky and thus was the beginning of a new oak tree.
8 May 2020 a baby oak sapling.
Sometimes I feel a bit like the seed in this little story. I have tried to bloom where I’ve been planted here in Alvarado, but I am feeling the winds blow in a new direction. I am feeling a tug at my soul but I’m not exactly sure which direction. What is the plan for me? How can I be useful to my little family? How can I best serve this world I love without being a burden to it? I will try my best to remain vigilant and open minded. God always has a plan.
“seed” in the English Ordinal system equals 33
“oak tree” in the English Ordinal system equals 75
Arborist” in the English Ordinal system equals 102
squirrel” in the English Ordinal system equals 119
to bloom where you are planted” in the English Ordinal system equals 308
I came across this today and thought it was really sweet:
This is a story about a Princess who was saved by her dog named Link. Everyone is a Princess in their own castle if you stop and think about it. I have shared this story here before but the blog got deleted. In light of recent events, it felt like a good time to share it again. This is positive story when we need more of those.
So this story really began on 18 April 2014 when I, the sad and lonely Princess, was out walking in the fields down the street from our house. I found half of a Christmas ornament! The ornament said, ‘Ase Pa Vlla Nakni’ of Oklahoma. I had to look this up on the internet to find out what it meant. The Choctaw language loosely translated, it was about the arrival of a male child. Much to my delight and surprise, a couple of days later I found the other half of the same Christmas ornament at the entrance to our neighborhood. The top half had a picture of a little drummer boy and said ‘The Choctaw Nation.’
7 May 2020 Choctaw ornament I found before Link was born
I, the Princess, wrote a song about this:
I will not waiver
I will not fear
I will not cry or shed a tear
For you are here You are here
You love me and I love you
The future is blooming
For us to see as one, as one
You are here
Now my first thought was that my friend, another Princess, named Erin might be pregnant because she is part Choctaw but come to find out, her Princess, Tippie, a female maltese was expecting puppies instead!
We had told Erin that if Tippie ever had a little boy that we would consider adopting and sure enough on 9 December 2019 God smiled and Tippie gave birth to not one but three little Princes! We got to choose from the three and chose the odd ball with a panda face and darker coloring. Kyle chose the name which was both for his love of The Legend of Zelda video game character and our “link” to our friends Billy and Erin.
Baby picture of Link
Now what’s so special about this story is for three years prior to all this we had been grieving the loss of our cocker spaniel Sam. I had been begging God to bring our Sammy back and in God’s time, there was an answer! God seemed to say, “I’ll give you not one but three boys to choose from!”
The Christmas of his arrival, Link came to our town for the first time with his family and it was of course love at first sight! It was so hard to part but for my birthday on 13 February we went to Oklahoma and brought him home for good. His arrival healed both of our hearts.
In so many ways he has helped me face this journey of life and helps me know that I am not alone. Link is not just a hero in video games but a hero in my life.
The hero of our story
5 May 2020 Link and I on walk Parkway Park Alvarado TX
Hello to you. It’s Saturday afternoon as I write to you in your here and now. How are you? I hope well. I am having some shall I say, “alone time” right now and find myself challenged to find things to do. Today I took out the trusty cribbage and chessboards and found myself quickly bored with the board lol. I write and draw a lot, sometimes paint, take pictures, enjoy almost every genre of music (some more than others), love to dance and be physically active, enjoy good food, truly enjoy being outside with God and sometimes play a video game here and there. I enjoy making things but don’t really have an outlet for the things I make. I think it is safe to say, at least for my house, you can have too many home made blankets! Hobbies can get expensive no matter what they are. When you are on a fixed income you have to watch your spending, at least that has been my personal choice about it.
Living where I do, most of the activities that I could participate in require me to spend money. Driving to even a “free” place can get expensive over time. So I have learned to amuse myself the best I can in the parameters in which I live. For many, I think, it would be quite a dull existence.
I have planted a seed, if you want to call it that, for the God of my understanding to gradually and tangibly, put people in my life that are interested in the sorts of things I am interested in. Some time ago, I had a “tribe” here, but everyone went their separate ways and all are extremely busy with their lives and pursuit of their dreams and or livelihoods. Some of what I’m interested in may be considered “fringe” type things – much of which is in the spiritual, scientific and paranormal realms.
Sometimes when you plant a seed with God it takes time and the right “soil” in which for the seed to germinate.
2 Sept 2019 Jackie Wygant cell phone picture horse apple tree next to abandoned house near The Family Dollar Alvarado TX
The other day I was walking to the Family Dollar down the street and happened to notice this beautiful tree living near an abandoned house across the street from our local Elementary School. I got to thinking about how nice it would be if that property could be annexed to the school for learning about plants and nature; like a nature learning center or something. There is a large field next to it I imagined being turned into a community garden and it could also be part of the learning center. I imagined children learning how to grow their own food and appreciating nature like I do.
Facts and Myths of Hedge Apples by Dr. Barbara Ogg, Extension Educator
This article appeared in the October 2001 NEBLINE Newsletter
This time of year, hedge apples – the fruit from the Osage-orange tree – are being sold at farmer’s markets, garden centers, and other locations. Many people have heard that these fruits can be used as an insect repellent, but the truth is that many people don’t know much else about this unusual tree and its fruit.
The Tree and Its Fruit:
The Osage-orange is a small to medium-sized tree, having a short trunk and a rounded or irregular crown. The twigs are buff to orange-brown and are armed with one-half inch long spines. The stems exude a milky sap when cut. The Osage-orange is dioecious, meaning that male and female flowers are produced on separate trees. The small, green flowers appear in May or June. Female trees produce 3-to 5-inch diameter fruit which ripen in September or October and fall to the ground.
Native Habitat and Current Distribution:
The Osage-orange is native to a small area in eastern Texas, southeastern Oklahoma, and southwestern Arkansas. This region is the home of the Osage Indians which gives the tree its common name. Settlers found that the Osage-orange transplanted easily, tolerated poor soils, extreme heat, and strong winds and had no serious insect or disease problems. It was widely planted in the Midwest as a living fence because, when pruned into a hedge, it provided an impenetrable barrier to livestock. The development of barbed wire curtailed its widespread planting, but many Osage-orange trees can still be found in fence rows.
Uses of the Osage-Orange:
The wood is extremely hard, heavy, durable and shrinks or swells little compared to the wood of other trees. The wood is used for fence posts, treenails, furniture, and archery bows. In fact, many archers consider the wood of the Osage-orange to be the world’s finest wood for bows. Another common name for this tree, bodark, is from the French bios d’arc meaning “bow wood.” This tree also produces a bright yellow dye which can be extracted from the wood.
The fruit of the Osage-orange is a nuisance in the home landscape and has little value. Hedge apples are not an important source of food for wildlife as most birds and animals find the fruit unpalatable. The thorny trees do provide nesting and cover for wildlife.
The belief about the use of hedge apples for insect control is widespread and persistent. it is claimed that placing hedge apples around the foundation or inside the basement will repel or control insects. A few years ago, Iowa State University toxicologists extracted compounds from hedge apples. When concentrated, these compounds were found to repel insects.
Scientists also found that natural concentrations of these compounds in the fruit were too low to be an effective repellent. So, don’t be fooled into spending much to use hedge apples as an insect repellent.
If you decide to pick hedge apples to check out the repellency yourself or to use the fruit as a fall decoration, it would be wise to wear gloves. The milky juice present in the stems and fruit of the Osage-orange can irritate the skin.
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IMG_5751 11 July 2019 proof of wasps taking care of the pecan tree out back Alvarado TX
11 July 2019 – cropped version of picture showing what’s going on. I felt bad for the caterpillar but to save it I would have had to kill the wasp. Our pecan tree has almost been completely taken over by caterpillars this summer. From what I have personally seen with my own eyes, Wasps help take care of the trees and I’ve been seeing less of them over the past few years.
IMG_5752 11 July 2019 proof of wasps taking care of the pecan tree out back Alvarado TX
*Seeing this today was like they were showing me, “Hey, look what my job is! I have value, I have worth!” We used to be mean to the wasps until I took the time to learn their job in nature actually is. From what I have personally witnessed, their purpose for existence includes trying to keep our trees healthy. Since trees are basically the lungs of the planet, I think that’s a pretty important job! I have read conflicting information about wasps online. My personal experience is they are helpers and teachers. What came through in the numbers is a pecan tree and a teacher have a pattern in common. What I believe is we all, whatever form, are teachers, students, messages and receivers of those messages. I believe everyone has value in one way or another. It’s not always easy to understand what we are trying to convey to each other. I don’t think we should give up trying!
133 – “don’t give up”
Wasp – 59/84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140…….
*remember, these are only just a few of the meanings of these numbers that I have found for myself and am sharing with you.
152’s – amber tree resin, positive drama, positive being,
pecan tree – 87/114/128/141/128/141……….
87- person, truth, roots, justice
pecan – 39/98/91/76/117/133/146
98 – killer bees (I found this value trying to figure out why people may have a fear of bees/wasps. Remember those old Killer bee television shows and movies? When I was a very small girl I can remember drinking a can of soda without realizing a bee was in the can and I got stung. I was pretty freaked out! It wasn’t the bee’s fault but a “seed of fear” was planted that I had to actively overcome through time. I did this through trying to understand them instead of thinking they were all bad. The same principle I have used towards other insects and life forms to include people. It’s not easy to do but for me personally, it has been worth trying to do.)
76 – humans
117’s – nurture, “I’m sorry,” dissection, projecting, “broken earth,” humility, upbringing, occupation, statement, cultivated, heartbroken, water falls (If you look at a pecan it looks like a human brain in the shell and they are considered a healthy food for the brain). http://www.alzheimersweekly.com/2016/11/pecans-provide-brain-boost.html
tree – 48/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150……….
A phrase that I say quite often is thank you. A phrase I say to someone because I want them to know I appreciate them be they a human being or any other form of life. A phrase I express to the God of my understanding for the food I eat, having a place to live, clothes on my back, water to drink, having my health and all the other aspects that make up my simple life.
Just two words….”thank you.”
It’s sometimes easy to lose sight of what we have and focus on what we don’t have. There are days it’s easier for me to complain, pass judgement on others and make myself miserable. This is when is a good time to give thanks. To pull out a mental gratitude list and find that all the positives in my life far outweigh the negatives.
“The Attitude of Gratitude”
“the attitude of gratitude” in the English Ordinal system equals 259/16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 16/8/4/2/1 (the straight path I see is seeing the world in one way or the other without discernment or questioning.)
(7 divided by 2, for me, a world divided into two parts within a person and outside of a person. Seeing the world with both the light and shadow sides of ourselves. When 8 arrives, for me, I see the arrival of God (26) which gradually brings you back to 1 or yourself. Not everyone believes in the same God. Not everyone has the same concept of God. Not everyone even believes in God. This is just how I interpret these values for myself. How I perceive “God” isn’t even like my family or most people I know. I see God as the energy of all creation – the earth, all the planets and all known existence. That’s just me and I don’t expect anyone also to adopt this concept. I like to show, via this system, the messages and patterns that I see. This system is a way for me to find some semblance of trust in a system I am finding so much fault with these days.)
“two five nine” in the English Ordinal system equals 142
“gratitude” in the English Ordinal system equals 105/6/3 cycle
“one zero five” in the English Ordinal system equals 140
“world” in the English Ordinal system equals 72/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle
“seven two” in the English Ordinal system equals 123
17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10/1 or 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 =
2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5= 8 divided by 2 = 4 divided by 2 = 2 divided by 2 comes back to 1
For some there is no question that they like flowers. For some there is a question which flowers they like. For some they like flowers but are allergic to them so they cannot enjoy flowers except from a great distance. For some they know for certain they do not like flowers and avoid them at all cost. For some it is not enough to dislike flowers. They will go out of their way to destroy flowers for others so that no one may enjoy them.
What happens with the like or dislike of flowers could also cross over to people and anything else with a spirit, anything or anyone that comes from the God of my understanding.
A further look at how the sum for the flower breaks down:
DSC_0569 27 April 2018 rose in the morning sun Alvarado TX
Fluttershy’s Coronation Dress by Bethiebo on deviantART – I don’t have permission to use this image so I won’t. For those unfamiliar, My Little Pony has a character named Fluttershy and she is one of my favorites. When I was in a very dark depression it was at first the original MLP and then the current show that helped lift me out. The show was like a life preserver from God to me and I’m very grateful for it. The show is positive and tries to teach life lessons in a way many levels, many ages of people, can comprehend in a loving way.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lauren_Faust – never knew what she looked like until today. She looks a lot like my husbands avatar for Monster Hunter Lol! Thank you for your work Lauren and all those who work with you to try and make the entertainment world a better place for people like me.
To be 