7 November 2022 Wreckage (recovery after manic episode)

Hello how are you? I’m doing ok. Still working through the wreckage after what happened. Last night was my first night alone in the house. Link ate the ham for his pills but didn’t want to this morning. He’s too smart. He hasn’t been eating his regular dog food which concerns me. I’m having the internet people come out today as it’s inoperable. It got ripped from the wall for some reason during all the chaos.

I’m so frustrated with myself. My little house was so nice and now there is damage to it that has to be repaired eventually. This is the aftermath of a manic episode. I look at some of the stuff that happened and it makes no sense at all. What was I thinking?! Just not in my right mind I guess is the only answer. Just have to keep taking it one day at a time.

https://youtu.be/5utEmwxi3xs – we know where you go Blue October

26 June 2022 WWJD?

Last night before bed my thoughts and tear filled prayers went out to Jesus. Longing to hear him tell me what he thought of our times. Of course there were no words but I felt his presence and my tears dried…..I got a little sleep. This morning I found this article in answer to my question if Jesus was a feminist. In his time and stories of the Bible certainly suggest he might have been or he at least treated women as equals:

https://christianity.org.uk/article/jesus-the-feminist

“Jesus had a radical approach for the times in which he lived 2,000 years ago. The culture of the Middle East then was male-dominated. Women were second-class citizens with very few rights. Jesus might not be seen as a feminist by some modern standards, but his attitude to women was revolutionary. He challenged the patriarchy repeatedly. He saw women as equal to men and treated them with equal respect. The Bible books of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John document a range of encounters Jesus had with various women, which illustrate how he challenged the norms of the time and treated women with compassion and care.”

I like to think if he ever does come back home that what he might think, say and do might disappoint some. He didn’t have statistics to look at in his time…..evidence of the crimes of humanity against themselves, each other and the world often committed in his name or some other man-made God. Thinking of Mammon:

Matthew 6:24New International Version

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.(A)

The selective mind-set of being “pro-life” in this country and world. Read the other day capital punishment is still alive and well…prisoners requesting death by firing squads. We want the babies but discard the adults. How many neglected and abused children and adults? How many discarded pets? Forgotten elderly? You are either for all life or your not pro-life. It’s really hypocrisy how we pick and choose which life has more value or meaning. The Jesus I know didn’t do what we do and so many using his name to justify their hate of gays and minorities. Who made these babies that become targets of hate? With regards to gay people….straight people made them so that must mean , according to the logic I’ve been hearing especially right now with women’s reproductive rights under attack, that God wants them here. Contrary to what many want to comfort their hate with – being gay is not a choice. Can you just stop being heterosexual?

According to Bruce Bagemihl, same-sex behavior (comprising courtship, sexual, pair-bonding, and parental activities) has been documented in over 450 species of animals worldwide.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org › wiki

Homosexual behavior in animals – Wikipedia

The purpose of this post is to try and be a voice of reason from a Christian perspective not to piss anybody off or insult you. Your going to think , feel and do what you want no matter what anybody tells you. I’m encouraging you to get out of the box you might be stuck… programmed to be in. It’s the only path to peace for you personally and this world.

Some good songs I found yesterday, the one by Blue October in the middle of the night:

https://youtu.be/tEpwvvyrAJU – Chris Cornell – The Promise

https://youtu.be/5utEmwxi3xs – Blue October – We Know Where You Go