# 8 Nov 2018 In the Dark Spaces

This morning, after processing yet another act of terror in this country, I kept my heart centered with love.  This doesn’t feel like a coincidence to be happening again so soon.  It feels like yet another very public distraction from other goings on in our country.  Instead of feeling anger and all the feelings I normally have felt, I choose love.  I choose truth.  I choose justice.  I pray for the greatest most loving good in all of this.  As a friend I once knew chose as his personal campaign, choose love not hate.  (choose love not hate in Simple Gematria equals: 202)

in the dark spaces of the unknown i will shine a light of love in Simple Gematria equals: 571

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

truth in Simple Gematria equals: 87

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

justice in Simple Gematria equals: 87

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

honor in Simple Gematria equals: 70

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 815 (86)

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

respect in Simple Gematria equals: 86

14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

american in Simple Gematria equals: 64

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

hero in Simple Gematria equals: 46

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

(64 + 46 = 110)

earth angels in Simple Gematria equals: 110 (president in Simple Gematria equals: 110)

110/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

good in Simple Gematria equals: 41

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

evil in Simple Gematria equals: 48 (birth, cycle)

12/3 cycle or 12 divided by 2 = 6 divided by 2 =

mental illness in Simple Gematria equals: 155

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

disease in Simple Gematria equals: 62

8/4/2/1

impaired in Simple Gematria equals: 75

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

violence in Simple Gematria equals: 85 (same value as the phrase that came to me to share but different meaning)

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30

3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

life in Simple Gematria equals: 32

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

death in Simple Gematria equals: 38 (light)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

birth in Simple Gematria equals: 57

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

cycle in Simple Gematria equals: 48

12/6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

light in Simple Gematria equals: 56 (death)

11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

darkness in Simple Gematria equals: 91 (hero)

10/1 or 10/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

anger in Simple Gematria equals: 45

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

hate in Simple Gematria equals: 34 (honor)

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

possessed in Simple Gematria equals: 121

4/2/1

perception in Simple Gematria equals: 121

4/2/1

reality in Simple Gematria equals: 90 (love)

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

freedom of choice in Simple Gematria equals: 130 (choose love not hate in Simple Gematria equals: 202)

= 1633

76/13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1633

## Events

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https://www.gunviolencearchive.org/“Is this what America is?”  “Is this what our world is?”

8 Nov 2018 Gun violence map 51fd6d40-2abd-4a58-9e24-7ac72fd4fbde

• 2018

Gun violence  and crime incidents are collected/validated from 2,500 sources daily – incidents and their source data are found at the gunviolencearchive.org website.

1: Actual number of deaths and injuries
2: Number of INCIDENTS reported and verified

22,000 Annual Suicides not included on Daily Summary Ledger

Numbers on this table reflect a subset of all information
collected and will not add to 100% of incidents.

Data Validated: November 08, 2018

By saymber

# 27 Oct 2018 Broken Pieces (put back together to make someone new)

broken pieces put back together to make someone new in Simple Gematria equals: 487

19/10/1 or 19 divided by 2 = 9.5 = 14 divided by 2 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

the tree of life in Simple Gematria equals: 134

8/4/2/1  (God = 26)

= 621/9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle Difficult = 90/9

I tried to avoid the news but wasn’t able to avoid reading about what happened at the Tree of Life synagogue in Pittsburgh.  The message from the 25th making a sense I don’t want it to make.  People shouldn’t have to worry about being shot in their place of fellowship and worship no matter what walk of faith.   We’ve now had Christians, Muslims and Jews all having to deal with this kind of violence.  The Second Amendment has made being a person of faith a difficult gamble in this country.  There is a severe imbalance at work here.   We keep putting band-aids on top of a mortal wound.

Every time this happens we decry the act.  Every time this happens we say, “This isn’t who we are” or “Our thoughts and prayers are with the victims and their families” and guess what….it happens again.  Unresolved wrongs, unresolved revenge and hatred, ancient battles that carries forward to a new generation over and over again.  The answer from our top office, “if they had only more guns or an armed guard may be no one would have been killed or died.”  They’ve tried armed guards and guess what, the guards ran and people died.  In my heart I don’t think just adding more guns to the fight is going to win it.  There is only a returning cycle to such things, no one ever truly “wins.”

This act of terrorism, not just merely a hate crime, is yet another example of why I’m reading about friends who are worried about having to leave this country because of what it’s becoming or what it has always been under the surface.

There is not much I can do to change someone’s mind, heart, thoughts or actions with such volatile matters.  I can do the things I do to include sending positive energy and love to all sides of these equations.  We are all, whether we like it or not, precious parts of a one.  We may be very dysfunctional, some even murderous but we are a family.  I will never stop believing it is possible for all of us to coexist without bloodshed in the headlines every day.

Gunman kills 11 in Pittsburgh synagogue massacre investigated as a hate crime

Deanna Paul, Avi Selk, Amy Wang, Mark Berman

A gunman killed 11 people at a Pittsburgh synagogue during Saturday-morning services in what the Anti-Defamation League called “likely the deadliest attack on the Jewish community in the history of the United States.”

Law enforcement officials said Robert Bowers — a 46-year-old man with a history of making virulently anti-Semitic statements online — was taken into custody after a gun battle with police and is expected to face federal hate crime charges.

“Justice in this case will be swift and it will be severe,” said Scott W. Brady, the U.S. Attorney for the Western District of Pennsylvania. Brady said Bowers could be charged sometime Saturday for what he called a “terrible and unspeakable act of hate.”

Authorities described a rampage at the Tree of Life synagogue, the city’s oldest Jewish congregation, that was stunning in its savagery.

“This is the most horrific crime scene I’ve seen in 22 years with the Federal Bureau of Investigation,” said Robert Allan Jones, Special Agent in Charge of the FBI’s Pittsburgh field office. “Members of the Tree of Life synagogue conducting a peaceful service in their place of worship were brutally murdered by a gunman targeting them simply because of their faith.”

gunman kills eleven in pittsburgh synagogue massacre investigated as a hate crime in Simple Gematria equals: 790

16/8/4/2/1  or 16/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

https://www.gunviolencearchive.org/

2018

Gun violence  and crime incidents are collected/validated from 2,500 sources daily – incidents and their source data are found at the gunviolencearchive.org website.

1: Actual number of deaths and injuries
2: Number of INCIDENTS reported and verified

22,000 Annual Suicides not included on Daily Summary Ledger

Numbers on this table reflect a subset of all information
collected and will not add to 100% of incidents.

Data Validated: October 27, 2018

Interesting things here to look at in these words:

13/4/2/1 or 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
494 + 373 = 867
21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
The account that appeared to belong to Bowers was rife with bigoted messaging. His biography on the site read “jews are the children of satan” and his background photo was a radar gun reading “1488,” a popular white supremacist symbol.
1488
21/3 cycle or 21 divided by 2 = 10.5 = 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle
Some of what we use to divide us and is often used as justification for much of the above:
religion in Simple Gematria equals: 89
17/8/4/2/1 or 17 divided by 2 = 8.5 = 13 divided by 2 = 6.5 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1  (494)
politics in Simple Gematria equals: 103
4/2/1
the media in Simple Gematria equals: 65
11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
= 257 (77 – same #value as Christ)
14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1 or 14/5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1
(there are many other labels we use to separate ourselves from each other that I didn’t include here.  They are just as volatile in nature as these and it makes me so sad.)

# 20 Oct 2018 A Salmon

https://www.gematrix.org/

turn it out in Simple Gematria equals: 158

14/7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

turn it in in Simple Gematria equals: 125

8/4/2/1

turn away in Simple Gematria equals: 123

6/3 divided by 2 = 1.5 = 6 divided by 2 = 3 cycle

fight in Simple Gematria equals: 50

5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

flight in Simple Gematria equals: 62

8/4/2/1

apathy in Simple Gematria equals: 71

8/4/2/1

love in Simple Gematria equals: 54

9 divided by 2 = 4.5 = 9 cycle

hate in Simple Gematria equals: 34

7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

peace in Simple Gematria equals: 30

3 cycle

abandoned in Simple Gematria equals: 60

6/3 cycle

rebellion in Simple Gematria equals: 92

11/2/1 or 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

= 859  (13 and 9 are numbers that come up a lot for me personally)

22/4/2/1 or 22 divided by 2 = 11 divided by 2 = 5.5 = 10 divided by 2 = 5 divided by 2 = 2.5 = 7 divided by 2 = 3.5 = 8/4/2/1

What the numbers come to in this line of thinking describes me well.  I often feel like one of those salmon swimming upstream in this world.

Source Internet: Sometimes I feel like the salmon in this picture.

salmon swimming upstream in Simple Gematria equals: 294

15/6/3 cycle or 15 divided by 2 = 7.5 = 12/6/3 cycle

Smoke Signals (12/12) Movie CLIP – To Forgive Our Fathers (1998) HD   – excerpt from one of my favorite movies of all time.  I’ve shared this before but felt it was time again to revisit this wisdom.  I love my Dad so much but I know some day he will have to move on to his next great adventure without me.  I am coming to terms these days with how I will manage to be here without him.  Will I be able to forgive him for leaving me here.

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0120321/quotes

Thomas Builds-the-Fire: How do we forgive our fathers? Maybe in a dream. Do we forgive our fathers for leaving us too often, or forever, when we were little? Maybe for scaring us with unexpected rage, or making us nervous because there never seemed to be any rage there at all? Do we forgive our fathers for marrying, or not marrying, our mothers? Or divorcing, or not divorcing, our mothers? And shall we forgive them for their excesses of warmth or coldness? Shall we forgive them for pushing, or leaning? For shutting doors or speaking through walls? For never speaking, or never being silent? Do we forgive our fathers in our age, or in theirs? Or in their deaths, saying it to them or not saying it. If we forgive our fathers, what is left?

Source is internet: This says it all for me about the landscape of this world today.

By saymber