Hello to you . Hope this finds you well. I’m struggling with creativity and medication. I’ve found that when I am on strong medication I can’t think as clearly as I normally can. My drawing and writing skills are impaired. I am having to choose between mania and sedation I guess. I choose reality – sanity and if that means sedation then that’s what has to happen.
My life is challenging these days. With the ears and swaying issues I feel tired a lot of the time. I feel like I want to sleep most of the time. I haven’t heard about my referral yet. God is testing me I think!
Hello to you. Todays message from A Woman’s Spirit is really good:
What you praise you increase – Catherine Ponder
Getting trapped in negativity is far too easy. When we get stuck, we soon are overwhelmed with shame. When we’re feeling miserable, we can be certain no one else is enjoying our company either.
It may feel impossible to break out of this painful cycle. Some of us may become complacent in it, yet we recognize that some women seem to experience much more peace and joy than ourselves. What do they do that’s different? Careful observation reveals how accepting they are of others. They can be serene because they aren’t invested in how someone else lives. This is the Serenity Prayer in action.
The easiest step in becoming like these women we admire is to begin praising what we do like in others. The more we praise their positive qualities, the less we’ll focus on those parts we’d like to change. The miracle is that our inattention to the negative qualities dissipates them.
I will praise, not criticize, everyone today. It’s a decision , nothing more. My friends will benefit, but I’ll benefit even more.
Hello to you. How are you today? I hope you are well. I am thinking about how we should try to live our faith everyday not just on holidays and special occasions. When I was married that is something we figured out. You shouldn’t have to wait til your anniversary to express your love for each other. There are so many things that we do for the holidays that we should be doing all year long. We have the opportunity to live our faith every day. Live generously each day as you can.
Hello to you. Today I had an appt with a doctor at the VA about my swaying situation. He wants to persue a quest for answers through checking my ears and neurology. We brought up the fact I had been tased and want to see if that would have any impact on what’s going on. So we shall see. He’s doing a referral for me through the Elks – I hope they can help me. What pleased both my Aunt and I is that he didn’t just think tapering off medication was the only answer. He is taking the physical into consideration.
It looks like my Aunt and Uncle are interested in going to see Season 3 of The Chosen in the theatre tomorrow. It’s such a good show! By going we would be showing our support.
Hello to you. How are you? Today I got my Idaho property tax bill – $672! Not exactly thrilled about that. The other thing today is my swaying issue. I can barely walk it was so bad today. So frustrating . I have an appt on Monday about it. There is a part of me that is skeptical that the medical establishment will be able to help me. We shall see what happens. There is a part of me wondering if this was brought on by the tasering I experienced back in August. They say brain damage can be a side effect.
Hello to you. How are you? I hope well. I just had a telephone consult with my psychologist through the VA and it was pretty intense. She is a short term therapist with goal orientated treatment. I don’t know if she and I will be a good fit or not but will give it a try. She wants me to come up with a goal for treatment. The goal I am thinking of involves leaving the house more. This means leaving Link alone more and that’s hard for me. I don’t like leaving him alone a lot. We shall see what comes up. I talked to her about my swaying sensation being a problem about me doing things. She is going to forward a note about it to my nurse.
Something I’m struggling with with volunteering is driving too. May be there is something I can do that doesn’t involve a lot of driving. I will lift this up to God. I will be useful some how.
Hello to you. How are you today? Today my message has to do with reconciling what happened to me during my episode and not giving up my faith about it. When the police tazzed me like they did I screamed out for Jesus to come and help me but he didn’t come. I ended up in the hospital again. Is that what the answer was? Working through other people to help me? This is what a lot of people have said to me. I have had a crisis of faith but realize without Jesus and his people I am so alone.
I am not giving up on my faith. May be in all that is happening is a humbling I needed – to realize I can’t do this life alone and have to ask for help.
Hello to you. Yesterday was interesting. I’m grateful to my cousin for helping me navigate the Veterans Administration system. I don’t think I could have done it on my own. There are a lot of buildings and processes. My doctor had a lot of questions for me and is wanting to taper me off of one of my drugs to see if the rocking sensation subsides. We shall see. Apparently Haldol is known to have an rocking effect. I haven’t been taking it that long so not sure.
Like I said just feeling grateful that I have a support system here to help me get through what it’s taking to get some balance in my life again. We have a follow up appointment in December.
Hello to you. How are you today? I hope well. I’m still the same and so is Link – still limping but not coughing thank goodness. Have to force feed him the pill with cream cheese. What a pain lol.
I had been hearing some construction crew noises behind my house and it turns out they have completely leveled out what was my church along the canal. They removed all the plants and trees! Sigh! Changes are always happening aren’t they?
Thank you for your prayers – my dad is doing better.
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