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17 Feb 2026 Healing

February 18, 2026 by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Health, Home, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Writing and blogging

Hello to you my friend. How has your week been thus far? I have been struggling with the issues I’ve been facing for a couple years now – chronic back pain and the fullness in my ears. Monday I went to the ladies coffee for our church at Grace House and they prayed with me about it in addition to my prayers for my Uncle John and friend Roy I’ve told you about. Roy ended up having hip surgery on Sunday and from what Jeannie told me it went well.

The message on Sunday from Pastor Jason resonated with us. The message came from John:

John 9:1-7New International Version

Jesus Heals a Man Born Blind

9 As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth.2 His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”

3 “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him. 4 As long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work. 5 While I am in the world, I am the light of the world.”

6 After saying this, he spit on the ground, made some mud with the saliva, and put it on the man’s eyes.7 “Go,” he told him, “wash in the Pool of Siloam” (this word means “Sent”). So the man went and washed, and came home seeing.

The message was focusing on Jesus and not so much on ourselves. This healing was a reenactment of when Adam was formed out of soil and God breathed life into his nostrils. Something Jason brought up was why did this man who was blind by no sin of himself or his parents stay blind so long. Why did God make him wait so long? There is no clear answer other than he was blind so that Jesus may heal him like he did. I have been praying for a long time for Jesus to heal me and he hasn’t. There must be a reason and it might just be that I’m this way for the glory of God to work through me just as I am. May be if I was completely healed I would not lean on Jesus as much! I live by the motto that we don’t go through the things we do for no reason. I have been through a lot and it’s enabled me to be there for others who are facing similar circumstances. I want to be a miracle for Jesus and will continue to ask him to completely heal my body and I have to accept the answer will be yes, no or not right now.

Dear Jesus I ask you to wrap your loving arms around all those I love that are healing from surgery – Heidi, John, Roy and Cheryl are just a couple of the people I know that are recovering, I ask for you to be with our world leaders at all levels – give them your wisdom and compassion. Thank you for everything that is good and pure in this world. I love you. Amen.

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24 March 2022 Thursday

March 24, 2022 by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, books, drawing, history, Home, human rights, In the News, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Nature, photography, Politics and Government, Science (Keshe Foundation and other innovations), Social media, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging
Sunset yesterday
The struggle of sleep is real!

Hello to you. How’s your week been? I’m tired. I struggled with getting to sleep last night even with the medicine I have to try and help me. It’s comforting I guess to know I’m not alone in my experience!

The messages from A Woman’s Spirit today had to do with letting people in our lives be responsible for their own actions:

My children have a Higher Power, and it’s not me. – Carolyn White

I will focus on my life and my Higher Power today. Others’ actions are not my responsibility.

What’s hard about this message is for parents and authority figures they are put in the position of being responsible for other peoples actions. There are laws in place to help with that for authority figures in our world but not so much for the average parent! There has been a long suffering agreement that children don’t come with a users manual! Sometimes it’s really difficult to know where you end and others begin. We are so interconnected.

This morning I was thinking on last Sundays church message. How the way we deal with difficult people matters to God. This morning I reread the passage in the Bible that was used as the reference for the message. It’s in Romans:

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+12:9-21&version=NIV&interface=amp

Romans 12:9-21New International Version

Love in Action

9 Love must be sincere.(A) Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.(B) 10 Be devoted to one another in love.(C) Honor one another above yourselves.(D) 11 Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor,(E) serving the Lord.12 Be joyful in hope,(F) patient in affliction,(G)faithful in prayer.(H) 13 Share with the Lord’s people who are in need.(I) Practice hospitality.(J)

14 Bless those who persecute you;(K) bless and do not curse. 15 Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.(L) 16 Live in harmony with one another.(M) Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.[a] Do not be conceited.(N)

17 Do not repay anyone evil for evil.(O) Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone.(P)18 If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.(Q) 19 Do not take revenge,(R) my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”[b](S) says the Lord. 20 On the contrary:

“If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
    if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”[c](T)

21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

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It’s hard sometimes not to want to retaliate when we or someone we care about has been harmed in some way. From my own experience the defense mechanism is almost a reflex. It really takes a lot of self awareness and control to be able to stop yourself in difficult situations from reacting from a defensive posture. To “turn the other cheek” versus putting up fists. This message today is difficult when I think about the Ukraine and Russia. When it comes to this sort of situation, a war, how are people suppose to react when being peace loving could cost them their lives? I am praying about this question.

A lot of non-believers ask where is God? Where was God when _________ was happening to me or someone else? Why does/is God allow horrible things to happen? Sometimes I ask myself the same thing when stuff is going on. How I comfort myself is I can’t see the whole picture of this existence – but God can. God isn’t limited in years and experience like we are. God is the big picture. I think of cause and effect – there are so many pieces and parts to even just one moment….how complicated it must be to answer even the smallest of prayers. I think of saying a prayer to save a person or animals life. How many specific seemingly minute little things have to happen to answer that one prayer. How many other prayers have to go unanswered so that yours can be answered? I don’t envy Gods job!

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