3 September 2023 Why Do I Blog

Why do you blog?

Hello to you. How is your weekend? I’m pooped. I went to church and got groceries and feel like I ran a marathon! I’m so out of shape! I’m looking forward to the Tai chi exercises through the VA starting on the 11th.

I have been blogging for a long time. All the way back to MySpace and Newsvine! The main reason I started blogging was to help people and get my story out in the world. I believe if even one person, even if it’s just me, has been helped by my messages then I have completed my goal.

Malachi 3:1-5New International Version

3 “I will send my messenger, who will prepare the way before me. Then suddenly the Lord you are seeking will come to his temple; the messenger of the covenant, whom you desire,will come,” says the Lord Almighty.

But who can endure the day of his coming?Who can stand when he appears? For he will be like a refiner’s fire or a launderer’s soap. He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver; he will purify the Levites and refine them like gold and silver. Then the Lord will have men who will bring offerings in righteousness, and the offerings of Judah and Jerusalem will be acceptable to the Lord, as in days gone by, as in former years.

5 “So I will come to put you on trial. I will be quick to testify against sorcerers, adulterers and perjurers, against those who defraud laborers of their wages, who oppress the widows and the fatherless, and deprive the foreigners among you of justice, but do not fear me,” says the Lord Almighty.

1 September 2023 Feeling

How are you feeling right now?

How am I feeling right now? I’m feeling ok. Trying to have a attitude of gratitude. Some days are harder than others to do that. I constantly have a weird pulling in my ears that makes me anxious. It’s very debilitating. I have some things I listen to on YouTube that help- Relax For Awhile with Joan and Jason Stephenson are my favorites.

https://youtu.be/pJWY3Bkkaew?si=gL2ojd3iNlVvA1yR – Panic Attack Talk Down (Relax For Awhile)

https://youtu.be/YBlMI7m89Tg?si=NBprUqyNUsVBqf6E – Guided Sleep Meditation (Jason Stephenson)

Philippians 4:6 NIV – 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

31 August 2023 Daily Habit

What daily habit do you do that improves your quality of life?

The daily habit that improves my quality of life is walking. Each day I try to walk around the block even if I don’t want to. Taking a walk each each day is the one thing I have tried to consistently do. It’s not easy for me to do with the swaying issues I have going on in my head. Sometimes I feel like a shambling zombie I’m so stiff but I’m not giving up!

1 John 2:3-6

3 We know that we have come to know him if we obey his commands. 4 The man who says, “I know him,” but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him. 5 But if anyone obeys his word, God’s love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: 6 Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.

28 August 2023 What’s Going On?

Hello to you. I’ve been surfing random news from various sources and it seems like something big is building. Everything from natural disasters, bank closures, human trafficking, aliens, a really bad President – conspiracy theories about what’s happening with fires. I saw even something about Old Faithful potentially erupting. On every front we are being corralled into fear. I won’t let myself succumb to it. We’ve been through times like this so many times before. We just didn’t have the internet to feed it to us all at once from so many different angles. I don’t believe these are the end times in the way people think. I believe we are having a revelation- a great reveal. Things that were hidden are being brought to light…finally.

Revelation 3:20New International Version

20 Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.

27 August 2023 Favorite Recipe

What’s your favorite recipe?

Hello to you. I’m just back from church. I wasn’t sure if I was going to go but forced myself. I’m not having an easy time of it right now with sleep. It feels like I’m tossing and turning the whole night!

My Aunt sent me this as we love Maxine – this is so true!

One of my favorite recipes is my Moms Red Devils Food Cake. It stays so moist and tastes so good. No eggs are required either!

Easy Red Devils Food Cake

3 cups flour, 1/2 cup cocoa powder, 2 cups sugar, 2 tsp baking soda, 1 tsp salt

2 cups cold water, 1 cup oil, 2 Tbsp vinegar, 2 tsp vanilla

Mix and put in 9×13 pan bake 35-40 min at 350 degrees. Cupcakes 15-20 min.

Romans 15:13New International Version

13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

26 August 2023 Excitement

Tell us about the last thing you got excited about.

Hello to you. How are you today? I’m feeling tired. I got up several times in the night again and this was without taking the new medications. I’m so tired of this struggle with getting the right medications!

I can’t really remember the last time I was excited about something. Excitement for me really translates to gratitude for me. The last time I was really grateful was when I purchased this house. Getting it how and when I did was definitely a God thing.

Going and getting Link from my friend Erin 8 years ago was a time of excitement!

Psalm 37:4New International Version

4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

25 August 2023 City of the Future

How would you design the city of the future?

Hello there! How are you doing on this sunny Friday? Whatever you are facing today I hope you have support to get through it. Let go and let God.

Todays prompt makes me think of the Venus Project: https://www.thevenusproject.com/

The Venus Project is a non-profit organization that presents a new socio-economic model utilizing science and technology toward social betterment to achieve a sustainable civilization.

Most modern cities in the United States are not built in a sustainable way. You have to drive from the suburbs to congested areas where goods and services are available. Little to nothing is available within walking or safely bicycling distance. In my small town there are things within walking distance which makes it nice.

If I were to design the perfect city everything you would need would be within walking or bicycling distance. Each home would have a way to collect enough water for everyday use and enough electricity to not be on a power grid. Each home would be sustainable and constructed with repurposed materials like logs made of recycled plastic.

Acts 1:7-8New International Version

7 He said to them: “It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. 8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”

18 August 2023 Goals

How do you plan your goals?

Hello there, how are you? I’m doing ok. The pest control people came out this morning and took care of a large wasp nest. I feel kind of bad but more than likely they were they were the ones trying to build a nest in my weed wacker – the ones that stung me. My hand is still itchy and swollen!

The new medication, Ambien, showed up today. It will be interesting to see how my body reacts to it. It’s another bed time medication. Hopefully it won’t interfere with my getting and staying asleep.

So how do I plan my goals? I used to be much more organized and a planner – a worry wart. Now bring retired and Bipolar 1 so long I hardly plan at all! The best thing for me is my calendar. I keep organized and am able to have short term goals using it.

Jeremiah 29:11New International Version

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

11 August 2023 Influence

What change, big or small, would you like your blog to make in the world?

Hello to you. How are you? I’m just off of a video conference with my medicine doctor. We are doing some changes to accommodate for sleep and weight gain. He thinks we need to switch out the olanzapine for Haldol and he wants to add Ambien as needed at night for sleep. I keep waking up in the night. Last night it was 11, 1 and 4 am! We are still seeking the right combination.

What kind of influence do I hope for by doing this blog? My hope has always been that if I reach and help at least one person – even if it’s just me – then I have accomplished my mission! There are a lot of people in the world like me that feel alone and bereft of any kind of support. Look at what Sinead O’Connor went through while she was alive? !! Then she dies mysteriously and the world all the suddenly cares! Her story is an all too common one for people diagnosed with mental illness. Love and try to understand – be empathetic and compassionate while the person is here among the living! Don’t wait til they are gone. In many cases too soon!

1 Peter 5:7New International Version

7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

My prayers go out to the people of Maui Hawaii – https://apnews.com/article/hawaii-fires-maui-lahaina-sirens-c0f3cc5c7718bd41dd54d38479fb29b2

https://youtu.be/jQVbBD-UnWw – Relaxing plant music in Hawaii Plant Wave

Interesting article – I used to buy Dr. Bronners soap all the time:

https://www.marijuanamoment.net/dr-bronners-workers-who-received-company-funded-ketamine-therapy-coverage-report-dramatic-improvements-in-mental-health/

10 August 2023 Alternate Universe

Describe your life in an alternate universe.

Hello to you. How are you? I’m just back from my weekly prayer group and getting my blood drawn to check my Depakote levels. It was nice to be able to just drive up the road to get the blood work done instead of going all the way to Boise. Looking forward to this afternoon and helping out with a hotdog event for the church at Middle Creek Elementary School. I will be helping to serve the hot dogs.

Todays prompt provokes thoughts of a lot of “what if’s.” What if my birth mother had not taken her life- would I even be writing to you right now? I would not have met my stepmother and all her family. I wouldn’t of probably been as close to my Grandparents. Would I have ever been in the Mental Health system at all? So much of an alternate universe for me depends on the very beginning of my life and the subsequent choices I made growing up. In an alternate universe I’m pretty sure I would of had at least one child. I would probably still be married because I wouldn’t have the Bipolar diagnosis going on or if I did it would be under control.

I envision alternate universe where there would be no hunger, no poverty, clean affordable food and water for everyone, affordable shelter, clean affordable and sustainable energy to meet all our needs, flying cars with auto pilot functions, everyone would be healthier but if you did get sick, you would have access to affordable and trustworthy medical care. I think of so many science fiction movies and television shows that have healing chambers or hand held healing devices. In an alternate universe where the needs of the people were put before arms and war making – life would be great! I feel like we should be much further along in our development as a country – as a world.

Where is the Med-Bay from the movie Elysian?
Medical tricoder from Star Trek Next Generation

I still have hope in living to see the world I envision manifest into reality! Jesus was the divine physician.

Matthew 8:1-4New International Version

Jesus Heals a Man With Leprosy

8 When Jesus came down from the mountainside, large crowds followed him. 2 A man with leprosy[a] came and knelt before him and said, “Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean.”

3 Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man. “I am willing,” he said. “Be clean!”Immediately he was cleansed of his leprosy.4 Then Jesus said to him, “See that you don’t tell anyone. But go, show yourself to the priest and offer the gift Moses commanded, as a testimony to them.”