30 Mar 2026 Palm Sunday and The One With The Pool

Hello to you. How are you? I was up early after a night of lots of dreams. Dreamt a lot of shadow people but didn’t get scared this time. I had an appointment with the VA first thing this morning. I was there for a weight and ears check up. I gained a pound since my last visit which was disappointing and as I’ve mentioned before my ears didn’t respond to the antibiotic. We are going to try Flonase nasal spray and Claritin. She suspects my Eustachian tubes may be clogged and antihistamine treatment may clear them. My Aunt said she uses Flonase every night. We have similar allergy problems. She had me take a blood pressure cuff home to do a daily blood pressure check as my blood pressure was a little high. I am really disappointed we aren’t keeping her! Now I have to start over again with a new doctor next visit.

This past Sunday was Palm Sunday. We were in John 5:1-15:

John 5:1-15New International Version

The Healing at the Pool

5 Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for one of the Jewish festivals. Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda[a] and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed. [4] [b] One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to get well?”

“Sir,” the invalid replied, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me.”

Then Jesus said to him, “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk.” At once the man was cured; he picked up his mat and walked.

The day on which this took place was a Sabbath,10 and so the Jewish leaders said to the man who had been healed, “It is the Sabbath; the law forbids you to carry your mat.”

11 But he replied, “The man who made me well said to me, ‘Pick up your mat and walk.’ ”

12 So they asked him, “Who is this fellow who told you to pick it up and walk?”

13 The man who was healed had no idea who it was, for Jesus had slipped away into the crowd that was there.

14 Later Jesus found him at the temple and said to him, “See, you are well again. Stop sinning or something worse may happen to you.” 15 The man went away and told the Jewish leaders that it was Jesus who had made him well.

Whenever I hear “Do you want to be healed?” My resounding answer is “YES!” I can imagine Jesus laying his hands on me and my being completely healed.

https://youtu.be/kf6K3NbOOyg?si=kghCMC40nQllvQ2B – The Chosen – Triumphal Entry Into Jerusalem – Palm Sunday

https://youtu.be/JMj1ggINLe4?si=w2V8GPwp37mUN8A6 – The Chosen – Jesus Heals At The Pool

https://youtu.be/Qg7SQeASmMQ?si=AiaKwzBLlgONKXep – The One With The Pool – Pastor Jason Boyd

21 Mar 2026 Marie and Spot

Hello to you. I hope you are well today. It’s been a lazy Saturday. I fell asleep and dreamed of my deceased neighbor from childhood Marie and my dog Spot again. Marie was out in her backyard playing with several dogs and Spot was whining to join them. At first I lifted Spot so she could see what was going on. Marie said it was ok to let Spot in the yard so I did. Spot found a chewy bone and ate it. In the yard was a Jesus statue. I haven’t seen Marie in years! I am surprised that there wasn’t a schnauzer among the dogs – she and Wayne always had them. The one I remember was named Peppi.

I believe that all my pets that have passed will be in heaven waiting for me. What a nice dream to see an old friend again. Marie was like a mother to me in my growing up years.

19 Mar 2026 Cats and Dogs Dreams

Hello to you wherever and whenever it is that your visiting from. I have been pleasantly surprised that some of my visitors lately are from Singapore and China. My motto is if even one person needs the message I’m sharing it’s a blessing. Sometimes the message is just for me!

The past couple of days my dreams have been filled with cats and dogs. The one with dogs today was of a dog like Spot, the rat terrier I had and loved so much. She was walking with two golden puppies attached to her. I have been having dreams of Spot a lot lately. She passed away a couple of years ago so I welcome seeing her even if it’s just in a dream. The cat dreams are more random and my cats that passed, May and Amber, aren’t always in them. My Aunt recently suggested may be adopting a cat when Link is gone. So may be my subconscious is at work in the dream world about the idea. The only part of having cats I didn’t like was cat litter getting all over the place.

I have heard it said that the dream world is a bridge to heaven and when you have dreams of deceased loved ones be it animal or human it’s like a visit.

12 Mar 2026 Focus

Hello and good evening. I am writing to you to help quiet my brain before bed. I have been having good dreams since the one I told you about with sleep paralysis. This past day I dreamt about being with my ex and his brother. I really miss both of them and the in depth talks we used to have. We were good friends! The dream felt like a nice visit with them.

My thoughts tonight turn to the word focus. The context being of what I focus on gaining power in my life. I am currently focusing on losing weight and being more active. It’s going from just thinking to doing. This is a battle because of the fullness in my ears, balance and my lower back. I am hoping the Tai Chi, currently at a beginners level and walking, will gradually help me out with what is holding me back.

The other thing that holds me back in my life is my love for my dog Link. I hate leaving him alone for too long. He is going to be 12 this coming December! He’s a senior dog now and I don’t know how much longer we will have together. After him I don’t know if I will be able to have another pet. There are a lot of things I don’t do because of my responsibility as a pet owner. My little old man gets a lot of my focus.

What we focus on gains power – takes center stage of our lives. The past couple years I have been trying to put Jesus at the center but I will be honest it’s not been easy. I was a pagan for a long time. Prior to being a pagan I was a Roman Catholic for many years up until I left home. After the Catholic Church refused to acknowledge my first marriage I tried many other churches and just couldn’t find one I felt comfortable or accepted in. In the church I am currently attending, Grace Bible Church, I have found acceptance and fellowship but sometimes I feel like the chameleon tattooed on my shoulder. My ability to feel anything deeply has gone the way of my creativity. I want to feel Jesus’s love for me and sometimes I just don’t! I want to weep with the depths of his love and I just can’t. What used to come to me so easily has been reduced to this blog. I am so grateful to you who come to visit me here from all over the world which encourages me not to give up writing altogether!

Dear Jesus I come before you asking for you to heal me in my brokenness- physically, mentally and spiritually. Please show me you are present and that you love me. I ask that you make your presence known to all in this world that thirst for the living water only you can provide. Help me and others like me authentically be vessels of your spirit. Free me and others like me from the bondage of self. Amen.

10 Mar 2026 Sleep Paralysis and Shadow People

Hello to you. I’m about to try and fall asleep. I just finished watching Inferno starring Tom Hanks for free with ads on YouTube. It was pretty good.

https://youtu.be/7QpgXP1ElXA?si=4Xd66KY3q6Lgg9GC – Inferno starring Tom Hanks – free with ads

I am hoping to fall asleep and stay asleep til a reasonable time in the morning. Last night I was awakened by a sleep paralysis dream. I’ve been having them pretty often. This time I saw a shadow person and let it know I saw it. Then it came at me and was choking me. I could only cry out for my daddy and then it stopped. I chastised it for terrorizing me and my dog. I feel like it took place in my childhood home. The place seemed like a blend of worlds.

When I have these dreams I usually am in a place I know but it’s slightly different – like an alternate dimension. They are lucid dreams as I usually realize I’m dreaming and try to interact with what’s going on. I can only speak and the rest of my body can’t move. When I have these dreams Link gets upset!

Psalm 91:5-6

You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday

2 Timothy 1:7New International Version

For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid,but gives us power, love and self-discipline

14 Oct 2025 Restful Sleep

Hello to you. How is your week so far? Good I hope and if it’s not I am praying for you. I am hoping you have a good support system surrounding you to help you get through whatever you’re facing. There have been several natural disasters – namely flooding in Alaska, Mexico and Arizona and places I haven’t seen reports on. Climate change is wreaking havoc everywhere it seems. I’m glad I live in Idaho as we rarely have extreme weather.

As I write to you this evening, my thoughts are turning to the upcoming battle I am going to have tonight with the darkness – sleep. I can feel tired and turn out the lights and it’s like an invitation for my mind to start racing. It’s not as bad as it was when I was working but it still happens. I have tried different things like trying not to be on my phone so much before bed but I like to have something to listen to which means still interacting with my phone. There is a creator on YouTube named Jason Stephenson I like to listen to but sometimes after his 3 hour meditation an loud ad at the end will wake me up! The same sometimes happens when I listen to Abide audios that have scripture and spiritual messages.

Not getting good sleep causes me to get into an unhealthy pattern. I will want to sleep during the day to make up for not sleeping through the night. It’s very rare that I have dream filled and restful sleep when I’m in such a pattern. I toss and turn a lot trying to get comfortable and poor Link stirs every time I do! Something I will do sometimes is I will ask Jesus for his help in getting to sleep and that helps sometimes. Another thing that I learned long ago when I was doing yoga is to talk to each part of my body. I tell each part to relax and I usually fall asleep before I get through my whole body.

Dear Jesus I pray for all those in the world who need your help in their lives. Whether it be natural disasters or tragic loss of loved ones for whatever reason – please use your body of believers to reach them. Let the lost souls of this world see your power through your body of believers. Jesus will not be mocked!

Galatians 6:7New International Version

Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.

3 Oct 2025 Communion

Hello there. How are you? Last night I had a dream and I don’t remember a lot of it but the parts I do remember are worth sharing. The dream was about finding a church to belong to and being an outsider. Then, at the end being approached by Pope Leo with a brown circular bread with a cross in it – communion. May be this dream was my subconscious coming to terms with my recent baptism – making my commitment to the Christian church after being raised Roman Catholic. It’s been a long time since I’ve had a spiritual dream like this!

Altar wafer or communion

Luke 3:16New International Version

16 John answered them all, “I baptize you with[a]water. But one who is more powerful than I will come, the straps of whose sandals I am not worthy to untie. He will baptize you with[b] the Holy Spirit and fire

25 Sept 2025 Dreaming of Spot

Hello to you. As I write to you this evening I am remembering a vivid and very short dream I had last night with a dog I once owned named Spot. This is like the fourth or fifth dream she has been in since her crossing the rainbow bridge. The one last night was of her being very thirsty and sneaking a bite of a sandwich really fast. It was like a piece of tomato or something. She never looks exactly as she did when she was alive but I always know it’s her! So much energy! She was a rat terrier and just a beautiful dog. I miss her very much. The dreams help me feel like a part of her is still with me.

Our Spotty Girl

Revelation 21:1-4New International Version

A New Heaven and a New Earth

21 Then I saw “a new heaven and a new earth,”[a] for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away,and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City,the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes.There will be no more death’[b] or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

22 July 2025 Spirit

Hello to you. I hope your week is going well. Last night I dreamt a lot and I can only remember one of the dreams. It was about being with a young boy who reminded me of my ex husbands youngest brother named Cole. He had lost his father and his father wanted to comfort his son and decided to use me to do it. He came into my body which in past dreams used to scare me awake – but not this time. I reached out to the boy and hugged him and gave the fathers spirit peace. I could hear the sound I have heard before in what I call channeling dreams. I don’t know why I dreamt about that but it was interesting! It’s been awhile since I’ve had a dream about spirits.

John 14:16-17New International Version

16 And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him,because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be[a] in you.

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15 July 2025 Feeling Better

Hello to you. Hope this finds you well. It’s another hot day here in Idaho as I write to you – 91 degrees! I walked about a mile this morning after I got up. I’m trying to walk every day and offset the side effects of the medication I’m taking. Both the Depakote and Olanzapine are known to contribute to weight gain. I need to lose about 100 lbs! I’m tired of carrying all this extra weight.

I wanted to share a praise about how I felt yesterday. I haven’t felt that good in over a month! I finally got relief from anxiety! The Olanzapine (generic Zyprexa) has been making all the difference. The side effect of drowsiness has lead me to restful naps and sleep at night. I hope this lasts!

Oh! I had a very vivid short dream about mosquitos last night. I dreamt some really big ones landed on me and my trying to stop one that had a body that was like a syringe from some man’s neck. When I went to flick it away, some of the fluid in its body got in my mouth – that woke me up! It was like a genetically modified insect. Weird dream! I wonder where that came from?!! I think it’s from hearing about huge mosquitos at the detention center in Florida.

A prayer:

Dear Lord Jesus I pray for this world and all of the life within it. I pray for all the sick, the hungry, the poor and those who are lost in this world because they don’t know you or refuse to surrender to your loving care. I pray for all the lives human beings share this world with and that there can be an end to cruelty and neglect of our fellow animal brothers and sisters. I ask all this in your precious name Jesus. Amen.