Hello to you! How are you today? It’s really hot here today. I’m about ready for summer to be over! I’m sure I’m not alone with that sentiment.
Well yesterday was a day of sudden changes and today is about forgiveness. Sometimes people do things that they regret. I had to pray a lot about this…. Let God. I could have chosen to shut the door on this person but I don’t think that’s what God wanted me to do . I cannot ignore the red flags and warnings but something tells me these are growing pains. The person in question has been through a lot of troubles too and made mistakes. I have been through a lot too, made mistakes . What if everyone had shut the door on me ? I try to keep that in mind when I am dealing with these sorts of things.
Hello again, it’s Friday here as I write to you. I can’t believe how fast the weeks and days go by now. For awhile there it was like time was standing still but now it is definitely not.
I was stumped for a topic again and a friend suggested talking about dating and relationships with people on a different frequencies. A few years ago I took a Quantum Touch class which deals with energy healing. Part of the training was about the concepts of resonance and entrainment. We were taught techniques to increase our energy level before helping someone. The person we were working with would either rise to our energy level or there was the potential, if we weren’t vigilant, to become entrained into the lower energy levels of who we were working with.
So as far as relationships go, we all operate at different frequencies. Some people operate on a very high frequency. You know the kind of people that walk into a room and light the place up. The other people in the room will either rise to the higher energy vibration or they will distance themselves. I think it’s important in relationships that there is a balance where one person isn’t dictating where the energy level is going to be all the time. A give and take, a balance. This goes for all relationships not just a spouse and or significant other.
An image that just came to mind was of two magnets. The are either strongly attracted and will slap together or strongly repel from each other. In the latter case, you will be able to feel the magnetic field resisting the two sides joining. There s nothing you can do to make them stay together except may be connect them somehow. To think of forcing a magnet together is kind of like forcing a failed marriage to work I think.
“entrainment” in the English Ordinal system equals 133
“resonance” in the English Ordinal system equals 94
“opposites attract ” in the English Ordinal system equals 217 (I thought it was interesting the same numbers for completely different words came up)
“magnetic fields” in the English Ordinal system equals 127
Hello to you it’s morning yet here as I write. As I look out my bedroom window, it is ashen gray and the sun is trying to shine. It’s been like this for days now. The air quality alert is red so I don’t plan on being outside much today.
Today is the official closing date on us selling our house. Yesterday they sent out a mobile notary. I was grateful they did that so I could sign the documents and get them back to Texas today for my husband to sign. It was all bittersweet. I am even having trouble writing about it right now. I wish we had been able to do the closing together but that’s the past.
Like the ending of our marriage, this is anti-climactic and is just happening . Our marriage happened, We bought a house and lived in it for 12 years. We made lots of memories together and I don’t want to just act like nothing happened. All this said, to keep myself from losing my shit inside, I have to in a way act like nothing is happening. A part of me wonders if this is what my husband has had to do too so he doesn’t lose it.
“closing” in the English Ordinal system equals 79 (all vices in check in a no cycle)
“together” in the English Ordinal system equals 98 (no cycle for eternity and or racetrack of life)
I have to believe that all of this has been happening for a reason and everything is going be ok for both of us.
Hello to you. I’ve been away for quite awhile again. Lately there have been many things going on in my life that have required my attention on a personal, physical, emotional and spirit level while I am trying to heal from a recent fall. I won’t burden you with the details. This morning my husband and I can’t sleep again even with it being quiet and dark. A lot on our minds, bodies and spirits these days. I believe it is in our house and outside of our houses that affect us on every level – directly and indirectly by the very nature of how our systems are connected as living organisms.
One of the things on my mind right now is how to be there for my family and my friends and still have something left for me. In my current condition I am not able to be there for those I love in the same capacity I have been able to in the past and I kind of beat myself up for it! Am I being a bad friend? A bad daughter? A bad wife? Then comes the “shouldn’ing” all over myself which doesn’t help! So I ran a couple things to share with those of you who this might resonate with – those who might be feeling/going through this right now and have need of a different way to see it:
“Being there” = 93/98/91/76/117/133/146
9 = 42 = self (a “no” self as 5 also equals 42 but I think of this as the feeling/five senses/physical self) 3 = 56 = 42/52 (“self earth”)
98 = together 91= spirit 76 = humans 33= the 46 = body
Being there for a friend = 189
1=34 =one 8=49=alive 9=42=self (add 34 + 49 + 42 = 125 and 25 = all, “a all” = 26 which = God)
Sometimes we can’t be there like we want to for a friend or how a friend might expect us to be so we can pray for them to the God/Gods of our understanding. If you don’t like that – just even having a loving/positive thought for them. It is different for each of us. Sometimes we just can’t be there for someone like they think they want or need from us. An energy greater than ourselves must step in our place for them. For many, that is God.
2=58=feeling 5=42=self 3=56=light (add 58 + 42 + 56 = 156) (56’s I have found, why, light out and there are more but these are a couple)
156/128/141/128/141…. = a why a man a garbage? a why a man energy exchange.
For me personally, for the past several months, years…may be most of my life I have questioned my worth, my value….am I garbage? Did God make a mistake by making me? What I have had to do is find a way to make peace within myself so I don’t hate myself all the time. People like my husband, family, my friends all seem to love and care about me but if I don’t love myself, their energies are wasted on me. One of the hardest things I’ve ever done, still do, is tell the person in the mirror I love them.
As I age, that girl looking back at me has changed but when I look in her eyes, that little girl is still looking back at me and I can’t stop loving her. The God I know has changed through the years – stripped down now to energetic form. Why would God expend all that energy to make something and not love it? The human world is full now of creations cast aside, seeming mistakes. Are they really mistakes if God is in all of us? Made all of us? Who decides but God?! These are the questions of our time.
We have all been given a set of clothes to wear in this life and underneath them is energy, children of God. Sometimes our inner child gets lost and just wants to be comforted. We cast about in this world to get some relief from the pain that child may be enduring and we can’t find it! I have gone through that process so many times in my life and it was due in great part to a black, white and tan cocker spaniel named Sam that I found out nothing can fill the void that is created by loss but God. Isn’t it ironic that God turned around is dog. Yes, people living and dead in my life have taught me a great deal of life but with Sam there were no conditions.
I will close for now. I am typing one-handed so can’t do this so often. I hope something here is what you were looking for and or needed today.
IMG_5751 11 July 2019 proof of wasps taking care of the pecan tree out back Alvarado TX
11 July 2019 – cropped version of picture showing what’s going on. I felt bad for the caterpillar but to save it I would have had to kill the wasp. Our pecan tree has almost been completely taken over by caterpillars this summer. From what I have personally seen with my own eyes, Wasps help take care of the trees and I’ve been seeing less of them over the past few years.
IMG_5752 11 July 2019 proof of wasps taking care of the pecan tree out back Alvarado TX
*Seeing this today was like they were showing me, “Hey, look what my job is! I have value, I have worth!” We used to be mean to the wasps until I took the time to learn their job in nature actually is. From what I have personally witnessed, their purpose for existence includes trying to keep our trees healthy. Since trees are basically the lungs of the planet, I think that’s a pretty important job! I have read conflicting information about wasps online. My personal experience is they are helpers and teachers. What came through in the numbers is a pecan tree and a teacher have a pattern in common. What I believe is we all, whatever form, are teachers, students, messages and receivers of those messages. I believe everyone has value in one way or another. It’s not always easy to understand what we are trying to convey to each other. I don’t think we should give up trying!
133 – “don’t give up”
Wasp – 59/84/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140…….
*remember, these are only just a few of the meanings of these numbers that I have found for myself and am sharing with you.
152’s – amber tree resin, positive drama, positive being,
pecan tree – 87/114/128/141/128/141……….
87- person, truth, roots, justice
pecan – 39/98/91/76/117/133/146
98 – killer bees (I found this value trying to figure out why people may have a fear of bees/wasps. Remember those old Killer bee television shows and movies? When I was a very small girl I can remember drinking a can of soda without realizing a bee was in the can and I got stung. I was pretty freaked out! It wasn’t the bee’s fault but a “seed of fear” was planted that I had to actively overcome through time. I did this through trying to understand them instead of thinking they were all bad. The same principle I have used towards other insects and life forms to include people. It’s not easy to do but for me personally, it has been worth trying to do.)
76 – humans
117’s – nurture, “I’m sorry,” dissection, projecting, “broken earth,” humility, upbringing, occupation, statement, cultivated, heartbroken, water falls (If you look at a pecan it looks like a human brain in the shell and they are considered a healthy food for the brain). http://www.alzheimersweekly.com/2016/11/pecans-provide-brain-boost.html
tree – 48/109/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150/140/158/125/134/150……….
To be 