Category: Writing and blogging

30 August 2021 Being Happy

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Health, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Writing and blogging

Hello to you. How are you doing as you visit me here today ? It’s morning as I write to you . The mornings are getting cooler and I can feel fall is on its way!

This morning my thoughts turn to the concept of being happy . What does being happy even mean ? It’s such a fleeting thing!! Even if you have everything you want and need in this life will you be truly happy?

Some people seem to come by happiness so easily! They always have a smile, easy to laugh , they are easy to please and just have an air of contentment around them. I want to be more like these people again. I used to be that kind of person and then 2020 happened !

What does being happy mean to me now ? We are already almost through 2021 and I’m still figuring it out! I am getting fleeting glimpses of what it means for me . When my ex and I used to be down we would do something I need to get back in the habit of doing – mental gratitude list . We would ask each other “what are you grateful for today ?” So many things to be grateful for ! Could gratitude be a pathway to happiness ?

What am I grateful for today ? That I have the privilege of writing this blog, my health, Link, my family and friends , thankful for a God that answers my prayers – so much more !

27 August 2021 Sentience

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Spirituality and Religion, Writing and blogging

Hello to you. How are you today ? I’m doing well. This morning I had a routine that actually worked for me and I feel pretty good. Even with waking up in the night !

This morning my thoughts turn to sentience . I have long wondered if the earth could even be God! What if each planet was a sentient being ? I know that a little far fetched but thinking about what is possible is it really so out there ?

When I think about this I’m thinking about how the earth functions and how much alike our functions are to the earth. The earth breathes, sweats, relieves pressure, has storms …..so many things like humans and has eyes everywhere ! Almost every living species on the planet can see or feel! I wonder if by having us and countless other species that is how the earth keeps from going insane! Just some stuff to think about!

How about all these planets that have suddenly appeared like they were hiding in plain sight ? I don’t think it’s a coincidence .

https://api.nationalgeographic.com/distribution/public/amp/science/article/18-earth-size-planets-found-hiding-in-plain-sight

24 August 2021 Feelings

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Uncategorized, Writing and blogging

Hello again. How are you doing? It’s chilly this morning! I am not sure I’m ready for cooler temperatures just yet!

Feelings…….how reliable are they? When I listen to people like Joyce Meyer, she often discounts them . As a person that has lived 53 years as a really sensitive person or an empath I have relied on feelings. I have oftentimes connected feelings to the voice of intuition – the “still, small voice.” Have I been mislead all this time ? Are feelings really that unreliable ?

For the past couple of years I’ve been trying to put my life back together. The biggest stumbling block has been the feeling of fear . I really want to overcome it and get back in touch with the part of me that is confident. I want to feel sure about things again.

Drawing for today

22 August 2021 Simplicity

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Mental Health, Writing and blogging

Hello and how are you ? It’s Saturday morning as I write to you . I tried to get Link on a walk but he didn’t want to go. So I went on a walk by myself and got a couple laps in. We got a little rain. Just enough to mess up my car and nearly erase my chalk drawings!

So my mind is on simplicity this morning. I am thinking of “the little way.” It’s not the big grand gestures we can do that make this world a better place. Often it’s the barely perceptible. People just being themselves! I used to try and do so much more but I wore myself out ….I got broken . Hopefully some day soon I will find a little way I can give back to the world that gives me so much!

“Simplicity ” in the English Ordinal system equals 135 – one yes no May be existence for all the senses

Drawing for today
A project I did with my cousin at a sip and paint gathering

20 August 2021 Good TV

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Television, Writing and blogging

Hello there! How are you today? I am doing better now that I walked a couple of miles. It’s a beautiful day. It’s a perfect 72 degrees out – nice day!!

So last night we binge watched an Amazon prime tv series called The Tick. Before that it was The Boys. I like tv shows about superheroes. The only shame is I can tell you about the shows but unless you have Amazon prime you can’t see them ! The Boys was good because it was about the ugly side to superheroes and the only people, often victims of collateral damage , strong enough to take them down . I like Carl Urban and he’s one of the stars . The Tick is fun because it’s so far fetched you can’t take it seriously. The guy who is The Tick sounds like the character Plankton from Spongebob Squarepants . Hopefully there will be more good tv shows after I finish these!

18 August 2021 Rested

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Health, Writing and blogging

Hello to you . How are you ? Are you feeling rested? I hope so. Lately I have been feeling like a SIMS video game character that just can’t get my energy bar to full! There was a cheat you could used called a Rejuvenator. All you had to was put your SIM in it for a few seconds and all the bars reset. Some days I wish that was real! There is such a fine balance between protein, sugars and sleep.

Drawing for today

13 August 2021 Anniversary

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Television, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello! How are you ? I’m doing ok.

Today is my service anniversary. If I was still on active duty it would be my 35th year anniversary ! It’s hard to believe how much time has gone by ! The thing I miss is the comradeship. There were a lot of good people I worked with over my 16 years of service . I was stationed at Travis Afb CA, Bitburg ABS Germany, Falcon Afb CO, HQ Space Command Peterson Afb CO, Patrick Afb FL. All pretty good assignments ! I would have to say my favorite place was Europe .

Remembering my past

12 August 2021 Duality

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing, Writing and blogging

Hello and good morning to you . How are you ? I am doing ok. I fixed myself some breakfast this morning after the morning walk. Sometimes it’s hard to get motivated to cook for myself. I guess I’m not really cooking just for myself – Link enjoys what I cook too !

I was thinking about duality. Most everything in known existence has more than one side; more than one way to look at things. The same can be said for a person. Everyone has a light and shadow side – a positive and a negative side . Which side we choose to focus on determines how we feel about that person. I often choose to focus on the positive side but sometimes that can leave me open for attack – vulnerable . I want to believe the best in people!

Drawing for today

11 August 2021 Learning

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Mental Health, trust, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you in your where and when. How are you ? I am having kind of a rough morning. Words have power . Sometimes you can think you are safe in saying something a certain way and learn later that it hurt someone. I never mean to hurt anyone with my words here!

This blog is a place I’ve had as an outlet for many years now and I guess I’m still learning how to use it !

10 August 2021 Beauty

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Writing and blogging

Hello to you! How are you ? It’s a nice day and I’m out on the porch with Link enjoying it. He is mainly focused on the squirrel that keeps coming to visit !

I am thinking about the subject of beauty. I have been called beautiful lately but I don’t believe it! I have gained a lot of weight and don’t think its attractive . So who do I believe ?! They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder . May be if I start looking at myself through the loving eyes that say I’m beautiful I will believe it !

After all what is more important ? To be beautiful on the outside or on the inside? I think if your beautiful on the inside it shines out ! I will keep focused on making sure I shine on the inside .