15 November 2021 Glow

November 15, 2021November 15, 2021 by saymber, posted in history, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you how are you? It’s Monday again. My Monday is gray and overcast. In a little while I have to drive to my therapist appointment. It will be good for me to get out and talk to another human being.

We had a small victory here. If you will recall from a few posts ago I had bought a Djembe drum. Well turns out it had wood eating insects in it!! Well one of my new Meetup friends suggested I put it in a bag and freeze it. If worked! I could send it back but I am kind of attached to it now. When I look at the little instrument it reminds me that I too have flaws and imperfections but am still useful to God.

The times I feel the most useful is when I’m feeling the “glow.” It’s that warm feeling in the center of my chest when I’m right where and when I’m supposed to be. When I feel that feeling it emanates through my whole body. Most times it comes when I’m expressing true emotions…..stuff of the spirit. When I’m talking with others about real things….about God. When I’m in that space I’m not worried about the world I’m living in….what I’ve left undone.

Sometimes this world feels like the story of Mary and Martha:

Luke 10:38-42New International Version

At the Home of Martha and Mary

³⁸As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha^(A) opened her home to him. ³⁹She had a sister called Mary,^(B) who sat at the Lord’s feet^(C)listening to what he said. ⁴⁰But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care^(D) that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”

⁴¹“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried^(E) and upset about many things,⁴²but few things are needed—or indeed only one.^[a]^(F) Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”

Busy busy busy……our world is so busy that we miss what is important. We miss what is right in front of us. We miss an opportunity to glow. In the end what is it that remains of us ? Is it what we did or how and who we loved?

What makes you glow?

20 August 2021 Good TV

August 20, 2021 by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Television, Writing and blogging

Hello there! How are you today? I am doing better now that I walked a couple of miles. It’s a beautiful day. It’s a perfect 72 degrees out – nice day!!

So last night we binge watched an Amazon prime tv series called The Tick. Before that it was The Boys. I like tv shows about superheroes. The only shame is I can tell you about the shows but unless you have Amazon prime you can’t see them ! The Boys was good because it was about the ugly side to superheroes and the only people, often victims of collateral damage , strong enough to take them down . I like Carl Urban and he’s one of the stars . The Tick is fun because it’s so far fetched you can’t take it seriously. The guy who is The Tick sounds like the character Plankton from Spongebob Squarepants . Hopefully there will be more good tv shows after I finish these!

5 May 2020 Uncomfortable Silence

May 5, 2020May 6, 2020 by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, drawing, Exploring numeric value of words in English language, Health, history, Home, human rights, In the News, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Movies, Music, Television, Veteran Affairs, Writing and blogging

Hello to you. How are you doing today? Hopefully you are doing well.

Something that comes to mind this morning is the phrase uncomfortable silence. As I write, I’ve got an alternative station I found that I like, 103.7 fm on as background noise. I’m getting to be one of those kind of people that has to have the sound on in my world. That thing called comfortable silence is uncomfortable for me and it never used to be.

This radio used to belong to my brother-in-law Todd – still useful!

My mother-in-law used to follow ratings for television shows. I seem to remember her talking about CSI was one that always had high ratings. What was behind that a certain demographic, usually older Americans, put the show on as background noise even if they weren’t watching it. I though that was funny at the time until this situation of having to stay home alone more! I’m becoming one of those people!

So today I give thanks for local programming and the radio stations that keep the world interesting for me. Right now I don’t have access to streaming services without paying for it. I’m trying Amazon Prime video and took a look at Patrick Melrose yesterday. I couldn’t get through the first episode. It was hard to see Benedict Cumberbatch being such a convincing addict. I much prefer seeing him as Sherlock Holmes (minus the addict part) and Dr. Strange! There are some other interesting shows to check out whilst I work on my afghan.

I find myself going a bit stir crazy staying in the house so I’ll meander out for a walk. This isn’t such a bad thing as I gained some weight during my hospital stay. I’m starting to remember why one can lose your mind a bit being trapped in the house. In the past, it was just because of extremes of weather. I can remember being in a shelter in Mississippi during a hurricane and how tough that was. I was in a shelter with a bunch of other people and it was dark and even smelly at times. We ate peanut butter and crackers in the dark. As tough as that was, there was an end in sight. With this virus and containment, there doesn’t seem to be a definitive end. I understand better why there are protesters in different placing demanding things get opened back up. We are social creatures and are made to do stuff besides staying at home.

I wonder if this is the plants way of healing itself? For all the bad things that have happened and tragedy, good things have been happening for the planet. The biggest thing is a reduction in air pollution! I wonder how can we keep that going once life starts to resume it’s course?

https://nypost.com/2020/04/07/3-ways-the-coronavirus-is-a-boon-to-the-environment/

First drawing with markers – thinking of breaking through barriers in my life.

“a uncomfortable silence” in the English Ordinal system equals 213 – (ironically month and day I was born!)