Category: Bipolar life

24 August 2021 Feelings

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Uncategorized, Writing and blogging

Hello again. How are you doing? It’s chilly this morning! I am not sure I’m ready for cooler temperatures just yet!

Feelings…….how reliable are they? When I listen to people like Joyce Meyer, she often discounts them . As a person that has lived 53 years as a really sensitive person or an empath I have relied on feelings. I have oftentimes connected feelings to the voice of intuition – the “still, small voice.” Have I been mislead all this time ? Are feelings really that unreliable ?

For the past couple of years I’ve been trying to put my life back together. The biggest stumbling block has been the feeling of fear . I really want to overcome it and get back in touch with the part of me that is confident. I want to feel sure about things again.

Drawing for today

23 August 2021 Upload

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life

Hello there! How are you ? I hope life is treating you well. This morning I am thinking of the new show I found to watch on Amazon prime. It’s called Upload. So far it’s about a young man who died in a suspicious crash and has been uploaded into a heaven like digital afterlife. It has glitches and imperfections. I don’t know if I would want to live in such a place for all eternity !

Drawing for today – upload

Results

“People ” in the English Ordinal system equals 69

“Upload” in the English Ordinal system equals 69

I thought these results were pretty interesting !

22 August 2021 Simplicity

by saymber, posted in Bipolar life, Mental Health, Writing and blogging

Hello and how are you ? It’s Saturday morning as I write to you . I tried to get Link on a walk but he didn’t want to go. So I went on a walk by myself and got a couple laps in. We got a little rain. Just enough to mess up my car and nearly erase my chalk drawings!

So my mind is on simplicity this morning. I am thinking of “the little way.” It’s not the big grand gestures we can do that make this world a better place. Often it’s the barely perceptible. People just being themselves! I used to try and do so much more but I wore myself out ….I got broken . Hopefully some day soon I will find a little way I can give back to the world that gives me so much!

“Simplicity ” in the English Ordinal system equals 135 – one yes no May be existence for all the senses

Drawing for today
A project I did with my cousin at a sip and paint gathering

20 August 2021 Good TV

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Television, Writing and blogging

Hello there! How are you today? I am doing better now that I walked a couple of miles. It’s a beautiful day. It’s a perfect 72 degrees out – nice day!!

So last night we binge watched an Amazon prime tv series called The Tick. Before that it was The Boys. I like tv shows about superheroes. The only shame is I can tell you about the shows but unless you have Amazon prime you can’t see them ! The Boys was good because it was about the ugly side to superheroes and the only people, often victims of collateral damage , strong enough to take them down . I like Carl Urban and he’s one of the stars . The Tick is fun because it’s so far fetched you can’t take it seriously. The guy who is The Tick sounds like the character Plankton from Spongebob Squarepants . Hopefully there will be more good tv shows after I finish these!

18 August 2021 Rested

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Health, Writing and blogging

Hello to you . How are you ? Are you feeling rested? I hope so. Lately I have been feeling like a SIMS video game character that just can’t get my energy bar to full! There was a cheat you could used called a Rejuvenator. All you had to was put your SIM in it for a few seconds and all the bars reset. Some days I wish that was real! There is such a fine balance between protein, sugars and sleep.

Drawing for today

16 August 2021 Energy and Emotions

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing

Hello to you how are you today ? I hope life is treating you well and if it’s not that it will get better.

My thoughts turn today to energy and how energy affects emotions . When I am feeling full of energy my mood usually correlates. I usually feel upbeat and positive . Today I feel like I keep trying to charge my battery and it doesn’t work . Kind of like a cell phone with a bad battery. You keep putting the phone on the charger but it just won’t hold the charge!

I used to be a energetic person but now I just want to sleep all the time ! It’s an effort to force myself out to exercise . I will have to pray about this .

14 August 2021 Lonely

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, Mental Health

Hello to you ! How are you today? I am feeling lonely today. I tried walking a bunch of laps around the block but just can’t seem to shake this feeling ! Sometimes it’s hard to enjoy your own company . You can’t escape yourself lol.

The place I go that helps me not feel so lonely is my front porch. Sitting there helps me feel connected to the world. There are the neighbors, trees, birds, squirrels and insects. All sorts of life forms “doing stuff.”

When I am feeling like this I am reminded of what life was like off my medication. I always felt like I was being watched and never alone . A part of me misses that feeling. I wish I could have that feeling still taking my medication . Was it God I was close to during those times ? I wonder .

Colors of the day