Tag: Blue October Fear

2 Nov 2026 Song

by saymber, posted in Art and Poetry, Bipolar life, drawing, history, Mental Health, Music, Politics and Government, Spirituality and Religion, Veteran Affairs

What’s a song that changed your life?

Hello to you. Today has been good. I went to the Grace House this afternoon for fellowship with ladies that go to Grace. They are so sweet! I was late but that didn’t matter. I’m always glad when I meet with these wonderful ladies.

Today’s prompt is hard for me to answer. The artist that changed my life was David Bowie but there isn’t just one song he sang that affected me. I would say all of what David was affected me in one way or another. He was someone I could relate to with his being androgynous. When I was growing up I was often mistaken for being a guy – mainly my teenage years because I always had short hair and was athletic and thin. I used to spend hours doing drawings of David. My first crush was on a guy that looked like David! I used to spend hours singing along to his songs. I had many of his albums. I was allowed to have one poster on my bedroom wall and it was of David! David’s death was very hard on me. His death was like that of losing a family member.

This picture is close to the one I had

Music had been the soundtrack of my life. At each phase there have been songs to accompany it. For example during one of my hospital stays I was introduced to Blue October and their song Fear. When I think of that hospital stay, I think of that song:

https://youtu.be/Q3b0-i1T8Hk?is=65Rs7NVxtH-VkHYh – Fear – Blue October

During my time in Florida I went to Celebrate Recovery that was held in the Presbyterian Church I was attending. We would sing Christian songs and one of my favorites was God of Wonders:

https://youtu.be/TTXBLspw_Z0?is=S9LiT3ELnxK7gxeF – God of Wonders – Paul Baloche

I want to close this post with a prayer for our upcoming elections. Here is a prayer I found:

Dear Lord, thank You that we have government representatives who believe Your truth. Remind them to seek Your guidance as they make decisions that affect our country and world. Send them godly wisdom and good counselors. And give election candidates the strength to choose integrity in both their campaigns and their terms in office.

https://www.worldvision.org/christian-faith-news-stories/6-ways-pray-country-during-election

28 April 2020 Invisible guardians at the Gate to my Soul

by saymber, posted in Health, Home, Leading Life by Example, Mental Health, Spirituality and Religion, trust, Veteran Affairs

Hello to you wherever and whenever you are as you visit here.  I just wanted to write a note to let those who might have wondered where I went to.  My blog kind  of has been getting put on the back burner with life stuff.  I’m sure anyone who blogs or has life going on with the latest stuff we have going on as a world can relate.  There have have been more important things going on and stuff like this is usually the first to get left behind.

Instead of focusing on what has gone wrong the past couple of months in my life I’ll focus on on the most important thing – what I learned that has helped me.

I was recently in a treatment facility and I am grateful for it because I have finally come to realize what my husband and others have been trying to tell me – in order for me to be able to function/operate in the world I’m in, I have to be on medication to help me do that.  I have resisted and fought against that concept for the longest time and after everything I went through the past couple of months, I have realized resisting is against my best interest.  I have had to do say those words a lot lately, and it might be too late in some cases, “You were right, I was wrong, please forgive me.”

I am a very porous, spiritual empath and unmedicated, my gifts are so strong I can’t function in the “real world.”  The treatment plan I have isn’t being overly medicated so that my gifts are completely surpressed, but enough so that I have the clarity I was lacking…..the filter….the invisible guardian at the gate to my soul.   The greatest guardian besides the God of my understanding, is turning out to be Lithium.  I don’t like some of the side effects but they are minimal in light of most other options before me.

Anyhew – just wanted to share a couple thoughts in case anyone out there was still following my blog here.  I hope something I’ve shared here will resonate with someone today and be helpful.

My prayers are with everybody right now and thanks to all those I’ve dealt with personally and those I haven’t on the front lines of all the crisis we have as a shared world right now.   Anyone reading this that is having difficulty – please know you are a blessing to someone even if it’s not immediately obvious.  Be a light – let your light keep shining even if it’s only on a dimmer switch!