Hello – it’s good morning from here as I write to you. I’m listening to Astravert which is helping with some of the anxiety I had this morning. I tried the Hydroxyzine as my doctor recommended last night and I’m not sure about it. We will see! I hate the getting to know you period when it comes to trying new medications! My body is really sensitive. It didn’t make me sleepy like most antihistamines do. My Aunt said she reacted the same way on it. I didn’t sleep very well last night.
The sun is starting to shine through my front windows….it’s a new day. Feels good. I’m sitting on my little life raft with my special boy Link and not sure what today will bring. I’m trying to stay in a space of gratitude. The sketchbooks came yesterday. Turns out they are real small lol! Oh well they will get used. Part of me wishes I had ordered the tshirts so I would have something to paint.
I wanted to mention that last night I was happy to see New Baroque on his channel and he seemed to be doing well. It seemed like whatever happened got worked out. At least I hope so!
“Fellow travelers are you weary? Have the torments of this day made you teary? Wipe your eyes. Don’t believe the lies. Stay in the fight don’t lose your light.”
Hello to you. There are updates to my post this morning! Well turns out my Aunt didn’t have her knee surgery after all! There are no hospital beds in the Treasure Valley (that’s what they call the area we live in). I can’t believe they waited til the day of her surgery to tell her! They have no idea how much she’s been dreading this. Anyhew she is fine with it and just looking at the delay as Gods will. I can stop worrying !
I went to my medicine doctor today and we decided to try a different anti anxiety medication. He is having me try an antihistamine called Hydroxyzine. He was concerned that I had a panic attack Tuesday and that the Zyprexa just made it worse! So continuing with the Lithium for the Bipolar and trying something new for anxiety.
This morning I found out something upsetting in the Twitch community. A streamer I’ve been following, New Baroque, a violinist, is having to take a break from chatting because he’s getting bullied on and off stream! If you have ever seen one of his streams it’s just shocking anyone would be mean to him! Nick is one of the nicest people on Twitch! Yesterday I watched another popular streamer I follow, Barnacles, have a bit of a meltdown after there was an intense discussion about religion and he was worried he had offended one his favorite moderators who is a Christian. Turns out she seemed to leave only because her internet was flaking out! Barnacles was gutted and his stream was abruptly cut short. Being a streamer – heck just social media – can be brutal! If you have a heart it’s hard to take some things. So far I have not experienced any bullying or trolls on my streams – thank God!
Hello to you how are you in your today? I hope we’ll. This morning I had to ask for a little extra help….mornings are just rough. I asked the Holy Spirit to be with me and after I asked I truly felt his presence. I felt a warmth emanating from my chest. Like I was saying on my Twitch stream yesterday – the Holy Spirit is real and you can have a personal relationship you just have to ask.
I’ve really been using Twitch lately as a tool to help myself help others. It’s kind of like chairing an AA meeting of one (sometimes) and sharing your experience, strength and hope. For a long time I’ve felt that even if I reach one person, even if it’s just myself sometimes then I’ve done well. A lot of times I get on to stream and there is only one viewer! Lately there have been a couple views on the videos after I do them which means a lot. I noticed that Twitch only keeps a couple weeks worth of videos.